non-lucid

Interconnected elements of this dream:

THE BACKGROUND. Something in the dream just told me that we were out on a vacation with my usual adventure buddies. The plan was to gather a daypack after checking in a hotel...a rather grand one.

THE BOAT. When I was about to board a small boat, I saw people in the boat which the dream states are my buddies though their faces were not recognizable. They were in bright orange life jackets waiting on me. but suddenly they told me the trip was an overnighter on an island. I ran as fast I could thru the hotel grounds, grasses (first person point of view) to quickly re-pack for an overnight.

THE HOTEL. Trying to return to my room, I got lost. My keys had a 4 digit number in it and the first two digits of that number I can see on the hotel doors, implying i was in the right floor. But something in the dream said that it was in the wrong building/tower. I scrambled to another building, but was unable to get to the 8th floor, which the key number seems to indicate where I was supposed to go. I then found myself in the 4th floor instead and asked around hotel staff. They said best to take stairs up. I tried looking for the elevator but can't find and since my buddies were waiting on me, I decided to run up the stairs.

THE STAIRS. Halfway thru the first flight, I tried to retreat (wanting to still find an elevator), but a big cat..something like a cheetah was growling at me. I tried to give the cat a quick kick to protect myself and continued to run upstairs. I only ran up 3 floors...but somehow I was in my room.

UNPACKING. I went to my closet to get my bigger bag & unpack some stuff to place in my daypack. It was a bit dark, the scene was grayish. as I unpack, several contents seem familiar but can't quite remember now what they were. something in the dream told me it's been already 10minutes since I took off from the boat, whereas I promised my buddies I'd be back in 5.

Then I woke up.

21st of October- end of the world

Im at my old house and we heard something about monsters in major cities and decided we could make it if we stuck together as a family. Mom, aunt, grandma, brother, friend and his GF were there. Our neighbourhood became like a haven for people trying to get away from the city. So we threw a party before splitting up and heading further into counrty-like areas. A bus arrived and we thought it was just more people trying to escape. But it was full of government people in white military uniforms who were violently arresting, and sanitizing people. I remember hiding in a barn with a Velcro wall, eventually i was taken in but i didnt fight them so i wasnt harmed. I woke up when i was being hand cuffed.

28th of October- F.A

I was dreaming that im awake, chatting with Akono and all of a sudden i fall.. or get sucked into my bed, happened really fast and i crash land on the couch in my living room. I sit up, confused, and a hand reaches around the corner and picks me up by the front collar of my shirt and drags me back into my room and pushes me onto the bed and i immediately fall through again. The first time was shocking, but fun, crash landing on the couch a second time made me mad and i had concluded that it was Akono's hand, so i storm back to my room and find him on msn and yell at him, i remember he was proud. And i woke up.

31st of October- reg dream

I was living on a house boat, i got the feeling i was in Norway or Finland, i was with a DC family. There was a seamless glass sun room on top of the boat where i was. There was a lot of snow on the boat but i was looking at the sky through a clear part of the ceiling. All of a sudden the room shattered over me from the weight of the snow, my DC brother pulled me out and handed me a parka. Our DC father was fighting with a neighbour boat/ family, i didnt understand the language everyone was speaking. I knew i needed to start packing. When i finished i saw my father figure had stolen some important statues, and rushed me into a truck and lit our boat on fire. We drove to the airport and when we got there i woke up.

5th of November-
Had a really long dream about Akono :3

11th- was posted in the "Post Your DV Member Dreams" thread

My best recall since the 5th: Slash112 and some old guy and I were running a store inside of some huge, really old building. I think we sold random stuff that we found, like "pickers". I remember vividly, on break we went out back to a swing set that had two sets of handles and one chain that was attached at both ends to the top. And when we got there a young Will Ferrell was swinging by his neck and laughing really creepily. I probably should have RC'd cause irl, he'd die from that..

Same night- I was standing on a beach with 4 or 5 random DCs, we were all facing the water, staring at a camcorder that was on a tripod. We had the preview screen tilted towards us and we were taking pics or a vid of us. I looked over at one of the DCs and watched him look up at the water and his jaw drop because of what he saw in the water. I also looked up but couldnt see it until all of the DCs were looking at it. When everyone noticed and started at it, i looked up again and saw now that it was a massive ship that was only about 10 feet away from us. It was at least 8 stories tall, i got too scared and tried to wake up but i just saw the ship from a top angle instead and saw my helpless friends on the beach. I couldnt do anything but stare at it until i woke up.

12th- reg dream

Had a dream that my mom and two of my friend's moms were at the kitchen table in my old house, stuffing a garbage bag with something and singing Orestes - A.P.C. "And I don't wanna feel this overwhelming hostility.."

Same night- was also posted in the "Post Your DV Member Dreams" thread

One of my shorter frags from this morning was about me mailing Akono a chistmas present. hehehee

17th- end of the world

Zombies had taken over and one man was plotting to use them to take over the world, humans weren't in danger of being pillaged by the zombies because this politician was controlling them. All i remember is being at a live theatre and the politician was leading an orchestra of the zombies, sounded fine but when i woke up i laughed.

