side notes

Since I haven't recalled any dreams in over a month, because I'm too lazy, I just made a vlog on two dreams I had months ago.



Note: I do not love Denver, and my voice is a bit too high, probably because of the recording. Bleh.

These are the side notes for this dream I had.

So I guess I should preface this with 80% of my nightmares have taken place in my apartment.
The other 20% percent mostly includes zombie apocalypses (still think that should be apocali) and the odd gangster who tries to rob me or something.
I've always wondered why that is, I mean to be fair a lot of my dreams in general take place there but it still came off as odd.
So after I woke up from that last dream what did I think?
This "Quarantine Zone", houses my knightmares, and The Organization is a sect of my subconscious trying to suppress them.
This starts to make more and more sense the more I think about it.
There have been multiple times recently when an nightmare should have appeared because of my expectations, but it didn't.
This seemed odd to me, but I now understand that it was because my knightmares couldn't physically get to me.
I think that maybe, for whatever reason, when a knightmare comes into existence, it appears at my apartment, and either I'm already there, or it has to make it's way to me, which wouldn't me too hard considering they could probably take advantage of inconsistent spatial dimensions in dreams.
In case that last statement has you for a loss, dreams, for the most part, don't have consistent spatial dimensions, as in there is no actual "map" of where ever you are in a dream.
That's why you can walk into a room and have it be bigger on the inside than it appears to be on the outside, there are inconsistencies.
I'm guessing that knightmares can take advantage of that in order to get to me after they appear at my apartment.
However, that was how things used to be.
Now "The Organization" has them quarantined inside the building, which means they can no longer reach me, unless of course they some how breach it.
The Quarantine Zone is another example of ISD.
Were you to just look around the regular parts of the building you probably wouldn't find any entrance to the zone.
That's because the whole zone itself exists in an inconsistent space in the building, meaning it's probably pretty difficult to find.
Now I know what you may be thinking, I know the thought crossed my mind.
Maybe this was just a one off dream? Yeah maybe, however there was a bit of consistency with one of my previous dreams previously that kind of made me wonder.
You know how she was referring to "Zone" 1 and "Zone" 2 all the time?
I assumed that that was what you'd call an outbreak, "Zone" followed by a number.
So were a knightmare were to breach quarantine now, the event would be called a "Zone" 2, something that almost happened that night.
But what about "Zone" 1? She was clearly referring to a previous outbreak.
Well the last knightmare I saw was about a week or so previously, and guess where it took place?
The knightmare was a large mound with fur from it. It sprouted about 80 or so eye stalks from its body.
However he wasn't the real problem, he would release spores and infect things, turning them into half corpse half serpent type things.
When I was running away from it and left the building, I remember a bunch of people were rushing over inside the building, as well as giant iron bars coming down and closing off all the exists.
I remember thinking that the bars were to keep the thing in, and that the people were there to take care of it.
I believe this incident was the "Zone" 1 that she was referring to.
As for why she said "In trying to prevent another [outbreak] you almost caused [an outbreak]", I'm guessing that is a bit self explanatory.
What isn't was exactly what kind of measures they were putting in to prevent another outbreak that almost caused one, that remains a mystery.
I should also comment on the fact that the bloody zombie virus is held in the quarantine zone as well.
I guess because the virus is, well, microscopic, it is much easier for it to break quarantine, which is why zombie apocalypse dreams are more frequent (just a guess, dreams don't have to be consistent after all).
I actually have had quite a few zombie apocalypse dreams inside or around the apartment.
One more thing, I'm not exactly sure when this quarantine was established.
It had to be recent though, since this whole lack of knightmares thing hasn't really been a thing until maybe a month or so ago.
So I'm not sure at one point my knightmares became rampant in my apartment building to the point where my subconscious suppressed them, or "quarantined" them.
I also still don't know why my knightmares all appear at that old apartment building, who knows why?
The next time I become lucid I plan on looking into this whole thing further, try to see what exactly this organization is.
Do they know they're in a dream? That last woman seemed to not, but she did understand the strangeness of the dream world, something I've never seen a DC do.
Maybe one day I'll go into The Quarantine Zone and take a look for myself.
For now I certainly know, where my knightmares come from.

I don't know what triggered the stream of, DAYS in a row, of lucid dreaming that happened every night for probably 4 days in a row. Rereading the info found here about WBTB, thats probably the state I was in, sleeping in the cold, on the floor, unable to really rest, so I kept waking and drifting off....back to back all night. But, you know what? When I was asleep in my dreams, I felt SO rested! I was energized, alive, and it was so real I even saw things in some strange 3-D, just like it was really happening.

I don't know the dates of these dreams, but I can narrow them down to the week of February 7-14.

