non-lucid

Thursday 8/1/13

Bed last night around midnight - 8:30 am.

Nap 3pm - 4pm

DR - last minutes of the nap

I'm fooling around with a classmate from elementary school. I tell him to stop, because I think he has a girlfrend. Then I ask him if he has one and tell him that if he doesn't, we can continue.

I'm in a small, rectangular room, that's adjacent to my room. That room has shelves with trays full of different kinds of bread. Long bagettes, loafs... I walk throught the room and I have a feeling, it doesn't belong to me, but they trust me to be there. I break of a tiny piece of bread and eat it. I'm disappointed in myself, since I have never done that before. I wonder if there are cameras. I'm disturbed with what i have done and go back to my room to get some money. I see price labels next to each bread tray, so I'm gonna pay for the whole loaf.

I remembered later, there were some delicious looking bread sticks standing in a cup. Sprinkled with some spices and cheese, from pizza dough. I felt relieved, that now I don't have to make them myself.

Dream 1(fragment):

I had to travel between various villages and cities in search for something, i was really quick.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some video game and i traveled to the past version of some village, there were metallic houses and some engineer that was making some weird cube item, i had to help him. Also there was some annoying system of points.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in some video game where i had to go through some complex with group of people and avoid various traps. There was one tricky trap that had timing problems.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was at home, looking outside, weather was changing rapidly.

I'm in some disheveled small one room apartment, the walls look like they're made of news paper. There's a mattress with soppy clothes on it, and soppy clothes piled up just as high on the floor all around, my sister and elissa are sitting on the bed, I get up on it and sit with them. They find their old work uniform from months ago we just abandoned, I thought elissa's was mine, but elissa find a plastic bag with my stuff in it and there is my uniform, we decide to put it on and go back to work if we'd be aloud even. When we get to the work I don't even know what this work is but the town is rundown and newspapery and this work place is just as bad as that apartment that I assume was our. He doesn't even care so we go back to work. I go into this room, and my damn half sister and her dork boyfriend are trying to convince me that any pills you take won't affect the baby. I tell them that I am positive that certain drugs taken will surely affect the baby of a pregnant lady, and they just laugh at me like I'm crazy and don't know what I'm talking about, (which the dork does to me in real life, fucking pretentious penis head). I tell them I will find it in my text books and that this is fact, then they proceed to try and distract me from this.

My mom tells me she want's to take me my sister and grandma somewhere. So we say okay, and suddenly we're in the area outside the adventuredome, she's sitting on a bench and she seems like she wants to get me and my sister off her hands so she can talk about something with my grandma so she says she'll buy us wrist bands for the adventuredome, first we were shocked because she's cheap, but then we think about lazer tag and roller coaster and shit, so we tell her hell yeah, and she goes into her purse and pulls out five dollars, and we tell her that's not nearly enough, last time it was twenty seven dollars per person, and fifteen dollars for one of us if we have that coupon we had last time, so she fake laughs and pulls out a ten, and we tell her it's not enough, so finally she gives us enough money, and we make our way to a ticket stand.

August 1, 2013

Goal: to remember every dream of the night, multiple dreamlets

Ranma 1/2
Ranma was about to face a tough opponent. He chickened out and didn't want to get hurt. Then Ukyo comes up with a great idea - go out as a girl. Ukyo splashes cold water on Ranma and pretties 'her' up. Ranma giggles and practices being seductive. Akane scolds him the whole time for being a pervert.

It's time for the fight. Ranma wears a seductive outfit and flirts with the opponent. The opponent collapses on the floor with a nose bleed. I thought the episode was fun but mostly I was dissapointed at how kiddy grade Ranma 1/2 is. So I put on a more adult version of Ranma 1/2. Two guys, best friends, one can turn into a girl, out in the woods. Its broke back mountain with a twist.

When my Boss stayed Over?
I had a false dream memory. The memory was a time when my old boss W stayed over at our apartment. This memory didn't make any sense to me and I questioned it the whole time. Why would someone like her stay at a craptacular apartment like ours? She seemed too high class to do that.

Then I started having more false memories trying to make sense of it. Like remembering that I cleaned up the place first - yeah right. Or remembering that she brought her own bed, naturally she wouldn't sleep on our couch.

