non-lucid

I was sitting in the back seat of my car, wearing an excessive amount of clothing. At the time, I only knew that I was wearing a heavy black overcoat/trench coat and that I felt very heavy due to all the clothes I was wearing that I couldn't see. I was discussing coats with someone in the front seat. He mentioned something about my coat, and I said something else I cannot remember. At this point, I took off the heavy black overcoat, revealing a very pleasant (and much lighter) beige coat that I called an "undercoat" although it was just as long as the overcoat. The person in the front (I never noticed what they looked like) commented that I looked pretty nice with the undercoat, so I double checked in the mirror.

For whatever reason, I looked (and, as soon as I looked at myself, felt) fantastic; the coat was clean and pure without any lint on it. There were two brown ornate buttons on the coat holding it closed and a piece of brown cloth was used as a belt. In addition, I was wearing a very nice fedora of the same color with a large feather stuck in it (though the brim was absurdly large to the point that it resembled a sombrero slightly). My hair was very very long and was golden, contrasting with my brown hair that looks shorter than it really is. I appeared to be two or three years older than I actually am as well. Some people may have thought I looked somewhat girly, but I thought I looked great.

Some time later, I checked in the mirror again. This time, all I noticed was the face of an old man; my view zoomed in on him, and he looked rather unpleasant; wrinkled and chewing on something. At the same time, he bore an uncanny resemblance to me. I realized that this couldn't be me since I was much younger, and upon realizing this I said aloud "Hey, that old man is in the car in front of me, my reflection is in the corner!" (Side note: The mirror was pointed away from the car in front of me, yet the old man appeared in the mirror anyway.) I saw my own face in the corner of the mirror, looking like a normal (though somewhat younger) me.

The rest of the dream is fuzzy, though I remember the car was driving around my regional high school (not the one I actually go to however) and there were lots of people selling things in small stands outside. I remember having a nice brassy ornate ring in the same style of the buttons of the "undercoat" but after a while I realized it was just junky plastic.



I suppose that the golden-haired coat-clad me is a representation of what I want to become (or will become, though probably sans the hair) in the future: a bright person who is fairly wealthy and intelligent. The ugly old man probably represents an alternate future person who is who I will become if I don't play my cards right; after all, I dismiss the possibility of me going down the wrong road as unlikely, which may be why I said in the dream that the old man couldn't possibly be me. The small younger me in the corner of the mirror probably represents the current me, as I had been acting more immature than usual in the past week. I have no idea who the man driving the car is (though, since I did see my dead father in the dream a couple of times, it may be him) and I don't know why we were discussing coats (besides the fact that I like long coats).

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Another Gun at my head:
I was at a party with one of my teachers and some friends. A girl walked over to a trashcan and i went with her, she found a piece of paper with some words translated to another language on it. As the party ended and i walked home, i saw the police taking the girl away. Confused, i ran over to see what was going on. The police officer tilted his head over to me and said "And torture this kid". Some other men then grabbed me.

Next scene, i'm walking into a trashy abandoned like building. Apparently it's my school. I walk in and see my classmates , i start talking and i hang out with them. Then the girl walks in, There's a weird tension between us because we were getting interrogated and tortured the weekend before. I want to talk to her, i want to discuss, and she probably feels the same, but we both know we're probably being watched right now.

Then one of my teachers walks in with two body guards. She asks me a question and i reply with a stupid answer. I start laughing incredibly hard because i still have no idea why this is happening to me. As i laugh, she then points a gun to my head, i freeze for a second. Then i began laughing some more. She asks if i'm okay, and i reply with a "yeah, hold on a minute", i needed her to hold on because this seemed just too funny.

The ketchup store:
I walk into a store with my parents. They're looking to buy ketchup, all i wanted to do was get a couple issues of some manga on the way out. They get to a place where these big jugs of ketchup are on sale so they get them. However, i look at them and i don't think they're ketchup, i'm pretty sure they bought the wrong thing. As we start going out, i see some monkeys building a wood structure.