24th- end of the world

Pt 1: I was at my old house with all of my family, but i knew (for the first time) that it's not my house, i think it was for a wedding. Pt 2: Kinda like i was knocked out and woke up and all of my family is dead or missing. I vividly remember trying to bail from some industrial building, stepping over bodies that i knew were my family but didnt recognize. I headed for my dad's standard truck with a plan to save as many people as i could and pull them onto the truck bed. But there were about 6 too many options on the gear shifting area, so i tried my best to pull the truck out and woke up as i was trying to park.

26.11.2010

At the living room. (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a couple of non lucid dreams, but I was lazy to write them down. I remember four lucid dreams. Chained.

I went to bed telling myself I had to MILD for a lucid dream. I wanted to attempt to Astral Project from another lucid dream.

I was at home with my two made up female friends. I realized I was dreaming. I did not see oddities so I did a RC to make sure I was indeed dreaming. I was.

I was in the living room. We had a few pieces of furniture. The room was almost empty. One of the female DC jumped on me and tried to have sex with me. I avoided at first as I did want to project, but then I agreed. I recalled I can have sex without waking up. While having sex, the dream when fuzzy, I realized I did not make the dream stable (flying) when the dream first started.
I told my self to chain it into another lucid dream.

26.11.2010

keep chaining (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a couple of non lucid dreams, but I was lazy to write them down. I remember four lucid dreams. Chained.

Second:

I was in the street and realized I successfully performed another L-DEILD. I checked my hands (with a 6th small finger coming out from my index) and confirmed.

I decided to fly to make the dream stable. While I was flying I felt double consciousness in bed and I started to loose the dream. I realized that I was at the end of my REM and I was not able to chain in.
I attempted to chain again.

26.11.2010

Chain Reaction (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a couple of non lucid dreams, but I was lazy to write them down. I remember four lucid dreams. Chained.

I felt my body in bed. I felt some minor vibrations. My trance was very mild so I fell asleep. I was at a Chinese restaurant. I was with some family and I decided to follow the dream. The dream looked more stable. I walked with my parents to find a table, however, I realized I was wasting a lucid so I just left while my dream mom was talking to me. She did not complain.

There was a female DC sitting on a table. She was super hot. I really wanted to both have sex with her and to Astral Project. I realized I could always chain another dream, chaining always works for me. We had sex and when my dream was ending, I just focused on chaining once more.

26.11.2010

Failed Astral Projection ends the chain (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a couple of non lucid dreams, but I was lazy to write them down. I remember four lucid dreams. Chained.

I re spawned in the middle of the street, right outside the Chinese restaurant. I saw a female DC next to a car. She looked at me with the intention of having sex, but I avoided her. I decided to Astral Project, my dream quality was low so I tried to save it. I decided to fall on my back and focus on Astral Projection. The dream was ending sooner than I expected.

I had a FA in my bed. I did not feel like I was projecting. I thought I awoke so I tried to not move. I tried to focus in floating and pulling my Astral Body away from my self. I walked away from my bed, I felt I could float, but did not work well. I was next to the door and I could not walk through it either. I realized I did not fail to project but I woke up. My wife was cooking and she smiled at me when she saw me. I woke up for real.

What a great morning.

Dream 1: This morning, they announced some verglas. My mom said I might have to take the bus if it was too bad. I wanted her to bring me to school. So I dreamed that I had to take the bus for school. The ride was actually great and peaceful though, I saw Tabatha but thats about it.

Dream 2: For some reason, I am shopping with some of my friends at the mall. Those include Zeng, Nick and Julien. We are carying around about 4 big bags of stuff. Zeng is nice and carries all 4 of them. More then once, my mother walks past us. After a while, I decide to help and take 2 bags, but they are surprisingly heavy and I have to take a break. Outside, its very rainy. While all of my friends walk away, I remember the bags im carrying are Zeng's. I shout that to him but he tells me theyre mine. I look inside and see some of my stuff that my mother gave me apparently. I call my mom so she picks me up. But then I end up in my bus again. Its only after I ended up in the middle of the street for no reason that I noticed I was dreaming. I was like: Ok how the hell did I get here? Im dreaming for sure! I RC. As I start walking forward, I see a plastic bag on the floor. As I am going to pick it up, I think to myself: You know what, lets make it appear in my hand instead! I start focusing on my palm and see some white starting to pop up, but no success. My dream starts destabilizing. Damn, I think, must be cus I failed. Then this huge sound of a guy talking turns up. Shut up! I think. Fade out. Instantly, I DEILD back and start seeing a book wide open with a big red mark in the middle. I wake up 4 real. Best of all, there was no school today! School got canceled!

(Posted these to nightmares sub-forum before, this is pretty much the same than there).

