Side Notes
Well this week or months. have been bad for recall. Can't recall many of my longer non lucids because they weren't interesting enough to hold in my memory. Should I start taking notes again? Jamie dreams First one is: I dream Jamie started her own psychic webpage as a call psychic. While I am a christian and I don't agree with this. Since I probably gave her the ideas please send me royalties!!! Most of these dreams were like hypnagogic imagery while falling asleep. second one is she is holding my chin and kisses me. In one dream I am on the fortnite map and hanging with some blond girl. Her energy completely blocks out Jamie's and overtakes it completely. I am dumbstruck since no one can steal Jamie's thunder. Then I have one where I am reading the message I sent her... I find I can't send anymore messages. she has me on block or something. But her profile picture changes.. twice. I feel intensely rejected in this dream. Another where I am trying to find her but she avoids me at every turn. In the last one she seems to have gotten over her mood or whatever it was. We are in a fortnite game on opposing teams. but we decide to team up anyway. just me and Her. Our energy seems drawn to one another no matter what. We just walk alone on a hill somewhere quietly. Jesus has been strangely quiet in these past few weeks.
Wrong house I walk into some youtuber's house. his and his girlfriend are mad that I'm just there. He just yells at me to leave. Arguing Had this right after the other dream. Same scenario. But I'm in a house arguing with my distant uncle and his wife. They really hate me and keep asking me to leave. At one point the woman asks, "Tell me about the gospel." but it descends into another argument and I leave. Jamie dreams are swingy. Walking. In this dream we are walking to a 711 or something. the ground is covered in snow. That's all I remember. Scary In this dream I just see Jamie talking to herself. Just repeating, "Don't do it. Don't do it." Over and over again. Not sure why or over who or what. Really? Just and audio one while I'll falling asleep. I clearly heard, "I love you." Quiet I find Jamie in an attic. She won't look at me or talk to me. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do. She vanishes somewhere so me and some friends go everywhere trying to look for her. I have an uneasy feeling the whole time. cruising another good dream where me and Jamie are just cruising around in her car. wish I remembered more on this one. H Walking around with a girl I used to dream about way too many years ago. True story: I had this dream where I was flying up around her, and she asked, "how do you do that?" I said <"Just flap your arms and float up." A fe days later I see her IRL and she goes up to me all excited and says she's been having these silly dreams where she flies by flapping her arms. In the dream we start at a house. I am trying on some clothes when I realize I have 3 shirts on. And it's hot out. so I go down to one shirt. Me and H leave. We wind up in some jungle. We came across a swamp after all these trails. But we both had different ways to cross it. That's all I remember.
Date of Dream: SAT 20 APR - 2019 Dream No. 580 - Academic Misconduct For the start of the dream, I was at Killester College and I was heading into room KD02; I was wearing my high school summer dress. There I saw WB heading to one of the lockers and so I started talking to her. I said to her, something like, “Wait a minute… 2019 and you’re still in school? That shouldn’t be happening; in-fact, that’s academic misconduct”, insinuating that she was supposed to have graduated in 2017 like in real life. She answered but I forgot what she said, she sounded somewhat clueless and also slightly annoyed like she would towards me in real life. At the same time, she was willing to hear what I was going to do. I said to her “I’m going to call someone over, his name is 18-Volt, and he’ll get you guys out”. The teacher came in and I proceeded to leave the classroom and do my thing. On the way out, another teacher Mr. Bl had stopped me and spoke to me, so I told him what I was going to do. He said to me, “But just know that the school policy is to delay”, which I knew meant to not act until you have thought about the consequences. I needed to act now though and I knew what I was doing and so I replied to Mr. Bl, “Don’t worry, I’m calling someone in who can handle this professionally which is something I wouldn’t be able to do myself”. Mr. Bl had a gleam in his face, meaning to me that he accepted this idea and now I could get moving. >>MATURE CONTENT WARNING (If you are not comfortable about reading on "sex" or "rape" then skip this section and continue reading after the next red marker). As I walked across the lawn of the admin area and into the main school driveway, Mr. K had crept up behind me. He looked normal but then things started to turn gruesome very quickly. He had grabbed me with his own hands and was attempting to undress me. I told him to stop but he wouldn’t. With me struggling against him, I was getting lower and lower to the ground, trying to hunch over and keep some dignity but Mr. K was just too strong and his hands were dismantling my clothes from me. As I bent as low as I could, I thought to myself, “I hope 18-Volt comes soon”. While still battling to keep my dignity in-tact, I looked outwards and saw 18-Volt in his Warioware Twisted appearance, he was walking down Spr. Road and in through the pedestrian gate. He was only walking but when he saw what was going on, he came at a brisk pace and then pushed and pulled, grimacing as he pried Mr. K off me. Once 18-Volt had finally got Mr. K off, the camera zoomed in on him, he now had the realistic Game and Wario appearance, still in his jacket and pants though; interestingly, his teeth showing as he talked even though the real life picture doesn’t show his teeth. With his face baffled and dumbfounded, he said to Mr. K, “Who told you you could have some wild sex with her?”