non-lucid

Dream
Notes

I wasn't part of my dream for the first part of it last night. It felt like I was spectating or watching a movie.
There were 3 ghetto as fuck black dudes. They entered and shot up a casino but didn't steal anything. Before the cops arrived, they went to the back of the building and hid from police. They tried getting on the roof with makeshift ladders but failed. An argument started between two of them. Guns were pulled and someone got shot.
I gave all 3 of them names but the only one I remember was Tyrone.
Next thing I remember is being offered a choice between scenarios. I chose the one of the black guys and I appear as the massacre finishes. We run to the back of the casino through the alleway and hide from police. After the cops leave our area, we manage to get on the roof and I enter the casino from the roof. Cops are investigating the scene and I pull out my knife, ready to drop on him and kill him. I know my objective is to kill everyone in the casino without being noticed. I notice the Mark of The outsider and I'm able to Blink around the building. The building seems to be retualistic with candles and skulls around the walls and floors.
I'm able to kill a few people when I notice the casino has turned into a prison filled with inmates and they converse with me. My objective still stands and I kill a few more people, a few times even leaving their bodies in positions that make them look asleep.

Both of these dreams took place four days ago, but I'm just now getting around to posting them! Sorry for the delay.

Guess where I was in this one? If you've read a lot of my dream journal, or just glanced at the titles/tags, you'll be so very unsurprised to find out that this first dream took place in...A SCHOOL. -surprised gasping- We were in a room that looked like it would be a Steak n' Shake dining area except all the tables were replaced with school desks. We were working pretty furiously on a test, as if our lives depended on it. As I got close to finishing the test, I saw my girlfriend's ex-friend, who was making faces at me. Guess we're in elementary school or somethin'.

This second dream was the more dream-like of the two, in terms of outright weirdness. My girlfriend and I went to the mall! To do what? Well, I'd assume shopping, but who knows, really? Anyways, we got there, but a very creepy old lady was blocking the entrance to the mall, saying "You aren't allowed to go in there!" She wouldn't tell us WHY, of course. Being the reckless dream selves that we were, my girlfriend and I found a back entrance over the wall and into the mall. What followed was kind of terrifying, or at least at the time. A loud alarm sounded off; we knew right away we were in trouble. In the distance, we heard dogs yelping, and could vaguely see the old lady running towards us with a giant pack of barking, angry dogs. No shopping for us! Gosh dang it. We started to run, although we weren't sure where we were even running to. We were pretty much trapped in this mall now. The barking of the dogs drew closer.

What was our fate? Beats me, I woke up! Always at the good parts.

I was in a bar-restaurant but there were no booths, only communal tables. I was sitting with a couple really good friends and a lot of their friends that I didn't really know at all. This gorgeous girl that looks just like this actress sat down next to me and we started talking. I kind of have a thing for mousy looking girls.


She embodied everything that I love in a partner (kind, compassionate, funny, weird,...). After hanging out with her for awhile she ended up exchanging phone #'s with one of my best friends. In the dream they were meant to be together and it made me very sad. I woke up after that.

Then the dream started over. This time, instead of exchanging phone numbers they got up to leave together and I stood up too and walked over to talk to my buddy. I calmly said to him, "I just became lucid". Then I tried to make the girl like me instead of him but she just turned into a lifeless puppet zombie that did whatever I asked. All her actions were very crude and vulgar. I didn't like it so I let her be her own character and she went back to my friend. I woke up again.

Dream started over. The girl was the bartender this time, and I was semi-lucid at the start. I sat down at the bar and talked with her for awhile as she mixed drinks. I wanted to prevent her from even meeting my friend. Ten to fifteen minutes passed and I went to sit down at the table again. She brought us drinks and I looked around for my friend and I couldn't see him. The girl disappeared outside and I heard a gunshot. She had shot herself in the head and there were bits of brain and bone all over the pavement outside. I somehow found out that she had found my friend, dead, in the bathroom. He had killed himself by taking a lot of opiates. A little too Romeo and Juliet for me. I woke up and felt a great emptiness in my chest.

