non-lucid

Woody Allen is filming his new movie, Zelig, yet is so neurotic and socially incompetent that he has hired me to assist him in the project. I am however a mirror image of Woody Allen, in both appearance and mentality. He is not yet a famous director and is living in a small stone brick house with an entrance that is so small you have to lie down and crawl through. During the filming process, I overhear him say that he would love to visit Paris and would film a movie there as an excuse to go. I begin to laugh as I know that in the future he admittedly directs Midnight in Paris for that reason.

I don't remember these dreams very well anymore, gonna try to journal right when I wake up.

Dream 1
My mom had some book that she was burning. It spawned these golden frogs that I think had chocolate inside of them. If you killed them, you got blocks of Minecraft wood.

Dream 2
Something about cars

Dream 3
I remember I was trying to find my new High School bus, and I started talking to some school friends, I think Mr Chopra was there. (see Dream 4) I'm confused about what actually happened in this dream, because this was a waking life event, and I had a dream version of it too, so I don't know what happened in waking life and what happened in the dream.

Dream 4
I'm in Mr Chopra's class (8th grade math teacher) and he's giving us some strange problems

I'm living in an older apartment building with red brick walls. In the other room, my roommate is holding a baby. I spot a pacifier sitting on the floor and give it to the roommate, who announces that she is going to get it steam-cleaned. In the meantime, she makes me hold the baby. The poor thing seems to be in a lot of discomfort and keeps squirming. As soon as my roommate returns with the pacifier, the baby drops off to sleep. I'm a little relieved to hand him over.

Two old friends drop by, but I'm reluctant to let them leave. I know that I'm going to need them as an alibi. Sure enough, just as I plead with my friends to stay, the police show up a bit too early for their cue. Good thing I knew they were coming! But how did I know? My roommate and I must have put together some sort of plot that I'm carrying out alone.

There's a man who joins us who thinks he can help me. He looks a little bit like Lou Diamond Phillips. He thinks he can find evidence by demolishing the red brick walls around my bathroom. It doesn't seem like any great loss, since the bathroom is so large with an odd layout. It actually has three showers stalls at right angles, but we don't need quite that many. As he starts tearing out the brick wall, I can see the sidewalk outside. Pretty soon, the opening is wide enough to walk out onto the street.

I woke up briefly, then managed to re-enter the dream.

I'm on that same street. Instead of apartments, there's a building holding a coffee shop, a resale store, and an empty storefront between them. I seem to own the coffee shop. A suspicious-looking man enters and wonder what happened to the old shop. I tell him that I bought it and reopened it. He asks if he can still get number 17 from the old menu. I have no idea what that is, so I give him a new menu. He keeps asking for #17 with a wink. Eventually, I realize that the old shop was a front for a brothel and he's asking for a woman. I hustle him out the door.

It's nighttime outside and the stars are out. I look at the sky for a little while, though I can't identify any particular constellation. It's almost as if someone covered the world with a piece of blue velvet and poked holes at random to represent the stars.

When I head back into the building, something feels different. I go into the resale shop where I know I have friends working, but they don't seem to know me. It seems that while I was outside, I went back in time by two years -- taking me to a point before I had met them. I wonder if I should take the same path or do something entirely different with this second chance.

It was recommended to me to have a second spinal fusion. I went along with it because I thought it would help. I was in first grade, but I was around 18 years old—as were all the other students.

Despite just having surgery, I was not experiencing any pain. I was hardly participating in the class, and considered using my recent surgery as an excuse. As class went on, my level of discomfort and pain increased. I was about to leave the class when my fiancée showed up. She hugged me from behind, and became extremely irritable and scolded her for touching my back. She hugged me again more gently, but still touched my back, thus causing me pain. We hung out in the classroom, no longer paying attention to the teacher. We rummaged around the teacher’s desk, and asked the teacher if she had an audio jack in her computer. I decided to introduce my fiancée to my teacher, but forgot her name. Mrs. White introduced herself instead. Yet again my back was in great pain.

During lunch, a colleague of Mrs. White’s visited the classroom, and performed some magic. He took several objects, and summoned the same objects from the past. For example, if the object was created in 2000, he would have summoned it from 2000, when it was brand new.

The scene changed, and I was the passenger in a car. The pain was overwhelming. I laid down as best I could in the back seat, resting my head on my fiancée’s lap. I was almost crying from the pain by the end of the dream.

