non-lucid

Had a few interesting dreams the past couple nights. No good lucids for the most part but I have a faint memory of gaining lucidity for a minute or two and trying to fly but ending up just jumping up and down.

Anyway, heres how the first one started. In my dream I'm trying to sleep and have an FA at 3 in the morning by M calling. She is having sex with another guy while ON THE PHONE and just wanted to tell me. She is acting like she expects me to be excited for her.

This puts me in a shitty mood and I walk outside (in the middle of the night, the place looks different) where I meet one of the last people I want to see, a frat boy who lives a door across from me. I go back inside where there's a few more of my friends. We talk for a while and M comes over. She wants to apologize to me.

Later in my dream I am in some sort of police building. M has falsely accused me of raping her (this is strange because we've never had sex, even in my dreams) and then went back and tried to drop the charges but it is already too late. I get interrogated and after a long long process someone finally comes and tells me I'm free to go. I leave and once again walk back to my dorm, seeing the frat boy and a good friend of mine hanging out in the same place outside. We have a funny conversation about pointless dream things. The dream ends.

03.03.2011

School Hallway (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Log: 10:30pm Thursday, March 2-3rd, 2011
6:00am
Hours: 7:30m Alarm: 6:00am Audio: None

This first dream was fairly short, as i remember it, but it was probably longer in all actually, as in any other dream. I was in the hallway of the school, the upper left hallway where the history classes are. I was heading to class and Tessa and Carly were there, along with Jacob. I was about to go in, but i decided to talk to people instead, so i went over to Carly and the others.
The next thing i remember is being in class and being taught or talked to for a brief amount of time. And then it ended.

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03.03.2011

Driving, and Houses (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream was fairly more extensive than the last dream. I was in the car with Jacob and his mother. It was dark outside and we were driving through a neighborhood filled with houses. We passed a house that was lit up and I noticed that the person inside was Kevin's Mom, or atleast someone who looked like her... I pointed it out to Jacob and his mom and they agreed with me. We all were kind of laighing and talking and we kept driving. It started to get light outside as we drove on and we came to some houses. They were white and they were halfway underground. They were white and they looked fairly attractive. It was a developement and it was pretty awesome, in the way that i admired them and thought they were cool. We were apparently in one of them, Jaocb and i got out of it quickly, and then Jacob's mom was trying to get out of a tiny exit in the top, her limbs were sticking out, but she was stuck. And then it ended as Jaocb and i were laughing.

DJ Log: March 3, 2011 – 8:00AM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am in my kitchen, making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. As I'm spreading the peanut butter on the bread, I notice that the bread is moldy. I pick up the whole loaf and it is covered with a strange mold that looks like blue and green barnacles.

DJ Log: March 3, 2011 – 5:45AM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am walking around in an old musty smelling warehouse, looking through some piles of random junk. There is a steel stairway that leads me to a mezzanine with several tables full of random electrical stuff. There are motors, relay boxes, and piles of wiring all over the place. I hear some noises from below and look down through the floor grating to see a DC driving by on a tow motor that's pulling a couple of flatbed trailers behind it.

For some reason, I feel like someone is watching me from a distance and I want to try to get away from whoever it is. I climb up onto the upper I-beams from the mezzanine and walk across to another mezzanine on the other side of the warehouse. As I walk by the lights, they buzz for a moment and then turn on. I reach up to grab onto a different beam, and see that my fingers are unusually long. Becoming lucid, I do a quick nose pinch and it fails. I take a quick moment to stabilize by looking at the ground, and trying to smell the musty air. I lick some of the dust off the I-beam and it tastes like butterscotch pudding. I see some flashing lights through a huge roll-up door on the other end of the warehouse. I decide to jump off the beam and fly through the door to find out what's in the next warehouse. When I arrive, there is an enormous underground rave going on with a huge crowd of ravers dancing.

I land in the middle of the crowd and start dancing my ass off. A random DC walks up to me, holding a large bag of glowing pills and asks me if I want one. I decline, but reach into my pocket and pull out my own bag of pills. I eat a handful of pills, then walk up to the DJ on the stage. He is playing 5 records all at once and also cooking some chicken on a BBQ grill. I told him that his music sucks and he should play some bluegrass. He turns around and pushes me off the stage. I wake up, guessing that I shouldn't have been such an asshole. LOL...

I was on a subway with my cousin who lives in Florida in waking life. She was in another car and I was trying to make my way to her from the neighboring car.

