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I watch Vampire Diaries but I've never been invested in Elena and Stefan as a couple. So it's a mystery to me why these two pop up so often. The dream stories revolving around them are always bittersweet, about the inability to choose between love and duty. A sad slow spiral away from each other but unable to stop reaching.
So this is how it began:
The world is washed out, tinged yellow with storm light. The world is beginning to fall apart. Elena and Stefan sit facing each other, knees touching, in a scattering of dead leaves. Cupped in Elena's hands is an ugly ring. The metal is thick heavy silver. The fitting is a threaded hole about half an inch wide. The stone is the size of a crystal door knob with an eight-sided cut. It looks like tarnished mirror with flashes of iridescent pink. Where she touches its surface magenta sparks leap into the air then disappear. They have to make a choice between each other and doing what is right.
Elena grimaces and unscrews the stone from the fitting. This is not without risk, they are linked by the stone and whoever discards it will begin to forget the person it links them to. She will even forget where she has hidden it.
She rises from the ground and walks away, Stefan still sits in the leaves staring forlornly at her as she retreats. It seems so terrible. The world is dangerous and they could die, he doesn't want her to die having forgotten him. Still. This is necessary. There is more at stake than their own lives.

There is a lapse. Elena has hidden the stone and taken up with a woman who should be her ally. I'll call her Kara. I don't get a good look at Kara so I can't describe her. Elena is leading her somewhere. It's dark outside and she pauses, unsure if she has lost her way. Kara pulls a long glowing knife from thin air and presses it back against her forearm. Elena senses it and knows she's been betrayed without turning around.
My mind rallies for a moment and thinks incredulously "You're formidable! You can't just stand there and let her knife you in the back!"
Elena narrows her eyes and pretends she doesn't know what's happened.
"Oh please, I've been deceiving people since the beginning of existence, don't insult me by pretending you don't know. Turn around and stand still like a good little girl." Kara says. Elena tries to remember why it's important to fight, why bother? It would be so easy to stop.
As she turns to face her enemy, Kara's knife flashes out. Her reflexes decide for her and Elena only just dodges, then ducks under another swing. The knife cuts through the fabric of reality leaving a glowing slash in the air. Elena turns on her heel and slips between the world into the Nevermind.
It's almost like a physical representation of her memory. The world here looks a little like where she left Stefan, but she can't remember that. There are thick white swathes of fog obscuring sections and black text is typed into them 'nevermind'.
She escapes.

There's a lapse and I see Kara standing in front of Stefan who is still sitting in the dead leaves. She pulls the stone from her pocket and smirks down at him and watches the conflicting emotions play across his face. He looks horrified and delighted. He only just keeps himself from reaching out for it. If he takes it and somehow finds the strength to discard it, he will forget Elena as she has forgotten him.
"Oh, look at you." Kara says like he's the cutest thing she's ever seen, "Resisting so hard. Here. Let me help." Kara has a walking stick with a silver handle, she uses the end of it to turn his hand over and then presses the stone into his palm.
"nnnoooooo." he moans.
"Yes." She smiles and pats him on the head. "I sincerely wish you all the luck in the world with that precious little gem." She sounds too smug to be sincere.

There's another lapse. I see him sitting on the ground. He's doing a voice over narration, telling the story. I've missed part of it, so I focus and the scene pauses then restarts. A text log even pops up so I can read what he's saying.
"So what do I do? I still have an option to cast it away. If I do I won't even remember that I've done it. Where is the loss in that? Can I miss her even if I can't remember?"
As he's thinking this, he stares down at the thick ugly band without its stone. "I couldn't stop myself. What we had was like a drug, I could not choose to cast it aside. Not again." His expression is equal parts resolute and sickened, he begins to screw the stone down into the fitting.

As this is happening random dialogue starts to pollute the text box like it's a chat room. It really annoys me because I can't read what he's saying. I notice there's music playing. Someone says the song is perfect and someone else asks who the band is. Another person says the band name is "Mm...Perhaps the Fish?" It seems to fit them exactly. They kind of sound like their underwater and at one point make a 'glub glub' noise.

My alarm woke me.

Flying and Sexy Time

My dream in progress shifted to me flying and I was lucid.

I was standing on a piece of wood or something, flying over the trees. I was happy to be lucid. I looked at the scene; it was incredibly clear. It was night, but I could see different kinds of trees below. I took in the scene and its clarity.

I then saw a '50's style truck in blue, and then other cars, but the dream became less clear.

