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7/15/2020
Fell asleep at ~1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM
Woke up at 8AM, maybe wrote down tags
Woke up at 9:30, wrote down some tags as I drift in and out of more dreams

What to work on: Writing down tags upon waking from first couple alarms and using SSILD
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Dream 1(AoT/naruto): I was in this world where there had been many cases of people blowing up shops. A few times I was near these people who just lobbed small grenades at the front of the shop and I told Maria to run. One time they were kids and so I stopped 1 of them and couldnt find the other after. At another point I was high on a balcony and I was talking to a friend of mine. We were speaking about how I'm not safe here and people are after me. At one point he mentioned his sibling had received some of my packages, they were all like weapons. Then my enemy came, he was like orochimaru from naruto. He chased me all over the sides of the tall buildings and then I finally did something that showed him we have something in common and need to work together. We teleported back to the miniature map of that location and then started talking. Him and someone else turned into AoT giants which were regular size, they had no genitals. I had a boner. Then Evan found these 2 sex toys-ish. One was a sleeve you put on your dick and the other was an even longer sleeve to put over that sleeve. He put them on. I wanted to try them and before I could Lopez came and gave us weird looks like we werent supposed to be doing that with the display items.

Dream 2(Max/Matthew trying to kill me): I was at home and I remember Max getting mad and pulling a gun on me. I was trying to stop him by aiming the gun away from me and eventually he shot and missed. I had time to get away while he reloaded. I ran outside and he was running after me but I was running a bit faster than him. I wasnt even running full speed. Then I ran full speed and really gained some distance on him. I ran around many street corners and stopped at one point. I turned around to see and he came around a corner but it was Matthew now. I was running really fast and was able to make huge leaps. I jumped and ran around huge green areas and jumped over water. I leaped so large at one point I thought I was going to hurt myself. It was like I was on the moon or less gravity. I eventually got away from matthew.

Dream 3(School trip): I was on a school trip to some foreign place and we each had a spot to share with a couple classmates. I shared with Lorne and maybe someone else. At one point Kim showed up at my place and we hung out for a bit. Later we had to get ready to leave for a certain time. I picked up all my shit really quick and went downstairs. I dropped my book along the way so went back upstairs but went too far up, I went to some really fancy rooms that other people were staying at. I went back down and found my book in our room. I brought it back down and put it in my bag. We still had extra time and Lorne was wandering a little at the entrance of the building and were talking to someone who was interrupted by 2 ladies who needed him to dance. They all started dancing and we joined them for a little then left.


Dream 4(man breaks out of chamber with chainsaw and wants to get us): Thats it.

This week made up for the lack of jamie dreams for sure. Difficult subjects to deal with here...

Jamie 1

I was in some elevator with Jesus and Jamie. Sounds like the beginning of a bad joke actually... Kidding. He just tells us, "I want you two to come together NOW!"
the door opens and Jesus is gone I walk out holding someone's hand. It's no longer Jamie, but eleven from stranger things... We walk down the hall and I'm confused. We pass another Elevel from stranger things in the hall... Walt 11:11? Clever girl... I ask who the other girl is and the one holding my hand shrugs.

comments. Jesus said the same thing last year. and Last year I sent a message and invited contact. I don't know what else I can possibly do here. I can message her until I'm blue in the face and she will always find a reason never to message me back or get a hold of me some other way. I can't force her to contact me and I won't try. It's up to her I guess...

Jamie 2

Jamie shows up at my inner world house with that sterotypical bad boy from the dream from a few weeks ago. She's being generally mean to me. I forget most of it. I'm on a couch and she sits down for one second and hands me an ipad or something with porn on it. And she tells me to stop looking at porn, then storms off with that guy and leaves the house. I find myself outside by the curb a while later talking to some guy who asks me if she was supposed to be my girlfriend. I said, "I dunno looks like she's with that guy now."

No, comment on the porn issue other than if I were doing that, How would she know? Hacking my computer somehow? or some Twin flame/ alien love bite telepathic phenomenon? I'll try to fix any issue, but you can't expect a single bachelor to live like a saint all the time.

What?

