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Normally my dreams make sense in some sort of way, even if they are far fetched, I can usually read them as if they are from a film or story. However, I had a nap of about two hours two evenings ago. My boyfriend was laid in bed with me. I hardly ever talk or move about whilst sleeping. However, I had a dream that frightened me and at the time made me feel a great deal of anger. I have a neighbour living behind me and we have never seen eye to eye. During my dream, I feel that she was looking at me and saying hateful things. During this dream I then spoke to my boyfriend whilst sleeping and told him that Janis (neighbour) isn't very nice to me and isn't very nice to me. My partner asked me if he should go and have a word with her and I said yes and then he asked if he should go and "knock her out" (as a joke), I said yes. He asked me why and I said because she smells of Tushrooms. He then went to kiss me and I told him he smells of Tushrooms. I don't have a clue what Tushrooms are! I carried on sleeping and then my boyfriend tried to wake me up. At this point I started to lash out at him violently (something I have never ever done before) and started telling him to say hello to the lemon. I do not remember any of this dream, violence or conversation other than the lemon part. I remember seeing an orange but saying lemon. I only know about this whole stupid dream and sleep talk after my boyfriend told me.

I know this dream probably has no meaning, I think I was just in a deep sleep or something, so no harsh comments. Just keeping this as a journal for my own reference.

Fixer Upper
Seemed like this fragment was toward the end of a longer dream that I don't recall. I'm moving into a new house with coworkers. They have found a place and take me with the realtor to see it. I realize it is my old house on Daisetta. But I don't say this right away. In the living room is my old furniture, now very worn and dirty. In the backyard, it looks like a mudslide. The hill of dirt has overflown the retaining wall and piles of dirt have spilled into the yard. The swimming pool is have full of sandy dirty. The tiles on the pool lip are mostly broken and gone. I wonder if I should say that I know this place. I wonder if I should ask what happened. My coworkers don't seem to mind all the damage. They are talking with the realtor like it's a "fixer upper".

i was standing with a friend and we looked up at the sky, next to the moon there was like a sparkle and i thought this is the comet that is due around february but then a white line made a shape like "C-" and a burst of light shot out from the point and it was something i watched on TV called a gamma ray burst i new this was not good new but when i took cover i woke up.

2 nights ago i had a dream that i was in a very familiar place like a small village. i was ironing a tshirt and guys ran bye me, i looked up to see someone looking towards me and i thought they were looking at me i realised this was some sort of police officer, next thing i know i am part of the chase im trying to get away but for some reason cant understand why i do not have crazy powers generated by the sun then someone informed me that i had to turn it on, this was a big machine that a small light came on when you pressed a button, my goal was now to find my machine and turn it on. then i woke up.

I had some more LDs last night. I have a huge problem with stabilization. Please any professional lucid dreamers with good stabilization techniques leave some comments on it if you are interested in helping me out. I tried rubbing my hands together in every single one of these and it is not working for me. It might help for a second but I eventually just wake up not long after.

I start out lucid in this parking lot in front of a store which had a name with Blood something on it in glowing red letters, which I notice my brain is testing me in each lucid dream to make something bad happen. I don't think much of it at all and I walk out onto a sidewalk. I look down the street and see a few buildings and the street lights are on which it is night time. I walk over the road and walk into a yard and see houses along a street. I notice some of the ground in front of me starts to become darker and I rub my hands together. It doesn't really help so I just sit on the ground and try to focus more, I close my eyes and try to change where I am but I wake up.

I go into another LD and I don't realize it at first. I am sitting at a table in a school or something like it. Then as I am sitting there it comes to me, oh ya i'm doing LDs right now and I get up and start walking. I walk past this kid who fucked with me a bit in high school, he didn't bother me much IRL but he would piss me off sometimes. I saw him and recognized him. I knew my brain was testing me and tried not to think about him but he did turn and look at me because I felt uneasy around his DC. I ignored him though and came up on one of my friends IRL. I asked his DC if he knew any stabilization techniques, which I surprisingly wasn't having much problem with at the moment. I don't talk to my DCs much. I couldn't believe what this fucker did. I asked him and he showed me a hand gesture of straightening the fingers together and tapping the tips of the middle fingers against each other. I tried it and he watched me with a grin on his face. He slapped me in my face and started laughing hysterically. I just stared at him and said you're fucking around with me aren't you. He shook his head continuing his laughter. I was laughing a bit as I couldn't believe my brain was fucking with me. I woke up at some point after that. What the hell was that about.

