non-lucid

From what I remember there was a family of four. A Mum, Dad and daughter. They adopted a girl who could not walk very well. The two girls, despite not being related by blood, got on really well. When the daughter was taken ill she had to go and stay in hospital. The Dad became bitter (and I guess the Mum did too?), and started to lock their adopted daughter in a room. (I'm not sure why, he was frustrated and scared for his daughter and took it out on the other, perhaps? I get a vague feeling that maybe he wished it was her who was taken ill, and not their daughter!) He also locked the girl up when he and the Mum went out to the hospital. (Were they ashamed to be seen with her?) One locking didn't go according to plan though, and she was able to escape!

04.03.2011

Goddamn Fragments 2: Fragment Harder (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I know that this is kind of long, but trust me, it is a fragment as I know that there was a shit-ton more and I'm just adding in a ton of details.

I'm in one of my classes (I think) looking at my headphones, realizing that they're breaking down from me dropping them so much. I begin to panic, but then I just put them in an empty backpack when BAM! I'm suddenly running down what lookes kind of like a long ass half pape in a sewer. I guess I'm in some sort of race when my headphones fall out of the backpack and they break in two. Suddenly they are like huge in ear headphones that still work, so I just put them away.
Cut to a hotel where I hear Yusuf (Inception) is also at. I get exited because I love Inception and I guess in this world it was real. So I exit my room whitch kind of just looks like my house to a mix between a Wal-Mart and arcade. I go to a weird room in this Wal-Cade where the manager is, and where the arcade machines are too. Oddly enough, there were like 4 different MvC3 machines. I began to play one while talking to the manager of Hotel Wal-Cade. I tell him that he has the most amazing hotel ever, when I start to wreck shit...

then I woke up

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March 4, 2011
These are nonlucid highly symbolic dreams. I have these every now and then and everything is logically strange but symbolically it all makes sense. This “sense” has to be wrung out of it usually over several days of pondering.

Dream 1: TSA
I am shopping with my mom in what may be an airport and we go into different convenience stores. The TSA is there at the back of the store.

Dream 2: Front Yard
Dialog will be red
I am in my front yard and the air is fresh and new like a spring morning yet it also feels like a dream place feeling of those things, feelings I am used to. Looking at the yard I see a red something on the lawn and go to check it out and it is a little red book titled Eden in gold letters. While walking across the lawn to my car my neighbor [who in RL never says much] says “here ya go!” as he holds out one of my plastic Japanese tea bottles. “Thanks” I say and start to walk off. Being more friendly than he ever is in RL he says cheerfully, “pay it forward” as if this is like saying ‘see you later.’ I say “K” and he replies “or sleep with a fatty…” ‘WTF, what did he just say?’ I thought about this to such an extent I woke up!

I was slowly transforming into a robotic spider. My tongue was extremely sticky and removable. For some reason, I gained the ability to scale vertical walls with ease after licking them once. I used this ability to sneak into Nicole’s house through a window. This seemed to take place about five years in the past… Nicole and Jess were much younger, and they were still friends. They were sitting together in Nicole’s room. I crawled in and hissed awkwardly. That was my form of speech. Jess wanted to kill me and flush me down the toilet, but Nicole stopped her. I probably had it coming to me for letting that cat get flushed halfway down the toilet…

“He’s kinda cute…” Nicole argued. “I wanna keep him.”

“You want to keep that?” Jess scowled. Nicole knelt in front of me and gently stroked my head.

“Let’s teach him some tricks. Come with us, okay?” She and Jess went into another room. I followed obediently. They helped me correct my robot spider speech impediment, and I regained the ability to speak normally. I informed them that I needed to be at school at 8 AM, but I wanted to see Nicole before leaving. Nicole insisted that I could ride the bus with her. We started waling around outside. When I asked her about it, she admitted her bus driver probably wouldn’t let me ride to school with her… I was sorely disappointed; before I realized I wouldn’t be able to, I was enjoying a flashback to that giddy feeling of interacting with a crush. I tried to cling to that simple happiness.