Dream is like a movie. some woman goes to a recovery meeting like AA or NA or something. She meets a woman there the leave to have coffee, which is typical for being social after recovery meetings. But they wind up going to one of their homes and have a lesbian encounter. the whole dream I have a feeling this dream has to do with Jamie but can't be sure.

Jamie 3

Jamie approaches me in a school parking lot and tells me she is actually a MTF transgender. Which I know is not true. But she seems to think I might like that.

Interesting, Jamie is now lesbian but also a transgender

Can we go back to dream hugs now that we got it all sorted out? Or how about a real one!?!?!?

Long dream

Well it was long but i forgot most of it now. I was walking through some city but had to go inside a large building like a bank. Everything started shaking and i Thought ,"Earthquake". I'm looking for desks to hide under. A man in a suit and some other people there tell me it will be over soon. I hear a scream and look out the big glass window. The building is floating on water and a huge wave is coming toward us. I look to the man with a suit and he says we won't get hit by the wave. The building shakes and then turns onto some land and stops.

I find myself on a bus or something with a Muslim woman who is supposed to be Saad's wife. Some guy is telling her that her husband is a jackass. I cut in say, "Really me and him do get a long at times but yeah. he is a huge asshole for sure."

His wife says to me, "Maybe i agree with you. But hold on You smell like piss and shit." (she's just insulting me back). "You remind me of a muslim story i know. A mother got up one day and went to her daughters room and she said, 'wake up now my child, we are going to have pancakes for breakfast...'". I woke up from that.

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7/12/2020
Fell asleep at ~1:30AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, dont remember anything
Woke up at 8AM, with recall, wrote down very long dream

What to work on: Writing down tags upon waking from first couple alarms and using SSILD
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Dream 1(Being late for school, going by bus, late for class, riot, detained, new floor, put in acid then given second chance, fall into water, giant hot tub with stories, comedy and chalk): I was getting ready for school and took all my school stuff plus a joint into the bathroom. then I left for school. I walked to Fielding and it was super snowy and slushy out. The stop on fielding was cancelled. I had to go to back further down to catch a bus. I got on a bus and saw a bunch of other people including Divneet. Eventually I got to school and was late for class. I saw Phoebe also late for class, she was about to eat a jello she just got on her way. I was walking upstairs and saw some classmates coming down and realized my class was on the lower floors, I was going the wrong way. I joined them and we went to the classroom but the teacher wasnt there. A lot of other students saw this as an opportunity to kind of riot and go crazy but I just decided to wait and not cause trouble so I went into this big open area while others were running around. Some H-L: Alyx looking guards brought me to the designated holding area while they caught the rest of the students. I was with 1 other kid that had a secret item and wanted to keep it from the guards so he hid it on the structure above us that was right outside the yellow forcefield looking thing that was the designated area. After that I saw a new floor or classroom being built above the school and we were supposed to take the elevator up there. I was in this glass elevator looking thing and this angry voice started saying that they wish they could just drop us in the acid underneath the elevator. She brought me very close and then backed off. Then she did drop me in it. It melted the bottom, I died and got another chance like in a game. This time I broke what was holding me there and fell into some water on the side. There I was part of this story that was being narrated then I was in a giant hot tub that had this story with all different levels and characters in it like an old mario level map. I remember there also being 2 buttons that would add bubbles to the pool and the other would make the tree start raining. After my dad told me to stop making the tree rain I got out and started walking along the side of this area, there was a wooden railing. I heard my dad talking about my friend who does comedy. Then I found chalk and put it on my hands.

Dream 2(shooting cars then 4 tuck sequence search): I was on a motorcycle with someone and we had this stick-like gun that we were shooting at other cars. At one point I was reloading and we passed right next to a uniformed officer who was not in his vehicle. A little further down we ditched the gun next to this group of people chilling on the side of the road and right after that we saw a sign saying 4 tuck sequence search and we still didn't get caught even though they were right behind us.

Date of Dream: SUN 28 JUN - 2020



Dream No. 676 - Mystery Of The Possessed Kingdom Hearts Characters

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, it was a simulation of Kingdom Hearts and for some time, the first-person entity in the dream was Sora (in his KH3 appearance; in-fact, all characters were in their KH3 appearance). He was in this world which seemed to be like a forest with ancient ruins scattered throughout it. The King (Mickey) was instructing him throughout a mission which seemed to, though, have some dark, creepy and somewhat psychotic vibe about it. Sora had to collect these red coins (120 of them) and the later the coins, they were harder to find and some even triggered weird events for Sora.