Everything from me and Adam having wild sex in a public place, to having a dream of eating with chopsticks, to FLYING - its been YEARS since I had a flying dream. I was dipping and swooping and diving, in a spin, and enjoying the freedom.

Due to 1)not being online at the time, and 2)being worried about just surviving day to day and where we would lay our heads the next night for 6 weeks, coming here to tell others about it was the last thing on my mind. I have missed this place....

Tue, 2/19/13

Went to bed at 5:15am. Had to work late. Didn't fall asleep until 6am. Was vibrating like crazy just minutes after laying down.
Woke up at 9:40am. I'm hoping for a lucid nap today.

I was about to transition into a WILD, but someone wanted to get a little frisky with me

Too much work, too little sleep, no recall.

The truth is, I'd remember some stuff right when I woke up, but I had to get ready for work so I forgot.

I had i strange time with dreams last night, probably because i was dead tired,
anyway here is the story.

Lucid

Side notes

When i became lucid (I dont remember anything prior) I was running through the woods, running real fast,
after a little bit I came to a opening to the woods, it was a dip in the woods and there was a cave so i ran inside there was a set of obstacles, all of which consisted of jumping on pillars.
After about 2 sets of pillars there was a opening, inside there was a hut with a cottage, it had Kaira's symbol on the side so i think it was my perception of the Dream Army HQ, after that it faded to black and i woke up.


That's about it i don't remember much if anything else.

I (dream-awaken) almost instantly in a small cluttered room. I'm upside down with my head laying on the ground looking up at the ceiling with my back half-off a couch and my legs partly resting on the top of the couch. Almost as if you were attempting to sit upside-down on a couch in your living room. I was instantly aware I was dreaming and thought to myself 'I'm here'. I quickly got up and then reminded myself to rub my hands together which I did. The room had odd angles at each corner as if some walls were larger than others. There were many shelves of useless nick-nacks and books. The walls were a sort of cartoon orange and the objects all very brightly colored as well. After examining the room I decided to should do something and thought about fact that I didn't see a door and there seemed no way to get outside. As I turned there appeared an odd shaped window, again with the perspective and angles all distorted. I decided that I should try to go outside and I floated or walked through the open window to an outside alley. I was still worried about the dream fading and in fact a few times things had gone black and as I briskly continued to rub my hands together they would come back into focus and then fade again at times. I think sometimes in the dreamworld if you are not actively doing anything the mind starts to erase the scenery. The more I move around or intensely experience something the easier it is to keep everything from fading out. I'm still rubbing my hands together and I start to wonder if I'm doing this in bed as well as they actually start to feel very hot and raw. I decide I should move and so I run down the alley and think about floating off the ground and with that I'm flying swiftly upwards to about 40 feet. I fly for a few minutes down narrow alleyways of some sort of town. At some point I see three kids walking down the alley and I think I know them from another dream. I fly down quickly and while still levitating I playfully mess up the hair of two of them with my dream hands and laugh telling them I have seen them before. Things start fading hard at this point and I cannot stabilize it any longer. It fades to black and I am awake in bed now.

2/14/13 Thursday Bed 12am - 7:50am

*Did something have not done in a while - sat on a bed beforegoing to sleep and repeated "looking at hands(feet)/counting" RC and matra. Also as falling asleep.

Took 50mgs of B6 around 4pm.

Had a drink of water before bed and each time I woke up.

DR1 - 2:35am
I'm modding with CL. Replying to a thread.

DR2-5 - 6:21am
- Someone prints a picture and staples it on a t-shirt while a guy is wearing it.
- Taking a shortcut somewhere through 15 icecaves inside volcano Etna
- Tiny white worm bites a hole in my arm
- Going to movies with 2 groups of friends

FAs - 7:50 am - got lucid in all of them
Don't remember all, how I got lucid, but I know I counted my fingers. Tried to yell a few times "stabilize", but all came out is whispers. Have to practice yelling again IWL.

1. - I'm with 2 kids on a bed, watching TV. I realize I can see it through my closed eyes and I figure, this is perfect time to test it. So I describe what I see and boy comfirms each time. I feel a little bite on my right arm. Like small mouth. (gotta check next time, maybe it's my cat). I count my fingers, more than 5, I already suspected because of TV, get lucid.

2. - I'm approaching a field of grass with white standing and toppled over greek columns. Someone points out an older building, with anti-aircraft gun on it's red shingled roof, that fortified with sand bags. I'm thinking Rome, WW2. I'm climbing on the columns, trying to fly, at least get high enough to fly from there.

3. - I'm walking through an office building, where I used to work (not in WL). My old boss comes out the door and we almost collide. he is surprised to see me and makes a face, thinking I'm there to ask for a job. But I'm not. I walk outside, my dress pants draped over my arm, when I count my fingers. Get lucid, throw the pant on a bush. I see a absolutely huge tree with no leaves on it. It's full of cookoo-clocks, though. It's beautiful.