“Well, at this point, I won’t make it back home to catch my bus… I need a ride one way or another,” I said.

“Don’t worry,” she assured me, “my mom will take us.” A bunch of people came out of the garage together. Everything smelled like smoke. Nicole smiled widely at them. “Oh, you were doing that thing!” she laughed.

“What thing?” asked her dad.

“That thing!” Nicole repeated. They still pretended not to understand (if they did understand in the first place). Mike and Eric were walking together. Eric mentioned something about being good at video games.

“You know what that means…” Mike said.

“Uh… No,” Eric said, shaking his head.

“You can reach into the fabric of the universe and bend it to your will! Space and time are your playthings! And rainbows? Don’t even get me started on rainbows. Wow. Just kidding, Eric – you can’t do that stuff.” Eric seemed confused. We continued looking for Nicole’s mom. I couldn’t remember what she looked like, so every time we saw a woman, I wondered if it was her. We decided to go in the garage, but Nicole went off on her own by the time we got to the backyard. Jess started laughing at me. She challenged me to destroy a glowing, black pillar in the yard. I punched it with all of my might several times, but I couldn’t break it. I continued into the garage. It was shaped like a barn. Once I was inside, I saw that they were on a platform near the ceiling. It took me a few tries because I was starting to lose my robot spider powers (it seemed to be caused by getting my tongue dirty), but I climbed up onto the ceiling and dropped down onto the platform. Something inside my body shattered. A console attached to my robot spider body sent out an error message.

“OV/OL,” Nicole read. She and Jess puzzled over what the error message could mean until a woman came up onto the ledge. She picked me up and sighed.

“Over voltage overload,” she said, explaining the console output to the girls.

“Oh no!” Jess cried. She seemed genuinely upset. I couldn’t figure out why. “We broke him!”

“Not to worry…” the woman said. “I’ll take care of it. You two should get ready for school.”

The dream jumped. I was my normal self again. Nicole and I lay on the floor in the living room (except it was my Oma and Opa’s living room). There was trash everywhere… Spilled drinks (grape soda on white carpet, jeez), half-eaten candy… I tried picking it up while Nicole and Jess played a fighting game. Justin was at Nicole’s house, so he played, too. He explained all of the unique headgears available in the game when I started watching. Nicole was playing as an incredibly powerful wizard with refined command of electricity. Scamper walked into the room and started eating food and toys left in his reach. I didn’t want Nicole’s family to get mad at me for things my dog did, so I made him drop the toys. One looked like Eric’s Guile figurine. A bunch of people had to leave again. I saw Beckman walk by. He complimented my talent for programming, and I took it to heart. Justin joked that Beckman seemed to be into me. I told Justin that I had a history of guys falling for me.

“Like Justin,” I said. I didn’t realize I was talking to Justin…

“Justin?” he asked, bewildered.

“Tynne. Serenity.” He fell onto his back in shock. Then, he started to cry.

“Serenity never gave me a chance…” he wailed. I hugged him to calm him down. After that was settled, I went into the kitchen to organize the refrigerator. I sorted the fruits with care. Nicole’s mom finally showed up. She asked if we were ready to go. I replied in the affirmative – just as soon as I was sure the refrigerator was in order.

Pretty long dream last night (or series of dreams).

First I can remember wanting to take a road trip to Austin with my mom and sister. We took two separate cars and I was in the lead car. I was driving pretty fast and I was sure they got lost. I got on a highway that was in a valley and started weaving in and out of traffic. There was an area on the highway where I was supposed to keep left to avoid an exit (which was 4 lanes wide) but I ended up staying left and exited into this huge building with an underground garage. I wanted to find the route back to the highway but it was blocked off by some big metal doors so I spent the night in the building which turned out to be a hotel.

My sister and mom's car caught up with me pretty soon after, and I overheard my sister asking if some friends could come over to the hotel. My mom said no, my sister got mad, then my mom vanished and my sister thought that was pretty convenient so she invited her friends anyway. The hotel room we were staying at was very large except the bathroom, which had a shower that had a faucet about half the height it was supposed to be at and shower walls about as high as the waist. The walls of the hotel room were about three feet high but there was no ceiling, so pretty much there was just a black void where the ceiling should be. I could see outside of our hotel room and it seemed like we were just floating in this void.