. Mr. K looked like he wanted to do more but the look that 18-Volt was giving suggested that he was totally appalled and was not going to leave my side. There was no other option but for Mr. K to leave the scene. 18-Volt then put his arm around me, escorting me back towards the classroom. Along the way, the scene had changed. --End of Mature Content-- I was now at my old house and I was painting and colouring some polystyrene Easter decorations. The only thing is that I was colouring them partially rather than doing the whole thing which was weird. Eventually my mum came into the dining room and left this sticker book with me. I opened the sticker book and was freaking out in excitement when I realised that it was a sticker book of 18-Volt in all his various appearances. For the rest of the scene, I was using some of the stickers and sticking them in random places. It then went onto the last scene of the dream. I was on Twitter and was waiting for Edward (Ed) B to like my Easter post that I had directed to him. I ended up getting a notification and it was that someone called Caitlin had commented on my post. This was a good thing but my excitement had fizzled out as this wasn’t Ed, I was now rather miffed. The dream ended there. Dream No. 580 Dream Guide: 18-Volt Lucid?: No It's always interesting how 18-Volt has a realistic human appearance in many of my later dreams. It was in this dream though that his appearance was compared in the same scene! The fact that 18-Volt was initially in a cartoon appearance and then as the dream zooms in, his appearance is suddenly realistic. This emphasises an amazing concept that although he is a character based on a Nintendo game, he becomes so believably human that you'd think he does exist, especially when you can also physically feel him in the dream as well. So for the first part of the scene, he appeared in this style (WarioWare Twisted): Then when the scene had been zoomed in onto him, he appeared like this (Game & Wario) but with some additional features: Add his normal green clothing to this as well as being able to see his teeth when he talked.
Mainly short dreams. legs I'm on my bed and some girl is on it. She's all ready for... um, yeah. Sushi I'm at some mall with my brother and I decide to go to the food court and order sushi. that's it. Jamie 1 This was a quick one I had one the bus. It was a birds eye view of Jamie, but I was also Jamie in this dream. She feels kind of burdened also somber. She is filled with blue energy. Now in the Jesus dream where me and her are on the hill. where Jesus' arm goes through our backs, Blue energy comes from me, and Red energy comes from Jamie. Now she has blue energy. Not sure what this means. Fortnite. Okay really. I haven't even played this game much lately. But anyway, Me and my brother are in the backyard of my inner world house. We are by a pond or pool in a back porch area. there's TVs set up with video games. My brother wants to play fortnite for some reason. I try to play with him. I find an old controller but it has mad stick drift, it makes the game unplayable. Had another fortnite dream. In it I am one of the creators and we are testing out something. In this dream there are things floating in the sky like on Apex. We are all talking about technical shit I don't understand. IRL season 9 drops... and guess what. Now there are floating things in fortnite in the sky. Precog dream? What a useless gift to have. I want precog dreams that predict lottery numbers and cards to play for poker. what the hell is this? A few months ago I had a dream that Pewdiepie, decided to play fortnite. A week or so later, IRL he plays fortnite once on a livestream to fight T-Series. Jesus again Just a dream of Jesus showing me the door out of his office. I guess he's tired of me bugging him about the same thing... Jamie again. In this dream Jamie comes to live with me. I get home from work, or we both do. I lay down a bit and can't sleep. I get up and decide to have a quick smoke. I open the sliding closet in my room and get my jacket. Jamie is behind me and she grabs hers as well. I say to her that she doesn't have to go for a smoke everytime I do. I keep saying things like, Honey, and Sweetie, I wonder if this talk annoys her. She says she wants to. I realize I should just let her. suddenly she is replaced by my brother, and it's like it's been him all along. The house is different now. I wonder when he is going to leave since he doesn't have a job. I have other dreams where my brother is everywhere. He follows me around everywhere. It's like I can't do anything without him. It's so annoying. I wake up and wonder if some strange force is now making me perceive Jamie in dreams as my brother. Like family. Wouldn't be as annoying if it was Jamie.
