I am everywhere... in so many dreams... too much light and dark energy flowing through me out of balance... it pulses... First I vomit light energy, then dark energy I slow the frequencies down. I explode with a surge of light, and am a million atoms which are suns. I feel my electrons dance and sing with sentience. I feel at once confused, terrified, and amazed. I am me again. I am Pan. I am on Urth. I am watching my Pan-self from a dream a year ago with Raven. I am on a mountain... the humans come... I stop them first pushing a huge boulder on to the road, then with a foot stomp which creates an earthquake, then I make earth spikes come up... I watch the dream progress. don Juan appears. Now you see the importance and pointlessness of everything. Everything in the universe is one thing, therefore all of existence, all matter, non-matter, energy is all in one single point. There is no time, there are no dimensions. We are all aspects of the same one god universe thing perceiving itself in different ways. And yet, All is infinite, therefore everything exists. I hope you are finally beginning not to understand. Stop trying to understand everything, and just accept things for what they are. You can deliberately choose which dream you want to perceive. You are not living a certain amount of lives. You are living an infinite number of lives. Therefore it is impossible to perceive all your existences and all your dreams simultaneously because your mind is finite, though your existence is not. You chose before you were born your perception and your form. So, no go with it, and relearn the lesson I taught you last lifetime. I focus on one perception. Don Juan is now a fox, and I am a hare. We are in a dry scrubland between a desert and a forest. "You are not going to eat me are you, Mr. Fox?" "No, boy. You are too big. We are the same size. Or are we?" Don Juan grows large and grotesque. I cannot look away. His flesh begins to rot, and worms crawl in his giant fox-man body. His mouth opens and forms a black hole. I summon a huge silver dish cover, and cover him with it. I lift it up, and he is a live suckling pig with an apple in his mouth. Tears of blood drip from his left eyes. He whimpers softly. "Don't you eat me!" I feel revolted yet fascinated, then suddenly insane. I turn into a werewolf. "I will eat you, little pig little pig in a most decrapitatious way! HHAHA!" I summon a fork, and dig into his flesh. It tastes like kalua pig. Where I dug into him, there is blood, but after I dig it out, it's fully cooked. He makes his hooves into jets and flies away. A giant flyswatter comes down from the sky and swats us both. There is a big black lady that looks like a cartoon, with the face of don Juan mixed with a demonic Cheshire cat. I turn into a Pan action figure. STOP TORMENTING ME, YOU ASSHOLE! Don Juan opens a portal, and jumps through. I follow him. We are in a dungeon. There is a man being tortured. It's me. He is being whipped, chained to a stone wall. The man with the whip has the head of a bull on. I kick him in the back, breaking his spine, and the bull head flies off. The man is me. I shoot astral tentacles at both me's. I absorb them into me. That's not what you are supposed to do! I am tired of your shit, shaman! All your puzzles and riddles and crazy games, all your bullshit. I am all done with you! Fed up! Stop trying to make me doubt my actions. I don't care if I am not aware of the physical state, or if you are some type of dream guide or some awesome dead guy blah blah blah.... I only had those stupid IB dreams when guess what? I had them when I was reading your book. You think you know everything about dreaming. That would be Carlos that thinks he knows everything about dreaming. You see he took what I said, and expounded upon it, and perceived me in his own way. What he did not realize was that I was referencing a very specific world that is not universal to all dreaming, but it is a path that he had chosen for himself. Just as hallucinogens were necessary for one such as him to be inducted into the wayless path, his perception of the dream plane, a very abstract one was necessary for him to understand dreaming. But, what he did not understand was I was teaching him a perception that was to be for him alone. Other may perceive it similarly, but not so universally as he so egotistically thought. Carlos was always fascinated by a new experience, even if it was an old experience forgotten, but never understood the true purpose which is to perceive energy not as its truest form, but it's purest form, which is this: Everything changes into colored energy. Now you see me for what I am, a dream character of Carlos Castaneda. It is true that I am real. It is also true he met me in waking life. But, I have no physical form. He was awake when we met because of the hallucinogens he took. He had many dreams and many drug trips that were so real, they were memories to him, which of course, they are. He had dreams taking drugs, and when he was on a drug, he would take another drug in his head, in the drug trip. I am at once a sentient entity, a collection of thoughts and projections based on plant experiences and the energy of a multitude of dreamers. But, at my core I am a creation of Carlos Castaneda, yet I am real.
fragment Talking to a girl. She asks me when I lost my virginity. I answer and ask her the same. Then I realize how flirtatious she is and move in to kiss her. To my surprise, she pulls me down to lay on top of her. Coitus ensues. fragment Another sex dream, but I can't recall any details. Lucid Donuts Method DILD (absurdity) This was in my last sleep cycle. I'm laying on a bed. On and around the bed are a bunch of coworkers. I have the impression that we are on a work retreat near the beach. They are talking about the company's goals and culture. There is a box of donuts on the bed that people are eating. Chris is typing at a laptop and asking for people's opinions. He turns to me, but I'm more interested in the donuts. As I reach for a donut, I realize that I am not in my own bed, these people shouldn't be here, and I shouldn't be eating donuts. I am lucid for just a moment and then wake up.
