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Cold medicine screwed my dreams up, they all bleed together into a soup of nonsense.

I remember me and a group of people we were outside this really old stone mansion. Parts of the home still had wooden interior but it was water damaged and stunk. Someone had purchased the home and I got the feeling they made a big mistake. There seemed to be no roof and while sitting on a swinging bench with some woman, I looked up to see the huge full moon. There was a cabinet with 13 shotguns, and a weird device that was dripping water. When I walked back outside it was day light and I began moving some fallen limbs from nearby trees. I saw that one of the limbs had fallen with a bird house and I started removing the pieces when i heard a hissing and a snake came out. It had been eating the baby birds and was trying to get away. It was about 6 feet long and silver with yellow spots. I tried to chase it, and that's where the dream turned to me being indoors at my parents house and the snake retreated to the spare bedroom.

The next hing I remember was riding around on what looked like a small motorcycle that someone had gotten for Christmas. There was this stranger there and we started talking about cars. I asked her to tell what the fastest stock model Mustang was, and began to tell her about the 1992 Fox body mustang the police used to drive. For some reason I was convinced that this model was the fastest ( probably because I used to have one)

Later in the morning after i had awaken a few times I tried to focus on the target mission of the great pyramids but only briefly did I actually see them, and there was no one there. Diphenhydramine was playing a number on my concentration as I found myself in the weirdest places and not able to stay connected to Egypt....at all. I'll try again tonight.

I was walking through big city. Concrete everywhere... High buildings. I felt lost. I felt gloomy, without connection. There was one young man going after me. He was quiet. I told him some of my thoughts, from time to time, but he was quiet.
Then I found big parkland. I told to young man:Look nowhere anything green, no tree and here, here is big old park. It was like small dense wood growing in concrete jungle. I felt connection to that piece of land. I walked into park... in between the trees. And I saw end of that park. It may be some 200 m afar. And I saw that park was in fact valley. Valley ended with wall of soil, with growing trees on it. And I walked there. I told to young man: This is wonderful do you feel it? Do you hear it? It is as if there is no city close by. Walls of valley were growing higher as I went deeper into valley. I almost wasn't able to see buildings. After a few minutes of slow walking I came to the end of valley. The wall was maybe 30 m high with about 70 degrees slope. It was overgrown by old trees. I didn't hear city anymore. I didn't see city through trees. It was calm. It was quiet. Sun was shining in between trees. And I sat down on roots of big old tree facing the Sun. The starting end of valley we came from had the same slope overgrown by old trees... I felt great. It was joy of balance. I took quietness inside of me. Meditation. No thoughts. Feeling of belonging. The slopes of valley had grown to maybe 100 m high.
Young man, which was following me, was in panic mode. He was thinking that he is trapped there. He ran around in panic.
And I saw myself sitting on air maybe 1 m above roots of tree I was sitting before. There was pale blue aura around my body going into deep violet further away. My eyes were closed. I had strange clothes... like sheets of textile.

Remarks
It started nonlucid. I achieved lucidity when I saw the Valley.

First dream took place in my science class. I was sitting in the front of the classroom' which is different from my normal seat. I was taking a mid term exam, and the entire time I found it extremely hard to concentrate. I couldn't answer any questions. Then the bell rang and the entire class left except me. Now worried, I began rushing, and checked the amount of pages left, and couldn't believe how many. Then the teacher came over and I started to cry. She looked down at me disappointed, and too me to hurry up.

