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something about being a security guard of some cave where my family was

killed a dog who was dying by cutting his head off

07.25.2012

Non-REM Sleep Nonsense (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This whole dream was full of nonsense, I honestly don't know what the hell I was experiencing here.

I'm walking in a hallway of some sort wearing light colored, or slightly dark colored striped pants going down. They go a few inches (1-3) past my knee, and I believe I'm wearing my white running shoes that I use at the gym. I'm walking with someone, but I can't remember who exactly.

I have a feeling that it was my mother, but due to the insane randomness and insanity of this dream with fragments as well (I think), it didn't really matter. Whoever it was, she was wearing some type of green outfit with a white female dress shirt underneath.

I come to the realization that there are many people on the sides sitting down, just enforcing their roles of showing that humans are magically gregarious beings when something prevents them from moving forward.

I don't know what's keeping these people from moving, and the reason I'm concerned is that I feel weird and have exaggerated thoughts of paranoia that they are probably making fun of me some how.

I try to hide those feelings of insecurity with a healthy dose of bravado and randomly declared to the person I'm walking with,

"I'm just going to walk in front, and not look back!" something along those lines.

Some confidence booster that was..........

I'm also smiling like crazy while I said that as well! I immediately look at someone on the left side with my peripheral vision, and noticed it's someone who looks like a High school tennis teammate I used to know that was #1 I think at our school.

He's just looking at me, like he's trying to balance between being neutral and slightly weird of my presence.

There's no point speculating about his thoughts right now.

The dream shifts to where some redheaded lady, who is at least in her 50s asks me,

"How's Sinoblak doing?"

The lady is wearing a fancy white jacket that's a bit higher than her waist, has dark clothing on underneath.
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Then there's a dream shift where I'm playing Runescape, and I pick a world with the number 130 in it, I think it was "RunescapeGuild130," something along those lines. I feel as if I'm playing with my clan leader, Mellania, and we're basically just destroying the Corporeal Beast with two or three more clan members.

We killed the Corporeal Beast a few times, and it dropped a Chaotic Rapier, and with my dream logic, this made perfect sense. I told myself mentally that I would have two Chaotic Rapiers to attack the Corporeal Beast.

(If you're using a rapier on the beast, I think it only does 50% damage, which isn't worth the damage it will put on you).

The dream shifts again, and I'm upstairs at some random house. The whole section is circular, so the stairs to go down were opposite of where I was. For a few seconds, the environment changes completely, and I have to face a monster with one huge eye.

It was purple on the outside for it's skin, and it it just looked weird. A skinny body to support it's large head was completely unreal. I had to do more body formations than William Shatner high on sugar to bounce back this black energy ball it created.

Then after that madness, I'm back upstairs, and some guy is humping a girl very very very very hard that....I don't need to go into those details.

Then the same guy humping the girl turns around, looks at me weird, and suddenly wants to chase me. Since we're in a circular top floor, I basically have to try and trick this guy into thinking I'm going the other way.

It takes a while, but I finally dash for downstairs, and I press the "Back" button as if I was on the internet or something.....

I woke up immediately after that...LOL...I think.

Wow... just... wow. Interesting, revisionistic view of my life, which is 100% not true. There's... according to this dream, there's a reason I'm single and asexual, and it claims I wasn't always that way. I have to say upfront that even though my memory is bad, it's not THIS bad, so there's no way something like this could have happened. But it supposes that I'm digging through some written diary stuff or whatever, that I both somehow still had, in a paper format, and had somehow not lost, but had also forgotten about. And it claims that what I read suggests that I was in love with someone, once. But at some point I found them cheating on me. Or, rather, him. Yes, apparently if this dream is to be believed, before I was asexual, I was gay. Now... many of my friends are bi or gay, it's not like I would have a problem with such a thing, but it's not really for me. The dream throws out a username, tag, or whatever, and a time frame. "Ericalt" or... "alm?" or... I dunno. I know it started with "Eric" though. And the timeframe was sometime in late 2008, so right when I first started college. I definitely wouldn't have jumped into college and started dating, for one thing. For another, I knew I was asexual before college. And of course that time of my life was relatively harmless and peaceful. Even assuming I could have "repressed" something like that, it would have shown somewhere. The friends I was starting to make at that time would never have let me repress something like that, anyway. That's enough rambling...