I do another LD and I get up from my bed. I walk out of my room and see my brother on the computer as always. I start to walk for the door to adventure out side but I wanted to try and stabilize first because I knew I would wake up if I didn't. I sat down in front of the door and relaxed a bit. Miles then asked me what I was doing. Thinking about it now it was kinda stupid what I said. I asked him, "Can you see me" thinking that because it seemed pretty real as he is always sitting at his spot on his computer, which is what he is doing now as I am writing this. Everything was just like real life except I knew I was dreaming. He said yes and I was kind of amazed. I then woke up not long after, because his DC distracted me. I had a FA about me telling him about that exact LD and he thought it was pretty cool. I then woke up IRL.

I was laying in bed and I felt a big problem with my stomach. It was bulging out like something was stuffed in there. It looked horrible and felt it as well. I was freaking my shit, as it felt it was going to burst at any time. I was walking around and a Monster energy drink can popped out through my stomach. I told mom we needed to go to the hospital asap. I actually remember thinking about me drinking from the can but I wondered how it ended up getting into my stomach, didn't make sense at the time even in the dream. I don't remember much after that.

I was at my grandmas house playing some game with my friend Levi and my cousin Madison. It would switch from me being in the game to us playing it in the living room. I remember being my character in the snow and we would wait for a monster to pop up from a hill. I seemed to know what was going on because I would warn them when something was going to happen. There would be a huge monster come out at the end and we would have to face it. It switches to the living room and we would restart the game and I picked a different character. We started out on a jet ski and I had a stick as a weapon, I jumped on the one with my cousin but I fell off and was stuck in the water, she came back around to save me. My dad walked in at this point and watched. I saw a big mess next to the door next to me. It had a thick yellow goo over everything which was apparently piss from some animals that were in the house. My dad was pissed when we sat there while our grandma cleaned it up saying we should have.

I had this weird ass dream of being on netflix on the computer in my room. I was trying to get out of this movie scene selection in which all the scenes showed creepy images of women's faces as they were crying with a horrid look on their face. I accidentally clicked on one scene because there were no other options to exit and It started showing these images. They looked like weeping Native American women with very horrid looks on their face. I woke up in my dark room which was creepy after that.

I am on a trolley thing at a zoo like place with some other tourist people. We start off into a jungle like exhibit going pretty damn fast. I see a small child fall off on the tracks and everyone starts trying to get the woman to stop who looks like she doesn't know what the fuck to do. We go around the jungle part and we eventually stop and I immediately jump off and run for the hurt child. There are a couple kids sitting next to him looking to see if he is alright. I see he is quite bloody on the face and around the mouth lying motionless. I turn around to yell at the other adults to call 911. I see a stupid adult walk over with a grin on his face thinking it is a little kid injury, not taking it seriously. He sees the kid and instantly changes saying he looks bad.

I had plenty more dreams last night because I slept from morning until 1 in the morning. I was too tired to care about writing them down and went back to sleep every time I woke up. This is what I remember.

Dream 1: Someone was giving me a tattoo on my back under my left shoulder blade. I think I was reprimanded for peeking at my arm which had apparently also been tattooed. I remember black ink.

Dream 2: I was in a store, and Justin Timberlake was there for some contest thing. I couldn't care less, so I was throwing this little stuffed animal cube thing back and forth with someone who was standing in the clothes racks.

Justin looked disapprovingly at me, as if I should be feeling very pleased about possibly winning the contest. I feel like the cube may have had something to do with the contest, like it indicated the winner.

Notes: Oh how I wish I knew what the tattoo was. I don't know if I could ever get one in real life because I could never decide what to get!

