non-lucid

1. I’m trying to park the van at Walmart and mom is getting on to me so much because I’m doing a bad job of it (running over the curb/grass). She mentions someone who does the same thing.

I go to my room and hide in the corner beside my dresser and against my closet door. I’m picking at a white rope that’s tacked into a hole in the corner of the dresser. Mom comes into my room and tries to cheer me up but I won’t have it.

2. Seeing Melly up on a balcony (apartment-style) with a golden retriever.

Inspiration: I believeee this could come from a Shingeki no Kyojin post on Tumblr where someone posted what everyone’s breed would be as dogs, and one of them was a golden retriever but I can’t remember who!

3. Kingdom Hearts II. Roxas reminded Axel of someone (there was like a faint image in his mind), and hesitated to bring their relationship to another level because of the past. Axel tells Roxas about it and cups his cheek (I clearly saw Axel’s face around this time, otherwise it was mostly faint). I think they were on a boat?

Inspiration: Read a volume of KH2 recently and had looked up some AkuRoku things on Tumblr.

4. Talking to Pillywiggin about the most popular dream tags. I’m looking through a list on a program with a black background, but it has subcategories so it’s hard to find/sort them. ‘bindsbinding’ or something was a tag. I remember various numbers in parenthesis beside each tag group name, one was 274?

Inspiration: Before bed, I meant to look at the tag cloud on DV to see what the most used tags were.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some game and there was something about zombies, and also some cargo area.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some 2D platformer and there was one part where i had to fall through level while dodging text.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in some city in swamp, there was something about a witch, some weird stuff going on and searching for book about a specific video game, which also contained some list of achievements. Then later we were checking out another house which was guarded by some weird creatures.

I was watching a documentary with my dad about the financial crisis and how the world was ending bit by bit. I remember pointing at the screen where there wa a %20 bigger gap in the difference between wealthy and lower class. I remember pointing at the screen like just a bit over the middle of the two telling my dad "wow we just made it out of there" and my dad agreed with me saying "yep thats true". So then we started investigating into the issue so and found all these truths about banks and all other corporations that are super corrupt that caused this giant mess.

Had a lucid dream within a dream, not sure if this counts or not. In the dream I was in

the theatre at college trying to go to sleep with my friend Zenna, who had kind of shed

her head when she was lucid dreaming. It’s not as bad as it sounds it was just like an

imprint of her head, she still looked the same, I then fell asleep and was really excited

that I was lucid dreaming but had to be careful not to wake up. In the Lucid dream I

was still in the theatre and my old English teacher (who I still see round college and

talk to all the time) was there so I made her melt onto the floor like a candle. I was

then in my bedroom and was making my reflection talk to me, which I did. I was

trying to remember the list which I saw on dreamviews of things you can try to do

and at the time I thought making my reflection talk was one of them although I think I

just made that up. I also tried to make myself bleed because I thought that was on the

list too – it didn’t work, I also tried to fly and failed at that. I kind of lost and regained

lucidity during the dream within a dream

Hypnagogia: A man's voice laughing, deeply unpleasant.

A man and a woman in what looks like an interrogation room, although he is technically free to go at any time, and the organization this woman belongs to isn't exactly law enforcement. There's a woman, not human, something else, something dangerous, who's coming for this man - she's not a danger to him, but she is to everyone else - and the people here need to know his story before she gets there. He says to the human woman in the room with him, "And the bounty? P.Big's?" P.Big being the name of the larger of the two bounties he'd recently turned in - these people had confiscated his reward money, along with the rest of his belongings. That's the main reason he's still here. She says, "You can have it back. In exchange for the war story."