I'm just going to copy some notes, straight out of my written journal. So some of them might sound a little strange.
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~Go to some country to give toys to kids, we show a girl a balloon, a car, and a helicopter.

~At a weird camp where little goblins can take you.

~Fish fight

~Ice cubes covered in chocolate

~I'm in a play, pretty big role. I have a speech part and it sounds stupid, can't figure out how I should say it.

~In the filming of Harry Potter! One line, but still... It's in Russia, I want to talk to someone. Two brothers are spraying each other with a garden hose, so I talk to them and they ask me if I like peanut butter and jelly sandwiches or waffles with ketchup.

~Found Kenny Chesney, he's eating some ice cream, I talk to him.

~Fighing zombies as Link with the weapons from Twilight Princess

~Grandma on the phone with a girl telling her where to drive and keeping her from falling asleep

~Looking at miniature typewriters, there's a pretty blue one

~One of those dreams with a huge storyline I forget as soon as I wake up. I was a vampire, Louis and Lestat were there, and Gabe from Good Luck Charlie. Apparently the movie (Interview With the Vampire) is playing out and since I know what happens I tell Gabe I'm from the future.

Non-dream Dream Lucid Dream

I had a couple of very vivid dreams last night.

Dream 1:

I am about to have either tooth surgery or surgery on my testicles and I feel very frustrated. I am at my old Anaheim house. My parents are being a pain. They said they are "really busy" and wouldn't make it to the surgery until really late. My brother is helping me find a suit to wear to the surgery. I am having a child soon. I woke up with pain in my left testicle.

Dream 2:

I am playing baseball and TK is my coach. I'm not in the field because I need to sleep.

Dream 3:

Bowling is in the olympics and LA calls me so I can watch it.

Dream 4:

It is my wedding day and my brother is helping me out with the tux. Even though it is the day of the wedding we JUST got fitted for the tuxes and we (me, my brother, and bender from Futurama) go to get them just 5 minutes before the ceremony is about to start. I mingle with some guests - mostly my wife's co-workers. Some older lady asks me where ___ (cant remember his name) is and I reply "sorry I have no idea who he is." She gets really sad and asks if he is dead and I say "I don't know" and I rush down to get my tux.

After getting the tux, the trip back to the mingling area is very difficult. There is an obstacle course very similar to the show Wipeout. Every time I try to pass one particular spot I say "Is this really what it's like getting out of a prostate?" Everyone laughs (?!?).

On the way up to the ceremony I realize that my worst fear has come true. We are minutes from the ceremony and my tux isn't on, we didn't practice our first dance, I didn't prepare a speech for later that evening, I really didn't know what was going on at all. Then I realize that everything will be ok and I am at peace.

I reach the holding room where my wife is waiting for me. She asks me a question and I snap into awareness. I say "But this is a dream!" The look on my wife's face at this moment after telling her this is a dream is one of the saddest things I have ever seen. She is crushed. She really wants the wedding to be perfect and I do too. She starts crying and I say "It's OK, it's OK," but she runs out of the room. I fly after her for a short while but she has disappeared. Everything goes black. I try to fight it but I eventually wake up.

I was lucid for about 15 seconds. I have no idea what triggered the DILD but I think it had to do with the strange timing of the wedding (nothing being prepared, etc...).

Dream 5:

I am a left fielder playing in a baseball game and I can't catch a fly ball. I misjudge all of the balls hit to me or lost them in the lights.