My second dream was my best and longest lucid. However it was very unstable, and I didn't even have lucidity the entire time. It started off with me just realizing it was a dream. I was shocked that I was actually dreaming. I instantly did a RC nose plug, and examined my fingers. Again I was amazed how easily I could breath through my nose, and how deformed my fingers looked. Now lucid I proceded to explore. This is when I loose lucidity. I'm really captivated by the world I'm in. It's at night, but the places lit up my the moon,a nod some lights. It looks like a campus, but also a large castle made of marble. I'm standing on a smoothly paved road, it what seems like a courtyard with well kept grass and bushes. Then I realize that I'm dreaming again, and do a nose plug RC. That's when I remembered that demanding lucidity would give Lethe best clarity. I decide to try, and scream out as loud as I can that I demand clarity. My voice sounds extremely powerful, and the sould can be heard every where. When I finish, splits of neon orange and read appear on my vision. Then before I can calm down, I hear a loud screeching scream, which scares me a lot. I turn around to look at a circular patch of grass with a women with tourn white dress, a pale face, and raggedy black hair. Instantly she looks at me, and I know it's where the scream came from. I became scared, and began to run. I could feel her getting closer. I still knew it was a dream, and nothing could happen. However I couldn't bear the fear, and decided to sacrifice the dream by closing my eyes so I wake up. After that I remember a fragment from another dream where I was laying on a bed in a dim lit room with a women.

+ (FA) in bed, mom's in next parallel bed, unknown room (large), must choose glasses to wear to bed that are comfortable with your head on the pillow, like mom. Maybe I don't need them. fake memory: did I make out with childhood neighborhood crush KH earlier on this bed? More memories come to build a backstory, seeing her older sister JH.

+ (vague, f) some sexy times, mostly forgotten, some time with ex-gf SB, also vague/forgotten

+ long, bizarre, dream, in some town where everyone is a villain and every place is dangerous. A restaurant where they murder the patrons. A take-out middle-eastern style (Turkish?) restaurant where they have live fish burritos: the whole, live fish are still wigging in the burritos (you're supposed to cook them at home?). These burritos are sitting in some huge dome-topped steamer, the guy opens it and hands 3 of them to me. I see the strange (catfish-looking, dark, with whiskers?) fish wiggling in the burritos.

Outside, an intersection. Some horseman arrives on the scene galloping down a hillside, he's a fireman in the town?

Digging up some guy buried by villains. Digging up cigarette butts and ashes through a grate at first. Then in the widening hole, pulling up a series of conical covers. Eventually one is revealed which has an embossed cross on it. The guys who did this will be caught, they thought this grave was well hidden Then the grave is opened, I expect to see rotting remains, but instead a "live" guy (covered in tatoos?) sits up suddenly. The investigator is shocked. The grave-guy lifts up his arms to the investigator and calls out, "HOLD ME!" (because he's cold?).

Opening a series of gates leading to some place (mausoleum? building? room?). The gates are covered with intricate designs in wrought iron, there are gates also in the floor. 2-3 gates slide open (each one with an ominous sound?).

Inside a bizarre room, an insect museum? Huge insects are displayed there. It's difficult to make you way through this room. There's a guy there who pricks his finger on some strange long sharp things that are sticking out into the room "They're sharp!" he says.

+ consulting a friend on engagement ring choice. He wants to do what his mom says. We're standing in front of a display of many rings, I tell him to have a look through them, but to ignore the one that costs about $56,000.

+ (DO) following a guy escaping a bad place. He runs along the dock pushing his way by people waiting for their boats. He says something about them "and you're metal boats." The boat master at the end of the pier calls out after the escaping guy as he dives into his boat and sails away, "where are you going with your chocolate boat?" . The guy sails to the other side of the water (100 yards?) and parks his boat down an incline around a corner and continues his getaway