Or maybe I got the memory completely wrong and it was only her son that stayed over. But that wasn't making any sense either. The only false memory that made any sense was that she came late at night - around 2am. This way none of the neighbors would see her shamefully stay at our place.

Either way, I was preparing the apartment because I had a feeling tonight would be the same.

A Pack of Kids
Later, I'm resting in my bedroom but there's a pack of kids harassing me. I guess mom is babysitting them and I want nothing to do with them! They keep running in and out of my room. (in real life my niece is staying over). I imagined them as a pack of annoying dogs, like labrador puppies.

Again, here they come running to my room. So I get on all fours and growl at them. Finally they got the message and stayed away.

Akira-Colonel-Meshed City
I had a short Akira dream, mostly it was about the Colonel being a fool who couldnt understand a teenager. The memory is too fuzzy now.

At some point I woke up and was going to jot down the dream, but I fell back asleep. As I was recalling the dream new dream scenes would appear in front of me. I vaguely remember Tetsuo running away in teenage angst, the city was already in ruins.

I retraced Tetsuo's steps "he must have run down this way!". I was pressed up against a chain link fence with the 'ruins' near inches away from my back. The 'ruins' was a jumbled up metallic mess, with sharp jabbing edges. The 'ruins' looked like the entire city went through a junk yard facility, compressed into an incomprehensible box. Either way I was trapped. I couldn't move an inch without the 'ruins' stabbing me.

Walking with a Stranger
I'm in the grocery store trying to recall my dreams. Some how I end up having a conversation with an older black man. I leave the grocery store and start walking with him down the street, just listening to his story. Something about his sister and mom. At that point I remember that I left my family blocks back in the grocery store. Maybe I should turn back? It seemed kinda awkward now, maybe I should just finish walking with him.

Note: Its around 7:30 now and the morning noise of my niece wakes me up. I remembered at some point in the night I tried to jot down my dreams but just fell asleep. This time I muster the effort to scribble, I fall back asleep after.

Team Evil-Naruto Mix
So, there was this evil bad guy, a guy like orochimaru mixed with sasuke. At one point in his life he was the most feared of all the bad guys, a master of all dark ninjutsu. Except now he's had some change of heart and totally sucks at anything dark.

And, the newly formed evil team has no idea that their sensei is a farse! What would they do if they found out he's a compelte softie? Kill him-worse? Fortunately his sister was also on the team and determined to save his reputation as the master of all dark ninjutsu.

The evil team members kept showing off their dark skills, powerful blasts that would incinerate or decapitate or disfigure or mutate. At one point the leader collapses from the dark attacks. The mutated team members stare curiously at their fallen leader, surely the leader of dark ninjutsu wouldn't be hurt from such a simple attack?

'of course not!' the sister quickly butts in and uses her own ninjutsu to make it appear as though her brother, the leader, is completely fine 'he didn't collapse, see he countered your skill by transforming!'

The group was satisfied and the leader's reputation was saved. The whole time I kept watching comical moments like this, with the sister coming up with all sorts of kooky excuses to save her brother, the orochimaru-sasuke mix.

Office Behind the Garden Gate
I decided to visit my former co-workers. Except the building I'm in doesn't resemble any previous job and I don't even recognize the employees. But I still tell myself I used to work here.

The retail area of the store looked like a supermarket. There was a large gate separating the retail side from the actual workspace, office side. It was a fancy iron gate, about 40ft long.

One of the guys flirts and chats with me, i tell him about my ranma dream, and he tours me around the retail side. Then one of the customer service ladies gripes that she's working all by herself! I go back to the office side, I can see why she's frustrated. Suddenly there's a horde of customers in front of her gate, but none of the employees are anywhere to be seen. And the phones won't stop ringing.

I remembered thinking that the factory crew out in the back used to make fun of the office side as being nothing but a bunch of whiners. But here I could understand her frustration. She tries to send me out there instead! No way! I don't work here anymore and I have no idea what to do anyways.

Mom Strips for the Science Lab
(she was belly dancing last night)
Mom is half naked, actually I don't remember why. I think she was getting ready but was running late and ran outside half dressed. I follow her trying to help finish getting ready. In a rush, she runs into some science laboratory, a huge museum like place. 'excuse me! coming through!'. She tried to conceal herself as she run past crowds.

