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    1. [X-8]

      by , 10-03-2012 at 09:21 AM (Searching For The Center of Everything)
      [Friday, September 28th, 2012]
      (Failed at dream recall. Today is the second day Alex had training. I've been napping off and on since I dropped her
      off and now I'm in the hotel by myself. I faintly remember dreaming about a lot of kittens and there was a bright
      orange one that Alex had grabbed and tried to claim as hers. She tried to mark her territory as a male cat would spray.
      My Mom was there.)

      (I'm unhappy with where I've been as far as dream recall goes. For now, I'm making dream recall TOP PRIORITY.
      Time to research on the best methods and put it into action! I won't stop until I remember full dreams in great detail.)
      Tags: kittens
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    2. Persistent realms and other lucid dreaming techniques I use.

      by
      Hyu
      , 10-02-2012 at 09:31 PM (Hyu's Adventures)
      I promised I would write something about persistent realms, and also some other techniques I use when lucid dreaming.
      Took me a bit longer than expected because I have a difficult time finding the right words to describe my thoughts.
      I quite frankly have no idea if these techniques will work for anyone else,
      so this is by no means supposed to be a tutorial, or anything like that.
      I'm merely explaining how I do something and what my thoughts about it are.
      Maybe, if you are trying to do something similar, there's an idea or two you might find useful.
      Basically, I'm giving you a "behind the scenes" look on a dream where I "created" a persistent realm, explaining when I use certain techniques that are not apparent just by reading the DJ entry.
      I highlighted important stuff and techniques in bold in case this is too much text and you simply want to skip over it.
      Anyways... here goes.

      What is a persistent realm?
      It's a term I use to describe certain kinds of dreams I have.
      Dreams that are persistent, meaning where your actions have consequences, dreams you can resume each night where you left off.
      So why do I call them "realms"?
      Well, for me these kinds of dreams are a bit more than just persistent.
      There are a few more unique characteristics to them:
      • Persistence - When you "enter" a realm, you "resume" the dream where you left of last time. (more or less)
      • Consequences - Because of the persistence, every action you take has consequences. If you change something it will remain changed forever. For example, people will remember you and the conversations you've had with them.
      • Laws & Dream Powers - A realm has a set of laws of physics (fitting the setting of the realm), which may be different from waking life. There may be ways to cast magic for example. You can learn, understand, use (and abuse) these laws, but you can never do anything that violates them. (Such as using dream powers) If a character does something ridiculous then it means that there is a law enabling him to do so, and you most likely can learn to do the same thing.
      • Realism - Those dreams feel pretty damn real. I assume the main reason behind this (besides the technique I use) is that all dream characters are intelligent. You won't encounter the typical "derpy" DC who seems completely lost. DC's are intelligent and follow their own agenda. Their actions can be completely unexpected.


      How does one create a persistent realm?
      It took me some time to come up with an idea for that one.
      As I mentioned earlier it's not really a technique.
      It's more of a state of mind kind of thing... it's difficult to come up with an explanation.
      I guess the best way I can explain it is by fully elaborating on my train of thoughts.
      That unfortunately means a LOT of text, but I really don't see a better way of doing this.

      I am fully aware that fully persistent dreams are possible because I have experienced them for many years.
      The realm containing Teraluna is definitely persistent and my basis for any ideas I've come up with.
      The issue is that I've never knowingly created it. I've been dreaming about it ever since I was a young child.

      But then I realized that this isn't the point.
      The point is that it still works.
      I can still go there. The persistency is never broken. I still can't use dream powers.
      Why is that? Why does this never fail?
      I believe the reason behind this is very simple...

      Say for example you want to summon an item in a lucid dream. You need a key to unlock a door.
      What do you do? You use some kind of summoning technique:
      I'll just search my pockets. I might have it on me? Why else would I come to a locked door if I wouldn't have the key?
      This is a trick of course. One that works rather well.
      Just searching your pockets is a common and easy summoning technique in lucid dreams.
      Guiding your thoughts towards believing that the chances are high that you have that item on you will futher increase the summoning chances.
      So guiding your thoughts is an interesting technique to keep in mind.
      But something more important first:

      When you succeed and find the key, something very obvious happens.
      Something easily overlooked.
      Once you find that key and you hold it in your hand... it won't disappear.
      I mean, why would it? It doesn't make any sense for an item to just vanish.
      So what's the reason behind that?
      The key won't disappear because I know that it won't disappear.
      Is it really that simple?
      The realm of Teraluna is persistent, because I know it to be persistent.
      Is that all there is to it? Is the answer that simple?
      But there's another thought anchored somewhere deep within my mind
      I know that creating a persistent realm must be extremely difficult.
      Such a train of thoughts is toxic to lucid dreams.
      It's there because of many reasons.
      • I've never managed to create a persistent realm at will, so it must be hard.
      • Creating entire realms feels like an overwhelmingly big task.
      • You don't often hear people claiming to have done this so it must be hard.


