non-lucid

Saturday, 6/8/13

Last night bed 9:30pm

DR 11:30 pm - Long dream about becoming lucid and going about having fun in a LD. I'm assuring myself that I'm not scared to go through walls, because I want to get to another place and that's a good way to do it.

DR 3:19 am - Friend of mine lives on a huge mountain that's to the left of my house. I'm surprised that I never knew she lives there.

So we start slowly walking up the hill to her house. It's a long winding dirt path going through very different areas.

1. We come up to a field with some trees in a row - like a windbreak. Right above the path are huge and imposing power lines. I'm looking through them to the rocky mountains quite near behind them, partially covered with snow. I look at the clouds. They look like before or after storm. I ask why is there such a different weather than below the hill. I get an answer, that different weather fronts are meeting right there, so there is lots of storms and cooler weather. I look below at the large lake. It's a nice place and I like it a lot.

I'm worried that a thunderstorm is gonna start any minute. We are at a bad spot, right beneath the power lines. So I start running to the left through the field. I see a small area, that looks like a memorial for fallen soldiers. As I come closer, it's actually a memorial for someones wedding. I see small picture of bride and groom.

There are some candles and old, chewed up, barely still showing their yellow original color tennis balls, arranged in a semi circle. A kid sits down and starts throwing the balls at the memorial. I give him a speech about respect.

2. Another area is like a small alpine village. Steep, winding path between houses. Friend shows me her house in the distance, but I'm not sure which one she is pointing at.

3. Next I'm walking through a multistory restaurant. The path is apparently going through it. I can't find my way. Waiters are busy preparing meals for something big. One of them starts yelling at me "no, no, don't step there". I look down and there are some plates wtih food and gravy boats. I tell him to chill, I wasn't gonna step on them. But then a piece of meat falls out from the sandwich I'm eating and he gets pissed that it almost fell into the gravy. I'm thinking "what the hell is food doing on the floor anyway". I ask him where is exit and he points me to it.

4. As I exit the restaurant, I find myself standing on a train platform in 19th. century Japan. I hear the words "Fukuoka" and "Dobare". A japanese woman with a child is pointing at a sign in Japanese written on the wall behind the tracks. It apparently means that direction goes to Tokyo. I'm thinking, how in the world am I going to continue my trip around the world, now that I'm stuck in 19. century Japan. No airplanes, just slow boats. I figure, since I'm already here, I should stay for about a year to really get to know the place.

DR 7:26am - Someone is pregnant again, either me or my brother. I'm with my cats in my old room, boy cat has a baby.

Fragment: My aunt and uncle came over, and my uncle had some kind of task for me to do. It was really arduous and I didn't want to do it, but I would have felt bad saying no because I don't see him often.

Dream 1 (not sure if pre or post-WBTB): I was at what appeared to be the church, but with the aisles divided by walls. Only the front area (where the altar would have been, but wasn't) was open. There were a bunch of girls in their mid or late teens that were going to take part in some ceremony. I was just kind of wandering around aimlessly, I think.

Then I went to the back of the church, where there was something (a TV) through which I learned that K and W had been on a stupid reality show and they were talking about the results and how their relationship had improved so greatly. They didn't appear as themselves, though, but as some kind of puppets or cartoon characters. I'm sure at least one was a lion.


Fragment: I got a negative feedback on eBay and was worried that no one would buy from my shop anymore.

1. [non-lucid]
Nothing but a few fragments.

Fragments:
Someone wearing some sort of pointy hooded dark brown cloak and black goggles with a table infront, it was a dark room I think.
There was lightning outside making the room flash white.

2. [non-lucid]
Nothing but a few fragments.

Fragments:
My sports tutor from college randomly turned up. (I miss him)
It was dark and raining.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid , Side Notes.

Fragment #1: I remember something about snowy flat lands, a fortress, a girl and some sort of point system.

Fragment #2: I remember being on a sandy beach talking about dreams

Bed Camping: So i'm in a field at night with a couple of friends, and we're camping on a bed... And we start to hear weird noises. I take my Ultrafire flashlight out and turn it on (it works! but instead of being like my Ultrafire, it now has the intensity of a small red flashlight D: but it works nonetheless and i can see) I shine the flashlight across the field and see a ton of caribou (i think that's spelled right, the deer looking animals). They are just standing all around our little camp site. I decide it's now a nice time to get out of here so i start to collect my things when my friend says "Baraka!" I think he was trying to say barracuda but either way, i shine my light over to where he is looking and i see a bobcat, my other friend starts screaming and that causes the bobcat to start attacking us. My two friends get on atv's and get out of there but this leaves me with no way out but running D: and this is where i wake up.