I don't actually count these as nightmares because I wasn't that afraid in them or so (not as much as in others anyway) but I did got attacked in them. Here is a couple of weird ones.


Deam started with a mermaid that could transform to human and mermaid whenever it liked. This required "257 dances(?)" if I recall right. It jumped to sea and started doing whatever it did to turn to mermaid again, there happened very bizarre things which I don't remember much, and what I do remember is a bit embarrassing so I skip that... anyway!

At some point it attacked me, with it's "cheese dragon". Don't ask me what that is, because I have no clue. I wake up and feel reliefed, but not so when I notice that there is a pile of cheese on the floor like someone would have took a big chunk of cheese and smashed it to floor. (It didn't look like cheese but for some reason I assumed it was.)

I get out from some room and I am at some warehouse harbor, with some kind of warehouses only... It's abandoned and locked down, all gates are locked so I am stuck there. There are some guards however so I start telling them to let me out (Just then I noticed I was Mr. T), telling about cheese dragon when guard says: "You seriously think I don't know how serious this is? It killed my wife!" and he starts telling how it happened and all but I can't recall what he said. I think I woke up before he finished.



This is from two nights back. Dream starts when I rummage in the room, kicking door in maybe, and tell some girl who is sitting on sofa to leave. She just stares there doing nothing. Next thing I remember is that I make some another guy in the room disappear by clapping my hands together once. No reaction from girl still. I leave the room.

I am in a shop, buying some Mynthons, when shopkeeper gives me wrong kinds of them and then before I know it, I have bought it. I start saying that they sold me wrong kinds of Mynthons when shopkeeper discusses with another whether they sold give it free. "It's free" they tell me.

"Oh, nice!" I reply. Suddenly out of nowhere that girl from before attacks me from behind (Except that it is zombified Elvis Presley, white jacket and black hair at least) and kills me in a few seconds, I barely have time to struggle. Then, when I am dead in front of it, it turns it's vision to me, as it was now in 3rd person and all (as in, it turned it's attention to me observing my dead body and it).

It smiles and tells me "You're dead". I reply: "Yeah, but I am not dead in my dreams" and do some sort of punch and it, waking up.

Comments:

Elvis dream didn't seem that scary when I dreamed it, but when I woke up, I was quite scared... not sure why.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

01:00 GMT

Wrathful deities
A chase, confrontation with some wrathful deities. I escape some place through a narrow window and deliver something to someone.
(...)

05:35 GMT
Cookies and kids
One of my last days on some very nice sunny city. It’s already end of the day and when passing a street I find this amazing bakery selling traditional pastry from this country/city. There is a lady baking the cookies on some open kitchen and selling them directly to the passer-by. Because these cookies are so famous, you have to get a numbered ticket and wait ages for your turn. I see my number and the amount of people waiting and I decide it’s not worth it, but then the baker tells all the other people to wait because she will take my order first. Really? Why? The other customers are not happy about it... It’s really hard to choose the best cakes and cookies so I ask for two of each, hoping they will still be ok in a few days when I get back home. Some cookies are still being baked and I have to wait a bit. Meanwhile I am allowed to enter the kitchen and I start talking to some ladies working there and I help them with some tiding up of the place. They have some old food in the fridge and I throw it away. Then they kick me out, because apparently they have to bake a huge load of cookies for a kid’s excursion next day.
On the next day me and my BF join this excursion and help take care of the kids. We go in groups in vans and we stop at a parking lot in front of the ocean. The kids are being taken to the beach. For a brief moment I wonder how we got into this? I don’t feel like taking care of dozens of kids all day. I then have this underlying feeling that I’m not obliged to actually do it – I’m half aware this is a dream - so I turn around to see what else is there to do. I see a green hill with a zig zag earthen path going up, flanked by Buddha’s statues of different sizes. I tell my BF “Let’s go there:”, but he won’t turn his back on the kids, because he doesn’t have this intuition it’s a dream. Divided between two dreams, I wake up.