Ya I had a incident with SP last night and it wasn't anything bad really. I am a lot more calm now I understand that people only make their SP worse by thinking bad thoughts about it. I was in SP last night and I was looking at how my hand looks when you lift it out of your physical body which I've never actually observed. It then came to me I remember reading about rolling over and having an OBE. I tried this out, I couldn't move my body no matter how hard I tried. I now realize it is probably when you lay on your side. It is extremely difficult to do it on your back because I wasn't going anywhere. I can easily make my hands come out, but my body is a completely different story. I might try to work my head out first next time and move on from there.

Ocitnul jsem se na nejakym kopci u lesa. Bezim dolu a vidim jak tam jdou nejaky dva kluci. Neco jak ofanda a lada. A hned na me zacnou neco pokrikovat. Chvili jsem si myslel ze je to krysk s Juseppem, ale myslim ze to nebyli oni. Zacli na me neco sakrasrticky, neco o cervenejch a bilech krvinkach. Mel jsem pocit, ze jsme se predtim potkali a ja jsem je neco poucoval. RIkal jsem si ze priste budu drzet hubu.

Rekl jsem jim at si jsou po svym a ze ja pujdu taky a rozbehl jsem se doprava do kopce. Za chvilicku kolem me zase probhli a smali se. Dobehli na kopec a otocili se a bezeli zpatky. Delal jsem ze si jich nevsimam.

Potom dobehnu na takovou paseku a tma je vliekej strom prasklej a ohnutej. Je to tma nejak povykaceny a na tom prasklym strome je nejaka kabinka. Ja posloucham nejakou hudbu ve sluchatkach a hraje tam dost dobra pisnicka, snazim se to pistit spatky, ale porad mi tam skace dream theater koncert.

Potom dobehnu na nejake nove postavene sidliste. Jsou to krasny novy baraky, panelaky, ale jsou tam i takovy bloky se skrinkama. Je to hodne barevny a vsechny jsou otevreny. Divim se ze to neni poniceny nejakym vandalismem. Je to ale vsechno opusteny, jako by sem nemohli dostat lidi. Podom tam probehnu nahoru do vyzsiho patra. Koukam nalevo jak je tam dreveny schodiste nebo balkonek a rikam si, ze by to bylo super pro ty street runnery. Najednou sem na horenim patre a tam je proskleny balkon, a tam vidim sprchu a sporak. Koukam na to a je to studio byt. Hodne peknej, trochu vsechno namackany, ale pekny a novy. Rima si, ze se budu muset zeptat kolik to je.

Sebehnu dolu schodama a vidim jak za rohem zabehne nejaka sekuritacka s telefonem.

Pak tam vidim nejaku holku s klukem, tak probehnu kolem nich a slysim, ze mluvi cesky. Skrabu se tam na takovo zidku a ta holka to komentuje jako ze WOW ten je fit a tak. Tak si sundam sluchatka a dam se do reci. Ptam se odkud je, jestli z moravi a ona ze ze severu. Tak se ptam kolik ji je a ona ze je stara, ale nerekla. Potom vytahne nejakou masticku a sunda si triko a podprsenku a zacne si mazat hrudnik, kterej je celej poleptanej, jako ma Zbysek.

Pak se probudim.

Headlights fly by as the rain patters lightly on the windows. The passing of which I've always found to bring back a sense of passing time, reminiscent of what'd I imagine it feels for the passing of stars. Our very own sun, cognizant of its own gliding through the deep expanse of outer space.

There is a driver at the wheel, but the sky is dark and her face remains in shadow. An accompanying sense of familiarity falls over me though. Only one could bring this sense of comfort. Mel. My eyes dart to the left and right, looking for anything out of the ordinary that might be in the sky. An age old habit. One acquired by watching far too much of Star Trek and the X-Files in my youth. Or does it predate that? Does it have some basis in the actual collective memory reality of our species? Perhaps there is a reason we look to the skies. Something deeply embedded within our collective unconscious, the return of the holy feathered serpent of our world's mythologies. Quetzalquoatl, Nehebkau, or perhaps the Chimeras depicted on the hieroglyphs of ancient cities.

