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Dream 1
I was having problems with my school funding and the financial people were saying that I did not have enough money to cover my tuition. For some reason I was running and trying to figure out a way to scrounge up some money.

Dream 2
We landed in a pilgrim settlement that looked like something that would be built by ewoks. It was dark and the lighting was poor. There was swam-like parts. The settlers were coming after us so we ran. I think they had guns.

-Side note-
-||||My clarity and awareness were really murky I think its because I have been eating food too close to bedtime. I am going to try to not eat past 6-7pm to see what it does for my recall and clarity. |||||-

Last night i dreamed 1st of taking some girl under my wing. I cant remember what was wrong with her, but something was up. Then she started coming on to me and it made me very uncomfortable. I pushed her away and she started taking off her clothes and had something written on her stomach. I told her to stop, and then the dream shifted to a zombie dream. I was in a bar and there was a fire breathing dragon zombie. (yeah, if you ever see one of those, you are pretty much effed) i was unloading machine gun rounds into it and finally it died. Then there was a group of swat members trying to execute everyone. I dove under the bar and found $121.00 sitting under it. then, it became quiet in the building, I remember shooting a few zombies here and there, but much more quiet than before. Then, for whatever reason, i realized i needed to get out of there and find shelter in the woods somewhere. I climbing down behind main street in my town, it was dark, and i saw some people taking pictures and listening to music. I tried to hide from them, but they saw me so i just went with it; keeping my distance and moving to another building across the alley. When i entered i found my friend J.P. He was all decked out and handed me a snub nosed pistol. We started movong through the building killing a mix of zombies and swat. I remember thinking " man, i sure do have alot of bullets." Then, we saw the "boss" or whatever. He came through and, of course, now i was out of bullets. He hit me and JP with a metal pipe knocking us out, and i woke up. I was almost lucid a couple of times through this adventure

As I've just started a Dream Journal, I want to log my older dreams/nightmares that have stuck with me for years. Some I can remember full blast, others just fragments. I thought I'd log my old dreams in one post before I start logging my new dreams so I can start looking for patterns and dream signs.

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I'm walking down a very wide forest path with who was my best friend at the time. The trees either side are very tall but look brown and withered. As we're walking down, there is a red light moving with us beyond the trees. Eventually we come to a small white building that looks like a factory. A tall lady in a long black coat comes out and offers us some red lipstick. My friend takes it and puts it on although I tell her not to, and she dies.

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This dream was completely in black and white. In this dream I was quite young and in the middle of my grandparents, holding both their hands. We are walking down a path on a residential street, and it is very misty. There is a bus up ahead that we need to catch. We stop to cross the road, but my Grandparents go on ahead and leave me stood there. I can't move my legs to catch up with them, and they get on the bus and it drives away.

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I'm sat in my living room with my grandparents at night. The sky is pitch black, and I see one single white firework in the sky. The TV comes on on its own, and it's the news. The presenter says that there is an urgent broadcast, and the screen fills with the face of a scruffy balding man with lots of stubble and dark eyes. He says that he is going to kill all the children. There was more to this perhaps including a death-threat letter and a helicopter but I don't remember that clearly.

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Me and my Nan are walking to my Auntie's house. We get stuck on the side of the road and decide to take a shortcut. The shortcut is blocked by trees, and we ask someone the way and he points us back up the road. I remember waking up from this one and thinking that it had really happened.

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I fought Voldemort. I remember being in an oddly shaped room with lots of dark dementor-like manequins. I think I won.

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I was at a party, and a lot of my friends were there. My boyfriend was dancing and didn't seem to notice me. One of my friends comes up to me and says we need to be at a different event. We run together through this building, until we come to a place with very high ceilings and the walls look like they're made of stone. We're allowed in once our names our checked off and we sit either side of an older lady who gives us menus. We have to say what we want then go and serve ourselves, which I thought was strange because it was such a posh place. I asked for the soup and was told there wasn't any, but I went up to the table to try anyway. The table had some machines and some warm silver trays used to keep food warm, with beans and random things in them. I grab a cup and put it under the tap in one of the machines, and pull the lever expecting soup, but it's just hot water. I pour it away. I 'woke up' from this one with a false awakening.