Part 1, Fugitive: I think i remember either killing some one or stealing something, either way, my dream self is on the run from the law. My dream self also happens to be blind in this dream , my eyes are kind of rotting out but i can still see so i don't pay much attention to it. Anyway, there's a huge shopping mall on this big farm, i'm running away from the mall and into the woods. I think i remember being chased and i somehow decide to turn around as i get somewhat deep in the woods in the direction i'm going which is south (mall is north). So i go back north to the mall and go east. I go through some woods and get to a canyon mountain place, there seems to be a military base on top of these rocky hills. I'm almost spotted so i turn north and climb around the small mountain, i find some gear and manage to make a spear. I then continue north towards the treeline. As i make my way back north, i find myself approaching the mall again....? I decide to go south back into the woods. I go south and then west a little and find myself at this abandoned house. It's now night time. i go into the house and look out the window back at where i came from. I see a trailer with people in it, it's a group of about 4-5 people. Their heights are all mixed, some are tall, some are short, one was a girl. Their age may have varied too. They are also all wearing crowns on their heads. I start to get a strange feeling of fear, my dream self thinks these people have some sort of super powers and are very dangerous. They notice me and i duck down, i then think i remember hearing a knocking at the door, i use my spear and kill the person on the other side. Next thing i know, i hear police approaching so i run as fast as i can. Yet again, i end up back at the farm with the mall, except this time i'm by the house which is east of the mall. I walk over to the fence and see a boy and a man talking. Even though i may be captured or they may report the police i walk over anyway. I introduce myself to the boy, his eyes are rotting out too, and he looks like he's on the verge of death. I then head back south into the same woods for the third time but it's getting dark and machines with bright lights are tearing away the woods looking for me. I dodge a machine and get into the woods, i won't last long here. I eventually get trapped and decide to hide in a bush, however, people in suits find me, the lights are very bright, i can't see their faces and i wake up.

Part 2, Killing machine: This dream seems to have the same beginning plot as the last dream except this time, instead of running, i'm literally gunning my way through the mall that was mentioned in the last dream. I have a rifle and shotgun. I battle on the bottom floor of the mall for quite some time. I'm killing creatures that look as if they came from Left 4 dead. After it's safe enough, i make my way to the second floor of the mall, i'm in an enclosed room , i see luffy from one piece in this room, He doesn't threaten me and eventually makes his way out of the room. I also see a survivor from my battle downstairs so i freak out and shoot him with the shotgun and then somehow set the room on fire. The fire forces me to leave. Next thing i remember i'm in a gun store at the north most end of the mall, i gear up and then i proceed to make my way into the last room at the end of the mall but metal detectors some how have forcefields connected to them now so i jump over the metal detectors guarding the room. This is all i can remember of this dream.

Part 3, Movie time: This dream also has the same beginning as the first dream. Except this time, i find out that this dream and the past dreams were all nothing but movies i made for a class and the different dreams were different edits i did to see which movie plot i liked better. In this one, it's sort of hard to remember but i think i somehow blasted the mall into space with me on it, i then traveled to the outside mall wall and shot something which causes the mall to fall back down to earth. I then quickly traveled to another dimension and fought the spirits of the mall as it was crashing back down. When it got there, i remember waking up and traveling to the north end of the mall, it was mostly destroyed, it was night out and the police were coming to arrest me. I looked around at the moderate sized pit created from the crash. I then remember the movie award being given to a friend and me getting second place. I was mad but there was nothing i could do, i was wounded and the police were coming. Sounds strange since it was a movie but i guess it was a mix of both.

Finally, I get to sleep in and I couldn't stop dreaming. I must have had close to ten distinct dreams (WBTB) and there was a wide range of them. They involved all of my dream signs (driving, my girlfriend, school) and one of my RC's (text changing/not staying constant). Three of them were "Layer 0' dreams, were at the end I got frustrated with the dream and decided "I've had enough with this dream, time to wake up!". I even had an inception dream where I went from laying in bed trying to LD in waking life, to laying in bed trying to LD in a dream, then falling asleep inside that dream and having another dream that involved me re-attending high school (one of my dream signs). Yet despite all of this, there was no lucidity. That just seems improbable, but at least the opportunity was there.