The lost and found land of Ice and Metal:
I'm on a bed in the middle of a snowy ice land. There are a ton of russians skiing on a ramp not too far away. Because of that, i can't sleep. So i walk over to tell them to stop. As i get over there, a man loses hold of his three dogs and they run away. I decide to help look for them.

I walk and eventually make it to an abandoned town. I see something that looks like his dogs but they weren't. As i was doing this, i get attacked by mechs. I managed to jump on one and pilot it. I then use it to run away because i wouldn't have stood a chance against the other mechs. As i make my escape, i fly over a pit with a tank and some other mechs. Since i have the advantage of surprise, i quickly destroy the forces below.

As i drop down to where the tank was, i see a secret tank sealed up in a wall. I unlock the wall and pilot the massive tank, i then use it to destroy all of my enemies.

Head stitching of guns:
I was in a band room with some friends. There were guns on the ground, we were getting geared up for one reason or another. However, in order to get a gun, you had to let koady cut your head open and stitch it back up. The dream ended with me trying to decide which gun i wanted.

The wall of hidden death:
I'm on my farm piloting a helicopter. I then get called back to the ground as a commanding officer finds out some one else is suppose to be piloting the helicopter. As the new person gets in, they go across the river and start bombing the other side. This surprised me, i needed to take cover so i went underground into a bunker. So apparently, we were at war. The terrain was divided by a river and on the other side were Filipinos.

As the bombing went on, i ate some chips i found. After the bombing, i quickly went further underground and down a ladder to a room that connected to the river. I saw some of our troops coming back wounded and in bad condition. I walked past them and across the river to a massive rock wall. A guy then walked up to me and said "You shouldn't go any further". As he said that, he walked over to the wall and put his foot on something and then massive turrets popped up all along the wall which could detect enemy movement. He then explained that the turrets kill any enemy that tries to invade via the wall.

non lucid
*I heard the sound of horns like in a tibetan temple.This huge machine was there to find me. They started shooting fire at the house. I thought I am gonna die being burned alive, that is the most painful way to go. I thought about hell. Then I jumped out of window from the third floor. I flew and a lot of mexican people who were running the machine starting shooting me. The bullets didn't effect me. Then I asked someone who owned the machine could I take shelter at there location. I was trying to hide from someone.

Woke up this morning, disappointed, even depressed. Slept a very long time, and had nothing, not even fragments. Blank. Was getting dressed as something hit me. First just the name, the Dreaming Man. Then all the emotion. And this is how the dream begins:

- I am in my shabby, small, dark apartment. Obsessing about lucid dreams. Reading books about them, researching. Then I pick up spit-image of a real life Notebook manual. Written there are not PC instructions but a wiki of dreaming, all possible subjects and induction techniques, listed neatly with corresponding explanations.


I'm overriden with joy and surprise as I go over the pages. Soon I find mention of a recipe for what seems to be a substance that makes you dream (or a dream substance that makes you lucid, not sure). It caught my attention. I had to try this. My recall gets hazy at how exactly everything happened, but from that manual I learn of another such dreamer as myself who has done it before, and who knows how to make it. The name was The Dreaming Man.

I arrive at a far away place where this person was supposed to be. At the endge of grim downtown, among large apartment blocks there was an unnatural opening. There stood several colored tents, shacks, an icecream freezer up front. Seemed like a circus of sorts.



I followed a dirt/sand trail from the street concrete that led up to the ice-cream vendor. There was a beautiful velvet tent to the right with red and yellow stripes. So I bought some ice-cream and asked about the dreaming man ( a side-note in real life DJ:"Think the vendor wasnt very friendly") . Found the person that I was looking for to the left, near something like a bar. She was a beautiful, tall woman covered in blue bodypaint with brown ornamets, long hair. But she looked tired, very uneasy. I asked her if she was dreaming every night. She told me that she did, with a nervous voice. Then I asked her if she had lucid dreams too, and she said yes, that she had about 900 recorded dreams. Then I asked about the recipe, if she knew how to make it, but I sensed fear or something. She didnt want to make it. I told her that I'm a dreamer too and showed her that dream instruction book. After lots of hazy arguments I conviced her to help me and she agreed to travel with me to my apartment (far away).