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

A man waiting for a tow truck finally hears a vehicle pull up outside, goes to the window to look. There's a woman in a firefighter's uniform entering the house through the back door, without him noticing, and she watches as the man is killed by a wire around his throat. The two men who killed him pick up his body, standing right next to her but not looking at her or acknowledging her in any way.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

There's a boy with an older woman - possibly his grandmother, though relatively young for it, someone who doesn't live with him but who stopped by today - he's crouching in a corner with a weapon, listening to what he believes is someone with a gun in his home. He's eager to face them. Footsteps approach the door, the door opens - it's the gardener/maid, and she's carrying a leaf blower, not a rifle. She makes the usual small talk and walks on. His grandmother says to him that she is not going to ask what he was thinking, she is not going to dignify this by discussing it, but she wants him to think about what just happened.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Last dream was just fragments, but had similar themes from the earlier dreams: something about a boy, an older woman who knows better than him, and a war.

last night the only thing i remember from my dream is that i lent my airsoft gun to a friend so that they could use it to get payback at the people who had upset him/her i do not remember what friend it was. anyways my friend took the gun and looked over it to make sure that it was full of bb's i said that i hadn't charged the battery in a while but then i changed my mind and said nvm i just charged it and had only forgotten about it. my friend that started shooting and then the friend turned their aim towards me and started shooting me with dozens of bbs i then somehow got the gun from the friend and check the ammo it looked like a digital display and each bb was labeled with its weight like .25, .20, .12 and i was thinking why are there so many different types of bb's in the magazine but i just let it go and took my turn to shoot the people around me. I then woke up consciously knowing that i had just left a dream, and so this just adds to the success of my montra.

Friday, 9/13/13

Last night bed 11pm - 7:08am

DR - I'm in a group setting. Room is bright, rather large, feeling of a hospital. We appear to be group of volunteers. I don't really feel like a volunteer, though.

I'm holding a breathing mask to my face, that's connected to a machine. They are testing some new LDing drug. The test has few stages. First we need to inhale something to calm us down, or something like that. I don't really want to do it.

I reluctantly put the mask to my face and a feel puffs of the gas. I thought there is a continuous stream of gas, but no. I hear a faint mechanical click, when the flap openes and lets a puf of gas into the mask. I feel it on my face and I inhale. A doctor is walking from person to person, checking us with stetoscope. I lay down and pretend to be asleep, so he doesn't come to me. But he does anyway. So I start asking him how safe it is what we are doing.

Then they say the name of the drug. It's short, just maybe 3 letters, and starts with P. In my dream, I know about this drug and a finally decide, that it would be ok for me to test it, even exciting.

Lucid dream AND task of the month! It's a long dream, though, so let's get started... interestingly enough, my lucid was actually in the beginning of the dream, it's usually in the end.

(edit: weird, the first part of it got cut... maybe my iPad is going crazy, so writing the first part again now)

I was at the top of a bridge or something and there were Game Of Thrones people with me. I think they told me to jump, I dunno, I didn't want to, but they pushed me. As I was falling... "FINE, I CAN FLY ANYWAY, THIS IS A DREAM!" and sure enough, I was flying. Once again, I started acting like I was swimming so that I could fly better. I guess this is my flying technique now.

I started swimming/flying too fast and it felt like I was being dragged into outer space because of the velocity. I knew I had tasks to do, so I decided to fly down. Once again, I was going too fast. It was fun, though.

I landed and lost lucidity, but the dream was still the same.

I was in an old house (I think that should be a dream sign by now) and there was a bit of a party going on. Not a huge party, but there were some people on the kitchen. I walked in and got a bowl of cereal because it was a breakfast party.

As I was eating, I looked around and, uh, wait... breakfast party? DREAM! I had told myself right before I fell asleep that I had to sing the ABC song in a dream, so thankfully, I remembered that.

And so I began singing. People around me started singing and dancing to it (I've been watching Smash, so my mind has been into a musical mood lately), it was quite the show. I started laughing cause my cereal changed into letters and they kept changing into random words.

I got to the end of the song and I realised I don't actually know how it ends. I was like "now I know my abc... uh... guys? What comes next?" and they stopped dancing, shrugged and started leaving.

I freaked out cause I wanted to finish it, so I followed them out of the kitchen. When I stepped out of it, I was in what looked like an undergroung bathroom, very dirty and dark. Lucidity was gone.

My mother was there and she was taking a shower. A man appeared behnd her and he stabbed her with a spear. I think I was still a little aware that this wasn't real, because I started shouting that we had to rewind that, but my mum just died. I took the spear from the guy and killed him.

I woke up and tried to WILD. No success. Fell asleep again.

I was with my ex and we were at this huge bus station. She said she had to see something, so we left the place. I told her it was stupid and that we had to go back before the bus left. She finally agreed and... when we got there, the bus was leaving.