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I have a recurring dream that I can't quite remember at the moment because I haven't had it for some time, but when it happens I'm about half aware that I'm dreaming. It's like I'm in a complex, almost a shopping centre or building, and something always happens there that scares me in some way.

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I'm at school and I think I've just come out of class. I'm walking down the empty corridor and there is a boy stood a little further down. (My school was an all girls school though). In my dream, I know this boy is my boyfriend. I smile and start to walk up to him, but a man with a gun runs in and shoots him. I scream and hide behind the lockers and the man runs away. I run up to my 'boyfriend' and hold onto him as he dies. I wake up crying.

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When I was quite young I used to have a recurring dream that I was flying down the stairs. Items would be flying down with me sometimes. I could also make myself fly short distances, which was usually across my living room. The height would vary and I'd have to try quite hard to keep the height and distance going. As I was quite young and this was lucid, I would think that I'd actually done it.

In the same vein but in a seperate dream, I was in a sort of formula 1 type car, driving up a huge square, 3D kind of ramp, and came out at the top, flying in my car over my junior school hall, waving at my classmates below.

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I texted a friend asking her if she wanted to do something that day, and she replied very shortly and seemed annoyed at me. When I actually talked to her that day, she told me she'd had a dream the same night that we'd fallen out.

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I had a really great dream one night that I was in this sort of alternate cartoon type place. Basically, there was a massive sort of termite nest, I could see a big circle of light at the top and the inside walls were the sandy colour of earth. Inside, were lots of different shaped sort of houses or nests, some were completely round with holes in the middle, others had chimneys and they were all different brilliant colours. They were all connected by a web-like rope to get between them all. I made friends with a giant, friendly cartoonish female spider that lived there and she showed me around.

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One I vaguely remember is having to save either dolphins or seals or something. I don't remember a lot of it, but the part I remember clearly is standing under the wing of a plane with an older lady in a wheelchair and a younger lady who was part of this save-sea-creatures thing.

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Running away from a man down a path on a street near where I live, but not being able to move fast enough. The man never caught up with me although I could hardly move my arms or legs. I think I had some kind of awareness in this dream as I remember the fear and the strength I was trying to use to move.

I was in the middle of a dream when I heard a loud BANG, literally next to my ear as if someone slammed a door. Which is odd, because my appartment only has 2 swinging doors: my front door into the corridor, and my bedroom door. The rest are sliding doors that don't go *bang*. I don't even have a wardrobe, just shelves where my clothes live.

I calmed myself down, and started hallucinating (I hallucinate outside of SP as well as in SP) and heard a little girl say "HEY!" in a cheerfully excited tone. I even smiled at this, it was so cute. I heard another little bang (from my boiler) and in a flash I saw a grey decayed wall, like a ruin.

I felt the pre-SP vibrations and started to hear stuff, so I thought "Nope, not going into HH." so I said NO out loud and rolled over to my left side.

Went into SP anyway, of course, lol, while lying on my side. 2 waves of vibrations later, I woke up in the dream Again, I didn't bother RCing. ..had I read Matte's new competition rules, I'd have done it, because it would have given me points XD

I've been having these awful nightmares for the last two weeks or so and they went from bad to worse. At first it was just language like symbol pattern that clouded my subconscious like a thick fog. On the other side were terrifying images of demons attacking and feeding on my closest of friends.
I also saw a girl I knew that killed herself five years ago for unknown reasons. In the nightmare I saw her, only she looked like she had still been aging as thought she hadn't died. She has blood around her mouth and pooling from her eyes. She kept saying something in a possessed voice. Something that sounded like a warning.
That was a week ago...
Since then I've been seeing her sitting or standing just at the corner of my vision. Just after I would look to where she was, she would disappear. The moment I lost sight of her I would get an intense migraine and see the symbols and her her voice is that haunting voice.
Just yesterday I glanced at my desk chair and thought I saw someone sitting in it. When I looked again I saw Her. She was shivering and held my knife that was sitting next to my bed. She unsheathed it and just as I was forming the words "Don't do it!" she slices a large cut in her neck.
Then I heard her voice, this time in English as she vanishes. Her voice sounds like a sweet whisper in my ears. "Don't stop the fight. Just keep your friends few and close. Be prepared for the coming year."
Just after the voice stopped I felt a searing pain in my head and I blacked out for about two hours.
I think I know what she's talking about "be prepared." I'm not sure I should post what I think she means, but I will be doing some research of my own. That might include... let's just say it ain't gonna be pretty if my theory IS correct. I pray to God that I'm dead wrong. Time will tell.