4. - I just woke up in my childhood bed. The hallway is dark, but I see a silhuette of my mom. She is getting ready to go for work. I get lucid, get on my balcony, about to jump, when I sit on an edge and count fingers and pinch nose for a good measure. Then I jump. It's hard to fly.

5. - I get out of the window and i'm flying over snowy street in NZ. I think it's OBE, because they have snow right now IWL. I try to follow some people on a street. Then I see the moon on daytime skys. I say that's where I'm going today. But can't fly.

6. - I'm giving a kid a shower to get him ready for school. Not sure which bottle is shampoo.

7. - I volunteer myself to be in a porn movie. I'm accepted on the spot and I'm shown my "stage".

8. - I'm in a futuristic town with huge buses and huge buildings. I'm climbing on top of a bus and on a next even toller bus and so on, because I wanna fly but can't.

*I think I gotta get over this urge to fly. I'm missing out on so much 'ground exploration' while I desperatly look for a place to take flight from. I could be walking around having fun.


It all happened way too fast, but it was incredible. Thank you, can I please have another one.

2/13/13 bed 12am-8am

Not a very good recall. Didn't drink water to wake me up as I used to do. house in a canyon, I'm moving, or coming. Sucks.

The trouble with waking up after a DILD, then going back to sleep for hours without journaling, is that when it's time to sit down and write this all down, I've forgotten alot. I even forgot the details on how I got lucid, so annoying. But I'll put down what I can recall.

My usual 7am ish WBTB. Took me a while to get back to sleep. I kept drifting off and waking up from dreamless sleep for what felt like an hour or more. I do remember some HI with me walking down a hall and stopping to talk with a woman. I think a dream formed around that scene, because I remember feeling like I was actually in that hallway, instead of just kinda thinking about it while in that HI state. I opened my mouth to speak, then I thought to myself "Hey, I was just trying to fall asleep not moments ago, I'm dreaming!" So I instantly thought of the cupid task.

I'm not sure how much time or events went by before I bumped into the DC version of the bakery assistant manager, Brian. I've always gotten along really well with him in real life. When I saw him in the dream, he said he was going to help me achieve the TOTM. (Interesting side note: While in this dream, I believed that in real life, Brian and I had had a conversation about using him as a DG in my next LD, as long as I don't do anything sexual with him. I believe this idea came from me reading a member's journal where a DC version of his mom helped him not wake up during the clock task. Anyway, this conversation with Brian had actually occurred in a nonlucid I had prior to this DILD, but I didn't realize this fully until I had woken up. Weird ja?!)

So DC Brian offers me his arm so that I can accompany him while we accomplish this task. I said, "Man, I'm so glad that you're here! I want you to be my DG from now on. I can't wait to tell your real life counterpart that his idea worked!" And DC Brian nodded and said "Yeah, that'll be cool!" DC Brian is the best DC ever! No biting, and he didn't explode even though he fully understood that he's just a DC.

Anyway, we're still wandering around halls in some building, and he tells me to turn right into a classroom. There was a hot guy in there. Brian asked me, "Do you want him?" I said "Hell yeaaaaah! I just need to find cupid to shoot the arrow." Then he said "Turn around and look behind you," (a la CanisLucidus style, I thought to myself). There was a doofy looking kid sitting on his mother's lap in a chair. No wings though, and no bow and arrow. Pfffft. "Oh well," he said. He gave me his arm again, and we wandered off to have more adventures. I didn't mind the task failure so much, because now I had a dream buddy. Never had one before, I always went at everything alone without any help.

We ended up in the basement of the building, and a thought occurred to me: "Hey Brian, sometimes a wolf named Shadow visits my LDs, I'll see if I can call him." I called the name, and 3 different dogs appeared before the fluffy, yellow-eyed Shadow appeared. Me and Brian pet him for a while I think. Then I thought I'd show off even more and show him that I can fly. "Hey Brian, wanna see me fly? Brian?" I couldn't see him anymore, but he still answered me. "I'm outside." So I went out the door, and there were other people there, but no Brian. I kept calling him, and he'd say "I'm right over here." Some of the people would even point to where he was, but I just couldn't see him anymore. Oh well, so I flew a bit for the other people. One of them said, "I'm only impressed when you guys fly up into the clouds, like Superman." But I don't like going that high up, too scary haha. Then I saw some snow and played in it a while, and covered myself up in it, before I finally woke up.

I do remember thinking a few times in that dream, "Wow, I've been lucid for a while." It was a really clear and vivid LD too overall. Not bad for a DILD. I'm still having a hell of a time conjuring characters. Animals I can do, but people? Hrmmm.. something to work on.