I shouted that we NEEDED that bus and a guy who worked there told me we could run after it, cause it was going really slowly. Then he realised it was wrong and he said he'd help us. He called the driver and asked him to stop the bus and wait for us.

We got a taxi (?) from the bus station to where the bus was. When we got there, the driver was restless because there were zombies around. I got out of the taxi and I saw a zombie approaching the window next to my ex. I told her to get out of there, but she sat there, being stupid. I threw myself inside of it and tried to drag her, but the zombie bit her.

I finally got her out of the taxi, but the bus driver took a gun and shot her. I remember feeling guilty because I had failed to save my mother too (even though it had been in another dream). I shrugged and went inside the bus.

When I stepped inside, it was an RV and people were living there. I found a place to sleep and they started talking about missions. There were some rooms and everything, it was like a little house. They told me I had to go to town and get stuff for us to eat.

I said okay and I had a partner. I was driving the RV and she was next to me. I ran into some zombies, lost control of the RV and crashed. We got out of it and it exploded. We werre surrounded by zombies, so we started running and I went inside a store.

It was closed and abandoned, but I found my parents there. They told me they were also on a mission and they were sad I had gotten the RV destroyed, since we all lived there.

I apologised and we started taking clothes, food and soap to take back to the people who were waiting for us. The girl that had come with me found a car:



She said it would be tight, but the group could live there. I doubted it, but took the car anyway and started driving back to the group, the girl and my parents with me.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps. Awareness being pretty low again in lucid, didn't even remembered anything goal-wise(though remembered at least something overall).

Dream 1(fragment):

Something about dragons.

Dream 2(fragments):

I am doing something at home and i am on PC, suddenly i feel that i am dreaming and decide to check URL history because i haven't checked internet in dream before, there's alot of links in history but all of them are leading to some site literally called "Spam" and url followed by series of random numbers and letters(like "http:/Spam/AY7D878837JR89E8E8823294/JUFJ8EWJ89EWF" for example), the site itself looks like most generic bland site ever. Then i get up and dream fades out. I wake up.

Dream 3(fragment):

I was in some icy place.

I woke up somewhere in the middle of the night and I instantly got not a very vivid dream recall. Well this is how I remember it:

DR 1:
I was in my room and outside it was very dark because sun has just lowered beneath the horizon. In my room there wasn't any light except the last little light traces that came in my room through my half opened window and the light from my laptop. Suddenly my mom entered the room and said that I was grounded so I had to be in my room. When she left the room I took my laptop and sat on my bed. Suddenly my girlfriend was right next to me. Interesting that I opened some porn site to be honest and in that moment my girlfriend took my laptop from me without my will and she opened some funny and a little creepy pictures. On one picture there was a woman with short blond hair and facial hairs on her face: beard and mustache. She looked like a man. In that moment I got really angry and told her that she leaves me alone I think I am not sure if I said that and then I started to yell and scream very loud and then I woke up.

Thursday, 9/12/13

I just remembered a dream from last night.

I'm in a room with someone. There is a small radio playing. I think it's haunted, I unplug it and it's still playing for a few seconds. I take it and start smashing it on some sharp corner or some furniture, while yelling "oh yeah? Sing now, mofo"!

Date: September 12, 2013
Technique: MILD & WBTB (failed WILD...I fell asleep)
Total hours: ???

Dreamed I was watching people commit suicide by watching them jump from what looked like a very high wall made up of the biggest rocks I have ever seen. After all had jumped, I somehow found myself at the bottom of the wall on the ground. None of them (and I mean none of them) died. As they rolled their bodies from side to side, they just laid there moaning and groaning in pain. They looked up and saw me standing there and they told me that they wish they could have a second chance and not have done what they have done. I didn't know what to tell them, I didn't know if they could even walk from the horrific jump they had taken...I was sure that they were all paralyzed. They kept wailing from the pain and looking for some type of relief that I couldn't give them. "Oh, how we wish we could start all over!" they cried. Then, all of a sudden, I noticed a stair case was on either side of the wall leading back up to where they had all started their jump from the wall. I told them, "Look! There's a staircase! Go up to that staircase and start all over, whatever you do, DON'T JUMP!" And guess what? That is exactly what they did. One by one, they got up and walked up those stairs and never came back. I made sure to stay at the bottom of the wall, just to make sure that no one jumped again. I waited for awhile until I realized, no one was coming back down that wall...each one had gotten their second chance .