We just need to find a door! Finally we run into a closet. Mom continues getting ready. I decide to get ready too. That's when I notice the closet has a camera. Someone is watching us and they're totally getting the wrong idea!

The security bust in and accuse us of doing all sorts of obscene things, perverts! My dream is fading out now - so I start to imagine how I would like it to end. I imagine that me and my mom sneak out using a food cart as a disguise. As I imagine that I walk around the museum trying to figure out which way our food cart would go.

'We'd go down this hallway, right out there to the front door!' When I looked out the window I easily floated towards it and right through it.

The museum was perched high on a cliff with an ocean waving below, it was a deep serene color. I was still drifting away without any control, simply gazing at those gentle deep waves below. I imagined that if my dream had more time I'd plunge in. I try to dive in but my dream is so floaty now I can't do much. I wondered if I would breathe under the water of I would experience my lungs taking in all that water, effectively drowning- then I wake up.

It started off with me in the middle of a plane with a bunch of other people.

It was a generic plane, nothing special about it. We landed at some place, but I stayed on for whatever reason. The only other guy left was a 18-ish year old, with brown hair, and, sort of fat.

We took off and started going to some other place when the flight attendant came out. Since there were only two people there was no need to be formal. She didn't use a microphone or anything. She asked us if we were OK with the pilot doing a couple rolls.

I said "Yeah! Sure! That would be awesome!" and the other guy must have said yes in some other way because she went up to the pilot and told him something. Since it was only two people I was lying down on the two seats to my right, and I pulled down the armrests to hold me in.

It was awesome, rolling around in there, after 4 or 5 rolls we stopped. Then

I woke up.

Dream Fragment 1: I'm standing nowhere, screaming at the top of my lungs. I don't know how long I scream but when I stop, I realize that someone is standing next to me. I suddenly find myself looking up and into the face of Stiles. He looks worried. I look down and notice that he's holding my hands. I look back up at his face and squeeze his hands in mine.

Dream Fragment 2: I'm sitting in the passenger's seat of a car. Mom is driving. We are on the freeway. I'm looking at the other side of the freeway, which is at a complete stop. There are a ton of people on the other side just walking around and doing nothing. I turn to Mom and ask her why they are doing that.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video game with a story and i had to make some kind of decision in it, then i was interrupted by BSOD.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was doing some stuff in the room and there was relatively small house in the room, like an actual brick house, it's roof was a bit broken so i started fixing it, because it's a dream as i thought, and i was pretty strong, but didn't actually realized that i was dreaming.

Dream 3:

I was playing some 2D platformer game and there was alot of dragon characters, then somebody interrupted me and said about some new zdoom mod. I checked it but it looked like some mod of brutal doom, except with custom enemies, i noticed dragons were enemies too so i decided not to play it. I was then searching for some other mods and checking out some weapon mod.
After that i found some dragon related story and started reading it, after a while of reading i got distracted and found another site, which apparently had pictures of dragons from that platformer and story, lots of pictures, and descriptions. Then there were also two big and detailed pictures of a dragon with scales of red/maroon color, two pictures were same except for that in one of them... there were no wings. Then after a bit i got back to reading story and some person came surprised that i am reading stories and asked why i wont read books instead, i explained that's because books don't have Ctrl+F function(Dream Logic!) and then tried to show it, but my keyboard was set to different language. I had to switch it through like 50 different languages to get back to english.

Dream 4:

There was some story, i had to visit some weird dark place that was like after carnival or something, i was talking to somebody about controlling people. Then i was back at home and i was reading some messages on PC, somebody was talking about dragons and there was picture attached to post of anthro dragon with blue and light-blue colored scales. Then i went to nap but ended up phasing between two different versions of the room(which is actually different room that mine) while in bed, one of which had some giant skulls.
I then wake up in my room and take off headphones, immediately my vision goes weird and i still hear sound(which were actually different binaural beats than which i was actually listening to...), but there's also high pitched sound and vision fades partly to white, then after a while it stops and goes back to normal.
Then suddenly some DC attacks me from behind while i am still in the bed, taking me by surprise. I react and punch him really hard, knocking him back, then i roar really loudly, right into his face, scaring everything out of him, and then i break his neck. Done with that i look around and notice room being different, the bed is in the middle and there's chandelier, i get up and shout some commands but dream suddenly quickly fades out, and i wake up.

