non-lucid

Today I tried to be more conscious about my dream and tried a few new things. For more detail, visit my workbook

Episode 1

I am in a bar or something, it really looks old, maybe medieval or something. There were some Vikings in it, or some warriors or something. It was really strange. The scenery was so strange n bizarre, that I got conscious about this silliness. I was like: Yeah what ever, this is really silly but I might as well play the game and surrender to this craziness.
There was a guy talking to me. He wanted to talk to a person in the bar, but he couldn't for one reason or another. I said:

- Hey man, you have to talk here really "special", so that it works.

I shouted to a viking wearing a strange mask made of steal. I don't recall exactly what I talked (I recalled this early in the morning half asleep) but I was talking really old-fashioned English, insulting him, talking really ... like Conan the Warrior lol.

The conversation got to the point where the Viking insulted the guy I talked to at the beginning. He said that he had stolen his "magic mirror sword", which broke into 7 pieces. Then he corrected him self, he was remembering that someone else stole it and hide it at several places around. We should go and look for it or we got in some "trouble where would rather die at the place instead of waiting till it's over" (whatever he meant by it).

Still buying the strangeness of the scenery I went out of the bar.

But something changed. The "feeling of surrealness" I had vanished a bit, so that I wasn't doing things to consciously.

I was standing in a mall again. I still searched for the pieces of this mirror sword. I wanted to go to the third floor, but instead to take the stairs or the elevator, I took some kind of carousel. I remember in detail how it looked like.

Imagine those inflatable castle for kids where they jump in. Imagine it 30 meters (33 yards) long and wide, and 6 meters (19 feet) high. It was shaped like a vulcano. On every side there were 6 tunnels leading to the top. In each tunnel there was some kind of moving floor. There was also a rope in it to grip yourself in it. The tunnels were really narrow, so that only a small kid could get inside.

I didn't think that much about it and went into one tunnel. Instead of leading me to top of the volcano, it took me to the 3 floor. This makes logically speaking no sense at all.

So I could simply go on looking for the pieces. I realized I had some machine on my back, which had some wires. those wires directly lead into my spine. I feel how they give me electric impulses. I'm in pain and try to get ride of it.
So I go into a restaurant in this mall. I "hang my back up on the hat stand". I struggle to get it off (the wires and stuff). It takes really long. In the meantime there comes a waiter. He's really old. He asks me what I'm doing here and if he could help me. I explain to him the situation and he leaves.

Suddenly there comes a girl I know which I find really annoying. I don't like her at all, cause she's always talking stupidly about things and she is a really awkward person. I get pissed off.

She says:

- Oh hi there. You know what? We got teamed up to find those things you are looking for. I searched everywhere but couldn't find it. I don't even know what we would look for. You know, this organization of the university is really shitty.

She kept on talking I got really angry about it. Why me? Why now? Please leave me alone ...

There came another team made of three people I know also. I don't like them either, because they think they are at the top of everything. They are ripping the plants out of the pots to look inside if they don't find anything.

- Haha, the stupidest of the three said, I bet nobody got this idea!

But they don't find any. I'm feeling really helpless. I'l teamed up with a bimbo, I have wires attached to my bag and I don't have found any piece.

My "team-mate" isn't there anymore and I manage finally to get the wires of. I feel a bit relieved and move around the mall. I go to some shops to find the pieces. But I don't find anything. I lose interest of the search which started in an awesome way.

I meet again the bimbo. She is annoyed and keeps on talking and talking, but I don't listen to her. She finishes speaking finally.
I'm reacting in typical Yossarian-fashioned way. I lift my thumb over my shoulder and say to her with an harsh and uncaring face: Screw!
She looks at me and doesn't understand what I am talking about. I emphasize it more:

- Eehhh, I don't care!

She looks really angry than sad. She doesn't know what to say, so she says nothing and finally leaves me the fuck alone.

I walk away and leaving her alone.

I can't recall what happened next. I quickly wrote some taglines when I woke up after this first dream.