-Adventure Time with Deus Ex-

Don't ask me how the two mix, but they do. It started off with me playing the futuristic cyberpunk game Deus Ex: Human Revolution. More like just watching it, really. I watched the main character, Adam Jensen, simply talk random jibber about things in an orange-skied oceanic place with buildings in the background. Every now and then though, I'd go to a scene that fit well with the whole theme of the Cartoon Network show, Adventure Time with Finn and Jake. I played the role of the human character Finn, even dressing like him, and Jake the dog was following me around. He, too, was like he was in the show, save for the magician hat he wore on his head. Nonetheless, we walked through a dark, realistic looking woodland area, talking and not seeming to have any particular goal or anything. We came across a large house, possible a mansion that seemingly glowed in the darkness of the dark area. We decided to go near it, only to encounter three women walking our way. We followed them, and to a sort of outdoor restaurant of sorts, where they sat down, and I began to suave them into something. I don't quite remember what I said, but it seemed to be working well on the girls, particularly one who wore a red swimsuit and had tan skin with blonde hair. She was pretty, kinda middle-aged, but good looking regardless. She then started crying. I don't know why, something about not wanting to be with her boyfriend and wanting to be with me instead. I brushed it off, thinking it was my fault for causing such caine. I decided to walk into the mansion, for reasons unknown to me. We looked around, and the girls entered. This was their house, apparently, and they wanted me to get out, and so I obliged and left, somewhat sad. Me and Jake went to a restroom, not to go though, but looking for something or someone. We were in the women's restroom, strangely, though from the men's room we could hear flogging and crying. We rushed out and into the correct men's room. From there, we saw a rabbit and a feline-esque, humanistic characters on the floor, crying their eyes out. We went outside, only to find two men, dressed in old-timey soldier uniforms with the red shirts and white pants and the big black hats. We beat them up, took their outfits and their guns, and went on our way. Somehow, I had to reason that the two were together, Deus Ex and Adventure Time.

-The Trip to Japan-

Me, my brother, my mom and my racist as all hell Vietnam veteran of a step-dad were in Japan, though we spent most of our time in out small hotel room, laxing or doing nothing. There was all this talk that the avatar had returned, like from Nickelodeon's Avatar series. Still, me and my brother were much kinder to each other, unlike in real life. I guess I was somehow associated to the avatar for one reason or another, but I was dressed in Japanese RPG-game attire, and felt fine with a blue cape, a blue vest and baggy white pants with boots, and messy red hair. Anyways, I was planned to fly back home to meet the avatar.

-The Avatar-

I flew back home, though the flight felt amazing. I was strapped into a chair as if I was on a roller coaster, and the sides of the plane would open up to bare the dark night sky next to me as we flew back. I felt the wind brush by my body, and the plane even acted as a roller coaster. We went through turns and loopty-loops, though we reached my home town eventually. From there, I suddenly had a few people accompanying me, not sure who and I don't remember what they looked like, but the Avatar was one of them. She was a child, merely. With a cute belly and a cute face, though strangely large breasts. Though she was scantly dressed in only a wrap for her breasts and a loincloth for her waist, it seemed strange. I wasn't sure if she was a child or not anymore, or merely just someone with a tanned child-like appearance. Sooner or later, all of her clothes came off. She was exposed and her body was quite the sight, and her breasts kept coming up into my vision, without me having to look at them. They were just there. We went to cross a street, and everyone kept driving by in cartoon ways of showing their affection towards the nude girl. I recommended putting something on so that we could cross the street, and she did... though it was simply only a pink top of a bikini with the nipple portion cut out. We got across the street, trying fast to get to somewhere, though never really getting there.

-Japan Re-Visited-

I was suddenly back in Japan, I think. Me and my brother were fooling around in a store, and something strange happened, like I got caught in some sticky material while my brother (who looked nothing like my brother) got hit by something outside. The news and ambulances came, and once we were freed, we were put into things to keep us steady for something. Everyone was so happy that we were saved, though I never saw the danger of such things in the first place. Anyways, we were sent back on the plane, only to go to japan again. This time, we went through a city like area, a crooked tower standing near my side at one point, though this one was more relaxed, and I was able to enjoy the ride, and we eventually got down to a chapperal sort of area near a dam, and landed. That was how my dream ended.