Dream recall from today's naps.

I was watching playthrough of some video game that was third person game and the main character was weird white robot thing with three antennas on the top of the head. There was one level that was in white city, there were a few buildings and it was full of secrets, but player decided to skip them. Then i was looking up those secrets and was playing the game, one of secrets was on the top of the highest building, and only way there was through some difficult platforming. . At the top there was an entrance into brown area with Doom-like textures and some items. While getting back down game transformed.... into a lego of all things and i broke antennas on character's head, i was confused. Weird radio like voice started playing somewhere and...
I wake up there's still this weird voice, so i must be dreaming, i am about to rub hands but i wake up.

This is a recurring dream that I haven't had in some time.

I was being chased through a graveyard by hooded mages and some vicious dogs. It was late evening. The dogs looked like the hell hounds from Nazi Zombies or the Dawngaurd DLC for Skyrim. All black, big, bulky, insanely fast and glowing red eyes. Usually I get cornered by my perusers at a tall black, metal gate, but this time I manadged to hop over it. I ran towards a Mausoleum with a tower on top and took refuge inside. It was dark and I could still hear the barking of the dogs and someone shouting for someone to get the gate open. I climbed a ladder that led to the top of the tower. As I ascended I realised that it was now earlier in the day (Sunset) and the hooded mages and demon dogs were gone. From the top of the tower I could see a family paying respects at one of the grave stones. I climbed down the outside of the tower, excited to tell them about this strange and magical crypt that I'd discovered. I opened the tall black gate and tried to greet them but the further away from the tower I was the darker it became. The hooded mages and the beasts reappeared and were now chasing me again except they were able to continue as I'd opened the gate. The Demon dogs cornered me so I was unable to make it back into the crypt. They didn't attack however they just circled me for a while as I had my back to the fencing Then the stillness that falls on my dreams when I can either remember no more or begin to wake up came.

Sleep Pattern:

Timings:
Time Awake - 08:30 to ~03:00
Lights Out - 02:30
Sleep - ~3:00

No attempts or methods, just trying to fall asleep.

1st Recalled Awakening - ~11:00

I think that I woke up earlier in the morning but I did not check the time or record anything.

Last Recalled Awakening - ~11:15

Woke up from a dream to my alarm.

Up - 12:00

Modifiers the Day Before:
-Halo 3 with friends.

Modifiers Going to Sleep:
-Still sick.
-Computer and phone.

Modifiers Getting Up:
-Class at 13:00

Dreams:
Tried to solidify dreams I recalled while laying in bed after first recalled awakening, remembering some 3 or 4 dreams or fragments. Forgot a portion of them since then... Not in chronological order, just in what I remember.

1) Some brief dream after 1st Awakening. Recall a reddish or greenish (or both) galaxy when I was woken up by my alarm.

2) Working backstage at or watching a show at a school. Mix of my middle school and high school. Walked through the halls and outside, found a friend and a former classmate. Semi-lucid / lucid.

not a lucid but pretty weird lol, anyways it starts I'm in an abandoned desert town at sunset with a bunch of random people, some how i know cowboy zombies are coming on horseback to grab us and before i can do any thing to create a plan to get away from them i see these horses coming over a sand dune in front of the huge reddish sun and my immediate thoughts are oh sh** and i just book it, next thing i know they are right in front of me. for some reason i end up somewhere else ( I'm still in the same dream, i can tell because everything feels the same and same landscape) and so i am in this huge type of rock trench structure in the desert and i instantaneously know that this isn't a good place to be once i see all these enslaved starving humans. I'm walking around the place and then i see this huge black Minotaur and i just start running and run right in to a cave and I'm being chased by the creature then after about what felt like 5 min of running they just said i could hang out with them well they didn't say it i just knew that they would let me be their friends and then i woke up, lol

