non-lucid

I recall a short fragment. First I was at school, in the cloakroom. I was thinking about getting an electrical guitar and learning how to play it. Then I was in my house, playing it.

Suits
Donna and Rachel from Suits are in a car together. Donna is the one who is driving. The steering wheel is on the left side. I think it's evening already. I see the whole scene developing from the front of the car, as if there's a camera on the dashboard. They're talking about how Rachel doesn't love Mike anymore. She is fiddling with her engagement/wedding ring. I think it's Donna who mentions that Mike also doesn't love her anymore. Rachel is relieved by this news. This will make the break up so much easier. Rachel and Donna kiss for a moment. I think to myself that that's a stupid idea as Donna is driving. They swerve and the car ends up running into a building.

Talking hamster
I'm not too sure about the details anymore. I'm in a house which is supposed to be my cousin Xen's house. She's got a hamster which is really small and I end up befriending it. It sits on my shoulder close to my left ear and I can feel it nibble sometimes. The hamster is able to talk. It talks to me in Indonesian! We talk back and forward a bit. My mom and I think also my cousin probably think that I'm crazy. I want my cousin to treat the hamster better now that I've befriended it. I want to prove to them that I'm not crazy and that he can really speak. I consider having him talk to them, but for some reason that's not what I do. I also consider putting on a blindfold and turning my back to my family. They can then raise a number of fingers and the hamster can tell me how many fingers they raised and I can tell them, which should provide proof. Then I consider the fact that the hamster doesn't know how to count. Ok I'll just raise a number of fingers as well and the hamster can tell me when my hand matches that of my family member.

Haram
I'm sitting in class. It's pretty full. To the left of me is a group mate for an assignment. She is wearing her hijab and she slowly but increasingly starts arguing with the teacher, who is also wearing a hijab. The arguing gets worse and worse, with my group mate calling the teacher haram. The teacher manages to 'out argue' my group mate. Throughout the argument I think about how stupid it is to argue like that with the teacher, as she still has to grade us. Eventually the teacher says she'll solve the problem by not allowing her to join the class anymore. I ask another classmate if she can even do that. I'm also wondering if it's just her that's banned from the class or our entire group.

At some point while I am lying down trying to rest. Small and large triangles appeared through my closed eye lids. After it all faded my vision seem altered. My eyes could see without the feeling of opening them. I then realize that I accidentally initiated a WILD. I could not tell where I was. The place is covered in thick brown wood all over. There is a girl standing near by, despite never seeing her I recongize her as lost cousin of mine. She makes a joke and I give few references to try to make it more funny. She then led the way to our other family members. That's when I saw my father,brother mom. I played basketbal with my father for somtime intill I forgot to stay lucid. The basket balls were actually blue paper towels. Lucidity Time: 30 seconds

12/2/16:
Dream 1: I had to go back to high school for a few weeks before uni started to redo part of my media subject. I don't know if it was because I failed some part of it or what, but my little brother was laughing at me and I wasn't too happy.

Dream 2: I was at basketball training, and it was much more serious than normal. The coach was yelling at us and threatening to drop us if we didn't perform. He set up a 9 foot ring for us all to dunk on, and whoever couldn't would be dropped. I did it an so did most people, but there was a lot of tension. I was walking outside and back home with my brother and mum.

Dream 3: My family was with my grandma at a retirement village sort of place. There was another old woman there who seemed suspicious. We caught her at night stealing some stuff from the place, so my grandma went crazy and started screaming at here, about how she didn't deserve to be there and didn't build the place or spend any money on it. We tried to calm her down as the other woman was very scared but to little effect.

Fragment: Playing a card game of some sort.

Spent the night flying.

First dream

I was in some kind of temple mixed with a museum. There were cauldrons with blood -' six in a row. I didn't knew it was blood at first and drank from 5 of these cauldrons. I moved to last one, and a dude waiting there asked me if I really want to drink tainted blood. I dropped mug with blood that I took from previous cauldron inside the one I was standing close to. Dude shouted "What have you done! Now it's even more tainted!"