My position in the dream was somewhat unclear in the beginning. There were two archaeologists as the primary characters (primary for the beginning, at least) and they both seemed like extensions of myself (more so than usual dream projections) and I was overlooking them from a sort of omnipresent/third person point of view. They were digging into a plot of dry earth (think hard sand/clay) and one of the digging tools they were using was this long Indiana Jones-esque whip, but this whip was electric and had a hook at the end of it. One of them would strike the whip and hook it into the ground, and it would electrocute the ground so it would break apart, and then they would pull the ground up by pulling back on the whip. After witnessing this I unnoticingly became the two archeologists, but as one archeologist. I peered into the hole in the ground I (or they, or we) just created and all I saw was a great void, which lead me to the conclusion that the world is flat. However, I looked again and say a mirror image of what was around me being symmetrically replicated on the other side, which lead me to the conclusion that the world if flat, but double layered with two parallel universes. The location all of the sudden became the guest room/office of my house, and I went to get my mom (who was in the same room, but I had to leave to get her?) so I could show her my discovery, but when I 'returned' with her, the ground was now wood flooring that has been indented inwards where the hole was. I told her that she could get back to what she was doing as I dug the whole back up. I began ripping the wood up and had to move around lumber and cinder blocks, but everything was already loosened up, and to this I rationalized that it was all loose from the initial dig, and then I woke up.

Wednesday: Angel wings on someone, a wolf (me?)

-A man gets in water to heal, but apparently there’s some (light gray) stain left over that a woman points out on his chest. He thinks it may just be a stain on his shirt, but when he lifts up the shirt, the imprint is on his body too.

He’s at home and wondering how to tell his family.

-Someone (me?) is drawing in pen. They lean back and see that it’s a picture of Kabeyama (from Inazuma Eleven), but he’s a bit off on one side.

-A girl (possibly Ella) in a house talking (to me?).

Note: Still fixing my sleep schedule, so I’m tired lately and my recall/productivity is suffering.

Dream 1(fragments):

Was playing some multiplayer game that kinda looked like minecraft and i had to fight other players on rather small weird shaped island over the void. Weapons were various and not related to minecraft though.

Dream 2:

I was in the futuristic city and i've discovered that i had some special abilities that everyone described as 'reality hacking' but i couldn't control them well yet, police and government started chasing me so i had to retreat. Some other person with abilities have found me, he had transformation abilities and he used them to scare the chasers off. We started talking about something and in the end he said that we need to move to different city to find someone else important. Soon we exited the city and were traveling through forests, i figured out some of my abilities and with one of them i could make myself really huge.
Then in the another city we were infiltrating a building which presumable was the location of who we were searching for. The building itself was pretty old and it literally barely standed, we have used abilities to clear the place from any forces that were searching for us, though the dude went a bit overboard transforming into some sort of red T-Rex thing making it much more noisy that we planned. When we were done we entered the building, i heard some weird 'announcer' voice and asked dude about it since he also heard it, he said that it's something that only people with those abilities can hear and that their team uses it for some messages. We have progressed through a few rooms full of tech stuff and decided to split up. Soon i've found a group of some people that were guarding the place and decided to fool around with them since they didn"t really knew that i had abilities.
Soon i've found who we were searching for in one of the rooms, she was a child and she didn't really knew why those people were holding her here. I've convinced her to try getting out of here as most of the guards were busy in one of the rooms, and she did. I"ve searched for dude but accidentally got back into the room of guards, this time they knew who i am so i ended up striking building's weakpoint to collapse this part of it onto them, almost ended up in some kind of pit beyond the walls and rubble but i could fly with wings and i got out using them. Back in the other part of building i've found that reinforcements have arrived on our side in form of two more people with abilities, one of them could make technological objects 'alive' by channeling some colored energy into them and they were talking and stuff, we have found some info that way. Dude from earlier was here too, and together, not forgetting the child, we went out of the city back into forest.
There we met up with two more people, a man with ridiculous hair and a woman, they had abilities too and apparently were very powerful and kind of 'leaders'. We all started discussing various stuff and planning something via world map.