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ok before I start off with this DJ, I'm going to tell you that I'm taking an anti-depressant called Remeron, but apparently it's more of an anti-histamine than an anti depressant but one thing I realized while on it (and I'm not the only one) is that my dreams seem much more vivid and they are not like regular dreams where it's full of incoherent images, no these dreams are like full on movies at times. anyways

in this dream I'm partly watching a movie and I'm partly taking part in what's happening. ok basically while the dream is going on, my dream self is believed to be watching battle star galactica (no episode of BSG was this intense I must say) apparently in this dream, the backround story was that 33 years ago aliens from a far away galaxy invading earth for some reason, humans won the fight and now are on a voyage to collect information on the aliens to help prevent and get prepared for any future conflicts with the aliens. Now the humans are using the aliens technology who were far more advanced than the humans at the time of the first war and are now fighting smaller units of aliens along the way collecting as much information they can find about the origin of the aliens and the technology they possess. the battle has now taken place far away from earth. ok to be honest I'm not exactly sure how relatable it is with the details I'm about to explain but I remember making that detail in my head during the dream well anyways

A fleet of galactic ships have surrounded this (I forgot the name that was used in the dream so I'm just going to call it) artificial power cell star that is absorbing energy from a near by wormhole that we are apparently going to go through. We landed on the base of the star and one of the character explained that whatever energy the star held was energy that could not be contained artificially, so they had to use natural means of containing it then he exclaimed the power cell they contained charged right away as soon as it got there. The collection of ships we were on looked like giant versions of the ship in the video game called descent, only their were 4 giant rings at the top end of the ship which I suppose were jump engines. many of the characters in this dream reminded me of the characters from A secret life of an American teenager but I'm not exactly sure.

anyways A black hole had appeared on the out skirts of where the fleet were, and one of the guys were telling us to move to the extraction point. People soldiers and civilians alike were panicking and trying to get off the ship. the female who I think were the Christian mother and daughter from a secret life of an American teenager were trying to get to where the rest of the guys were but they were blocked from all the civilians trying to get onto this one pod. They had some object I think they needed in order to jump or go through the wormhole, (not exactly sure what was going on since I only remember a portion of it). at first the woman tried telling them what they needed to do to get out but they wouldn't listen and just kept panicking trying to get on this one pod. the woman said alright and then pointed a gun at the civilians so she could get through, I'm not exactly sure if this happened or not because my recollection of this dream is a bit foggy, but I think she shot the gun at the ceiling in order to scare away the people covering the passage way. anyways time was cutting close and one of the ships found itself lost in the black hole and then our ship was next. after the woman cleared the path to the pod which the civilians were covering and trying to get in, her and another girl got in and transported to another part of the ship. when they got their more civilians were trying to get on the exit pod but the soldiers already on only allowed the woman and the girl on for some reason I forgot. after that they transported off the ship before it drifted in the black hole.

Now the woman and the girl reunite with the other characters and they are about to take their ship through a wormhole. at this part I think this is where they enter the artificial power cell star where the one guy mentions how whatever energy the star was holding was unable to be contained through artificial means or whatever technology they had at the time, I don't know but anyways the action pretty much ends around here, I don't remember everything but after that I remember rewinding the part where the 2 woman were cutting g things close trying to get of the spaceship before drifting in the black whole. I remember thinking this is the most epic episode of battlestar galactica ever and I just reminded this part over and over. anything that happening after my constant rewinding is lost tho.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was visiting dreamviews and then was trying to WILD.

Nap #2(fragment):

I am walking around the home, and while walking around one of rooms i did spontaneously realized that i am dreaming. I could not move, but after a second i could. I went through the door and to the left it was dark and i tried to manipulate shadows into summoning something. I saw very shadowy and small pterodactyl looking creature, but then dream faded out.
I woke up but i kept eyes closed, i saw the room with closed eyes but i thought it was HH, there was an board with an word 'SPECIAL' on ti. I tried to DEILD but then i got interrupted by someone entering the room, i opened the eyes and it was someone from family, then shortly i woke up properly.

