non-lucid

Mike
I vaguely recall Mike Ross from Suits. He's outside somewhere in the nature. The ground is semi-covered in snow and the ground is made up of rock. There's a somewhat older white guy approaching in some type of weird motorcycle with a gun attached to it. He is shooting at Mike. Mike falls to the ground and crawls away, somehow miraculously not being hit, despite this being a machine gun. At some point Mike has what looks like an assault rifle aimed at the guy, who is now defenceless. I think the guy might be on his knees. At least two soldiers start approaching. I think they're on Mike's side, but Mike throws away his gone anyway. Huh? A few seconds later he decides to reach for the gun. Huh again? Why would he first throw it away and then reach for it?

Test [I don't feel like writing this dream out entirely. It felt like a long one and it was shitty.
I'm taking a test. One of my uni lecturers is present in the classroom and she keeps wanting to have a conversation. I'm not doing too well on the exam, despite it being open book. I'm frustrated. At some point two male teachers from my high school are sitting in front of the classroom. I decide I need to take a moment and walk outside of the building and walk around it. I consider myself stupid for doing so, because I don't have that much time left. As I'm close to entering the classroom again I suddenly remember that we're not allowed to take bathroom breaks during exams. Fck fuck fuck. I enter the class and on my exam has been written that I used 1/5 bathroom breaks. I'm allowed to have 5? That seems excessive. Another lecturer from my high school enters the class and she informs the other teachers that bathroom breaks are no longer allowed. A classmate and I have to come with her immediately. Fuck. This drama stretches out for a while.

7/2/16
Dream 1: I was part of some archaeological Egypt expedition. We were divided into a few different teams and based around a temple of some kind, where most of it was buried underground. I was standing in the shade of a sandstone entrance shelter, looking at the entrance where people were struggling on how to get into the temple within. I walked over and examined the wall for a door or anything, but there wasn't. I got struck with an idea and walked over to where a mine was being dug to recover artifacts. I met with someone there from another team, who grudgingly let me use the elevator they had down there. I travelled down to the lowest level, and somehow found a secret door into the temple. I went through and found an apartment style building with the owner not there. I realized that I was meant to be searching for some ancient lost legendary yugioh card, but I couldn't find it. I was searching for it but I heard a noise and twirled around as my brother was standing there. He was holding a deck of yugioh cards and I pulled mine out and challenged him to a duel. A few turns in he played the ancient card which I was trying to find. I became furious at him stealing such a treasure and redoubled my efforts to beat him.

Dream 2: Went back and to be and had a dream, something about something sexy hehe, I had to leave immediately when I woke up so most of the dream disappeared.

I'm in my front garden, talking with a friend. It's sunny and the grass is almost neon green, the leave of the hedge shining. The breeze is warm, making my dress dances around my legs. As we talk a man in dark clothings come to the open portal and start talking about christianity, going on and on like a drone or a broken record, spewing aged nonsenses and franckly, offensives shit. It's hurting my friend and pissing me off, so I start telling his the more dirty, filthy things I can musters, in all the languages I know. He flees and I turn around to my friend with my biggest smile. She looks rather shocked, and it makes me laugh. I check the mailbox, in case the man put a pamphlet in it, and instead of that I fond a big pot of golden honey and a box of almonds. I shake the bow and the almonds rattle sharply, then I open the pot of honey. It smells wonderfully, it's a wild flowers honey, thick and shiny. I scoop out a handful, letting it flows between my fingers. Then I walk in, bus istead of my house it's my mother's place. The table is full of clean laundry, so I drop the box on the bar, alongside the honey pot.

... Once again I miss the more obvious dream sign ever. *shake first*

Long story short, I knew this girl from college who was a secret witch in real life, and an all around freeloader. She was a computer science major and I guess a hacker too. In the dream we are having a fight over email, dissing each other and she sent me a computer virus called " Turning Stomachs" and it froze up my computer and locked it into what looked like an obama care terminal. It seemed like I was at work and using the work computer for personal email and this was going to get me in trouble. I remember thinking " That bitch! That fucking bitch!" I was thinking why would she send a computer virus to someone who knows where she lives? That's stupid as hell.
This was on about 20 mgs of melatonin and the weirdness just continued. I had another dream about college and I was at a party for someone who was leaving the next day, but I never found out who the person was. I was in a fraternity and we had a party for just about every occasion though.

