nightmare

This is my dream journal. I will be recording my experiences i have in my wierd mind here. enjoy!

Well I had two nightmares last night, they weren't really that scary if it was real life I probably would of laughed. When I was younger my brain use to f*** with me and I got what was either a shit ton of FA's or walking up hallucinations. So yeah I had woken up and I could see in my window a dead woman who was alive, if that makes sense. But I remembered about what happened when I was a kid and I got quite scared because I did not want it to happen again because it put a lot of strain on my younger life and I didn't want to tell anyone. Thankfully I sort of knew it was a dream but I did'nt get lucid. I then woke up again to find a evil Shrek at my window, yeah I know strange but this time I actually opened the window and tried to grab him. It's important to note that he had a real evil laugh on and never looked at me until the end. So yeah that was it I never thought I would have a false awakening because it just sounded so un likely, but now I will reality check every time I wake up. I really hope that these hallucinations/FA don't come back for good because I enjoyed the 6 odd years when they weren't in my life.

So I'm with Bone (guess what....she's blonde) and I realize I can see with my eyes closed. We're talking, and I'm just doing things with ease. I can visualize everything around me like Neo did when he was blind in the real world. (in the third one....I know, it sucked but whatever) So I'm doing all of this stuff, and she touches my hands. I notice her hands are super soft, and I practically melt. I told her how soft mine are and she started rubbing them. We, walked off, and eventually I cam across (forgot her name, knew her in Jr. High she's blonde as well)

She grabbed my hand, and it was just as soft as Bone's. I told her that it was rare meeting girls with hands this soft back to back. I told her I could hold hands with someone like her for hours, and she let me. We strolled off outside, and she was heading to a her car. She let go and ran off to a red convertible, that was missing part of it's back. I tried running and jumping on, but when I landed on the back, I fell off when she stomped on the gas. I landed on my back, and she put the car in reverse. She moved all the way to about where my chest was at, and I started yelling "hey stop!". I started moving back, and she started spinning out. Dirt was flying up on both sides, and I couldn't move. I looked up at some guy who was near by and told him to yell at her so I don't get ran over, and I kept yelling and trying to move. I was going no where, and just waiting on her to put it back in reverse, and kill me, but I woke up.

I had a nightmare similar to this when I was little (like 4 or 5) I was out in the drive way, and some red car was about to run me over. I laid down flat, to get in between the wheels, but the floor of the car had a multitude of buzz saws spring from it. It was moving slowly towards me, and I couldn't move.

12.11.2012

Sivason Makes a Movie and Large Deku-like Tree (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This whole dream is a reflection of my meditation and concepts I learned in the yoga class, or at least the dream trying to attempt the associations through that.

And it could mean personal stuff as well, but I'm not really good at interpreting that much.

Sivason makes a movie that involved a lot of abstract techniques in eradicating questionable entities around this really really big tree.

I reminded me of the Deku Tree from Ocarina of time, but this tree was VERY big. It had this weird vibe where I could feel closure and solace, but it was so still, which is obvious for tree, but still, to have so much energy from something that seemed so inanimate was weird.

I felt like I was inside of Sivason's movie, and he would narrate occasionally, often telling me a few helpful tips in how to kill these weird creatures. He had a deep and relaxing tone, and he said things nice and slowly where I could actually comprehend everything compared to other dream characters that are just.......sporadic.

The creatures themselves were scary as hell, there was this snake like creature that has this Oriental Hat of some kind you would see with Dragon cosplay or whatever you call it where people would go under a dragon outfit and march around with 2-3 people sustaining its composition in a parade or something like that.

It's exterior was a dark blue with some shiny reflections. The hat, or whatever it was wearing, consisted of colors of pink, white, yellow, green, and maybe some red in a few places. I think the solution in killing it was through a high speed and separate circular chain saw piece, and this creature was fairly enduring, even in death.

It seems that this area with the huge tree is actually FLOATING above a LARGE body of water. And it's like old game graphics looking water where you can see the ripples spreading out, like the picture below if you pay attention to the reflection of the surface Link is above:

The same snake hat creature I mentioned landed on the water, and while floating, I thought it would at least be devirtualized or something (kind of like in Code Lyoko where the digital sea basically removes you completely if you go into it).