1. I was standing on the track field of a very large school. It was big enough to be a university. The track field had flags with designs I had never seen before all around it. It reminded me of the field from Harry Potter where Harry played Quidditch. The grass was well trimmed and was perfectly green. Directly in front of me there was a golden tower. Out of the corner of my eye I see Dylan and Patrick walking up to it. "What's up Cory" Pat says. "What's up bro" I reply. I walk up a stair case to get onto the catwalk of this small tower, and it turns out to be an elevator. I speed up my pace to get in the elevator just to see how it works. Pat sees this and starts running to beat me to it(he does random stuff like this all the time). I get in the elevator. This elevator is all golden on the inside and it is big enough for only 2 people to fit in comfortably.
Pat gets in the elevator and pushes me out in a non-serious way. "What the heck Pat" I say. I'm now back on the catwalk and Dylan is standing next to me. I look out onto the field once more and notice that my kind-of-friend Thomas is coming towards us. "Dude, what are you guys doing?" Thomas says. "Oh shit it's Thomas, I'm out" Pat says as he pushes the elevator button and the elevator goes up to who knows where. Dylan laughs.. Suddenly a loud siren starts going off. The siren is loud enough that you can hear it from anywhere in, or outside of the school. I can hear it echoing way beyond this school too. It's the kind of sirens the military uses when a bomb is about to be dropped. I run out onto the field in an anxious manner. "Holy shit, are we about to be bombed?" I think to myself.
I see everyone that was on the field or outside of the school start running to get inside, and it was alot of people considering there were already alot of people on the field alone. I look up into the sky and stand in shock as I see the already overcast sky start to form about 10 tornadoes. All of these tornadoes that are forming are right over the school, and they are huge. A man that works for the school yells out and I can barely hear him say, "Everyone inside right now! Hurry hurry!!". I start sprinting towards him to get inside of the school to take cover. About halfway across the huge field that I'm on, the sky turns into a dark gray color and thunderclouds form. Lightening starts striking as well. I finally reach the school doors where the worker is waiting for me and I run inside.
As I run inside I notice that the inside of this school already looks hectic. Papers are everywhere and it looks like an entire stampede of panicking people ran through it. I took an elevator to get to the section of the school where the dorms were located so I could take cover in one of them. I pressed a button and the elevator doors closed. It then started going up but seconds into doing so it stopped and the lights in the elevator flickered on and off as though they were shorting out along with the rest of the elevator. "Fuck! No no no, not now!" I yell out. A few more seconds later the elevator starts working again and I find myself moving up once more. The elevator reaches the 2nd floor and I get off.
I now find myself in the hallway where all the dorms are. I bang on the door of the nearest dorm to me. An asian student opens up the door and lets me in. I get inside and he quickly closes the door. Right as I do so, the power to the whole building goes out. I can tell the asian guy is scared shitless. There's also another guy in the room, but he's just crouched in the corner of the room next to the bed. I go up to the dorm window and push the curtains to the side to look out. As I do so, I see huge pitch black clouds making their way to us. One in particular stands out to me. Its a black cloud, but its really low to the ground and is moving extremely fast right at the window I'm looking out. I take a step back, but I forget to close the curtains. I can see the cloud getting closer and closer. Seconds later the cloud hits the window and shatters it.
Glass flies everywhere. It flies in my face and the asian guys face. "Fuck!" I yell. Wind is blowing into the dorm at an extremely high speed now, its at least as 80 mph. Suddenly everything goes into slow motion. I look around me and see that the asian guy is on the floor covering his face; He's bleeding. Everything goes back up to normal speed. The asian guy gets back up and takes his hands off his face. He has his mouth wide open and I immediately notice that his 4 front teeth on the top row of his mouth are gone. I crouch down to prevent being hit by anything else and check to see if I still have my teeth. I feel around in my mouth and to my relief, all of my teeth are in place and okay.
Next thing I know I'm riding with in a car with my parents. My dad is driving and the storm is still going on. "Where are we going?!?!" I ask out loud. "We're going to a barn for a Christmas get-together" my dad says. Soon after we pull into a parking lot in front of the barn. We all get out and walk into the barn. The inside is set up like the main area of a church. There are many rows of benches for people to sit in. They are all made of wood. At the front of this main area there is an elevated wooden platform and a podium. My parents start meeting and talking to everyone that's here. I stay back and think "Why the fuck are we doing this while there's a strong ass storm going on?". I then tell my parents, "Hey, the storms about to his this area, why are we here? We need to leave right now" I tell them. They both agree with me and we walk back outside and get in the car.
The sky is still dark, but the worst part of the storm still hasn't hit yet.
Next thing I know, the storm has passed and I'm in the same car with my dad and my sister, but my mom is gone. We are driving around the same area and almost every building is destroyed. Debris is everywhere. I look around in awe. My dad pulls over to an area where a big tree is and we all get out of the car. This tree seems to be the only thing that survived. Everything else around it is leveled. I go up to the tree and my sister follows. I run my hand through the leaves of it. Suddenly a small gerbil comes out from behind one of the leaves and crawls onto my hand. It's fur is white with brown spots. This gerbil is abnormally small too, it's like a mini version of an already small gerbil. I pet it and so does my sister. "Don't let it stay on your hand for to long or it will try to bury into it" my sister tells me. "What? What do you mean?" I ask. Just then, the gerbil digs into the palm of my hand and goes under my skin. To say the least, it hurt pretty bad. I can see the gerbil moving around under my skin.
After a few seconds the gerbil comes back out. My hand is now bleeding, but its not bleeding normal blood. My blood is purple for some reason. I am now looking right at my hand(not sure why I didn't become lucid lmao) and I examine the gash.