This dream too place mainly in third person. The two main characters were played by Will Smith and Harrison Ford. I do not recall their names. The setting was sort of a wild west place/time, although the slaves had been freed several years prior.

In any case, the two main characters really didn't like one another. They had both been summoned to a particular rich man's home. It turned out to look more like a castle from the outside, but the inside was apparently a huge labyrinth. Once they both entered, they were locked in and had to find their way out. At first they took different routes, each refusing to travel with the other. Eventually, however, their paths would converge. Throughout the maze, there were various challenges. Monsters to fight, puzzles to solve, etc. The last challenge required teamwork to solve but could only accommodate one clear winner. Harrison Ford took the win.

Both participants then went on to a huge stage, and a large crowd of what looked like automatons filed in. They were androids, but made out of Victorian clockwork. They then proceeded to give the reward for making it through the labyrinth. Harrison Ford stood on a raised platform, while one of the automatons climbed up to the top of what looked sort of like a telescope. There he loaded a cylinder into a small hole and then smashed it downward with his hand. This caused a beam of light to instantly vaporize Harrison Ford. From the vapors rose a light, which then chased down and flowed into Will Smith, who kind of got vertigo and then passed out.

When he woke, he found himself very confused by his body. What had happened was that the consciousness of Harrison Ford and Will Smith had been completely integrated into one mind. This wasn't two minds in one body, it was everything together seamlessly. Basically, they had become a new single person who was mentally a complete combination of the two, yet inhabiting the body of Will Smith. From then on, it was kind of like a really messed up thought experiment. Both characters had a wife and a daughter, but he could only see one as Harrison Ford's wife and daughter were afraid of him (being a black man in the old south). Additionally, being around Will Smith's wife was uncomfortable because it felt like cheating on Harris Ford's wife. Then there were the random interactions with people. Imagine simultaneously experiencing superiority, fear, and hatred along side compassion, friendship, and camaraderie... with EVERYONE you met. Every single human interaction, including internal dialogs, was a mashup of emotions, biases, and confusion. The task then was to resolve those issues, untangle the confusion, come to terms with those emotions. Otherwise, there was no possible way for this person to function.

I wish the dream had continued, but I woke up around there. I imagine that if it led down it's logical progression that the two men would be separated again, and become friends or something. All in all, that was a pretty awesome dream.

I remember my parents telling me that they organized a party to celebrate my birthday, I would have preferred not to have one but I just went along with it anyway. I remember seeing people around saying they got invitations to my party, some I didn't even know. I then remember going into some big cafeteria, which looked very similar.

I was at my sister's house in her garden and I was with some of my family trying to set up something, it looked kinda like a tent.

1. [non-lucid]
I was watching people riding on a ride that re-enacted the pipe scene in the movie Alien, and at the end the Xenomorph jumps out at the riders.

2. [non-lucid]
Was a nice bright day. Me and my friend Kye are standing on a roof, Kye is packing stuff in a long white container on the ground, We have a play fight/argument type thing because the girl I love loves him instead and it eats at me like a dog mauling my leg sometimes.

3.

fragments:
We was going to live on a boat or something.

[2-3 sequences, non-lucid, 1-2: Getting shout at ; Controlling a group of people who had no contact with money, 3: Film-like Scene, where a secret agent kills a group of Nazi-officers]

1-2.

- You drive me nuts, you drive me nuts!

A woman is shouting at me. I'm sitting in a room of my old apartment, it's dark outside, and it's unbearable hot inside. I'm sitting there half naked in my pajama pants.

- You idiot, you idiot!

The woman keeps shouting at me. She seems really angry, but I don't know why. I'm looking into the television. There is some reportage about a celebrity.

- Isn't this Henry Fonda?, I asked the woman.

- Fonda? Fonda? Is that all you can think of? It's 16:00 pm, you still have your pajama on, you slept until now and you are just preoccupied if this guy is Fonda or not!

Silence. She keeps on repeating "you're driving me nuts". In the meantime I'm eating some pizza.

- Besides, she says, it's not Fonda, it's Henry Ford.

- Impossible! Are you sure you're not crazy or something?