I recall something about being in a garden or something, I have a broken leg and I'm walking with crutches. My brother is in a roll-chair and we have some kind of argument

Episode 3

Why episode 3? Well, in between the 2 episodes, there should be an other dream sequence. But after I woke up from it, I forgot to write it down

Anyway, I don't recall it that great as my first dream sequence. I remember a lot of fragments which I can't match together. There was also a brief lucid moment (I think), but It was more like a daydream after I woke up.

a) I'm in a water fun park. A few friends of mine are there also. We are playing cards, but i can't remember where we played. I think it was on a raft or something. There came two other guys who looked like Sylvester Stallone and Arnold Schwarzenegger. They had "normal" voices and were talking, like the rest of us in Icelandic. They took a lot of space on the raft, so that I had to make place so that I nearly well of it.

b) I'm a background dancer of a singer. It is on the same place as before. I look really different. It's like I was in another body or something. I was dancing around really stupidly.

c) I and a few friends of mine are waiting for something. i don't know what we were waiting for. I recall that there was something about a guy named Carlos, that we didn't know/or made up to annoy people.

d) That's the part where I had some day-dream-ish experience

We are still at the same place as before (the Carlos part). It was a grand square. Around were some old houses. The sky looked gray. It looked like I was in Brussels once again.

We are talking about our lives and how strange and stupid they seemed at times. There was a big pannel in the middle, which showed the one standing in front of, which "statistics" in his life happened and in what way they were linked to another. Teere were 3 spaces on it where I could read:

Relationship status:
Age:
Greatest Regrett:

One after another we stood in front of it to find it out. I discovered that I was in a relationship with one of the girls. My best friend had the same discovery. The two of them were talking about it and how strange all this episode was.

This puzzled me a lot. Like really alot. I tried to recall, when I was in a relationship with her. In that waterpark? NO, impossible. Where else? I couldn't recall it all. I was feeling really strange. I tried again to recall. But I couldn't. and it really bothered me. I recalled that I had a relationship, but not with her, but with my ex. But this was history; It could only be after this. But I couldn't still recall.
In the mean time, the scenery changed completely white. there was nothing around me. It appeared to me that there was no sound, no time, no space. I tried to recall, but couldn't

I woke up and I was really lost. I had one sentence stuck in my head. It was about that supposed relationship. It was a sarcastic sentence about her: "What an impression do you have made! "

06.08.2013

Eva Talks About Thought-Forms and Stuff (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in an environment that looks like a graveyard, and the contents within this dream mostly consisted of shades of gray and bits of dark green here and there. It seems that I'm mostly just watching the dream from a spectator point of view, and I noticed Eva is hiding behind pillars, and there's caption showing on the "display" in this dream, like on Youtube videos.

She or maybe someone else is talking about how people who emulate those in real life into thought-forms should just allow those people who died or exist to have a distinction. She's wearing a dark green jacket that's slightly unzipped until it shows a slight cleavage. She's wearing light brown pants and dark brown leather boots I believe.

Anyway, it's raining as well, and this dream itself is kind of depressing, almost as if while the voice is narrating certain things to me, despite of my lack of ability to recall the exact words, my emotions were mixed with feeling slightly sad for something, but also being comforted with something else.

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06.08.2013

Missed The School Bus, Elementary School, & Female Police Officer Flirts With Me (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I did a few more sessions with the mental exercises that helps with being more proficient and aware of tapping into the unconscious mind by letting it do the job for you with the mental imagery, and all I have to do is just describe what's going on. Slept late last night, had the confidence that I'll be aware of my dreams, knowing how my unconscious mind will make those connections to enable me to have a lucid dream, and I managed to get a decent lucid, despite of its randomness of someone flirting with me and all sorts of stuff.

I freaking love these exercises, makes visualization, imagining, and other things so much freaking easier to do now. I used to think I didn't have to put in much effort into dream recall, but now, that was clearly an understatement. Anyway, let's move on to the lucid dream shall we?

Alright, so I'm in an environment that looks really familiar to a previous neighborhood I resided in waking life during my Junior year in High School. The setting is early morning, and things obviously feel more dream like that it's just blatantly obvious that I'm dreaming.

As soon as I feel the rush of emotions and sensations common in the dreaming world compared to waking life, it doesn't become a challenge for me to know whether or not I'm lucid dreaming.

I noticed that there's a school bus I have to follow to class, I don't know why, but I just presume it has to be the one I needed to take. The reason being is that I'm feeling sensations and emotions of being rushed, out of choices, and not knowing how to go about finding other routes to get to whatever destination the bus was going to take me. The consistency of the dreaming environment was dependent on my ability to calm down, so if I was panicking for too long, the dream just feels messed up.

However, it's not like I was going to have an unstable dream to the point where I would wake up, no, been through that already and know how to plant myself into this dream. Emotions and adrenaline do not matter anymore, just don't pay attention to how they can wake you up, and you can enjoy them as much as you can. So as I'm wondering where in the bloody hell to go now that what seems to be my only ride to whatever location I had in mind passed by too quickly.