Eventually we were sitting in that room again, I remember weighting several ingredients in a bowl as if making that recipe with her help. That dream substance was probably never made as the dream came to an end before we could finish. Now the most impactfull part of this long dream rant would be that somewhere between me convincing her and arriving at the apartment she told me a story. A story that I got to re-live, to be there as did she.

It was a grey cellar room, I was sitting at a table. In front of me, on the other side of the table, sat a chubby man in his 50's, hawaii shirt, sweaty forehead, little hair, glasses, with a notebook and pen. I, the Dreaming Man, was desperately trying to explain something over and over again. Felt tired, scared, lost, confused, sad, lonely. The man sat there calm and emotionless as he shook his head in disbelief. The next thing I saw was the Dreaming Man hanging by chains on a wall in a dark cellar corridor, dirty and trashed, in a line with countless others, constantly being electrocuted by cables at their feet.


She told me in her tormented but loving voice, that it continued until they either got "better" and forgot about it, or died and were diposed of.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was something about some girl and some other characters in dark room, she was saying that she knows what will happen and that some particular person is coming, then that person comes through the door and i get weird sensation of falling.

Dream 2(fragments):

Story about some people visiting some house and never coming back, it apparently asked them questions and absorbed them, then the whole house literally started moving.

Not sure if i woke up and got back to sleep, or it was FA, so it is either an actual WILD or WILD from dream..
Dream 3:

There is some weird noise and sensation of rapid movement, i know i am dreaming. I open dream eyes and get up, room looks exactly same as in waking life, i go towards balcony while rubbing hands, but dream fades out as i am about to start flight.
I wake up and everything looks weird, at first i mistake it for HH but then realize that i am still dreaming, i get up and rub hands, it fades again.
I wake up again and gravity isn't working properly, i shout something and make some objects disappear. Then it fades out again and this time i wake up properly.

Dream 4:

I was at home and some family members were watching some series and there was some talk about it, we were discussing some things then police came, one male and one female and arrested someone for bribing or something. There was some discussion about it and i knew that they were not fair, i tried to solve it but got arrested as well for same reason apparently, but then i said something along the line that i was not really doing it, but rather that i would do it if i had chance to do, which i don't, unless i will have that chance(Dream logic!) which confused them and they freed me, but not the other person, they also taunted me. I got angry and slashed male policeman across the face as if i had claws, leaving 2-3 visible bloody marks on it, he got scared and i tossed him onto the floor.
At this point i realize that i am dreaming, and that kinda breaks scene in a way that DCs freeze in motions like they aren't programmed for that or something. I am about to attack another police person, but she is a different DC now somehow, so i decide against it. I go through corridor and decide to switch forms by standing on all four like i did in other dreams, but something goes wrong and dream destabilizes and movement kinda gets limited, then as it fades to black i feel weird slight pain.
I wake up on the street and someone's calling me, there's a tunnel and very tall train.
I wake up again, this time at home but in different room, i realize that i am still dreaming and i notice weird radar dish thing on the wall. Then i wake up properly.

I remember in my dream thinking about the desirability of inducing recurring dreams, that it would be good for LD initiation, though I realize that some recurring dreams are not desirable.

I had no awareness of this being a dream, plus I did not feel my body. It was just non lucid thinking in a dream.

My sleeping is really bad lately and sleep is needed to dream of course lol.

[I can't remember that much about it. ]


I'm in front of a mirror, which seems to be in an hotel. I'm trying to shve with an electric razor, but it isn't working at all.