Then I spot it. A streak in the sky. Gliding like a banner in the wind, rippling up and down like a wave. A white light radiates outward from its body, lighting up the night sky in the distance. That is it. The feathered serpent. A radiant white chinese dragon, even more beautiful in real life than portrayed in their artwork. Natural and fluent. God-like. Truly a spiritual being beyond anything of earthly realms, but there it is right before my eyes. Does Mel see it? She doesn't seem to notice.

"Mel, do you see that?"

She looks to the right and seems to spot it, but no words come from her mouth. Speechless it seems.

What is that? Another one. Wait, no. Two. Three. Four? Several of these serpent-esque beings fluttering through the sky. That one actually has wings and almost appears to be a gargoyle. Wow, amazing. Something attracts my gaze on the left. Holy mother fucker. What the FUCK is THAT?

A gargantuan entity emerges from the woods on the left side of the highway. Enormous, unearthly, a beetle like being of epic proportions. Its eyes burn with fire. This isn't a threatening being, however. Merely powerful, wise, ancient. It remains still, hovering over the road, observing the surroundings. Is it even living? It could almost be the entrance or the stone guardian of a holy temple - a gateway into the underworld. Into the world beyond the scope of human comprehension, veiled to us by our rigid intellect and desires for power.

I am entering the realm of the Gods.

Or at least some hidden plane. Beings surround our vehicle. Is there even anyone else on the road? Discs fly through the air. My god, these again. Classic saucer UFOs? Those things only appear in my dreams. Wait a sec... Duh. I'm in a dream. Wow, this is intense. Can I even get a handle on this one? There are living spirits all around me.

The sky fills with saucers and spirits, winged serpents with their white light fill the sky. These could have even been interpreted as angels in some cultures. From the distance the resemblance to chinese dragons and angels is hardly distinguishable. Regardless, their power can be felt from miles away, even as they sore high above the Earth. Such an alien power, impossible to say whether as to its benevolent or not. It is just so foreign to our own sense of self.

You're losing track of things, M. This is a dream. Remember not to be drawn in to its splendor. The distraction of your mind's own creative power. This is a dream.

Then why can't I control anything? The usual techniques are not working. No power of flight, no time/space manipulation or ability to alter the entire emotional feel of the setting. This is strange. Is it a dream..?

Wait, that's Mel's brother. I'm in her house. Was I sleep walking? Kid looks like he's about to puke. Either that or he's just really stoned. Neither would be uncommon for him. Hmm, my vision is blurry. I must have taken out my contacts. Definitely sleep walking.

"You okay, DJ?"

"Hah, man. You're totally fucked."

What could that mean? He points at the floor beneath my feet. I stepped in something. A puddle. Okay? DJ holds up a small vile.

"No fucking way. Did you spill that on the floor, dude?"

He starts laughing. You've got to be kidding me. I've been dosed completely by accident. Jesus Christ, how often does this have to happen to me? That is far too much acid in one spot for a safe trip. In no time I'll be going ape shit. God fucking damn this kid. Oh well, there is no stopping it now. I might as well accept what's about to ensue.

Everything is warped. Waving. The walls are alive. "Throbbing with energy" as Terence McKenna says. It has begun. The onset is surprisingly slow. The buzzing rises through my ears, disintegrating my surroundings. I feel the sun. I feel another environment. Where is this? I know this place, I have been before. Though I am accustomed to its flavor, the taste of deja vu is beyond uncanny. Is this still Mel's house? Is this reality? Was it ever? Don't forget, the questions don't matter. Illusions, merely fabricated by our minds to prolong the discovery of truth. There is no stopping this though. I have been thrown into the pool, regardless of my preparation to swim. Entheogens don't hesitate. This is all or nothing and now the walls are coming down. Light begins to seep through the cracks. The environment shifts. A wall to my right now. I am lying down. Windows to my left.

Is this.. my bedroom?

