non-lucid

[I had this dream after waking up and not remembering anything, not even solid dream fragments. I threw a bit of a mental bitch fit and I guess Subby gave me this dream as compensation. I'm down with that!]

Apparently I was over at Jasper's place (or he was at mine, which may have been the case as the room was shaped like mine). He and I were playing The Sims 3. I focused in the game and became an observer inside of it. My Sim family was having a party outside and their Toddler was sitting in a high chair. One of the parents looked in its direction because they thought that the game had forced an age transition and the Toddler was turning into a Child, but no such case.

By the time I was done with The Sims 3 Jasper had turned into Luna, an old childhood friend. Luna's older sister may have also been there.

I was sitting down on the floor in front of the bed and Luna was playing with a lighter. Instead of spouting out fire, it was crystal shaped in the stereotypical shape of a diamond (a few of them). If she pulled the lighter back while holding the button down then crystals would appear there, and if she held it higher then the crystals would follow her lead. Well eventually she stopped and but in some movie in my XBox 360 and the two of us laid down together in my bed. After a little bit Luna asked me to set the loop when one of the characters screamed "Gooooooooooo!" When I asked her why she explained that we "might as well be happy." This task proved harder than I expected it to be because I missed at the beginning and we had to keep listening to the characters talk, but Luna was okay with that.

Later on I went into the living room and watched some show with my parents. It was pretty good, though I don't remember much about it. There was one particular character named Emmett, but all I remember from him is that he had high-ish cheekbones. If I remember correctly then in the story, if the characters did something wrong or if they survived for a certain amount of time, then they would be turned into crystal. Near the end of the episode Emmett and one of the others (a female character) knew that it was their time to go and so they awaited their fate with open arms. The episode ended and I went outside.

At first it was at night and it looked like it usually does in Greentree. I must have seen Jason and some other people at some point though. Towards here is a blank in my memory and then the landscape looks more like the area of Pine Plains that my family lived in when I was still attending SPPHS. Jason is with (not "dating with") a girl that goes to my school but who I never talk to. As the three of us are walking down the hill that leads to the trailer park in the SPPHS school district, I notice that neither of them have any of their teeth; apparently they had been doing crystal meth.

By now the sun has come up again and I go back inside to watch another episode of that show. It's showing the opening theme and there is a portrait of Emmett and someone else (perhaps the chick that was crystallized with him). The portrait changed and so the show revealed that Emmett was none other than Adolf Hitler.

non lucid
*I realize that I am taking the long way home. I see my brother taking a shorter way home on his skateboard. I decide to follow him. I am also on a skateboard and it is night.

The dream started with me trying to get a job. There were two places I liked. One place called "Suzuki diner" (reference below) and another place called "Big burgers & bucks". I don't get it either.

Anyways, I applied for the Suzuki place, and walked up and down the hill I live on. I'm not sure why, but it was a nice day so I guess I was just enjoying it. After doing that a couple times I walked back down to the place, expecting it to be done. I accidentally walked into the wrong place.

In that place there was a guy holding a guitar. He looked to be 30-ish, he had a beard... actually. Come to think of it, he looks like Steve again! Why do I dream of him so much? Anyways, he said "Oh great! Your here! Come, we're going to do a hand-eye coordination test." He led me to a paper with two thumb-shaped holes in it. I excused myself, because this was not the place I was going to.

Weirdly enough, I walked up my hill again instead of going to the place I meant to go.

And now, it starts getting weird.

I walk up and there's this 40-ish year old lady doing a stripper dance on a telephone pole. I started walking a little faster. She started to strip down her clothes and then I started to run. My house was only a couple blocks away, and I do NOT want to get involved with that.

Now since this was my dream, and I didn't want her to go near me, she started to drift off. Luckily I was far enough away when she finished stripping down. I got home, and I was about to tell my brother about what happened when,

I woke up.

Reference:
"Suzuki" Is a name for a violin book. I was interested in violin a year ago, and I recently went to a garage sale to look at one. So I guess I was thinking of that?

Or, its always an option that its just completely random.

For some odd reason I have had these dreams before, all different but seemingly the same.

The dream starts out where I'm playing with my cousins and talking to them - like I did when I was a kid at my grandma's house or wherever we got together as a family.

Then I start talking to an unfamiliar but friendly voice/character about my family and showing them fake pictures of my family. In the dream of course, they were pictures that I knew of, but now that I am awake I know that they were not real pictures and still in the dream I was questioning about the people in the pictures. The people kind of looked like my real family members but the places and poses in the pictures were very unfamiliar.

There was this one picture where two of my cousins were sleeping together on a couch with pacifiers in their mouths. I remember that the pictures seemed to be moving, like in the Harry Potter books. I was saying things like "isn't she too old to be using that thing in her mouth?" "when was this?" "Where am I?" I looked through dozens of pictures and noticed I was in none of them. In reality, all the photos I have, I am in most of them.