Time slept: 11:00 - 08:30 (9:30 hours sleep)
Date: Saturday 06/02/16
blue = non-lucid/red = lucid

Zombie dinner - (vividness: reasonable)

I am in my house, eating dinner with my family, my brother is up stairs in his room and my dog is stood at the top of the stairs(she is afraid to go down them). i see a zombie stood at the top of the stairs so i alert my parents and begin packing bags so we can run, they don't seem too bothered. i shoot a arrow at the zombie and kill it. i see more coming from the direction of my brothers room. my mum grabs a mini bag out of my hand and shoves many arrows in. she grabs a bow and starts shooting them nonchalantly, i see my brother being carried away by a zombie. i know that if they get him we are doomed, i suddenly appear on the balcony and vault over the zombie, stabbing him in the head. i grab my brother and vault over the banister. i grab my dog also. i finish packing and we leave.

Zombie mountain - (vividness: low)

I am on top of a ruined mountain village, surrounded by dead zombies. blood has mingled with the snow to create a horrifically beautiful sight,my family are all here. a old man comes and tells me there is something i will want to see. he takes my to a ruined shack, a little away from the village. in it are 3 middle aged men slouched against the wall. i think they are dead by one of them opens his eyes, they are yellow. i find out that he got bit by a zombie yet still retained his consciousness.

Retro zombie - (vividness: quite high)

it is a retro game with a top down view like Pokemon, i am a retro character and i see my self in this top down view. i am running across a mountain pass from some zombies. i reach the end of the mountain, there is a little boy and girl holding a teddy bear, a message flashes up. i don't read it, and assume it means choose who i want to take with me. i choose the little boy. my character pushes him off a cliff and the little girl walks forward. a message says that i got the answer correct and that the little boy was the zombie. i begrudgingly accept and we turn to walk back up the mountain pass.

School trip - (vividness: average)

i am on a plane, on a school trip but all the school is separated onto two different planes. we land for a quick stop. i got off my plane and go onto the other one to talk to the people there. i sit on the wing and begin talking to some of them. then the plane starts to talk off, but the teachers are still on the ground, they shout at me nonchalantly to get off the wing seats and get into the plane(there is no run way but some how we fly over the airport). i do so and go and sit next to a friend. we both laugh at something.

First dream, short WILD

I appeared in a dark room, with a female standing in front of me. I could recall only her legs and torso, her face was hidden in the darkness. She was wearing a gray blouse and jeans trousers. I decided to have some fun with her this time, and opened slit of her trousers. Then I proceeded to lick her up, but trousers were an obstacle for a bit. I turned my head back and again at her. Her trousers were gone, so I could assume a better position, and lick some more. She was kinda like dummy, standing still. It was going really intensive, and when it was right time, I managed to stay in the dream, though everything turned black for a moment. I appeared somewhere behind some storages. I woke up.

Second dream

I was in my home. It was Sunday. My phone broke and I used an older one. I was eating a lunch. Then I was fiddling with that phone. Everything was weird, every member of my family seemed distorted, strange.

Next day I was in school. It was afternoon. I was going to cloakroom, to take my stuff from locker. The main hall was crowded. Suddenly I felt weak and fallen on the floor. I crawled to the nearest wall, and sat. I heard someone talking about a heart disorder I might have. After a while I regained strength and got up. I looked at my shoes, they were untied. I had some trouble tidying it up, but I managed to do it and went out of school.

My recall for this night is quite crappy. I took way too long before finally writing anything down.

Fragment
» There's something that has to do with Harvey from Suits.

Birds
Someone is telling me something about birds. (S)he mentions birds, predator birds, superbirds and superpredators. While that person is talking I see a parrot hanging upside down from a tree. A parrot counts as a superbird. An eagle or hawk shows up to prey on the parrot. The eagle/hawk flies away shortly after, though I don't remember what happened to the parrot. I also had one eagle/hawk sitting on my hand for just a moment, but because I didn't have a glove, his talons scratched my right middle finger. I should've worn a glove..