I have re-emerged, back into the so-called "real" world. The collective memory reality. The ingestion of a psychedelic substance within my dream consciousness transitioned me back into waking consciousness. No matter how many times I have experienced that it will never cease to prove fascinating. The human brain truly is a receiver, capable of tuning into a multitude of channels across the cosmic radio. Switch one neural receptor on, another off, and you're broadcasting at an entirely new frequency. Receiving, broadcasting, the difference is the same. Both a generator and receiver of consciousness, filtering the endless waves of quantum energy through the intricate networks of evolutionary design.

Is this reality any more real than the one I was just experiencing? I noticed no gaps between my perception. It was but a continuous flow. Sleeping into waking. What is different? What was ever different? Is the reality tunnel we send our gaze through any less relevant there than it is here? When all is said and done, life is just a memory after all. An ephemeral thought. A dream.

I took a 2 hour nap with remee and started off with theta binaural beats.
I achieved a crystal clear dream. the dream started out at my own home. I was with my dad and my brother. But the most amazing thing happened. My dad was drunk (only been drunk like twice in his life). Different dream scene, everything changed. And i was where I did work for this group of people.
They seemed to be a restaurant, or a shop. I saw my friends from school scrapping out this blueberry
slushy machine. Its hard to remember. But I do remember coming back to the place where I worked in the day
time, whilst nobody was there. I found it scary and turned around halfway there. On my way back I decided
to randomly just start punching the walls and I managed to knockout some of the plastic panels.
The pathway went up gradually and then down. It came out at a mall. I thought to myself that
I was going to buy alot of weed before it was sold out and that was good because its still early in the day.
I went to the shop and apparently they were sold out already. The shop I went to happened to be the shop that I worked for
when I was working in the restaurant. I noticed the guys at the counters. They were all of darker skin tone and I talked to 1.
I was asking him how I could get ahold of him if I came back to this place (Think i was in Zimbabwe) and then i got this
weird feeling. They kept stalling, and they wouldnt answer me. They acted like they were thinking of an answer to the question
I had the weirdest feeling like they wanted to kill me and I started walking away. This place was a mall and i started walking a new direction. I heard a lady announce on her overhead that there were dangerous figures in the area, and i realized that they were just ahead of where i am, but they were coming towards me. I decided to run towards this massive playground. I could see they were walking past, so I slid through a tunnel that I remember linking to behind where they currently were. I was going to sneak behind them and run, but I came out right where they were and it was a dead end. They could see me, but they playground netting was protecting me. He said "you cheeky guy. im gunna get you". They looked dark. Almost emo looking. And then I was awoken for dinner

I was on my knees putting my head over the railing in the spectator rows, facing the middle of some big arena.
The guy who was about to execute me tried to be dramatic and said "die in hell!" as he swung his axe over his head, so I exclaimed "wait wait stop".
"What?"
"You can't say that"
"Can't say what?"
"Die in hell. Do you realize how stupid that sounds? second, im not even in hell yet, i will be in hell AFTER I die."
"So what do you want me to say?"
"Just don't say something that is THAT stupid"
"Alright then I won't say anything at all!"
"Good then"
He then proceeded to separate my head from my body.

I think I am at the mall and there is a man that can grant any wish. Behind him is a timer displayed in green numbers and it is attached on the wall and seems to be counting down. My mother is here. She gives me these cards, I think they are ID cards and I am impatient and I want her to leave so I can make my wish. I ask the man "Do the wishes stay after the timer runs out?" The man says "The wishes are permanent" I wished to fly and all of a sudden I started flying to the ceiling and out a window. The scene changes to that of a garden. I see the man again. I didn't fully comprehend what is happening but I think that a woman that bounded this man to stay on earth has finally freed him. There are black flowers around him but they turn to green, which I think is their normal color. The dream changes again. I am laying down and facing up the dark cloudy sky. I grab a phone and proceed to call the man to tell him about the vision I saw. I said "In 2012 you will be free.." as soon as I said that I felt a powerful vibration as if the beginning of a WILD/DEILD attempt. I was completly paralyzed, I couldn't speak, I couldn't move I was just laying there looking at that black sky. I thought to myself, perhaps it was that strange woman doing this to me. I then begin to see a shadow up in the sky. It is the shadow of a building floating in the sky. I stare at it then I wake up.