Colors of text and what they mean:
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(These were inspired by KingYoshi's DJ entries)

Dream info:

Lucid/Non-lucid: Lucid (lost lucidity at some point)
Type of induction (if lucid): None (Aware from the start)
Duration: 1/2 minutes
Vividness: Not vivid

Dream:

I had this dream a long time ago, but decided to post it now. I was lazzy
I'm lucid. I don't know how, I just am. I know my family is near me, so I ask my mother "Am I dreaming?" She says negative. For some reason, I ask her this several times (I probably asked others the same too, I can't remember) and always get "No." as an answer. I still know I'm lucid.

I try to change the dreamscape. I close my eyes, and then open them. Doesn't work. I try it several times, but it was fruitless. "It's amazing how aware I am," I note to myself (Which is ironic, because I was far from being totally aware). I remember I always wanted to start a lucid in a car, so I tell my mother we should use it to go somewhere. "Sure," she answeres, and we go out of the building. I, trying to change the landscape for the last time, close my eyes and shut my ears with my palms, but there is too much noise. I am not concentrated and I can't do it. I try to calm everyone around me to no avail.

(I believe I lost lucidity at this point, I just know how this continued)
I was in a shopping mall, near a restaurant in it. I look to see where the plates should be (It's the kind of restaurant where you take a plate and move in the line to get food from several places) and instead, there are caldrons. I don't know if I took one, I just know I am in the line. While I don't see the person next to me, I know she is my online friend from Romania. She is taking some delicious meat. I decide I should take the same. I eat the meat and find it delicious (I felt taste, which is rare for me).

This was probably the end of the dream. I wake up either then or a bit later, being very enthusiastic about having my first LD that lasted for more than a second!

I had a dream in which I went to have a shower and realized I was dreaming because it was all wrong and impossible. My grandma couldn't work a straightener. Unfortunately, I suddenly woke up.

I can't remember anything from last night. I am undergoing a rather large change in my life right now, which also messes with my sleep patterns. Starting tomorrow morning I will be getting up at 4:00am for work at my new job. Interestingly, I will begin working in a hospital, which has prior to now been a dreamsign. So, I will find myself awake and aware at a time when I am usually asleep, in a hospital, riding in elevators (another dreamsign). If I remember to do reality checks, this ought to help my lucidity.

Also, it appears that they will be alternating my work schedule, so that I will have this early morning schedule at times, and an afternoon schedule at others. This will be a perfect opportunity to try the Cycle Adjustment Technique (CAT).

So, I am hoping that this dream journal will become more interesting in the near future, with a good deal more blue.

January 3, 2012

Dream Signs Update

Based on the past few nights and many random dreams I was too lazy to write, my dream signs deal mostly with FORM and CONTEXT involving the home.

1. The apartment is an older apartment I haven't lived in for years: context

2. My bedroom is the wrong bedroom I haven't had for years: context

3. I'm living with the whole family, when I'm not: context

4. Theres a hill where there shouldn't be a hill: context

5. Driving to dallas only took an instant, wow!: context

6. I don't remember ever parking my car, where did it go?: context

7. I'm in a class I shouldn't be in: context

8. The highway never makes any sense : setting form

9. Im upset my sisters are deciding the arrangement of my room: emotions

10. bathrooms are as weird and as scary as ever: setting form

So, lots of context dream signs! Not easy! But most of it has to do with the home. So that's what I'll focus on the most for the next week or so.

Reality Check Everytime:

1. I come into contact with family: Are they supposed to be living here? Am I supposed to be sharing a room with them?

2. Everytime I'm in my room: Is this my room? Is my bed where its supposed to be? How many beds are here?

3. Everytime I'm in the living room: Is this my living room? Is the front door where it should be, by the kitchen? Is the porch where it should be? Does the porch have a screen door or a regular door?

4. Everytime I'm in the kitchen: Is the kitchen where its supposed to be? Does it have one entrance or two? Whos in the kitchen and why?