      The list goes on.
      While some of these deeply anchored thoughts benefit you, others, like the ones I just listed, disable you.
      In my opinion they are absolutely crucial to lucid dreams.

      At this point it is clear to me what the technique to create such a persistent realm must encompass:
      1) Bypass the I know that creating a persistent realm must be extremely difficult. thought, create a new realm and access it.
      2) Make yourself "know" that his is a persistent realm. You can go back whenever you want.

      But you cannot just selectively remove ideas that are so deeply anchored within your mind and insert new ones.
      That just doesn't work. You can't just decide to "know" something.
      You can think about it, educate yourself on it, discuss it,
      and eventually it might change. But you cannot consciously edit something you "know".
      If you think about it, it happens all the time though. Your ideas, beliefs and even knowledge changes, in the blink of an eye.
      It just happens.
      And I argue that this process happens sub-consciously.
      I also argue that you are able to interact with your sub-conscious in different ways when you are dreaming,
      albeit in no way that I think anyone fully understands.

      Think about the example with summoning a key I used earlier.
      I guided my thoughts towards believing that I already had the key on me.
      I never directly thought that the key must be in my pocket.
      I merely started a train of thoughts and let my sub-conscious finish it for me.
      This is something extremely powerful in dreams, if you can do it.
      This doesn't always work of course, but it is such a versatile and powerful tool, albeit difficult to control.

      Expectations, hope, fear, they all play a very important role during dreams.
      When you first learn to fly, you do so by trying to do it over and over again, thus increasing your expectations that it will work with every small success you have.
      But creating entire realms is not really a process that can be learned like that, it simply takes too long.
      A more instantanious method is required, like the one used in summoning the key.

      Understanding this, I was able to come up with a technique that works for me.
      Creating, or rather going to a new realm is pretty straightforward, all I need to use is a teleportation technique.
      Making myself believe or "know" that this is a persistent realm is the tricky part.
      I need to guide my thoughts towards believing this, without actually thinking that I am guiding my thoughts towards this goal, and without finishing it consciously.


      I hope this makes sense...
      Anyways, here are some DJ snippets from an entry where I tried to do this very thing,
      with my current thoughts on it.

      Creating a fully persistent realm
      I get out of bed and rather quickly become aware that I am dreaming.
      Going through my usual routine of rubbing my hands and remembering my current dream goals,
      I eventually remember that I wanted to try the whole persistent realm thing again.
      Last time ended in a disaster, but after my recent reflections on the topic I'm somewhat confident
      that I'll manage to do it again. And maybe this time I won't die like an idiot half an hour in.
      This is a difficult task, so I further increase my lucidity until I feel it has reached a sufficient level.


      I do this using a technique I use both for stabilization and increased lucidity.
      I have found that for me, the stability of my dreams and my level of lucidity is strongly (but not exclusively) related
      to how clearly and reasonably I'm thinking.
      By forcing myself to solve rather complex problems, using mostly logic, and verifying that I have solved them correctly,
      I manage to assure that I am indeed thinking clearly.
      Knowing this I am very confident that my dream will remain stable, and that I will maintain a high level of lucidity.
      This is somewhat crucial for this task, because it all revolves around a rather complex and entirely mental technique.

      I breathe in deeply and exhale, whilst stretching to prepare myself for the task at hand.
      I am amused by the realization that stretching a dream body makes little sense, but quickly focus on the task at hand again.
      I try to relax myself as much as I can.
      I imagine myself standing inside of a bubble containing the current dream.
      A bubble created solely by my sub-conscious.
      I need to push myself out of it in order to go to real worlds.


      This is important.
      If you want to experience an entire world or setting (Hogwarts, Middle-Earth...), never try to create it right in front of you.
      There will be inconsistencies, DCs will go out of character, forget what they're supposed to do...
      In my experience, it just doesn't work right.
      Instead try to go there.
      Don't create Hogwarts, instead go to the real Hogwarts.

      I do this by leaving my dream bubble (just a bubble containing my current dream), and going to an entirely new place.
      Doing so I have an easier time believing that I am in a real place, and not in a dream controlled by my own sub-conscious,
      which renders dreams much more realistic.