I saw some people...women of course. I decided I would have some fun. I then thought about the task to lick the first dream character I saw, but I realized that I'd already passed that person up. IWL, I'm not sure that was actually the ToTM.

I then found an attractive girl and asked if she would show me her boobs. She said, "OK, but only one." She showed me one, and it had a tiny nipple. I was going to ask her if I could feel them. I said, "Can I--." I thought she was going to say "No," so I punched her in the face. I then went to feel her boobs and she didn't care at all. I found myself looking at her vag, and I proceeded to insert myself.

I soon woke up to use the bathroom.

I had cycled a few times. I didn't do too much, but I was cycled with intention. I ended the first fiscal quarter of year 3 with a record best of 17 which is = to my first year on DV. Awesome!

The dream started and I was at a friend's private school, and he was showing me around. His school was very fancy. He showed me this elevator which had two huge TVs (covered whole back elevator wall) near the tv parlor.

Later after the apocalypse began I was up on a ridge overlooking everything. I see the same TV parlor and head towards it except it’s a decrepit version. I cut a hedge with some sheers and grab a florescent light. I decide to go down the elevator, which then teleports me to another shaft and I fall down, into the same one with the TVs. After 15 secs I'm teleported to a glass balcony thing. I jump down and see my friend making a zombie be swarmed by zombies. Then zombies come at me I run inside, surprised I even made it.

Inside everyone is scared, and hurt. I talk to an old friend who’s with someone in the gym. Later an announcement is made to shut all doors. I head east and down some stairs near the office. I am in a medical center and there is a black doctor reading her notes. I look out into the hall, then close the door. I tell her something then move back upstairs. I move to the entrance and want to sit down but there is mopped up bloodstain on the chair.
Later a cute girl in a purple shirt comes up. She said she heard that we were going to be evacuated to Des Moines. I said wouldn’t we be outnumbered by the zombies? She said yeah, overtime we will outnumber them but the undead can’t do one thing-repopulate. I looked her in the eye and said that sounds like fun. She has an awed expression, and turns around to leave.

3/22/13

1. I did not do my math homework.

3/21/13

1. I am in a hospital that has nothing but cubicles made out of cloth comprising of the building. I walk through and get lost. I see a familiar waking life face, but she just walks by and gives me an odd look.

2. I have a false awakening.

3. I have another FA.

4. I am prepared this time. I go upstairs, but my family yells at me. I am pushed downstairs, but I force my eyes open to awaken.

3/19/13

1. The dream takes place the night before. I feel terrible because of fatigue and another feeling I cannot explain. I am in a fight with my mom in the kitchen. I get a knife and threaten her. She presses her head against the sink counter and says that I wouldn't. She looks at me pleadingly. I stab her, and as I do, I the scene flashes into a cartoon. It quickly reverts. This has happened once before in 'News From Zombie Island', but I did not think anything of it. I drag her body downstairs and lay her on her carpet. I wake up, expecting to have killed my mom. It takes me a while to realize it was all a dream.

2. DCs are arguing on a property. I go inside and see many white hallways. They are flawlessly snow-colored, so much that I lose my orientation a few times. I become lucid, and stabilize the dream, and I see a DC with me. The character is in my peripheral vision, therefore I could not see his face.

3/17/13

1. I am at a party. I see people I know there. The next day, I see a strange and threatening looking overweight man in the school halls as I walk inside. He looked joyous and happy, but I suspected him of something. I close and lock the classroom door. No one notices, and everybody is gathered in the front. They are talking to a woman who looks almost identical to the unwanted visitor in the halls. I realize it is a dream, but I deny it soon after. Upon seeing the man attempt to get in, I warn my classmates not to let the woman whom I believe to be his accomplice to leave the classroom. I don't make any action, because I have no real reason to believe this. The lady walks towards the door, and I realize that she must be attempting to let the man in, because the doors unlock from the inside. She walks out, and the man smiles and walks inside. He does not twitch his face from its beamish position. He sets down his bag. A bomb explodes.

I've posted this one on the forums a bit already. I believe one of the reasons why it occurred is because I was playing Xbox Live a lot at the time and it was like I stuck my head in the sands/ashes of hell or something. Most of what I did at the time was play Xbox Live, I don't think I noticed the birds flying around outside much.

The dream always started showing people, Often enough to have a large party, Arriving at a two-story house which was in a plain that had no grass or trees near it. It was cold outside and the ground was blue-ish in tint. There was a forest behind the house about 200 yards away. The house was nice and warm. (I also must note the interior resembled the interior of the James Bond homestead house in the new Skyfall movie.)

