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I was on a ship filled with people when someone threw a homemade bomb into the crowd. The bomb got tossed around like if it was a "hot potato" and it finally blew up on some guy. He went flying and we thought he was dead but he slowly got up and started running off the ship. His head was blown open and I could see his brain. While he was running off me and a girl chased after him, especially the girl but I realized he was too wounded. I said "That guy is wolf food now..." We were then in an island and as we were getting back into a bus, I started fighting people. I beat up a lot of them but then I got thrown off the bus. I was locked out but some girls that were in the bus were nice enough to hand me a few bottles of water. I told the girls I'd be back to help them. I went into a big house that looked more like a motel on the inside. There was a TV playing music and as I walked towards it, I said "I haven't had a sad dream in a while." A fat lady was walking towards me and I asked her "If this were a dream, would I be able to change the song to a song from Tangled?" The replied
Yes, but it would play before the current song" That confused me but all the talk about dreams made me do a reality check. I started counting my fingers and noticed I had a lot of them. I realized I was dreaming.
I looked around the house and there were a lot of stuff on the counters. I noticed my dream blurring and getting disoriented so I rubbed my hands and then looked at them to stabilize the dream. I faced the TV and tried to make fireballs but the only results were sparks or embers coming out of my fingers. I thought about maybe taking a pill that would give me the ability to use fireballs but didn't. I flicked my index, middle finger, and thumb, which caused a glowing crescent to come out and fly towards what I pointed. The crescent curved in the way my palm faced. I tried different positions of my palm and the crescent would react to how my hand was. I turned around and went down some stairs into a dark room. I flipped a light switch and a few lights started to go on. I yelled while raising my hands "Let there be light!" and the room lit up. I looked at stuff on the counter and then decided to go back upstairs and into another room where I heard Blacksher calling out to L. Hernandez. The place looked like Denise's room. I saw Desirae on a counter laying down. I asked her why she was there and she said she was sick to her stomach. I asked with what and she said with Vygil or something. She looked really pale. I then went to Blacksher and she was saying something and I wanted her to shut up so ducktape replaced her mouth. She was trying to talk and had green skin. I let her have her mouth again and left towards Desirae. All 3 cats were there and I wanted Lucy to turn into a tiger. I pointed to Bugaloo but realized it was Bugaloo. I saw Lucy and flicked a crescent on her and she started turning into a tiger.

I believe in this dream my lucidity was low, since it didn't feel as real as previous lucid dreams. I could still control myself, though. As for the Glowing Crescents, I'm going to use that as a way to point to things that I want to change, like I did with Lucy. If I want to change, for example, a tv into a radio, I'll use a Glowing Crescent on it while. I think this will help me with changing stuff.

I haven't been on lately. I haven't been able to set aside much time because of school. Now that I'm on spring break, I'm briefly returning from my hiatus.

On to the dream:

The only parts I could remember are me sitting next to the girl I like (this is a different girl, BTW). It was actually on two or three separate occasions in the dream. She was even completely fine with it when I asked her. The seats weren't very big, so we were sorta pressed up against each other, which felt very, very, very nice.

Date: 4/11/2014 (Thu)
Total sleep: 11 hrs
Daytime Techniques: RCs
Lucid Techniques: None
Recall Techniques: None (Sick & on night time cold meds)
Fell Asleep: 8:30 pm
Dream 1 Title: Strange in door amusement park
Dream 1: (Fragments) (Note – I woke up after this dream but didn’t even bother to try to recall it. I dozed back off and then remembered this dream in Dream 2) I am at some kind of strange in door amusement park. There is the ride. I have to climb up a set of metal stairs to get on the ride. It looks very unsafe. I don’t know if I can describe it clearly. It has the same design as a toy called a “wiggle snake” (see picture below).