      I drift away from my dream body, quickly reaching the limits of my small dream bubble, which only encompassed my house.
      As I gain distance, I find myself in a place that resembles a galaxy. My dream bubble is a very faint star, quickly becoming invisible within
      the sea of bigger and much more vibrant stars.
      It is cold and dark out here.
      I understand that these stars are other realms, which I can probably visit.
      This time I won't just pick one at random though.
      I would love to have a persistent realm in a sci-fi universe.
      I float from star to star waiting for something to indicate such a sci-fi universe I suppose.
      Whilst I don't receive such a sign, one star catches my attention for no apparent reason.
      I nearly dismiss the thought before realizing that I might as well go with this one, as nothing special is happening.


      Intuition is another powerful tool in lucid dreams.
      When you are lost, or if you need to take a decision without knowing which one is beneficial to you, go with your intuition.
      It manifests itself in different ways, but most often as no more than a faint feeling, which you'll usually dismiss
      unless you consciously look out for them.
      Obviously, your intuition isn't always right, and it is difficult to tell it apart from your own imagination in dreams.
      But when you have nothing to go on, intuition is always better than nothing.

      I approach the star, which is considerably increasing in size as I get closer, pondering on how I entered a new realm last time.
      But I have no time to finish that thought. I am drawn into the realm by a superior force and loose vision for no more than a split second.
      A new scene pops up instantaneously, as if someone had punched me in the face.
      There is no blurriness, no transition period as is common with scene changes in dreams, nothing like that at all.
      The new scene is just there.


      First steps in a new world
      I am quite disorientated. It is very loud. There's people talking all around me.
      Apparently I'm queuing for something. I try to look around to get an idea as to where I am, but this proves
      rather difficult as there's people all around me, most of them a little taller than I am.
      I need to get out of the crowd.
      Fortunately, it looks like I was next in line for whatever people are queuing for anyways.
      I pass a man and faintly hear him say "Passport please!", but it barely registers.


      Whilst I did hear him say that, the thought never registered.
      I immediately forgot about it, and was only reminded of it a few seconds later:

      I need to see if this place is real or if I ended up my own dream bubble.
      Someone grabs onto my shoulder and stops me rather unexpectedly...
      I just keep moving because whomever that is is of no importance to the dream.


      When I know that a DC isn't important, and I decide not to interact with them, they will always disappear.
      This is somewhat crucial, because without this the following wouldn't have surprised me as much as it did.
      "HEY!"

      I can't seem to shake myself loose and turn around rather annoyed.

      "What?"

      The man who stopped me is wearing some kind of uniform and is looking at me rather angrily.
      He's resting his right hand on what appears to be a holstered firearm.

      "I said PASSPORT PLEASE."

      Huh? What?
      He's slowly moving his gun out of his holster.
      Finally it strikes me.
      This is not my dream.
      This is real.
      I'm in trouble.


      There were a lot of thoughts shooting through my mind at that moment.
      No dream character would ever behave like that. I never investigated that thought any further, because it all seemed so obvious.
      I realized at that moment that I had succeeded. The realm was real.
      Fortunately, due to the trouble I was in, I never followed up on that thought, so I never questioned the conclusion I came to.
      "Wow, I'm so sorry, I was completely lost in thoughts there."

      That should buy me a few seconds. He rolls his eyes and pushes his gun back into the holster.
      He holds out some kind of tablet device to me, clearly expecting me to do something with my passport.
      Fortunately, a quick glance to my side reveals a person in another queue wiping something credit card sized over a similar device, and attaching it to her belt.
      I quickly search my belt, hoping that I have a similar card and I get lucky.
      I mimic the motion of the other person, which is followed by a rather friendly beep from the device I swiped the card over.
      That sounded like it worked.

      "Haha, sorry about that."

      He couldn't care less. He has already turned his back towards me.


      At this point I was completely absorbed by the dream.
      The thought that this might just be a normal dream never occured to me.
      I knew that this place was real, which in return means that it is persistent and that I will be able to go back to it.
      It worked, and it did so rather quickly, without taking much of an action at all.
      I didn't actively guide my thoughts much, besides the teleportation technique I used.
      But I didn't have to, because my state of mind about persistent realms carried over into my dream.
      My sub-conscious solved the problem for me.
      It came up with a scenario that would trick itself into thinking that I was a visitor in another realm.

      Orientation
      If in your lucid adventures, you ever find yourself in a situation where you have no idea where you are and what you are doing there, check your pockets!
      It might sound obvious, but in dreams you often don't think about doing the obvious.
      Realize that it makes no sense for you to be anywhere with empty pockets.
      At the very least you should have your wallet on you, but more importantly, you might have something on you indicating what you are here for.

      I get away from the crowd and find myself in a very large hallway.
      There's windows on both sides, revealing that I am in orbit around a planet.
      Holy shit I'm in space!
      Spaaaace station~

      But I'm completely lost. I have no idea where I am or even who I am.
      Alright... one step at a time.
      I start moving towards the end of the hallway, but draw my focus towards the contents of my pockets.
      I empty them both, whilst still walking, and investigate their contents.