I dreamed that I got these pets for our kids: a miniature King Kong (real one), a couple kittens and a lizard. The King Kong was hugging the kittens not gently enough. My husband wanted to know why this choice of pets, and I explained that I thought they would keep things lively.

I at least know why the kittens. We went to a dinner party last night, and the hostess was telling us about a cat she was watching for friends who used to menace a fish in a bowl (the fish was also those friends). When they came back for their pets, they said they had in the meantime adopted three kittens.

I dreamed that lots of kittens had gotten into our living room (which was nothing like our actual living room) through the balcony. There was also a stranger there who acted as if he belonged there. He was disturbed by all the kittens which were causing havoc, and he wanted to know whether they were ours. It turned out that our housemate (don't actually have one) had invited him to stay in her absence and had advertised our home as a quiet place. Then the owner of the kittens came also through the balcony to try to retrieve them.

So last night I was trying WBTB WILD again, I imagined my dream scene like I always do:
The very cliche, tall pale grass, horizon-less meadow with a single tree to one side. Instead, I wake up in my room -___-. But oh well! I was LUCID, and was so happy I forgot to stabilize, which I think has something to do with why it ended kinda fast. I tried teleporting, like people I've seen have talked about before but when I opened my eyes trying to get to my cliche dream-scene I was in the middle of the desert, so I flew around for maybe 5 minutes, or what felt like that anyway which was beast. Then I was really eager to try this shape-shifting technique that I've seen talked about on the forums a lot, I began to sprint along the ground, and was so excited(The feeling of just sprinting along freely with 0 stamina in the dream-world just feels immense) and then I began running on all fours thinking about becoming a Lion/black panther but then the dream just faded and I woke up. Tonight(If I become lucid again, hopefully will! ) I'm going to follow some steps in the Dream stabilization thread I've read on here.

Either way, I'm glad after a few nights failed experiments it worked haha.

We had let our kids go out in the woods alone, and I was tracking their GPS on my phone, and could occasionally zoom in to look at what they were doing.

At some point I noticed that my four year old had become a proficient swimmer. I knew he had it in him! I thought proudly.

However, then the GPS signal of my four year old started to get confused and when I zoomed in a different kid would show. I could see my seven-year old climbing a tree, but that was not my younger son beside him.

My husband said that it was ok, just a glitch, but I told him that I had a feeling of dread like something terrible had happened.

We reached the woods, and found a group of kids tied loosely to a tree with some cable. They lay there as if in a stupor. I still had not found my son. I heard the voice of the evil man who had done this saying something over a loudspeaker. I don't remember all he said, but it included "it does not matter." I could somehow know that the tree cables or something there was boobytrapped so I could not free the kids. I also somehow knew the evil man could see me.

I still also had not reached my older son yet, even though I had seen him on GPS phone video, had not lost him.

I woke up from this nightmare after this, quite shaken.

I had to look in on my sons, and found them safe asleep in bed of course. Despite risk of waking him up, I kissed my younger son on cheek - I would have kissed my older one, but he was harder to reach not being near the edge of the top bunk at the moment.

In hindsight, even before my conscious self was aware of it that this would turn into a nightmare, the setting was clearly there. We are watching kids over GPS and phone while they are alone in the woods! They are engaging in potentially dangerous activities such as swimming unsupervised without lifeguard or lifejacket for my younger son and tree climbing on very high tree for my older son.

It is interesting that the nightmare again goes to kidnapper theme. I thought I had successfully vanquished those kidnappers in my previous dream, where I felt so much empowerment due to having rescued my boys and preparing to fight bad guys using my superior martial arts skills. Well apparently they are back with a vengance and this time there is no empowerment for me. Of course, due to the GPS and leaving them alone in the woods, it is all my fault this time. Also i do not even get the relief of seeing my boys before the dream ends, making sure that they are alive and well in the dream. Fear of kidnappers in waking life is one of those cultural irrationally blown out of proportion fears: I know that in reality the odds of boys being kidnapped are miniscule, and I did not think that I really feared this in waking life that much to give me nightmares (perhaps it is not so much the likelihood as what would be worst case scenario - fear of kidnappers and boogieman), but of course I am as a good parent worried for my sons safety, and that of course is the cause of these dreams.