Second dream

With parents I was in the backyard oh my house. I found a mirror, and did something strange. I took out my penis, looked at it's reflection in the mirror and thought about body shifting. I had a weird, but somehow good feeling that my balls were sucked inside my body. I took pants off and saw that I have a vagina now. Parents just freaked out. I fingered it to check if that's a dream. Everything turned black, and just before waking up, I had a feeling that my balls just shoot out from within my body.

MILD day 4

Did not notice that I woke up at usual 02:00, but I do remember a dream from that time.
Woke up at 03:00 and wrote down dreams and practised WILD. Did not work very well. I only saw a little HI, but there was not much else going on.
Alarm and daily routine.

In conclusion, bit of weird night. I remembered a dream from initial REM cycle awakening but could not remember waking up. I remembered at second awakening. Rest was pretty usual. Not much happening. Contemplating repeating mantra throughout the day.

2/12/2016

I was at my summer cottage. It was summer and I was there with my cousins. We were on the shore (it’s a rocky shore so no sand) and we were contemplating going to our dock. So we did, I followed my cousins on the dock and one of them started to complain that they always have to follow in the others’ footsteps. I did agree and that she did not have to follow her all of the time. We were walking onto the dock (which was not right, it was off from what it was from the normal) we walked to the end and they just seem to disappear and I am now back at the shore. Looking out at the lake (Green Bay) looking at boats that are out there. Something that I usually like to do. Then it started to get cloudy and dark, I knew that a storm was coming. The sky darkened and it started to rain. Boats were starting to go back to where they came from. There was a problem, the boats that were out there turned out to be inflatable when I looked closer at them. They had trouble coming into shore. I did not try to help, I only observed. I had no specific feeling. I could not see people, but I could see that the boats were failing to stay afloat. There were only a few actual boats out there that were mechanical, they were rushing back. The storm got worse. Then the boats started to disappear, soon the storm was starting to be over and I could see sunlight in the distance. It ends.

I was at school, there was some sort of an open house going on. There were people all over the place and I was not stuck in a specific class. I was walking to the Science room and there was something about ships, but I walked back out and went to the lunchroom. I saw how people were performing serving lunch and I was pleased. It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

Oops
I'm walking somewhere in a city with my mom. We're walking home from the train station. Somewhere along the way one of us makes a comment that makes us realise that we had driven the car to the train station. My mom's suggestion is that I'm the one to walk back to the train station to go and get it. I'm feeling lazy.

Last resort
I'm at a gas station with my mom (and the car!). I'm sitting down somewhere, texting with my classmate Tan. We're using whatsapp. She tells me to check LINE and I tell her I've deleted that app. She tells me it's no big deal and that she wanted to sleep on the beach tonight with someone. I feel like she's only inviting me because she's got no one else to go with. I'm not sure what my response to it is, though I do think it's pretty awesome. My mom looks over my shoulder every now and then to see what I'm typing. I purposefully type extremely fast, switch windows a lot and invert the colours.

Smokey
I'm sitting on a couch. To the right is my little brother. He picks up a cigarette and wants to go for a smoke. Nope, I'm not allowing it. He decides on picking up a cigarette that has already been lit for a short moment. Nope, also not gonna allow that.

I know there was one more dream that was more epic than the others, but I can't recall it. It was something adventurous.

I'm in a field again, green wispering grass, low rolling hills. There's a light breeze, pushing white clouds in the bright blue sky. As I look around, the ground starts to shake; I hear a low rumbling and crackling, peebles rolling. Out of the hills rise giants; giants of white stones, with bells for heads. Dust billows from them as they slowy get up, the air filled with a loud grinding sound made by their limbs moving.

11/2/16:
I was in a sort of Harry Potter universe, hiding away in a log cabin in the woods with a girl like Hermione. I think she had committed some sort of crime and so was being hunted down by the government/police so I was helping her hide. I had given my invisibility cloak to her to use and I had some sort of spell which made me invisible to use on myself in case we were found. The log cabin was quite small, similar to a cheap motel place with a tiny bedroom opening onto a kitchen/lounge room combined, and there were holes everywhere, including one in the roof of the bedroom where water was dripping in. Overall it wasn't a fantastic state of affairs. A few times we got into close calls and had to hide with invisibility, however each time there was nothing there, just our paranoia.