I was in the shower when my sister's friends came (about three of them) and since the shower walls were waist high and the room walls weren't much higher, they could see I was in the shower. I said 'Hi' and they said they wanted a shower too. My sister told us about a locker room down the hall with showers and walls that were actually the right size, so we went through a doorframe and the void turned into a hallway with a yellowish glow in the lighting. We went into the locker rooms and the three friends got into the showers which only had a shower curtain. I got into a shower as well.

After a few minutes they started calling my name so I looked out and their shower curtains were open. I told them to close the curtains because I was, quote, "tired of all [your] fucking bullshit" but they ignored me and starting climbing onto each other (literally, one person would stand on the others shoulders so there). I had no idea what to do so I just walked out of the shower into my hotel room and woke up from the dream.

Pretty weird but very vivid.

My roommate was replaced with a guy named Alex. He had a black cat named Sylvester. We didn’t talk to each other much at first. One night, as I was trying to fall asleep, I heard Alex murmuring in his bed. He had a stuffed lion in his arms. I knew it was named Simba because he frequently talked to it during the day… The next day, he accidentally spilled a whole container of bleach on my bed, so I helped him clean it. I joked about him doing it on purpose. He also accidentally dropped a bag of chips behind the bed. I refused to pick them up. The residents of the connecting room, Sandy and Tyler, knew Alex from high school. They were dating. They hardly ever came over to our side of the suite, but Alex frequently went downtown with them to parties. Alex had to go somewhere, so I decided to take the initiative to clean up our messy room. I finally disposed of the bag of chips. It was empty… I wondered where the chips had gone. I also washed a bunch of dishes by hand in the bathroom. They weren’t my dishes, but I was still worried someone would be mad that I didn’t dry them off and put them away.

Standing in the doorway between our bathroom and the other room, I gave Tyler a creepy stare. He was watching the History Channel. Confused and a little concerned by my weird smile, he explained that he never goes to class on Mondays. He always just watched the History Channel to learn things. I wondered if I should be doing that… Apparently, I was in the same history class. Tyler had to use Alex’s computer for something, so he came over to our room. Shortly after, we heard pained whispers behind the door.

“Help me…” a voice wailed.

“Just a second,” called Tyler. The whine repeated. I realized the door was already cracked open. Alex poked his head in. “Wow, it’s just Alex… Prick.”

“You know you love me!” he laughed. Alex was amazed by how clean the room was. He started looking for his chips.

“I threw them away,” I explained. He reached into the trash, pouting.

“But floor chips are the best kind of chips…”

“Well, no one’s been eating said floor chips, so…” Alex looked up at me with a raised eyebrow.

“Dude, Sylvester’s been snacking on those for like a day!”

“Really?!” I was surprised I didn’t notice…

“Dude! You ate my donut?” Alex asked Tyler.

“Yeah… What of it?” replied Tyler.

“Nothing, just saying…” He stared sadly at the half-eaten donut in the trash can. I sensed that he was considering eating it. I decided to go to the bathroom, and Sylvester followed me in. The cat started unrolling the toilet paper while I was urinating, so I sent him away. Then he hopped in the toilet itself – before I could flush down my waste. “This cat is psycho…” I flushed it with Sylvester inside the bowl, hoping he was too big to get stuck. The cat ended up with his head and front paws sticking out of the bottom of the bowl. He was soaking wet and could hardly pull himself out… He managed, though. After shaking off his back feet, he trotted back into the room. Alex cracked up when he saw what had happened to Sylvester. I secretly wondered if the cat could talk… Tyler and I discovered a stuffed warthog that played recorded sounds. Although it takes us a minute, we realized they were all recordings made by Alex when he was a kid. He had kept this since he was a child.