08:00 GMT

Buddha is a teenager in blue jeans
At some bookshop I see a magazine, like Times, with a cover story on Tibetan Buddhism and it has pages and pages with amazing photos of teachers and famous practitioners and incredible Himalayan landscapes. I so want to buy it. On the cover it says £2, but I ask the cashier how much it costs in EUR. She tells me it’s 8000 something EUR and I LMAO. I ask “Are you nuts? It’s like 2.5 EUR.” And she replies that it’s not a simple conversion of prices, there are taxes and whatever. I still say “Are you aware of how much is 8000 EUR? Even if you’d say 8 EUR, it would be too expensive! Can you please just pass the mag under your bar code scanner to check the price?” But she says no and that she will call a colleague to ask. I’m about to give up. She comes back and tells me “If you come after 20h, when we’re closing, we can make a 50% discount on the mag, it would only cost 4000 EUR”. I say nevermind and start realizing this must be a dream.
Then the store becomes a bus and I think “Hum, why don’t I just materialize a lot of cash to pay for the stupid mag, just for fun?”, so I visualize I put my hand in my pocket and come out with 10000 EUR in cash. There’s someone by my side, not sure if still the same lady, surprised that I can do that and I say “Oh yeah, it’s just dream money. How much do you want? Just say it and I’ll make it appear.” But then my pockets are also filled with crumbles from cookies and lots of dirt. I empty them to find out what more is there, but then realize I’m wasting my precious lucid time. As I walk to the front of the bus I throw everything on the floor – money, magazine, bag, even a coat and I feel so light. The bus driver doesn’t know what I want to do, I smile and I cross the windshield – he and other passengers freak out. I lift of and fly high to see where I am. I see a road ahead of me, flanked by houses, up above a beautiful blue sky, down below a sea or a lake to my left and green hills to my right. I see a gate for what seems to be an amazing property with a park and decide it’s a good place to sit and meditate. But when I arrive there I see families with noisy kids all around. Oh well, I’ll have to endure. I look for a green spot to sit, but then all of the ground is muddy and uninviting. I recall my need not to drift or feel discouraged. I focus on the Buddha. I don’t visualize the Buddha image, but I sense Buddha’s presence and hold on to it. Then I find a covered passageway between two houses and in the middle of it there’s an amazing tower-like covered veranda with a central low pedestal with a base to sit on which is perfect. I sit there and it has a view over the whole park and the sea in the distance. The sun is setting and beautiful golden shades reflect on the water. But I realise all this is also distraction and as I am getting lost on it, I feel myself waking up. I hold on to the dream and I slide back in. I try to visualize the Buddha, but it’s not working. I feel myself waking up again, but I still hold on and slide back in. This time in front of me is my black kitten hugging another yellow kitten and I find it extremely sweet, but remember I must stay focused. Not trying to visualize the Buddha anymore, I instead try to just feel the Buddha’s presence more strongly. I do and then imagine that this presence becomes a ball of light that enters my body through my crown chakra. I feel a very powerful effect, like a force field around my head. I start to hover, feeling this amazing radiant light coming out of my chest, but then I see again all these people on the park, playing ball and whatever and this slight distraction was enough to call it off. I start to wake up again but slide back in one last time. Now I try again to really see the Buddha, so I summon the Buddha and wish that he is there on my back when I turn around. I turn around and there’s this round faced oriental looking teenager, who looks just like a Buddha, but he is wearing jeans and a checkered shirt. He looks just like he is just another kid in the park, but very lonely. He looks bored and just sits on a tree log watching the others playing. I’m like “WTF? Not what I had in mind.” The sun is setting and people are then leaving the park. Some lady comes with a couple of other teenagers and tells them to keep the Buddha-boy company. They look extremely bored by that, they don’t feel like baby-sitting. But then the Buddha-boy tells them not to worry, because he won’t be any burden to them. He’ll either stay quiet if they want or just be as interesting as they want. The other kids feel bad for their first reaction, ‘cause they feel he is actually not that lame and they tell him they are actually not that cool to hang around either. Then the Buddha-boy says “Then I’m sure we’ll get along, ‘cause I am myself a dick.” And they all laugh. I watch them leaving and I wake up.

9:15 GMT

Thursday 25th November

I remember Being in a swimming pool where there were a few people i knew (didnt write the names down) First mistake missed out on this detail.

Second dream I remember I not sure if It was Lucid or not, been reading heaverly on this since watching Inception.

I was in a hotel room I knew I was dreaming but wasnt sure what to do as the dream didnt seem stable and I was fighting to not to wake up, even tried the spinning techinque which didnt work. I remember a man in the room but couldnt see his face.

Oh well not much from the first night I'll try again tonight.

Hey, I haven´t wrote in a while, but I want to say I have really made progress in my dreams. I have never been good at dreaming, and when I started to think about dreams and write theme down it has becoming easier. For sixth month I had only 15 dreams. Now in the last few weeks I have mad a big progress. The last 2 weeks I have nearly remembered all of my dreams . It has now soon got a year before I started with DJ.
I am going to tell you about a really short dream I had, but there are coming more, the other are kind of long and I don´t have the power to manage to write theme all down today. So here is my very, very short dream:
I dreamed that I dreamed tonight. In the dream that I dreamed I wake up, and came to my "dream". When I wok up in the dream that I dreamed, I was in my bed in the dream. I was looking up, no one was there, but just when I was about to close my eyes in the dream, my brother came in to my room. I saw that he had a new white pullover.
Then I wok up from my dream by my alarm clock, and saw that no one actually was in my dream .