Well the dream started off with me sitting at a Desk being in a office type room. Here is a image of what it may look like.




I am inside the building just minding my own business, all of the sudden I was playing around with some plastic box. It looked kind of futuristic. I was wondering what to do with the box. First thing I was doing was I was playing around with the box and it looked 3 dimensional. I was trying to figure out how to use it and it began to do some different things, when I was messing with it a logo appeared in the box. I saw a logo going really far away inside the box so I could barely see it. So I was thinking this was a next generation of computers. It was like a computer case made out of plastic that can do all sorts of things. It looked kinda like this but it was alittle bigger, kinda like the size of a PC Monitor or a TV.




I was messing around with it again and suddenly it said Dreamviews on the logo. I was thinking for a moment, well that was odd. Then suddenly I heard peoples voices coming from out side, they were coming in the room. One of the ladies walked in and said, "Sorry you have to leave, I am busy with a client right now so you must go" And I was wondering what she meant by "Client" And I saw a girl walking in with her, And the dream ended.

This is my first Dream Journal i've written down
I start off the dream at a Fun Zone/ Airport type setting. I found myself in a "party" type section of the area, with me was 2 younger black girls. I assumed they were sisters. We were talking and I found that whenever I got excited about something I kept passing out, kind of like http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0h2nleWTwI the narcoleptic dog! No matter how hard I tried I kept falling down "asleep". Then the girl's father showed up and they encouraged me to stay awake. No matter how hard I fought, I couldn't do it. He began chasing me around the table that was in the center of the room and I would sprint, pass out, sprint.

I am aware that I repress emotions, but this dream may give me new insight. Maybe I repress emotions to avoid the disappointments I had as a child. Whatever the reason, there's my first DJ!

I don't really remember the beginning of my dream, but it began with me, and the characters from an anime expediting on something. I don't really remember. I was tired, so I went to sleep. I subsided into my dreamscape and I knew I was dreaming off the bat, because I began flying all of a sudden. I didn't do much in that dream, except explore, I was lucid. Then I woke up, told the characters that I had a lucid dream. That dream wasn't lucid. Some people died due to causes, such as falling down a really long ladder, drowning, etc. I went to sleep again, and it was also lucid. I woke up, and tried to breathe whilst holding my nose. I was dreaming. I was outside of a house. I went inside and it was a mess. There was a woman there. I guess she was supposed to be my 'mom' in the dream. She got mad at me. There were chairs broken, windows cracked. The reason for this was that there were four girls in there, at the time I wasn't lucid dreaming, who got mad at me. I stormed out of the house and didn't return until that time. I waved my arms. "CLEAN UP!" I shouted, all the mess disappeared. This part I had trouble with. Our neighbor was selling his car for $500. I didn't have $500. I went back inside and tried to spawn $500. No luck. I was waving my hand at a table, shouting "500 DOLLARS!" and it didn't work. I tried to focus, and think very hard. "Spawn 500 dollars." Didn't work. I think after that I woke up. Wait! I woke up again? I had a false awakening. I got up, walked out into the living room, and woke up again. This time, I was awake for sure.

Date: 14/06/2012
Place: Friend's bed
Time of getting into bed: 00.00

Dream 1 - Non lucid
We (me and partner) are going through a McDonalds drive through over and over again. Under our car seats are small kittens that are very cute.

Dream 2 - Non lucid
My sister is modeling dresses on a cruise ship. I am joining in but only because I know she will be angry if I don't, and I really don't want to do it. The dresses are bad taste and there are people watching. There are piles of clothing everywhere, my back is very sweaty I notice. A plastic pirate ship style toy boat is large enough for me to climb in, which makes it move in a very trippy way. I am then in the toilets squeezing into a dress way too small for me, there are people waiting to use the toilet but I am holding them all up. An old school friend passes by and says hi, I say hi back and they leave. Someone gives me some cheap, hotel style conditioner for my hair.

Dream 3 - Non lucid
There is a small, dead scorpion on my pillow. I am saving it to put in my ear later. I change my mind and decide to throw it away, in case it stings me.

Dream 4 - Non lucid
I am throwing plastic arrows, but I have no bow.