I then put the pictures down and noticed that I had several people around me, all family members. One of my little cousins, who was a baby in the dream but in reality is almost nearly an adult started to hum the Final Fantasy Victory Fanfare several of the games. It reminded me of the VII fanfare and others too.

I felt really cool about this because she had just learned how to walk and couldn't talk much and hummed something from my favorite game series. I then went to tell one of my aunts who also enjoys Final Fantasy. I whispered in her ear so no one else could hear and then she said to me something like "wow, that is really cool Alia" (alia is my name).
And then smiled and then seemed to turn her attention to a scene that was happening in the room from a early child hood video I have when I was a baby.


The moving pictures thing is kind of funny because I have been listening to the Harry potter books audio and thinking about the moving pictures mentioned in the books.

7/30/13 Tuesday

Last night bed around 1am. I figured I can try falling asleep with my Yoga Nidra CD. It's not made to make you fall asleep, but for some reason, it puts me to sleep in 10-15 min, or even less. Don't know if the narrator has hypnotic voice, or really, just mental survey of body is so relaxing. As he speaks, there are pauses, maybe 4 to 8 sec long (different places different length). And without realizing it, i fall asleep, still awake, and I'm startled awake with his voice, only to fall asleep and wake up again. I like the feeling.

DR: I'm in my home town, on the street, where the long time ago burned down movie theater used to stand. A parade is suppose to start in a little while. We see the cars that look like rollercoaster seats assembling.

Someone I know is suppose to be on one of them, so someone droppes off my balck backpack on the sidewalk with my camera. I'm walking there to pick it up. There are some people getting out of a bar that's right there and I'm really worried they will take my backpack. I come to it. It's my old, black backpack, all worned down, filled only half way. I look inside and my camera is there. I go back on the sidewalk, getting ready to take a picture.

After it's over, I walk on the sidewalk towards where we used to live. I'm inside a house with some people I know and I'm so sad, that I have to go back. It's even worse than last time. People ask me about that and I'm just sad.

I keep walking, and a child cries after me from a first floor balcony of a yellow house. I look back, but I know it would be even harder on him if I stoped or said anything to him. I think I was crying. A man and a woman that are standing with the child, I sense they are very kind and fair, but I'm not sure, they are his real parents. They tell me to wait, it's ok for us to say goodby properly. That's when I really start to cry and I appreciate they let us hug.

I just hope I don't have a child in astral that misses me.

> I was CJ from Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas (I think) and I had a ScanGauge II or other meter in the car I drove and I saw that the battery was low so I left the car on to charge the battery, Then the car was out of gas and I got out and talked to someone about it.

> I was outside the house my paternal grandmother lives in and I was trying to be a bit sneaky while cutting the grass around it with a reel mower which is not gas or electric powered. I looked into a window and saw light bulbs on.

> I'm not sure if this is a dream or not but if so, It would've been on subject of my Dad's van getting lower fuel economy around Pittsburgh like it has as of late with poor gas in it.

I had other dreams today but I'm not posting them here.

On a quick starting note I want to register the different approach I will be taking to my DJ. I wanted it to be about the cool adventures and accomplishments I end up having in my lucids making for a mostly entertaining reading experience, because of that I haven't been recording most of my lucids. From now on, every lucid I have will eventually be here, unless of course it involves something I'm not comfortable sharing.

Moving on

30/07/2013 - DILD

I was walking with another guy who like me was a shapeshifter, we were aware of a group of men following us and we decided to make a run for it. They catched up to us and grabbed the guy that was with me, he could shift into a wolf and they wanted him to run with them (similar to the concept of shifters in True Blood), they were bad news and we didn't want nothing to do with them so I told him to escape first, I would divert them and when it was time for me to go I would use my ability to loose them.

I ran but they easily catched up to me everytime. At some point I faked falling and even let out a little scream to make my point more convincing. When they got down on the ground to pick me up and make their capture I quickly ran away thinking about how I would make my shift happen. I just remembered "If I stay calm, have no doubt and just move accordingly I will shift easily". In a fraction of a second I took a little jump into the air and instantly shifted into an owl, from running to flying, no breaks.



I landed on the top of a building of the pretty village I was in. Due to the nature of events, I was lucid. The scenary around me had a very blue feeling and appearence to it, mostly due to all the rooftops of the many houses around being that colour. There wasn't a single soul to be seen on the streets (get it?).

I decided to stabilize. I looked at my hands throughly, they looked mostly normal and along with the scenario they increased in detail and vividness as I inspected them. While I did this I was making affirmations like "Clarity now. I anchor myself to lucidity and the dream". I was satisfied with the feel and added details of the dream but I suddently started to feel like some "wind-like" force was shaking me a little bit back and forth on the top of the building, since it wasn't really windy I wondered what that could be. I would soon find out since... It was precisely 5:30 am and my alarm was waking me up to go to work.