We decided to fly out to the city for recon and to see if we were still being hunted. We got our broomsticks (or maybe used a flying spell I'm not sure) with our respective invisibility devices and flew out of the forest towards the city. It was a large city on the bay, sort of a colonial Spanish style and similar in layout to Miami. There were 4 main districts of the city according to my map, one large residential one on the right horn of the bay, a smaller business one at the deep part of the bay, an olde town place behind the cbd and a slum or something broken up to the left of that. We flew over the city for a while and then dropped in to the olde town area, near n ancient stone monument. Still invisible, I crouched next to a large tree and listened to two guards talk as they were doing their rounds about the monument and tourists. They were talking about us as fugitives and how they were closing in on where we were. I'm not too sure what happened here, but I think either myself or my companion was spotted briefly, so I ran back to grab her and we flew back home, invisible once again but now they knew roughly where we were.

When we returned we took extra precautions to not get found before going to sleep. I woke up early in the morning, watching the water drop from the hole onto the floor, when I suddenly realised that we might be getting found out right now! I tried to wake up my companion and get our invisibility gear, but when we walked out the door guards filled the driveway. We hadn't put our invisibility stuff on before we stepped outside, so the guards rushed to catch my companion and I slowly walked towards them with my hands up, numb with shock. They took me and told me I wasn't in too much trouble, as I was simply an accomplice or being held against my will or something like that. They also informed me that they were Russians who had been searching for us for a long time. They loaded me up onto a helicopter and we flew back towards the city. On the way there the guards made me wear this strange mask, similar to an oculus rift, which made my vision of the city very strange, I'm not sure why they made me wear it. The dream ended about here.

Fragment: Something about me wearing different kinds of shoes. I think there was some more I dreamt but it slipped away as I woke up.

I had a dream where someone stole my wallet or my credit card information at least. they used it to the last cent. they kept hitting it with one cent and then 101 dollars

MILD day 3

Did my mantra before sleeping.
Woke up at usual 2:00. Did mantra again.
Woke up about an hour later. I think I practised my mantra, but I do not know for sure.
Woke up again, thought about FILD'ing, but then I rolled over and had to use the bathroom. Bye bye FILD.
I think I woke up another time. Don't remember, though.
Alarm and daily routine.

Note: I did dream about DJ'ing. Is that a good sign? I don't really know, but I do know that I have never dreamed about that before. So I would only assume that it's a step in the right direction.

In conclusion. This night was a success although I don't think it was. For some reason, I have been extremely tired lately. Perhaps it's school and I just have to get used to it, or I actually need more sleep. I will be going to sleep earlier tonight to see what happens.

2/11/2016

I was sort of looking below to this type of castle. As if it was a miniature version of a big one. I was in a room, but I do not know what room. When I went to look inside of the door of the castle I saw my Dads dog having fun in there running around the walls. It ends.

I was in the cafeteria of my school. There were far too many people than what it usually has. I was walking by this table and then when someone was looking at me, they said hey Juan. I got mad at first and confronted them. They did not seem to notice me and they were actually looking behind me at a guy actually named Juan. I looked at felt stupid and tried to play it off. Then I trudged through the crowd of people to sit down where I normally don’t sit. Usually, everyone has their table they sit at and where they sit at the table. In this dream that was messed up, as well as there being people that I did not even know. I was sitting there rather uncomfortably as I was on the edge. It ends.

I was sitting in study hall, then apparently I was writing in a dream journal. (I hope this means that I am getting closer to LDing!) I do not know what dream, but it felt as if it was a class assignment and I was just writing in it to get it done. (As I do for a lot of things in school.) It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

Notes

After learning about other people today at school I felt sort of down. I haven't done the things they've done and feel like I couldn't express it the way they did. Thinking about how I didn't show my greatest art works, only doodles, made me feel less amazing.Than came the negative thoughts, the art block, not feeling up to animating and because I thought about it too much I now have a mini headache. Ah well. I did get a great grade on my part though. Got a 98.