      I have on me:
      • The passport thing
      • Some kind of crystal, consisting of rectengular shapes. It might be a key.
      • A small package with another credit card looking thing attached to it.


      A key? Oooooooh.
      I might have a spaceship!
      How awesome would that be? Yeah. I definitely have a spaceship.
      I put everything back into my pockets and check where I currently am.

      I find myself in front of hangar 4, which is of course a spaceship hangar.


      See what I did there?
      I solved 2 problems at the same time. I didn't just investigate the contents of my pockets.
      Before doing so, I started walking into a direction that took me away from where I previously was.
      Putting my focus on something else put my body into auto-pilot.
      You know, like when you're gaming with your friends late at night, and you quickly go downstairs to grab something to drink, but your thoughts are entirely focused on the game?
      Sometimes you find yourself back in front of your pc with a cold beverage, without really remembering the process of getting it. (Or maybe my gaming addiction is just out of control )
      You can abuse this in dreams if you want to go somewhere, but you don't know how to get there, or if you simply have no idea where to go.
      It can be tricky at first, because you can't stop thinking about it, but you'll quickly get a hang of it.
      In this case I got the idea of the key being for my spaceship mid-way. (Spaceships use ignition keys, just like cars right? *cough*)
      My body automatically walked me towards where this spaceship is, even though I did not know where it was.
      Somewhere deep within my thoughts I knew that I had gotten to this space station somehow.
      If the key indicates that I own a spaceship, then I would have arrived in this spaceship, and I would also remember where I parked it.
      Putting myself in "autopilot" I can walk to locations that make sense for me to know within the dream plot, even if I don't consciously know where they are.

      There's quite a few small spaceships in here.
      All sorts of contraptions, reaching from luxury boats to things that are close to falling apart.
      Is one of them mine? Which one is mine?
      I go deeper into the hangar to get a better view of all the ships and then I spot her.

      Yeah... there's no doubt whatsoever. That must be mine.
      She's reasonably sized, bigger than a jet fighter, but smaller than say the space shuttle orbiter.
      And she has... uh... let's say she has seen some better times?
      It seems like there used to be a layer of paint on it, but that's nearly peeled off entirely.
      There are many dents on the outer hull, surrounded by dark dust.
      Probably projectile impacts, judging by the consistent size and patterns.
      There's quite an abundant amount of scratches on it as well.
      And... is that a heat shield?
      Oh god...
      The heat shield is mostly pitch black, but you can clearly see in some spots that it is supposed to be a red / golden color.
      Might have had a few atmospheric re-entries at optimistic speeds...
      There are a few hull plates of inconsistent size that are clearly newer than the rest of the hull.
      A few patched up holes...?

      What a piece of shit...
      I absolutely love it!
      I wouldn't have it any other way. This is so me. This feels right.
      And compared to the other ships in this hangar it clearly has the largest engine to ship ratio!
      I get a bit of a Han Solo esque vibe.

      As I approach it a large chunk of the hull plating slides itself forward, revealing an airlock.
      A ramp extends just in time so I can get to it easily.
      The airlock opens automatically as I get close enough and closes behind me as I go through...


      Your sub-conscious has the unique ability of shaping your dreams in such a way that you can experience something beyond your expectations and your imagination.
      However, things will not always go according to plan, and may even seem unpleasant at first.
      But given enough lucid dreams you'll find out that you can find enjoyment, even in things that do not seem pleasant at first.
      The best example I have for this is pain.
      Obviously you wouldn't want to experience pain in your dreams right?
      I thought so for a long time, but I realized I was wrong after a rather epic fight, where I could feel every single cut and bruise on my body.
      It made the fight feel so much more real and important, it increased the experience as a whole.
      If you've ever played a pen&paper rpg, you probably know that it can be more interesting to play more of a "normal" character.
      You don't always need to be the hero with the best equipment, who is destined to save the world.
      In dreams there's joy to be found everywhere. It will find you, all you have to do is accept it.

      Survival
      I wasn't sure at first whether or not I should mention this, due to the toxic thoughts I wrote of earlier.
      But yeah, the whole persistent realm thing comes at a price: it is persistent.
      Well duh, of course it is.
      But in my case this means that my life is persistent as well.
      If I die in a persistent realm I can never go back to that realm.
      I've lost 2 of them due to death, and I tried getting back to one of them for quite a long time, but eventually I gave up.
      I guess it is better this way. It makes the other realms feel more valuable and my decisions more important.
      Regardless, I suggest that you value your life, should have similar persistent dreams.
      However, in order to progress in your dreams you will occasionally need to make a leap of faith.
      Make sure that you take them sparsely, and that intuition is on your side.