I even tried lurking around to check to see if the bus will make a turn-around somewhere, since it had to have more than one route to pick up the dream characters. But it just happens that the route that I'm in is the last one, but at least I gained competence in a dream for once to look for alternatives. Now it seems things are hopeless for me, and although I knew I could just do whatever I wanted to, I decided to just let this dream happen and watch while being able to go back and forth in spectator mode, third person mode, and first person mode.

It's hard to describe, it's as if I'm shifting through three states of consciousness or perspectives I should say all at once. It's not even 360 vision, it's just sublimating my awareness in 3 perspectives at once, it's a really funny feeling, but it's really comforting being able to do that, especially when it would enable me to keep track of anything suspicious going on. I noticed that I'm wearing a long black jacket and a dark blue polo shirt and black dress pants. I believe I'm wearing lace-less shoes, but because I'm not focusing much attention to my outfit, and rather on what to do next, it's merely conjecture for my dream body description.

I turn around and I quickly noticed a dream character that looks very familiar, and it doesn't take me very long to deduce that this was a dreaming counterpart of a person in waking life that I'll just nickname "K." He had the mannerisms, body posture, and annoying attitude of the real one. He's wearing a black and white striped dress shirt that's buttoned and spread out. Even though I'm looking at his back, it's clear to identify that he's wearing a white t-shirt. Now for the pants, the thoughts coming into me now say he's wearing white baggy jeans.

The epitome of a wanna-be gangster who doesn't know how to pull up his pants and is either too indolent or incompetent to know how to use a belt. Of course, this doesn't bother me one bit in the dream, and I noticed that he's looking left and right, and I make sure that I don't attract any attention to him.

It's weird, although I knew he couldn't possibly hurt me, since I'm going with the classic predisposition that this is a lucid dream obviously, but I still needed him. The reason being is because he's the closest thing to being a student or someone looking for a bus as well. And because I wanted to know why I had intentions of going inside of the School Bus, he was my only option for the time being.

So I make sure I keep a trail off of him at least 30 feet away from him or so, and he's slowly walking. Then he picks up the pace, and before he starts going a bit faster with power-walking, I noticed my vision is now focused on his trail and where he's going. Which means there's an augmented tunnel vision in my perception of the reality in this dream, and everything else outside that scope is considered blind, insignificant, and a waste of time to recall to the best of my abilities.

I had a mix of emotions when following this guy, and they weren't really that positive at all. I had the urge to just slam this guy to the ground and destroy him completely, but again, can't do that since he's still a valuable dream character. And as I'm picking up my pace, I noticed he takes a sharp turn to the left side, and I quickly avert my eyes to the right to pretend that I'm not trying to follow him.

He doesn't really seem to have much competency level in terms of being sentient and sapient of my presence, and this tempts me to just shrug him off completely once I figured out that the path he's going towards is to a school. I walk past him, but then find myself slowing a bit just to see where this dream character is going to go. Instead of just ignoring him and him fading out of existence because of my lack of interest in being aware of him and the other DCs, I decided to just let his existence hang just a bit longer.

I noticed that the psychological tendencies I had towards this guy, especially in waking life, were now shut down completely. He's not the type of person I knew "K" was, a very loud-mouth individual that was cross-eyed and didn't see to have much going for his life. He's countenance is completely different, despite of his dark-skinned complexion still being difficult to conceptualize to full detail. He seems to be expressing a kind demeanor, especially towards younger children, and I just let go on auto-pilot in terms of walking as I shift to the completely different "K" individual.

There's a little boy he's walking with, and he looks familiar as well, all too familiar, and this boy is wearing a shirt that consists of dark warm colors (mostly orange, maroon, and such). He's wearing sports shorts, but I can't make out the actual color because as I'm walking in auto-pilot, I noticed that I'm picking up the pace a bit more because I'm having less interest in this twisted up version of "K" of a dream character.

I finally avert my eyes to the environment surrounding me now, and the tunnel vision has disappeared completely, and you could say that I'm just going through 360 vision now. There's no need to go through the sublimation of 3 perspectives seeing how this is a school environment, which means there isn't really going to be much of a threat, seeing how I'm never encountering physical threads in school dreams.

So as I'm easing myself into this third-person 360 vision, I begin to notice that I'm already shifting myself into the building. And here's where the environment starts becoming inconsistent, but just for a little bit. Now, imagine for a moment for where I'm standing right now in the dream, imagine seeing the back of a person at a slightly tilted angle to where their face is slightly further away from your perspective, but only by a a few degrees.