Dream 5 - Non lucid
I am in a beach style place, and smoking. I throw my cigarette butts on the floor into the sand so someone provides a very tall, green plastic cocktail glass to use as an ashtray. There are no more seats for me to sit on so I sit on a plastic, kids toy car. I am now crying (not sure why) but the car is comfortable.

***NOTEWORTHY***
I do not smoke anymore (quit sometime ago)
I have not seen the visiting school friend for around 10 years.
My star sign is Scorpio.

1. "Her sales and her unibrow are nowhere near where they need to be." Had a feeling of watching TV. Was thinking of Jess and the coffee shop.

*I woke up and drank cold coffee and went back to bed.

2. I am in a hot air balloon. There is an old crazy looking man. He has long gray hair and looks like the actor that played Gandolf. His hair is wild and wind sept. It is very windy. We are very high up. I see gray mountains in the distance. Suddenly the wind blow the opposite direction. The old man becomes excited and says "There it is!" I have the feeling like we made it past a certain threshold and it would be easy from there.

*I was trying to WILD and fell into non lucid sleep

3. I am at my wifes grandparents house. They haven't lived there in a long time. I look inside but it turns into my mother-in-laws house. I see parts that is half torn down. I think we should rebuild this house and move in. I walk outside and notice the door was unlocked and I never used a key. I leave it unlocked. I see some chickens and they are so hungry they are like swarming me and begging for food. I think, "Oh crap no one has fed them all this time!" So I quickly find so feed and a feeder and fill it up and then I sprinkle some on the ground so they will have pleanty. I then go into a shed and find a paper bag. I has some more feed but it is like moist clumps. That when the 4 or 5 cats attack me and latch onto the bag and my arm. I am amused but I try to shake them off. They wont come off and one is latched to my forearm. It doesn't hurt but I am getting mad now. I step out of the shed and spin in a circle and fling the bag and cats into the air with all my might. The cats go spinning and flying far into the sky and out of sight. I laugh.

06.17.2012

Dreamprofesser? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Wait....did I.....nahh....but...maybe my recall is a little skewed, we'll see how this plays out.

I took a nap like an hour or two ago, can't really remember, but I had a few weird dream I guess. I'll just combine all those frags together since it was a nap.

Things start out in a bus, kind of like those Greyhound buses with the containers for storing small suitcases and stuff above the seats. There's this guy who is muscular, wearing a gray/white shirt, and looks like one of those gym instructors at that place I workout in waking life resting his arms on top of the seat he has his knees on in front of me.

It didn't feel awkward until he started to sweat a little bit on me, so I turned my legs to the side instead of having them in synch with the direction of my torso. And it seems he can barely fit in the bus too, he's so tall, he has to duck his head when his sitting down, but I guess that's because he had his knees on the seat instead of actually sitting down.

He gets up, thank god, and says,

"I need to take a shower." I passively accepted that as something he would do later, but he's getting up to go to the back, and he opens some containers on the left side, and they have water in them.

Lol, don't tell me you're going to try and fit yourself in there and take a shower....

This guy is actually going to do it! He's carefully opening one container at a time, and then goes to the back of them to drain out whatever is left, and I think I helped out for some odd reason. As I'm draining the water out, I swear it went from transparent to a dark pink-ish type of color. I make sure I wash the container properly with some soap.

It took a while for me to get the soap out with some running water because the sink was full of plates and I didn't want to container to come in contact with them. The container was basically a square that was cut diagonally. I think people wanted me to hurry up and finish washing the container, but they didn't say to me directly, I could just tell by their expressions that I'm spending way too much time on this.

The dream shifts, and I believe I'm in the gym with my mother, lol, how does that work out? So much for reality checks.

Anyway, my mother has her workout clothes on for a few minutes, and then suddenly she comes back again with regular clothes. She tells me she can't go on the treadmill, and as we're walking to the set of treadmills, she pointed at one that some lady just got off from.

I tried to make her shift her hand somewhere else so that lady wouldn't think we're talking about her, but meh, seems the lady was clueless anyway.

Apparently, the gym is set outdoors, and it rained a few minutes ago I bet, so that made all the gym equipment icky and stuff. Makes sense to not go on the treadmill, especially with all those people's hands on the bars of it, and the surface being wet as well.

We get out of the area of the weird outdoors gym, (I swear that should've been another reality check lol.....who invests in expensive gym equipment and puts it outside for it to get damaged?)

