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I was at some sort of music festival, behind the stage, OUTSIDE of the festival grounds. There was a full crowd in front of the stage, but I couldn't get in due to a chain link fence with a barbed-wire top. My Chemical Romance were on the stage, and started their set with Famous Last Words. I was rocking out behind the stage, as I could faintly see them. One guy in the crowd noticed I was glancing around for a way in, and he called me over. He handed me a ticket through the fence. I started making my way around the fence toward the front to the entrance, rocking out to MCR the whole way there.

...That is all I remember.

lovely, lovely dreams tonight. nothing particularly unpleasant has been going on in waking life as of late, but these dreams showed up anyhow. slept from about 9 to about 6.

i have spoilered the more graphic parts of the molestation dream for those of you who might be disturbed by it.

in the first dream i am driving around my city at twilight. i remember the exact area where i was -- near the intersection of R-----d & R----n.

Spoiler for click to read:

suddenly i feel invisible hands touching me. it is as if i am sitting on someone's lap but there is nobody there. i am greatly disconcerted. suddenly i am in the passenger seat and a teenaged asian boy is driving, while still touching me occasionally. he pulls into my school's parking lot (it is night now). there are 3 other boys waiting for us as well as an old man. i am nervous. the asian boy introduces me to the old man and tells me that he was the one who was touching me. a girl adds that he is 63 years old and a banker, and gives me his full name. she urges me to tell the police.

later i am in a room with blue walls. there are my little pony posters and merchandise everywhere. i am talking to a woman in her 30s about my experience. i want to tell her the man's name, but i cannot remember it. i get frustrated at this and also about the fact that i am discussing my sexual abuse in a my little pony fanclub.

in the second dream i am in an unfamiliar house. i am sitting on the couch and i am shocked to discover that my ex is sitting right beside me. for a moment i consider that this could be a dream, but the vivid and detailed imagery convinces me otherwise. i get extremely angry. i start yelling at him, asking "how did you get here?" "why are you here?" i don't get a straight answer. i begin punching and slapping him. he barely fights back.
i go do something else for a while and i come back to find my ex sitting on a bed crying. i thought he had left and now i get even angrier. i scream at him and throw heavy objects at him. i tell him that i'm going to bed, and if he isn't gone by the time i wake up "something bad will happen".
i go into my bedroom for a while and then come back. my ex is still there, playing a SNES game on a blue tv. again, i physically attack him and threaten that bad things will happen. i'm furious. the tv says "error, zero zero, error" and then i wake up.

Date: 12/4
Duration: 3-4 mins
Method: DILD (remember waking in the morning and intending to do SSILD but falling asleep)
Scene:
I was having some ordinary dreams and actually two girls wanted to ask me out on a date the same night (!), that led to the feeling that something was wrong
I just got the feeling I was dreaming and there was no "visual" dream, only this feeling. I felt a bit frustrated because I thought I was going to wake up any moment so I started to visualize something but it didn't really work out. I then decided to open my eyes, and I was in my room in my mothers house (where I was sleeping because of weekend visit). I did a RC, blocking my nose and after a few sec I knew I was in a dream.

I thought I should try to do the tasks from the first week because my LD-count has been almost 0 this last weeks. First I decided to throw myself out the window from the second floor of the house. I got a little exited but reminded myself to stay calm and not solidify the window.
I passed through the window with no feeling of there being one there at all and I flew a short circle in the garden and to get to to the ground I thought about paragliding and leaning to my side to ascend easily. I find it hard to control my flying in dreams and normally I just "float around" with little control. Anyways...

Once on the ground I decided to do another task and tried to fall backwards. I had no doubt I was dreaming and it wasn't scary at all. I just fell through the ground like one would fall into whipped cream. It was totally wonderful. I was kind of making a tunnel in the ground and it was so soft and cozy!