LEGO
I vaguely remember something that starts out as or resembles the Avengers and then slowly moves towards LEGO. I'm just an observer in this dream it seems. They're hatching a plan that's supposedly quite insane. They have to retrieve/steal some object. At one point they're communicating through a laser beam that got reflected off several walls to finally reach someone somewhere else. Ok, way too convenient that that's possible.

When the dream switches over to LEGO there's something to do with a king. He's going out in the hallway with a small army of guards. About half off them sneak off because they are part of the Avengers plan. Really? Half of them? Don't you think that's a little conspicuous? Do you really need 20ish people to get the job done? The king and the rest of his guard keep moving. Everyone else in the hallway seem to be regular people, so for the king and his guards they are insanely huge. They make a stop somewhere and there's a balloon or something that floats down onto the pikes of several of the guardsmen, making it burst. There's also something with a liquid that's apparently quite tasty.

Absolutely CRAZY dream recall last night!!!! The one unfortunate thing that happened last night was my WBTB. I had the perfect opportunity for one last night, but when I got up I was too lazy. But, at least my recall was awesome!
My brother, dad and I are planning a trip to New Hampshire. There is something in this dream about a parade, but this was the only dream of the night that I don't remember in detail.
I am at a table eating dinner with President Obama and some other people. Obama says something that is funny because he is the president, and we all laugh at it. JSYK, there is someone underneath the table holding it up. using suction cups.
At this point I'm pretty sure I do my failed WBTB.
I am at a political event, sitting in one of the front rows. I turn around, and see my friend sitting next to the Bratayley family. She is motioning for me to go over, so I do. i talk to them for a bit and we get a picture together. There are several other people with us in the picture, but I don't know them.
My family and I are on a beach in Florida at night. It must be some really famous beach, because I am telling my sister how cool it is to be there. Then the waves are growing higher, and dad tells us that we should go back to the hotel before a storm starts. I remember thinking that he was going to say that there was a hurricane. We turn to the left and walk down a path away from the beach. There is a little tower like thing that I decide to walk up. When I get to the top, there is basically a giant trampoline lined with a wooden deck. On my way back down, there are several kids there that won't move. I finally get them to budge so I can get through, but we keep throwing nasty remarks at each other. My last remark to them is "I have hair too!"
I am in gym class, playing hockey on a giant trampoline. I remember feeling sad that one of my friends is not in that class with me.
I am still in Florida, this time by the "run off water" of some sort of amusement park slide. My family tells me that they have to leave to look for something, and I should be the look out. All of a sudden I am at my house again. I am watching something going on in my backyard. My family has discovered jello out there! I start eating some jello, and it tastes really good. I tell my brother, and all of a sudden we are in a prison like thing. There is a woman(our mom?) with her hands tied together. A security guard gives me a remote control and phone, and tells me that they might be useful for me to escape with. I hide them in my scarf, and me and my brother escape from the prison. We are running up hill, faster than we ever have before. My dad is running close behind us, trying to persuade us to stop running. Finally we do. We turn back around, and suddenly we are on a nice family hike. My sister is taking pictures and we are sitting near creeks eating candy. Then suddenly I am back at my house in the bathroom. Katie, the mom from Bratayley is there saying that she is going to show us how Hayley overcame her fear of water. I get out of the bathtub so she can film.
I am back at the beach in Florida, the same one, and my brother tells me that we aren't going to spend any more time there. I am angry at him, but we walk away, down the same path as before. As a I am walking away I can hear my grandma talking with an Asian person. We reach the tower, but this time I have to have a rope climbing competition with someone to make it to the top. As we are climbing the rope we have to answer questions about politicians. When me and my competitor make it to the top, I sit down with another girl on the giant trampoline. We start talking about Caleb and Bratayley. We then start using special crayons to draw pictures of memories with Caleb on the "trampoline wall."
I typed this pretty quick and late, so I am sorry for any errors, And I probably forgot some extra dream fragments, but I'll add those later if I remember any more.
Question!!!! Are Wisconsinites the only people that call physical education class gym class? Just wondering.