The dream seemed to change scenes but it was regarding the same situation. I was now amongst Riku as well as Aqua and Terra in a different, seemingly more peaceful part of the forest. The King wasn’t there, but through his energy, we knew that Sora was in trouble. In-fact, Riku, Terra and Aqua spoke to me, wanting me to go on a scouting mission for them. Ventus was with them but he didn’t really say anything and was rather hiding being Terra and Aqua as if he was their child. I realised that the reason they wanted me to go is because as I am not an official member of Kingdom Hearts; Organisation XIII would not recognise me and so I could do whatever I wanted without being caught.

The dream now split into two different scenes of what each party was doing. Firstly, the dream went to Riku, Ventus, Terra and Aqua who now seemed to set up base under a great big majestic tree and they were there waiting for me. Terra and Aqua were sitting on an additional stump on the side and were casually conversing with each other (though there was no sound from them, just visual) as Ventus seemed to be eating a bowl of porridge, but not by himself. Riku was spoon-feeding Ventus and I believed Riku was practising his feeding technique as a dream guide for when I would return. As Terra and Aqua had a calm, casual energy, there was a nervous energy coming off Riku like he was extremely worried that I wouldn’t make it back safely.

Now the dream went to my scene. I was walking to this more open area and I saw these characters glowing with some light-greenish data shield around them; they were recognisable Disney characters from Kingdom Hearts. In the real life games, Donald and Goofy are Sora’s main companions but in this dream, they were his closest, nastiest prison guards. Sora didn’t have any obvious restrictions but if he moved from in-between Donald and Goofy, the possessed characters would hurt him very badly (any characters with the shields moulded around them).

Even though the characters were extremely nasty and creepy when possessed, I walked around without a care as I recalled I would not be recognised by any of them; though my energy was that of sheer nervousness. Upon assessing the group, I shockingly noticed that Kairi was also possessed and so could also very well hurt Sora. The dream camera then went to a close-up of Sora, Donald and Goofy. Whoever was possessed would be able to say some of the nastiest, most horrible things in somewhat of a deep robotic tone; and this was Goofy at the moment, threatening Sora… Sora did dare not move or say a word. However, Goofy’s shield seemed to switch off and he was trying to cram as much in as he could naturally. However, it wasn’t long before his shield came back on and he was as psychotic as ever. Donald just stood there all the time, looking like he could hit Sora with a baseball bat.

Goofy seemed to now be giving the ultimate speech of sheer terror and Donald now looked so violent like he was ready to pounce. I even felt Riku’s energy of sheer terror from afar, being worried sick about his dreamer. The speech did it; as Donald and Goofy remained on the hill to bar Sora; the rest of the possessed characters, including Kairi, got violent with each other. The dream camera even ended up doing a close up on the Pirates of the Caribbean group who were punching each other in the face while laughing in their faces like drunkards. I had seen enough and I figured it was time to head back to the group at the great tree before something would indeed happen to me too.

As I quickly but quietly slipped away, I started off with a little dash and propelled myself into the air. I gained the best feeling inside me as I was to fly across the forest to return ‘home’, this energy of sheer joy and excitement to see my Kingdom Hearts family again. Flying felt so much fun as I went up and down and then straight forward, but making a slight left curve to steer towards the great tree, and now this triumphant sounding music was playing as I continued towards the great tree.

Now as I was flying straight again, as soon as I caught sight of the great tree, Aqua and Terra smiled and started waving at me. However, Riku seemed to have his back turned and was still doing something with Ventus. Terra took a quick second to tap Riku on the back and had a look like ‘told you she’d make it’. Riku turned around quickly in a flustered manner and had the most surprised look on his face, like he was gasping in astonishment, as he then smiled and waved to welcome me back along with Terra and Aqua. While I was still at full speed, just before I entered under the shade of the tree; the dream ended and I woke up.