Hey, had a dream were I went to school. When I was there I talked with some buddies of mine, and one of them was a guy named Oscar. My first lesson was German, and my friends told me that we were going to have a test today, which I was not aware of. So I went to my locker to get some energy drinks because I was tired and I did´t want to fall asleep at the test. On the way to my locker I saw a guy also holding in a bag of energy drinks. He nod at me, and I nod back. In the dream I called my energy drinks Nutra, but there real name is actually powerking.
When I came to my locker, to my disappointment someone had stolen my Nutra (Powerking). There was a classmate next to me call David, asked him, he did not knew anything. I never thought about that guy I had sawed earlier, so I started to rage at David and blaming him for stolen my powerkings. After a while my friend Cengiz came from nowhere. He was my classmate in the class I went in before. I greeted with him, and then I don´t remember any more of the dream.

Driving to Class

It is 2:00pm (I know the time because I have to leave home to make a long commute to college to take a class). A few things happen to delay me about 15 minutes, and I can finally leave. My father comes along, and decides that he is coming with me. We hop in my car and start the commute. A little way down the road I point out to him that my class goes until about 9:30 or 10:00 at night. He was going with me to do one little thing down the road from the school. I don't think he really wants to wait around for 6 hours or so until I am done with class. He realizes this isn't a good idea, so we decide to turn off the main road and go to a town called "Augusta", or something similar. Whatever the name is, it isn't there in real life though I think it represents a town that is.

The plan is that my mother and brother will meet us in Augusta and pick up my father. It seems that much of the dream from here on consists of driving around in circles and gets a little monotonous and frustrating.

The Detectives

I am a little unclear as to the details of this dream. It just came back to my mind after journalling the last one. I am a detective. Also, I am with my family and we are trying to pick out a movie to watch tonight. There are four of them, two new movies and two classic movies. I can't tell the ratings on the new movies, but I don't know if they contain any objectionable material or not.

Now I'm eating french fries. There is a lot of ketchup on the french fries. Way too much ketchup. However, an attractive lady is also eating the french fries. Then I realize I have been looking for her, because she is the one I have to arrest. But I'm also hungry (this dream took place in the early morning). The dream seems to be half about eating and half about arresting this woman. She is sad about being arrested and I feel a little bad about it.

Skydiving (fragment)

I don't remember much of this dream. It may have been the result of an incubation attempt. All I remember is skydiving.

Two nights- don't remember any dreams except one tiny fragment. We are holidaying out of town- different eat and sleep patterns so that's probably why I don't remember anything.

In which I cook Thanksgiving dinner...

I'm rolling out dough for a pie. When I get a nice, flat layer, I pull out a basket of tin cookie cutters. They are shaped like zoo animals, and I cut the pie dough up into animal shapes.

This was a pretty epic dream. Killing zombies while on roller skates while Jamiroquai plays in the back ground.

Deep Sea Spore Zombies
Clarity: 8/10
Importance:4/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Right Side (Left Brain)

I'm on a large sea faring research boat, but the crew have all been killed. On the back of the boat is a large tank containing brackish green water. There is some large creature moving around inside it that I can't quite see, except for the occasional tentacle that gets close to the glass.

This creature turns people into flesh eating zombies when it bites them with it's tentacles, which is what happened to the crew. Only these zombies don't spread their infection through bites or scratches. After a certain amount of time, the zombies bloat up and explode, releasing a cloud of spores that turns anyone who breathes it into a zombie. And these spore clouds travel very far. Even one zombie could potentially infect the entire planet.

I've killed off all the zombified crew, and make my way towards the tank to kill the creature. Just as I'm about to reach it, the boat comes apart beneath me and the section I'm standing on moves out into the water like a pontoon. The military is behind this. They want to bring the creature back to try and weaponize it. I can't let that happen, but I can't reach the creature because there are sharks in the water around me. The boat makes it back to shore and the military get their prize.

Unfortunately, the creature escapes into the sewers, and I'm part of the crew hired to hunt it down and kill it before it creates a zombie apocalypse. We enter the sewer, embark upon a small boat, and the begin to pass out guns. But there aren't enough guns to go around, and I don't get one. This pisses me off. The fate of the world is at stake, and they want to send me into a dangerous situation unarmed? Fuck that. I leave and go home.

At home, I'm watching television, and the TV is full of news about zombie outbreaks all over the world. Obviously, the first sewer expedition failed. So they mount a second expedition, which I again join. We all get guns this time, and we take off through the large sewers in our little boat.

We go as far as we can by boat, then get out and walk through the dark tunnels by foot, me leading. As I pass through a threshold into a room, Jamiroquai's song "Dance" begins to play. There are flashing colored lights everywhere, and my team and I are all suddenly wearing roller skates. And the room is full of ravenous zombies. We skate around this room with the roller disco atmosphere, kind of dancing and blowing away zombies.

Again, I'm the first one to leave this room, and as I pass the threshold, the music changes from Jamiroquai to some generic rock song. I look behind me and my crew are still moving to the dance music, so I step back across the thresh hold and again hear Jamiroquai. I move forward and hear the rock music.