It is huge and is made of highly polished stainless steel. There is a single seat at each of the hinges. When the ride is turned on it whips around in all different motions (in RL this would cause all the riders whiplash). My wife is there and doesn’t want me to go on the ride because it is too dangerous. I tell her not to worry. I know this is a dream so I can’t be hurt (yet I wasn’t lucid). I get on the ride. The seat is tucked into what looks like a large stainless steel cup that just fits one person. The ride goes out over the crowd below (about 40 feet above the people. I can see tables with people eating, and many people standing below the ride. The ride starts and it just moves around (forward, to the right, back to the left, then back…and repeat) very slowly. The ride is completely lame! I am annoyed and can’t wait for it to end. **Jump** I am now in a food court. My wife and daughter are with me and we are waiting in line to get some food. I am happy because they have organic beef hotdogs which I love. I wake up.
Dream 2 Title: LD# 60 Neighbors removing trees (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: (Note: I am sick with a bad cold. I took some night time cold meds last night and slept about 11 hours. My wife slept in another room. She came into our room to get some cloths at about 6:30 am and woke me up briefly. I dozed back off and had this dream.) I am in my house, except it isn’t my RL house it is my parent’s house but I believe it is mine. I know my daughter had a sleep over with some friends last night and they are all down in the basement. I walk to the basement door, open it and walk down about five steps so I can see into the basement. It looks just like it did back in the 80’s when I lived here as a teenager. There is orange carpet on the stairs and floor. There is an old TV and TV stand in the right corner. I see the girls lying on the floor. All of them are covered by blankets or in sleeping bags. I go back upstairs and close the door. I walk over to my wife, who is looking out the front window. I can see the house across the street, which also looks like it did back in the 80’s. It is pink (it is tan today). There is a large black pickup truck, which looks very shiny and new, parked with its tailgate facing us. There is a business name and logo on the tailgate but I don’t bother to read it. The front of the truck is right up against one of the large maple trees in front of the house. I realize that the neighbors have hired a company to remove some of the maple trees in their front yard. I can see a large set of yellow painted metal hydraulic claws attached to the front of the truck. I realize they are going to pull the tree out by its roots. The claws close on the trunk of the tree and the truck begins to back up. The trees is easily pulled from the ground and it falls backward onto the roof of the truck, but the top of the tree falls into my driveway and on top of my car. I am very angry. I am going to go over there and demand they pay for the damage. I am looking at my car, which is under leaf covered branches, and suddenly I realize it isn’t my car, it is a smaller black truck with large hydraulic claws on the roof. The claws close and take hold of many of the branches. The two tucks then begin to drive away with the tree. I decide to go outside and take a look around. I walk out the side door and into the front yard. It is a perfect summer day; warm, clear blue sky, everything is green as far as the eye can see. I see the large whole in the neighbor’s law from where the tree was pulled up. I look at some of the other maple trees and wonder which of those will be removed next. I walk across the front yard to the other side of the house. I walk down to the two car garage which is under the house (looks just like RL). There is a regular door between the garage doors, I walk to it and open it. The garage is full of old junk. I continue to walk through the garage to a second door which leads to a storage room (it still looks just like RL). From that room I can get to the area where the girls are sleeping. Just before I open the door to the storage room I notice my cat sitting near the left wall of the garage behind some of the junk. I open the door to the storage room when suddenly I have a flash memory of a previous dream (Dream 1). For some reason I think that I was lucid in that dream (I was close, but not quit lucid). I think, “I had a lucid dream and forgot about it. How could that happen???” I stop and realize this is not my house, it is my parent’s house. Then I think, “What if I’m dreaming now?” I look at my left hand and count my fingers: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7. I yell “Hey! I’m Dreaming!!” I am lucid. I walk back to the garage door, through which I entered, grab the knob and try to turn it. It doesn’t move because it is now locked. I turn the latch to unlock it and try again. The knob still won’t turn. I say out loud, “This is my dream and this door is unlocked.” I try again and it opens easily. I walk outside. It is like the vividness level has been turned up 1000 fold. The colors are brighter, the detail is amazing. I revel in how beautiful everything looks. I am walking toward a line of maple trees to my right (which aren’t there in RL) and see my cat sitting on the grass. I say, “Hey Punchy! I’m Dreaming! Come on boy!” He ignores me (just like RL). I decide to fly. I take two steps and do a little hop into the air. I am gliding slowly toward the trees and end up under the branches. I turn to my left and glide slowly out into open space. I look up and see a brilliantly blue sky with just a few small puffy white clouds. In a small space between the clouds I can see a few stars. Then I remember my goal of flying into space (which really isn’t a goal any more). I start flying faster straight upward. I don’t feel like I’m flying very fast so I say out loud, “This is my dream and I can fly much faster!” I thrust my arms out in front of me and kick my legs a bit and my speed picks up, but not by much. I still have my eyes on the sky. The blue begins to disappear and more and more stars become clear until the sky above me is full of so many stars that it looks like I can see the entire galaxy. It is so amazing I can’t fully describe it. The dream fades quickly and I open my eyes. I do a RC and I am awake. I need to start working on DEILD. I really field that if I had kept my eyes closed and stayed still I could have reentered that dream.
Awake: 7:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = D1 = 8; D2 = 14
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 8; D2 = 9 then Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 15 min; D2 = 10 min
Emotions: Excitement; Annoyance; Happiness; Anger; Extreme Joy (when lucid)
Dream Signs: Strange amusement park, Dangerous ride, back in parent’s house, Strange machines to rip out trees
Notes: I am coming down with a bad cold. I am taking zinc and vitamin C. I took Alka-Seltzer Plus Night Cold & Flu Formula at 7:20 pm. I headed to bed at 8:15 and was asleep within 15 min. I didn’t do any meditation, visualization, mantras, or any other LD techniques. I did wake up after 2 dreams and didn’t even try to recall. My wife came in the room to get some cloths at around 6:30 am which woke me up. I dozed back off within a few minutes. Then I had my LD. I also remembered a previous dream in the dream that became the LD.

Date: 4/9/2014 (Tue)
Total sleep: 6 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Awareness, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10 pm
Dream 1 Title: Strange trip to the Cape
Dream 1: I know I am at the Cape. I am standing in, what appears to be someone’s backyard. It is a large area of grass with a few large maple trees. There is a large garden, with no fence, just evenly planted rows of flowers and vegetables. One row of flowers look like low growing (about a foot tall) sunflowers, but they are a bright orange color. I see a large, old farm house nearby. The paint is peeling. I walk across the yard to a dirt road and begin to follow it. I can see the ocean on the horizon to my left. I walk up a small hill, and over the crest I can see an ocean front town. It looks like a typical New England ocean front town. There are a lot of grey cedar clapboard covered buildings. I walk down the road, which is now paved. There are buildings on both sides of the street. This area is looking more like Wells Maine. I see a building to my right which I know is a restaurant. It is an open area with red topped tables and white chairs, like a courtyard. There is a serving bar with a large sign above it with a list of foods. I see pictures of hamburgers, hot dogs, and fish and chips. There is text, but I don’t bother reading it. I am not going to eat anything on the menu. There are no people in the restaurant except a man behind the counter. He sees me and says, “Sorry we are all out of food.” I just shrug at him and walk out. I continue to walk down the street toward the ocean. I remember I left my car parked nearby and head towards it. I pass more buildings, one has many multicolored kites hanging out front. I find my car and get in. I begin to drive down the street. The ocean and town are gone. I am now on another dirt road in a rundown town in the woods. I can see tall pine tree covered hills on both sides of the road. I am passing an old auto shop (car/truck repair and gas) on my left. It has a dirt parking lot. Standing in the parking lot is a huge dog. I look closely at it. It looks to be about 5 feet tall (from front feet to top of its head). It is a dark brown color with a long tail that is tick with fur. It has a short snout, more like a bear than a dog. It must weight close to 250 pounds. It is watching my car as we drive by. My wife (who is suddenly in the passenger’s seat) asks, “What kind of dog is that?” I reply, “It’s a wolfdog.” I knew this was correct in my dream. I turn left onto a smaller dirt road. It is very dark. There are small one story houses on my left and right. None of the houses have any lights. My headlights are lighting up the road in front of us. This neighborhood looks abandoned and it is starting to feel like something out of a horror movie. I see a house cat lying in the road in front of me and have to swerve to my left to get around it. Then I see two more cats sitting in the road and have to swerve further to the left to avoid them. This road looks familiar. It looks very similar to a road I’ve near my childhood neighborhood. The road turns to the right. There is tall grass and cat o’nine tails growing in a small swamp on the left hand side of the road. On the right side I can see several three story apartment buildings. The yards of the building are over grown and the buildings look abandoned. There are no lights on. My wife says, “Look!” She is pointing to a mailbox next to the road. It is black and there is a number 13 painted on it in white (standard block letters). I see more mailboxes on the side of the road as well and they all look exactly the same, all have the number 13 on them. I move my headlights up (apparently I can control them like a flashlight) to the buildings and up at the peak of the building, where the wall meets the roof, is a number 13 painted in black. I move the lights to the other buildings and they are all number 13. My wife says, “Oh my God! They are all number 13!” She sounds very scared. I find the situation silly and am not scared. The dream fades and I wake up.
Awake: 3:58 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 8
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 6
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 12 min
Emotions: General contentment, annoyance, slightly amused
Dream Signs: Places similar to locations from my childhood, a dog that doesn’t exist in real life, abandoned buildings
Notes: Took magnesium last night. I read through some dreams from my journal before bed, did some meditation with visualization and mantras for waking after dreams, remembering dreams, and “I’m Dreaming!”. Applied positive emotions to all of these techniques. I slept pretty well but only woke up from one dream at 3:58 am. I spent a few minutes recalling my dream, wrote a few tags, and then rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. My hips were sore from working out yesterday (I am a side sleeper) and I was having trouble getting comfortable. Plus, I was excited because I knew this was a great opportunity for a micro WTWB which caused me to become lucid the night before. I repeated my mantra (I’m Dreaming) with positive emotion as I lay there trying to doze off. I kept a positive attitude about the situation. The discomfort of my hips and the excitement of a potential LD brought me too far out of my sleep state. I lay there quietly letting thoughts and images flash into my head until my light alarm went off at 4:50 am. I turned off the alarm and lay there until 5 am. Then I got up, worked out, showered and was off to work.