Now, as I'm absorbing the content of the dream environment here in order to make presumptions of where to go next, something feels very peculiar about this dreaming environment. Typical. Anyway, allow me to describe the environment during this moment. The overall colors that pop up are brown, dark yellow, green, and maybe a faded and dirty milky violet color here and there. These colors mostly show up on the tile flooring below me.

The stairs that I'm on top on, which probably has 3-6 steps, has the dirty milky violet color along with the walls as well. It almost felt that the colors themselves made this dream more like a a puzzle, kind of like this image below (I'm really freaking shocked on how that association just came up on a fly, whatever, not complaining! Whatever helps me get to the point right?)

Just imagine that some of the walls are patches of brown and dark-gold with those few walls that are also the dirty milky violet color as well.

I apologize for my horrible description of colors as well. Please bear with me.

And one interesting thing shows up after I analyzed the dreaming environment. There's a vault, a fairly huge one, I'd say about 8 feet wide and 9 feet tall. But here's the thing, because the vault crank, or whatever you call it is small from my point of view, but it still felt like it would be bigger when I get closer to it (just imagine the huge vault cranks you see in those movies where there's bound to be a bank robbery or something).

So I noticed my perception in this dream is a little bit skewed, it feels like things aren't really following along pretty well. However, this doesn't stop me from exploring what seems like constant and altering chamber that resembles a prison and elementary school at the same time. The Vault crank itself has a fairly large black dot in the middle, and it now looks like a Huge Gear trying to protect something I believe.

I don't touch it of course, instead, I just go about lurking in random areas in this confusing dreaming environment. I begin to notice that as I'm going through these doors, it feels like randomly generated scenarios with dream characters and such. Kind of like what you would see in movies where the person is in an area with what is presumed to be an infinite amount of doors, and they stumble upon the most abnormal and peculiar of things.

Except it's a little less scary fortunately, just randomly generated child dreaming characters, teachers, and other school staff members. I remember one door where there was just a black void and that same kid I was imagining before that hanged around with the "K" guy. He seems to be looking at the teacher, and the teacher is a female that looks very familiar.

Kind of like my Reading teacher that I believe I had for 6th grade in middle school. I noticed that her hairstyle is still a bit poofy and proper, and she's just looking down on the child while having her face and neck turned awkwardly.

Anyway, I close the door for whatever reason, even though I doubted myself on what I would be doing here in this dream with stairs being inverted, twisted and stuck on places where they shouldn't be. The abnormality itself is what keeps my lucidity sustained I guess. I find myself noticing how I'm raising one of my eyebrows speculating what to do next.

Then after what seemed so long, boring, and dragged out event, I'm just going to skip to the final part now. I find myself getting near an exit, actually being able to see what's outside for once. As I'm preparing to go for the exit, the tile checkered floor here is different than the one before. It consists of a faded vanilla and black colors, and the moment I find my shoes making contact with the floor, it delivers the type of echo as if I were in a large and spacious region in a building.

The area itself was too hard to make out because it was a little dark on the corners, despite of the fact that there's a strong lighting outside and the sunlight is still able to leak in some rays as well. I continue heading to the exit, and there's a metal bar that I would have to pass through, kind of like the rotating bars you would see if you were to come to a supermarket .

Except this time, I wasn't able to get past these bars, and as I'm trying to move back and forth to see if they're sensor-activated, there's a random female dream character in front of me that informs me I can't pass. I was a bit puzzled on why she would tell me this, and I decided to turn back and realized there's a female police officer, or some security guard up front.

I immediately go up to her and she informs me that I just have to show my I.D. or something, and I just pull up a random card out of my pocket, and she takes it real quick and looks as if she's busy typing information. As she's going about doing whatever, she tells me I'm handsome.

I said, "Thank you." in a silent voice, but it didn't seem she was hearing me well, so I said it a bit louder. I wanted to just remain silent, but I just had to pretend to be social with her since she's my only way out. She has very short hair, as if she was bald a few weeks before, and she's fairly cheeky and has a dark complexion. Her outfit is mostly dark blue, and she seems to be the cheerful type of guard, but of course, I can't really revel in her kindness for too long.

After that, I don't know what the heck went on from that point sadly, seeing how I had all sorts of dreams in the middle most likely.