2.6.16

Last night slept 2am-7am. Couldn't sleep more.

Nap later at 10:38. No recall upon awakening. I was typing up something unrelated on the DV when I got a Total Recall 0_0

I just arrived at my mom's place from abroad. Sitting in a chair, they hand me a stack of mail I received while not home. 3 of them are postcards - best wishes to my birthday. One is a letter from New York and I save that for last. (I read accumulated mail everytime I visit home in a dream. Very strange feeling.) There is also a shipment of something that I saw clearly in a dream but now I don't remember.

Last I open the letter from New York. It has a nice rubber stamp on the envelope with small pretty font.

It's invitation for an interview but doesn't say for what job. I assume it's related to my second job.

I get to NY and to the building. I'm waiting for the HR person and I ask a few people in offices where to go. I end up in a conference room and they treat me as already hired. I'm suppose to replace a guy who's job was to collect text from others, put it in right format and print a small book from it. I hear he was taking his sweet time on it and people were getting impatient. I'm taking notes while trying to figure out best time to tell them that I was not hired yet, haha.

Somebody is taking me to HR. I had a feeling they are not rushing to take me there for some reason. This guy taking me there has a severe limp and is almost falling over, has to hold on to rail and we are going slowly. Some starcases have a missing step, but they tell me to just use some small extrusion to step on instead. I walk down on same starwell later but this time I'm coming down on it.

It's time to go and see the boss. We are walking by a hallway and some rooms that are completely flooded by clear water. Some girl is asking me if I can snorkle because we have to go through there to bosses office and she giggles with others like that s an awesome joke and feature they have.

We get to the other side and enter a cave like semi-large room. As I'm walking down the stairs chiseled into the stone, I see animals without cages, but somehow restrained, maybe a chain. There is a tiger like creature on my left at the bottom of the stairs, crocodile on the right, some colorful flat tale beaver type of creature straight ahead and an alligator at the door my guide is opening. I'm saying "noooooo" "I don't want to go throught the door where you just almost stepped on an alligator. I'm not scared but I have a feeling this is all not right and anything can happen.

Suddenly there is a fire. They call on a walkie-talkie for someone to come and help. Fire is spreading with lightning speed. I look above and there are fire balls rooling and now they are in front of me too, just below the low stone ceiling. It's getting hot and no matter where I turn, there is really no way out. I think this is it.

Then my guide says we can try and get out into the salt mines. She punches in a code into the control panel at the door, but code is not correct. She tries many times till the door opens and we get out.

Sometimes it's almost painful (and, by this, I mean very very painful) to wake up from a dream where you missed such obvious dream signs. One of my most common dream signs is trying to take a picture and finding the camera won't work. And yesterday I read through the Tasks of the Month and read about the one to hand President Obama a baby. That wasn't one I was planning on trying first. I was going to go with looking at the sky and walking through a wall. But my mind must have remembered the Pres Obama task because it put Obama right there in my dream. It was trying to hand lucidity to me on a golden platter. And I blew it.


Dream:

I was in the place I used to live. Seems like a few family members were there but I can't really remember who.

And all of a sudden President Obama walks in the door. With him are two older Muslim men that looked to be leaders of other countries. One was especially old and wrinkly but still very tall. Obama made himself comfortable on the couch while the two men stood right behind him.

I was surprised to see Obama there in my living room without having any advanced notice (but obviously not surprised enough to do a reality check). I pulled out my phone and asked him if I could take a picture of him because I knew no one would believe me if I told them Obama had come to my house. He didn't seem to care. I tried to take a picture, but I couldn't find the right buttons on my phone. It was as if my phone were completely foreign to me. I fiddled around a little hoping that I would figure it out.

Obama and the men start talking together in another language that I couldn't understand. I decided I wanted to text Jeff and tell him to come and see Obama, not because he particularly liked him, but it's not every day the POTUS is in your house conducting what appeared to be a very private meeting. Again, I can't get my phone to work. Nothing looked right or familiar.