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-10

00:27 bedtime

09:20 out of bed

+ swimming in the foggy ocean with John Kerry and friends JT and DT -- John Kerry makes a daring head-first dive into the water missing a (barely) submerged boulder by inches. I'm changing into my swimsuit but don't want DT to see me, I tell her to look away for 5 seconds, I'm pulling up my suit counting to 5 but it gets caught on my feet and I tell DT not to look. I was trying to find a place to change but the shallow water (amongst boulders) was full of crayfish/lobsters.

+ in Church with JT and DT. There is a counter in the middle of the room with tall stools around it as I approach people fill the stools I'm looking for a place to sit. There is singing that is like but unlike what I know, I hear it and sing along with the familiar parts. I talk to the pastor and explain my different behavior because I'm part of another church. Lots of people/families are there

+ walking outside in nature with DT, looking at leaves on the trees.

+ playing video game asteroids-like, I see my ship and the controls I don't have perfect control but do a decent job. The screen fills my vision. The upper half of the screen are a couple of giant unmoving asteroids, the bottom half has my ship maneuvering around to avoid the moving smaller asteroids I think I should shoot some of them.

+ playing 3-d pacman style game, I fly in 3d as DO following game ship, it becomes lifelike 3d scene, I'm doing pretty well

+ wife & kids come home, report car accident nearby, I see car accident in the distance, flying colored sparks, I also see hills in the distance which seem to be lit a bit by the light of the accident area, it's dark/night outside.

+ pull large leafed herbs from inside car and will prepare a soothing tea using a french press after washing them. I wasn't sure at first how to get the leaves to my kitchen. I'm standing outside the front passenger window of the car.

+ observe daylight results of deadly car accident, bodies lying on the street, standing on the crowded sidewalk a tobacco chewer talks to my kids, I get in his face and chase him away by threatening to call the nearby police who will find his illegal chewing tobacco and get him for offering it to children, I think I'm quite a good man for standing up to this guy.

+ parking a car in a self-serve parking garage where you push your car manually on to a lift/elevator and then push it into its assigned stall, can't find my stall, lots of people there in cafes. People are thinking that "aw man that guy put his car in front of mine". I think my stall is number 21 (?), and I keep walking back and forth looking for it but can't find it, there are a lot of cars and motorcycles behind the glass walled little cubbies/stalls for the cars.

+ going out with family from room to swimming pool area with lifeguard there (black female?) we're looking our door with a stange key / lock with shaped hollow regions, we lock the door then I want to check that the key will open it again, there were lots of people around, my vision zooms to the key and the lock.

Slept fairly deeply, don't recall any significant wakings. Also had 2 hour nap from 14:30 until 16:44, not recall

Date: 4/8/2014 (Mon)
Total sleep: 6.75 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Awareness, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization, Reading Dream Journal
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization, Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: (Fragment) Bike Ride
Dream 1: I am riding my old BMX bike along the main street of my town. I am with a friend (but I don’t know him in real life). He is wearing a white t-shirt, blue jeans, and dark blue Converse sneakers. He is riding in front of me on a red BMX style bike (the rims have regular spokes). It is a warm summer day. The trees are covered in green leaves. We swerve off the road onto a dirt path which leads behind a chain link fence on our left. I can see tall green grass on both sides of the path, and taller grass around the fence. The fence is old, the galvanized steel has grown gray with spots of rust. We peddle up a slight incline and I can see a sharper incline (about 10 feet high) in front of us. We stop at the bottom. I know the incline leads to rail road tracks. I know we are trying to get to the high school and the tracks won’t take us there. I say, “I think we should go back and stay on the street.” The dream fades and I wake up at 4:15 am.
Dream 2 Title: The Moon Makes Me Lucid (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in my old house, the first house where I lived with my wife and daughter. I am lying on a mattress, under a white comforter. The mattress is on the living room floor near the large front window. The room looks very similar to reality. I can see the yellow painted walls, the white painted steam heater in front of the window, the light colored wood of the hardwood floor, and the large white framed window. I can see the reflection of the moon on the shine of the hardwood floor. Something doesn’t feel right to me. I roll over onto my back and see my wife next to me, on my left (which is the wrong side of the bed for her). She is snuggled under the blanket so I can only see her wavy blond hair and her face from the nose up. Behind her I can see my daughter laying on the floor under a white blanket. Beyond her I can see the fireplace. I turn back to the window. Outside I can see the large maple tree and beneath it the low stone wall. I can see the neighboring houses beyond the tree. I look upward and see a brilliant moon between the bare branches of the tree. I still feel that something isn’t right. I stare at the moon. It is very bright and much larger than I have ever seen it. I can clearly see the craters on the surface. As I stair I start to wonder if I’m dreaming. Then the craters begin to shift and swirl. The bottom section of the moon begins to disappear. Then I remember that I was back at my real home, in bed, just a little while ago. I am lucid without a reality check. I throw the blankets off of me and stand up. I am no longer in the living room. I am now out in the front yard, but the mattress, my daughter, and the fireplace are all there as well. My wife and daughter are sitting up and looking at me. I say, “I’m Dreaming!” Neither respond. I remember my goal to fly into space, but I don’t remember to stabilize the dream. I also remember that last time I tried to jump to fly it wake me up. I levitate off the ground and float up into the tree branches. I’m annoyed as the branches poke me and I worry I will get tangled. I float away from the tree and begin to fly upward. I am feeling such joy at being lucid again. My eyes are on the night sky, which is now overcast. I will myself to go faster, I want to hit supersonic speed and leave the atmosphere as quickly as possible. I can feel the wind on my face and the g-force increase as it pushed the skin on my face back. I can still only see the clouds and darkness above me. I worry that the dream is going to collapse so I decided to look down at the ground so I have something more upon which to focus. I awaken. I am back in the front yard of my old house laying on some blankets. I am no longer lucid. I can clearly see the yellow vinyl siding, the white framed windows, the stone steps leading up to the white side door, the large front window, and the bushes. My wife and daughter are there and are picking up blankets and clothing off the ground. I get up and begin searching for my notebook so I can write down my lucid dream. I am looking under cloths and blanket, but just can’t find it. I’m very annoyed because I don’t want to forget the dream. My in-laws walk out of the door of the house and into the yard. I say to my mother in lay, “I just had a lucid dream.” I start to explain the dream to her, but the dream fades and I awake. It is 4:47 am.
Awake: 4:47 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 5; D2 = 12
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 5; D2 = Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 2 min; D2 = 10 min
Emotions: Joy, Annoyance, Worry
Dream Signs: Riding old BMX bike, Being a kid again, Back at old house, laying on a mattress in the living room/font yard
Notes: I took magnesium before bed. I read my dream journal, meditated, visualized being lucid in a dream, stated my intent to wake up after each dream and remember my dreams, and repeated my mantra before I dozed off. I did wake up several times after 4 of my dreams, but couldn’t recall the first 2. I did not get frustrated by the lack of recall. I reminded myself that I am in the early stages of learning and I will continue to improve. I stated my mantra each time I awoke until I dozed back off. This LD happed exactly like my recent ones. I woke up after 4 am from a dream. I made some mental notes about the dream. I stated my mantras as I dozed off. Then, while I was dreaming, my awareness was much higher. I could “feel” that something wasn’t right. Then something trigged me to remember being back in my RL bed shortly before the dream. I do need to work on stabilizing the dream. This particular dream hasn’t left me with as much of a “high” as other recent LDs. I feel it is due to the false awakening. The lucid part of my dream doesn’t feel as vivid to me because I didn’t come straight from lucidity to being awake. I have to work on RCs after all awakenings.
I am going to change my goals for LDs. My #1 priority is to get lucid as often as possible. The experience of being lucid is the best way for me to have more LDs. When I am having them more often then I can start setting goals for what I want to do in the dreams. For now I just want to stabilize the dream, explore and do what I feel like at the time. I just want to gain more experience.