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06.08.2013

Military Base Stuff (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All I remember for this one is that Eva's face is zoomed in, and it seems we're just going around inside a military base. The main colors are very light gray.

Yeah, that's all I remember for that.

Garret, my brother and I are setting the table when Garret says that there's going to be a break-in!!!

I run to the door just in time for it to start opening. "F*** off!!!" I scream as I shut the door with a bang. I jam a stool into the door for good measure, then leave to call 9-1-1. Garret and my brother take my place.

They don't last long. The phone is ringing in my ear and the thugs (there were three) rush in when I wake up.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was some hybrid of forum game and video game, at least at first, i and some other dragons were protecting some city from massive amount of enemies. Then later, it fully went story mode and i was in game itself, we were infiltrating in some techno base together with some female hacker, who was helping us dealing with security systems. Then after that back at town i was talking to some soldiers and enemies returned and i had to protect some little girl.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was on some kind of space ship/station.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some AoE/AoM based RTS, except with different units that looked like some kind of aliens. I was playing 1v1 vs AI on very small non-symmetrical map, and while playing i was also chatting with SilentEternity. He was talking about that this game has some really overpowered worker units and messed up trading system. The map had mostly mountains and related resources on south-east, along with my base and forests on north-west along with enemy base. On trading system, it was giving bonuses when two town centers were linked, but there was no limit, nor difference on distance other than they had to be near different resources. And the bonus trading gave was rather huge. As for workers, small squad of them could deal with armies of normal units apparently...

Dream 4(fragments):

Snowy city at night, searching something, some rather interesting story(which i sadly can't recall).

I was at school. I think it was the last day. I had apparently just turned 18. I was packing up my stuff when my friend walks up to me and says, "Let me sign your yearbook." When I said no, he replied, "Well, what about...?" I knew he was talking about my crush, so I told him, "No, she's not going to sign it." As I was about to go to the back of room, pornstar Marie McCray (who apparently goes to our school?) walks up to me and asks for help on her French homework. I don't take French (our school doesn't even offer it), so I replied, "Yo hablo inglés y español." Then, a girl from my old school (I'm not sure if she was supposed to be herself or Shakira) came up to me and we greeted each other. We started joking around and I grabbed an old letter apparently written to me from Shakira. She invited me out somewhere, so I grabbed some alcohol and put it in my bag.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen. The school apparently has alcohol and lets underage people take it.

I also saw another old teacher of mine. It took me a minute to guess his name correctly.

I felt a sort of vibe of popularity and felt famous (probably because I knew a pornstar and a singer). If dreams tell the future, I have a much better social life when I'm 18.

I think a small part of me knew it was a dream.

I tried going back to the dream, but couldn't fall back to sleep.

Chelsea G. was at CVS with me, and we were good friends in the dream. I was shopping for a Halloween outfit. I did not know what I wanted to be, but they had a nice selection of cop outfits that were cute enough to wear on a college campus. They were all so high up that I didn't think I could ever reach them, so I was about to give up but Chelsea hopped onto some box and started scaling the rack, throwing down cop items as she went. I tried on a multitude of clothes, including regular jeans (which don't have anything to do with a cop?). I eventually settled on a hat with a strip of numbers on the front, a gun holster, and another item that I do not remember. We went back to SCU (bc in the dream Chelsea went to SCU). It was time to go to sleep because Halloween was the next day and we wanted to go out.

The next morning:
Jen was sleeping in the bed next to me. We lived in a dorm room at a university that was not SCU. She was sleeping, and I was trying to be very quiet. Alex M. was in the room and he wanted to smoke with me. It was the day after Thanksgiving (which makes no sense bc it was just about to be Halloween?). Alex was not being very quiet and Jen woke up. I wanted to get out of the room as quickly as possible bc I didn't want her to know that I was smoking weed. I felt a pang of guilt. We quickly went outside and walked to wherever we were going. We walked down this dorm hall and Zach DP was there. We exchanged hello's and I remember thinking that he has turned into a pretty chill guy. Eventually Alex and I got outside on this patio outside of the university that we went to, but it wasn't SCU still. His hair was darker and more closely curled and cut to his head.

On the patio, there were a bunch of double a people there. L was down below me talking to some girl, and I heard her say "For some reason last year I started dressing really ghetto, and now i'm like wtf?!" She was wearing a clearly non-ghetto dress with a black and white flower design and a light sweater. Twg was also there, and she was dressed in a rave-esque outfit, discussing her Halloween (ok it's halloween again i guess) plans with a couple people. She was saying that she LOVED video game parties and "no one gets between me and my video games". She said that last video game party she brought a guy. Seeing as how she is a lesbian, the person she was talking to asked, "why did you bring a guy?" She replied "it's a video game party i don't give a fuck!" and they all laughed.