Dream No. 676
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No



I also ended up discussing this dream, so I'm also going to share here what I said about it on my Tumblr account:

I’ve treated Kingdom Hearts differently compared to the past video game worlds I’ve incorporated in my dreams. Because Kingdom Hearts is such a large group and they all seem to be ‘friends’ with each other, I felt bad about using only Riku and therefore perhaps taking him away from the rest of them; so I’ve devised a 3 Level system in which the whole KH group can contribute. As Riku is my dream guide; he’s the only one on Level 3. Those that are not dream guides but I think still have a strong competence are on Level 2; they are Aqua, Terra, Roxas and Sora; they can act as substitutes if my dreams were to impair Riku in any way. The rest are on Level 1 which are those who are... Casual players; they are Kairi, Axel, Xion, Ventus and Namine. For those shocked about Kairi; I MAY promote her to Level 2 depending on how she performs IRL in Melody of Memory. It’s funny because I think the Level system was really demonstrated in Dream No. 676, but I’ll get to that recap eventually.

So, since Riku was maintaining significant weakness as a dream guide; I decided to write a letter to Aqua and Terra in my IRL task journal, asking them to ‘speak to him’ about some points I as a dreamer wanted to address. I wrote to Terra because he’s Riku’s predecessor in their world; and then I included Aqua because I creatively thought ‘what if Terra gets another spell of darkness or some kind of rage?’. It was amazing to actually see results, but I was not expecting Dream No. 676.

I’ll give the actual full dream recap in another post, but here’s some discussion on it. In Dream No. 676, Riku, Terra and Aqua appeared to me (after the first scene was about Sora rather than me). Ventus was also there, but he seemed to be ‘hiding’ behind Terra and Aqua like a kid; so that there emphasises my Subconscious’ (SubC’s) assertion that I had put Ventus on Level 1; whereas Terra and Aqua’s Level 2 was demonstrated by them ‘outlining the mission’ to me; and in this dream, it also seemed that they were teaching Riku about being a dream guide. In-fact it felt like the Wayfinder Trio were the main ones featured but Riku was brought along as that link between me and them.

In a sub-scene, while I was gone; Aqua and Terra were sitting at the side on a stump and were talking with each other. Then there was Riku and Ventus at a table; Ventus had a bowl of porridge and Riku was spoon-feeding it to him. I feel like Aqua and Terra had asked Ventus to be a ‘practise dummy’ for Riku and Ventus had agreed. Riku may never spoon-feed me a meal in a subsequent dream, but it was just a metaphor at least of general caring conduct as a ‘dream guide’ in my universe.

Like Riku still has a way to go to be a fully-fledged dream guide in my universe (he still has to master hugging and carrying), but he tried so damn hard in Dream No. 676. In-fact, Riku was the sole one to have the fear of God in him that I wouldn’t make it back alive (like a parent, he was worried sick for my safety), whereas the energies from Aqua and Terra showed that they were always confident I’d make it back to them safely. In-fact when I was returning, it was Terra that tapped Riku on the back and Riku was absolutely shocked. Ventus just continued to twiddle around at his end of the table. So with our group, it felt like a family of 3 ‘adults’ (Riku, Terra and Aqua) and 2 ‘children’ (me and Ventus).

I loved the interaction I had with these guys in Dream No. 676, so I decided afterwards to draw us. I’m the one in-between Riku and Terra. My outfit is consistent; I devised this to be my Kingdom Hearts OC outfit; I thought my usual school uniform would not suit, so this is my new get-up. The background is externally sourced from a wallpaper image but this is similar to what the environment was like in the dream. As I said; I’ll put the actual dream recap in a separate post. Don’t hesitate if you want to ask me about any of my ‘universe laws’ and/or my various interactions.

Congratulations if you made it to the end of this post!!

DREAM VIEWS: I'll post the image I sketched about the dream below:

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7/11/2020
Took melatonin and B-complex vitamins
Fell asleep at 1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, woke up, wrote dreams
Woke up at 8AM, with recall, fell asleep
Woke up at 9:30AM, with recall. Wrote down dreams

What to work on: SSILDing for longer when trying to fall back asleep
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Dream 1(COD): This dream seemed like it had happened before, I was very familiar with the scene and its like I knew what was going to happen and where I needed to be. I was like in a Call of Duty video game. I had to run from cover to cover while under fire and eventually got to this space where I got a sniper and had to fight off a few dogs that were right next to me with a teammate. They were hard to hit but also very stupid, like they had terrible pathfinding AI and bad hit mechanics. I killed a couple that were around me then woke up.