I'm keeping this short. I find it time consuming to add a lot of detail to NLDs (non-lucid-dreams)

Working
I dream I am working. That's about it. It was a really boring dream with nothing unusual or out of place that I remember. Plus it was a short early REM dream.

My Journal
Jana from work was a my house. I smell her men's cologne before I see her. My house looked a lot like a house my older sister used to live in. She wrote a bunch of shit in my personal journal. One line of text I saw clearly was

I am way too dramatic

I just blow it off like maybe sometimes but whatever.


Sad Bro
My brother visits us from TX. My mom and sisters are there. We chat and then everyone starts doing thier own thing like cell phones, computers, TV. He gets up and tells us he has to leave because he has to work in the morning. He seems real sad and on the verge of tears. I go to him concerned. He tells me he wrote all of us letters. I ask why and he says so that we will all feel better.

#I have no clue what that's about.

The Mall
I am at the mall with my Dad. It is so crowded that you can barely walk without bumping into people. We hear some girls talking about free stuff so we follow them to some clothing store. My wife is there now and as the work puts the stuff out we all grab. I come out with an apron that reads "Simple Simon's Pizza" I am not too happy but my wife is all about it. She is going on about how she loves Simple Simon's Pizza. I find my dad sitting at a table chatting. I get irritated and tell him I want to go.

#The last two dreams were what I call alarm clock dreams. Short dreams in the 9 minutes between snoozes. This happens a lot. I wonder if there would be a way to have a short LD.

*Had a dream I couldn't recall

I was in a hotel room chatting with my brother. We grew tired and wanted to sleep. I receieved a call from my mom telling us to go to sleep, but she was laying on the bed with her back to us. I didn't hear her talk outloud but I can hear her from the receiver. I went to her bed to sleep while my brother went to the other bed to sleep, sharing with his dad that's not in the room yet.

I was running around a mall with closed stores, trying to get to school on time. I was searching for elevators but when I found them, I couldn't remember why I needed them. I turned around knowing that I'm late already. I was outside now, facing a really big staircase. My physic class was coming down the stair going toward the stadium, so I thought I could just walk with them. Another science class was also coming down the stair and I got confused and followed the wrong class. I only reazlied that I'm in the wrong place because of the unfamiliar faces I'm seeing. --- I sat down at a bench with my friends. My friend, P.W. was trying to talk to me, and I was trying to ignore her. She asked me what's wrong and I didn't say anything because I didn't know what to say. --- I'm in a really big locker room, it felt like it was underground. --- I was in a bathroom? when my friend, A.A. came in without pants on. --- I was back in the locker room, needing to get somewhere, I walked and walked. The locker room was a big circle without a center, the hallway just goes on and on, next to the lockers are black plastic toilets. I just knew I was going to be late again.

07/25/2012
12AM-10AM

I have a dream last night that I was traveling in some town or amusment park and I went on some tram thing on water and was parinoid that something would happen and had excitement and was comfortable.

I was waiting in the lobby with my friend, A.A. I wanted to go to the bathroom but we were waiting for the others. Our friends finally arrived and I went to the bathroom with one of them, L.Z. A girl came out of the the big stall on the far right and I went in that one. The seat was up and I did my business...

It was around midnight, I was back at my old house behind Starbucks. I went out of the gate and walked to the mini plaza a few minutes away. In place of a fast food burger place in RL, it was a hot dog place, I felt like it's always been there. I walked home with my food and drink. It was really quiet and someone was walking behind me. I thought to myself that if I need to fight, I would. For a second, I thought I couldn't go home cause I forgot my gate remote. I reached in to my pocket and found it (different shape than RL).

I was in a bounce house, it was just bouncy staircase, that's all there is to it. There were a bunch of kids and 2 people my age. They said or did something and they were at the top of the stair away from the kids.