      Going back
      This is rather straightforward. I just teleport with the intention of going back to the realm.
      I do this as soon as I can after creating the realm (next stable lucid), so my thoughts about it are still fresh.
      I try to visit it as often as I can during the following days, so that everything settles in.
      Once I've gone there a few times my confidence is so high that I can't really imagine loosing the ability to resume the realm whenever
      I desire to do so.





      In case you want to try to do something similar to my persistent realms technique, here's a few suggestions:
      • You'll need a teleportation technique. As I mentioned earlier, creating is bad, going to is good. There's no need to copy my teleportation technique though. Any technique should work fine, use what you feel most comfortable with.
      • Don't actively try to find something that indicates that the realm "must be real". You cannot force the issue. The realization has to strike you unexpectedly. Having the correct state of mind in waking life, and simply intending to go to such a realm should be all you need to do.
        If the epiphany doesn't happen, just try again.
      • If something is completely off (DC's are retarded, something clearly violates the law of your realm...) just consider this attempt a failure, and try again next time. Never attempt to fix it using dream powers.
      • You need good dream recall with a good lucid rate so you can go back multiple times over the course over the next few days.
        You also need a high level of lucidity, so that you can quickly process complex thoughts properly.



      Anyways, that's more than enough text for a single entry.
      If you have any thoughts or questions about persistent realms and/or other techniques I use, by all means, post ahead.

      Updated 10-02-2012 at 09:38 PM by 37117

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      lucid , side notes
    3. i crossed the Golden Gate Bridge on water

      by , 10-02-2012 at 03:04 PM
      This dream is recorded in Fragments.

      1) I bought weed from someone and kept it in a small dental floss case. Susie/Dee Dee later entered the room and asked to search my bags for it, I let them and she found it. We talked and she said she would not tell anyone but she was clearly upset. I told her it had been a long time since i last smoked

      2) I was crossing the Golden Gate Bridge but it was a bridge made out of water. it was like a smoothe lake and i wondered "how do they build such flat water on the lake"

      3) when we crossed to the other side we some how ended up in the water. A bunch of people were in there and i fraked everyone out by saying "yes the Golden Gate Bridge is a famous great white shark breeding zone" then a man came by and sprayed some solution near the exit to the water which removed the 2nd hand ciggarette smoke the water so we were able to get out

      3) was with some old friends and kept wanting to do like a dog pile on em
    4. Dream incubation attempt 1# -Almost

      by , 10-02-2012 at 01:53 AM (Lucid Time!)
      I've started working on Sageous's WILD classes, and read a great wiki about dream incubation, and how it can be used with MILD or WILD to incubate a lucid dream. I'm now using that in conjunction with a mantra and RCs.

      I had to chose a location that was specific to my lucid dreams. I decided to use a beach, with palm trees. Because many of my first lucid dreams involved being on a beach, and it was where I first met my dream guide. I also thought that it offered many possibilities for a lucid dream.

      My actual dream from last night consisted of me and my friends swimming at some lake. It was not really a tropical or beach setting, but for my first night of attempting dream incubation, it was close enough.
      A bunch of friends from my school were there, and we were just sort of hanging around and playing in the water and stuff. It was not particularly interesting, but tonight I have the opportunity to go to bed much earlier.

      Updated 08-10-2014 at 03:21 PM by 53527

      Tags: classmates, lake
      Categories
      non-lucid , side notes
    5. problems recalling

      by , 10-01-2012 at 07:08 AM
      Ok well over the past few months I have been having horrible recall. I feel frustrated since all of my life I have had pretty good dream recall except a few years in my 20s . I have always been able to ld except for that time frame either. I also have always had insomnia
      This is my new annoyance I get to sleep I even know that I have been lucid. I wake up I lay down not moving recalling my dream so I can jump up and write it down then the oddest thing happens the second I move my head I lose all of it . I know i have been having dreams and even been lucid I know they revolve around my recurring dream places but I can not remember the actual dreams. I get lucky and sometimes get some fragments
      todays fragment was me telling someone my name was something like atlantis ? Why thats not my name and I knew I felt strongly about it and really wanted the guy to know my name.
      anyways I feel like I am not meant to remember my dreams right now or something
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      dream fragment , side notes
    6. Sat Sep 29

      by , 09-30-2012 at 01:34 AM (Glieuaeiel's DJ)
      No recall.