A ton of kids from my high school were at some sort of playground at night. I was behind the main structure with my sister. I say "I think I'm going to kiss (the girl i like) tonight." She says "Ok i'll arrange a meeting" And runs off around the jungle gym. I run after her through the groups of people calling "wait!" She doesn't acknowledge me. My sister tells her "(He/me) wants to meet you on the bridge at 3:02 (A.M. i'm assuming since it was very dark out) This time happened to be "right now" in the dream. She and I walk from the front of the jungle gym and begin to climb ladders and stuff. It's unusally tall. We got to the top where theres a wooden bridge with lots of people. We walk across the bridge past some people. I think: "I can't kiss her with all these people around." At that point the semi-quiet darkness changes to loud music and strobe lights. We go back down the jungle gym and stand under it. Then the sun begins to rise and a slow song plays. No more strobe lights. I think: "Perfect." We don't take one step to slow dance before a girl i don't know buts in. And then we're all 3 holding hands. I get mad and stare at the floor. When i look up, neither of them is the girl I like. So I run around the jungle gym trying to find her. I pass countless girls. But I never find her. The dream ends.

What I found strange is that she never said a word. I also think its odd that I had to pass some girls only to not find her...

I'm on a game show. The category is "fruits." A little girl at my left ran up to the buzzer after saying "ooh I've got it!" She buzzed in and said "sprinkler." I proceeded to tell her that it had to be a fruit. The dream ends.

I was near the beach behind a wooden waist high fence. I climbed over it and saw many businessmen looking at me. I discovered that i was naked at that moment. We were all on some sort of deck with tables. I saw my brother's friend with someone else to my right. I walked over and spoke briefly with him. On this side, I had a good view of the beach where I saw my brother. I then thought "Oh gosh he's going to see me naked." Surprisingly, I didn't make any move to end the dream, hide, or cover myself. The dream ends.

Ok so I was walking away from these apartments with one of my friends. He mentioned how much his mom liked the apartments and stayed there whenever they go on trips. I laughed and was confused, because they do not live in an apartment. "Well just me and my dad go. She doesn't like to be alone in the house." I said: "Oh ok. I thought she would go stay there as a vacation." We laughed about this. During this period of time, I was not paying attention to where we were going. We arrived in a very dark neighborhood. There must have been a game going on. Many people from my old school were hiding. I waved at some of them, and announced that it was my birthday. (On this particular night, my birthday was in fact the next day) I think someone behind me asked "your brother's birthday?" I replied, "no, it's my birthday." The group of my old elementary school friends had informally gathered around. My friend aforementioned was mysteriously gone. Everyone was kind of milling around. I was wearing a black hoody and tan shorts. I tried not to look alone in the crowd. Somehow, we were now in a gym I assumed was our rival school. Coach asked us to run 3 easy laps. I think it was the coach from my school. I thought I was running very fast and very well, but when i rounded the last corner, everyone was waiting in line, and i was in last. The stretch seemed to be much longer than the others. The female gym teacher from my school started giving instructions, until many students proclaimed that I wasn't done yet. So they waited. All watching. For some reason I had to free run the corner of the bleachers. A blonde mom walked past me and dropped the F bomb in conversation. I went over to join the group. We were to spread out on the sideline and run fast across on command. We lined up and got ready to run. Some jocks jumped the gun and got laughed at. We ran across in some sort of ice skating manner. The door to my right was open to daylight. The dream ends.

I wake up in ‘my bedroom’ (it does not look like my bedroom). I step out into the hall. There is a railing looking out over a large two story window. I see something falling out of the sky in the distance. It is shining like a meteorite falling into the atmosphere from space. It crashes down. I can’t see exactly where it land because it lands in the distance behind a hill. I see blue and green flashes coming from behind the hill.

The dream gets fuzzy. I think I saw people walking away from the crash site. They look like army soldiers; they are in uniform and are carrying weapons.

Suddenly there is a flying ‘drone’ (from the game bioshock) zooming around in my room. It shines a blue light at me. I scream ‘you’re not real, this is just a dream”. I look at my hands and start rubbing them together.