Today i dreamt i was at the entrance of my appartment hall. the entrance door was
aside of the wall, and it was a rotating door instead of being in front and being a normal glass door.
i was near
the very first stairs, she was near the storage room, i asked her.
"I get it now! So it means if we change something in the past, it will change again
in the future?"
she said "We can say kind of yes"
Then i went upstairs and saw a guy going home, i remember talking to him
but couldn't remember what i said

(weird dream)


Dream elements:

-Gardevoir

Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 6 hours

My subconscious seems to run out of new material.

Some dream about me mixing up my fourth/fifth hour classes. Both classes were going to the library or something and I went with the wrong group. The teacher complained to me for going with the wrong class and I told them I was confused. So I went back to the other class, and the teacher who was leading that class said that I should be with the other class so I brought both teachers together and they started arguing about which class I should go to the library with.



I was in my sub and saw a plume of smoke. I ran toward it with increasing concern that... yep my house is burning down. I freaked out and yelled that somebody call the fire department. The entire subdivision was deserted except for me and I woke up in panic.

I was riding the tech school bus and the bus got pulled over by the police. They tell us that they are doing a random security check on this school bus. Everybody needs to put their backpacks on the ground in the street and the cops are going to look through them to make sure there are no weapons or drugs or whatever.
Okay, big whoop. It's not like there's any... Oh my god there's a giant knife in my backpack!? Why the heck is that even there? What do I do? I'm going to go to jail! What do I do?! I know, I can throw it into the drain by the side of the road. Or maybe I can hide it in the bottom of my bag and nobody will ever find it. Or maybe I can put it in someone else's bag without them noticing. You know this doesn't seem right, I feel like-
God dangit.

Was just in a dream, sitting around inside a house looking at papers, when some old memory of me returns and I think about the time I was awake writing down lyrics on paper and I wrote, "jasons dreaming" that wasn't an actual dream but the memory of that event triggered something and I looked at the paper I was hold and sure enough a printer popped out of the bottom of the page and printed another page out from it, so basically one page has a printer hanging from it print forth more. And then I knew I was dreaming. I think the people around me also knew they were dreaming or at least some of us were, because I was whisped to another scene outside next to a fence and someone was in the background giving commands saying, "don't haunt these people or you will be haunted in return", then I jumped the fence and heard someone say those dogs are going to tear you apart, but I didn't care I was free and I was not afraid and I jumped so damn high I landed on the first floor roof of the building I was aiming for and it was a tall building many about 6 or so floors and I started spiderman climbing, jumping, and loving every moment of it. I finally got to a good flat roof area at the top, and plugged my nose and breathed in and still felt the air flow through my nose, and knew I was still dreaming. But the breathing felt good so I kept doing it, I kept plugging my nose and taking in nice deep breaths, and suddenly I awoke.

Some more scenes before the LD that I remember:
1. I was in some sort of war, and backed into a corner with other guy who was more more powerful than me, felt like we were playing a game. My ammo/weapon just wasn't doing any damage, but the big guy backed in the corner with me, he ceased shooting, because his shots were damaging my health bar as well, but I defended us vigorously.

2. Was on a spaceship talking to some person, next to a console. Was very interesting, he definitely was not human, and the person sitting to his right had horns. Very multidimensional and full of volume in that dream. Tolec.

3. A couple dreams were I had boners, and was playing coverup with my shame, but sometimes I just did not care.

Dream
Notes


I was swimming underwater thinking I was playing Super Mario. I was wearing the red plumber suit and hat. I remember an underwater temple and its ruins, along with mossy floating rocks in the area with objects on them. There was a big water snake that left its cave, took my hat, and retreated back inside the cave. I had to punch the snake to get my hat back. The last thing I remember was swimming to the surface where the sun was shining bright. A man was looking down on me, waiting.