No Dream's Recalled.

Had a good 8 hours sleep, i even woke up a few times in the night and willed myself to dream vividly, just vividly, not even lucidly, just vividly for now but nothing happened when i went back to slumberland.

It seems my dream recall over the past few days has gone down a heck of a lot, just before i joined DV i was remembering 4 to 5 dreams a night sometimes,, maybe i am trying too hard to remember them, can one really try too hard?

I do do all things necessary, i do a recap on the journal in bed last thing at night, then do my mantra's*, then when i wake up i try to be as still as possible, but i am still really sleepy when i wake so i end up shifting my body without realizing it, if only i can remain completely still in bed then i might remember more of the nights adventures.

As a side note, i am still immersing myself with dream related literature, i have now read ETWOLD by LaBerge, as well as Daniel Loves Are You Dreaming, and i am now almost midway through Charlie Morleys Dreams Of Awakening, usually i am a speedy reader, but i am taking my time with these books, more than i usually spend reading them anyway, i often find myself taking a step back and analyzing what i just read.

I will continue reading these books for now, but for the time being i will relinguish the pressure to recall my dreams, obviously meditate before bed, but i wont be willing myself so hard to remember my dreams.

* My mantra is this... "When i wake up I shall remain perfectly still, and will remember my dreams completely"

Mantra's can be very powerful, so it would be reassuring to know that i have chosen my words wisely, if not, and if anyone has any suggestions as to how i could word the aforementioned mantra, please do leave a comment or invade my dream or something, maybe not invade, just knock on one of my dream doors and ill let you in

@ My (country) lucid hideout

01:30 Bedtime. Was (re)watching Firefly, cand ouldn't help "just one more episode...just one more...". Room temp: +21C

08:00

(definitely some from earlier wakings)

+ helping police catch crazy redneck drivers who are speeding

+ at work I finally figure out the strange little device in the kitchen is a refrigerator for personalized water cups and that the group assistant had prepared my personal water cup with my name on it loooong ago, I feel foolish that I'm only now figuring this out. The device holds the cups, about 4-5 in a row, on a slightly inclined shelf.

+ go into a meeting room with a bunch of coworkers where a guy is the keeper of the cupcakes, they're everywhere, some are tall and irregular looking like dripped sand castles, a guy says he's working on the last generation of product that we'll have to support for 3 years but will make the company a lot of money, I agree with him on this. Walking by my cube on the way to the meeting I think I see a large strange sign over my cube.

+ some indoor space there's an irregular hole in the foundation, I see another one further on, some guy asks me what kind of animals(s) make that whole (he knows), I don't know he tells me it's two animals (I forgot them) then I see a 1/2 meter diameter tortoise it's on my leg I kick at it I'm so sorry I didn't want to hurt it then it lunges at another guy's leg and he kicks it away, too.

+ I'm walking outside in bright daylight, walk by a van, I'm on some empty street , blue sky, green grass, bright daylight, I'm thinking this would be a good place to live with this much sunlight but it might not be good for my skin.

+ I see my face as if looking in a mirror (but I don't have the sense of looking in a mirror), I'm about half my age and clean-shaved, I say to my wife "oh I must have shaved without knowing it" (I had no memory of shaving), I'm amazed at how young and bright I look after shaving, I see myself very very clearly, I think I don't see any jowls like my wife says I would have if I shaved.

+ At MR's restaurant he's preparing me a margarita, I'm going to have chips with guacamole I realize later I never ate it, at the time Im not sure if I can pay for it

+ sitting at a table with other people I look at one woman and realize she's former colleague Pa Wo and her husband, I say to her "I didn't realize it was you!"

+ on a phone call with the orchestra conductor, he wants to go over the music with me, I'm singing my instrument's part. I see the notes, read the rhythms, and hear myself singing and making harmony. Later on I realize I'm not on the phone with the conductor any more but I don't recall hanging up, I think he's probably pretty angry about that. When singing I'm thinking about B-flats.

+ Before rehersal I see my instrument disassembled into many parts I'm gathering them up to get ready

+ Pull a huuuuuge book: tall, wide, think, from a bookshelf, the title is "Dogs of War: Dachshunds" written by the Nazi party. I'm looking through the book which my sons, it looks like a giant Yellow Pages directory with nothing but advertisements in it, I wonder where all the articles were and if Nazis read all of these ads.