Dream 2(Matteo date after work): I was at work and I had a date planned with my friend Matteo. He came to my work dressed nice and had a gift for me even. We started walking back to his place and then we were able to kayak the rest back to his place somehow. We rented kayaks that ended up being only being $4. Then he threw me into the water we were kayaking in. It was fun but also the water was super dirty and kind of concerned me. We went into his house after and his parents came down. They seemed a little tense at some points. Later Matteo, his dad and I all sat on the couch together and his dad was telling about the new room configuration and he seemed very proud of it.

Dream 3(Casino gambling): I was at a casino looking place and was with my family and some friends. At one point I wanted to go play a certain card game with my friends and I heard my mom say I wasnt allowed, but Maria was. I wanted to ask her what that was about and convince her to let me play. She was playing this game against my dad and had been drinking so I decided to let her finish her game before conversing with her. She lost and then she gave a little speech in the form of a rap about how I'm not allowed to. Before I could answer she left. I tried to find her but found this multi-level learning place right outside the casino. I explored there looking for her and then came to a room with monsters and people in lockers and wanting to play chess. I approached someone/something and wanted to play chess with them. They were warning me or something and I told them I could play. Then we were talking about who our partners were going to be and he had this super scary and strong looking monster that I knew to be almost impossible to beat and he would kill us. I told my partner lets back off. He tested the monster by touching him and moving him around. This provoked him. Thankfully at this point the room started spinning and that meant everyone had to get locked into their locker so we were safe. We were all scrambling to found our locks on the floor.

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7/10/2020
Took melatonin and B-complex vitamins
Fell asleep at 12:45-1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, woke up, went pee, Used SSILD
Woke up at 8AM, with recall, fell asleep
Woke up at 9:30AM, with recall. Wrote down all the dreams I remembered

What to work on: SSILDing for longer when trying to fall back asleep
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Dream 1+2(Working for Riaz then first class, making pizza for uncle.): I was working at big cheese and the makeline was set up very differently. We were doing things like making sides and prepping pizzas but Riaz was doing all the topping. I imagined thats why he can keep his stats so good at such a high volume store, he controls everything. He finished up and we clocked out really early at like 5:30, I thought thats all he really needs to keep the store profitable, he'd rather spend his time doing other things with the extra time. Another time I was at first class and I remember Ana letting her hair down with no hairnet after her shift near the food. At one point my uncle(maybe an employee too) wanted a pizza. I was helping him make a pizza and got the order of things all wrong. I ended up with the dough at the bottom of a bucket and pouring some sauce on top. I thought I had to make more wings too but there were some in the fridge.

Dream 3(Austin comes over for food, slaps me, I bring him outside to talk, grapes): I was chilling on the driveway or garage and Austin came up to us looking for to hang out or get some food. We went inside and I realized its because he has no food at home. I offered him everything and he ended up with like a ice cream drumstick and some orange ice cream/popsicle looking thing. I got near him and he slapped me with the orange thing. I asked him why he would do that and then told him to follow me and I brought him outside onto the front lawn. I again tried to get an explanation and then he left. I felt so bad for him, wasting the only food he had at the moment just because he was angry. Then Pheobe helped clean me up and tried to cheer me up by saying well make chocolate covered grapes. I remember just sitting or lying down feeling sad for Austin.

I’d just woken up, and I began to record myself explaining my dreams while they were still fresh in my mind. Never mind that it was on an app that doesn’t exist, I didn’t pick up on that, but while telling my dreams I had the idea to do a reality check. I counted six fingers and realized this was a dream!


I put my phone down, walked toward my bedroom door, and told myself out loud, “I am in my house in [town I used to live in].” (I opened the door.) “The dream is clear and stable.”


I chose to go to that house so I could find my parents, because I live alone but had to find a DC so I could complete the TOTM, but why I picked that house specifically, I’m not sure. We moved out of that house in 2013; I didn’t leave home until 2019.


Immediately, my vision became more vivid (I hadn’t realized it before but it was kind of dull color-wise). I was still in my apartment, but standing in front of me was a man.