Tarantula
Clarity: 5/10
Importance:3/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm at the pet store and see tarantulas for only 5 dollars, so I buy one. I bring it home and try to milk it's venom, but the spider isn't cooperating. Eventually, I realize what a bad idea this was and stop trying to milk it.

The spider back section is now the size of a small Nerf football, and bright blue. I can't really see it's legs, and imagine tiny legs underneath is. The thing looks like a giant hacky sack.now. I scoop it up and put it in a small fish tank, then wonder what I'm going to feed it. The tarantula has now reared up on it's back end, which has swollen even bigger now. It has it's front end in the air, legs splayed. It kind of looks like an Egyptian totem. The thing is so big now, I doubt I'll be able to put the lid on the fish tank.

I leave the room and come back with my brother. The lights are out, but from across the room, it kind of looks like the tarantula got out. I try the light and it won't work. I try another light, and it won't work either. I'm getting annoyed now, being in a dark room with a large tarantula potentially on the lose. Luckily, my brother has a flash light.

I usually preface my journal entries with a little bit of background about the past few days or that night specifically. I haven't DJed in a while because even though I'm getting a couple dreams of recall a night, for some reason I always felt a strange aversion to doing it while home. I don't really know why, but tonight I induced my third ever lucid dream so it's definitely a sign that I need to DJ again! I went to bed at 11pm after eating so much dessert and too much food probably. I now have a blistering headache probably because I usually don't eat any dessert at all or carbs. Today was brutal for my body!

I set my alarm for 4:55am and I didn't have any dreams that I recall until that buzzer went off. It was the first time in a while I was totally conscious after the buzzer sounded. I moved only a little and did a couple of multiplication problems in my head. I focused some consciousness on my hands and affirmed that I would have a lucid dream and I would recognize the dream state. I guess I was right!


Dream 1-- Lucid Dream #3

I am in this room with Dean. It's like a play room or something. There is a carpet on the ground, a rocking horse to my left, a TV with some cartoon on, a shelf with some books, and us. I feel like a kid and Dean kinda appears to be a little bit younger. I knew him for a long time so that might make sense.

Anyway, I'm watching the TV and Dean comes over in front of the TV and asks if I want to take this pill, which is called EACL in the dream. He looks really happy and excited, so I'm like sure. I take it and it makes everything around me change. I suddenly have full senses and am fully participating in the dream, but I don't exactly know that I am in a dream, I just know that I have full control and that everything feels amazing. I start crawling on my hands and knees in a direction away from Dean. He follows me a little bit, pretty close behind me. As I stop, I feel his forearm pressing into the back on my dick. It feels really good, and I am flooded with a feeling of pleasure, but then I kick him in the knee, causing him to collapse against a bookshelf. He doesn't look hurt or anything, but he says "ow" in a monotone voice. In that instant, I feel a pang of anger and sadness simultaneously. I have this thought like "I shouldn't have kicked him in the knee, that was naughty of me" and at the same time "I'm angry as shit because you did that." I look over at him and I say "Don't touch my dick with your forearm" in a really angry tone. I get up and walk over to the TV again, and sit down and watch. I hear his footsteps walking over to where I am sitting and he sits next to the rocking horse watching the TV as well. I go in to PassObs while still being lucid and I start to have these vivid thoughts that replay the dream in my mind and what was said/done. I start to regret kicking him but I feel really good about standing up for myself and not letting him do something to me that I didn't want.

Dream 2-- Police in my House

This dream is actually a continuation of the last dream because as soon as the previous one ends I have a false awakening in my bed and have this really strange feeling like I was just in the corner of my room facing the wall. I rationalize that I must have had the previous dream while facing the wall and walked back over to the bed. Then, I hear the alarm for my house go off, and I hear my parents downstairs. They are playing around and I hear my dad and mom start chasing eachother around the kitchen table. I start having vivid thoughts about how it might be possible that Dad could slip and fall and break his four front teeth. If that happened, he might go to a doctor and get perfect white teeth that would starkly contrast all his other teeth, and he would be walking around with 4 giant white teeth in front and all the rest would be small and greenish. I suddenly stopped thinking about that and had the urge to walk downstairs.

I don't remember this journey, but now I am in my laundry room with my parents, and the door to the garage is open. They tell me the police are outside and they are going to be searching the house. My dad turns to me an says in a private voice "Will they find anything in the garage apartment?" I try to think back to the last time I used it, and I start have these vivid memories about events that never actually occurred. I start picturing the apartment in my mind, the layout and everything. I can see my bag lying in the middle of the floor because I left it there, and then I the vivid imagery continues with the police walking up to the room and seeing the bag with marijuana blantantly lying in the middle of the ground. I have doubts about this image, but I have the definite knowledge that weed is somewhere in that room.