The meeting goes on and on, and I am starting to stress because I want to get a picture or contact Jeff before the meeting is over. But my camera/phone is not cooperating.

At this point I should have gone lucid. I really should have. I practice this dream sign during my waking hours. This is my most common dream sign. It happens all the time in dreams. Most of the time I recognize it now.

But not this time.

The only thing that could have made this dream worse is if I had been holding a baby....or if there was an obvious portal there on the wall.

Finally Obama and the men get up and go outside. I follow them, still messing with my phone.

There are a couple black limos parked out on the road. I watched them all climb in and drive away.

I then woke up.

After kicking myself multiple times I tried to re-enter the dream. But it was too late.

2/6/2016 Slightly edited for privacy and understandability Each paragraph is a different dream in one night.

I was fighting someone (physically with fists and all), but I do not know who exactly … They were losing and I was winning. Maybe it was in the room next to the main office. It was in school and was dimly lit. It ends.

A classmate was getting aggressive in the commons in school. Someone was pulling her away and I realised that she had my backpack. I went to get it but I had to rip it out of her hands for me to get it back. She seemed scared of me and was apologetic to me as she said I might have “beat her ass.” It ends.

I was in the “reception” area of my school and I noticed a black man with grey hair that was wearing dark clothing sitting in one of the two chairs that were in the room. It occurred to me that he was an inspector for the school. Then we were in the front office with the dean and the school administrator was missing. We were looking at her desk with orange colour paper scraps and that is all, that dean was behind us looking somewhat worried about something, I do not know. Then it transitioned into the Social Studies room and I was walking into it when my friend was joking with me about the 11th and 12th grades were combined in one classroom. I said “Back to the good ole’ days” (I am technically in 11th but taking 12th classes and I kinda miss my 11th-grade friends) and I sat in the back corner and we were watching some video and taking notes while the lights were on and the in the room. The inspector I presumed was writing about how to class was going on the board and my SS teacher was off to the side watching. It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

[Warning] - The following contains body horror and a sexual act.



#18

Sex With Headless Shadow

This was a very odd dream as well, and like the title states, I had sex, more so fingered Shadow the Hedgehog but he was literally headless. I chuckled when I woke up after having the dream.

This took place, I'm assuming in my room -- The surrounding was hard to map out. I was laying down and I could feel my 'soul' or 'something' extract from my 'physical' body and was then visibly on-top of me. For a minute, I began to think it was a replica of myself but I ended up seeing a patch of white chest fur just like Shadow the Hedgehog's and the noticeable shortness in height compared to mine in perspective. He did not have a mouth to speak with nor could he speak through telepathy, but he could understand what I said to him. I did not freak out and I was extremely pleased. I remember taking Shadow's hand and placing his index finger into my vagina.

I could feel it enter me as he began to toy with the inside. It felt good and I told him to do it faster and harder which he proceeded to do on command. But then I woke up.

Dream Goal For February

Spoiler for February 2016 Goal:

Goal: Have a lucid dream about Shadow the Hedgehog and have sex with him. (I doubt this dream would actually be considered a goal completed -- lol)

Extended Information

Spoiler for Extended Information:

• Date — 2/6/2015

• Went to bed — 2:00 AM

• Woke up — 9:00 AM

• Total sleep — 7 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Fine

• Techniques/Practices:

*Daytime — 2 rounds of reality checks (1 in the morning and 1 in the afternoon whilst being at Walmart), DDA (Daydream Awareness) about Shadow the Hedgehog and I having discussions.

*Bedtime — 1 round of reality checks, since it seems relevant on how my dream has formed. I did look at a bit of Shadow the Hedgehog porn before I slept ;>_> Probably placing a visual imprint in my mind.

*Recall — Not really a mantra but I made a joke to myself after I had sex with Shadow, in the waking world, about having a dream about it.

• Dream(s):

*Time logged — 12:03 PM

*Vividness (1-5) — 2＝hazy, only some sensory dream elements were discernible.

*Awareness — I could tell that I was aware of where I was. It felt familiar as if I was truly laying upon my bed in my current, waking life, room. Though, I wasn't aware enough to state I was dreaming.