One of the dreams I had showed me owning a third Mosrite guitar; (I own two IWL) The third one is a Stereo 350 model which looks similar to a Telecaster. Then, I think I saw a man who owns one of these Stereo 350 guitars and I think his first name is Nate. (This isn't a character I dreamed up, He's real.) He was playing music with one or two other people. I think I tried to play along with something, Perhaps I was in Nate's place or I tried to play along with the video I speak of in the next paragraph.

Then, I saw a Ramones video with my Mother and I talked about the history of the guitar model Johnny Ramone used most of the time which was also a Mosrite guitar, Of the Ventures II (First Generation; There were three different deigns under that name, Not counting ones that were manufactured with some parts made for the earlier model) Model.

That same day IWL, Mother did a web search for "Ya Know" Looking for its definition as she says it often and I didn't know what she meant by it. Then, On the first page of results there was a page about an upcoming posthumous Joey Ramone album titled "Ya Know" Or something like that and I told her about my dream and about the history behind the guitar model Johnny played most of the time!

UPDATE: The man is Nate Gibson and here's a video showing what he looked like some years ago:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhSVsaJcfKg

I dreamed I saw a girl who I know in waking life talking when my mother was present, Then I saw a Pasteur who I know IWL. (I saw both people today in Church, The Pasteur just got home after some weeks of absence and I didn't know when she was arriving home.)

Some time after that, The girl and I went to an Aldi grocery store and I remember feeling very hot before going into the store. I went into the freezer from the customer's side of the doors and there was enough room to walk in the freezer in front of the merchandise, And I did just that until I got further down the aisle before I saw the girl get some frozen strawberries out of the freezer and I got out of the freezer myself. After I got out I said I felt better and I think the girl may have said something to me.

This dream did seem to reflect a bit of today, Too.

Yay, an epic dream/recall, also visiting friend's home somehow.

Dream 1(fragments):

There were three teams of two people each, and i was somehow switching between being in each of them, we were doing some stuff and were searching for something in the city. I recall each team used a different car for traveling around the city and one of the teams used some kind of van. We were not caring about any rules or laws during our search, and were breaking through some fences and such, also we had some kind of abilities. Later on we have found some burning car, but it was not what we were searching.

Dream 2:

I was apparently visiting SilentEternity's home which for some reason was also not so far from mine's. There were some people who were saying that they are SilentEternity's relatives but SilentEternity himself wasn't there, they were saying that he's sleeping, the talk by the way was going through an IRC popup window of some kind instead of actual talking. I was in some L-shaped room of the house and there were alot of boxes, for some reason Auron lived there too, i was trying to set up a multiplayer game of some kind but there was a problem with 7-zip license and internet was not working properly. Then soon i was beyond the time at which i usually go to sleep and i didn't know what's better to do. The dream skipped.
I was in some kind of video game, i was in sandy ruins/dungeon and i was picking up some items and dodging some grey insectoid looking things. Then some characters appeared and it turned into some defense mission where we had to defend the passage into ruins from attacking enemies. After that it turned into some talk about that i was a demon and i fought a big enemy to regain the power. The power let me levitate in place and release an red shockwave that was very powerful.
I went to the different level which was some technological looking place with a generator and was going through it with ease. Then game switched to 2D and i got to a cutscene which i have never seen before because wasn't taking this story route before. It involved a big screen flashing with tons of error messages quickly and then some pixel space invader-looking thing emerging from it. It then spawned a ton of pixel people who formed a shield in front of it and also were shooting small projectiles aimed at me. I immediately used the demon power and in a few hits 'shield' was destroyed, but the enemy couldn't be damaged directly so had to uncover some marks in the background by destroying terrain.
I was back with team and we were at some grey, desolated, land. We talked about something and we had two ways to go. One way got us through some fields, where two factions of various animals were having a war, but i was pretty sure they were just pretending, also one of them that was on neutral side was following us and wisely talking about some philosophy. Soon we were back at desolated place and we were having a talk again, this time the talk was about my powers, and i had to split from the team and go different direction.
Now i was in the forest, it looked familiar, i navigated a few paths and soon found an silver sword. Then after some more navigating there was a pack of angry wolves attacking me, way too many to handle with normal weapons, and i didn't wanted to use the demon power because it wasn't worth using it versus that. I got some syringes that were inducing sleep and used them, while fighting using silver sword. Silver sword was able to kill them in one hit, but it broke in like three hits. They dropped antidotes that looked like ones from Deathtrap Dungeon and completely useless, also they dropped more sleep inducing syringes and some silver swords. Also wolves kept respawning very quickly so i had to retreat and hide.
Soon they formed an very big group and it was very in the way of where i was going, i tried to sneak around but was noticed and attacked again. Suddenly i found out that i have an sawblade, that looked like one from Half-life 2, in my inventory. Wolves were chasing me in a straight line, like a simple AI, so i used telekinesis power, which i apparently had as well, to quickly throw sawblade, which went through whole line, getting rid of a problem at once.
I looked around and found what i was looking for, an big enemy base. I selected rocket launcher from my inventory and exploded a few buildings but i had not enough ammo, so i switched to a cannon, but soon was out of ammo as well. I complained that this level has not enough ammo for the objective to be doable and selected some other gun and continued ruining base with it + demonic power. Soon the dream ended.

Key: Notes/Comments Nonlucid Dream
Lucid Dream
I was going to try a WILD, but it was way too loud, so I instead did a MILD with a mantra of "I will realize I am dreaming." I had some REM rebound from lack of sleep from the night before.

Dream 1, Nonlucid Dream

I was in a city like San Francisco, except it was cleaner. This asian guy had this big staff with colorful bubbles in it. I acquired the staff somehow. I realized that the staff had magical powers. I pointed it toward a car and a white light flew from the end of the staff to the car: the car grew in size. Eventually some guys came up to me, they were like "Give me that staff of yours" and so I shrunk them. Later this girl came up to me and said, "The staff of gods! You can grow things, resurrect people, and kill people!" I walked around 'San Francisco' and I dropped my staff at one point. It rolled under a car. I went under the car and noticed that the colorful bubbles, which looked like bubbles, had spilled out. I used the staff to suck them up somehow. Someone called my name, though, and I forgot the staff. The dream sort of 'skipped' at this point and I was in a car driving with my mom. I think she was driving to work. I realized that I had left my staff at the city, under the car. I said,
"Oh no! I left my staff under the car! It has magical powers." My mom gave me an annoyed look.
"Staffs in real life don't have magical powers," she said.
"It must have been a dream then," I said.