It takes maybe 5 seconds before the snake starts to vibrate abnormally and splits in half from the circular chainsaw. There was at least one ReDead creature on the floating island, and it could JUMP.

Just.....it's scary just coming in contact with these slow creatures, but actually JUMPING? That sets the scariness level waaay up. Then there's another weird creature that comes out of dead bodies, and it ends up being some kind of zombified paper mache chicken.

Like the snake creature, it had colors of green, white, yellow, and this time, violet. It didn't have "skin" like the snake, but its composition with being a paper mache type of creature resembled the same form of the snake's hat, which was probably paper mache as well.

Sivason informs me that using a red item kills a certain creature, and then some silverish items kills another creature. So I end up following his instructions and probably killed all of those scary entities.

Maybe I wanted to go inside of the Deku Tree, maybe not, but I did have a purpose on this island, and maybe I'll check later on through meditation.

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12.11.2012

Twitter for Shirtless People (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

That's right, twitter has some feature where people can post pictures of themselves shirtless, and they can even go topless if they wanted to.

Or they could link to a picture or video that involves them being shirtless or topless. It was weird, because everyone in the crowd was going crazy on how awesome this was, and I jump in the bandwagon effect and started thinking,

"GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS!" (not literally, but my emotions clearly portrayed I was sustained by that mentality)

Me and the group of peopl were trying to find the original link to a video that claimed to have a lot of shirtless and topless people. I don't know if the link ended up being fake, but we were going nuts to find the link location.

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12.11.2012

People Want Sex (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All remember from this is that there's a list of people who state what they're into sexually, and there's all sorts of random features.

There's a list that ranks women based on their level of salaciousness, and some even had nicknames like "Scarface." I wonder how she got the name Scarface.......

Most of these girls names had familiar vibes to them, and a lot of them reminded me of High School chicks I used to know.

I was kind of shocked how many of these girls would expose themselves so sexually on the internet. There was another girl that wasn't really attractive, but god, her level of being so sexually expressive of herself was out of this world.

(18+)


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She's showing a picture of herself with two dildos in her vagina and asshole, and she's ramming the the backdoor like there's no freaking tomorrow.

She's into anal, and some other hardcore stuff.


There were more girls with slutty profiles and fetishes, but I can't remember them all


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I tried to achieve the "Trinity" Task of the Year item, where you witness the world's first atomic detonation. I got nowhere near the Trinity site, but having the atomic age on my mind had lots of interesting side effects.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #40: Tibetan Nuclear Winter

I'm on a Final Fantasy-style quest with Wife and my son E. I even have "4245/4245" hitpoints, so I'm feeling pretty impressed with myself as we knock on the door to ask some character in the game for help.

Things suddenly turn nightmarish as we walk inside the house. The house's owner steps out of the shadows and his face is gaunt and drawn, the skin tight and shriveled like a corpse. His eyes are pure white. As he advances toward us, he tells us in this droning zombie voice that "I'm not an American. I've never been a human." His gaunt, zombified wife steps out of the shadows and starts droning the same thing. This is absolutely terrifying to me and now I'm lucid.

I hustle Wife and E out of there back into the daylight and fortunately the corpse-things don't follow. The three of us follow a stone path past a well-kept grassy lawn until the path turns into a smoothly ascending slope. Soon Wife and E have disappeared, and I'm climbing higher up this slope by myself. I continue, badly wanting to know where it leads.

After climbing for a while, the wind picks up and a light snowfall starts all around me. I see that the stone path (barely six feet wide), stretches hundreds of feet over a vast, snow-filled valley. When I look at the surrounding mountains, I see a number of Tibetan monasteries and beautiful pagodas nestled among the peaks.



I think about the task of witnessing the Trinity explosion and almost immediately a mushroom cloud erupts over the distant mountains. The sky goes dark and the wind increases to a howl, the snowfall growing heavier at the same time. Strangely, I don't feel any colder.

More mushroom clouds spring up silently over the horizon. There are maybe half a dozen or more blasts. Suddenly, one of the pagodas explodes like it was packed with TNT. The path that I'm standing on starts to crumble away in front of me and I can't walk any further.