While all this was going on, Alex M. was rolling a b and I was trying to clean this weird grinder that was unlike anything i had ever seen. i had to shape little bowls from the wet sand around us and stack them in the grinder. Grace D. was next to me and she looked dubious about what I was doing, but none the less as if she was having a relaxing, good time sitting outside on the patio. Alex saw what I was doing eventually and shook his head, he told me to fill the remaining area with cherries. I was confused until I saw a bunch of cherries in the sand, so I did that. I was worried because it wasn't my grinder, it was Zach's, and I didn't want him to be like wtf did you put in there.

Right before I smoked the b, I realized that I had class in an hour because it was thanksgiving last night (thnxgiving again), which was a Thursday, and class was resumed on Friday and shit it was Friday and I have a hard math class and I didn't even do any homework. I smoked, then ran over to the class, passing open classrooms with all minority students in them so I thought dammit I'm in the international studies wing and not the math one.

I finally ran into a kid who was in my class, and he told me we had hw. my heart sank. I never wanted smoking and partying to interfere with class, but here it had. So i vowed to work extra hard in the class and get an A.

There was also a random portion of this dream where I was looking about pictures on facebook and there were a lot of pics of Alex and I, and in one of them i was naked and he had his arms over my boobs. I kind of wanted to tag it in the dream, but then I got embarrassed bc I don't even like Alex or his morals or who he is as a person. But I looked good in it, as well as the other pics. I decided to deal with it later bc I was in a hurry.

The whole dream had a sort of rushed feeling to it that increased and receded throughout the dream. Other things happened but they are sort of blurry and I already got out the gist of it. The parts I kind of remember are being in some paddle boat in this crowded river with other boats, as well as a scene with a car and an annoying man trying to ask me questions while I brush him off and look for something in the car.
This was a pretty mundane dream, which is sort of unusual for me. But it's nice to take a break from crazy dreams once in a while.

3rd person following a woman, and I'm aware this scene is about to become a nightmare, something involving a husband who came back from outer space wrong, carrying something inside him that will manifest in the house in strange ways, killing him and trapping her here. It's already starting to feel like a nightmare, so I take over and steer her toward the front door to change the scene. It takes two doors to leave the nightmare/house.

Outside, I'm my IRL self, and I'm walking out of the mansion I'm temporarily staying at, walking down to the road to see if my IRL sisters have arrived yet. I follow the road toward town, and I pass Tilda Swinton walking the other way and rubberneck shamelessly, walking backwards until she's out of sight. Eventually I come to a fair, where a few people are in costume, including myself, something patriotic-themed. I spot my sisters in the crowd but don't want them to recognize me while I'm in costume. The crowds push me into one of the tents showing various curiosities, and one of them, something about a man who fell from the skies, switches the scene to something more stable.

3rd person following a man who observed that if you trace every human interaction you've had throughout your life, and all the interactions those people had and so on, it creates a fractal pattern which he used to warp time and space around himself, condensing it all into a single point with himself at the center, the God of this world. The ground loops over his head to meet itself in a single vividly-colored sphere. Although he's the only creature that can exist in this sphere, there's a door through which he can watch or enter the old world at any point in time or space. The world's been completely transformed by his actions, all throughout its timeline. At the moment he's observing the writing systems that are developing. He's been translating the various markings that he's seen through the door, images made by different cultures throughout time and space, but as far as he can tell, none of them are using a written alphabet. All the markings translate into numbers.

He walks through the door into the same point in time/space that he'd originally lived, modern times. The place has been through something like an apocalypse as a result of his actions, but it's mostly recovered now. He seeks out a friend who'd tried to stop him, and they talk about the changes in the world, and about what's happened to his older brother's estate since the funeral. 'For a madman, he was alright,' the other man says.

I wish to go back, back to where it all started, the first and the only ever Lucid dream I remember ever so clearly, I wish to go to that desolate fragment of space, where I was the maker, where my touch gave birth to Novas and a wish rendered them sucking unto them-self into a black-hole. I wish to go back to that starry space, only this time, with a more profound Lucidity. after having done this, I will embark on a Journey within, to realize all the fantasies. I will write unto this space again, only next time, with an ethereal story to tell.