Dream 2, Lucid Dream

I was at my school. Two boys were following me around. They said, "I can't believe she doesn't realize that this is a dream."Then, of course, I became lucid. I'm dreaming!I thought, shouting it in my mind. I forgot to stabilize, but I DID remember the TotM. I took off running, and found the nearest person I saw. His name is Nate Yu. I barely know him in waking life, but he goes to my school. I ran up to him. I was confident he would give me a lump of coal when I asked.
"Hey, I need you to give me that lump of coal you're carrying around." I got this idea from CanisLucidis' dream journal post. He nods, and pulls out of his pocket what my dream thinks to be a lump of coal. It's got some black, like coal, but it's connected to some sparkly, rough, silver rock that's more pliable, like clay. "Thanks," I say. I squeeze the rock in my hands, but instead of getting a diamond, I got a boring rock. I ran off, still squeezing the rock, but eventually I gave up and threw the rock on the ground. I thought of making coal materialize at this point, but I decided I'd try asking a few more people first. I went to where there was most people: the lockerrooms. I ran over screaming, "HEY, IF ANYONE HAS A LUMP OF COAL CAN THEY GIVE IT TO ME PLEASE?" Everyone just looked at me oddly and continued what they were doing in the lockerroom. I noticed that the boys were also entering the girls' lockerroom along with the other girls. Eventually I gave up and ran off to these 3 boys. I was also thinking of some of my dream goals I also had. I asked them, "Hey, can I have that coal you're carrying around? I can turn it into a diamond." They looked at eachother, considering it, and the middle boy nodded and handed me a lump of the silvery rock instead of coal. For some reason it seemed like the 'coal' was used like a drug in this dream. I squeezed it into a diamond shape, but no actual diamond. They started to look angry. "It's okay, it's okay. I can make it into a diamond like they have in minecraft." I tried again. No diamond. The boys looked even more angry, but instead of beating me up, like I thought they would, they ran off. I turned around. I could hear my 5-year-old stepbrother Gabriel screaming in waking life. He's going to wake me up!I thought. I could hear my brother trying to quiet him down. The dream was blurry and extremely unstable now. I ran my hand across the nearest wall, and it felt real as one would in real life. Then, thinking of a post on dreamviews about 'making out' with the dream, I dropped to my knees. I felt super disconnected from the dream by now when I said, "The ground is going to taste like strawberries instead of the ground." I licked the ground. It felt rough, like the ground would normally, and it tasted like a juicy strawberry. Then his screaming started again. I decided that he would inevitably wake me up anyway, so I decided that I'd try my first DEILD. I exited the dream, and then I kept my eyes closed when I woke up. Almost immediately I heard the 'vibrations' (which, to me, sounded alot more like blood rushing through my ears.) I freaked out because this is my first time hearing them and started flailing my leg around in an effort to wake myself up. I kicked myself in the morning for not tolerating the vibrations

went to sleep a little on the drunk side. finnally getting back to where i notice my wakings during the night. the dreams are still very murky - probably a 4/10, but at least i'm pulling a little more back again.
sleep 130am
wake 440am
wake 730am
wake 1030am

Locked up in a movie theater because someone was heard threatening to blow the place up. I had been trying to get back to the party with my mate. went through a door that was supposed to lead back to the party, but just opened into another theater room. when we tried to go back to keep looking we weren't allowed out. I was having claustrophobia/extreme issues with the restriction. (was crying/panicking and hiding in my mates shoulder)

We all got on this mass transportation thing - me and a friend or two and just random people. It was really really fast cart that traveled through the air like a tram but really really high up (impossibly). one person that seemed squeamish about getting on the tram launched herself out the side - she was dangling from ropes and very much enjoying herself. maybe she was just claustrophobic or something. I dangled a little as well, but it was unintentional - I slipped or something. I was fine - i used her ropes and she supported me a little. i was also enjoying the rush.

There were cats and kittens in a different dream - cant quite seem to place them though. was positive. I keep seeing their adorable little faces.

Two fragments.

Dream 1 (fragment): There was some open area, with a raised area next to it. This area apparently had Phazon from the Metroid series in the ground. There was some kind of water pump, and phazon would pool right in front of it, and we had to clear it out with a shovel (?).

Some girl tried to get water without cleaning it up, and got corrupted, but without altering her appearance.

[Note - Phazon does "corrupt" things in Metroid, for those who don't know].

Dream 2 (fragment): I was in my grandparents' bathroom. It was much larger than normal. The door was locked, but the actual locking mechanism wasn't actually there - and was simply empty space. I could also see through the crack in the door. Despite this, it closed and locked perfectly fine.

Morning of April 28, 2013. Sunday.