5. Everytime I'm going somewhere: Do I even know where I'm going? Why am I going there? Does the going there make sense?

6. Everytime Im in the bathroom: Do the bathroom appliances make sense? Is the toilet scary?

and something like that

I'm going to keep a log of my Sleep Paralysis experiences, just for my own record, motivation and of course, for others to read

This morning I woke up at 2.30 am, remembered 3 dreams and wanted to write them down.. ..but my DJ was left on my computer desk and I didn't feel like getting up. I also totally forgot I can blog from my phone XD Hey, it was 2.30 am

So I just lay there, contemplating on the dreams in an attempt to remember them in the morning (which worked, btw!). Then I felt myself get heavy and thought I'd attempt a WILD.

I kept thinking of my favourite subject to be thinking about before bed: Dominiq (recurring DC, I've kinda fallen in love with him). I used him as my anchor of consciousness. Then I felt the familiar numbness and started to hear things (HH), but thought "NO, I don't want to hear shiz!" so I moved my elbow slightly. Then it kinda felt like my hand was upside down, but my arm was not like my wrist was twisted. It didn't hurt though. I could still move my arm and hand and they felt fine. Then the feeling returned and I just let it be, occasionally trying to move a limb until I couldn't anymore.

I was in SP. I didn't hear anything but noise (which I was fine with), and a total of three vibration waves washed over me. Then when none seemed to come anymore, I tried getting up. I felt really strange like my body didn't bend as it normally would when you sit up from lying-down position. I also had trouble opening my eyes fully, but it didn't matter. I noticed it was pitch black in my room, whereas it should be dimly lit by street lights..

I didn't even bother doing a reality check, lol.

Hi guys. I've recently had three LDs in the last month. I can't recall them well though. I've been being lazy and a slacker since I completed the TOTY in November. But the new tasks are up, so I'll be going back to work! The nine new tasks look really fun! Especially the one where you get to jump off one of the Twin Towers!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had a random dream last night, only remember bits and pieces of it now though.

22.30: Sleep

05.30: Dream
*I'm in a school, I see my brother and we greet. After a while we meet again. "Man you're everywhere!" he says to me. "Come on follow me." We head out the school and enter a car. Martin starts explaining how he tricked our uncle, he bought some weed from him. We end up in a parking lot and I get to drive this huge black pickup truck. I hit the gas and the car's fron wheels starts to go up. I have to be careful not to crash.

05.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7 hours

Supplements: None

That's it! This is how many dreams and lucids I had 2011. This is only for me to be able to count easily in the future.

Dreams: 594
Lucids: 91

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Side Notes
I attempted to use Yuppie's DEILD techique to go lucid. I failed as I woke up out of the dream as I thought it was morning. Turned out it was 2am and I didn't get back to sleep well. This dream felt so long.

Dream
I walked out as Randy Orton on the stage of RAW. I almost looked like a videogame version of Orton. I started speaking about equal chances for wrestlers to get shots at titles and I think Trish Stratus came out behind as I was speaking.

The dream then cuts to a travel bus with WWE Divas doing each others hair in front of mirrors like it was a salon. Hornswoggle came out of the floor (more or less) and scared them all.

Then it cut back to me and then to the Divas.

Dream
Megan Fox was acting on set and I was a cameraman. Now I'm guessing my infatuation with Megan Fox made my dream character want to be with her.

So when it came time for Megan Fox to ship out to her new movie, Mack 10, I was sad but I still stayed until the first movie project finished. We then met up on the set of Mack 10. The scene was in a museum with maroon walls and a chequered floor. (Funny how I'm filming on set and a Illuminati floor is there.)

I also remember her being at an airport on arriving on a jet probably Michael Bay's.

Side Notes
I incubated this dream but didn't realise the theme while in the dream. So I didn't go lucid but you know what still prety cool.

Friday 12/30/2011 Bed 2:30am

Couple of dreams, but didn't write them down.
Around 10am, trying to WILD, but I know, it's already lots of noise outside, neighbors are moving?

Had new HH. Instead of my usual skulls and scary faces, I saw TINY HEARTS!

Had been trying to change my HHs to flowers before, but it never worked. This time, my cat Kaboosh came to sleep on my bed and I was very happy about it. He does it very infrequently. Maybe he sent me love, or I was sending love to him?