-I'll journal the other dreams later, its now 2:03 in the morning.

There were two transparent spheres. One had a pink core and another had a green core. Extending from the core to the surface were things that somewhat resembled nerves.

I was hauling a camper from my grandparents' house and an old rusty bike. I was unsure about hauling the camper because I didn't know how but I safely made it to my parents' old house where I used to live and parked it in the laundry room somehow because I wanted to hide it.

I was waiting in a store at a checkout counter which was actually two guys sitting at a computer. I wanted to purchase my items but the cashier guys were just paying attention to the computer so I slowly placed my items on the counter and waited but then one of the guys grabbed me and was about to have sex with me but I jumped up and ran into the living room (sudden change of scene) and told my boyfriend what had just happened. It was like a dream within a dream because I was telling my boyfriend about my dream but I was still dreaming and didn't know it at the time.

*Such a wonder place to meditate, the temple.
*Strange apartmenr with old friends.

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID
FALSE AWAKENING
NIGHTMARE
FRAGMENT
HYPNAGOGIC SOUNDS
HYPNOPOMPIC SOUNDS
(Unconnected dreams indicated by a *. Connected dreams indicated by a •. )

I call the sound hypnagogic because I was trying to sleep in. When I went downstairs to check, Mom didn't seem like she had called me. Also I am no longer in school and do not go to work so there is no reason she should have called me. It was clearly my name.

* I am on the Magic School Bus.

* My mom is calling my name.

night of 24/12/15:

Dream 1: I dreamt that my brother revealed that he was gay, which put me in a bit of a tricky position. I was at school and answering some questions about this from my teachers and classmates. Someone showed me this movie about New York, focusing on Time Square with some beautiful panoramic shots. One teacher in particular seemed quite interested in stuff.

late to bed, family drama, 2mg melatonin, painful tooth, = not a great night.
Got a good sleep inertia going into early afternoon, but was interrupted, and some recall vanished.

+ (f) slot cars

+ (f) going into the guy's house?

+ electric fence: outdoors, daylight. Touch it, it gives a strong shock. There are multiple rows of wire strung horizontally, and metal plates are hanging down in between each of the lines. Another guy in my group touches it too and gets shocked. We go to the end and step through it, there are some guys there (in a boat?) leaving this area?

+ company meeting in the prison yard: lots of people there, wow the group is big. computer screen showing assigned places in the meeting. Two prisoners in orange jumpsuits are carrying their (civilian clothing?) in bundles in their arms as they leave this yard, they can't be here when we're holding a meeting.

+ (f) bad guy shoots woman, she survives, she raises the shooter's abandoned child, (shooter is a prisoner in above dream?)

Had several dreams last night, only one was Lucid.