The room changes as I come back into the "real" situation in the laundry room. There is now a new door that never existed before and a police man in a tan jacket, hat, and pants is knocking on. He has a gun in his hand and I can see him through the glass window/door. My mom starts to walk over to the door, but the next thing I know there is a cop coming out of the side of the wall it seems. He is pointing his gun straight at me, so I raise my hands in the air. He is just staring at me, and I can feel my hands in the air. I'm thinking "I'm defenseless I have no weapons, and even if I did my hands are in the air" He tells me to start walking, and I turn around and start to walk away from the garage and into my main house.

I don't remember the short 5 step interim journey into my living room, but there is a cop dressed in the same tan outfit just laying down on a living room couch just chatting on his phone, twirling his gun around his finger. He's being really casual and I have this thought of confusion but also certainty that we are 1) in a movie and 2) the police aren't police but rather thieves trying to take all of our money and kill us. I walk to the back of the room. My sister and family and other people are there.

I walk over to a table in the corner and then look over at the "police" who are just relaxing on the couches. I walk toward a doorway and see an iphone laying on the table with a bright screen that says "ibpad (2)" as in this person got 2 text messages from the name ibpad. I slide the thing at the bottom of the phone and immediately start walking forward because I see the woman who might own the phone walking back into the room. I walk up to her so that my body is in the doorway and she is trying to walk past me. I instantly introduce myself "Hi, I'm Casper" and she is obviously trying to walk past me, but I just stand there and then she looks up and does a fake smile saying "Hi, I'm Evelyn" then I continue to not move. I rub my eyes because I am sleepy and say "How are you?" trying to make friendly conversation because I know she is trying to get to her phone and I feel like its my mission to stop her.

Eventually I get her talking about something and then my sisters walk up and we start having a real conversation that she can't really walk away from. In the middle of it, I look over at the police again and at the TV screen we have in our living room. The screen is a blown up picture of the messages on her iphone! As I look over and try to read the text, everyone else looks over and she is like "Shit!" I can't read the text in time, but suddenly the whole scene changes. I walk over to the fireplace and watch my dad talk to some asian guy who apparently goes to my school. He tells my dad he is going to be taking a 7th century military history class, and my ears perk up because I had a dream earlier in the year that I was taking that class and all it involved was playing on the computer in the form of some military strategy game. I'm listening intently to their conversation and he shows does the syllabus for the class. Dad reads it and after about two seconds he says "I'd be fine in this class until about the first Sunday, damn there are so many papers" Immediately i start to feel anxious and worried that I have to do all of these assignments that I never turned in and I start feeling stupid for not reading the syllabus, which gives a day-to-day report on what is due.

I look at the TV again, and it's baseball. Everybody is dressed in all white and I see the batter hit the ball pretty well. He starts running and I wake up.

Dream 3-- Spider Nightmare

This dream is the scariest fucking dream I have ever had. Not because of some ridiculous clown or my inability to run away from something, but that it represents something in my life so accurately but in a symbolic way that when I woke up and remembered the dream I started to convulse and cry for about 2 minutes. Even thinking about it now makes me a little uneasy.

The dream starts off in the same living room as before, but this time it's just me and my oldest sister. We are hanging out I don't really remember anything specific standing out. Suddenly, a spider drops down and lands on me. It crawls underneath my shirt, and I start to freak out. I'm screaming and trying to get her to help me but she doesn't understand what's going on. I pull out my iphone to determine what the extent of the problem is. I look up the type of spider that just crawled underneath my shirt, and it gives me this really long definition of this spider that involves some fucked up rules.

The spider is basically stuck underneath my shirt until someone other than myself removes it. As long as I try to remove it, it will have the ability to crawl away and avoid me. I won't be able to lift it off or grab it because it will just wiggle away. I won't enjoy having it underneath my shirt either. Not only will I be able to permanently feel it there, crawling around and just perched on my back, but everytime I eat something it will gnaw my kidneys and eat away at my core until I am dead. These rules scare the shit out of me and I immeditaely implore my sister to to remove the spider. I freak out and jump around and try to get the spider off of me. I'm still wearing my white shirt, so I just try to feel where it is on my back and grab it or brush it off, but it runs around on my back and even to my stomache. It just keeps crawling around and I can never get it off.

My sister tries something but it doesn't work, so she gives up and tells me we have to go get on the bus. I'm still freaking out but suddenly I am riding on this bus. There are a lot of people I know on this bus, and I am sitting in the back row, alone. I am trying to figure out how to get this spider off of me. I can't lean back into the seat and I can feel it start gnawing away at me. I almost cry on the spot because I feel helpless to change this horrible situation. I try to talk to the people around me but they don't seem to listen. The person across the aisle from me won't look at me when I try to talk to him, and my sister who is in the row in front of me turns around and gives me some food to eat. She tells me I just have a stomache ache and it will all go away. I start eating the food and remember that one of the rules was that the spider would eat away at my back equal to the amount of food I ate. I start feeling a seering pain in my right back/side and I feel so awful. I cry, I almost resign myself to death.