Note: The most vivid part of the dream was near the end.
Felt a strong vibration, maybe I could've performed a DEILD if I stood still.

I said 2012 so perhaps I thought I was in the past.

"I'm so glad you are here"

My dear friend gives me a warm hug. I can feel the gratitude pouring out from her heart. She's gone through a great deal of pain in these recent times. I'm surprised to be here though. Where exactly am I? Oh right, we just moved to Ohio. We're staying with her parents until we manage to find an apartment. Right?

This doesn't quite look like Ohio. Does Ohio have mountains? I have the vague feeling I've been here before. Utah? But this isn't Utah. Why would I be in Utah?

"Where exactly am I, D?"

"This is Ohio, M. Don't you remember?"

"Oh right."

"We have to go"

We climb into my truck. At least I think it's my truck. Well I have the keys, so it must be mine.

The path into the woods is wide and long. The trees are tall and winding like vines. Spaces are carved out within their canopies as if designed to be the living quarters of some archaic entity within the forest. I even catch a glimpse of what seems to be a bed. Hmm. The trees are ancient. Their spirits permeate the air. The presence of the Gods of antiquity flows through my body sending a slight chill down the back of my spine. One could almost say the trees carry faces. That of laughter. That of sadness. Sadness for their lost brethren in the Amazonian jungle.

That one appears to have multiple beings within it crying out in anguish. Their faces and hands pushing out from the trunk as if to say "help me! Let me out!" The entrapped souls of human beings lured in by some force within the forest. The forest I travel so deep into. Am I being lured as well? Will I be trapped within one of those trees? My soul lost for eternity due to a yearning I can't subdue?

Well it's too late now. The sky grows dark and our new home shrinks behind me as I travel deeper into the woods, the past now but a shimmer in the distance. Fading with each step I take into the setting sun beyond the mountains. What awaits me there, I don't know. What I do know is that it is too late to turn back now.

Dream 1:

I was playing some maps/mods for Doom, apparently i have reached some sort of final map in the particular mod i was playing. One area looked like big room with floating crates connected by some sort of jumppads and there was very long fall down. Then there was part of the map where player character was on the roof of the movng train and it was hard because i had not only to fight numerous enemies but also to go between train panels just i time so train would not run into walls. Also there were moments where i had to use jumppads to jump from train to train during the movement. The next area was in outdoors and there was huuuuge mecha that i had to board, heavy use of jumppads and long range enemies. After a while dream skipped.
I was playing different map now, i think i was playing multiplayer. It looked like base and there was as much outdoor areas as indoors. I was having hard time searching keycards/switches for doors for some reason. After i have reached elevator to the upper part of the map, dream skips again.
I was apparently watching someone playing the final map of the mappack that base map was from. It looked like he was totally newbie at Doom but he managed to keep his cool. Map looked like it was mostly using red textures, and the structure of the map was really bizarre in a ways. It was like it looked simple at the start, but it was in fact maze of teleporters and switches. The player had very hard time navigating this, and often ended up running in circles. Later on there was outdoors section near the end, and there was the car. In the car there was chunk of the 'Pain Elemental'(One of the enemies in this game IWL) and once player came close enough chunk got cloned all over the place, all of them floated up in air and then cloned into rocks, falling down. Soon the whole map was only rocks. Dream ended.

When i woke up i was doing some dream recall while not moving, and apparently managed to accidentally fall back asleep for a short period of time.

Dream 2:

I was preparing for bath and i remembered that i wanted to recall my dreams somehow. So i started recalling them while saying keywords to remember them better, because in the dream i did not had time to write DJ entry. Most of the keywords were relevant to the previous dream, like "jumppad, door, switch, mecha, train", one of the keywords was "joker" for some reason. Dream ended as soon as i finished the recall.