I take to the air and try to fly toward where the nuclear explosions are thickest, hoping that I'll still come up with some way to pull off my goal. I imagine a wind swelling up behind me to carry me over the mountains but in an instant all of the remaining monasteries explode and the stone path crumbles into the valley. This time I feel the blast and I wobble in flight. The last thing that I see is a swirl of snow before I'm awake.

I nearly had the chance to ask a nightmare figure what they represent but somehow the opportunity slipped away from me. I'm still not sure why this happened, but I'll surely try it again. Also got a little phasing in but failed to roll with the punches when the dream threw in a surprise for me there.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #38: The One Who Knocks

I'm walking through a house in the middle of the night. It's a house I've never seen before but I believe it's mine and that my wife and kids are asleep. The front door is mostly composed of a big glass panel and through it, I see a huge ogre of a man stagger up and stare in at me.

The man's in his early 50s, disheveled, filthy, and at least seven feet tall. His eyes look enormous through his thick glasses and he's staring right at me. I'm terrified of him, and I hide behind a corner, hoping he'll just leave. He starts hammering the glass with his fists and as my fear jumps to the next level, I become lucid.

I'm relieved that it's all a dream and I take a moment to wring the fear out of my mind. I decide that I'm going to talk to the DC and ask him what he represents. I step out from behind the corner to find that both the man and the front door have vanished! Now there's nothing but a blank wall.

I'm having trouble walking now, so I try floating. I can float in the direction that I want, but it's unusually slow. I want out of the house, so I float toward one of the windows so that I can phase through it. It's a long, slow grind to get there but at least I'm moving. As I get close, I see that the window has a screen over it, but I go for the phase anyway.

The phase works very well, my arm, shoulder, and finally head sinking into the window. But when my eyes reach the screen, I feel the screen scratching at my eyeballs. The feeling is nasty, like a brillo pad lightly passing over the entire front half of my eyeballs. It's so unexpected that I wig out and collapse the dream.

I was in the kitchen, a bunch of friends, I was standing next to my brother. All the girls started into a convo, all off a sudden i ended up sitting on the counter with my brother besides me smoking. All of a sudden i look over and see this HUGE spider..im talking bigger then my foot. I started freaking out but no one around me was. The spider was across the room on the floor, staring at me with theses huge anime eyes, just staring. It was like it was trying to read my mind, the eyes seemed to have gotten bigger. my brother finished his cigarettes and then went to light a new one and it sparked like a sparkler and the spider just seemed to jump to life and run for the smoke ( im sitting next to him). The spiders eyes are getting bigger, my brother dousent seem to notice, its at the bottom of the cabinet trying to climb up i start screaming, i hate spiders and im trying to get away but i cant. I suddenly dont see the spider but i know its climbing across the wall to the back to get me and i just keep screaming. After that i only have a bunch of images of it crawling and im screaming, then i wake up.

My dream startes off at home, im in my bedroom when i hear something crash and what it hears like people running around in the hall way. I go out and i see people, a group of them just removing things, furniture anything they could really get their hands on. My mom was no where to be found, the glass from the living room window was gone and they where tossing the furniture out and it just disappeared, it was all my fathers stuff. I kept trying to fight them off, i couldn't get a hold of my brother. they started going through my room. My window disappeared and i was screaming at them and one of them broke my fish tank ( I love my fish) . So i got really upset and pulled out my blade and stabbed one of them, then i began slashing and slicing at people making them bleed. I was screaming for my dad, calling him names and stuff and he appeared out of no where, behind him was a classic 1950s family...wide smiling faces, too perky for their own good and he kept telling me to go with him, to come be happy with them. I gave a real wolf like face, growling and got into a fighting stance with both of my favorite knifes in both hands and i told him, i am who i am and he can never change me, that happy family isent who i am and never will be. I could tell i was dreaming because of how the windows and furniture disappeared and no matter how many people i stabbed, they kept coming back. So i knew i was dreaming..but i cudnt control it.

i am fairly ill, getting over a virus today. last night it peaked while i slept causing an eerie dream and then quite an intense nightmare:

i had a dream that a man whom i have seen come into my work was wandering around my house in the dark. i saw him and kind of said hello and goodbye, implying he should leave. i noticed one of his ears was bleeding but didn't say anything as i wanted him to leave, not stay and discuss this. i got him out the door and as i walked back to my bed room i felt fear of faces in the dark. i told myself it was in my head but got out my cell phone to light up the room anyway.