Room temp morning: +17C

Date: 4/7/2014 (Mon)
Total sleep: 7 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Car on the beach
Dream 1: I am with Gwen and some other people. We have driven an old blue car (1970’s car) onto a beach and parked it right near the wave line. We are having some kind of beach party. She asks me to go and get something. I walk off the beach and end up on a very thin road (more like a bike path). There are many houses and stores along this path. I see a man grilling with his family. I go down one side path and end up in a place that looks like something from a theme park. It has a very “middle ages” feel, like I am in the castle of a knight of old. The dream fades and I awake.
Awake: 5:00 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 3
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 3
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 10 min
Emotions: General happiness
Dream Signs: Car on the beach, strange situation, bike path with many houses, theme park area
Notes: Took Melatonin and Magnesium before bed. I have struggled this past weekend with LDing. My dream recall on Friday & Saturday night was horrible. I can only attribute this to my weekend schedule being so different than my work week schedule (to bed much later). But, the horrible dream recall is frustrating me. Last night my dream recall was better. I woke up from the first dream at 3:45 am. I had clear memories of the dream. I jotted down a few tags in my note book, ran through the dream in my head one more time, and then dozed back off. I awoke to my alarm which startled me. This destroyed my recall of the dream I was having just before the alarm, and negatively impacted my dream recall of my previous dream. I forgot to set the light alarm for my clock (must be set separately). I had a rough weekend. I injured my knee (this is a knee I severely injured in the past, so I have reoccurring issues) this weekend which is now impacting my morning workouts. My wife is having some health issues which are a struggle. Work has also been a struggle lately (the end of each quarter is always very busy, plus some other issues). On top of all that I am having issues with dream recall (which could be partial impacted by all the other issues). Hopefully things will get better soon.

Date: 4/6/2014
Total sleep: 7 hours
Daytime Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Visualization
Lucid Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Mantras, Medititation/Visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantra/Intent, Remembering past hour of events during the day
Fell Asleep: 12:00 am
Dream 1 Title: None
Dream 1: I woke up at 7 am from what I know was a long and interesting dream. Yet, I just couldn’t seem to focus in on any single point so I could start recalling more. It was like looking through a thick fog. It was very frustrating that I couldn’t recall a single detail.
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = ?
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = ?
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = ?
Emotions: ?
Dream Signs: ?
Notes: I find it very frustrating when I know I’ve had a dream, I wake up right after, and yet just can get through the brain fog to recall any details.

Date: 4/5/2014
Total sleep: 7.5 hours
Daytime Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Visualization
Lucid Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Mantras, Medititation/Visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantra/Intent, Remembering past hour of events during the day
Fell Asleep: 11:00
Dream 1 Title: (Fragment)
Dream 1: I woke up right after this dream ended and struggled to remember anything. The last thing I could remember: I was riding a bicycle on the great wall of China.
Dream 2 Title: (Fragment) Porn at work
Dream 2: Another long dream, and I couldn’t work my way back from the very last event. I am at work. I am in an area with cubicles, but they are outside. I am with a coworker who I know in the dream but not in RL. My computer is on and there are small pictures of cartoon people in different sexual situation. I know they are links to cartoon pornographic movie clips. My coworker wants to watch some of them. I am very nervous that I am going to get in trouble for this because it is on my computer. He takes the mouse and clicks on the first link. The dream fades and I wake up. It is 5:26 am. I struggle with recall. I know this was a very long dream, but I just can’t seem to work my way back to the beginning. Frustration may have kept me awake. I dozed back off about an hour later.
Dream 3 Title: (Fragment) The Three Stooges burned a bank
Dream 3: I am walking down a city street. I see a bank and realize I need to get some money from an ATM. I open the door and enter the bank. There are 3 ATMs, but they are all burnt and useless. I’m surprised by this. I walk back out onto the street and go right. I walk a short way and there is an ally on my right. I see the Three Stooges sitting on a bench in the alley looking ashamed. All of them are wearing business suits, but they are burnt and smoking. Their faces are covered in gray and black ash, and Moe & Larry’s hair is singed and smoking. I realize they were the bankers in charge of the bank and their comical antics have destroyed the bank. I awake to my wife’s alarm. She hits SNOOZE.
Dream 4 Title: (Fragment) Rob Lowe motivational speaker
Dream 4: I doze back off after the alarm. I am back at work. Rob Lowe is there. He is wearing a very nice business suit. He is there to give a motivational speech. I wake up to my wife’s alarm again. She hits SNOOZE.
Dream 5 Title: (Fragment) I forgot to shut off my computer
Dream 5: I doze back off after the 2nd alarm. I am back at work. I remember that I had porn sights up on my computer (from Dream 2), but I forgot to shut my computer off and my boss (My old boss, who is a complete A-Hole in real life) is walking around checking computers. I am in a panic. I am running down a hall to get to my computer and my wife is right behind me. I get to my cubicle and my computer is gone. I realize my boss has found it and taken it to HR. I know I’m going to lose my job. I fall to my knees. I am so angry and ashamed. My wife comes up next to me, places her hand on my back and tells me it is going to be ok. I wake up to my wife’s alarm yet again. She hits SNOOZE. I get up at this point.
Awake: 5:30 am, fell back to sleep around 6:30 am up at 7:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 2; D2 = 4; D3 = 5; D4 = 5; D5 = 5
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 2; D2 = 3; D3 = 4; D4 = 4; D5 = 4
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = ?; D2 = I know this was a long dream, probably 20 min, but I only remember about 3 min; D3 = 3 min; D4 = 1 min; D5 = 2 min
Emotions: Nervousness, fear, panic, shame, annoyance
Dream Signs: Celebrities, Strange Places, Strange Bad Situations
Notes: I took magnesium before bed. This was a frustrating night. I struggled with recall. When I recall, it is like pulling an anchor out of the water. I have the very end of the chain and the rest is below the surface. Some nights I can pull it all the way up without issue. Other night I can only hold onto the very end of the chain and the rest stays under water. I'm sure my frustration earlier in the night caused issues for the rest of the night.