Lucid Non-Lucid 1. Sex and drugs. I was at a picnic thing and in my back pocket there was a packet of drugs. Suddenly we were busted by the cops but our belongings were not searched as they were rookies. Later, I went back and found my 3 pairs of shorts - 1 of them being the one with the drugs. Later I was in a uni with 3 huge rooms and people were sitting down getting ready to watch a video that was playing. I walked right through it - not having any intention to watch it. I then walked onto a field were there was a lot of water. I remember doing a slide. 2. Club sign-up at a festival. Walking through a tunnel with 3 large sheets. I walked under the 1st one and over the other 2 and went to see S again. S was at a table and there were a lot of people signing up to her club. I walked around and saw her but she did not see me. I moved on and there was a boy trying to get a hand-held game off of another boy. He said he had a crush on him. I was able to get it off of him and I played with it a while. 3. I was in a group of 3 maybe 4 people and we were going towards a tower. We reached it and managed to destroy it and then moved onto the next one. When we reached it I saw a lot of people walk out from the tower and one of the group members became busy talking to someone with horses. 4. I was in a public toilet when 3 girls walked in. They started using urinals like a guy would. They looked at me and warned me how dangerous the toilets are and showed me a gun that they had. Finally they left and 2 other guys came in.
Ordinarily, I don't write down non-lucids here, I just keep those in my physical dream journal. But a rather interesting non last night. It's a slight sign that I've been playing too much Minecraft, as I started out in a desert-esque biome, I move to a snowy, mountainous region. I do a bit of digging, but the interesting thing was when I tried climbing a particular incline. Just absolutely gusting wind, pressing against me. I remember being kinda blown away by it (Metaphorically, and ALMOST literally.). So I head down and notice a cave. Inside a little ways was a VERY large open cavern, the cave continued on for awhile further beyond my sight. The large cavern wasn't lit at all, but I could still see kinda. There were these metal power boxes, that I searched as if they were chests. I search them all, nothing was inside. So I'm fiddling with my inventory, trying to place down a torch to see better. I then turn around and see this dark (Minecraftily blocky) figure jump down off a power box and scamper out of the cave. It scared the ever living bajesus outta me, in a way I don't often get scared in dreams. Frikkin' Id. Dream ended. As for the lucid, I was in a fancy looking house, talking with an older lady. My cat was there as well, as I had to clean up some of his vomit. >=\ Things are a bit shaky after that, I didn't exactly write down the dream right when I woke up... Frikkin' sleeping pills... But I know I somehow ended up on a rooftop garden. I think I just randomly decided to RC (I don't even remember what kind, but I'd assume it's my usual nose breathe.) and then grab the nearest thing. It happened to be a small duck topiary. As I'm looking at it, it turns into an actual toy duck. This clears things up quite a bit. I notice a small picture or painting with a swirly pattern, I'm somehow drawn to it, thinking I could use it as a portal. I get pretty close to it but nothing happens so I just leave it be. I decide to summon my subconscious, Elly, via the 'turn around expecting' method. It works! Though she's wearing some kinda green robe and a mask that is either a smiley or a kodama or Arakune type mask. I greet her and approach, I ask if she can take off her mask, she does and she has ear-length rainbow hair and firey red eyes with very black pupils. None of this bothers me though, I talk with her a bit. She doesn't say anything, which is pretty typical. Soon after, I wake up. Again, not untypical. =\ Though interesting, I didn't accomplish any of my November goals while lucid. Ah well, the more time I have with Elly, the better I think.
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID Good morning! Didn't dream anything yesterday, only got a few hours of sleep. I did have two fragments last night. And Monica told me I spoke in my sleep, apparently I had said to her: "Fatty, fatty, fatty, fatty, fatty!" Haha I'm such a nice boyfriend. 05.15: Fragments *I'm playing wow. It's a virtual reality game and I meet this Chinese girl. She's selling a "Veez". It's a creature from a book I'm reading. I tell her something and she tells me to "Fook off!" *Monica is on the balcony and she's shaking. Crying and moaning about how sucky her life is. Amount of sleep: 7½ hours Food before bed: 1 x 100 mg B6, 2 x Omega-3 That's it! Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!