“Guten Nacht,” I said. (Yes, I meant Guten Tag, but close enough? Autocorrect tried to change this to Gluten Nacho.)


“Guten Nacht,” he replied. He said something else I didn’t understand. The only word I recognized was verstehen (understand), so I assumed he was asking if I understood German. We were entering the dining room now. (I looked up verstehen while typing this; it’s conjugated wrong for second person, but it DOES mean understand. Yay for recognizing one of the handful of German words I know!)


I tried to recall how to tell him I don’t speak German. “No spreche… German. Alemán?” (Alemán means “German” in Spanish.)


“Alemannisch,” he corrected me.


“Deutsch,” I corrected myself. We were in the kitchen now, and I doubted I could carry this conversation further, so I decided to wake up so I could write it down right away.


By the way, it turns out Alemannisch actually refers to a group of Upper German dialects spoken in Switzerland and parts of Germany and Austria—but I didn’t know that, so I’m going to assume my brain just tacked a German suffix onto a Spanish word in an attempt to make it German. Whatever works, right?

Woke up after ~4 hours of sleep and decided to give WILD another go. Included some SSILD because it makes transitioning easier (or possible?) for me.

Everything went well with me waiting in a deeply relaxed state until I felt REM setting in after some time. Then, a familiar feeling of being pulled in started but I got distracted by someone coming in my room and talking to me. I wasn't sure if this was real, though I should have known better by now...

After a short non-lucid dream I started another try. This was almost the same as before except I was prepared now and didn't care for any hallucinations. When I felt the transition was over I slowly got up - my whole body was extremely heavy and I could barely move. So, I focused on the feeling of gravity (or the lack thereof) which immediately improved things. I walked through the house and left straight through the door (only a slight pressure while passing through). Outside I started hovering in the air but suddenly there was a glitch in the dream and I was back inside, in front of the door again. This time I floated through the window and then examined my surroudings outside. Looking around, I once again could barely believe the detail and vividness of the dream. I flew around a bit and got to a small beautiful cottage. For some reason I suddenly felt sexually aroused and wasn't too surprised when I found a DC sitting in a hanging chair in front of the cottage. But first I went around the garden and - wondering if I have ever smelled something in a dream - stuck my nose in flowers etc. There were some strange yellow-purple bananas and large pink flowers - the latter had indeed an intense, pleasant scent to them. Afterwards I went back to the DC and had sex with him which was a quite short but rather enjoyable and interesting experience. Then I woke up and went back to normal sleep.

only dreams i had this week were very short.

one dream with Jesus in it, but i don't really remember it.

Another dream had something to do with picard. He had all these extra starfleet shirts or something and some teenager guy needed a new shirt.

Nothing about Jamie. I hope to remember something good from her this week.

There are many dreams that can be described in a bad way, but here is a list of those that cannot.

• two great adventures
• getting the girl
• The Dream Guide
• Insnow Out!
• Helpful Subconscious
• Fighting and Bending
• To the Sun
• ELEMENTS; Iron Defense
• TRUE SYNESTHESIA
• Island of Wonders
• Violin Fantasy

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7/3/2020
Took melatonin and B-complex vitamins
Fell asleep at 1:30AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, woke up, went pee, came back. Used SSILD
Woke up at 8AM,
Woke up at 9:30AM, with recall. Wrote down all the dreams I remembered

What to work on: Writing down tags upon waking from alarm and using SSILD
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Dream 1(,slow breach and clear, Shaun watching me play game): I was in a slow-mo breach and clear sort of game and after clearing a few rooms it was done and I was interacting with this small screen which itself was a game. Shaun was watching me play this one and I felt bad because I thought I had been playing it for hours and he was just watching.

Dream 2(matteo and I living in room, cant find underwear, teacher offering prize, principal robot): Matteo and I were living in a room together only a school trip or something. I needed to change but couldnt find where I put my underwear. Right before we decided to leave a girl(maybe erica) came down the stairwell in our place. We all went to a presentation and a teacher was trying to get our attentiont by offering a prize to the people who do. I wanted the prize. We all sat down and then he started talking and handed off the presentation to the principal. Shortly after the principle started, a robot that looked very much like her came in through the door on the side and started saying stuff. It appeared preplanned.