I wake up from the dream in my bedroom beside my boyfriend. It is my bedroom (it looks like my bedroom) but I know that it is in a house (not an apartment). My boyfriend is sleeping beside me but he is holding a boning knife that is pointing down on my sternum.

Now we are sitting in the living room (my boyfriend and I). We can see outside the window that there are many soldiers going from house to house. My boyfriend tells me to make an excuse when they get to us. I’m not sure what that means but I can tell that something is wrong. A soldier comes to our doos and asks if we’ve seen anything out of the ordinary. I stutter my boyfriend cuts in and makes up some sort of story to convince him that everything is alright. I’m thinking of the knife that morning, thinking that that was definitely out of the ordinary and it was terrifying.

Next thing I remember I was on top of a snowy hill with many people.
Now I am in a house with my dad’s side of the family. One of my cousins is screaming and swearing as she tries to get through a door in the house we’re in. It is unlike her to scream and swear. I feel like there is something wrong so I try to flee.

I am on a snowmobile outside of a house that I used to live in with my parents. I am trying to get my boyfriend. There is a young boy in a snow suit attacking him. I’m yelling and trying to get him on the snowmobile so that we can get away.

The End

Throughout the entire dream I felt that the meteorite crash, flashing light, and soldiers had everything to do with why everybody was acting weird.

Plans: Go see MoSh and find out if Asuka is ok, meet Nomad in a dream, meet Pablo in a dream, the usual list of tasks from various sources.

Come Out and Play
I am in my room on my bed, though it isn't my normal bed. This doesn't occur to me as strange even though my regular bed is a waterbed. I get out of the bed when I hear a sound beside the bed. I figure one of the cats are getting into something or is up to something. I turn on a light beside my bed and I see something go under the bed very quickly. Was it one of the cats? I get down beside the bed and peek underneath. I can't see much under the bed, I can barely make out the shape of an animal and an impression of a cute face, two eyes are glowing softly with reflected light. I hear a soft growl from the bed as if the animal is warning me away. Am I scaring the cat? I am trying to coax the animal from underneath the bed, telling the animal I'm not an enemy, I'm a friend. I wake up to the sound of my cat breaking all new records in the volume of a purr. Maybe the growling in the dream was just the sound of the purring cat penetrating into the dream.


NCIS
I am in an open green field that is crawling with various cops, government agents, emergency vehicles, paramedics, and more. I am a bit disoriented, I am not sure what I am doing there, so I am trying to look like I belong there because I figure random people shouldn't be there. I look around a bit more and I see a helicopter has crashed in the middle of the field. There are fire trucks around it, the helicopter is still smoldering slightly. There are ambulances at the scene, but the bodies being taken from the helicopter are completely covered, they are dead. I go over near the ambulances and everyone responds as if I belong there. I see people from the NCIS crew… Tony DiNozzo, Timothy McGee, Leroy Jethro Gibbs, Ducky, Ziva Delgado… Gibbs is very angry, he is chewing out the paramedics and the officials around the crashed helicopter, he is saying they had no right to move the bodies before his team could take a look at the scene. They say it was an accident, there is nothing to examine. Gibbs says this was no accident. He goes over to one of the bodies and pulls the covering back from it, pointing at the dead man underneath. He says this man was shot, he died before the helicopter crashed. So did the other man. This was no accident, it was a double murder. One of the government officials asks how they could have been shot when they were the only ones in the helicopter when it crashed. Gibbs says that is what he and his team are going to find out.