Oh boy oh boy, have I been slacking. Somehow I managed to have a lucid and almost successfully get back into the dream with the FILD technique, but I haven't actually been on the forums for a few days. Damnit. I need to work on my consistency with these types of things. Really.
Let's start with a dream I had a few days ago that I now only vaguely remember due to my laziness. My older brother had gotten a new girlfriend and now we were all going to go to dinner with her, and the dream was two dinners. The first one went fine, and then during the second one I got into a bit of a fight with my brother and elbowed him.
That's it. Look how vague that is. That's what happens when you wait instead of writing down the dream as soon as possible. By the way, I probably had a lot of dreams before this about Game of Thrones, because I went on some episode-watching sprees before going to bed. I can't remember any of those dreams, though. So, on to the second dream and the lucid.
The second dream I can remember in a bit more detail. There was some event going on at school, I can't remember exactly what, but I wanted to bring in my guitar to play I think during lunch. Anyway, I bring it in and we have the event and I don't even end up playing it, I think. Then, when I'm going out of the school with one of my friends who we shall call M ( stereotypically, I know ). M and I are on our way out of the school to go and get into our parents' cars, I think, where of course our parents are waiting for us. By the way, the event takes place somewhere that is not actually in my actual school, and is a sort of warmly lit amphitheater type place. Anyway, on the way of going out to get into the cars and see our parents I realize that I've left the guitar back in the amphitheater so I think " Well, I'll just leave it and get it the next day I come in to school." But then I realize that this is the last day of school and I won't be back until about 3 months, so I say crap, I guess I'll go get it. M goes with me, I think I ask him, and I'm not sure if we actually go back into the amphitheater and make it that far, but I do have memories of seeing the guitar there, along with what was the tuner, which I remembered I left there too. But let's just say on the way, because I'm not completely sure, we meet this Asian kid who does actually go to the school, although I can't remember his name because he's I think one class above me so I don't really know him that well or see him a lot. Anyway, my friend M stops and talks to him and he's wearing one of those graphic shirts that says something like " My ( strange helicopter thing ) is better than you're " or something like that. The weird thing about it was, it had this plastic sort of round plastic thing that had the strange helicopter thing, which I can't remember the name of exactly, something like X10 or like that, in the box and foam or something under it and you were supposed to spin the helicopter thing around with a handle that was on it to clear out some of the foam, which I did. After that I just remember being a bit worried that I wasn't going to have time to get the guitar and being a little annoyed at M.
I think it was at this point that I went lucid, and lifted my hands to my face and then rubbed them, but I think I'm just going to try to focus on my surroundings next time. I think always focusing so much on my hands may be one of the reasons that I keep waking up.
The good thing is that when I woke up this time I tried to FILD with the technique, and I think I came close several times to going back into the dream. My ears kept making loud wooshing noises and my vision kept clouding up with white at the same time that the woosh got louder. I think that I would have successfully gotten back into the dream if it weren't for my mom talking outside my door. Damnit. Oh well, the next time I exit out of a dream I'll try it again. But let's stop the damn slacking! Yeeeeaaahhhhhhhhhhh.

I am such a pacifist and this dream was very violent for me. I was with a group of people and we caused mass destruction, trashing a house and blowing up a large building with a very large bomb. I was surprised that we didn't get hit by shrapnel as we were standing quite close, looking at it. Then we seemed to cause a lake to dry up.

Inside the house we trashed was a beautiful ballroom with one wall all mirrored but the mirror was gone and the wallpaper just loose and peeling once we were done with it. It had just turned into this dead room. It was like that house looked in Fight Club - an absolute mess. I was kinda sad about everything and that I had been a part of it.

Friday 6/7/13

Last night bed 12:30 - 7:05

DR NEW AGENT: (IWL watching first episode of Graceland, show about FBI agents)
I'm a new agent. Standing outside of a building, looking in at the dark corridor. I'm not scared, I have a flashlight, and I see the light is on at the end of the corridor (watching World War Z on Wednesday IWL.)
I shoot all bullets from my pistol, so I have to go to nearest precinct and get some more. I walk into a huge squad room. People dressed in black and white. Most of them are looking at me - I'm the new guy, plus not from their squad. I playing it cool, like Will Smith would do, just saying "Hi, how are ya?"

DR: GIVING BIRTH and GETTING MARRIED - can this get any worse?
So, I'm very pregnant. Naked, 2 nurses around me. I'm at home. I'm asking them how long till dialating and then how long after. I get a shot in my right knee. Nurse repeats 2 times what it is, but I don't remember.

Now I'm in a classic white wedding gown. If I wasn't distracted by the fact that I'm about to give birth, I would so hated that. At the altar, I'm thinking I'm getting married to this girl. Turns out, she is getting married to the girl standing on her left. Why am I in a gown, I don't know. She says she forgot to kiss me, but now it may not be appropriate.