*Perceived Length — 10 Minutes

*Emotions — Horny, Lustful and Excited

*Dream Signs — Shadow the Hedgehog, my room, body horror -- Shadow being headless, haziness

Notes/Summary

Spoiler for Notes/Summary:

Notes/Summary — Right before I headed off to sleep for the night I had sex with Shadow the Hedgehog (please do not ask me how). This was right after we watched a couple episodes of Diabolik Lovers: More, Blood which is already a sadistic and sexual related show to begin with (No it's not that kind of show as it doesn't get anywhere that far with the kinds of acts they do). I guess it's what fueled Shadow in wanting to have sex with me in that moment, so we did just that. I was exhausted afterwords and it was around 2AM. I was going to pass out so I told my friend on Skype goodnight, closed the laptop and cuddled with my Shadow plush drifting off whilst thinking of how I would probably have a dream about what had just happened.

Shadow the Hedgehog being headless and being extracted from my body in my dream makes me think of two things: An incomplete tulpa and the current progress of achieving my Feburary 2016 goal. I do not consider Shadow a tulpa but I've had people ask me if he was one. With all the tulpa talk I been involved in lately could of filtered into my dreams, going off the fact of a tulpa being one of the many things that is an extraction of one's mind and the headless portion of the dream could refer to a tulpa being incomplete. It could also mean that I still have some ways to go before I can truly have a lucid dream about Shadow the Hedgehog where I have sex with him.

I was in school, on polish lesson. O felt really ill. Teacher called me for an exam, I was coughing badly. She asked me about main protagonist of Nałkowska's "Border". I said I don't know anything about that, but instead of getting a bad grade, she said that I'm ill and she'll ask me another time. She left a note that the grade would be delayed due to a stomachache. I left the school and met my younger sister with her group of friends. There was a huge swing, I swung on it almost hitting my sister with legs. She was mad due to it. I left the swing be, and coughed hard.

Suddenly I found myself in a government building, talking with a high ranking official. We were talking about a plague that quickly spreads around the world.

Doing a workshift and stumble upon the thought that I could be dreaming since it seem too early to be doing this.

I am at the library, but also partially at Goodwill. The library is rearranged, so I ask one of the people there where the "double swim meets" are. The person who answers tells me, and talks A LOT. I want to ask her where the books on hold are, but she keeps talking (very annoying.)
We are still in the library, same dream. This time there is someone, a lady talking about someone else. A boy tries to guess who she is talking about, but he doesn't know. I all of a sudden am on the deck at my house. I am smoking and I throw the cigarette into the woods. When I walk back in, I say who the person was the lady was talking about; Carly Fiorina.
I am sitting on the staircase rail and my sister tells me that it looks like fun and she wants to try. I get off and let her try it.
I am at a friend's birthday party, brushing out my hair with my friend's brush. Then me and my friend are taking a walk outside, walking a dog wearing sandals. We are walking through the grass, and it is very wet and squishy. My dad is there and he tells us that we should have walked on the sidewalks. We are walking under a tree and I see a box of rats floating in the air. I try to pet one, and it growls at me. "I hate rats!" I scream. A nearby lady starts yelling at me for hating rats. I try to shut her up and tell her that I really do like rats, but she just won't be quiet. I end up punching her really hard on her back and walking away. My dad gives me a horrified look and I shrug and say "don't worry, I don't do that often." We walk into a building, and I let my thoughts wander. I think about LDing, so I decide to do an RC. I do 2+2, and it equals 5. I push my fingers through my hand, and it worked. I wonder what I should do. I decide to walk around a corner so I can be alone and decide what to do there. It leads me to an elevator. (Definitely not lucid at this point.) I press the button and I can see the elevator moving upwards. I wonder what floor I should press, so I ask a lady nearby. She tells me she doesn't know and we should just go out to eat. There is a cafe nearby , so I get a yogurt parfait, and we sit down to eat. Then there are teachers and students there. The teachers are telling us about all the homework we have to turn in the next day.
I thought it was weird that I had two dreams last night about people talking and talking and being annoying. It was weird because it didn't seem to have any connection to my waking life whatsoever. I'll have to look into that osome more.