07/24/2012
1AM-10AM

Once again, I had a dream where I was able to fly, although this did not happen until the end. It started in the countryside, I was staying at a country house, presumably staying with a friend or relative. He looked like what I remember my great grandfather looking like.

A woman on a train mentioned she saw something, maybe helicopters? I don’t know, I can’t remember. A man suggested it was an escort, and she denied it because she thought he was talking about a Ford Escort.

A couple of people appeared in my dream, such as [SNIP] who I glimpsed walking into a shop (after I received the ability of flight, I kept going to the shops for an unknown reason) and [SNIP] who I saw twice, excluding the part where he runs from me. The first time we didn’t talk, the second time we did, although I cannot recall what about.

There were also parts with [SNIP] and [SNIP], and I was trying to avoid dog crap. Towards the end of the dream I flew to the bottom of the garden, where earlier I had been avoiding the dog feces, and spotted [SNIP] with an unknown woman. I knew they were there because I had a mini-map which told me where they were - the same mini-map as Second Life.

They saw me and ran. That’s when they complained to the house owner (the man who looked like my grandfather) about me, and [SNIP] accused [SNIP] (another familiar face) of telling me they were at the bottom. That’s when I took off and just started flying. I flew until I came across some children playing in their back garden, two were on a trampoline and one wasn’t. The one that wasn’t seemed amazed and questioned me about how I was flying. I told him I was still learning to control my ability which is why I couldn’t hover perfectly. I landed and then his mother came out, she asked me if she could ride on my back as I flew and I said I didn’t know if I could hold the weight. She jumped on and suddenly I had a jet-pack, I pressed the button to increase the thrust and a menu appeared from Second Life. Then I saw the woman and wanted to change her to a younger woman, which I did. Then I stirred, rolled over, and woke up. I was semi-conscious towards the end because I wanted to change the woman’s appearance, which actually worked. I wasn’t in full realization I was in a dream, though. Just partly, in a way I was, but it didn’t occur to me I was lucid and I should try and control other aspects of the dream. If I was fully conscious, maybe I could have lucid dreamed. The only problem was the shock from a semi-conscious part of my brain realizing I’m dreaming, because I could change the woman, woke me up.

Extremely vivid dreams. I can’t remember them in much detail as unfortunately, I’m writing this at night where I’ve had a whole day to forget what they involved. I do remember a black jet, much like the one in Captain America. It was flying over a city.

The main dream I was somewhat of a gangster. No really. There were the Ballas from Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas, and I think they were giving me trouble. I scared them off, and then I saw a can thrown my way. I looked around and [SNIP] was approaching me. He simply said, “I need £100.” In which I replied “I don’t have “£100.” He pickpocketed me and ran with my wallet, then [SNIP] yelled “Go get him!” which is actually pretty out of character for him.

I chased him down, pushed him to the floor, and kicked him. This unnerves me as I have nothing against the guy. It also disturbs me that my dream self was so out of control and had a lack of empathy.

A few nights back I said I’d listen to that lucid dream inducement video the night in which I posted it. Well, to clarify, I haven’t, and I am having an easier time remembering my dreams without it. It may be coincidence, I don’t know. What I do know is: I’m trying WILD tonight.

A couple of strange dreams, both with an apocalyptic twist. On one of them, the Reapers (from Mass Effect) were about to attack Earth, and all we had was modern day weapons and technology. For some reason, we were on a huge battle ship with smaller vessels surrounding it, and Richard Hammond was with me. He was made the captain of this ship. He stressed his dislike for this idea as he hadn’t a clue on how to captain a small ship, let alone something as big as a military battleship. We disembarked on one of the smaller vessels, and Richard said he was going to fight with his men in the smaller boats. The dream ended when a (I think) Reaper landed in the sea right next to us, and a huge wave enveloped us.