Sweet dreams!

I'm with a friend (NJ) in my work place.
We go downstairs to grab a coffee. I grab some coins for the coffee machine.
I get my coffee and the machine gives me back more money than it should. I take it.
I look at the ground and pick two 10€ bills. I look up and there's a hole on the machine with a massive amount of 10€ bills in it.
I pick some. My friend takes the rest. It's a lot of money.
We knew that there was a robbery where they sabotage the machine.
At first my friend doesn't want to return the money. He reconsiders it. He tells my boss he'll spend 80€ a day untill someone claims it.
I stumble across a lady that owned a coffee house in my old town.
She starts to ask me some questions about my job.
I lose track of the dream or wake up.
Don't know.

I probably bored myself to death and wanted to wake up. Really.. I need to get Lucid.

Dream recall from today's nap. Go figure there were actually some repair works outside that i could hear only barely, and that managed to influence dreams to such extent...

Dream 1(fragments):

I was woken up by loud noise of machinery outside then i tried to fall back to sleep and there was some different weird noise.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was video game about war between two factions, which then turned to be some mission from AM: Air Attack, namely based on second mission but with alot of ground placed high explosives everywhere.

Dream 3:

I was some character in anime and there was a story about some spiritual realm, there were two anime kids and i was helping them and we were on the bridge near huge waterfall. One of us accidentally dropped bottle with some liquid, and as it broke it summoned some weird creatures that we had to fight. We all had some special powers though, one of us could summon weapons.
Then we went to the city and there was some academy place where we practiced those powers, but also we were trying to figure out something. Later i discovered some dimension that was under the academy, which consisted of stairs and platforms floating in the air and was really foggy. There was some entity that was saying something about end of the world, and then it activated something and disappeared. On the way back alot of people from academy came and were blaming me for activating the of the world trigger and then we had to fight more weird creatures from earlier.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was at home and there were alot of some repair works outside, noise and workers that were trying to 'fix' everything. They even came into my room somehow.

Dream Fragment:
Me and my best pal (V.) were in beautiful little town next to a beach. It's daytime. It's really vivid.
For some reason I don't know or don't remember we wanted to swim to the other shore. We're trying to find a place to leave behind our stuff.. phones, wallets, etc.
He starts flirting with this girls that's carrying a HUGEEEE white Wilson tennis bag. He asks her if she can keep that stuff for us. No problem.
Then it starts to get blurry and confusing.
I go to a little shop (maybe a bakery) and I'm trying to force this guy to give me a knife. I leave. I come back and now I want a plastic bag and some bread? We argue I leave and come back a couple more times.

Dream fragment.
I was watching a car from outside like I was standing on its hood. We're in my hometown.
It was an English type car with the wheel on the left side.
Some blond guy/kid was having driving lessons from a blond woman.
She was totally hitting on him. She's almost sitting on his lap.
Aparently he didn't care, or was to busy learning how to drive.
I don't know any of them.

Woke up.

My driving instructor was also a blond middle aged woman..

Most vivid dream I have had for quite a while!

I was part of a group of divers, the group was a mix of my friends and family members. We were on an island that looked Mediterranean, with beautiful blue water. The island was made up mostly of sand, with some rock and hardy vegetation here and there. I remember exploring it, but I can't really remember what I did or if it was before or after we were diving. I do remember a great staircase, winding its way to some peak in the middle of the island, and some kind of park.

We jumped into the water, our goal was to salvage an old ship that was on the bottom. But actually it was on the lower bottom: First we dived down to the bottom and down there was a hole that lead us down even further into an underground sea. And on the bottom of that sea I saw her: Half embedded in the mud was a old world war one steam powered ship. A real beauty even in her condition.

Something happened down there, I can't remember what, but we got in a real hurry. Three of us picked up the ship, which was actually quite light, and began lifting it towards the hole. Only when we reached the hole did we realise that it didn't fit, actually it was barely enough space for the three of us. We decided that, since we were in such a hurry to get to the surface, to leave the ship behind to make another try later. We crammed together into that hole because we all had to go in the same time, it was like an elevator. And eventually we reached to higher ocean.

On our way to the surface one of my friends were attacked by a jellyfish, and started complaining that he was in pain. We laughed at him, how could he be hurt by such a small thing? But an older person that was with us told us not to laugh, they might be small but they hurt like hell.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Uphill driving:
In this dream, it was night and i was either on a motorcycle or in a car. I was traveling up a hill, no one else seemed to be on the road. I was driving really badly and at one point, almost wrecked probably. Aside from that, i can't really remember much else about the dream, i know it had some more to it.