      [I just traveled back to school, and it might take a few days for my dream recall to adjust to the new setting. Also, that means classes are starting soon, and I'm probably going to have a lot less time to write these entries. I'll still try to update every day, even if I don't have enough time to write down all the details. Hold me to it! ]
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    7. I Found a Plausible Method

      by , 09-28-2012 at 07:14 PM
      After a lot of misses and less hits with DILDs, WILDS, EILD, Subliminal methods and everything that I could possibly throw at this every night, I finally found a method that seems to be working for me. I found out about this due to curiosity. At first I thought the first try was just luck but it seemed peculiar to me. But when I did this successfully 2 more times I found out that this simple method actually works! And it gave me more consistent hits then the DILD method alone.

      Basically what I did yesterday was I just went about my day and wasn't even thinking about Lucid Dreaming because I was in the stage where I nearly gave up because I was going at it so long. But during a visit from a friend I suddenly had a random thought about how my friend keeps being portrayed in my dreams. Then I thought to myself.... "I will have a LD tonight." and I did it while knowing that I would, with no doubt in my mind. Then I would push that aside and forget about it while going about the rest of my day.

      Sure enough, during a dream about Candy and awesome tasting cookies that were put left out on a living room table. And my NJROTC class (which seemed to much more like the military then a high school program.) I got mad at them because I wound up being the odd man out somehow. And I got in a verbal and almost physical argument with one of the higher ups. It seemed to me that a lot was at steak because we were in a parking garage complex and some kind of enemy was out there. After the argument I realized that I wasn't just the odd man out anymore, I now had to get out of there because I apparently did something worse. So I dashed out and I looked around my surroundings which were beautiful. It seemed to me that this was an entire base out in the middle of an awesome grassy field. The grass wasn't ridiculously long it was about as normal as my grass in the back yard. but the color green was more faded with the evening sky. The sun wasn't fully down yet. Suddenly the feeling of being in between awake and asleep came to me, it didn't hit me, it kind of faded in while I was running. Then I said to myself subconsciously, "there it is again! That feeling!" I stopped for a moment and thought, "Alright now I'm going to try running at sound speed!" I closed my eyes and I could feel myself running, (which was awesome!) but I couldn't feel that push or any speeding up. I opened my eyes again and sure enough I was going at normal pace. I thought that if I focused that I'd be able to. Then I consciously, and on purpose, tried to really do a Kamehameha wave, but all I got was a near black out because I really focused the crap out of it and pushed it. Then I thought to myself that I need to ground this dream more. So I ran over to the metal roof that was buried in the ground and that led to the other distant part of the base. It was an outside spot with all of this stuff. Basically I got the impression that this was a small refugee camp or something. I started to feel the metal and focus on it, but it was too much in a hurry because the sub thought conveniently came at the back of my mind that I'm going to lose control again. I could feel the metal on my hands which was a first because I never felt anything in my dreams like that before. I could feel the bumpy surface and everything, but I lost the control. Then some other random dreams followed.

      Despite the fact that I messed up. I didn't fail, this was a learning experience that helps me so much now. Now I know it was that feeling that I got when I would wind up in limbo after being knocked silly out of a dream. It was the same feeling from the first Lucid I ever had. I remember it, and I felt it, and now I know this method works! It simply uses the weapon that I'm using already during my waking life, I believe that there isn't anything that I can't do as long as I put my mind to it, failure only happens if I let it. It's because of this state of mind that I'm excelling in my college classes and my art work is looking the way it should, and the way I want it. This technique supports DILD and I think it may support others as well I don't know but I'll check as I continue fooling around with this one. BOO YEAH!!!
    8. First Successful DEILD

      by , 09-28-2012 at 03:24 PM (Fennecgirl's Collection of Dreams)
      (Wow, I haven't updated my DJ in a while! No, my recall hasn't been failing me; I've just been getting lazy with writing down my dreams. Oops!)

      I successfully DEILDed for the first time this morning!

      It was actually a complete accident. I wasn’t actually intending to DEILD until I started seeing vivid hypnagogic imagery and saw it as a good opportunity. I just focused on the HI and started describing what I saw in my mind - at first, just to myself, but I guess I shifted to narrating to my subconscious at some point; at one point, I addressed my subconscious as “you guys”, only to realize what I’d just said, apologize, and say, “Well, the one or many of you.”

      I soon started to become aware of where I was, but I wasn’t dreaming yet. It was more like vivid wonderland visualization during an active forcing session; I couldn’t physically see a thing, but I was well aware of where I (and everything else) was. The place I was was just this random field that I drive past fairly frequently IWL. After not too long, I crossed the road and realized I could actually see properly and must have entered the dream. In addition to the road, I saw that there was now an additional road branching off from it. I somehow knew that this road must lead to my subconscious. A couple cars did go that way; they must have been driven by dream guides/part of my subconscious.