Instead of my 1922 Red Phaeton bringing an assassin to wipe out annoying dream characters, it was a car that came up in a Google image earlier, a dark blue 1936 Ford Deluxe Phaeton. I guess my “regular” assassin was now a composite utilizing the new Black Widow (actress Scarlett Johansson), although she dresses much differently, sort of like a younger female Robin Hood (or more so, Green Arrow), but with a more colorful and “tougher” wardrobe.

This was an early evening dream, when I fell asleep to catch up on some rest. At any rate, here I am once again back in my home in Cubitis with annoying neighbors. I become aware in my half-sleep (the television was on) of how bizarre human voices seem (both actors and audience) in situation comedies. “Everybody Loves Raymond” was on and I kept following the seeming strangeness of it all. An actor would say a short phrase, the audience laughed, a different actor would say a short phrase, the audience laughed again, another actor said a short phrase, the audience laughed again…and on and on, sounding like a very unnatural, otherworldly, “inhuman” rhythm.

In my dream, south of my old Florida home, is a different (unknown) group living there. There are probably at least a dozen people in the main front room. It seems to be some sort of family reunion. They have their loud television on (“Everybody Loves Raymond”), with the brief actor talk, brief audience laugh, brief actor talk, brief audience laugh, seeming to be in an actual repeating loop, sounding as abnormal and unearthly as ever, as well as a loud stereo playing some sort of sparse, low booming sound (probably around 40 Hz) but no actual music or other audio nuances mixed in (similar to how a time-stretched car stereo playing techno would sound from a distance). Groups of people have often disoriented me in real life, making me feel very tired and drained even after only a couple minutes, not always in a negative sense, though, sometimes bordering on non-lucid, peaceful dreamlike states, especially in restaurants.

I go to their house and bash on the door. The inner door is open and only the screen door is closed. The house is different from real life in that there is no door on the north end in reality. I tell them to turn things down (there are about four things going at once), but they say they cannot, as everything is broken, so they are all just sitting and standing around listening to it all and yelling all their repeated conversations at each other to be heard over the other nonsense (possibly inspired by the “loud television gag” from "Ghostbusters”).

I try a few more times, but only get negative remarks. It also does not help that when I am talking to one person, everyone else then suddenly starts talking about what I said, and sharing different ideas at the same time, so I have to point out the home owner, who is the only one I am actually attempting to speak to, but it does not seem to be understood. She is an uneducated hillbilly type, about forty or so, with light curly hair, sitting in an old green armchair.

Finally, my assassin comes in. She takes out an unusual looking larger dagger that looks like a boomerang knife. A young man laughs and says “that’s a paper knife” and she then throws it to the wall so that it hits the wall very hard and sticks into it (mostly vertically), splitting the wood nearly to the hilt (which is funny, as it actually does seem made of paper at one point). She immediately decapitates him with another of the same design (waiting just long enough so that he sees what the knife does to the wall before he is killed) but the knife returns, so it does seem like an actual boomerang design in potential, but looking much the same as the biggest knife here (not seen until after my dream - and I do not recall seeing them or at least thinking about the design at any previous time):



The other people start leaving, but only half of them escape in a car, the others being killed (one with a television coming down over his head and one going through a wall, most with “boomerang” knives through them).

I am then on the Seven Mile Bridge at night (Key West). I watch the car of escaping people somehow just drive off the bridge (or crash “smoothly” through the side) and plunge into the ocean - also somehow caused by the work of my own assassin from the dark blue Phaeton. I am aware of two old fishermen in a small boat, only one of which noticed the actual car hitting the water near them. He asks the other, slowly…“Was that a…car?” The other just shrugs and casts his line where the splash was, thinking it might have been a big fish.

I decide that it is time to wake up, as I have probably slept long enough. I decide to use a trick I often use to become more lucid to improve my reasoning skills (so that I will then know the best way to wake up), and that is, jumping from a cliff or a bridge as I often do, as I greatly enjoy the sensation of falling in lucid dreams.