Back on the ground I looked around and it was night/dusk and everything had this dreamy glow and extreme contrasts. It was truly beautiful and a man appeared next to me and we were talking about something. And I thought I would try to find a dream guide or "power animal" like the shamans have

Calling out loudly "I would like to find my power animal" several times, there was a blue, upside-down saucer flying next to my head and I shooed it away. Next thing I know, my dog Loke comes running up the drive way and we greet each other with much joy. I realize this is a common scene from calling him many times in "this" garden and he is most likely not a "power animal" or anything (maybe to some extent), but since my dog moved away from me last summer and I have't seen him since, he appears in my dreams a lot (good dream sign?)

I wake up.

Reflection:

I did 3 RC during the dream, rubbed my hands and affirmed I would have a long and stable dream. I think the reason I got lucid was from drinking a couple glasses of wine last night and the rebound effect got me more or less spontaneously lucid.

I noticed that when I am dreaming, sometimes, I have no visuals but its just blackness and I am sort of "in my head". This situation often lead to a LD but I can imagine I miss a lot of these occasions because of lack of awareness. My main goal now is to try to get to bed earlier, drink more wine and also get more LDs!

Puh, long one this time, but its my comeback from mental fog last few weeks.

The number pi, triangle, calculations - that's all I remember from this dream. I think it's a variation on 3 is complete perhaps (another dream).

its kind of odd cuz i had this dream before i even knew about the new mission. this was a semi lucid dream where i found my self captured on another planet but i turned the tables, here it is. . . this took place on Some other world, this guy was holding me and some other people captive and making us slaves. He had some specail lights on that allowd him to to controle us and keep a good eye on us. Some how some one dont know who dissarmd the lights. I came to and seen that he was holding a gun, i made a golf club apear in my hands and swung it at the gun to dissarm him. He then became our prisoner. I then started eating a bowl of mac n cheese with parmisian in it. . . After this is off topic from the dream army but still took place on the same planet. . . I remember picking out some more food from a fridge and pantry. I got a borito some weid looking stuff off a vine. Then i looked behind me and saw maple bar donuts yum i grabed 2. Then i sat down to eat. After that i warped into the middle of a city on the planet. I now felt as if i was immortal and could live forever. There was some kind of consert that took place it was soo good i never heard music ever like it and the band was flying around. I wanted to see and hear it again but it didnt take place for another 200 yrs. So i just started flying around and woke up.

I vaguely remember a total of five different dreams. One involved going to the dentist, but I don't remember anything more about that.
Another takes place in a mansion. I'm not quite sure what, but we are investigating something (again, not sure who 'we' is). Perhaps the murder of a middle-aged/old woman, with short dark grey hair, who seems to feature in this dream. There is also a place we go to think about information we've gained while in the mansion or surrounding grounds; it is a grey, mottled place with no horizons, set with a number of portal-like occurrences, which are either pale salmony pink or light blue (could be either. Don't remember which). When we enter any of the portals, we are taken back to the mansion.
A third dream takes place in a jungle or forest, with a rushing pale blue river. There are groups of people, none of whom I know, and I am put in a group with them. We all receive 'skills' which appear as pale dotted markings on black spheres/circles. Now we have to cross the river/work our way up it (don't remember which - something to do with the river) but to do so, we have to choose new groups. Nobody wants me in their group. This may be because my allotted skill is useless, or because I don't particularly want to join in. I end up in a team because someone whose 'skill' appeared as a pink scorpion engraved on a black sphere grudgingly allowed me in.
In the morning, after I wake up, the only dream I remember at first is the investigation dream (I guess that was the dream I had woken up from), but I rapidly forget parts of it, such as what we were investigating. I spend a moment trying to remember parts of it, with a limited degree of success, and decide I need to write it down quickly. However, I don't, and without realising it, fall asleep again, in which I dream that I have written down my dream. Sadly, by the time I wake up again, I forget even more of the dream, although I can now remember the rough theme of the dentist dream. Now I really need to write it down, but fall asleep again (did I ever wake up from the first dream which I write down my dreams in? Perhaps it was a false awakening). Again, I dream I have written down my dreams and begin to sketch the woman from the mansion one. I wake up for the third time, pick up my notebook, do a reality check and write down my dreams. Half way through, I remember the jungle dream. Later, when my mother is making me a coffee, I remember another dream. I remember the details of this one;
My friend D has brought in cakes and sweets to sell at charities week in the auditorium. I don't buy anything until later, when there are two plastic bags full left. D's stall is set up near the front of the hall, about level with the speaking podium, and comprises of one blue table which is longer than those in real life. I check the bags and see in the one on the right side a box of cakes and ask to buy them. 'You can't buy the whole box' says D. I say that I want to, or something like that, and later, we walk from the auditorium of my current school to the year six classroom of my primary school. Here, we sit on a desk in the room which we weren't in in year six and I ask D how much she wants for the box of cakes. She says £3.75, and I'm not sure I want to pay that much. I have my handbag and have been holding about four pounds ninety in change in my hand for a while now. D leaves. I open the box (which is light blue) of cakes and look at them (I still remember the layout), eventually deciding I don't want them all after all. Instead, I decide to buy a pain au chocolat and put dibs on the éclair when D comes back. Dream ends before she does.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was in the field, brown ground, i was the leader of the warrior squad, there was semi-ruined building that we decided to use for camping, but soon, we were attacked by enemy warriors. We were battling them at our best, but they kept coming. I saw an enemy leader while overlooking the terrain, i sent some of my warriors to deal with him, but they failed. I had to deal with this by myself, but before i went there one of warriors was saying that i should not go for enemy leader. I ignored him and soon was about to attack enemy leader, but it was a trap, leader somehow paralyzed me and then dream ended.