The next I remember is that I'm standing in a railway station. I want to go home. It seems like I'm back from a business trip or whatever. I want to take the plane (yes the plain, not the train). The cashier says to me:

- We are really sorry but your flight is fully booked. Also your ticket has to get used in the next hour or it will be not usable anymore.
- But I want to go home! A friend awaits me back in Brussels.
- I'll see what I can make .... I have a seat in the train from here to there.
- What?

I don't understand what he wants.

- It's easy we are here in Manchester. You'll take the train to Paris. And then you'll take the plane to Brussels.

I don't remember what I said next.

He tears my ticket apart.

- Now your ticket is valid you can go and take a seat!

He throws them at the floor. I pick them up.

....

I'm sitting in a full train. I don't know, when I should go out. I ask the cashier. He tells me that I have to wait 6 hours.

....

I'm swimming in a river. I see the Eiffel tower and assume that I'm swimming in the Seine. But the river is twice as large and looks more like the Rhine or a very stretched out lake Constanz. I swim back to a house because I don't want to get sick of the filthy water.

(that's all)

Note: Doing two entries today because I missed yesterdays (but luckily still wrote it in my normal journal)

I was my uncle's house, using some type of outdoor shower. I was walking back to the house in a towel when I saw this gorgeous pool that had a brand new wooden roof over it. It looked incredible and I really wanted to swim in it, but I knew I needed to get inside for some reason.
I couldn't find any clothes and just assumed they were inside but passing by a window I saw the rest of my extended family (including my cousins) dressed in their sunday best like they were about to go to a wedding or something.
Suddenly I was extremely embarrassed because I had this feeling like I was supposed to already be inside and dressed and I damn sure shouldn't be outside wearing nothing but a towel.

note: forgot to put this one in yesterday so i'll be making two entries today

Actually one of the better vacation dreams i've had in a while. i was somewhere with rocky and tomorrow we wre gonig to go to london. we met up with mom and nana and thomas at this little restaurant and thomas was bieng fusy acting lik had forgotten where i came from just because i was enjoying myself. i could see ufc fighgts happening on the tv.

i remember i had some type fo delivious fish dish and rocky had one too . he dropped a piece and some old clearning lady picked it up and ate it.

2nd dream: i was a new producer for a television network and to test me, I was being given my first big assignment: Choose from a list of shows which one to make and cancel one in order to have room for it.
My two top contenders were a show about Deadpool (the comic book character) and a family sitcom that my brother was a cast member for (even though he's not an actor in real life) Even though it would be a dream come true to do a comic book character, I really wanted to help my brother get a break and I figured comedy was more up my alley so I chose the comedy
for it to make it to air, I had to cancel something though and I decided to cancel a show about a baseball player (though it was sort of implied that I was deciding that the network would simply not show baseball games anymore--i'm not sure) either way I had to tell this guy in a baseball outfit myself and he didn't take it very well.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

--7-31-2013--

Darkness light on the stage:
I can't type much for this dream. The main reason being that the plot of the dream jumped all over the place, you could say it was super random. But i will list the bits i remember.

I'm fairly certain that i had no clothes on and a bunch of girls walked into the room i was in. Then there were some bits of me practicing with my percussion section in an auditorium. Then the last bit was me in the auditorium, no lights were on, it was dark, i had a small light, i was looking for at least some one from my section but i could find none.

Help- regression, obsession , I can't keep away from her touch
Leave no doubt, to find out , It's calling me back to my home:
I was lost. I was in asia, somewhere rural. There were forests, rivers, and small towns scattered all about. I always had the feelings about where i needed to go, and i followed those feelings, only to find myself lost again.

I arrived to a dusty old town. I looked around. I felt to go to a church like place. Once there, i decided to leave. I found a car as i moved through the town. The car wasn't operational. That night, i crept into a house located on the edge of a cliff. The house had a hostile and noble feel to it. As i crept into the back part of the house, The room suddenly flipped upside down and i saw a man with a sword. I was certain he was going to attack me.