To do: 1) Become familiar with all the terminologies of the Lucid Dreaming World.
2) Choose the most efficient technique to begin my quest for the Inner world.

Dream 1 :[COLOR="#800080"] I was in a shop near my house.My mom bought me a lot of chocolate and chips and stuff from there.While she was browsing through the shelves I find myself talking with a girl who was working in that shop..I think I asked her to give me something but she refused so I kicked her saying: Okay,Motherfucker. Then I started to destroy the whole shop and I even stole some things from there.I remember trying to steal a big box full of chocolate but I couldn't so I ran.When I got out of the shop I wanted to go home,My mom said she will stay a bit more because she has something to do.I nodded then I ran home.Once I entered in the living room there was this painting I have in real life but it was in another place than it's original place. The woman in the painting had some red eyes and she was holding something in her hands (I think a dead body) She got out of the painting crawling to me.I tried to open the door but it was locked. Then I woke up. [/COLOR]

Dream 2 :[COLOR="#800080"] I was in my house with a blonde girl who looked like 13-14-15 (She had a round face with some cute chubby cheeks) Then she randomly said : Hey,Let's fly to America. I responded : Okay,But how are we going there? Then she made a tiny balloon appear in her hands.It had a form of a boat.I asked her how we are supposed to go to America with that balloon? She sighed then I suddenly find myself on a roof of a building. I looked around there was a bright city (It was night) With some high-rise buildings. In the sky there were some red helicopters with a big red cross on them (The helicopters were huge) and they keep flying around a high-rise building. I looked at the sky,It was full of stars. I keep saying : Woo,Look at that! And pointing at things.The place was so awesome I almost cried.I then went down and there were some girls I think I argued with then I went in a building that was really shiny and yellow. I keep falling for some reason then I crawled to an elevator and entered in it (It was full of people) Then I don't know how I was outside again and asked someone to drive me to a river. The river looked amazing,I saw the moon's reflection shining in the water. Near the river there was a kind of pool full of mud.The blonde girl jumped in it and then she had a bit of fun but then she was about to drown.She kept raising her hand and asking for help,I grabbed her hand and dragged her outside on the ground and I shook her(She had her mouth wide open) but she didn't responded.I checked her pulse,No pulse. I really thought she was dead But I wanted to call the ambulance.When I wanted to call it the girl woke up,She started walking a bit.Then I asked her: Can I still call the ambulance? She said yes so I called it,waited,Nobody appeared. So I went to the hospital with her and I tried to explain those people there what happened but they couldn't understand for some reason. [/COLOR]

Dream fragment :[COLOR="#800080"] I was on DreamViews chat.[/COLOR]

non lucid
*Somebody was telling his kid that his mom was dancing in the dark and that he would never see her again. This person telling him that seemed to be from some dark world.

*I found a teleportation device but was scared to use it. Someone else used it and teleported to scary location.

Dream recall from today's naps

Dream 1(fragments):

I was typing up some DJ entries and then was discussing spirituality stuff with someone, then i started watching some let's plays and one was apparently let's play of old Spyro 2 game, except intro scene went kinda different and there was different draconic character instead of Spyro and some other new characters, they talked about learning how to use different forms of something. Then i was back at my room, i was about to realize the dream but it faded out and i wake up. I keep eyes closed and try to DEILD.

Dream 2:

I am suddenly in the forest, there's a huge tree, i think something about future i realized that i am dreaming and i have incredible temptation to make huge tree fall down(dunno why), and i literally will it to fall down, and as it does, ground shakes a bit.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was at home and i couldn't fall asleep for nap and i try to find something to do, suddenly Oreo comes in and we have some talk(that i can't recall much), then he leaves and H. apparently comes in and annoys me with some talk about glasses and leaves as well, and then comes back, talks about it again and leaves again. I stay confused for a few seconds.