      I noticed a box on the ground. It was a cardboard box (like a package something would be delivered in) addressed to me. I knew it was from my subconscious. Before opening it, I decided I should stabilize by doing an RC. I counted my fingers but ended up counting only five on each hand (strange, that RC almost never fails me), but I still knew I was dreaming, as I’d consciously made the transition to the dream state. I picked up the box again anyway and saw that it was now addressed to my brother (accidental text RC much?). I knew it was still really for me (as it was in my dream), so I decided to open it anyway.

      Before I even had a chance to open it, everything went black, and I realized I was awake. Disappointed, I opened my eyes and got up. I’m definitely going to try to go back there, though; I have to follow that subconscious road!

      (EDIT: Whoa, ignore the wonderland/forcing thing if you have no idea what I'm talking about. I copied this straight from my tumblr and forgot to remove that part, oops!)

      Updated 09-28-2012 at 08:16 PM by 56426

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      lucid , memorable , side notes
    9. 9-14-12

      by , 09-28-2012 at 03:19 AM
      Did not remember dream
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    10. Thoughts.

      by , 09-26-2012 at 07:43 AM
      I just woke up from having a nap, and I vividly remember some parts of the dream I had. The most confusing for me was that I dreamed a man wanted to rape me... but I ended up being willing and enjoying it and lying to my fiance about it by telling him I was raped. The man was very good looking, not violent or sadistic and was quite well endowed. I'm not sure what all of this means in the least, I just wanted to get it down before the memory dissipated.

      For now, my only idea is that maybe it is representing the things I am missing in my life?
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      non-lucid , side notes
    11. Hotel

      by , 09-26-2012 at 04:16 AM
      This is my very first lucid dream that I can remember. Here is how it goes:
      I was walking around outside in complete daylight, everything seemed nice and I kept looking at my feet while walking towards a tree that was right outside of my dogs fence, (it's not really there in reality.)
      I stopped half way to the tree when I spotted a HUGE anaconda,
      this instantly made me lucid. Snakes are a big sign that I'm dreaming, because they are frequently in them. Whenever I see or think about snakes I do a reality check, this way whenever I have a dream with snakes in it I will (hopefully) pinch my nose.
      Anyways, I started looking around and then I suddenly fell down, and the dream scape then changed. I woke up on a couch in a hotel, I pinched my nose and I felt how I was still breathing and then I knew once again that I was dreaming. (Hehe, I made a rhyme... Well, I think I did)
      I looked around and saw my parents sitting on another couch, they were talking. I focused on trying to make the whole dream clearer, so I shouted things such as "clarity now!" and "vividness now!", but it did not work very well, so I went up to my mother, who was eating something, and I said "show me unconditional love!" (it was all I could think of.)
      She took me in her arms and said: "Darling stop talking nonsense."
      I laughed, because I was in shock at how the hug felt exactly how it would feel in reality, yet the dream was still not very vivid.
      I then did a foolish thing. Since this was a DILD I guess I was still not in my right mind...
      I looked at my mother, and father, and told them that I wanted to wake up now, so that I could tell my friends/family.
      My mom grabbed my shoulder gently, and said "whatever you want sweetheart."
      I thought that she was going to wake me up, but I was wrong, I had to to it myself, so I closed my eyes tightly and opened them really fast,
      and I awakened on my bed. I was in misery, I mean, I just let a perfectly fine lucid dream go to waste... Shame on me.
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      lucid , non-lucid , memorable , side notes
    12. A Study in Sleep Paralysis

      by , 09-25-2012 at 05:02 PM (The Lab Notebook)
      Awake/SP, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

      I'm in an elaborate, fantasy landscape. I fall over the side of a cliff and start falling down the side of a mountain, which has terraces in it and lots of trees, but the trees are all growing out of the side of the mountain. As I fall, I think, I could expect there to be a soft, grassy field below me for me to land on, and there would be one. I try to do exactly that, but it doesn't work. Eventually, I remember that I can fly, and fly back up to the top of the cliff/mountain.

      [That's all I can remember now of an awesome, detailed, elaborate lucid dream that was remarkably long for my first sleep cycle of the night. I was really, really determined to have a lucid dream last night, and my determination and MILDing worked. I also remember choosing to stay in and prolong the dream at least twice, but I don't remember any more details. I really should have taken a moment to write them down in my paper dream journal after I woke up.]

      [Later, different part of the night.] I feel, more clearly and with more awareness than I ever have before, all my major muscles transitioning into their paralyzed state. After a moment, a dream begins to form. Some Viking-warrior-looking guys who look like they came straight out of a movie by Aardman Animations are standing over me, watching me wake up. We're all in a big wooden hall. The dream is very weak, fuzzy, and indistinct, though, and although I try to focus on it, it fades away before I can get into it fully. This can be partially blamed on the fact that I'm completely fascinated by the experience I've just had, and this novel feeling of being “stuck” in my sleeping body while still being consciously aware.