The next dream was similar, I was with my family, and [SNIP] and her mother. Also with an unknown woman who I have no idea is. We were navigating the city via the rooftops, avoiding the giant monsters/machines that were destroying everything in their path. At one point, before I was on the rooftops, I saw a T-Rex, taller than any building in the city. It could literally flatten a whole area this size of a city with each step. I had to run up the building (very similar to one of the abilities Alex Mercer has), without the monster seeing me. I was successful and got to the rooftop with my friends and family.

There were also Reaper looking things, from Mass Effect again. Not the huge ones; but the destroyers. There was also one that look like it was a Tripod ripped straight from War of the Worlds. I think I was told to avoid them seeing me, but I got a rocket launcher and attacked them. To my surprise, there were actually damaged with the resulting explosions, which is when they started targeting us. We ran inside the building and came across a terminal, and the woman I mentioned before (the one who I didn’t recognise) retrieved a CD from the monitors and stressed it was important.

Then we got to the streets again. It was night now, and I remember [SNIP] not doing something I told her to do. Every time she didn’t do it, we both got hurt, and I had a sort of X-ray vision. She refused to do it right up to the point she dropped to the floor, in cardiac arrest. Someone resuscitated her, and then I too, fell. My vision blurred and went a dark grey and black, and I couldn’t see any colors. This vision vanished when they got out the defibrillator and used it on me as they [SNIP]. We got up, crossed the street, into what I think was a lift. Somebody mentioned [SNIP], and her mother told everyone she was now in the army. My mother replied saying that there’s another way to do things, which results in her not joining the army. A choice and consequence system again, like Mass Effect. Her mother simply replied that if you go that route, she doesn’t call again for the rest of the game.

Three dreams. The first was the main one, with a lot of the squad from Mass Effect 2 (I'm a nerd), including Tali, being trained under some commander. He looked a lot like the commander from the film Avatar. There were a few who weren’t from the Mass Effect universe, the most notable, Alex Mercer. Again I dreamed about this guy, maybe he can become a dream sign. If I see him, then I know I must be dreaming.

The second was simple really. It still had the commander in it but it was just about a guy dating what looked like Foxface from the first Hunger Games. It ended when the commander hovered above her house in a helicopter. I remember, before the commander arrived, her boyfriend coming to the door, who actually looked a lot like Thresh, another character from the Hunger Games. She opened the door and said she he can’t come in because she was babysitting. They kissed in the doorway, and one of the children who was being babysitted claimed that it was weird what they were doing. They stopped, the two children walked off, and before she closed the door she kissed him again. If I see any Hunger Games characters in the future, I’ll hopefully know that I’m dreaming.

The third and final was the smallest. Alex Mercer (again) jumping from building to building in a vast city, riding on a helicopter, and then jumping off to land on the roof face first. He got up and the place he landed was a restaurant, so he ate there. He could only order his food when the neon light switched on under the bar, and he had to be quick enough to order before they turned back off. Pretty random, but I’m noticing Alex Mercer popping up a lot in my dreams. If I see him, I have to be dreaming, considering that he’s a fictional character.

If I see him again, I hope I will come to the realization that I’m dreaming without being shocked awake.

Strange dream. Can’t remember the chronological order in which it happened, but at one point I was Alex Mercer, at school, finding it hard to resist my predatory instincts and hurt other students. I remember using the hammerfists and the spikes entering underground, then stopping the spikes from coming back up. I was successful in conquering my hunting instincts without anyone getting hurt. After this I started running up the school buildings, and I found a woman on the roof. I brought her down to safety.

Later on (or earlier) I remember I was in a white, sterile room with a group of friends including [SNIP]. I then took down one of the walls and there was a perfectly flat field with different buildings. I came to the conclusion we were inside [SNIP] head, walking around his subconscious. It was very strange, it was like we were seeing prominent buildings from [SNIP] life such as the [SNIP].

There may have other parts of the dream, although I can’t remember. The strange thing is I actually remembered this dream on a night I didn’t listen to the lucid dreaming inducement video on Youtube. And other nights when I have, I can barely remember anything. Maybe the video is halting my progress? I’m going to try again tonight without, then tomorrow night I’ll listen to it again.