Nap #2(fragment):

I was in some futuristic city and there was facility i was visiting. There was some blue humanoid, that i was calling 'Curdy', and he was operating machine that was making curd. He told me recipe and there was some kind of secret ingredient, then i went to home. There was cutscene happening back at the facility, Curdy went missing and there was dude that was mostly bald and he was in cyan suit. Then cutscene ended and i was back at home, i was trying to eat potato but was very hard to eat, then dream ended.

Nap #3:

I woke up in my bed and i had to move some stuff around room< then i realized that i forgot to take off headphones, i took them off and binaural beats are still playing, so i am dreaming, dream is somewhat unstable so i rub hands on my way to balcony door. Then i slam the door open and fly outside, i feel the wings and i fly around pretty quickly. Shortly the dreamscape changes and goes weird, like two perspectives are overlapping, some parts of it are normal and some parts moving around with my field of view. After i fly over some street it goes back to normal and i decide to attempt transformation into a dragon again. There's not much of result though, my hands only got a bit bigger. I fly through some kind of temple ruins and suddenly my room appears right in front and before i can do anything i crash into the wall in the room. Dad comes into the room(i think my awareness decreased after this transportation...) and we talk about bunch of things that i barely recall, i recall something was about transformation. Then dream fades out and i woke up.

I fall out of a portal on to a horse, a fine young quarterhorse, sandy brown like the desert we are riding through. Raven is riding black mustang with red mane and fetlocks. MoSh is riding a large black horse, and there are others with us. We are running from demon possessed zombie wolves.
We face back, and take out a few with our guns. We ride to a cliff, and make an abrupt turn. The zombie wolves go sailing over a cliff. We ride up a mountain, there is still one chasing us. A well placed shot hitting a boulder above triggers an avalanche right on to the zombie wolf.
(to be con'td)

I lived in this fabulous haunted house. Ant was there - should have been a clue that I was dreaming. He was mad at me but was setting up my drum kit. We were going to a concert, but was going to be very late. We were hungry and went to a drive through - I ordered Birthday Cake number 2. Loved the house with secret rooms.

Post Apocalyptic dystopian society. Bad guys and good guys. I was with a group of good guys and we were hunkering down for the night in some underground warehouse. I said, "Good night John Boy." some laughter. We were invaded by the mad max like bad guys. One had me and was injecting needles into my right hand. I got away and there was a lot of hiding. This was a fun dream.

Don't remember much of the dream, but I remember seeing myself in the mirror with a very round bloated face and short blonde hair. I wondered if I was having an allergic reaction to something. This should have been a clue that I was dreaming.

4/11/13

Just woke up from an unplanned nap.

In my DR I woke up from FA and I was telling someone, "you see, I just woke up from FA" and proceeded to tell him about lucid dreaming. Got bunch of stuff done and then I woke up for real.