Semi Lucid Become lucid wandering in some house. There are some boxes everywhere. they are all white and every size you can imagine. I open one box and it takes me into another room that looks like the same house. The rest of it is foggy but I'm basically finding more hidden rooms which lead to different houses with more hidden rooms etc. Oh no I'm flying above drumheller with Jamie. Some force hits me from behind and I launch right into a rocky foothill. My mouth is bloody and full of sand. Thank you First as I'm falling asleep, I see Jesus in profile. He looks different in almost every dream. I remember in one he was actually a black man. suddenly I'm in a dark room sitting on a chair in front of a screen, like a laptop or a TV. There is an electronic device under my hand. It could be a touch screen phone or a mouse. I feel another hand go over that hand I look to my right and it's Jamie. She's smiling and is warm. She nods and we both push the button on the device. She then goes and pulls out a Rolodex or something. My impression is that these are memory files she then has to sort through. Days later while awake I decided to finish another message to her. Being more thorough this time. I spend hours typing, revising, deleting and rewriting. I fit it down to the 20,000 character limit that facebook messaging allows. Although there is so much more to say. I'm nervous as hell, take my dog for too many walks and smoke like crazy. when I am satisfied with my composition. i paste it all into the message box. go out smoke again go for another walk. go back to it. I have my hand over the mouse almost deciding again not to send. I then remember the dream, Jamie's hand over mine. We were pushing the send button together. Then going through memory files? are we finally going to compare notes? I click: send.
Random dreams Lots of dreams of just wandering abandoned places. Thought I could recall more may post more of these later. Jamie Dreams Despite there seemingly being a lot. the periods between them are getting longer. In one dream I see a single HH image of Jamie with something around her neck. A crucifix chain? or a charm? she kisses it. In another dream we are watching Jesus get persecuted in Jerusalem and get hung on the cross. Jamie is crying about it as are some others in the crowd. In one dream We are in her car at night. I'm living in some apartment building. We start kissing. IT's nice, but after a while she stops me. "That first part was REALLY good," she says. She then tells me that she wasn't feeling the later part. I ask her to elaborate. She wasn't clear on the instructions. and I was getting frustrated. We get into an argument about it and she leaves. I go into my apartment and look at the spot where we were just parked. I replay the scene over in my mind something like a hundred times. Trying to pinpoint where I went wrong. If I did anything wrong. Dream I am on the hill with Jamie again. Jesus has his hands in our backs. We are closer to the top of the hill now. He is trying to make us face one another. We are both connected through him it feels. He earnestly tells us both. "Now I want you two to come together." Not later or soon. He wants us to do something NOW. But I'm not sure because I don't like messaging her or reaching out to her and she doesn't respond. She made it clear in other dreams that there wasn't anything I could do. That she might try and reach out when she is right with herself or something. I have to try and respect that. The same day: Checkers again.. This time she says to me, "I love you." I believe it this time. It's not like when she told me this before floating in the dybbuk and seemed drunk on something. This seems more sincere. another dream I had of Jamie. There was a long week or so where i didn't recall her at all. I was getting a little frustrated so she showed up in a dream where we were just exploring an abandoned building. Don't recall what we did. but it's like she sensed my frustration and showed up to show me she is still around.
Nothing much, just remember myself being in a hotel's bathroom, what's interesting that I have never been in that hotel in real life, and yesterday too I had a dream about place where I have never been including some long and thin snake into which I was assured my sister had transformed and I tried to bring her back by squeezing the snake! Anyway, it is now quite clear to me that PLACE is the best category for me to look forward as a dream sign for MILD technique.
I am eating something with meats and suddenly I get the idea that strings of it look like worms, and ... one of such start to move on front on me, on the table, I am scared to death because I am still eating a portion so I start taking it out from my mouth and those too start to move and a moment after I am looking at rain worms. Notes: It's heavily raining out there, maybe that gave me association. Also worms is one of my biggest fears in life.
Following another dream, in which I was actively searching for my room in a weird housing building, I found myself passing customs at airport, or maybe it was just a general check, anyway, there was some officers, one of whom had found my hat that I didn't care about and lost somewhere earlier. He looked as if he found an evidence of my guilt against the country or something, when I made it clear how preposterous his allegations were, he went on to get some pages out of my personal journals (maybe he has intercepted the images or found torn out pages) and presenting them to me showing the words and phrases I have removed, as if to say, "I know you are at something nasty!", at that point I lost all tact and fear and started to yell at him that it's none of his business and I am free to do whatever I want in my notebook. Notes: It's a strange dream for me, because otherwise I am a timid person and more than often see dreams in which I am running from someone, feeling fear and worry (as I do IRL), so I woke up from that dream quite good, not feeling happy, but it had some sense of reassurance. Before that dream, I was wondering along some streets, which I have never seen IRL, as well as those places in dream above. I saw a few cars without front tires, I rationalized that thieves probably have stolen them because they are usually in a better condition than rear tires (I have no idea about whether that is actually true or not). The interesting thing about dreams, about which is written in ETWLD of Stephen LaBerge, is the absence of critical faculty, how easy do we rationalize absolutely stupid things! Then I thought remembering his dream sign categories that in my case it's clearly the Place that is different more than anything else. I am always dreaming about places which I have never seen in real life though in drems they seem to be mega familiar so I never question their reality. I have to concentrate on "Where I am" more to attain lucidity with some better results.