My view shifts to third person, I'm floating through the ceiling and stand before a gigantic warehouse or something

There is a door in front of me, which opens. A good friend of mine opens the door. he's walking backwards and seems to hold a lecture to a group of people. He says:

- Isn't it unthinkable. Some metal pieces that controlled the whole world!

He stretches is hand out towards me, behind his back. I take my wallet and give him some paper money and some coins. He re-enters the ware house and closes the door. But I leave it a bit open, so that my friend can easily open it.

I'm really preoccupied, I know that we are doing something wicked. I don't like it all. 2 other friends approach me. They came with another crowd of people. I have the feeling that they came to see the other people inside. I close the door again, so that no-one can lurk inside.

- We should tell them, i said to the other friends. It's not cool withholding the truth about money.

I was referring to the people inside. My two friends shake there heads.

- Don't be that preoccupied! There's nothing wrong about that.

The door opens again. My friend from inside comes out the same way as before.

- And that's why all kind of money should be refuted!, he says to the crowed.

- What do you want from me?, he asks me.
- You know that you're doing wrong to them?, I say, you can't keep them shot off the real world

He seemed a bit guilty. But than he said:

- That's why we gathered all those other people outside, so that reality can hit them hard. really hard.

- Yeah, we want to see the dummies!, someone yelled from the crowd.

All the people suddenly open another door and enter the hall. I'm running after them to see what's coming next.

Inside, it seems to me that I knew that the place isn't real. It seems to be a school, but not an ordinary one. I remember that I visit this school only in my dreams. At this moment I wake up.

3.

- This is going to be violent!

A general is talking to me. We are in my home town in a narrow street, in front of a hotel.

- Yossarian, you are going to infiltrate the room of those nazi-officers and prepare the terrain!

Around me there is a group of youngsters, mostly girls, some of them between 14 and 16. I'm wondering how old they are, because I know that I am bad at guessing ages.

So I walk into the hotel. I get past of 4 guards. It seems to me that they are mistaking me for a German lieutenant. I enter a room. There are a general, a captain and a colonel inside. There is also another guy. I know that he is, like me, an agent. But he seems really frightened and uneasy. The colonel talks to me in german

- Hallo Kamarad! Was gibt es Neues von der Front? (Hello comrade, what's new on the front?
- Das übliche (the same as always), I answer.

The three Germans open a door. There is a gigantic bathroom, which seems to be twice as large as the first floor. They tell me that they are dressing up, so that we can go to the opera.

They walk inside. I take a look at the other agent who seems relieved.

- It was getting unbearable inside here, he whispered to me. How could the general think that it is a good idea to infiltrate the squadron 2 weeks before. I don't speak any German at all! How was I going to survive to just say "Ja" and "Nein" all the time??

I ignore him and lock the door of the bathroom. The German soldiers didn't seem to notice. In the meantime, I hear how the girls and the general knock out the guards outsides.

The bathroom door opens again, they come out. One of the Germans tell me a joke, but I don't get it. I'm forcing a laugh.

The general comes in with two of the prettiest girls (which definitely where 20).

- Did you miss me? He says to the colonel in English. He seems not surprised at all.

- We have 4 guards out there, the colonel answers in English. What are going to do about that?
- We knocked them already out, what are you going to do about THAT?

The general makes me sign I should leave the room, what I do. I'm standing for a moment in the floor, but I realize that I'm going to miss the epic showdown. So enter again.
The tallest girl is pointing a gun in some sexy pose. all the Germans are shot.

- And now to the opera!, the general says.

07/28/13

Tigress in the Springs
I wake up in bed and roll over. I am about to go back to sleep when I realize I am not in my own waterbed. I also notice that even though I have my eyes closed I can see the light is on in the room. I open my eyes and find out that I am in the bedroom of my dreamscape. I recognize the place right away and I sit up in bed. There is a black cat on my bed with me.