Date: 4/4/14 (Thu)
Total sleep: 6.5 Hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Aimless wandering
Dream 1: I am walking up a low grassy hill with my wife. We are walking to the mall together. I am wearing a long black trench coat. **Jump** I am at the mall and I am in the kitchen area of a restaurant. Lisa from work is there. She asks me if I need help with anything and I say no. There are stainless steel cabinets and counters all around me. They are covered of boxes, cans, bottles and kitchen utensils. There is a large gray plastic trash bin, with wheels, right in front of me. I look in. There are a few boxes, and beneath them are a bunch of cookies. I see some cookie that are cupped, and in the depression is yellow filling. I know they are lemon and really want to eat some. I reach in to take some, but realize they are in the trash and that would be disgusting. I walk out thought a set of swinging doors and find myself in a local mall. I walk to my left, not paying too much attention to anything. There are people all around. I notice a pretty woman pushing a baby carriage and stop to look at the baby. She gives me a dirty look. I feel embarrassed. I quickly turn away and walk into the store to my right. Then I realize this isn’t a store but a daycare center. I know I shouldn’t be in there because you have to sign in before entering for security reasons. I quickly leave. **Jump** I am sitting in the sand of a beach, but I can’t see, hear or smell the ocean. It feels like I’m on a movie set. But, the sand feels nice. It is warm and very dry. Then I notice a bundle of sticks sticking out of the sand to my right. They are sticks which would be used for beef and chicken skewers at a Chinese restaurant. Then I see pieces of meat clinging to the sticks. I am disgusted. I look around and there are many more around me, sticking out of the sand. I realize I am sitting in the middle of a garbage dump. I jump to my feet and begin to walk away. The dream fades and I awake.
Dream 2 Title: Sleeping in a warehouse (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in some kind of small warehouse. The floors and walls are cement. There are tables and chairs set up. There is a small stage. There are miscellaneous items (boxes, bins, boards, etc) that you may find in a warehouse pushed up against the walls. My wife and daughter are there. We find seats at a large round table (seats about 8 people) as more people start to come into the room. Everyone starts to take their seats. A woman comes in and goes up to the mic on the small stage. I realize she is a comedian. She walks out into the audience and is talking but I can’t make out what she is saying. She walks to our table and put’s her hand on my daughter’s shoulder. She gets up from her seat and walks with the woman. I assume she is going to go up on stage as part of the act, but instead the woman escorts her to another table. I’m confused by this. I realize I am sitting on a couch and I lay down on my side because I’m feeling tired. I see my wife get up, walk over to the table where my daughter is now sitting and sit next to her. Things start to fade out as I feel I am falling asleep. I open my eyes and the show is over. I am still lying down with a coat covering me. I look over my right shoulder and see Maggie (a woman I used to work with over 10 yrs ago). I say hi to her. She says Hi back but is looking at me funny because I am sleeping during a show. I sit up and look for my wife and daughter, but I realize I am now shirtless and only wearing athletic shorts. I see my wife and daughter about 20 feet away, they have their backs to me. I notice my daughter has much more hair than in RL, it is up in a ponytail and hangs to the back of her legs. Someone behind me playfully wraps his or her arms around my neck. I don’t know who it is. I move toward my wife and daughter and the person continues to hang on. My wife turns and smiles. The person lets go and I turn around. It is a young man who I don’t recognize (in the dream or RL). He is about my daughter’s age, with short red curly hair and lots of freckles on his face. Behind him a see a large metal sliding door which I know leads out of the building. Something is feeling strange about this situation. I walk to the door. Suddenly I have a shirt on. I know I was shirtless seconds ago, and I know something isn’t right. Then I remember I was awake in my bed just a little while ago, and having a lot of trouble falling back to sleep. I am lucid without doing a reality check. Everything around me, colors and details, become more vivid. I am surprisingly calm. (I completely forgot to stabilize) I grab the handle of the door and slid it open. There is an alley before me with a one story brick building to the left and a wooden stockade fence to the right. I walk out into the ally. About 20 feet down the alley is a maroon dumpster and standing hear it is a woman. She is taller than me (probably 6 ‘6”) with dark black wavy hair that falls below her shoulders. She is wearing a puffy white long sleeve shirt, a long black skirt, and tall black boots. She reminds me of a gypsy. I walk towards her. She turns and smiles at me. I smile back. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She continues to look at me but her face morphs. Her cheek bones and jaw become more pronounce and the shadow of beard stubble appears. She is now a man dressed like a woman. I ignore this change knowing this is just a dream. I decide to jump over the six foot fence to my right. As I jump I remember my goal, and drop back to the ground. I know I want to fly into space and view the earth from orbit. I look up at the sky, which is brilliantly blue with no clouds. I turn back to the man/woman and say “Do you want to see something amazing?” He/she nods. I look back to the sky and it has changed. It is a swirling mass of deep purple and blue with millions of stars and galaxies. I pause for a moment to stare at this amazing sight. Then I squat down a bit and give a tremendous leap…but my real life legs respond and jerk which immediately wakes me up.
Awake:: 4:00 am then dozed back off around 5 am and awoke at 5:15 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 6; D2 = before lucid 8, after lucid 13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 before lucid 8 then Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 20 min; D2 10 min
Emotions: Disappointment, Fear, Embarrassment; Disgust; Happiness
Dream Signs: In strange places (restaurant kitchen, day care center, warehouse, beach, etc), person from my past, daughter with long hair, some kid I don’t know hugging me from behind)
Notes: I woke up after Dream 1 just before 4 am. I have pain in my neck. I lay there recalling my dream for a few minutes. I make mental tags. But then I realize I’m probably not going to be able to fall back to sleep. I then jot my tags down on my notebook and lay there thinking about my dream and trying to remember previous dreams from earlier that night. I glance at the clock at 4:32 am. I start meditating (breathing, clearing my mind) in the hope of falling back to sleep. I glace at the clock at 4:53 am. Then I ended up in Dream 2, but it was a very light sleep right on the verge of waking up. In the dream I completely forgot to stabilize. I’m sure that would have helped.