I have a rifle, i'm walking along a road. It's still night. I'm trying to get somewhere, however, i'm being chased. Maybe i'm being chased by some law enforcement, why would they chase me? I think i hear shots up ahead, or maybe it was pure impulse. I run into the woods on my left. I see dead bodies of innocent people everywhere. I run. I'm about to get out on the other side of the woods when an armed police man appears, he moves his rifle into position to shoot. I get my rifle but the clip is out. I reload. I wake up.

As i look back at this dream, i realize i'm where i need to be. Home is still home, at least for now, but now is fine enough.

--8-1-2013--

The Will, Desire, Curiosity , Idea, or even Chance to walk and break structured load:
I'm in a car accident. Something of the sort. I find myself after with two seemingly broken legs and a broken wrist. I walk into a store with crutches and a cast on my right hand. I see people i know, it's sort of embarrassing i think, so i decide to walk without the crutches. After making that decision. I drop the crutches and free my right arm. Sure, it's a little weak, but i was walking fine and i could move my right wrist. Hehe, incredible.

That's all i feel like logging on here right now. I'll likely post some more tomorrow.

Thursday 8/1/13

Bed last night around midnight - 8:30 am.

Nap 3pm - 4pm

DR - last minutes of the nap

I'm fooling around with a classmate from elementary school. I tell him to stop, because I think he has a girlfrend. Then I ask him if he has one and tell him that if he doesn't, we can continue.

I'm in a small, rectangular room, that's adjacent to my room. That room has shelves with trays full of different kinds of bread. Long bagettes, loafs... I walk throught the room and I have a feeling, it doesn't belong to me, but they trust me to be there. I break of a tiny piece of bread and eat it. I'm disappointed in myself, since I have never done that before. I wonder if there are cameras. I'm disturbed with what i have done and go back to my room to get some money. I see price labels next to each bread tray, so I'm gonna pay for the whole loaf.

I remembered later, there were some delicious looking bread sticks standing in a cup. Sprinkled with some spices and cheese, from pizza dough. I felt relieved, that now I don't have to make them myself.

Dream 1(fragment):

I had to travel between various villages and cities in search for something, i was really quick.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some video game and i traveled to the past version of some village, there were metallic houses and some engineer that was making some weird cube item, i had to help him. Also there was some annoying system of points.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in some video game where i had to go through some complex with group of people and avoid various traps. There was one tricky trap that had timing problems.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was at home, looking outside, weather was changing rapidly.

I'm in some disheveled small one room apartment, the walls look like they're made of news paper. There's a mattress with soppy clothes on it, and soppy clothes piled up just as high on the floor all around, my sister and elissa are sitting on the bed, I get up on it and sit with them. They find their old work uniform from months ago we just abandoned, I thought elissa's was mine, but elissa find a plastic bag with my stuff in it and there is my uniform, we decide to put it on and go back to work if we'd be aloud even. When we get to the work I don't even know what this work is but the town is rundown and newspapery and this work place is just as bad as that apartment that I assume was our. He doesn't even care so we go back to work. I go into this room, and my damn half sister and her dork boyfriend are trying to convince me that any pills you take won't affect the baby. I tell them that I am positive that certain drugs taken will surely affect the baby of a pregnant lady, and they just laugh at me like I'm crazy and don't know what I'm talking about, (which the dork does to me in real life, fucking pretentious penis head). I tell them I will find it in my text books and that this is fact, then they proceed to try and distract me from this.

My mom tells me she want's to take me my sister and grandma somewhere. So we say okay, and suddenly we're in the area outside the adventuredome, she's sitting on a bench and she seems like she wants to get me and my sister off her hands so she can talk about something with my grandma so she says she'll buy us wrist bands for the adventuredome, first we were shocked because she's cheap, but then we think about lazer tag and roller coaster and shit, so we tell her hell yeah, and she goes into her purse and pulls out five dollars, and we tell her that's not nearly enough, last time it was twenty seven dollars per person, and fifteen dollars for one of us if we have that coupon we had last time, so she fake laughs and pulls out a ten, and we tell her it's not enough, so finally she gives us enough money, and we make our way to a ticket stand.