The cat comes over to me and purrs softly. I pet the cat for a bit and then get up. I look around the room, almost certain that something strange is going to happen. I'm not sure what I expect… something Templar related most likely. The cat jumps down from the bed and walks across the room to a door. The cat sits beside the door and meows. I open the door and the cat heads down the hall. It is a long hall with no doors on either side. The cat is moving rather quickly and I have to hurry to keep up. The cat reaches the end of the hall and scratches on a door. I go to open the door, but it is locked. The cat meows a bit impatiently. I focus on the door for a bit and then I use the alohomora spell from the Harry Potter books. The door clicks unlocked. I open the door and enter the next room. I recognize this next room from dreamscape as well. It is the living room area where my name is written on the wall. It says "Raven Knight Is Free" in black marker. That doesn't seem like what should be written there… it has changed somehow. I look around the room to find the cat. The black cat is grooming itself on the couch. Is this the destination room? I look back at the graffiti. Now it says "Raven Knight Is Infected" on it. Infected? Infected with what? The writing on the wall morphs. Now it says "Mercer Virus" in block letters. I think about that for a minute, but it seems I already knew that… clear to the point where I have used Prototype abilities in dreams. The writing on the wall morphs again. Now it says "Sometimes the disease is the cure," in fancy cursive writing. The disease is the cure… the Mercer Virus is a cure for something? A cure for what? The writing morphs. It changes to "Raven Was Here" which looks like what it is supposed to be. I hear an insistent meow from the other side of the room. I follow the sound and find the cat beside a staircase. The stairs lead up. I follow the stairs up and into a TV room. The television is a large flat screen, and it is turned on, but there is only static on the screen. This room also looks familiar from the dreamscape. The cat jumps up on a chair and curls up. I look at the television and will it to change channels. The image on the screen changes to show a hot spring. I remember saying I was going to meet Tigress there for healing.

I approach the television and find it is a window I can step through. I step through the television and into the biodome near the hot springs. I look around to see if there is anyone else there. I see Tigress in the hot springs relaxing. I go over near her and focus on the song Voices to heal some pains she has been having. She doesn't seem to notice me. I slip into the healing springs, it is warm and comforting. I sink to the bottom. I look up and I see Winter floating in the water. I swim back up towards her and then float beside her while I focus on Voices again to help her with her fibromyalgia. When I stop swimming I sink back to the bottom. I swim back up towards Winter and finish the song before sinking yet again. I wonder why I keep sinking… but then I wake.
 
Moving Day
I am with my mother and we are driving through Tucson looking for a new house. I have no idea why we are moving, but it seems I periodically have dreams of moving to a new and larger house. We are looking for a rather large home on a large plot of land. We soon spot the house we are looking for up on a hill overlooking the city down below.

We drive up to the home and park in the long curved driveway. The two of us go up to the house and ring the bell. A woman answers the door and lets us in. She is tall, unbelievably tall, and has long golden blonde hair. She is holding an adorable little tortoiseshell kitty cat. I immediately think of Amber. My sweet little Amber. Apparently the woman notices me looking at the kitty because she asks if I want to hold her. I say yes, and she hands me the cat. The cat looks at me and begins to purr as I pet her. I tell the woman about the cat's resemblance to my lost cat Amber. My mom and I start looking around the house, I take the cat with me. She continues to purr. The house is even bigger inside than it looks outside. I finally put the cat down when she begins to wiggle. I look out the back sliding door and I see a pool outside. The view is great, I can see the entire city stretched out below. The air looks surprisingly clear today. My mom is talking to the woman. She is saying we will take the house. As we are leaving my mom tells me that we'll have to spend the night in a hotel because she already sold the old place. I wonder where the dogs and cats are. When I ask my mom she says they'll be fine but doesn't really answer me. She takes me to a hotel and then leaves. I go into my room and find I am not alone there. My ex boyfriend James is there with his new wife Tina. I wonder why I am there with them. There are two rooms connected with a bed in each room. I am to use one of the beds. Annoying, but for one night I can handle it. So I go into one of the rooms and lie down to go to sleep. I hear James and Tina having sex in the other room. Yuck. Not what I wanted to hear. Finally they go silent. Then I feel someone slid into bed with me. What the fuck? I look and see it's Tina. What is she doing here? Did she get pissed at James for poor performance? I am so tired I am about to put up with that when James joins us. What do they want? A threesome? No way! I get out of the bed. I'm going somewhere else. I'd rather sleep in a dumpster. James and Tina get up. James asks me where I'm going. A man enters the room and looks at them. I recognize Alex Mercer from Prototype, but somehow this isn't odd enough to make me do a reality check.