Date: 4/3/2014 (Wed)
Total sleep: 7 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization, reviewing DJ
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 9:45 pm
Dream 1 Title: (Fragment) Looking for a location to shoot a movie
Dream 1: I am driving in my car with John C (a guy who used to work for me). We are on Rt 146 south. We are coming up on a golf course on our right which may be a good place the shoot or movie. I pass the golf course and pull into a “U” shaped driveway of a hotel. **Jump** I am in the hotel dining room. It is breakfast time. I am sitting at a small table. There are other people walking around, or sitting at tables. I see Patrick Wilson (the actor). He is caring a plate of food away from the buffet. I am trying to catch his eye because I want to tell him that I was very impressed with his character from “The Watchmen” movie. But he walks past me without making eye contact. **Jump** I am outside, standing on a low hill overlooking a golf course. John C is next to me. We think that this would be a great place to shoot our movie. I wake up.
Dream 2 Title: Missing class due to crime spree
Dream 2: I am in my house, only it looks more like house of my childhood friends. My daughter and two of her friends are with me. They are very scared and whispering to me that someone has broken into the house. The house is very dimly lit. I know the burglar is on the second floor. I move to the stairs as quietly as I can. I climb the stairs and into a small hallway. I can go into the room on the left or the room on the right. I go left. The room is very messy. There are piles of cloths scattered all over the floor, the bed, and the dresser. The only light is moon light shining in through the window. I see a boy (about my daughter’s age standing near the window. I move forward quickly and grab hold of his left arm. He doesn’t resist. I tell him that the police are on the way (although I didn’t call them). I take him down stairs. He tells me that his older brother is on his way with a van. They were going to clean the house out. I open the front door and see a bright yellow van backing up the driveway. I run out. The driver must have seen me because he starts to pull away quickly, but he swerves onto the grass and the two right wheels go off a small hill. The van tips to the right and rolls over into a muddy ditch. Just then a police car pulls into the driveway. I look past the van, to my right, and see the Quinsigamond Community College campus (although it looked very different than reality). I know I have to get to class. I walk away from the crime scene and onto the campus. I meet up with Sheryl F (a woman I know in RL) who is the class with me. She is very upset and on the verge of tears. I ask her what’s wrong. She tells me that her van was stolen. It was her work van which was full of radiology equipment. She was afraid that she would lose her job and have to pay back the tens of thousands of dollars to replace the equipment. I feel very bad for her. We are down by a street and the police arrive. There is a large crowd of people there. Sheryl gave information to the police. That is when I realize that my car has been broken into. Someone had broken my driver’s side window and taken some stuff from the car (but I have no idea what stuff). I explain this to the police. I realize that Sheryl and I are going to miss class because of this mess. I am even more upset at this point. Sheryl and I go to find our professor. We walk a short distance and we find him. His is walking to the classroom. He is also running late for class. We briefly explain the situation and he tells us not to worry and that we don’t have to attend today’s class. I am very relieved. Sheryl and I decide to find a vending machine to get some food. We walk to a building (which look like one of my old grade schools). I notice that Mr. T is walking right in front of us. He looks like he currently does, in his early 60’s. He stops just inside the door, blocking our way. There is a “Rocky III” poster on the wall. It is a picture of him in his prime. He is staring at the picture and is noticeably upset. Sheryl and I try to comfort him. We tell him that he is still in very good shape for his age. He takes his shirt off and begins to flex his chest at the poster says, “I still got it. I can get back to lookin’ like that!” We tell him that he definitely can get back. Sheryl and I walk away (forgot about the food) and head to another building. I see a small brick building with large glass windows and a glass door. It looks more like a small store than a school building. I know this is where our class was being held. I know it is time for class to be released. I also notice a pumpkin next to the door. The door opens and a stream of children (8 – 10 years old) come out. All are wearing Halloween costumes. At the very end our professor comes out, only he is Svengoolie (horror movie TV host) and he is riding a horse. He rears the horse up and waves to us before riding off. The light from my alarm wakes me up.
Awake: 4:45 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 5; D2 = 9
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 = 6
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 5 min; D2 = 15 min
Emotions: Nervous, Fear, Anxious, Anger, Relief
Dream Signs: School, Celebrities, old friend’s house, shifting scenery, old friends, strand situations (break ins, theft, van tipping over)
Notes: I took some B-5 and Chorine last night, but all it did was give me mild heartburn. I reviewed some dreams in my dream journal. I did some meditation along with mantras and visualization (becoming lucid in one of my prior normal dreams) I really felt the joy of being lucid and approached everything with a very positive attitude. I did mental tags for the first dream of the night (Night Owl, shooting a movie, golf course) which did help me remember.
Text Search Experiment: I was very aware of text all day.

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-03

00:30 bedtime, bad, let family skype call go late and interefere with bedtime

Felt very alert, wife to bed at same time, started snoring a bit, felt alert, took 1mg melatonin, fell asleep

04:59

+ climb in the pipe where the monsters are. Lions were not hungry? Night time, dark outside, there is a large long rusty pipe (big enough for people to crouch down in) I'm thinking about finding the entrance to it, it's farther on, I know there are monsters in the pipe. Encounter several lions farther on, they don't attack, they're walking around regally emerging from their stalls.

+ I'm outside and see a large branch/log I think of breaking it off and using it. On a path outdoors in daylight

+ Kind of lucid moment last night, not really worth counting perhaps, at some strange moment where I was looking at some device that had broken open and a voice/being was telling me that our entire purpose of being was now ruined. Then my older son leans his head into the room and asks me what I'm doing. I think this is just like a FA I had the other day where my son leans his head into the room after I know he'd left for an overnight trip, think I may be dreaming and do a nose pinch and it indicates dream but the feeling is weird, like I'm already half awake, I'm hovering between sleep and dream and trying to do another nose pinch with dream hands and think if I get back to sleep I'll lucid dream.

+ grocery store. Starting at the check out, something's not right at the check out stand, I'm wondering where my dental bridge is. Further into the store I see a men's shirt department, the shirts are striped boldly, mostly blue white and purple, there are other men in there also looking at the shirts, I notice an open shirt I think I see the size is "48". I'm not sure that will fit me.

+ (lucid maybe?) I'm contemplating a broken strange glowing device, a voice says this ruins our reason for existence. My older son leans his face into the room and asks me what I'm doing. I think this is strange and seems familiar to the FA I had last week with him doing the same thing, I think I may be dreaming, do a noise pinch it seems to indicate dream, I'm fading between dream and waking, thinking if I get back to sleep I'll be in a lucid dream.

07:46 alarm

+ returning to grocery store (where I was in earlier dream I think) with wife. I've recently discovered this store in a mall. I say "it's like Whole Food Store," we're approaching the store from outside, there are displays outside the front door under a roof. Through the glass wall (dreamsign) I see the inside of the store with lots of large flower displays. We enter the store, I'm carrying a tray with the remains of some lunch on it, there are glass plates and a crystal bud vase, I don't want to just toss the tray down and break things, I'm asking store workers where I should put it, one guy is standing next to a bowl full of a tasty looking salad I realize I still have some of this salad on my plate I should finish it, can't find where to put my tray down. Lot of people in the store.

+ At the top of a tall waterslide, I'm standing up there a long time, I start going down and they turn off the water when I'm part way down so I don't slide very easily. I think they didn't know I was up there and they must turn off the water if nobody uses the slide for a while to save energy. I make a connection with another slide that involves sort of jumping from one slide to another slide tube that runs just below it at a right angle, I hold on and make the transition successfully and reach the bottom. Emerging from the slide some DC makes a comment on something I did wrong on the slide, I say "what? " he walks away, I'm angry at him. Walking back across the slide exit and farther along there is a billboard? And an access panel where one must enter an access code, I see English letters and am surprised a bit by this, I see them clearly, the letters "r", "e", and "n", they're serifs are highly stylised/fancy. I think you have to type "render."

+ I'm looking at a form, either electronic or paper bill where Mastercard is offering your credit, I'm trying to clearly see that part, the words are written all on top of each other and hard to read, I know there's an offer for a Mastercard in there and I want to find it I think of doing a search on the page to find the link.