You know.....I guess it's time with each reality check, instead of asking if I'm dreaming, I should really be analytical of things, maybe that might help things a bit. I tried avoiding being too thoughtful about these things, but I guess it's time I do it again, especially since I want to find a certain someone again.....

Okay, back to the dream, yeah, by this time, I believe me and my mother go our separate ways. I go to some random alley, and it's still daytime, but the gray clouds make it look like it's close to night or something. I see two black men, one a cop, and one I can't tell at the moment because of the angle I'm looking down at is a bit awkward.

The cop is helping the guy carry some books, and since I was on top, I accidently walked on these pile of books, but I quickly get off. Seems I didn't affect anything, so I keep walking a bit until I hear one of them say something about people being able to donate any books they have for what seems to be a mini-library that is being set up near the alley.

Hm...........I decided I should give a book for the cause, and the title had a "Pt. 2" to it, so I wonder where was Part 1 lol, but I just put it in the pile of books they were going to carry in. I go down, and I finally see the black man other than the black cop.

He's wearing glasses.....


He's smiling, he's wearing a dress shirt and some fancy dark pants as well. I didn't click for me as yet on who this could be though...I told him that I gave them a book, and I think I said the title as well when he asks me what it was.

Then to add on to what I said, I believe I started to sing a short phrase related to the nature of the book. It just came out, just like that, don't know how I even concieved the thought, but hey, the guy digged it, so I guess it's wasn't too bad.

The dream shifts again, and this time, I brought my mother to the same alley that I was in. We're back on the top of the alley, and since the pile of books were removed, I figured I should help bring my mother down through this gap.

I take my time to get her prepared to drop, and when I do, she immediately collapses.

Are you kidding me....oh god......what the hell do I do now?!?!?!?!?

I jump into the gap, and it realized it's a bit deeper than it was before. I could've sworn that same gap was a least 5 feet deep, and that's enough for anyone to land safely.

Felt like this time, it was 15-20 feet deep. Ugh.

I panic a little, but I calm down, and I rush to the door where the books were going into, and I'm ignoring the same man at the time because I'm really worried about what's going to happen to my mother.

I'm trying to find a phone, so I can call my mother....LOL, what logic is that Link??!?!? She's unconscious, and you want to call her in hopes that she hears the ringtone?

GOD, I'm am so STUPID!!!!

I even picked up a small cracker, and tried to dial in the little bumps on it, I was saturated with the thought of worrying that something bad will happen to her that I didn't even realize I'm fucking using a cracker to dial numbers....


LOL.

I'm sure the guy inside was just watching me, probably even mentally facepalming himself at the horrible skill I'm exhibiting right now. I open the door to check the status of my mother, and my vision of things right at that moment is blurred. I see a figure slowly get up, and immediately, I knew it was my mother.

I rushed to her and asked if she was okay.

While I was trying to explain, I was speaking at 300,000,000,000,000 words a second, so she looks at me weirdly, and then I started to slow down a bit and talk coherently.

I told her I was trying to call her to see if she wakes up (stupid Link...STUPID STUPID!) and all sorts of explanations.

And the same guy who was inside? I'm pretty sure that was dreamprofesser...but since I was so occupied with doing a horrible job of trying to get my mother conscious again, I couldn't take the time to absorb all the features of the man's visage.

But the glasses alone, it could've been him.


Some nap that was!

Dream? 1? 2?: I'm not sure if this should be considered a dream, or not, so I'm throwing those questions marks in there. I am pretty sure I was asleep, and suddenly I felt like my body was floating and a couple of quick shakes or vibrations or rather buzzy feeling in between happened, and then I was seeing six different places at once, as if I was looking at three TV screen stacked on top of one another next to another stack of three... but somehow I felt like I was actually in six places at once rather than being in 1 place watching pictures of six places. I thought to myself, "Is this a dream?" It was very weird and disorienting for a second or two, then everything went black. The it happened, again! and this time instead of everything going black, I tried to roll over and dispel whatever was going on. When I rolled over, my daughter did the same in her bed and rolled right out of bed! I've never had dreams like that before. I don't know if it was a dream or sleep paralysis or even something else like astral travel or OBE or something. It was definitely weird though!