I jump from the bridge and the bottoms of my feet hit flat on the water’s surface, causing a slight pain in my legs from the impact. I then start walking on the water, but see that the shore is very far away. I decide to run over the water and I end up flying into the air, so far up, I am almost out of the Earth’s atmosphere, seeing mostly only the topside of clouds, the ocean and small areas of the Florida Keys. I keep moving and eventually wake.

Total sleep time: 7 hrs, still tired

Dinner: 2 Eggs plus other stuff
Prebed: 1 1/2 Glass of soy milk

Fragment1: I am some kind of adventurer, like Indiana Jones, a man as well. I am about to enter a bunker, when the doors begin to close. I don't want to be stuck inside so I roll on the floor and escape through the exit door just before it closes sliding from above.

Dream2 short DILD: I am in a familiar yard and there are loads of mattresses all stacked together, a pile as high as the third floor perhaps. I am initially sitting on top and trying to balance. I then get down and on the ground there is some red liquid which is toxic and contagious? A Rottweiler is under the influence of this red liquid, he is ranging mad behind a glass window, people are watching him, he is deadly dangerous. I try to quickly move away, pass by it, and find myself on the street. I go in the wrong direction, the street looks slightly familiar in the dream, I have no idea where I am, but confidently go in the direction which I assume is the right one. I begin to speed move on the street and become lucid. I continue speed moving, trying not to hit some people and two German shepherds in front of me. Memory gap...perhaps I woke up?

Dream3: In a store and have the feeling I have been here before. I want to pick up something I have ordered, but it looks like they couldn't deliver because they don't have my address. The old lady behind the counter takes out a piece of paper and shows me that the address is missing. As I am trying to fill out the address, it begins to change, but I am filling out a non-existent address anyways and that does not seem odd at all. I then see that they are selling a special tea to make you lucid. I am so happy they are finally selling those things and want to buy a pack. I also want to get a fancy facial lotion but become distracted, so I forget about it.

Fragment4: Another store, this time I am looking at coffee mugs, wondering whether to buy one. There is also a beautiful teapot and a guy is trying to pour water in the tea cup, but it doesn't quite work. One of us is actually biting the teapot, can't remember who it was.

Dream5: In something like a museum, similar to a place I have been before in another dream. It also resembles a bookstore and they are selling drawing materials, I wanted to buy these so that I can begin painting with color. Further ahead there are two guys wrestling. They are playing a strange game, as if they are anime characters, and one pretends to hurt the other and the other pretends he gets kicked in the butt. I think of how good they are at doing this whole thing, this requires a lot of skill.

A semi-familiar girl comes to me and wants me to be her partner in this strange game, but I can't do it, so I turn her down. She then takes out a napkin with something written on it. I just see the first few lines: DEILD and SxxEILD. So she is into lucid dreaming? I ask her what her nickname is, I am assuming she has a DV profile. She looks kind of offended and as if I have crossed some privacy line. She takes back the napkin and walks away.

Dream6 DILD, TOTM: I am with my friends and boyfriend and it looks like we are doing some laundry. We are inside some place maybe public laundry, maybe store, it is rather empty, just us there. We go out on the street and hail starts to fall. I also see some lightning. I then look at the sky and see some indescribable lights there. They take the form of many invisible airplanes. There is also some thunder-like sound. I tell my friends, " And you didn't believe about the end of the world, well here it is!". I look in the sky again, something like a small sun, looking menacing to me.

Strange things in the sky, I may be dreaming. I become aware. I still feel threatened, what if this is real? No, it's a dream! I tell myself. Ok, it's a dream, but this thing is in the sky, let me get out of there. I turn around the corner, and continue on my way but the dream begins to fade. I continue walking and start rubbing my hands, but I don't feel them so much and that worries me. They actually feel kind of numb (but not paralyzed). I see a DC woman and desperately try to cling with my mind to her, I ask her to help me, I try to engage her, but whatever she answers I can barely hear.