Someone gives me a map of where we are going. The paper has figures that are supposed to resemble the maps on the Marta trains, but instead are handwritten abstractions: circles with an "L" in the middle and then a 1. (OK, so there is an "L1" stop. Is that like "Left 1"? There were other markings, but they weren't clear in my dream.

I decided to just try to open the doors between cars to make my way to my cousin. As I forced the door open, someone started pushing them back closed. Kind of pissed me off. I finally got them opened and made my way through to the next car.

I looked outside the train car and saw tracks that went below a recent flood line. That was kind of disturbing.

The next I remember, I am being threatened by some criminal types. They are demanding all my money. I have a lot, but I tell them no, throw down a $20.00, kicked a couple of them and ran away. My brother was there and he stayed.

So, I ran away and found myself trying to find my way home. I was going through the shops in this little downtown entertainment district. I am lost in a maze of shops and courtyards. I end up with my mouth full of something that I need to spit out.

I go through this bar and find myself between two sets of two guys who are ultimate wrestling. I'm just trying to get by. One of the guys in front of me picks up his opponent and slams him down on his head. It would have broken his neck. Then the guy wants to wrestle me. I make my way around him.

I'm finally able to spit the stuff out of my mouth. I spit out a bunch of nastiness. Then some other guy spits out two balls of something and a fried egg. I spit out some more stuff and now my mouth is empty. (WTF?)

Finally I am in a marble courtyard. It is made up of square designs with steps. It is a complex architectural design. It was very pretty, but I didn't know how to get out.

I don't remember anything after that.

When:3/2/11
Type:Normal Dream(non lucid)
My dream started with me walking into a video game store and going over to the right side of the store. I saw the bargain bin and started rummaging through it. I pulled out 3 games that seemed interesting, they were called Sonic Heroes, Ants, and Marvel vs Capcom 2(I've seen Marvel vs Capcom 3 being talked about a lot recently on the internet so I was probably thinking about it). Seeing Marvel vs Capcom 2 made me want to look and see if they had number 3. I went over to this thing where all the games were supposed to be and it was like a weird futuristic shelf. There were 3 buttons one said PS3, one said Xbox 360, and the last one said Close shelf. I pressed PS3 and the shelf flipped over and showed me all the games they had in stock for it. They didn't have MvC3 so I walked back over to the bargain bin. I was trying to decide which of the 3 games I should get so I walked over to the left side of the store. It was mainly accessories and guides/walk throughs. I walked back over to the bin and decided I'd get Sonic Heroes. I was about to check out when I decided I wanted MvC2 more. I ran back over there grabbed it and checked out. I was going to leave to play it when I woke up.

Hey!
I dreamed a dream where I was in my school´s dining room. I sat and ate with two other friends who had went to my previous school, and I had´t seen them for ages, Anton and Jonathan.
Well when we sat and ate lunch, Anton started to speak with a girl who sat behind me. They talked for a minute or so, then I came in to the conversation by saying a joke. I saw a couple of more jokes, don´t remember them all but some of them included Justin bieber, I think I humiliated him. The girl liked all of my jokes and laughed at them. Then she gave me her number and said I should send a text message where we could meet later. Then it´s get a little fuzzy, but I think we did not find a good place to meet, so we went to a forest near the school spontaneous. I remember that the girl was dark-haired and good looking. We talked for a little bit, then we started to make out. Then she says that we should go to another place. She directs me to a place where she wants to have sex with me, but as we arrive, the spot has been taken by an other couple doing the same thing. My girl gets little angry, but then remember another place we could go to, so went their, just to see that the other couple had destroyed this place. Then my girl gets more angry.
I remember that Physics lesson had start and that I was late, so I say to her that I must go and we could meet later. She says ok and gives me a long kiss. Then I don´t remember any more.

Last nghts dream very sketchy and I can only renember bits and pieces, but what I remember goes as follows:

I remember holding a stack of three bowls and assuring Colette (the friend I live with) that I had already washed them, however, when we separated them the bottom one was encrusted with dried wheetabix residue.

Next I was shuffling along using my elbows as seen in a lot of war movies, in a ditch with several other people with me. I'm not sure if I was supposed to be in a real war but it felt more like I was taking part in a war game.

Lastly I was driving round a block looking for something, not sure what it was, I stopped off at a W.H Smiths type shop which was being run by Jane Asher and a friend, I asked for a cigarette and was given one. I think I may have gone round a few times looking for something, but remember stopping again at Janes shop to ask for something. This time the shop had grills down and was being shut up for the night and she and her friend didn't look pleased at my interuption.