Dream 3(Fragment): I'm standing in front of someone, it may have been Kurasawa, but I'm not sure bc at this point I wasn't feeling him. I was on my guard completely, I thought I was going to have to fight this person, and that this person might not even be a person at all because I had been told there was a monster here and this person was the only thing I found when I arrived. (I don't remember being told this and my trip to "here" well enough to tell you how it went, but I have a vague recall of it) The person and I kind of stood there ready to fight, then he reached out to grab me and I dodged and tried to hit him, then he smacks my hand away and tries to grab me again and I dodge again. Then he shifts completely, drops his aggressive stance. This is where it gets fuzzy and I can't remember exacts again. I suddenly feel completely safe and warm and happy... leading me to wonder if he was Kurasawa, as those are the feelings he gives me. I think he hugs me, and tells me he doesn't have to worry about me not being able to defend myself, then he tells me that I need to go. I get on a train and leave.

Dream Four (Fragment): I'm at some sort of Christmas party with my husband and kids. It's time to leave, so I go get the car to pull it up to the door and void getting the kids cold. We must have been with my husbands family bc I left him inside with the kids talking to them and if if had been my family I'd have stayed inside and he would have gotten the car. Someone's moving vehicles around, and it's icy and snowy. I get in my car, but then a man is driving a UPS truck too fast and it slips in the ice and nearly hits my car! A woman screams, but the driver gets the vehicle under control and everything is ok. I drive to the front of the building and my husband and kids walk out. I put the car in park and try to strap my daughter in her carseat... but she reeks, and when I pick her up my hands get wet... she's pooped her pants and it's the messy baby kind of poop, all liquid and orange. I tell my husband she's pooped her pants, and he says he knows he thought we'd change her when we get home. I fuss at him that she should have been changed as soon as he noticed it, and then I run her inside to change her. I wake up in the middle of cleaning her up!

Dream Five: I'm in a hotel talking to a renaissance act in a lobby. The man is very nice, and I'm telling him I've seen his show at the ren fair, and how awesome it was. He gives me a hat, and asks me to hold onto it for him. It has his cell phone inside. Then I have to leave and walk outside. My son is there too, and he also gets a hat from the guy before we leave. It takes me a while to find my car as the parking lot is being torn up and repaved in places and the equipment blocks my view of it. When we get to my car some guy is smoking and trying to hit on me, and I tell him I don't like smokers. He puts his ash tray on my dash, but I drive off before he can get in my car. I pick up my husband at a door on the other side of the parking lot, and he's mad there's an ash tray in the car and I have to explain why.

All the dreams are fragments because I'm not taking notes. Still having very little luck remembering to keep my eyes closed and not move when I wake up for this DEILDing thing, lol.

06.17.2012

Catching More Kingly Implings (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm catching Kingly Implings from Runescape in real life, no surprise there, since I make a crap load of cash stuffing them into little jars and selling for extreme profits in the game.

The Kingly Implings looked a little weird, they basically looked like mini-floating Rockhopper penguins wearing some kind of red cardigan.

I recalled catching at least 5, and I think I had all of them in my arms because I didn't have any jars, but there were moments where I wasn't holding anything at all either, so I don't know how that worked out.

I kept going crazy during the process of getting 5 of them, and in the actual game, they're like floating money basically, like 380k-400k+ gp per impling. I was so freaking happy with myself with catching all of them that I was screaming at people with joy.

All of them just look at me weird, like I'm crazy.....loooool, guess I really am crazy for not doing a reality check there, too happy over imaginary things.

If all of these Kingly Implings were caught so easily, this meant they had to re-spawn at some location, so I quickly looked at as many short gaps and holes that they could be coming out of.

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06.17.2012

Do you Have a Microwave? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I have a plate with a pancake on it, and I go inside an Asian Restaurant to ask one of the employees,

"Do you have a microwave?"

One of them responds that they don't have one right now, but I can use the heating pan if I wanted to.

Not thinking about how clean the pan was, I put the pancake on the pan to let it sit and get heated up, and something told me I had to heat up the eggs as well, but they were somewhere else.

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06.17.2012

Clan Leader (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm doing some hot/cold gambling in Runescape....LOL.

Spoiler for What Hot and Cold Gambling Is:

What Hot/Cold means in a nutshell: Basically, certain flowers have a warm color (red, orange, yellow), which are hot, and cold (you know the drill).....yeah, so you bet a host on what flower it would be by giving them a certain amount of cash.