I think I may have quickly DEILDed at some point, but it was more like a mild dream fade and then back to the dream, no time in the void. I turn back and see that the thing in the sky is taking a lot of space now and it reminds me of the war of worlds machine. I turn my back and think that if I go far away from it, it may not notice me or just disappear. I continue on my way, it is of course a dead end street. I even stumble on some steps of this dead end street, shortly wondering how did I manage to do that? I begin climbing a fence and cross to where there are some houses. I enter one and find myself in the kitchen. I notice something interesting there, can't remember what. I go in the other room, and concentrate on a DC that is watching TV. " Tell me about the situation, what is going on with this thing outside?" I then remember that I don't need to stay here and want to change the scene.

There are now three DCs in the room. " I need to change the scene, will you help me?", I ask them. A very helpful and enthusiastic DC takes the initiative " Sure, I will help you, guide you, where do you want to be?" happily replies the man. I initially think "Angel Falls" but then I remember I wanted to finish TOTM first. So I glance at the floor and start looking for coal. I see a large black object and take a piece of it, but it turns into a backpack and the piece in my hand is useless. I turn to the DC woman on my left. " Quickly, give me a piece of coal" , she hands me a brown black pointy piece of a coal. I place it between my fingers and it feels like rubber. I begin pressing it and try to shape it into a diamond. I shortly close my eyes and the dream begins to fade. I am annoyed. " Turn to diamond, turn to diamond", I have to have positive expectations, I remind myself. I look into my hands and finally a diamond shaped crystal is there. The way it is faceted reminds me of a crystal glass my grandma had. Still holding the diamond in my hands I start thinking that I have everything I need to do the four-in-one task in this room with the DCs. Then the dream fades and so does my overall ability to concentrate.I wake up and head for the journal.



Comments: Wow! Finally got that diamond, not quite as I expected or planned the whole thing, but still... and with April almost over, I think it's time for me to relax and call it a month!

Edit: Wrote down this entry, everybody left and I decided to go back to bed because I felt tired. As usual I was taking my time relaxing in bed when bf decided to give me a call. I told him that I am tired of being woken up, and decided to get up since our guests will soon be back from their walk.

Lol! This whole situation is getting ridiculous, but then I have to ask myself "Perhaps this lack of sleep and constant disruption is keeping me on the edge while at the same allowing for some REM rebound to occur?" The truth is I have had 7 LDs since our guests arrived, so I probably should turn my coal complaining into a diamond gratefulness? Whatever the reason, thanks for the great month!

You're clinging to some kind of moving pole that's taking you to the top of a mountain. You don't look down because you know there is a sheer drop of thousands of feet below, so you continue to look up and hope that you'll make it. Eventually you see the end approaching and when you get there you step off of the pole. The view is pretty magnificent - you're on a sort of enormous high up plateau with mountains on it. The ones near you are blue with snow, but in the distance there are red and black glowing mountains, you assume the red is magma. It's very cold up here and you are told that monks used to live up here and walk around barefoot on the stones.
A lot of fuzzy stuff happens later, you meet a bunch of people that you didn't know before and have a good time, but that's all I remember. Somehow you become part of some international organization, sitting in for some country, but they eventually show up and you're no longer needed.
You're at the store and you're buying cheese and crackers and pepperoni. You have a bottle of gin in your jacket pocket. It's an OJ bottle or something that you have poured gin into. You walk home in the snow and drive out to Ls house. On the way there you you miss something and try to turn the car around but it just keeps skidding in a 360 on the icy road. Eventually you make it to L's house. There are people there who got stranded in the snow and were taken in by L's family. There are four of them and they are really nice. L gives you some codeine, which you only take half of because you can't afford to get constipated. I don't remember anything that was said when you were hanging out with the stranded people. Something about craft shops. I think they were artists or something. Eventually they leave and you apparently had become close because you all hugged on their way out. You drink some of your gin, which now has strange herbs and seeds in it which you assume you put in there to help with your health issues. A lot more happened during this dream/these dreams but I can't remember.