I was driving my car when I get pulled over by 4 Valencia County Sheriffs telling me to get out of my car. They see that I'm in my Corrections Uniform and start convincing each other to let me go. After, a couple of them get into my car and say they're going to take and search it. I protest, causing them to get upset and pull out some sort of fruit, which I seem to know is contraband or some sort of drug. They tell me they're going to say they "found" it in my car. I pull out my phone and start recording them. I'm able to sneak into one of their cars, turn it on after some struggle, and drive away.
I leave the dark, foresty road and come to an intersection that's been flooded with water. Cars are trying to avoid it but I drive into it. Once I emerge, my car has turned into an F22 and I'm on a beach at sunset. There are other jets in the sky and my jet is trying to lock onto them. I begin to maneuver through the sand and finally lit off. Once I attempt to go between a tree, I crash and explode, causing my death.

I'm teleported to my room and Nona Rita walks in, showing me some paperwork and noticing the messy room. Someone walks past behind us. Upon inspecting the three pieces of paper, I pull one up containing a list of charges the sheriffs wrote me up with. I then notice that the charges were actually made to my dad when he got arrested. 3 of the charges were for playing cards with the officers before they arrested him.

Dream
Notes

Last night, I dreamt that I was in a small room with a mirror on the right side of the wall and an oriental painting on the left. I was in between the mirror and painting looking away from the wall at something. I didn't show any emotion but I looked to be a young age.

This is the first dream I had when I started keeping a dream journal on 1/29/2014. I'll post a few per day until I reach the current date.

I had a dream I was on my bed laying down in the dark. Suddenly a small light blue thing with eyes that could fly came out of the wall.When I saw it I called my mom who was in her room.[Our rooms are next to each other since the room is divided] She said "what?...". Than I decided not to call her again cause i had a feeling only I could see it. I grabbed it but it pulled itself away from me and left.
I than got up and looked at the living room and there was a door and the room was filled with white mist. Almost like clouds in the room. But I decided to stay in my room because it looked scary. That's when I appeared in another setting outside and there were these asian boys discussing something but they didn't want me there so i walked away.
I than appeared at my house again where i saw my brother and this little boy.[6 years old maybe]The boy asked for a towel so I got him one. But than I saw him walking to the backyard where my dog max is and the door was a little open. I ran in front of the boy and I was like "whoa! You cant go out there. Max is outside." Than I saw something on the floor and ate it. It began to poison me. That's when the little boy grabbed my hand and led me to the bathroom.
My vision was starting to blur. He turned on the sink and after filling a cup and pouring water into my mouth and me spitting it out a couple of times i was okay. But than the bathroom was suddenly flooding so i picked up the boy and we exited the bathroom. However, when I put him down he started walking to the backyard again. I told him again " You cant go there! Max is over there!". Than his response was
" But the dog".
I than turned around to see max behind me and quickly grabbed the boy and ran outside. I was screaming for help as Max growled and jumped at us. After jumping on a table i noticed a bee. [I'm really afraid of bees but I was more concerned with the dog trying to bite the boy] That's when I looked up and saw my mom staring at the window. I screamed out for help and than I was like " God! Someone! Help me!".
But she just stared at the window with a whatever face.
That's when i was like I've got to put an end to this. So I grabbed my dog by the mouth and closed it with my two hands but he opened it again so i used my hands to keep him from closing it. It looked like i was gonna kill my dog but after my dog started to faint and fainted I began to fall onto the ground where he fainted with the boy in my arms and the dream ended.

i drempt serra was putting on a play for the daivd letter man show and i got instructed to help put it on by this military director who had locked me in a closet with some other kid. he was like you gotta gimme a movie and i was being a silly whimsical little brat and stuff.. then this lil 4 year old madea really stupid instagram after i told he she would have o end her crush on me cuz it wasnt healthyss she was like home just isnt home than just jumped out of a box and walked away in the really strange loop and people commented and was like wtf he made a legit move your lie 4

then later in this dream i was at a mesuem of usueless sit and bought a bunch of stuff for 25 dollar s and pise off al the poor people.

then i drew a psketsch of a aked guy it came out really good and i was proud of my self i showed some girl and she got all basful but she liked the drawing al lin allef

I made a quick video several time last night to help me remember these dreams as I woke up from them so here is what i jotted down plus a little extra from what I can still recall about them.