Dream

I wanted to see either Dawn or Eye. I can recall being pulled inside a pool of water that was huge. It looked like I was in those pools you pump air into but it was actually ginormous in size. I saw what seemed like a water alien who had more than one arm and a alien like face almost like the water people from "Zelda Ocarina Of Time". Except this one was a transparent blue color like it was merged with the water and it was big. Not that slim but the arms were.

It pulled me near it as if it was healing me with a few others or just watching me. However, I didn't want to be in the water because I felt like I was being overwhelmed by the water a bit. At that time my lucidity was fading. My thoughts began to merge with a plot and than I was pushed back and up hitting something in the pool than slowly floated down. As I floated down in the distance was a small doll version of Dawn watching me float down.

I assumed he would pull me out but he did not. I than had a false awakening where I was biting my blanket and my mom came in laughing than left. Afterwords my bro came in as I opened my eyes and he showed me a cartoon bagel video. Telling me not to show mom any videos anymore because of some cartoon bagel video making her crack jokes or something like that.

...now im hungry.^.^

MILD day 2

Did my mantra before going to bed, was much better at not drifting thoughts.
Woke up and usual 2:00 AM remembered a dream. Went back to sleep trying to repeat the mantra.
Woke up an hour later and remembered part of a dream.
Alarm and morning routine.

In conclusion, dream recall became better, should have written down dreams right after waking and attempted to WILD. If I did not remember them, I would FILD.

2/10/2016

I was at school, or that I could see from outside. I was running to a tractor-trailer that was your generic black tractor and white trailer with no corporate markings. It was daytime and it was raining lightly, why I was running to the truck. Next I am in the truck and the dream suddenly transitions to me in a garden of some sort that is in New York city. I am standing there amidst this garden where I do not know where exactly I am. There are apparently chickens around me. Apparently I pissed one of and it starts to go after me, flying and pecking at me. I try to shoo it away so I don’t hurt it, but it keeps coming at me. Then it goes for my ears, that’s the last straw for me and I grab the chicken by the neck and chuck it as far as I could, I run into a garage that has some sort of an SUV and I pull out of there as fast as possible so I don’t get attacked by the chicken anymore. It ends.

I am sitting in my school’s lunchroom and we are having some sort of a special lunch. All that I can remember is that there were tater tots. We eat the lunch, (nothing happens) and then we are clearing the lunch. All of a sudden there are hundreds of tennis balls that start to bounce all over the room. The lunch manager is not looking happy at this point and tries to collect the balls. Then I walk to the science room where there are many people and I walk up to a friend and show him something on the computer, recent tabs for some reason. He says my life could be ruined and walks away. I wonder at that point. Then the recent tabs change to Java programming and my counselor is there and he seems all amazed by what he sees and attempts to write some code on the whiteboard, which does not work very well, I chuckle. It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

Mac & dread
I'm sitting on the couch in my room in my student home. I'm checking out my new Macbook. I'm trying to figure out what it is that's wrong about it. Then I realise that the bottom has been unscrewed. I have to put it back on. The bottom 'lid' has some of my hair stuck to it. I try to peel it off. I examine the lid and discover that it should just slide back on. It uses a pneumatic system to close and open the laptop. Along this dream I keep messing with my hair. First half a dread comes loose from my head. Then I slowly start to feel like I'm losing more hair. Fuuck.. well I suppose I could go with millimetred hair....

Court *potential slight spoiler for the show Suits*
There's a court decision coming up. Mike Ross from Suits is standing outside a court room I suppose with another white man. The court is gonna give a verdict soon about the legitimacy of a law that will have Mike convicted for being a fraud. They're probably gonna rule in his favour, but Mike wants to do something to prevent them from ruling like that because he wants to give someone else a chance to... I don't remember what. The man tells him that he's crazy. I don't remember the actual verdict.

In what is probably the courtroom, but what looks a bit more like parliament, Mike is standing somewhere with I guess Rachel close to him. She takes a few steps back and bumps into the guy she cheated on Mike with. Next thing they bring their faces really close together, but at the last possible moment decide not to kiss.

Mike and Rachel are at a train station. He's walking away from her and she is chasing after him, apologising. Somehow the tables get turned and suddenly he needs to apologise. Huh? What? No man, that's not right!