First dream took place at an unfamiliar house, but in the dream the house belonged to me and it seemed as if this place was part central. All of the dream characters were strangers to me. Just your standard party dream with drinking and being stupid. Things got out of control eventually and faded to the next day where me and some dude were talking about maybe not having another party the next night. [ This is funny because I had just joined this site and my dream was full of strangers celebrating ] Later in the dream I was throwing a football with one my old college fraternity house brothers. I was telling him about the time i smoked dank and passed out standing up hahaha. He was like, "Yeah dude you can't hold that shit in too long or you will fall out". I have started actually talking outloud to characters in my dreams, and this has become a trigger because I wake up but stay in the dream state, because I can hear myself talking in reality, but the dream keeps right on playing. I have been tempted to try to stand up and remain in the dream state. For some reason I resort to whispering to dream characters because once I start talking out loud, I can't go back to mentally thinking what I want to tell everyone in the dream. So, later on in the dream it turns into my typical first person shooter [ Playing too much Farcry will do that] I rocket launchered a semi carrying a load of canned ham...then had to explain to police why my dream boiled over into reality and that I didn't really mean to shoot a RPG into traffic [ false awakening]. Then i woke up, saying WTF?

I was on my way to school but it looked to be around 3 pm and it was summer out, none of my friends got on so it sucked, I remember when I got to my locker, I seen my friends and Darius had dyed blue hair but with glue all over it and some else did also. Next thing I remember is walking down the main hall and seeing my friends by the cafeteria and that's all, sorry for the messiness I just woke up lol.

[dream was interesting due to the fact a) I thought issue was resolved b) didn't realise I was thinking about this in the day
=> unresolved & was not a verbalised thought but still there]
D1 - At work, head was checking books, children had answered all questions wrong, even though they were simple for them 6-2=
Other teachers defended me as if to say was not my teaching clearly children were not listening, or paying attention to their work.
Outcome other manager set work for me to do.

[Primal source of feelings]
D2 - A silver tray is full of very gloopy redish pink viscous stuff with lumps of muscle or flesh in it. It is alive, the red is kind of blood.
Someone is looking for me, but i am hidden, hidden inside the flesh and blood, the body.
I jump out at the end. Ta dar! style.

[Delay tactics 1,2 &3]
D3 - I avoid submitting some artwork by sending different peices of art, they come alive and battle to delay the viewer.
There are 3 waves of attack. The last is made up of lovely fiery bowpeople all in flames, firing arrows.

[Comments]
It is interesting to see that it is not my actions of the day that are important but what resides in the background or behind my actions.
I repressed thinking about work, reading a zombie book and doing artwork : these all plopped to the surface in my dreams.

yoooo I got lucky

Dream
So I dreamed I was a community college student again, and I would take the bus to get there and there was another student on the bus who'd done somethin' to me that I wanted revenge for. And I had this plan like yo, if I could beat this guy up with no consequences... was like I was hoping that soon I would be in a dream where I could beat him up, but then I was like yo lemme check and I did a nose-pinch check and realized I was already dreaming!

So then I stood in the middle of the bus and raised my arms, willing the bus to lift into the air, and it somewhat reluctantly did, so I started talking excitedly to encourage it. That helped a lot, and pretty soon the bus was like, forty feet off the ground. Think my plan was to smash it on the ground, but I'm not sure how I thought that was gonna work out because one, there were a bunch of other people on the bus who had nothing to do with this guy, and two, I was still on the bus. But then I think instead I got sidetracked and forgot all about the dude because the fact that I was lucid in a dream was more interesting than this made-up lil dream character. That said, I don't remember what happened next. Good times tho. Glad I still got my same old lucid powers.

I was quite tired yesterday. Went to bed earlier than normal and read a chapter in my book. The chapter was so long that I ended up really going to bed around the same time as normal (about 23:45). I woke up around 08:30. It's now 09:00

Penisslip
I'm in my mom's living room. I can tell by the big, black couch. I'm with my friend Sel. I can't recall why, but she is making me take off my shirt. There's nothing really sexual going on between us. I also have to take off my pants. Before doing so I take a moment to look which boxer I'm wearing, as I don't wanna embarrass myself with a childish boxer. It's an ok one. I pull my pants down, but the tip of my penis sticks out of the top of my boxer. Ah crap. I tuck it away asap, but Sel starts laughing and tells me she's already seen it. At this point I'm also hoping that I won't get a boner, because having a bulge in my boxer would be really obvious now. I'm hoping she will take something off as well. She is hot after all. She tells me that she is still dating Lukas. Really? Lukas? He is such a nerdy dude. I can't see them being together, her being out of his league. Also the thought that he is still with Lea is vaguely in the back of my mind.