      Welcome to SP, I think. That wasn't so bad, was it? I lie still and observe the experience. Although I'm conscious, in a way I never am in waking life, of my breathing happening automatically, I feel like I'm not getting enough air. I realize that that's because I have my forearms crossed over my chest so that their dead weight is resting right on top of my ribcage. I can feel my left-hand fingertips touching the skin of my right arm, but I feel removed from the sensation. I hope for another dream to start, but it doesn't. I attempt to visualize a scene, but it's a very halfhearted effort and doesn't go anywhere. Also, I have my head tilted to my right at an awkward angle, which makes me think, I'm going to feel that in the morning. After a few minutes, I get bored and decide to get up and use the restroom. I have no problem getting back to normal wakefulness.


      Side notes:
      I've always been afraid to try WILDing because I'd never experienced sleep paralysis, and I was afraid that I might experience hypnagogic hallucinations or sensations that would frighten me. This was the first time I'd ever really experienced SP. It was cool and weird, but not frightening at all, and I didn't experience any hypnagogic hallucinations. Getting over your fear of something is always nice.
    13. NOTE: Now working on Ninja9578's 2nd Subliminal Audio

      by , 09-25-2012 at 12:58 PM (The Dream Magic Experiment)
      Although I haven't written anything here for quite some time, I still maintain my dream journal offline. I will upload them once I find time.

      Meanwhile, I moved on from Ninja9578's Subliminal Audio 1 to Lotus Flame by LaBerge. Seems neither of them was very helpful. I was also experimenting with Mugwort, but not full time. I tried burning a few, but the coal was not lighting up properly. Although I did have some almost-lucid dreams, nothing was very definite.

      Today, I moved on to Ninja's Subliminal Audio 2. I played it all night long while I was working. The result was very promising. I became aware in the middle of an interesting dream. That was my first lucid dream for quite some time, where I really decided to confront an opponent. I have an almost-lucid dream yesterday (or a few days back, I think), but it felt more like being in a drunk-dream.

      I will post them soon.
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    14. Aston Martin becomes Alfa Romeo and a crowd of children

      by , 09-24-2012 at 08:48 PM (My little adventures in dreamlands!)
      Firstly this dream happened yesterday 2012-09-23. And as always sorry for bad English.

      I was driving with my orange Aston Martin Vantage and I followed every GPS order. I arrived to a camp and started to walk to wooden house with huge metal door. I entered. There was a room with white walls and black floor. In middle of the room there was a huge king sized bed with huge pillows. In a corner of the room was a small bed and a computer on a desk.
      I sat down on the king sized bed and a girl entered through metal door.She had long brown hair and she was wearing a blue tank top and white shorts. She looked shy but she laughed silently. She came close to me and hugged me. I gently kissed that girl. *It felt real*
      Suddenly a guy with a huge boombox entered room. I and the girl got scared but we recognized him and we started to laugh. The dude went to small bed in the corner of the room and lied down. I left the room.
      There was a lot of people in yard of the wooden building. My Aston Martin Vantage changed to Aston Martin DBS and in a second it got back to original form. I came close to my car and entered it. I started the engine and I took it for a spin. Then I got back and left my car I heard a glass getting smashed. It was my car window. I said: My insurance will pay every penny of this window so I don't care who threw a rock in my expensive car. I turned around to my car and my car changed to a white Alfa Romeo 147. *I wasn't pissed at all. My 200k $ car changed to a car that costs almost the same as a new high-end computer so yeah it didn't looked strange for me*
      A ball fell near me. I took it and I saw a crowd of teenagers playing dodgeball (or whatever that game calls). All of people were running including me from a few ball throwing muscular mans. A guy with red hair stopped me and started to talk to me i did not knew this boy so I didn't listen to what he said to me. I started to run near a fence and some teenagers followed me. I suddenly stopped. I saw a very huge crowd of little children that were wearing the same yellow hat and t-shirt. I heard: Run Kissalot run! *Sir Kissalot is my nickname in online games so yeah they were shouting at me* I ran. And the dream faded away.
    15. 9/24/2012 - Analysis

      by , 09-24-2012 at 04:23 PM (The Medium)
      Okay, so I have gotten to the point where I can dedicate a night or two and be able to have good recall. The past few nights however, I have stayed up too late. ( Mostly alpha testing a video game set to launch open beta on 12/12/2012.) Yesterday I recalled a couple dreams, but had to hurry to work and failed to write anything down. D'oh! The next month, my main goal is to increase my awareness during the day while doing more reality checks. Hopefully it will become habit.
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