A Child of Death
I am in a car with several other people, they all seem to be on a very urgent mission, everyone seems pretty stressed out, especially the woman beside me in the back seat. She is crying something about her baby. I wonder what is going on. The man in the passenger side of the front seat looks back at me and says it's about time I woke up. He says they have gotten a lead on the creature who took little Anabel, we would get there in a bit. The woman beside me, the one who has been crying, now looks angry. She says she wants to see that thing dead, she wanted to see it burn, she wants it to pay for what it's done to her baby. The man up front says there is no indication that Anabel has been harmed, we could still rescue her. The car pulls to a stop at the bottom of a tall building, I get out and look around. We are in a downtown location, but the place is strangely deserted, and there is an especially tall skyscraper next to us. There are dark clouds and lightning up around the top of the building, which is clearly our destination. The woman is already heading for the door, one of the men tells me to go after her and make sure she doesn't do anything stupid. They go around to the other side of the building. I follow the woman into the front door of the building, she is already at the stairwell and heading up at a surprising speed. I follow her, I am hoping I don't run out of energy while trying to chase her. I don't, and we reach what seems to be the penthouse area. We exit the penthouse onto a patio garden on the top of the building. The clouds and lightning are all around us now, and I see a strange creature standing on what seems to be a path of solid black clouds that leads into a vortex of clouds and lightning in the sky. The creature looks a lot like the grim reaper… the skeletal figure is holding a small baby wrapped in pink blankets, it is laughing evilly. The woman charges out and says the thing will not have her child, she then fires a blast of energy from her hand that hits the skeletal creature right in the center of its head. Her energy isn't powerful enough to kill it. I have another plan. I add my energy to her, focusing on it being healing energy, that seems like the right thing to do. My energy comes from the song Frozen, hers is an attack. Her attack weakens the thing's defense enough that my healing energy penetrates and has its proper effect. A strange golden energy surrounds the skeletal figure and it disappears. I telekinetically pull the baby towards us and hand the girl to her mother.


Pirates of DDO
I am on a dock, there are two men with me, and they look like they are ready for a fight. I have a feeling of recognition, but I'm not sure of who they are. I am thinking one of them is Nomad and the other is MoSh. We get onto a ship and head out into the ocean, the ship is an old style sailing ship. The wind is strong and the ship moves quickly, there is another ship in the distance. We are catching up with that ship at a quick rate, and soon I am able to see that it is a pirate ship.

We catch up quickly and then prepare to board the pirate ship. The reason we are chasing the ship is that the pirates have a hostage, they kidnapped a woman from the previous town and she is being held on the ship. We board the pirate ship, and a fight breaks out immediately. There are many pirates on the ship, and the three of us engage them in battle using swords. I am fighting quite a few of the pirates, I see a chance to try an interesting move… I swing around on one of the rope riggings on the sails and kick three pirates over the railing of the ship into the ocean. I see them down below trying to swim toward the ship as if they think they can climb the side, or maybe there's a rope or a ladder somewhere around the ship. They don't make it, there are fins circling down there, and those find aren't dolphins. I hear them scream and then there is blood in the water. No time for that. I am being attacked again, I think we have to find out where the hostage is. I telepathically scan the mind of one of the pirates and discover she is being held below deck. I am busy, but I call out to the man I think is MoSh and tell him where she is. MoSh heads below deck immediately. I continue fighting pirates, cutting one, blocking the sword of another, running a third through. I jump down into a hatch into the cargo hold to avoid being hit by one of the pirates' swords. I land in a pile of treasure, gold coins, gems, silver… wow… I think most of it will be returned to those from which it had been stolen. But no one would notice a little bit missing… I grab a few handfuls of coins and gems and shove them into my pockets.

I was auditioning for a play and we were being told if we were in or out. we were in a line and if you were not in the play we had to cross a very unsteady rail and slide down a pole thirty stories down. I'm afraid of height and a close friend of mine tried to comfort me by saying i'd be fine and at that moment 3 people lot their balance and fell over the railing. I was not in the play and was forced to go down the pole.

Dreams Are Beauty Dreams Are Love Dreams Are Amazing Dreams Are Lively Dreams Are Great

The following dream I had on 5-hours sleep. This would have been my 3rd REM cycle which means this dream may have been over 45-minutes long. It was extremely, extremely, realistic. To the point that when I woke up I felt I had not been home in days or weeks. The visual quality, in complete honesty, was more vivid than real life. I say this because in real life our eyelashes block our view and veins in our eyes can make some lighting conditions slightly blurry. I have 10/20 vision so this was not a product of wearing or needing glasses or contacts.