Pre-dream: After my datura nightmare I had in my nap during the day, I decided to not take anymore datura for a few days but thought I'd try some more valerian tea before bed in hopes to improve recall and/or vividness of my dreams. I made some tea, and yes it's indeed as stinky as people say it is, I wouldn't say "sweaty gym socks" but it's definitely pungent and isn't exactly a nice smell. I put in some sleepy time tea into it as well and this easily covered the scent and taste. I fell asleep after a bit of tossing and turning and had a few random dreams through the night but only remembered the last.

Dream: I found myself in the driver's seat of a car, my mom in the passenger seat, and an old family friend in the backseat with his son. For some reason I was driving his car because he couldn't and my mom was constantly telling me how to drive and being overly cautious of everything I'd do, as always whenever she is in a car with me. I couldn't figure out where we were going, they wouldn't tell me, so I just focused on driving and realized how dark it was. Suddenly I realize the car is going very fast and my mom keeps telling me to slow down, but I tell her I can't. I couldn't hit the brakes and we were going uphill very very fast, it felt like some 80-90mph. Everyone starts freaking out but I tell them to calm down, I just have to find the brakes. The family friend in the back tells me to turn on the high beams of the car because we couldn't see anything ahead of us and there were no cars in sight, it felt like we'd gone off road and I had the sense we were up on a canyon.

The more they panicked the more I found it hard to focus on finding the brakes and turning on the lights and the speed of the vehicle kept escalating as we were reaching the horizon of this hill. Before I knew it we had gone too far and there was nothing I could do. I felt the lift of the car no longer touching the floor and we were now flying off a cliff at roughly 100mph.


The view from the front seat, now that we were in free fall, looked like we were just dropped out of a plane and we could see tiny cities down below and it looked like it'd take minutes before we got there. No one said a word but there was this strange calm, since we knew we were about to die. My mom pointed out to the city down below and said "Pretty, isn't it?" and I just grabbed her hand and said "I love you mom." I couldn't think of anything else to say... I mean what do you say when you're about to die?

Then the car disintegrated into small particles, followed by my mom and the family friend and his child, I was now free falling by myself getting nearer and nearer to my death. But as I arrived closer to the floor I saw reflections of the starry sky in a river outside of the city, and then I fell into it and realized I was now in space. I saw strange fractal luminous crystalline buildings that reflected stars all around it.

Although a pretty piece of art in it's own right, what i saw in the dream was so much more breath taking. it was also much darker as if i was in space, still it was something like these buildings.

Everything was glowing and absolutely beautiful. I thought I had died and ended up in some strange astral realm or heaven, but realized I was still falling, I was no longer scared and I embraced it. After some more free falling I eventually woke up and was amazed at the detail and memory recall I had.


I was in total awe of the sights I had seen and in retrospect I've never seen such a beautiful sight in my dreams alone, I'm very convinced these visions were shown to me by the valerian root tea and I look forward to future journeys with it.

3/2-3. 1. Town and Country? Heather Xxxx?

610. Sara Xxxx sends me a text of a friend and her. One person has pants over their arms and the other on their legs, but the people are connected. Looks really funny. Then at some homes in Riverside. Poor looking kind of, just unkempt. Large field next to them. Small fires along the fence line and the people are very scared. Then I’m at Riverside station 1, except it’s in a different area of down, by the Victorian homes? Xxxx there. The whole city is laid out differently. We then go on a tour of the station. Mxxxxx and Jxxxxx there. Then we’re getting off an engine like we were driving around. Saw a few buildings. As we’re getting off, we’re told that there’s a training burn that’s going to happen. Get off and we’re watching another academy throw ladders, inside. I look to the side, the parking lot(?), and something is missing (not sure what, but that’s how I felt). One guy almost drops a 35’er. Outside now and Mxxxxx and I leave to go check out the training burn, but I have to go to the bathroom first. Go into what I thought was the bathroom, but looks like a restaurant. People look at me weird. Building for training burn is on fire. People are panicking. Everyone running toward it. Some guy is up on a ramp and falls off. I go to his aid and check his pulse, don’t think I feel anything. Another guy tries to log roll him, but I didn’t have C-spine yet and told the guy to stop. Guy rolls anyway. Guy that fell says he’s fine and gets up. Then march to Fraizer Park (diff location). On the way, Mrs. Xxxxxx is stabbed with a flag that someone threw. She’s find and no bleeding and is miffed. I call 911. I ask to tell the operator the location and he says he doesn’t need it. It’s dusk and the building implodes. Not in park. Dark and fireworks are going off. Look of city looks like NYC with lights and stuff. Erik Xxxxxxxxxx there and taking photos. I take a few also. Then it’s day and I watch Theresa’s video