Dream one
not lucid

I am in a city and its very dark out there are busses all over the place and a few other cars. I am driving in mine and everthing seems normal for a while until i pull up to this car garage. I pull up and I notice that im driving from the right side of the car instead of the normal left side but I dont think anything of it and i go about my business. I drive pass a buss and come up to a security gate and drive through and the car i was in barely fits through I keep going and there is another one and i make it through that one. yet again there is another one and this time I feel a little out of control and feel almost drunk I drive through the last one but it takes a while as i dont want to hit the edges of the car and wreck it. I get out and go down this pier and this couple is yelling the guy was saying he was mad because they had almost be hit by some person in the parking garage. I assume it is me they are talking about and i try and hide my face from them. I hop on a quad and drive it into the sand dune next to the pier and drive towards the shore. As I get closer I see my brother and a few other people I know on a boat and they are asking me if i want to come. I looked around and said sure why not! I notice a friend on the back of the boat a girl that appears to be my brothers girlfriend and in the seat infront of them was her two daughters then it was my brother in front of them. My other friend with me moved and sat in the back seat with my brothers girlfriend and i sat in a big seat infront of my brother. He asked if we were all ready and i said i guess so! he took off and i slid to the side of the seat and grabbed on for dear life. there was a life guard / boatsman at the end of the pier and was telling us to becareful as the waves were getting bad. We drove out hit a huge wave but as we were on it my brother was able to turn the boat around and we drifted on the wave and almost clipped the man on the pier with the motor. we appologized and went out a little further and did the same thing again drifting with the wave. Then i woke up and made a quick sound bit via video to recall this morning.

Dream two
could be lucid (this was an attempt to become lucid and have a shared dream)

Im not sure if this was a dream or not but i feel it might of been as other wise i was day dreaming about it for an hour and half. I was trying to place myself on the moon it became very vivid to me but i never recall being on the moon that whole time. I could tell I was awake and i felt as if i could open my eyes up and wake up at any second giving me the impression that i was day dreaming while trying to fall back asleep but I am unsure.


Dream three
Not lucid

I am in a world that looks like earth and I meet this guy in the dream i ask him if he can help me become a better lucid dreamer and he says he will and that he just needs some information from me. I smile and bring him the stuff he needs we fill it out and his wife comes over to help me out with the package for it and we talk i dont recall abotu what but i remember saying at the end to her comment of your like family to us now. I smiled and said im a "lucid brother" and winked she smiled and said yes yes thats a good one! I am forced to leave them as two girls i was with are upset it would appear that this painter killer is loose and is just killed somebody and is going to strike again. One of the girls is upset and wants to catch him while the other is being deffenseive and doesnt want like it was her boyfriend or something. we pile all these bright orange yellow and red golf clubs of different sizes like from the size of your finger to the lenghty of your body. We filled it up and headed out. We appear in a park and are looking around and while there these people we see in the park start chocking and vomiting i ask the people next to me what is happening they said it must be the bomb the guy made it must be in that trash can. I look and say but how its not in the sunlight he only puts things on in broad daylight. we look around and decide we need to back up so that it doesnt affect us as we do we notice the man and begin to chase after him. Anything after that i dont remember.