NM = Nightmare, LD = Lucid Dream A list of dreams that are/used to be 5/5, oldest to newest. Italics: used to be 5/5 and are no longer. Big font are the best, and (**) are especially unique. Events that occur in these dreams can be found here. my full journal is here . I have also included the genres to see further patterns. 2013 and before (first LD ever was after Great Adventures) (5 NM with 2013 and before) Fish and Superheroes (now 3/5)My Heroine (now the first 4/5 dream) -- second half of year-- Nice Meal With Sister (SIX star, Slice of life) 2014 (near end of the year) The Two Great Adventures [LD] (action, fantasy, romance) 2015 (LD = 14) (One NM in Feb. with only 4 dreams. March onwards) Beautiful Garden and New Telekinesis (slice of life) Fun Place (slice of life) The Grand Exploration! [LD] (adventure) Incredible turn-around [LD] (action) No One beats me to the airplane! (two in a row, romance) -- June onwards (two NM this month) -- The Sport of Sticks! (Action) SLEIGHT OF CARDS ** (first 5/5 in a dark location, thriller) Chronantagonist [LD] (two in a row, action suspense) Getting the girl (romance) Getting the lunch box! [LD] (slice of life) Art of Monarchy (two in a row, adventure) -- July onwards -- The Dream Guide [LD] (slice of life) SERENDIPITY [LD] (SIX star dream, romance sci-fi) Inside (and) Out [LD] (drama) Doctor Who; Konami Code; Cloud Castle [LD] (adventure) Villain of Three Challenges (action) Insnow Out! [LD] (slice of life) Extraordinary Ice Skating; Poor Car Stopping (slice of life) Space Adventure (science fiction) (one nightmare in August's end) DJ Deathbattle (action) Cruise With Sister (slice of life) Of Mice and Women (romance) -- (October, which had seven 4/5 dreams as a side note) -- Game Against the Subconscious [LD] (action) Detective 9spaceking [LD] ** (mystery) Helpful Subconscious (adventure) (end of October) OZ&SHIOM [LD] (SIX star dream, adventure) Master of Sports (two in a row, action) (one NM in Dec., with the most recorded dreams — 43) School of Two Trees [LD] (slice of life?) Ridiculous School [LD] (slice of life) Equestria! 2016 (LD = 7) (One NM in January) Grand Adventure of Tasting Meat Subconscious's Attempt [LD] (two in a row, SAME NIGHT! Adventure) Fighting and Bending [LD] (action) Drive for Science and The Flower I Nearly Forgot That Day (slice of life) {400th recorded dream} DJ's Attempt [LD] (adventure) SOAR [LD] (SIX star dream, adventure) Fighting for JUSTICE (action) Romantic Reunion DEJA VU (romance) RISING AGAINST THE DARKNESS [LD] * (slice of life) My X-Rated Fantasy Musical Adventure [LD] * (NO 5/5 in May, two 4/5 and 0 LD, the following is in June) SPORTS-FECTION [LD] (1st 5/5 to have same date as a prev. year's -- The Sport of Sticks! -- Action) (NO 5/5 in July-- two 4/5, 1 LD-- or August-- two 4/5, 3 LD) --November onwards-- To the Sun (romance) Haunting x Moonlight ** (horror) CHARISMABBY (SIX star dream, romance) (NO 5/5 on December, only one 4/5, 2 LD) 2017 (LD = 3, I blame it on failing relations) Predetermined Perfect Plan (science fiction) ELEMENTS; Iron Defense [LD] (action) Meticulous Planning (suspense) (No 5/5 in April-- two 4/5, 4 LD, May--one 4/5, 1 LD, June--two 4/5, 1 LD, and July-- three 4/5, 1 LD) August onwards ACTION! ROMANCE! [LD] (SIX star dream) (No 5/5 in September -- two 4/5, 2 LD) A Pawsitive Journey ** (slice of life) Critical Condition: the Woman and the Army (drama action) SIMPLY MAGICAL (adventure) {900th recorded dream} TRUE SYNESTHESIA [LD] (night after a nightmare, experimental) 2018 (LD = 9, but had a massive 32 LD’s in only two months.) Bittersweet Love Story * (1st 5/5 dream on my birthday) Ghost, Santa, and the Performance [LD] (suspense slice of life) (One NM in January, following is February onwards) Assassination Classroom [LD] (slice of life) A Piano Battle of Fire and Ice [LD] (SIX star, b4 this, had my worst. Adventure) {1,000th recorded dream} (no 5/5 in March -- four 4/5, 6 LD) IT COULD HAPPEN (same date as Grand Exploration! Adventure) (no 5/5 in May -- three 4/5, 1 LD) THE CONCERT (action) (From June 23rd, two months of LD streak) July onwards Badass Soul Mate [LD] (romance) Cheat Flying and Soul Mate [LD] (romance) A Fight and the Planets [LD] (action) Ice, Icy Baby [LD] * (two in a row, same date as Insnow Out! Adventure) (lucid-dream streak ends) Between Worlds (science fiction) Island of Wonders [LD] (adventure) Sleeping Beauty (action) {1,200th recorded dream} DEJA VU II [LD] (same date as Of Mice and Women, romance) The Renaissance (action) Feelin' Good (Drama) (no 5/5 in Oct. -- three 4/5, 6 LD, Nov.