James says my new boyfriend there can join us… Alex looks kind of confused, then pissed off. I have enough time to think he is chronically pissed off before he goes right over to James and calls him a lying sack of shit, throws him on the ground, pounds the shit out of him, and consumes him. Tina rolls her eyes and says James has always been such a wuss when it comes to fighting. Alex looks puzzled and then grabs and consumes Tina. He looks over at me and says they weren't real… there was nothing there. I don't answer, I am too busy staring at a smear of blood on the ground that is all that remains of James and Tina, and I find myself laughing. They weren't real? Maybe they were never real… "I just made you up to hurt myself…" lyrics come to mind, part of the song Only by the Nine Inch Nails, I find myself singing a slightly altered version. "I just made them up to hurt myself, I just made them up to hurt myself… and it worked." Alex is giving me a really strange look when I wake up.

 
DDO Prototype
I am in a green field outside of a walled city. I look around to see where I am and I see there is a gate into the city that is closed tight. I wonder if I will be able to get into the city. I head over to the gate and look to get inside. There is a guard at the gate that looks down and asks who I am. When I don't answer right away he says I don't look like a minion of the Devourer. The Devourer? I am in a virtual reality video game! I look at the city wall, marveling at the graphic detail of this game. My thoughts are distracted when the guard says he can let me in as long as I hurry and give up any weapons when I come in. He says that goes for both of us. Both of us? I turn to look behind me and I see Alex Mercer from the game Prototype. I do a double take at that. He is looking around as if he is not sure where we are any more than I am. So now I have both DDO and Prototype? A virtual reality crossover game! Awesome! I look past Alex at the horizon where I see smoke rising. I ask the guard what that is. He says it is the Devourer encampment. He says he hopes those fires aren't burning the hostages… I ask what hostages. He says that they have taken some villagers as hostages. He says they will burn the hostages alive if they don't hand over the sigil stone… which they can't do… but they don't have the soldiers to get through the enemy forces and reach the hostages. Rescue the hostages. Sounds like that's the quest. I'm not sure what Alex intends to do, but I tell the guard that I'll bring the hostages back. The guard asks if I am crazy. I tell him I'll show him crazy. I look towards the smoke in the air and then head in that direction, taking flight as I go. I hear the guard say, "What in Tarinthia?!" as I get out of earshot. I look down below me and I see Alex is keeping up with me easily and then he pulls ahead. I speed up my flight using energy. Alex comes to a stop just before the land drops into a canyon, I land beside him. The smoke is coming from various camp fires down below. I see an array of enemies camped out there. Quite a few sahuagin gathered around a river that flows through the center of the canyon, which is quite wide.

The enemies on the other side of the river seem to be primarily humans dressed in Devourer robes. I see a cave on the far wall that is quite a ways up the side of the cliff, there are bars on the entrance. I figure they must have the hostages in there. Alex says it doesn't look like there's so many of them and then jumps off the cliff. He glides out over a group of sahuagin and drops lightning down on them. I hear the song Battery by Metallica. The sahuagin are water elementals, and particularly susceptible to lightning… fried sahuagin. I am thinking he just used Battery by Metallica… and that's not normal for Alex Mercer. He lands in the area that the lightning cleared and launches a tendril devastator attack that catches sahuagin in a larger radius and even some of the Devourer minions beyond the sahuagin. Now that's more normal for Alex Mercer. The enemies are just now managing to react to the new arrival, though they don't seem too organized. The enemies have officially been caught with their pants down. I jump out over the canyon, flying, and dropping Damage, Inc. fireballs down on enemies as I go. I land in a burned area where a fireball hit and use Phantom Lord to clear a larger area with a wall of fire. Enemies quickly start closing in again. I wish I could use the tendril devastator right now… but why not? If this mod allows for Alex to use Battery… so without really considering how I to do it I set off a tendril devastator and clear a large area of enemies.