Then we are out of the bus, and we are on some beach. There is a lot of people gathering for a game of flag football to my left. I still feel the spider, and I am seated on a hill. As I am looking over, I hear one captain of one team call my name. He yells over to me "Casper, Dallas (which is my original home town)". I want to get up and play but I remember that I have this spider. Three girls who are standing up start talking to me from my right. They are all really pretty and I know one girl from Cru. We start talking and it's casual like "Hey, what's up" I get into this whole monologue about Cru and I feel really stupid and like I should stop talking and that everyone finds me weird. I have stopped thinking about the spider though.

Sitting, I fall backwards to a laying down position, and that randomly brings me into a tent. I am laying next to some asian guy. We are talking a little bit, but I find the conversation boring and start focusing on my shoes. I tell him that these skateboarding shoes are the coolest things ever invented and that they look so good when people take pictures of them. I start moving the shoe in different angles and just observing the shoe move. Then I wake up and remember my dream about 15 minutes later and start to cry/convulse.

I couldn't fall back asleep after all of these dream occurred so I said 'fuck it' and got out of bed to write in my DJ before starting my day. I have a horrible head ache and I need some advil. I couldn't fall back asleep because these dreams really preoccupied me while I was trying to relax.

Good morning, everybody. I've had zero dream recall recently. But I remember this dream from last night.

Dream #1

I was in a cafeteria in the basement of a building. I had gotten food from a salad bar. I had a lot of food on my plate.

Now I was at the salad bar again, as if the whole scene were starting over. I had a plate. I was walking along the "salad bar," which was more like an open-faced refrigerator section for displaying drinks at a deli.

I heaped some lettuce and mushrooms onto my plate. I put some other kind of vegetable onto my plate. I lay a couple of long ears of baby corn by the lettuce. I also had some other kind of food by the baby corn.

Feeling the plate, I thought I had gotten too much food. The cafeteria would charge by the pound. This plate was heavy. It would cost me a lot of money. So I decided to put back the baby corn.

At this point I may have had a double-vision, as if my consciousness were in two places at once. I was still in the cafeteria, getting my food, or walking to the register to pay for my food. But I was also sat down in some long, glass-ceilinged corridor eating my food.

(The cafeteria itself had an eating area, I'm pretty sure, just past the registers. But the area I ate at seemed like it was in a different place altogether.)

I hunched over my food at the edge of a long, communal table that looked kind of like a big picnic table. A lot of people passed by me. I may have been in the hallway of a mall. The sunlight was pretty strong coming in through the glass ceiling. To my right, maybe 10 meters away, was a red cinder block walled elevator bank.

The speakers were playing "a U2 song," which may have sounded like "Vertigo." The lyrics said something about how everybody always said bad things about the Internet, but how Bono thought it was great, because it was like the Mona Lisa of porn.

WTF. Weirdest dream I've ever had.

It's nighttime. Okay, well it starts out with me getting a ride from my ex with one of his friends. We can't drive, so his mom/dad (dunno which) is driving us. The car is kind of super-sized for some reason, because the seats were really big and roomy.
So I get in from the right side, and his friend/my new friend recently is sitting on the left side. I sit on the far right. And then my ex gets in and sits in the middle (No idea why he didn't sit in the front seat).
As we're driving, I hear Speak Now (Taylor Swift) on the radio. I think to myself "Oh cool! It might be the 13th single!" I was discussing this on a REAL forum a few days ago. (No joke. Here's the topic-Taylor Swift Official Forums - Taylor Swift Message Board: Speak Now Discussion)
(Also, I had my iPod playing on random Taylor Swift songs, and when I checked what it had played when I woke up, Speak Now was one of them, like 10 minutes before I woke up.)

Back to the car ride, the song drifts off and Mine (TSwift) comes on (The song was directly after Speak Now on my iPod in the shuffle) and as I'm listening to it, my ex leans over and says "You are the best thing that's ever been Mine" at the chorus. I am like, about to explode, but I'm suddenly tired, so I just lean over to his shoulder. I reply with "mmmm." Wow that doesn't sound creepy at all.

Then, I'm back at home, and I need ANOTHER ride to whatever I was going to with my ex. So then my pedophile-like band teacher from middle school shows up. Then I'm on Yahoo Answers asking "WHAT SHOULD I DO?!!?" and he's yelling out the window saying "I'm on a busy schedule!" I think this connects to me, because my mom ALWAYS says I'm a really slow person. We don't go anywhere, the dream just changes to something else.

And then my YouTube geek kicks in.
I'm back at home, and some neighbor I've never seen before in my room and asks me to help him. He shows me this leader board, but it's like FILLED with youtube stars. Number one was Ian's Mom from Smosh. I'm sitting there thinking "WTF? Isn't Nigahiga supposed to be #1?" Then it changes to Allie and Charles Trippy from CTFxC. (I haven't watched the vlogs for weeks) and it's really weird now. They are swimming in a maze-thing, like pacman. Then my mom wakes me up from the madness.

So far I've had some sort of dream recall for the past 3 nights. Hope to get a whole week straight!