Dream 3(Risk in backyard): I was playing risk with the boys in my backyard and at one point the board was gone and only the pieces remained on the grass so we decided fuck it the game is over.

Dream 4(course w/ boxes and moving platforms, tons of hot tubs and closer wants to get us all in trouble): I was in this VR game where you go through like this dungeon and I had to kill some baddies and find the end. I found a crowbar and another item and was wielding those. There were things to crouch under or I had to lie under one at one point. I found the end. Then there was this course with a moving platform that went next to a lot of glowing boxes and I had to use my weapon to touch all the boxes and they would change color. I finished the course and then Phoebe wanted me to jump and hit the last ones so I tried that. Then when we were done on our course we visited Lorne's course where there was a ton of hot tubs lined up and he was putting the covers back on to close up. He put them on TERRIBLY so we started readjusting them and an employee of the palce came out saying he didnt like how we did it and he had already had to fix them once today. He wanted to get us all in trouble and so I told him it was only Lorne, we were just helping to fix it. He didnt believe us so I told him to look at the footage from the cameras and he said oh for sure he will.

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7/3/2020
Before bed I did multiple prayers to increase recall, vividness and to remember to used SSILD after first couple alarms. Also recalled the events of the day while falling asleep.
Fell asleep at 1:30AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, wrote down 1 tag
Woke up at 8AM, wrote down 1 tag
Woke up at 9:30AM, with recall no recall. Laid down for a while and wrote a bunch of tags.

What to work on: Writing down tags upon waking from alarm and using SSILD
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Dream 1(party w/ roxanne): I was going to a party with a couple of the boys and when we entered we both decided to not say hi to anyone and go straight for the drinks. We thought that was funny. Roxanne hugged me from behind. I was surprised and happy to see her. She said she had something for me, we all sat at the table and she had a bunch of foreign candies. She gave a bunch to me and we talked about them. There were these green chinese candies I really like and then a knock-off version of them.

Dream 2(Chill @ karleys w/ poop, sleeping, celebrate w/ kids, backflip, tired backflip):Some friend and I went over to Karleys place and were hanging out on the couch. We were there for a pool party. At one point Karley fell asleep on me. To get out of that situation I said I was going to go get my bathing suit. I came back and then asked katelyn about all the poop that was piled up on the table. She said it was her dogs, that was the room he poops in while no one is home and they put it there to throw it out. Later we went outside to the pool and grassy area. We were sitting at some small tables like for kids almost. Then a bunch of other people came to celebrate with us, like a bunch of parents and then a lot of small kids. After a while a few people started going to the pool and Matthew was going to do a backflip so the kids were cheering him on. He did it and they all really liked that. I wanted to get away from the kids so I went to the pool too but when I tried to back flip I was so tired that I kind of did a backwards dive without being stretched out.

Dream 3(work, no labels, call): I was at work but it was a special event because we were not at our usual location. We were doing well but having a bunch of problems with the computers. Labels werent printing right and me and Dave were trying to get this working again. We were both trying to use 1 computer to reprint this 1 label and then the screen started doing some weird thing where it looked like it was slowly generating an image. He gave up and I went back at it. I didnt get it to work properly. I also got a call at one point and I took it in the back. I remember enjoying the call. At the end it was me and 1 other employee left.

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7/2/2020A
Before bed I did multiple prayers to increase recall, vividness and to remember to used SSILD after first couple alarms. Also recalled the events of the day while falling asleep and meditated till I fell asleep
Fell asleep at 2AM.
Woke up at 7AM, Dont remember
Woke up at 8:30AM, with recall, didnt write down tags.
Woke up at 9:20AM, with recall. Wrote down tags for 2 dreams and tried to use SSILD to fall back asleep for 10 minutes before alarm went off again.

What to work on: Writing down tags upon waking from alarm and using SSILD
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Dream 1(Sexy time in Alyx building and quiet room): I was with this woman I have had recent sexual relations with and she really wanted to have sex in my room. My siblings were home so I was very hesitant and she didnt seem to care. She even made loud moans to show interest and I was telling her to be more quiet. Her eyes lit up and she told me she hadnt done butt stuff before so she wanted to do that. I wanted to get a condom so we left my room and did something near the kitchen and then when we came back the whole scene had transformed into something like from Half-Life Alyx. She climbed up these pipes to get to a platform with 2 ladders. I told her to kick one down like we do in the game but she didnt and she jumped down the other side. She still wanted to get sexy over there.