Then when they accepted the trade, you tell them what flower will pop up when they plant the seed, which shows up instantly. So if you said "Hot," and a hot type of flower shows up, you win double the money that you put into the bet.

And so on if you said the wrong flower, the host gets it, and also, if there's a rainbow flower (red, yellow, and blue), the host automatically wins unless you have some balls and predict that a ryb will show up. Usually, if you're right on that, you get 4-5 times the cash you put into the betting.

Easy way to make cash, IF you're hosting, but you can get lucky with betting as well, but it's always best to host, which is why people think it's a form of scamming, but if you find the right hosts that don't log out when you put a bet in, it CAN be addicting just like real life gambling.

Anyway, I believe I was hosting a Hot/Cold x 2 game (x 2 means double the money if you win).

Then I see a figure that looks like my clan leader in-game, and apparently, she gets one clan mate to tell and warn me about something. I ask them what happened, and I think one of our clan mates died in the game, and they need help getting their items back.

I saw a stack of gold that was melted before, pick it up, and some weird things happened.

I'm suddenly shifted to back to reality (like not focusing on a video game I mean), and I'm in some kind of museum. I follow this elderly couple, and the wife I'm presuming is putting a small piece of what seems to be a fossil on top of some empty monument.

I hear the sounds of the rocks that I'm walking on, and some of the edges as my shoes scrapes against them as well. The sound hand that type of rock and sand kind of thing to it.

I guess that same piece that was found completed the set.

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06.17.2012

That Method is Dead (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I can't remember much about this, I was walking to some area where the floor is brown, and the whole area is empty. I queried some random character on what happened, and they said that the method of killing some kind of creature for cash is dead.

I felt like this was a Runescape related dream too, hahahaha.

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06.17.2012

Jacks = Immortality? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

What I mean by jacks is the object from the Marbles and Jacks game, yeah, those kinds.

Apparently, you can twist them around, and they'll kill small animals and insects instantly, and it actually does when I see someone spin it.

Then I up some small stairs, and see a fairly overweight female twisting the jacks on her breasts (she's wearing a red shirt and pants).

I'm wondering why she's doing it, but apparently it's supposed to make you immortal or at least stronger than the human being.

Then I see someone who looks like Cory who was in the tennis team I was part of in High School testing out this theory by letting his brother hit him with a mini green chalkboard very hard.

Umm...okay.

I go down to some other small set of stairs outside, and some guy was talking about how he can use human toasters.

I laugh and think it's absurd, but I don't tell him anything.

This morning's dream was quite detailed, and although part of the dream after the first one has been blocked out, many scenes still remain intact. A few scenes become slightly graphic

There was a man lying on the ground. The room was dark, with scenes of red curtains, and possibly tables and gold-framed portraits strewn throughout. Suddenly, another man walks in and starts shooting pistol rounds at him. I counted about 20 rounds, or more than 100 shots fired. The pretext for this terrible scene, I do not remember.

Time to report this massacre to someone close-by. Number of killed: 1. Could that really aptly describe the horror to the full extent?

West Java, Indonesia

Somewhere, a strong earthquake jolted the region, affecting a rural area outside the city of Jakarta. There was a volcanic eruption that turned the sky red around the world. Somewhere, possibly in Japan, another volcanic eruption changed the character of the sky.

One tribe in Java offended another. For some reason, a war began, and tanks started rolling into the fields. Many were killed, and women and children were seen hiding in their tents, as bombs exploded around them. The facade said this was Kota Kinabalu. But that's in Malaysia, on the island of Borneo.

What did they even fight over?

Soon, a ceasefire was declared, as the tribes came to terms with the conflict. Nobody made a move for days, then days turned into weeks, and weeks months. A pile of dust still lay unforbidden.

China, 1989

There was some Western company being sent in, a camera attached to the back of a fruit fly, to send into the nasal passages of a person. Inside, there were a series of rooms, four floors, and a conference meeting in one. Not much going on anywhere, but suddenly a stampede of people rushed toward the pool. A British filmmaker joined me. The crazy woman, as she was called, Caucasian and dark brown hair, swam all the way to the opposite shore at an impossible speed, and took a basket, filling it quickly with water. It formed a Canada goose shape, which then rose on top the water in the form of a bubble, which burst, and people laughed.