-- nine 4/5's, 5 LD's, or Dec.-- three 4/5's, 2 LD's) 2019 (LD = 5) True Path to Victory [LD] (romance) -- best dream of this year Flight (adventure) Dream Hotel (same date as ELEMENTS; Iron Defense, adventure) (One nightmare in March) Buddha and the Ship [LD] (adventure) Violin Fantasy [LD] (action) Deja Vu V [LD] (romance action) Hidden Falls [LD] (adventure) (no 5/5 in June -- six 4/5, 4 LD, no 5/5 in July -- one 4/5, 3 LD) Dream Instructor [LD] (action) (Only 6 dreams recorded in September) Purrfect Defense (action) (None in Oct., one 4/5, 4 LD, nor Nov., one 4/5, 1 LD, nor Dec., two 4/5, 9 LD) 2020 Mastermind’s Attempt [LD] (adventure) Art of Life [LD] (adventure) Virsieras’s World [LD] (xxx) World Two: Two Worlds (suspense) E N I G M A [LD] (mystery, SIX star dream) Dream City [LD] (adventure) Ambition: Deduction! (mystery) The Demonstration ** (horror) 9sk - Hypothesis [Official Music Video] ** [LD] (experimental) [inferred contin. of Demo] Sanctuary [LD] (slice of life) [inferred contin. of Hypothesis] Breaker (action) Princess Cliche (experimental drama) Music Maestro (musical) -- July Onwards -- Splash Free! (romance) Sacrifice (tragedy) [LD] "L" (experimental) [LD, same day, SIX star dream] ~Tasty Dungeon~ [LD] (adventure) Gathering an End [LD](experimental) The Epic (drama) Dream Competition [LD](adventure)[inferred contin. of The Epic] Nostalgia [LD] (adventure) 2021 Sentinel's Abyss (adventure) Lucid Dream [LD] (slice of life) [two in a row] Miraculous Ladybug [LD) (adventure) AQUARIUS (adventure) [SIX star dream] Alter Ego (Action) Ingenious Gauntlet (slice of life) [LD] True Sight (puzzle action) [LD] (No 5/5 in June, two 4/5, one LD, nine dreams) Dungeons and Dragons (adventure) (seven dreams this month) (No 5/5 in August, one 4/5, only three dreams) Wuxia World (adventure) (four dreams this month) ( No 5/5 in October, 4 dreams) Under the Sea (adventure) (No 5/5 in December, 7 dreams) 2021 (No 5/5 in January, 7 dreams recorded) Reoccurring characters (3x or more): Jamie: SERENDIPITY, Of Mice and Women, DEJA VU, True Path to Victory Abby: To the Sun, Charismabby, Action! Romance! Clarity: My Heroine, Badass Soul Mate, Cheat Flying and Soul Mate, DEJA VU II, Deja Vu V Virsieras: Oz&SHIOM (inferred), SERENDIPITY (inferred), CHARSMABBY (inferred), Virsieras’s World, Dream Competition D J : The Dream Guide, DJ Deathbattle, DJ's Attempt, Piano Battle of Fire and Ice Subconscious (not physically): OZ&SHIOM, Game Against Subcon., Helpful Subcon., Subcon.'s Attempt, The Demo My Sister: 9sk - Hypothesis, The Demo, Nice Meal With Sister, Cruise With Sis
Updated 02-13-2022 at 04:41 AM by 92249
(Side Note) I've been drinking Golden Lung Take It Easy Bedtime Powder every night this week. It has had amazing impact on my dreaming. I've drank it before and I notice the effects the first night and every night that I use it, but I was extremely lucky because the guy selling it was having a by 1 get one promo so bought 2 and got 2 freebies so I haven't been worried about being too liberal and using large spoonfuls in my tea right before bed time. I don't know what this guy puts in it that is so potent but this has been some seriously Shamanic grade awakening stuff and it is like a key or something. I am not writing this in my dream journal as some kind of an advertisement, I am writing it in my journal because I am going to insert it into my journal (DT) every time I have it and I LD that way I can see if it is correlating to the LDs. (Dream)Last night I fell asleep late at about 2:30 am and this morning from 8 am - 11 am I had the most vivid ,longest dream where and old friend that has been dead since 2006 came to see me. My parents didn't like him so I tried to keep him away from them but he wanted to talk to my mother and change her mind about him. I thought about letting him try but I wanted to spend time with him and not cut it short with my mother fighting with him. The really special part of this dream was that I have been wishing he would visit me in a dream ever since he passed away but I have only seen him for very short very foggy periods that didn't give us much time to connect. This time we spent about three hours just hanging out