Looking out bedroom window. See something going on, robbing? Breaking into my house? Run to the bathroom and call 911. Tell them someone’s breaking into my house. Cops show up super fast. Robbers apprehended, but they say they’re not. Cops interview them. Then they take me across the street and interview me. More details but can’t remember

Outside of a building. Something about being on a jury. A class? Dan Xxxxx is next to me. A lot more but can’t remember

Pre-dream: I had just received my datura ferox seeds and valerian root from an online vendor yesterday, so I decided to see what effects they might have if I were to consume some and take a nap. I meditated and asked the spirit of the plants that they guide me in the dream world, I gave them my respect and sent them energy. I crushed two datura seeds and brewed them in a tea and drank it whilst my valerian root was brewing. Before I began drinking the valerian I already felt a strange head pressure, almost a headache, and a very deep sedating effect. I proceeded to take the valerian tea but by the time I finished I felt very heavy and was feeling slight delirium in my thought process.

I laid down and watched my hypnagogic imagery and was promptly shown an eye that was in the center of my vision, staring at me. Unlike other times I believe I've seen my third eye, I think it was lady datura this time because it was glaring at me and promptly after I fell asleep and had a few disturbing dreams.

Dream: I had various fragments of random visions including taking care of some kids I didn't know that were vomiting water and I kept panicking not knowing how to deal with the problem, running up and down a mountain trying to avoid jaguars and shadow people, and lastly being cornered in front of my sister's house by a pitch black grizzly bear. The dream with the bear was the most memorable probably because it was the last one before waking up. It would morph into a cub to seem less sinister and would approach me but then it would morph into a huge black grizzly and try to attack me, I'd randomly find pointy but short objects like daggers or forks to defend myself with and I'd proceed to stab it whenever I could, trying to survive.


What happened next was the disturbing part though because I had stabbed it numerous times and it was on the floor choking on its own blood and it was no longer the menacing bear but instead an innocent little puppy. At this point I thought "Oh my god I took datura and now I'm delirious and just killed an innocent puppy and was hallucinating. I have to hide it's body. Did anyone see me? It's broad daylight. What have I done?!" I never noticed I had fallen asleep or was now miles away from home at my sisters house for no apparent reason. I saw the poor animal gasping for air and I couldn't stand it so I tore (yeah, tore, with a fork thing, because I had no knives) its throat open so it would die instantly and stop suffering. It was very grotesque and detailed, I hated every second of it. I had blood all over my hands and felt like a psychopath, how could my life ever be the same after this?


I woke up soon after with a few false awakenings and imagining seeing myself doing random things like ironing clothes, taking bread out of the toaster, and pouring myself a glass of water, only to find myself back in bed.

I would never go to waking life delirum doses of datura but I do plan on continuing to take 2-3 seed doses for oneiric purposes. I feel that Lady Datura is testing me but I'm not giving up that easily, I'm gonna fight off the night terrors until I become lucid so I may speak to her and find out why she tries to invoke fear in her users.

I logged onto a Minecraft server and built a strange bridge. It went in loops and snaked around instead of following the most efficient path. I seemed to be limited to a fairly small area, but the buildings reached much higher into the sky than normally possible. After completing my bridge, I returned to the ground to prepare a new weapon. I wondered if I could make a crossbow… I tried a bunch of combinations of items with no luck. When I arranged five normal bows in the rough shape of a crossbow, I was able to make one. I sensed that, like in Ragnarok, I could refine the weapon if I found the necessary ore. I went looking for phracon to use on it. MadMonkey from Dreamviews walked up to me, and I thought he was going to kill me for my items, so I shot him three times and killed him. He didn’t lose anything, so he didn’t seem to mind. I wandered around a bit and got into a fight with another player. He had diamond armor, but I was still able to kill him. The problem came when his friends teamed up against me… They started using super powers – shooting beams of blue light at me, moving at twice normal speed, and absorbing my health, for example. I tried to activate my own super powers, but it seemed I didn’t have any yet. Lame! I decided I would log off before they killed me rather than lose all of my belongings. Unfortunately, I died just before I disconnected. I saw my stuff spill onto the ground before the client closed.