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[SIZE=3][COLOR=#1E90FF]I'm in a room with a futuristic video game console. My brother isn't very impressed by this device, so I turn it on to show him what it can do. I'm browsing around on it and eventually come to a Star Wars themed level.
I think, [I]Cool, I'm gonna get to fly a spaceship![/I]
The level starts in a big dark room.
[I]Huh, why isn't this a flying mission? Whatever, this seems fun too.
[/I]I start by sneaking up behind a guard in the middle of the room, I pull out my blaster and fire. Bad move. The guard drops to the floor and the alarm starts blaring.
[I]Oh shit![/I]
A small mobile camera has spotted me. I take aim and destroy it with my gun. Running through the level, I notice some people ahead of me. I pull out dual lightsabers and rush them. I slash them apart and notice more people out of the corner of my eye.
[I]WOAH!
[/I]I jump out of the way just in time! I whirl around and take them out. More and more guards keep coming. I dodge, weave, and maneuver my way around all of their attacks, while simultaneously dealing fatal blows with my lightsabers. After eliminating the guards, I see a dark figure running towards a set of stairs. I chase after him.
[I]I have to catch this guy... I don't know why, but it feels crucial.
[/I]We both get to the stairs. They spiral around and go up for a long way. I'm getting closer. Closer...
[I]C'mon just a little faster!
[/I]We come to a door and he busts through.
I'm faced with a loading screen.
My vision fades back in to the roof of a very tall building. We are in a city, it looks a little like Las Vegas does at night. The roof of the building starts out flat then goes upwards like a ramp. The figure begins running up the slanted roof.
[I]Enough, I'm ending this!
[/I]I rush him before he gets too far and throw him down onto the flat portion of the roof. I jump down and pin him there. I begin grilling him for information. [/COLOR][COLOR=#808080]I don't exactly remember what I was asking him. [/COLOR][COLOR=#1E90FF]He refuses to give in. I beat him with my fists. He still refuses. I grab him around the neck with both hands and choke him. He acts like he wants to talk so I let up. He says something. [/COLOR][COLOR=#808080]Again, I don't remember what he said. It was something that pissed me off though. [/COLOR][COLOR=#1E90FF]I grab him around the neck again, this time with only my right hand. I hold him up in the air and throw him against the slanted part of the roof. He finally gives in and explains. He says that he is me from the future. [/COLOR][COLOR=#808080]I can't remember much after this, so this is where it ends.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/INDENT]

1. Preparing for myth exam, not too confident. Went to the exam room, people (mob) grabbing the textbook. Girl asks me if she should take this old hardcover, I told her it was the wrong edition, but looks good. They started handing marks out. Next exam, suited up, looked good. Walked around campus- water fountain.
2. Genetics exam, went to check time, registrar's website, but can't find it (Searched for a very long time -20 mins according to dream clock) . Can't see very well either, vision gets all blurry- like without glasses. Went to exam anyway.
3. Playing quake 3 with people. Had to find something, a VERY large map. Went deeper. Ashlyn was in a tiny corridor, defending something. Killed her, killed other two people with her. Got the plasma gun. Got the thing. Filled all the ammo up and headed back to the starting point and won the game.

In this dream I wanted to study at Oxford University in England. I was told that I could rent an apartment, but to do that I would need to do all the cooking around 1am. At first I thought this was due to my academic schedule, but no, then I discovered I had misunderstood, and I always could cook, but it was recommended that I do it within 25 hours.

I was shocked by how small a village Oxford was. (Now in waking life I have been to Oxford as a tourist, and it most definitely is not a small village.) In my dream, I could walk from one end of the village to the other easily, and that was good because I was supposed to be a priest at St. John's church which was at the opposite end of the village, and I could walk there. I found out that an important member of the congregation had died, and I wrote to the bishop to enquire whether I could hold a simple funeral service, and was reprimanded in the letter back that for such important people the funeral had to be lavish.

Meanwhile returning to food and cooking, I discovered that there was not a grocery store in Oxford, too small a village for that. So one had to go to the next town over to the store.

In other news, I now was not going to be a priest after all! I was applying for a job as a research assistant. Now luckily this was just a non-lucid dream because few people in waking life ever get a job by explaining that the research of the professor in question does not really interest me, but I can do the job.

Ultimately though I decided that it may be too dangerous to go to Oxford after all, because war was coming. I knew that war was coming because people were arguing more than usual. I thought that maybe I could prevent war from starting in Oxford (how???) but that I was not going to be able to do it nationwide, and thus it might be too dangerous to be there after all. I should go back to the US instead.

Incidentally, this was not my first dream in which I thought war was coming and that thus it would be safer to stay in the US. I appear not to have noticed that I was single without kids and probably significantly younger than in waking life.

1. [non-lucid][game]
Was playing MTA racing around in cars in a not too big square black tiled shiny room with 3 others, there's a small red curve floored room in the back that teleports you to a different area that looks identical to the other area.
One of the others car becomes too damaged, sets on fire and starts chasing us as to take us with him when he explodes, he failed to take anyone with him. I had the same fate and set on fire but I took one of them out as I exploded and died.