and talking, I kept making excuses with my family about how I was staying out because I was trying to figure out how to drive him home which was about and hour away and still make it home in time for when my family (my parents) came home. I guess our relationship was frozen at around the time he died because I wasn't worried about my husband, I didn't seem to have children, my parents weren't worried about me staying out with friends and spending the night somewhere. I guess in my dreamworld I was in my early 20's. This means I was in the Deepdown. That is exactly where this powder ALWAYS takes me. I didn't even use Binaural Beats or trigger sounds such as cricket song. I just drank my tea and finally fell asleep. I woke up in the Deepdown where you never age, there are no addictions, parents are young, no one is dead but you do try to work through some issues that are related to that time in your life and everyone knows you- like intimately knows you, even if they don't lok familiar they seem familiar and you know that you do know them and they know you. I had picked up David at his house where his mom was at and he had a bedroom like a teenager would have, or a man in his early 20's that lives with his parents. It was an apartment building and it was kind of run down, but when he was alive they were poor and he had a lot of problems with addiction and kind of acted like a thug. I knew him as kind, smart and sweet but he tried to be gangster in our little town. In the Deepdown he still dressed like that but there was no drug or alcohol addiction, we just genuinely wanted to hang out. So we drove to my parents hotel room while they were out and we hung out. There was an underlying sexual tension, but it never really got strong enough to do anything about. We had dated IRL and while we had sex once, the real meat of the relationship was based on a trust and friendship, just really liking to be around each other and support each other. It was a bit Romeo & Juliet, I was a rich spoiled kid and he was constantly in trouble and didn't have a very stable life so we weren't allowed to continue our relationship. My parents absolutely hated him but they didn't even know him, they just didn't like the aesthetics he presented, they wanted my to be with a "winner." It was a sad and frustrating situation but I was only 15. I longed to at least talk with him when I was older but he had a couple of kids and a girlfriend that I couldn't stand. He got into drugs later and then committed suicide. We never really had a chance to tell each other how life had been or how we felt, one day he was just gone. After that I prayed he would visit because I have vivid LDs. Then the LDs went away too. A few years later I found this supplement and it's crazy how it really works I tried other ones but they weren't as effective or constant. Seeing him for three hours this morning was very healing. There was still that silly element that it was inside of a dream world construct but the colors were vivid and he felt like himself- his energy was very genuine, it felt like my friend was actually there. I believe he was. I was still deciding if we wanted to go out dancing and then I could take him home, we went for a walk through a park and talked about our feelings and how they never really were allowed to be realized but that things happened the way they did for a reason. He has two children and that wouldn't of happened. We held hands and we just basked in the energy of each other as true friends. WE went back to the house and I heard the phone ring and I thought it was my parents. But I kind of came out of my dream and realized it was the real house phone, so I went to answer it but I missed the call adn came back to bed. I wasn't ready to say goodbye yet so I just thought the intent of goign back to the room with him and there I was. It was that smooth. We talked a little about maybe me driving him home, then I heard dogs barking and my kids talking and I woke up. I think if I had intended to go back in I would have gone right back tot hat place again but it was time to get up and be a grown up again so I did. I don;t feel like I got to say goodbye but I do feel like this was the clearest, more vivid, most energy filled dream I have every had since he died that he has visited me in and we actually were int eh presence of each other. It was a really amazing dream.