I highly recommend this book, I wrote. It brings an air of humanity fo 1980's and 90's Asia, including the events in Indonesia and Tiananmen Square, even to the police and soldiers who instigated the massacre in various places.

I woke up for the second time now, this time about 40 minutes before I had set my alarm to ring. Perhaps this was because I had a lot of work.

Had two dreams tonight, but I was too tired to write them down, and my headache was killing me, which means I forgot the first one.

I was in my bed sleeping, when my phone rang. I answered it, and it went on camera-to-camera mode. On the other end, I saw a bunch of my classmates and few from my parallel class looking at the camera. Some small-talk occurred between us, and the guy who made the call tells me to turn around. I tell him I can't, because I'm in my bed.
"Just look behind you" he says. I tell him:
"There's nothing behind me. If I turn around I will suffocate in my pillow". Another guy, Peter, then comes on and says that Communication is boring. I ask him why, but I don't remember if I got a response.
The dream changes scenario to my garden terrace. Peter is there, as well as a couple randoms which I figure are my classmates. There is a big cauldron with some green goo in it. Peter is playing around with it. We go into my father's workshop. Green goo gets spilled over Peter. We look up and see the cauldron on one of the horizontal pillars keeping the roof up.
"How the hell did that get up there, who placed it there?!".

My (non-lucid) dream was very confusing and busy-like. I'm not even sure how it started. I know I fell asleep telling myself that I wanted to dream about my brother, to go on an adventure of some sort.
The parts I remember is that he told me that he needed to go to the hospital for surgery. He wouldn't tell me what the surgery was for or anything. He walked very slowly, as if his feet were bothering him badly. He kept telling me that after surgery, he would feel better, but he wouldn't tell me anything more about it. So, we sat in the waiting room. This isn't some normal procedure, because it was almost like waiting in the ER for medical attention. There were several other people.
The people there were making me nervous, and so I told my brother I would be back shortly. I exit the hospital, and that's all I remember about that first part.
Then, I dream that I'm in this community room at a park trying to set up for a class. It was a class for my mother-in-law and all the other veterans that live in her apartment flat. Only a couple of people come to the class, and the the teacher I was assiting was a very reserved and austere man. My mother in law tells me that school was out for the summer and so most of the others (apartment neighbors) were off doing whatever else they wanted to do.
My dream seemed to drift back into the first part (or first dream??), and I was back at the hospital with my brother. I went to sit by him for a few minutes, when they called his name up. At this point, I am not allowed to go back with him, as it's a surgery. So while he went to surgery, I decided to go visit my mom, who was currently a patient at the same hospital. I wander up this tall staircase (no elevator for some reason or another), and I end up stuck, looking for her room. I forgot which room she was, or if she was really even at that hospital. I couldn't bring myself to ask a nurse for help, for some reason. And so I wandered the halls for what seemed like two hours before I went back to that waiting room, where I could expect my brother out. I went to the reception area and ask on his status, and they tell me that he is in the recovery room and would be there for a while yet.
At this point, I decided to find myself a restroom. When I get to the toilet, I sit down and begin to tinkle... and for some reason I had a hard time doing it, when I realize... I woke myself up and right then because I almost wetted the bed! So here I am, writing this down.

I know that this dream(s) makes no sense at all to anyone, and barely myself, but I know why I have dreamed it. I have been worried about my brother (twin brother to be precise) and his alcoholism. It has caused a strain on our relationship for some time now. We got into an argument just shortly after our 26th birthday. We have since talked and he stopped drinking for a couple of weeks, and now he is back on the bottle. Last night, we chatted and he basically told me that he feels his life has no purpose, and he secretly hopes that one night, his alcoholism kills him. While trying to work his situation out, he complains about how his feet and mouth hurt a lot, and how he needs to get the last few teeth pulled so he can heal up for his new dentures.
I probably dreamed about visiting my mother at the hospital, because we also talked about my mother last night. She was always in and out of the hospital a lot of my life, and she has since passed away-at the hospital, so I think that my mind wished I could go see her and since she passed at the hospital, that's where I could go to see her again.
As for the dream about a community room and preparing for a class for my mother in law.. I have no clue. Sometimes my dreams drive me insane when they are all jumbled up so badly!