Robot attack:
I started off in a small room. The room looked like something you would see inside the deathstar from starwars. The room had that silver metal look. Either way, i think i may have been inside some video game in this dream. The room had many different areas that i could travel to and i had to pick one. I had a feeling that no matter which one i picked, i would be faced with a boss enemy when i enter the next area. I think i remember going down some stairs and taking a sewer area or something and then encountering robots which attacked me.

Winter Guild Runaway:
I'm inside my house. It's currently night time, and snowing. The inside of my house has turned into a massive night club. I play the role of a security guard watching from some walkways attached to the ceiling of the big central room. I had just arrived. In our security unit, we had a leader and then all the other security guards. As we arrive, the leader guard looks down at the people and then signals for the other guards to meet up with him near the club entrance. The four of us who were there walked over to him. He then started rambling about some crazy plan he has and how he's going to kill us and take over the club. Well, he tells us to get out and i start running. I hear gunshots behind me so i suspect he has killed one of the other guards.

I continue running, as a result of the weather, the ground is covered in snow. I run pretty far and make it to a house, which i break into. Once there, an old man catches me and yells at me. As he does, two other guards come running. At first, i was surprised they were still alive. Then i quickly realized that if they were alive and they came this way. Then the leader will soon come this way too and if i don't catch up, i will be caught and killed by him. But before i can leave the house, the old man tells me to take off all my clothes. So i do and he lets me leave.

So now i'm running around in the snow with no clothes on. I'm freezing and i can feel it. Strangely though, not having clothes on doesn't bother me much, except for the cold factor of course. I soon decide i need clothes for warmth so i run into a house which is my guild home. Now here is where the dream changes in concept a little. At my guild home, i start talking to other guild members as i go through drawers looking for clothes. The drawers regenerate items every so often, this is what caught my interest in the first place. So i ask my guild mate about it.

He tells me that we're in a video game world, and that in real life, we have things on our heads which put us in this virtual world. I then do some other stuff around the guild house, and as i'm about to leave, i find out the guild is having some sort of chess competition soon and it also will soon have a question and answer session. The Q and A session was taking questions from a notebook on which people wrote their questions. I thought about writing a question because i didn't understand some things but decided to just travel on.

Dream 1:

I was playing Quake 1 using my old mod apparently, and in coop with someone, and also some custom level that was really really huge, and mostly empty. It was some kind of work-in-progress level that was supposed to be combination of levels from a different mod, and it was mostly happening in a castle. After a while we managed to find the part of level where there were actual enemies and pickups, i've gotten The Acid Gun, The Plasma Gun and The Minigun(An actual weapons from the mod), then after an elevator there was a room with scrag type enemies. Then later there was some area with lava and a bridge, guarded by some weird enemy that had very effective defense versus projectile attacks.
Then after going through teleporter, camera switched top-down and started looking more like Doom, there was very weird platforming segment with teleporter mazes and weird navigation. But soon we have reached the top of the area, where camera switched back to first person and where we had to deal with some kind of upgraded mancubuses. Then after another portal there was huge arena and i was playing coop with SilentEternity now. We had to fight through horde of various Doom enemies, some were custom, and also at least four cyberdemons.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some game where i had to control some kind of cyborg and there were two more on my side, controlled by AI. We had to go through some indoors complex with acidic lakes to fight enemy team, which consisted of three cyborgs as well, we easily won because AI was not really good at it.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing another game, in which i had to search through some amusement park for something, there were various characters i talked to, but eventually some enemy helicopters arrived and some ally helicopters, i helped destroying enemy helicopters with some kind of energy cannon then i got into one and we flied to different area, which was some dark city. There i with group of some soldiers had to set up defense and destroy some enemy attack waves.

I'm in a house, it seems familiar. I'm trying to tell people something but they are either distracted, ignoring me or this damn guy is playing the guitar and he starts playing louder and louder at the important parts. I'm trying to a woman that story in the bible where the kid is sent out for something and he hits his head or whatever and then when he wakes up it's nearing dark so he goes back and finds out it's been like 60 years, not just a few hours like he time traveled or something. But when I tried to tell it to yet another person I kept stuttering and losing my track and it was so hard to speak and then finally I could speak but when I could she got distracted. And then my damn half sister kept distracting everyone by talking about her stupid shit and I could only get frustrated and tell her to shut up until I get this out, but then I'd stutter again. Then I just tried to tell it to anyone near me and still failed. Then I could hear that tool who purposely tried to play his guitar over me, he is in the back bedroom, I hear him talking so loud to someone, I think he must be on the phone and he's talking about me and that what I'm trying to tell people so I get freaked out that he's planning something and inviting people over to make it harder for me to convey things, so I wait for him to come out and I grab his guitar and smash on his head and he poofs away like purple powder, and then everyone gives me horrible looks like I murdered someone or something.