I was a little despondent earlier when I woke, just didn't have a LD. But I decided to jot down dreams a bit anyways. I was getting very short LD moments every 2 days lately and I was so frustrated. I wanted many long fun lucid dreams where I have more awareness! But after I thought about what happend in todays dream maybe it helped me analyze stuff and stuff wasn't so bad. So I had 2 dreams I think, because I felt uninspired, I only recalled 1 dream in detail. dream. It was in a classroom setting, I was playing a video game on a laptop. The game was projected onto the big white canvas thing that you roll out, just can't remember what that's called atm XD. I maybe felt a little anxious from my computer actions being watched by others. So I decided to switch to a desktop for some reason. An old desktop, All in one type. This is probably bled over from a week ago, when I went to help my dad tune up his PC a little. So anyways, I tried loading up the game on the desktop but it had trouble installing a video driver... M290 if I recall. So I looked up the video card driver but just couldn't find it or get it to work. The dream then ends. I was also playing a game last night, so at first glance I thought it was just bled over from that event. But upon closer look maybe the dream was really trying to tell me something. So the classroom would represent learning I think. Meanwhile the game was the fun thing I was learning in the class (lucid dreaming). The projector could represent that I'm recording the progress online where other's could see, or it could mean something else. Anyways the laptop was newer than the desktop, since it's smaller too, it could mean a new paradigm or the new methods I've been trying that's actually working and progressing well in regards to LD. While the Old desktop could be the old paradigm, beliefs, and old way of doing things that's not working - something like that.And trying to install the driver is like saying, I have the ability to do this like everyone else, but lacking the proper coding stuff to get it working finally. Interestingly the m290, when I googled it showed a 3d printer, so like the desktop's missing the piece to materialize it. It just needs that tiny instruction manual so it can print out tangible physical results. Thought about it a bit more and the projector could also represent the ability to astral project or something. Saw some posts regarding raduga's technique. And hukhif's new dream journals popping up. Duno just rambling random stuff but oh well. Since with the graphic driver thing, I knew what I needed, but didn't have it, it could mean a technique that I know, but didn't practice. Maybe a message to try Raduga tech again, or learn Gravity RC. I've been getting interested in the gravity RC lately, never did it since I knew it's a hard tech. And I don't want to get into it half-hearted, if I'm gonna do it I'm gonna master it. Because my daytime mindfulness practice is starting to becoming second nature, I could probably maintain it with minimal effort, and do the Gravity RC. Maybe I'll make a post to ask some questions about the Gravity RC. For the Raduga tech, since I've been reminded of it randomly on this forum, I thought maybe I could incorporate just a small part of it to my practice. I think the problem with the technique is that you try get into AP/Dream state as you wake up, so you have no time to do dream journalling, and your recall might suffer in the long run. So my thought is that as I wake up, I'd replay the previous dream in my head 2-3 times to ingrain it into my memory, meanwhile trying rolling and other stuff a few times. If it works great, if not then well, it trains prospective memory and that helps with lucid dreaming right? Those were my thoughts. I did meditation as always, but had the chance to do it outside, since it finally stopped snowing and there's only traces of snow left. Anyways once I reached the zone, I did the MILD mantras, the new ones I thought of yesterday. I really reallly like these new mantras managed to get me excited today too- they get me real excited and I think that was what was missing in the previous mantras that I tried. Emotion, STRONG emotion or feelings might be the missing key to MILD. It's kind of like creating a anti-trauma or a reverse positive trauma kind of; much like how you'd get a bad trauma that could anchor beliefs into your head, you'd also need a strong emotion to create the opposite. Maybe there's a proper word for this positive trauma - positrauma haha hmm.. the tuning desktop thing happend a week ago, so perhaps it also indicates current incubation period of 1 week. Who knows? Summary: Gravity RC/ Raduga on awakening - maybe experiment stuff Need strong feelings for most effective MILD and incubation KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK Be patient... It's working READY TO LOOCID DREAM!