Dream 4
not lucid

I enter into a dream into a world that doesnt look like earth. It looks more boxy like the game minecraft. As i walk around and am talking to myself I see a chat over bubble appear and it says JAVZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ has logged in. He then messaged Hi Jonnnnnn! (which is my name) I say out loud ohh somebodies here! and my voice kind of echos he messages again saying I can hear you So i say back well im going to find you! it echos around and then i laugh a little bit and say this voice thing is pretty cool. I look around the map and notice white footprint outlines going around and I follow them a round and i start saying in a creepy voice to have a little fun. Im gunna find you and im gunna get you. Where areeee you??? and he doesnt message back but i can just tell his answer he says that he is in a mine and there is only stupid fake diamond ore all over the place. I laugh and say alright ill be right there i find the cave and I enter in and fall down to bedrock and look around and laugh and say wow this is some nice ore! as i look and see all the fake diamond ore laying around. He says yeah i cant remember the good commands for the pick axe. I say oh i can help you with that where are you at ill bring you one. He says he is just down the tunnel so i go walking down and enter into this room its a pharmacy I look around and begin to craft a pick axe but as he comes around the corner he becomes my best friends wife. she smiles and greets me I smile back and make small talk and put the pick axe down. I walk around and the lights go out im now in a dark set of clothing and a zero hat. I start moving around in the store all sneaky like and my best friend sees me and was like oooohhh scaryyyy im a ghoooostttt and waves his flash light around and then walks away from me. I go around the corner and lay on the ground as a security light hits me. I position myself just right as to be invisible from the light though and his wife comes around the corner and sees me from another angle and is like WOW thats really cool jon! chad come and look what jon is doing. as he does some people knock on the door. Its two girls and they make out a little and then come inside. I tell my friends quick put on your costumes. they did and i put this giant picture on my head and put my head through the cut out and tied it around my head. One of the girls looked around and pulled her boobs out from her top and then they left out the door. Another man came in and just started chatting away and the girls decided to come back. One of them began to make out with the guy and then made out with my best friend and then to another random guy in the room now. I was like wow she is kind of a slut or something is she gunna make out with everybody she sees?? the leave after that and this old man comes in the door and is super mad. He is yelling at two guys in the room with us. I recoginze them all but it doesnt make any sense. One o them was Chris a old friend in highschool and another was Mark which is another person from my highschool only thing is mark was chris's uncle.. long story. The man at the door was essentially mark but it was him from the future and he was pissed that he couldnt talk to himself because chris was in the room and wouldnt leave. He got to upset and left and i thought well that was weird I remember him but he looks so old.... I then woke up and made another video to remember what happened.


UPDATE!
After looking into time stamps of when i woke up and when i recored myself. It would appear that i had a false awakeinings. It was after the first dream and because prior to the moon dream i woke up and recorded my first dream. which was at 4:43 AM so i could not of woken up before that time and had that dream. which in my dream was 3:37 AM what is amazing however was that in 15 minutes I had that moon dream and woke up as the clock said 4:59 AM. That 15 minutes about felt like it was an hour and a half long of me tossing and turning in bed not being able to sleep and trying hard to get to the moon

+ a young female doctor saves me from 3 "stroke bubbles" heading for my body through one of the tubes attached to me (I see them), and then attaches a matrix-squidy-like mechanical thingy (neuron stimulator?) encased in a glass tube with thousands of ultrafine metal probes to me and I study it, it takes two-handed operation to work, I'm then in a car with some device telescoping outside of the window and I'm concerned its weight will tip the car over.
There are other bubbles in the tube, the doctor was racing to me from some other location. The squidy thing is highly intricate and very bizarre looking, the glass tube and the squidy thing is about 1.5 feet long and about the size of a fist in diameter.

+ observe a battle to the death for control of one of a set of mind-operated super weapon cars which make the owners wealthy since they're so valuable, and the winner beats his opponent when he's locked body to body with him by transforming himself in to a small child so he is much shorter, and then firing the machine guns in the door of the car through the body of his enemy (and the bullets don't hit the child-man because of his smaller size). The scene begins by approaching a home in a deserted area, some thought about growing corn.

+ working with a technician on diagnosing the problems of a super complicated electronic device, I see him fixing some shorted wires, I'm digging in to putty-like coverings on the nose of the device to expose a necklace clasp which is malfunctioning, I say how strange/funny it is that a tiny simple component can ruin the operation of such an expensive complicated device. We're inside some sort of super-high-ceilinged hangar open to the outside, the device is on its side with its nose pointing to the left.

+ outdoors at twilight playing catch on a large open field, I know the T family (facebook friends) lives just a hundred yards beyond the field, I think how surprised they will be when I show up for a visit since we've never met in person. I start at one side of the field, head across the field and look backwards at where I've been. The T's live ahead and to the left of the final position/orientation.

+ interviewing the owner/designer of some super-secret device (perhaps the one worked on above), he's showing me around the grounds of his design centre, I stand at a beautiful outdoors scene in the shade of trees looking at a crystal clear flowing creek (flowing left to right), there's a Y intersection in the water, and gardens/houses/hlils rising up to blue skies and clouds in the distance, I wonder where we are and ask him "is this nearby the (some real place)?", I ask if they dump their waste into the water and a woman's voice says yes, I was going to try to drink the water but won't now. Outdoors/bright daylight.
The fork of the Y is to the left, extending around a garden containing a house. I want to find out where this place is so I can return (and drink the water?). I'm standing here for some time just looking and wondering where it is.