There are far fewer enemies now, and they seem confused as to where the attacks are coming from since they seem to be everywhere at once. I see Alex grab a guy in Devourer minion robes that are fancier than the rest of them, probably one of the higher ups, and consume him. I form a sword with Witchblade and fight off two Devourer minions attacking me with spears. Alex is coming right at me now, he takes off and flies right over my head to land beyond me and head for the far wall of the canyon. He jumps up to the cave entrance where the hostages must be being held. I follow after him, fighting through a couple remaining Devourer minions on my way. When I get there I jump towards the entrance, intending to fly the rest of the way, but I reach the entrance with a jump. The gate to the prison has been pulled off of its hinges and tossed aside. I go into the inner cavern that is lit by torches in the walls. I get there just in time to see Alex push a couple hostages out of the way before grabbing a man and quickly consuming him. WTF? "What'd you do that for?!" I yell over the noise made by surprised hostages. I wonder why Alex is killing hostages. In response to what Alex did the other hostages are now clambering over each other in an attempt to get away making it hard for me to get through to Alex. I finally get through into an area around Alex that is now clear. He starts pushing his way into the crowd as if looking for someone specific. He finally grabs one hostage and drags him out into the open area. It looks like he is going to consume that one, too, so I yell at him to stop it. He stops and gives me a dirty look before throwing the hostage over to me and saying he is a traitor who set these people up to be captured. He says to just consume the bastard then I'll know the truth. I say no, I won't do that. The man says Alex is insane, working for the Devourer. A woman asks if he didn't see what happened to Brindle… then says she thinks Alex actually is the Devourer. Alex is just watching me, seeming not to notice the hostages climbing on each other to get as far away from him as the cavern will allow. I hear someone at the exit yell to stop pushing followed by a scream. Great… the hostages are making like lemmings. I realize I am still holding on to the hostage Alex threw at me. He says I can't possibly believe that insane monster, can I? He says Alex ate Brindle! He's not human! Damn… easily solved. I do a telepathic scan of his mind. I see him leading some people down into the canyon… then it is blocked off by the image of a mind flayer.

The hostages are freaking out… gotta get them out of here. I focus on opening a portal leading to just outside the city gates. It opens. I tell the hostages that is their way home. Being used to magic, no one questions that and they all go through the portal quickly. The man I'm still holding tries to go but I don't let go of him. He tries to pull away but I hold him easily. The portal closes leaving Alex, me, and the one hostage remaining in the cavern. The man says I can't possibly believe that monster over there… I use a quick song spell of Liberate by Disturbed and try to scan his mind again. Maybe the mind flayer was controlling him? This scan produces no more information, just an image of a mind flayer. Of course the few images I had gotten do look a bit incriminating… He tries once more to get free before pulling out a dagger and trying to stab me with it, calling me a fucking bitch and saying the Devourer will rule all. His stab is blocked by Witchblade. When the attack fails he seems to be panicking, though he really just seems to be afraid of Alex. He keeps saying to keep that thing away from him. He then stabs himself with his dagger, apparently preferring to die over being forced to talk. But damn, I wanted to know what had been going on! Without really thinking about it I consume the guy… and find out he had been working for the Devourer willingly, no mind control involved, just simple greed. He and his friend had actually prevented an earlier escape attempt, resulting in three of the hostages being burned alive. Alex says that wasn't so hard. I curse at myself for doing what I said I wouldn't do. Alex asks why I automatically assumed he was lying. I don't know what to say about that. I have to force myself to look into Alex's eyes. It looks like he is somewhat annoyed, but I can also see an inner flame. It seems to be burning pretty bright. That's something I am glad to see. He still wants to know why I assumed he was lying. I still have no answer, then I wake up.

Wednesday, 7/31/13

Last night, bed around 1am.

DR 3:30am
I was being taken on a foot pedaled flying machine up to a gunship. The flying machine looked like a unicycle and one guy was pedaling it. There was a pole attached to the unicycle and on both sides it had some kind of a compartment. It was made out of a frame and canvas, that was loosly attached. I was in the left one, another someone in the right one.

As we approached the gunship, I saw that the unicycle and two compartments will exactly match the side of the ship, so we can dock. As we docked, the canvas ripped and I was deposited into gunners compartment. So was the guy on the right.

By doing this, the gyu on the small apparatus lost momentum and started tumbling down with his machine.

The gunship looked like a pirate ship with sails, but I could tell it was modern.

I had a long dream just before this one, all I remember I was with other around body of water. Something like a small lake in the cave.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing some video game.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was in some metallic area.

Dream 3(fragment):

There was something about dragons.