Dream 2(zombie wave shooter, 3 sinks, leela): Maybe a continuation of the last dream but I dont remember how they were connected so I'll say its another. I was at a military looking facility. At one point I was alone and I had a few guns and I was supposed to be shooting a bunch of mercenary looking guys, just like a level in Half-life Alyx. I was overwhelmed by them and died. Later I was more on top of that building with a friend with me this time. I killed a few and then the next wave was coming. My friend was in an adjacent room and I heard him get mad that he had died. Then a big monster came out of that room and killed me. At another point I was inside the big building and was with a group of people. We were all preparing for the invasion. I was talking to someone and then leela smash was right next to me, she wanted to say hi. She got so close to my conversation that I had to stop and say hi, we discussed that she was new here and I could show her how things work. There was a 3 compartment sink so I shower her like hey the dirty things go here. I cleaned a strainer and put it in the sink next to a managerial looking person and then they told me to put it back in the sink which I had just put a few dirty dishes because thats the one with the sanitizer. I realized I messed up there.

At some point I was crawling under a desk and found a ton of hidden ammo.

I'm in a theater, there's a man DC sitting to my right. I see a lot of empty seats and I'm hearing some chattering behind, in one corner of the room. (I seemed to be distracted and don't remember seing anything on the screen, or if there was any screen at all. I need to be more aware of my surroundings!).
Then the chatering gets louder and louder, I started thinking was a group of people that I know.
My view changes to the entrance of the room, there's a robust lady, light skin and with some make up on..( I could see in the dark?! ). The laddy is waiting for a signal to turn the lights on. I look in the corner again and see a dad watching his kid jumping and making noises, seems to be autistic. I switch back to the lady and lights go on, not quite bright enough to brighten the whole room. Now I see the DC, next to me, wearigh a bright white shirt, stands up and looks at me, I say: have a good one..He turns around and walks towards the exit.
Now I see a kid carring, or better hugging a cardboard box that's almost braking apart, he's strugling to carry it, as he gets closer and closer I see some leafy, colorful begetables. I want to help him but he doesent let go much. I'm barely holding it in one corner..I think: "probably he need some excersise carring stuff. We exit the room together, and now we're in a big bright hallway. As we put the box down I see he has lost a big amount of weight!, hes abdome is looking a lot slimer. (He looks like one of my special ed. students) I look at the box again, now opened, I see some carrots, a cabage, and other leafy greens.

Notes:
I have decided to wear the REM- dreamer again, every other day. I was able to wear the a REM mask almost all night!, usually I would take it off while sleeping; of course as I analize and highlited on red, anything could be a real disguise. From vegetables to the make up on a person.
Blinking signals of the mask could also disguise as the kid jumping up and down; (not so much the noise since the sound mode was off)... And so on, it's a great tool but still requieres lots of practice and not recomended for people with seisures!

Changing the format of my entries to an previous format because I think it helped.

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7/1/2020
Before bed I did multiple prayers to increase recall, vividness and to remember to used SSILD after first couple alarms.
Fell asleep at 2AM.
Woke up at 7AM, with recall, didnt write down tags
Woke up at 8:30AM, with recall, didnt write down tags
Woke up at 9:30AM, with recall. Wrote down tags for 2 dreams when I distinctly remember at least 2 others that I had then forgotten because I didnt write them down.

What to work on: Writing down tags upon waking from alarm, recalling events of the day when lying in bed. When done meditate until I fall asleep.
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Dream 1(Yes video @ dep -> football): I was at the corner dep with someone from yes theory and they made a video in the depanneur. I remember buying ketchup and it was 6 for 3. The ketchup was like candy canes. After we left he said that whoever makes the best edit of that video will get a prize. As we were walking back home some guy came down the street behind us and said that they were supposed to have playd football with them. They immediately asked some nearby strangers for a football and start playing, then I realized I forgot I had a football in my hands.

Dream 2(late for work): I was very late for work and was stressed out about that.