Gym (this dream is full of gaps)
We have to travel a long way to a gym for some physical education class or something alike. We actually have to take the train or bus. The person I'm with and I decide to take the bus I think.

I recall talking to a white male who was somewhat important. We're in a big room and he's showing us around a bit. He might be the dad of the person I'm with. Eventually we have to leave to take the bus again. It's gonna be a long ride.

We're in the dressing room, along with some other people. It's time to go back home. Again we can choose between the train and the bus. I have a shitload of stuff to carry with me. I consider leaving some behind and picking it up on the second round, but then I remember how far it is and I don't want to do that.

We narrowly miss the train I believe, so we decide to take the bus instead. While we're driving I come to the conclusion that I've left some stuff behind. Fuck. I call someone, but he's already left the gym as well.

At some point while I'm still in the bus I hit the stop button, but I do so too early. I can see the train station a bit further in the distance. I consider getting off anyway, because I'm a bit embarrassed. The bus makes a stop, but I then realise I still have to put on my jacket and get all my stuff together. In the mean time some people start getting off. More and more until finally everyone has left. The bus continues driving with me on it and someone makes a comment which I can't remember. The bus descends rapidly as if I'm on a rollercoaster. I can actually feel the sensation and the tingling in my stomach. Then it's over and we've reached our destination.

Outside of the bus there's a girl to greet me for some reason. A kind of hostess/promo girl. We strike up a conversation as we walk inside together. She talks about the time she had to sing for a group of people.

Fragment
» I'm looking at a fullscreen map of the Netherlands. It's all misshapen. Groningen [a city in the north-east] is in the south-west. The map shows some colouring that I don't understand around Groningen. It makes me wonder what it's supposed to represent.

» My cousin tells us about how she was on the tram just now. She was seated and on the seats behind her, she had put two boxes. One were the parts for a very expensive cargo bike. Another was filled with baby stuff. When she turned around they were gone. Someone must've stolen them. I feel bummed out for her, but at the same time I wonder why she didn't switch places with her stuff so that she could keep an eye on it.

» My friend Anthony has posted something on LinkedIn. I don't recall the exact message, but I recall thinking that this was more of a FB post. It's about being grateful or something and about a party. Next thing I'm walking in the park during daytime with my friend Jor. Anthony wants to join us, but apparently the two of them are having a fight. Anthony remains quite normal under it and gives me the gist of the story, whereas Jor definitely doesn't want to talk to him. This is a bit of a weird and uncomfortable situation. I pick out a spot in the park to put a blanket down and chill. At first I thought about getting myself involved, but they can figure it out for themselves.

Sales
I'm the officemanager of a salescompany I used to work for. I'm surprised to find out myself, as I wasn't the best salesman. Even though I'm the manager, I don't know shit about shit and I feel like a fool. I get instructions rather than giving them. My people meet their targets though, which practically means free money for me.

It's daytime and I'm in a public building where a kid is having his/her birthday party. We're out here to make some sales. I strike up a conversation with 1 or 2 people, but no success. Eventually we move outside, as there are more and more salespeople around this place, working for different charities. Outside are people from my office. It didn't occur to me, but suddenly I realise that I'm holding a BNN sign, which is a organisation that some of us are selling for. Not me though. I have a big laugh at this.

Rainbow carpet
Not sure if it's me or someone else, but someone is driving a car around and I'm in it. It's daytime and I can make out the street pattern quite well. At some point there is the consideration of where to park (as in, where is the free parking). I recall the places where you have to pay, so lets avoid those at least. We end up at a roundabout.

The roundabout is a bit of a magical happy go lucky place. There's a fabric of some sorts which has been lain around the roundabout several times. It's rainbow coloured and quite soft and special. Polgara is also present. We are arranging the fabric again so that it's set properly. My little brother is there as well, sitting behind the computer. I tell him to come and help us. First he makes up the excuse that he's doing homework or something alike. Then he comes with a different excuse. And yet another. Dick.