Date of Dream: FRI 1 MAR - 2019 Dream No. 551 - Lighting The Pillars I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I thought I was in a familiar suburb but then it was also very distorted. I was in this court which had a strip of shops and small businesses placed all the way along it. Apparently, this small business was owned by American voice actor Edward (Ed) Bosco. His role in the dream though, as this business owner, was to tutor high school students. I entered into what was the facade of a scruffy small business building but the inside was just a house and it was also very neat and tidy. I didn’t end up seeing Ed in any of the scenes but one person that I did walk past was what seemed to be my deceased grandfather. There wasn’t much interaction with him though. In-fact, I have forgotten what happened in the majority of the indoor scenes. When I went into the backyard, there was this girl around my age but I have forgotten her appearance. There was something going on outside and Ed was mentioned to be in relation to the issue. There was a large array of small chopped wooden logs sitting vertically on a flat wooden board, acting as a bench. The girl was mentioning something about how Ed was being nasty to some of the other students. Ed then came in some distorted form and said how the logs couldn’t be lit. The girl was defending me and saying that I could light them, she encouraged me and signalled for me to do it. I used my fire element and as the flames from my mouth hit each log, the top lit up like a candle. That’s all I can remember about this dream. Dream No. 551 Dream Guide: None Lucid?: No There is a new character in this dream; Edward Bosco who is an American voice actor. As this journal entry is done past date; there can be trends seen in newer dreams; Edward seems to be a persistent character. There will be writing conventions in future dreams to keep his identity safe because if you are an industry professional searching for a new job, sometimes, recruiters want to search you up on the internet and who knows how far they'll go with the information they're looking to obtain about their future potential employee. There's gotta be some way to say that Edward made an appearance but not in a way that he can be traced and have his reputation ruined just because an employer came across this and read that, for instance, he took my banana off me and ate it when I wasn't looking (If Dreamy WB was there, she would pounce him at first instance even before he could put the banana in his mouth). Back to the important stuff; at the start of each scene where he comes in, he will be introduced with "Edward (Ed) B". Then for any subsequent time he is mentioned, he will solely be referred to as "Ed" (which is what he is commonly called anyway). If there is any change to this convention, it will be addressed at the bottom of the dream that the change has taken place in. Note to External Employers: Please refrain from using "KarlaB18 - Dream No. 551" and any other dream-journal entry by this account user as a reference for hiring any industry professional. This is not a reliable source and is not a true indication of one's waking life code of conduct and moral compass.
These few weeks have been pretty boring in the dream department. Building. Vague dream of walking in some large building with Jamie. She suddenly vanishes before my eyes as if she woke up from the dream. The Dork Tower I become Semi lucid while on a western style landscape. The entire dream is of a blue hue. I'm semi lucid. Don't know it's a dream but I know That I'm in a story. I fly up to a few people walking along a path. With them is a tall Gunslinger. He doesn't quite look like roland but I seem to think he is anyway. I get excited and say, "Are we looking for the Dark tower?" the man doesn't answer but suddenly looks frightened, as if the Idea of the Dark Tower and seeking it, is insane. The others look at me in terror. The dream speeds up and suddenly we are in a living room. but also entering a cave that will transport us to the dark tower. As I enter the cave with the others I am also in the living room with Asuka and others and we are try to fit behind an entertainment center. Maybe this was one of the movies that Me and Asuka jump into? Talkers I am in a scenario like in the latest season of ,"Z Nation." I am in a settling with some people. Half of them are Zombies. But these Zombies are self aware and can talk. Everyone calls them: Talkers. I am extremely paranoid of the talkers. They seem nice and well meaning but it feels like they will try to kill me and make me one of them. I am wandering alone in a house when I run into... Robyn? The girl who hosts karaoke in lethbridge. She tells me she saw my movie about her? Her voice sounds like Jamie. Robyn looks nothing like Jamie so I am extremely confused. I go, "yeah I know you're subscribed to my channel." Which I know robyn is. That's all I remember. A week or so goes by. Can't recall Jamie at all. It concerns me a little. I guess I am too use to them by now. Chase. Me, Asuka and Data, chase Jamie all over different dreamscapes. She never looks like herself. She also seems a bit crazy like in the previous entry. In one dream She is a giant black guy and we chase her all over a nightclub. In another she's a mad scientist and we chase her all over some big underground lab. This may explain why she was so hard to recall. Jesus again In this dream it is night time. I am alone in a park. I am really young in this dream like a child. Jesus comes over a hill with a little girl holding his hand. the girl is Jamie and she is also a child in this dream. It's like Jesus is her father and He is bringing Her to me. I say to him like an excited kid on Christmas or something, "Is this the girl you chose for me?" Reminds me of when Jamie would hang out and sometimes and at times it's like we would regress to children. Her voice would even sound like a child's and that's when you knew that things were going really well. Building again. Another dream of just exploring some building with jamie. We don't really talk but just seem more interested in exploring the place. We eventually split up.
First dj entry hopefully I'm doing it right. I had 2 non Ld last night. One about staying over at some guys house, other one was about a survival in some kind of safe house, there was some killing and we had to determine who was the culprit for kidnapping everyone. I meditated prior to sleep like I usually do and faced a problem that happened before. I'm just too aware and have trouble falling asleep. This happens most if mediate too long although last night's session was pretty short. But anyways what happens is I do feel my body sleeping, it's going numb, almost like sp, but I don't get into sp. I hear some sounds. Third eye area vibrating alot. This lasts for hours and I kind of get a half rest in it like nrem. I think if I just had a rem during it I would be lucid but instead I'm bored in this state limbo. I tried to force a dream by visualizing this time and managed to get some hypnogogic imagery during it and could manipulate it to a certain extent but it just didn't become clear and immersive enough to be called a dream. It's like an almost a dream but missing a few spices. I sas trying to just fall asleep and lose awareness until I could wbtb but had a trouble with that too.
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