I was at Disney Land with BN. We walked past 3 rides, and I told him that I'm not going on any. He said he wanted to go on the pirate ship one. I pointed to the line and said that since I already turned in the tickets, we can go now. We went in to line and I pointed at a yellow ticket, and a red ticket saying that they're mine. We walked closer, but they were under another person's name. We stayed in line, but didn't know what to do. A guy at the front of the line passed us two yellow tickets attached with a yellow paper. We realized that we need to pay for the tickets after a few minutes. We went out of the line, and saw PW, and AA walk by. I asked them where we pay for the tickets, and they pointed to the ticket center in front of the pirate ride. We got to the front desk, and BN grabbed a card with two columns. The left one said "day", and the right one said "night". The first box for "night" was already checked, B then check in the first "day" box and handed it to the lady.

Thursday 6/6/13

DR: I'm on a bus trip in a foreign contry. Getting on a bus with my class to see a play. Some naked girls! are already sitting in the back of the bus, so I pic a place on the left front. Bus looks like a smaller theater inside. Wide rows of comfy seats.

I walk outside to look for my friend. I see a volcano erupting in the distance. Then, I'm shown 2-3 closeup pictures of lava pools. Some are erupting, some are not. I aim my camera and notice the screen is narrow. I check the settings and adjust. Zoom in and see the volcano erupting. My friend is running towards us. She was taking pictures closer to the volcano.

Date: 7 June

Total sleep time: 8+ hrs

Pre bed: SJW, B6

Sleep quality and WBTB: I have been sleeping like a sloth all week long. One thing I have changed in my WBTB routine was to switch from using an alarm to using natural wakes. This has worked out partially fine. I do wake up naturally 2-3 times after sleeping 4-5 hrs. I think that in this way I am allowing my body to determine the best time for WBTB, instead of me forcefully using the alarm. The only problem is that, out of fear not to cause insomnia and possibly due to laziness, my WBTBs were not as serious as they should have been, thus not raising alertness to desired for LD levels. Will have to work on that.

Dream recall: While my recall has been somewhat reduced by my sleepiness, I have additionally been skimming my dreams. I have been putting only keywords instead of journaling, which has allowed me to...sleep more. The dreams weren't too interesting, so there wasn't much that I have missed apart from a brief lucid yesterday, that I couldn't access at all. I think that's fine so far.

WBTB: peppermint oil capsules

Dream1 DILD: I missed the transition. I suddenly find myself in front of my parents' place but the way it was a few years ago. I spend some time looking around, feeling happy. Then the neighborhood begins to morph into other buildings from my home town, so I stop staring at them, because I feel that I am causing the change. I check out my hands and they are in a mudra. After yesterday's discussion, I now wonder if I should try meditating in the dream or try to recall a past memory. I spend too much time in idleness and the dream escapes. I find myself in the void.

I feel that if I wake up I can successfully DEILD back. I am in the void and not back in bed yet but get confused because I feel my body? Obviously this is my dream body and some dream is starting to form, but I think that I am in my bed feeling my real body. In real life I am sleeping in my bed, but the body I feel while in the void is sitting in a chair. I am too dumb to realize that this is my dream body, get irritated with the strange position I have assumed, try to change it and lie down? I struggle in the dark. Then I wake up in another dream.

Dream2: Short FA, where I am in bed, reviewing the event and now completely sure after the dream that whatever I couldn't remember yesterday was indeed a very short LD where I didn't get much done.

I wake up (left side) for real and take key notes

Dream3: An elegant Asian woman talks about investment opportunities. She recommends that Western countries allocate 50 percent of FDI to China and the other 50 to Malaysia. This interview happens during some event. While this is happening I hear a piano playing. It is part of the melody from Mika's Grace Kelly. The sound is astonishing.

Fragment4: A classmate follows me around kissing me. While it feels pleasant I try to avoid him because I have a bf.

Fragment5: Me and a friend enter in a luxurious store where they sell toothpaste. It slowly changes and is now some kind of bar full of hookers.

Fragment6: I look into the nearby building and Christian Slater is there with more hookers having some night party

Fragment7: Me and bf, no comments

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Progress with this month's goals:

- Do 100 RCs (added)
- notice real life DS 100 times and RC (added)
- 10 proper WBTB attempts -> days (3/10)
- 10 morning RCs (1/10)
- 2 proper WILD attempts (0/2)
- task flexibility
- journal flexibility