The above is probably my strongest location awareness in a dream yet, really wondering where I was and trying to place my location relative to other landmarks that I know.

+ (possibly continuing the above) face-to-muzzle with several fierce dogs sliding down some sort of pole/tubes, the point is to hold on, I'm a bit concerned about them biting me

+ playing some food tossing competition with an opponent of mine, I think he's rigged the game, it's like shuffleboards but with pieces of food, first guy tosses a piece of food and the second guy has to make his land as close to the original as possible, he starts with some orange colored cake thing, I think he's messed with my piece, I end up wadding a bunch of orange cake together and tossing it and it lands pretty far to the right of his piece, I think he's rigged the table as well since it's just a foot off of the ground, way too low, -- some people nearby are laughing about a girl in a contorted funny position on her knees. Walking by a table with cakes/muffins on it on the way to the competition I think of eating some. Probably residue from watching "Hook" right before bed (the bright colored imagined food fight scene).

+ I see my old college roommates (real, college age) are repainting the front of our house (fictional) with a mural against a white background, I see my face painted on the mural as one of 3 faces, I'm honored they put it there, it's a drawing of my face looking like how my wife drew me when we were still dating, then the friends are sitting around a circle joking, I'm standing a little ways apart, I think they're talking about me

20.02.2014

Licking a dead mouse (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm standing in my room, looking out the window. It's extremely stormy outside.
A very big branch of a tree on the other side of the street snapped and fell into the front yard of some neighbors.
I go to my father to tell him about it. I find him in the bedroom were he was going through a bunch of plastic bags on the foot of his bed.
He shows me something he intended to keep for my sisters (his daughters) baby, but appearently it was broken.
He then shows my a dead mouse he found behind on of the bags. He says he thinks it's disgusting and he was wondering for a while why there was this bad stench in this room.
I looked at the mouse when suddenly he moved his head towards it and liked the dead mouses belly. I was shocked. I think it was a weird try to be funny or he just wanted to shock me.
He then said "What? It's just a dead mouse."
Me: "Yeah... Who knows what diseases you just got."

20.02.2014

In Zak Bagans Room (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

We are in some dudes room. It's in the attic.
The guy had black hair and looked a lot like Zak Bagans just with less muscle.





We were about 5 people. A guy I knew back in the days, called Stefan was sitting at a desk with a printed version of the search results page from amazon. Appearently we decided to buy a book for the pen&paper-RPG "The Black Eye" (basically a German version of Dungeons and Dragons) and we wanted to split the price. Stefan used a pen and paper and tried to see how much everyone had to pay. The book would cost 60 €.

Looking out the window there was a deep abyss as if we were in some kind of canyon. The abyss was filled with 3 feet high water.
On another platform of red stone I saw an old, fat lady with a backpack and a walking stick. She eventually climbed down the rock and walked through the water.
We talked about Zag Bagans guys age and I said I think he is about 20 years old. He laughed and says: "I'm in the mid-30s. No wait. We aren't in Finland so I'm 30."
I was confused and asked him what he meant. He explained it, but I forgot what he said.

For some reason the only way out of the room were 2 windows on the top of the rooms wall which closed and opened automatically after a time, so there was always only one window open.
Some guy climbed up and jumped through the window. The Zak Bagans guy wanted to go next. He got rid of his clothes because he didn't want it to become wet. He gave it to me, but before he climbed up he changed his mind and put on his clothes again. He searched his room for something.
After a while he pulled out some clear plastic pants with suspenders from a shelf. I saw anglers use these before. I laughed when I saw them because they looked ridiculous.
At this point the Zak Bagans guy was standing right in front of me and it was the first time I got a clear look at his face. He suddenly had a full black beard.

The whole time I knew I was timetravelling. The whole thing was a situation from my past and I somehow got to experience it again.