People would leave the house and go into the woods. In the woods, The people would find a graveyard (Note I didn't say cemetery; This place was a grave place to be) And there would be this Fast, White, Freezing-Cold River running over parts of it including some of the grave markers.

The river started from the left and was below the ground where the people would stand to see the graveyard. The river came down a slope and went in a U-turn away from a bank on the right, Back to the left as it went down a slope. I'm wondering why the graveyard wasn't completely submerged in the water; Why did the river go around some of the graves in a U-turn, Cutting them off? I don't recall a huge bank between the river and most of the graveyard preventing the water from flowing down the slope that the graveyard was on.

I never saw anyone cross the river. Also, There was no path to this graveyard; The people always went through the woods to get to it. Once they saw this graveyard, In most occasions every person who saw it would die by turning into a splintered, Dead wood statue. I don't think even their clothes remained, They were just dead wood. Even if they managed to get back in the house, They'd die.

After this, In the morning authorities would come by and they would never be able to figure out what happened. I did see inside the house on a few occasions and I also was in the dream myself at least once; I think I was trying to fish a girl's plastic purple bag out of the river at one point and I did not die.

On one other occasion, I saw inside the house and there was a large window on the second floor overlooking the forest and I saw a man or teenager who had glasses and short blond hair.

This might not sound like much when you read it now, But I can assure you that it was cold.

I woke with a clear picture of my dream, so clear and vivid that I just knew it was a big dream - it had that feel about it

- but then I fell back to sleep and everything vanished, save for a few fragments.

... My Father in law is alive, he seems to be ok now. He has gone upstairs to take a nap - I creep into the bedroom as I need to get something, but as I turn the handle the door makes too much noise and wakes him - I panic and go back downstairs.

.... I am riding in a car, or a bike - not sure

Wow what a night. I woke up at 5am and didn't go back to sleep until after 8am. This may very well be my longest WBTB that led to a successful DILD, not counting the times that I actually GOT UP early, then took a nap later in the day.

Anyway, the first thing I remember is being in a nonlucid where Danny was taking me to work in the morning. We were running just barely ontime, so I was a bit frantic. When I got out of the car, I thought Danny was helping me get some of my stuff out of the trunk, but he just vanished. I was like ffuu thanks alot. So I grabbed everything myself (including my shoes which I hadn't put on yet in the rush). I got to this ramp(?) that led to the bakery. I just dropped everything to the floor, trying to get my bakery garb on. (Oh yeah, and before that, I thought I saw Danny at customer service, but it wasn't him). Anyway, at that moment I realized that I had the wrong shoes. They were my privos instead of my nonslip work shoes. FFuu again. So I got my cell out and was going to call Danny and ask him to go home and get them for me. Then 2 of my bosses came down the ramp and looked at me like "Wft loser" and i just said" OK I'm hurrying, I just gotta find Danny!" They just walked off looking disappointed. I got my cell, and was looking through the contacts. All I remember at this point is massive device failure. I couldn't find Danny in the contacts. Then when I found his name, I couldn't find the call icon. I was suffering over this shit for a few moments, when I thought to myself that this HAS to be a dream. Too much stress and nonsense! The weird thing at this point, was that I didn't "feel" lucid, but I thought I'd try to kick my feel up and do a little low hovering flight, just to test things. And sure enough, it worked! I was weightless. Oh Lord JESUS thank god I'm lucid haha!

I took to flight with all my stuff gathered up in my arms, and was going to fly out the front door and go find Danny at the car maybe. Then I remembered I still hadn't done the food TOTM yet! I looked at the stuff in my arms and realized that there were some groceries there, including a bunch of green onions. I just bit of a huge hunk of the green parts, and they tasted crisp and spicy, just like they should. At this point I thought since I'm at work anyway, and right at the produce section of Whole freaking Foods, I should have a feast! I walked by the fruit stands, and noticed a displaced cookie case that should have been in the bakery. A giant, soft-baked chocolate chip cookie with marshmallow chunks stood right in front. SO I grabbed it.. god, it was still warm. I shoved about half of it into my mouth, and it was heaven. Chocolatey, melty-marshmallowey, ewey gooey warm sweet deliciousness. I started just going glutton all over this cookie, when I noticed it was making the dream unstabilize. I thought of Alyzarin in her recent food lucid (if you're reading this ALy, I owe you one), so I thought to calm down, and shift my focus. This seemed to chill things out. This next part is VERY sexually graphic. You've been warned.