The dream jumped. I logged back onto the server in a safe area at the top of a gigantic skyscraper. I started jumping to increase my acrobatics skill (as though this was an Elder Scrolls game). I thought that if I leveled up my skills, I would be able to use super powers like the others. One of the guys I fought earlier mentioned my name in the chat.

“Nice fight!” I said to him. The people who killed me seemed friendly. The only one I didn’t get along with was the guy who attacked me in the first place.

I am in some sort of facility. It is colorful and futuristic. I am living in this facility.

There is a man who works there. He is cutting my toe nails. I feel really awkward. I like this guy.

I am in a large dark room. The walls are electric blue. There is a very large screen, it looks like a television screen and it is glowing. There is no bed and no furniture. I know that this is ‘my bedroom’.

I am going up a stair well. I am not supposed to be in the stair well. I think I am going to see the guy from before. I am outside the facility. I am not supposed to leave the property. I cross a little creek. It is fall weather and all the plants are yellow. I am running away from the place and I feel like someone is chasing me. I begin to run like a horse. My run continues to evolve. I start to leap. I begin to be able to leap longer distances at a time. I reach a barn.

My dream recall's been a bit poor ever since my massive recall the other day. Last night saw a small bit of progress, but probably my second worst lucid dream so far.

I'm at my original home and it's my birthday. My parents aren't there for it but contact my via a video link and apologise and tell me that they love me very much. I see at the bottom of my bed that they have left me a present - it turns out to be a huge packet of jelly beans (note - my bedroom is in its pre-decorated state). The next thing I know, I am walking past Costcutter (again! dream sign?) with my sister Z_ and B_. We're discussing the delicious of nature of pork pies. As we pass the shop I see someone I recognise, I double take and sure enough it's Charlie Sheen. I instantly know that I'm dreaming and panic. I scramble about from side to side to find something to ground myself with but much of the dreamscape seems to have disappeared and is largely a blank, white space. I find myself in what I know to be a dream bed and RC again, but it's too late and I awake in my real bed.

At this point I tried to DEILD, successfully keeping my eyes wide shut, however the extent to which I dipped back into the dream wasn't enough so i carried on sleeping normally.


During the day today I decided to have a WILD attempt as I've really been slacking off with this since the start of my LD efforts. I managed to get some very subtle WILD sensations and almost felt myself float out of my body. Again this wasn't enough to completely disconnect or start a lucid dream.



So all in all a day and night of mixed success. At least I managed to become lucid, even if it was brief and at least I began to feel WILD sensations again.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I'm removing a part of the title, and I also didn't expect very much from last night. Did have a few dreams though, and I'm satisified with what I dreamt.

21.50: Sleep

05.10: Matte on ice
I'm playing hockey with a bunch of guys. Peter Forsberg is on the other team. "You'll get it" I tell him jokingly. He bumps into me and I can tell he's rock solid. I'm screwed if he decides to bring me down. The game ends and we start to talk. "I can't do anything, except skate well" I tell him and start spinning around and going backwards on the ice. I make small V's in the ice, and he mimicks me, only his V's are much nicer. We're on some kind of lake and it's night out. I fall and check out the ice closer up. "There is ice crystals and symbols all over the ice" I say and point at it. It's quite cool.

We skate around for a while more, and end up by a small hill. He goes up it with ease, but I don't make it. A girl comes crashing down the hill. and I dodge her. A coworker shows up, he starts talking to a crowd that suddenly appeared, about some keys. "Someone left their key in the snow, and he won't get another one" he tells them, and looks at me. I remember putting the key in the snow, damn. "92% of the people has their keys still, bla bla bla bla". I get out of there and I'm quite annoyed at this point. The crowd turns into a fantasy party of people, and the leader tells us it's time to go.

05.10: Fragments
*I'm having a fight with my dad and my mom. "I'm both physically, and mentally exhausted!" I yell at them. "I can barely do anything when I get home". They don't seem to listen to me. I decide to fall just like that backwards, and smack my head on the floor, hard. I lie there for a while.

*I'm watching a map. It's got some info about spices and the spice I'm looking at is only located at a small island. I try to locate where it is, and find the equator. It's just above Italy. I'm confused.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7 hours

Supplements: None

That's it! Sweet.

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