I'll post the train story later, I've been typing for like an hour and I got other stuff to do.

Typical of recent dreams, I don't recall how the dream started. I do recall a memory of earlier events..

Fragment #1: I was parked in the driveway of a house down the block and around the corner from my house. I have never been inside this house in waking life, or given it a second thought. I was mentally reviewing items I had packed into a bag for a trip. A trip to what I thought of as the "Lake House" -I recall my GF was going with me, and I wasn't sure how I felt about it. She was not in the dream directly. I sat there in my car, making a mental inventory of all the items I packed. [There are additional elements of this dream I won't be posting.]

Fragment #2: My garage was flooding with at least 6-inches of clear aqua colored water. I was trying to get something out of the trunk of the car that was (strangely) parked there. Suddenly this Mallard Duck comes gliding across the water towards me. He tries nipping at my fingers. I thought, "This is what I get for feeding the ducks." I apparently had done so earlier in this dream. -I don't feed ducks in waking life.

Both fragments include memories of larger dreams. These could be false memories, but it's equally possible that I did recall the start of those dreams while I was dreaming. I do have dreams about lake houses from time to time, but I don't recall any dream in which I was packing for the trip.

I'm at the stage where I don't recall dreams unless I sleep for 10-hours. I rarely sleep for more than 7-hours, so basically I don't remember any full length dreams whatsoever these days. I have recalled a few odd fragments. One dream that was annoying to the point that I wanted to forget it, and I did. There have been a few vague recalls of epic locations, but lost due to multiple morning alarms going off for work.

I've decided to (finally) ((again)) make the effort to post in here daily. No matter if lucid or not, if I remember any dreams or not. Especially now that I'm going to be working more (aka sleeping less), my recall is going to need the extra boost of me journaling any and everything in here.

Soooo, *cracks knuckles*.. all I remember from this morning was some HI as I was snoozing between alarms. I was thinking about that movie Underworld, where Lucien gets shot with that silver nitrate bullet. I remember thinking, that will all that technology, they should have been able to create some kind of compound that could have been injected into his veins, that would bind with the silver nitrate, thereby saving his life. As I was trying to remember from my chemistry days in college, if -ate was the suffix for acid, and thinking that you'd have to inject an alkali to bind with the acid, and that meant a salt would be one of the products, would the salt create a hypertonic solution in his blood, whereby causing the red blood cells to shrivel, killing him anyway. Then something COMPLETELY unrelated and senseless took over in my mind, but I forgot what it was. It was the beginnings of some HI but my alarm tore me out of it.

More tomorrow

2/9/13 Bed 11:30pm. Didn't fall asleep until past 1am. Bad recall. Had to work late and had lots of coffee. It will be better tonight.

I catch glimpses of the faces of those around me as I move through the hallways. Sadness, happiness, apathy. Mostly indifference. The faces of those simply cycling through the motions of life. No soul, no purpose. Am I any different?

Out the corner of my eye I catch sight of a face. That girl. I know her. But from where? The face is uncanny. Green glasses, strawberry blonde hair. Who is this?

She looks at me. A smile.

The motions of life continue. Hours go by. I move through these hallways unaware of where they lead. One of the crowd. Destinationless. Faceless. Then I see her again.

In that moment we remember everything. The life we've known each other, the memories we've shared. The lives we've descended on through the wheel of time. The cycle of Samsara experienced over and over and over again. Tears flow from our eyes.

"How could I ever forget you?" she says.

Reality sheds its skin before our eyes and we gaze upon the vast and beautiful jungle before us. The immense garden of beauty, one only to be found within the collective dreams of all mankind. We dangle from the branches of trees. Two serpents. Entwined in an act of ethereal love, one with the phantasmagorical sights surrounding us. My rich blue body glide across the deep purple scales of hers to produce a radiant swirl of colorful energy, spiraling outward from the center of our entanglement. Our bond is electrifying.

This is life. This is truth. This is where we are and always have been. This is real.

______

I awake and dust of the crust from my eyes. Back in this reality.. How unfortunate. What the hell just happened? Who was that girl? I pick up my phone to text D about the dream that just occurred - a morning tradition. I speak of the girl, the snakes, the forest - the total experience.

".. she kind of reminded me of you, actually, but healthier and with more vitality," I tell her

"I had strawberry blonde hair and wore green glasses back in about 2008, before my health problems. That would be amazing if that was me."

And then it clicks. Was that her? Have we shared previous lifetimes together? The bond we share and the synchronicities we've experienced are already extraordinary on their own. Is this possible? There may never be a way to find out the truth. This life we live in is a mysterious one. This reality - is it but a single world, or is this but one of many?