I woke up. My long time friend Lynn was massaging my right hand as I did. She didn't look completely sober and she seemed very bleary and passionate about giving me this hand massage. I felt uneasy, because I have a jealous girlfriend and I was wondering how I let myself alone with Lynn in a room.

Sitting in the room on a chair a few feet from my bed was an earthy/hippy looking guy in his mid 20's with rusty blond hair and beard. Lynn was saying something to me about working my energies or something. She eventually got off my bed and headed out the door. The guy sitting there laughingly told me about how Lynn had pulled a similar stunt and acted really weird to someone else recently in attempt to practice her Chinese medicine.

I did not recognize the room I was in. It was beige, metallic, somewhat cramped and had no windows. I felt confused as to where I was or how I got there. The guy started making small talk (which I don't recall and) I wasn't paying much attention, as I had a sinking feeling I was some how terribly lost.

The guy suggested I go into the living room with him, so I got out of bed and followed him. The living room looked shabby and unimpressive. We sat down on a brownish colored sofa and continued to talk as I desperately tried to orient myself. Soon afterward, one by one, all my "roommates" came home. There must have been at least ten other people I appeared to be living with. I didn't know who any of them were, but they all seemed very familiar with me.

They all sat around talking to each other about various things. (This part of the dream could have easily lasted 10-minutes by itself.) I sort of made excuses for myself for not knowing what the hell was going on. I just woke up. I didn't feel too hot. But eventually admitted, "I have no idea who any of you are!" They laughed it off, and implied I had done too many drugs or something the night before. I started to become terrified of the possibility I had a massive case of amnesia. I hid it, but inside the fear was swelling up strongly.

Then, Sabrina, a girl I haven't seen in many, many years walked in with a big smile. She looked thinner and healthy and I stood up to greet her. I somewhat shouted for joy. "Sabrina! Now you I know!" Everyone laughed. At this point I said "Now I don't know if I'm dreaming or not." I was so relieved to see another person I knew, the fear level dropped and I could pretend to fit in a little. (This part of the dream could have lasted another 10-minutes.)

Eventually my girlfriend walked in and it looked like she had just got off work. She looked sweet and very calm like she had a good day. When I saw her I felt desperate to take her aside and confide in her how lost and uncertain I felt. She told me "Lets go up to our apartment." I felt relieved, because I thought we all lived in that small unit together and I couldn't understand why I would ever choose to live that way.

We walked into the halls which were also metallic and had dark worn-out atmosphere difficult to put into words. The place looked futuristic but extremely old like something from the movie Bladerunner. I followed my girlfriend up flights of stairs like a lost puppy. She remained calm and not alarmed. On the way up the stairs I asked her "Can we go back to my home? I just want to know that it's still real." She laughed it off and we walked to our apartment door.

At this point I turned around and saw a crazed looking man was following closely behind me. I opened our door, which sealed like the door of a submarine and had a bright red glowing light above the thick black metallic peep hole. I seemed to know how to open it perfectly well and I shoved her in the door, followed, then double locked ourselves in. Checking the locks from inside, they seemed loose.

Our door entered close to the kitchen. The place looked even darker, more cramped, and less inviting than the first apartment. I was starting to become very, very, uncomfortable again. Our apartment was divided into three floors. The basement level I never went to, but it was nearly pitch black save for a few red LED's on the walls. I followed her upstairs to our bedroom area. There laying on a chair was a very pale girl with shorts on sitting on a chair half dazed.

I was alarmed, but my GF explained that was only our roommate. I told her I couldn't take this place any more and asked if we could go for a walk outside. She agreed, and we left through a side door and went outside where there was only an empty parking lot, and gray looking forest. We walked into the forest and I started to feel dizzy. (The dream started to destabilize.) Horror struck again...

I put my arm around her for balance and asked "Am I mentally retarded now? Did I have some sort of accident?" She only just slightly smiled and looked at me. --Then I woke up.

I want to emphasize, when I woke up I felt I hadn't seen my bedroom in at least 2-3 days. I felt like a stranger to my own life, and I noticed that my real room was not as visually intense as my dream room.

This dream falls into a common category of my dreams: Bizarre Apartment