Don't get that many FAs, so this one was fun. I believe, it was triggered by my WILD PM conversation with Allegory. Yup, talking about it makes it happen for me.

Today is April 11th, 2013 and I am currently 15 years old.

For the past couple years, I've been inactive in my Lucid Dreaming practices unfortunately. My friend Austin just called me up asking about lucid dreaming though. He's curiosity got me thinking to get back into lucid dreaming so I just spent time reading through my current real DJ entries laughing about my fails and wins of LD'ing.

I got a new house, new room, new school and now a new chance to get back into lucid dreaming.
Maybe this time I'll succeed .

COPIED

Hello everyone, you may have read my other thread. I felt like starting a new one, and I want to be as simple as possible with my new guide.
(if you could even call it a guide)
Now here is the first and foremost thing I want to address. What you want to achieve is a lucid dream, of course.
Now, the problem here is that almost every human being on earth tries to achieve things by thinking of WHEN they are going to do it. What I mean by that is, when people want to lucid dream they are thinking about the future, when they are asleep, dreaming.
Of course, right now, you're not sleeping. The mistake is to think that the future and the past exist.
They don't, it only exists in your head. All you have, is NOW. When trying to achieve lucidity it is important not to place that intent on the future. The trick is to be lucid RIGHT NOW. And no, I don't mean wondering if you are dreaming all day, constantly. That's only going to make you wonder if you're dreaming instead of actually lucid dreaming. I believe, being able to be lucid in the now, is the foundation of lucid dreaming. As far as I know, there are several ways you can be lucid right now. I will present them in no particular order:


The easy, mantra way is to tell yourself every once in a while "I'm dreaming" or "I'm lucid dreaming" or "I lucid dream" ect ect.
All those mantras have something in common, they are talking about the current moment.

One way is to learn how to be very relaxed, but alert. Being relaxed but alert is crucial to lucid dreaming.
Becoming lucid in a dream means you need to be alert of what state of consciousness you're in. The problem is, is that you're too relaxed, because you are asleep. The main way to learn how to be relaxed but alert is through meditation. You get better as you practice.

Another simple way is to view your current reality as a dream. Stay lucid, relaxed, and alert in the moment, as if you are dreaming right now and you know it, but you don't want to wake yourself up, that's why you stay relaxed.

One way that I mentioned in the other thread is to feel with every fiber of your being, right now, that you are a lucid dreamer.
That your physical body and mind that you have right now, is there, so you can lucid dream. Feel this with your body.
Don't think it with your mind.

You can also try making yourself experience derealization, this is the equivalent of snapping out of it when you are watching TV.
Set yourself away from your life and your judgements for a second and feel the crazy insane reality that is RIGHT NOW.

I may post more throughout the thread if I think of any, but these are just the basics that I wanted to type out.
You should try thinking of your own methods with being lucid in the NOW.
I'll try to answer any questions.

So as you know I was attempting to induce a lucid dream and I tried 2 different sleeping positions for about 20-30 minutes with no good results so I decided to call it quits on that and go to sleep upon which event I guess I wasn't ready to stop trying so I just watched the images and tried to bring each into focus until I found one of a whiteboard and I guess it reminded me of art class so I imagined it as such and sure enough I was in art class sitting next to Jake, Austin, and Kasey. They talked among themselves as I sat and eventually got up and went to my regular seat when Kevin, attempting to make an impossible triangle out of paper, come over and threw it on my desk in front of me. I picked the scraps up and they looked like an 'A' so I folded them over and began rubbing it between my fingers and much to my surprise I could actually feel the paper in my dream hands. Seconds later my entire body erupted in a tingling vibrating feeling and I could hear a low buzzing and an insanely real voice of Jamie, from art class, saying something that I couldn't hear over the buzzing. This must have only lasted for a few seconds and when it stopped I could only see black and although I was aware of my physical body and the position it was in, I had no real connection with it such that I couldn't feel my appendages touching one another. I gave up hope as I tried to bring a dreamscape in front of me and opened my eyes cautiously as I performed a reality check and and, unfortunately, returned to reality. So close!!