i believe i had a brief awakening and then i had this dream:

it's night time and i'm driving toward a bridge to see my mother and wondering whether or not i'm going the right way. as i crest a small hill my car leaves the ground a bit like jumping a ramp. then i notice i can't see the lines on the highway. i try to close my eyes for a second and then find i cannot open them! i feel the car swerve a bit and fear i will drive off the bridge into the river. i feel the car fall and then hit water. i feel it sink and begin anticipating the freezing cold water pouring in. i think about breaking a window and swimming up but truly and deeply know this is the end. i'm full of terror and yet i still say something sarcastic: "well i guess this is the part where i die." i finally get my eyes open in the dream to see the inside of the car and then i awake in real life, quite shaken from this disturbing dream.

largely the intense fear was directly on par with what it would be in reality, however i do not usually have dreams like this and so i think my mind was creating a dream in relation to the turmoil my body was going through in trying to eradicate the virus.

Dream 1: "BIG MAN"
Me and my family is not here at our current residence. We are at our older house in other city. My younger brother is taking us to a restaurant named "Big Man" to give us a party. Restaurant walls were embedded with glass peaces.

Dream 2: "Sleep Paralysis"
I am dreaming that I am trapped in a very dirty and dark room. And I am very worries and scared. I can listen voice of a female in darkness. and she is saying me that dont go into sleep paralysis while smiling because it will kill you.

Dream 3: "Peaces of sleep"
I am sleeping and waking up constantly.

Dream 4: "Hated Person"
I hate my cousin a lot and i dont want my family to contact them. But My mother is gone to their family's house. I waiting a lot for mother to come back but she is not coming. Now I am going to the house of my cousin to take my mother. When I am there I dont remember the details but the situation is very tight.

I can remember walking home from school, when I looked over my shoulder to see a huge mushroom cloud begin to rise, painting the sky orange. I ran into my house, and I could feel the heat from the blast on my back. While I was running up the steps to my porch, I thought.
"Is this a dream?"
I didn't become lucid. I can remember going inside to find my parents standing in the front room. We all hugged together. I woke up, terrified.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This was a fairly long dream, but I can remember the first part only slightly. I was a soldier in a war, I see someone who I don't like has a greater rank than me, so I decide to become an officer.

*Blank*

We are a group of researchers in a facility situated high up in a grassy hill, there is a big city on the bottom. A river is born from this hill. We were investigating something on this hill and one day I notice that the river keeps getting larger, for some reasons this signals the approach of a global calamity.

Next I am wandering the city at night, heading towards the hill. I'm worried that I will never see my family again seeing as there is little hope of survival. I think about calling them to warn them about the end of the world. I think my brother was with me at this time.

I arrive at an amusement park just before the hill, everything is quite dark. I finally arrive at the facility, and it's daytime. By this time there were supernatural elements about the coming apocalypse, but I remember little of them. There was some conversation about monsters and how even the properties of atomic elements were changing.

Suddenly the ghost of a janitor of the facility appears, but we manage to drive it away. We exit the facility and go to an underground shelter, although we know it won't be enough to save us. There is a vending machine on the shelter, and I see that people who drink from it grow taller, but I soon lose interested in it.

At this point the dream switches to third person, the location is the same, but I'm no longer a character in the dream.

"I" see a man in the underground shelter, who is talking to another older man. The older man suggests that he be unfaithful to his girlfriend and he agrees. The older man presents him with a box, and inside there is a demon.

This was the most intense part of the dream, I suddenly see the man being killed by the demon: a paled, pasty skin horror with large black eyes and horns. The man is impaled on its multiple appendages, some of which look like arms others like demon tails. This appears to me as a black and white still image with the demon large behind the man in its clutches, although the rest of the dream was in color and moving. Nevertheless, I instantly feel a very intense and profound sense of horror and disgust, which causes me to wake up. I have trouble remembering the rest of the dream, but not the image of the demon, who I can still clearly picture in my mind.[/INDENT]

12.06.2012

Calvin and High Speed Punches (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All I remember is that Calvin from Tyler Perry's, "House of Payne," is engaging in an intense battle with some random dream character.