Spoiler for EXTREMELY Mature Content.:

I felt so triumphant, which usually leads to a wave of randiness I reached down and my boy parts grew on command. I hadn't done this in a lucid in a while, so I just belted out "Oh YEAAAAH baby, here I come!" Why am I such a dickhead in lucids when I'm a dude? Anyway, there were a ton of people passing by in the produce section, but no one looked good. I remember specifically a tall, gray-haired old man. Nooo thanks. Then I noticed a young woman with soft curly brown hair in a flower-print dress with a matching purse, sitting on a stack of crates by the apples. She looked pious and virginal. I said something really crude, I can't remember what it was. I'm sure it was something along the lines of "Hey baby wanna f---" Anyway the crate she was sitting on put her hips at about hip level with me. She agreed to have sex with me, so I started unbuttoning my jeans. All the while she was talking to me, saying things like she didn't really know how to do anything, I just ignored her. What happened next was the most vivid lucid sex I have ever had. By vivid, I don't mean really all that pleasurable or satisfying, rather the details and the length and the regular 5 senses were really increased from what I'm used to. I was just going at it, and she would moan when I did extra things, like bite her neck, or when I put her boob in my mouth. I remember feeling like this wasn't really doing much for me, but I just kept going, since the dream and my lucidity was hanging on so well. I would push her upper body back and go faster, then I would pull her back up into an upright sitting position on the crates and go slower, kissing, sucking, giving HER all sorts of pleasure, but my dick just kinda felt numb. I finally felt the dream begin to fade, so I just let it. I basically got what I wanted from the dream, if I wanted to get off I could do that manually irl when I wake up lol.

Hmm, i guess something else affects the recall in this case then...

I was in some blue area, then there was some video game stuff and view was switching to 2D, then there was some kind of area with curvy metallic surfaces.

Tuesday 4/30/12

last night bed at 1am -9am.

DR1:

I'm in a nightclub. A dead girl, all bruised up, is curled up on a bar stool. Two girls sitting on each side of her lean over her and start making out. There is another dead girl nearby, also no one pays any attention. (I watched Defiance IWL and they looked like some people from there.)

DR2:

I'm in school. It's empty, I'm looking for exit.

DR3:

I'm with my class in a long room. There is a few beds and I'm sitting on one of them. Another classmate is sitting opposite of me on another bed. A teacher brings plastic jug with clear liquid in it. It's Ayahuasca. Some of us are suppose to try it.

Classmate takes a sip and we watch him for a while. Everybody is watching. It's some kind of a lucid dreaming experiment. Then I take few sips. At first I feel nothing but then I feel something mildly strange with my head. Then I get the strongest vibrations. I brace myself for pain. I doesn't hurt, but I fell like it could.

The vibrations stopped and I'm wondering why am I not lucid. I decide to test it. I open the glass door to the balcony, which is not too high, just a first floor. I hop over the metal rail and start to hover - fly in the air, right between the balcony and a nice big green tree. Lots of people underneath. Pedestrian zone, some kind of a fair.

Then I'm back inside the class. I talk about how it didn't get me lucid, but then I conclude, that I was flying, so it must have been very vivid, real lifelike LD. I'm asking lots of questions where I can get ayahuasca and we debate it for a while. (There was a teaser on syfy channel yesterday, about new series and three words flashed on the screen - DMT, Ayahuasca and something else).

I should have recorded as soon as I got up, now I only remember one part of my dreams. One very weird part. :S

Something is wrong with my vagina, I'm having it examined by three people, my legs are spread open for the examination. The main person examining it makes a face when they realize what's wrong. She holds a mirror to it so I can see. I try to look but get scared, so don't actually see what's wrong but I know that something has come out of it that shouldn't be there. I get up to walk, I'm wearing heels, I'm limping now that I know what the problem is, as if I'm in pain, but I realize I wasn't limping before the exam, I wonder if I'm faking it. I'll be having surgery for the problem.

Remembered more - Andrew and I almost broke up, I decided I couldn't go through with it. Also, I was just making toast in the oven and remembered dreaming about burnt bread. Slices of black toast.

Dream 4:

I was hiking with friends. We came to this deep but fairly narrow chasm we had to cross. I remember being really stressed out and not sure if I would be able to do it or not.

Dream 3:

I was going to go on a hike with Tom and Jennifer DeLonge. I went to their house to pick them up. When I got there I realized that I had never been there before. I came into their entry and was in awe as I saw they had a giant sloth skeleton set up. It was the coolest thing I had ever seen in anyone's house before. As Tom, Jennifer and I started our walk, all I could do was to talk about the skeleton and how cool it was and how I wanted one in my house now.