+ I'm trying to use a paper (electronic?) catalog and I'm pressing on parts of the page expecting it to react like a web page. I'm interesting in how the electronics know where you're pressing on the page.

+ Outside the store there's a large truck that pulls up, I'm sitting down my wife approaches and starts talking about our family finances, I say "shhhhh! People could be on the other side of that truck listening to us" i keep motioning for her to come closer and closer so she doesn't need to shout there may be somebody we know on the other side of the truck. She tells me I must go myself to the judge to explain our situation with the credit cards, I ask what time, she says 7:30pm. She's telling me I must plea guilty before I can offer explanation. I have to say "I didn't know I was going over the limit," make myself sound like an idiot I don't want to, I'm trying to think about what exactly happened with the credit cards, how I was using one card to pay off another and that's not allowed, I wonder how we got so deeply in debt, we had to pay the rent, I talk about this with my wife we discuss how we were kicked out of our rental on M lane by the owners right when our second child was born, my wife said that happened on "March 6th". I'm not looking forward to see the judge to make myself sound like an idiot I have no idea how I'll get away with this.

+ Sitting at a table in a cafeteria area in the grocery store (large, open, widely spaced tables), some men sitting at the table in front of me are talking about tea. Mostly about how there is no good tea in America. I want to tell them about the little gourmet tea shops you can find in some small cities. I maybe tell them. Again I wonder where my dental bridge is I feel the gap in my teeth where it should be.

+ sitting at a table in a kitchen, wife sets the table with food, it looks like large white curds of cottage cheese, there's a funny little baby laughing on my wife's plate, I was playing with it a bit, there are some pink juices in the food and I think it's actually lamb, and I think how the food you're fed as a baby is the food you'll like later in life. I'm wondering if the food is completely cooked, I'm eating it, close up view of the food in the plate.

10:00 trying a BTB

tried breathing synchronized with heartbeat, sort of worked to get relaxed but not WILD
turned to my back eventualy side was very sore

woke on my back, first time I've slept on my back in a while.

+ testing the hearing of a little baby. I'm in a dark room lying on a bed with a small creepy faced baby. I'm lying close and have a close up of its face. It turns to face me when I make a sound, I think that it's good that it responds to sound at least it can her. I straddle it on top it's lying on its back on the bed and I zoom my face from left to right to left and its head turns to follow me and the sound and it laughs at this fast movement. I think of trying something else with the baby but my wife comes in and says that you shouldn't do that with a baby.

+ close up of a guitar fret, I'm playing an awesome tune with hammer-ons, pull-offs, bends, glissandos, I hear the music it sounds really good I see my fingers on the strings.

+ leaving a restaurant with a group of people including a very large woman.

23:00 peppermint + some weird new herbal tea. Supposed to be good for the heart. Hah wired me awake with heart-pounding-strain instead I think. Or all the dark chocolate before bed perhaps.

23:52 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-02

Takes a while to get to sleep, 45 minutes at least.

01:15 wife shocks me awake coming late to bed. She gets mad that I'm mad that she woke me up. Her getting mad makes me mad and I don't sleep for 2-3 more hours while she snores away.

02:55 still awake up to kitchen for milk, shaking my head at the night's scenario

03? on the computer. Wife wakes for bathroom and asks me to get up at 07:30 for breakfast duty. I'm pissed. Go to bed and manage to sleep somehow using my relaxation technique.

07:30 alarm. I was tightly asleep.

+ vague memory of long dreams with lots of activity of lots of people in/around a house. Definitely the sense of long continuous memory of the action. High school friends? Food?

08:07 BTB
08:30? sleep

several wakings, only record at final waking

12:16

+ in ocean with wife lose sight of her I look around back to the beach and into the water again then see her big waves are coming I see her in the water we're close to the wall I go over to get her so she won't be smacked into the wall from the waves, I notice the wave has pulled back and stopped leaving the dry ground around us, I think oh that's nice that the wave has paused, we exit the surf.

+ dictators running camps for kids. Walking high on a hill overlooking the beach I notice holes in the ground with corpses of people buried vertically alive. In some cases the bloody bodies are there, in some cases not, I'm kicking the dirt in to fill up the holes. I see one hole with a torture chamber iron-maiden wire cage I see the place for the head at first I think there are spikes in there but look closer and don't see them but you can't move your head in that thing.

There's a procession walk, going up a hill, they say "follow the red point path" that's the path of our walk. In the distance I see a guy do something that the path up the hill is cleared of dirt it shoots to the left and the right of the path leaving it clean, and a red spot appears at the top. I see him do this twice.

A voice says "if anybody has kept a log of camp we'll want to review them" I think I've kept a log but I don't want them to see it. I see what I think is a large memorial stone. I take a picture of it as proof. KS walks by she was selected to be married to a camper who did a good job, I think she's a virgin as she walks by but as she returns she will already have been married.

+ in a big rich house. A bunch of workmen come into the house through a hole in the ground of a back room. They're workmen for the mob. I'm annoyed by them. A bunch of mafia leaders are there and I'm complaining about the workmen they indicate that only mob members matter, they look up in the rulebooks to see if I can join it takes a large donation and I have to be sure I want to live that sort of lifestyle I'm pretty sure I do not want to so I'll just have to put up with the workmen. Later on I see a grate with screws has been placed over the hole.

There's a fight down below in the hole. I'm present with others, me and my (evil mafia monster partner?) are the only ones who make it out alive. I'm walking down a row of people the evil guys are looking for someone who made a sound to kill them, people are standing close to one another in pairs, bodies and faces pressed up agianst one another, I think I see myself 3rd person at one point. I see everybody close up.

+ in an ice cream shop. The main counter is busy I go around to the left to place my order. I place my order with the clerk for two different flavors, they don't have one of them I see "Oh this isn't Baskin Robbins?" There were super fruity flavors. I walk back around to the right main long counter. I see a pumpkin pie flavored one and indicate that for my second flavor, some DC says he knew I would chose that one and sort of snorts, I'm annoyed by his condescension. I see the clerk serving it up, there is a meter long high chocolate cake bottom to the ice cream that gets served out of a long tube and the whole thing becomes compacted down to fit into your cup. I think they bake the cakes especially this way so that they can be compacted. The clerk spills a part of my cake on the counter and scoops it up and back in to my serving I think that's gross because people's fingers are all over the edge of the counter, it's going to be full of germs, but I don't say anything.

(IWL I got lunch at a place where they put the trays of orders being prepared right out on the sales counter right directly where people stand and can breath/sneeze into the food. I saw a very colorful donut/coffee place after lunch).