Calvin is wearing a maroon dress shirt buttoned up along with black jeans. He's giving it his all punching this DC, and his opponent seems to be giving him an equal amount of punching as well.

Their punches are so fast that it ends up being a Dragon Ball Z type of battle where you just see random flashes and it's hard to know where they're trying to punch.

Oh, and he's also flying and punching too, and he has his mouth slightly open, probably to exhale as he's exerting immense force in his attacks.

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12.06.2012

Nazi Kamikaze Soldiers (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a store with a few random people. Everything about this area feels suspicious, like everyone is watching us, watching to see when we'll seem like we're out of synch with everyone else.

Kind of like in Inception when the subconscious manifestations of dream characters start looking in on someone who isn't in synch with the host's mind.

I believe we were trying to retrieve something, and I was going through a fairly long aisle in front of me. The flooring was all white, the lighting was pure white, and the shelves were mostly gray and dull in color.

The dream shifts where I'm trying to take something, and I'm doing a horrible job at hiding it. It's a really long white pole, that I'm putting underneath my random black robe outfit that I'm wearing.

I tried pushing the pole down to see if I can make it shorter, but the action itself was too awkward, and I started to get growing suspicion from everyone around me.

Then I heard someone state,

"Get him."

I tried to rub it off and walked casually to just to make sure I didn't assume they were talking to me. But with the footsteps picking up their pace, I made a dash for it. Things go out fairly well in my escape, until I temporarily had my speed decreased for no apparent reason.

I literally was pedalling my legs....how is that even possible? I tried so hard to speed up, and I did, though the reaction time was very awkward because I went a little too fast.

Spoiler for A bit too poopy:

The dream shifts where I'm now sitting on top of a dark red rotating chair. I have to use #2 so bad right now, and I can literally feel it being squashed as I'm trying to move around the chair.

What's worse is that there's someone to the left of me, and I'm worried if they'll smell the horrible odor, and become disgusted on why I'm not going for the toilet. I completely forget that I could go to a toilet for some odd reason.

Spoiler for A bit too poopy:

I know toilet and poop dreams tend to be signs of having to release stress in your life.

Anyway, I tried moving to the right side, trying to ignore whoever is talking to me because it's kind of hard to comprehend and think while shit is trying to come out of your ass.

So after that's settled, I accepted whatever is inside of me, and completely ignored the simple function to just find a bathroom and do #2.

The dream shifts where I'm in a mini-mall of some sort. There's a lot of dark-skinned dream characters, and I had a feeling this was a tribal setting. I also felt that these people were most likley cannibals as well.

I tried my best to remain cautious in everything that I did inside this area. It was difficult getting out, because I didn't want to stare at anyone for too long to provoke them, and also not make myself too out of norm where they might just attack me for no reason.

Went to sleep about 1:45am after watching some videos on DILD techniques and reading some wikis.

Dreamt I got stabbed in the throat by this like female assassin/ninja with a really thin slightly curved blade. For some reason I wasn't scared or in pain I must have known it was just a dream.

Dreamt I was in this band a mix of guys & girls. Wasn't clear who played what though. We had a gig somewhere & we were hanging out under this canal bridge & had left some shoes & stuff there. Drove to the gig but I'd left something important under the bridge & had to go back alone to get it as they wouldn't let me in even though I said I was with the band.
I was worried about going under this bridge in view of some chavs hanging out near by as they looked like trouble so I sort of snook down there & got what I needed & went back. Unfortunately it was too late & the gig must have been cancelled & the band descended into chaos with some of the girls smoking crack! Can't remember much else.

Woke about 6:30am to turn heating off then fell back asleep

After all this unpleasantness the dreams ended on a positive with me being with this girl getting Ice-cream from somewhere. She was getting strawberry & I decided on apple even though I'm sure they don't do apple ice cream, but they should! The lady serving us poured some apple sauce over my ice cream so goes to show ice cream makes everything better even in dreams!

Woke up normally about 10:30am

So last night i woke up for about 10 minutes due to heavy wind.. then i fell asleep and got into a nightmare.

I was on a parking lot with scary vampires, and immediately i knew i was dreaming already because of the feeling.. and before i did a reality check i woke myself up because i didn't want to continue...