I am in a swamp. There is a cave behind me. There is also a man with me. I start walking to the swamp, but notice a snake. I jump back from it, but there's another snake. The man says the snakes are his pets. I go to the cave. There is a giant bee in there (I watched the futurama episode 'The Sting' recently, the bee was like the queen of the bees in it). I think she said to me that she is tired of communicating with dancing (the bees do it in the episode) even though she has six butts. I walk in the cave for a while. I think there were some people with me, possibly people from Futurama. I exit the cave. There are people in front of me. They are fighting. I try to assist them, but they get driven into the cave. I am in our car. I remember I haven't done my biography homework and that I have lost my book (I actually haven't had done my geography homework, luckily the dream helped me remember). We are going somewhere on a ferry. I check my watch. There's still plenty of time before it leaves. I head to the city. On the way I see two of my friends. I creep behind them and quote from the biology book: "And then the (I can't remember the word, but it was an insect of some sort) goes to the female and fertilizes it". Another of them jumps into the air as if I would've shouted "boo", then starts laughing. "What the heck?" he asks. "It's from the first biology course", I answer. Another one of them, I can't remember which, jumps and balances himself on our shoulders by his arms. I leave them. I see a boy. He has balanced himself on a broom, leaning on a wall, so that his feet are touching the wall, like he'd be brooming the street, standing 'on' the wall. I can't remember precisely what happened next, but I remember that he bent himself into an even more impossible position and jumped off the wall (he was at about 3 meter's height) doing a flip on the way. "That's some crazy, awesome parkour, I think and continue towards my destination, with a smile on my face. Soon I see a book shop. I go inside and ask the bookseller if they have any high school biology's first course books. He says that he thinks they don't have any. He checks the shelves and says that they indeed don't have any. I leave the shop. It's dark already. I take out my mobile phone for light. There's a large sandpit in front of me. I try to cross it, but it feels like im walking in mud. I remember that there's an old woman living in the highrise behind me. Finally I manage to stumble off the other side of the sandpit. I check my watch. Still half an hour till the ferry leaves. I go to the car and sit on a backseat. I notice that my little brother's driving. He says he hopes that his student licence will pass for a driving licence. I get afraid that it doesn't, but my mom wakes me up.
Just one, short dream from last night. I was back at school and there was a big party planned for later. I had just woken up and found some beers in the dresser when my friend walked in and started telling me about this girl that was going to be there. We walked outside and into my backyard. I saw some more of my friends and there was a big party going on at my neighbors house. A did a line of dream coke and that was apparently the last of it. A friend got made and start pushing me and calling me a 'dick'. I slammed him up against the fence. Another friend grabbed me and calmed me down. End.
I dreamed that earthquakes had rattled the Earth. My city had been hit hard. My family had been packing our things. There were special shelters that everyone was going to. That's why we were packing. We dropped off some stuff at the shelter. Next we came back to the apartment to get more things. I remembered I left some things upstairs. I proceeded up. "Hey!" my brother shouted. "Don't go upstairs! The floor will give away!" I got pissed. So, while my brother and Dad weren't watching, I ran away. I arrived at Lauren Mckown's(DS) house(never actually been there). She was doing endurance training. She let me join in. My phone began to ring. "Hello?" I said. "Angelo?" it was Dom, my brother. "Where the hell are you?" "I'm doing endurance exercises at Lauren's house." "I'm coming over and I'm gonna kick your ass!" I hung up and warned Lauren. We got some dual fighting sticks. I hid, and Lauren stood in the open to serve as a decoy. Dom entered. He kicked the hell out of Lauren! I came out and hit him with the stick. Then, he kicked my ass! He left us. Then, my friend Victor(DS) called. He said a dance was going on at the shelter. I wanted to ask Lauren, but I was too nervous. So, I tried pity. "Too bad I don't have anyone to dance with." The pity was beginning to work, but then, my Dad woke me up.
This is only a fragment and i didnt really want to write it down. This is my first time using something on this site and i would like to get better at lucid dreaming so i figure i should right down everything i can. My memory is coming back in at running for my life from a bunch of aliens that i cant see. There are several other people with me that i cant remember specifically. There were a lot of sensors that, when tripped, turned on a bunch of bright lights and caused me to be discovered. (I think the lights are taken from the movie I Am Legend which i just watched over the weekend.) the scenery reminds me of war trenches over a big battlefield but with much more grass. i finally get inside a building and go up to the second or third floor. (the journey up those floors i cannot remember though.) the building is not an exact copy of the church i just renovated in real life but the rooms are VERY similar. so, naturally , i start pulling all the stuff off the walls so i can renovate the room. a person from my high school marching band was there whom i never speak to. she seemed to be working for the aliens and watching over my work. i remember the step of pulling out nails that were in the wall after i had ripped something down, and i had all the nails in my hand. i could feel the nails. the room next door i had to renovate to but for some reason i wanted to run away or hide the room from her. so when she went to open the door i said it was locked. so she went out into the hallway and around the other side to another door. i quickly stepped in the room and found it renovated also.(just like how the setup is at my church.) then i went over to the door and made a screeching noise to scare the person and not want them to open it. she came back around and said we shouldnt do that room because theres something in there. that was the end of that. right before i walked into the hallway i grabbed something next to the door. it looked like cotton candy. (tasted like it too). then one of my other friends said oh do you like my cotton candy unicorn? then she got into a conversation with another person there who claimed she left there subs in the car... my friend said, i didnt know they were in there! as the other person said you could smell them! which led to her greatest quote of my dream. oh i didnt know, i thought it was one of my "well developed farts." haha then i think i woke up or lost memory of it. there was much more dreaming before this one but i woke up in between and i cant remember. i do remember that it was an amazing and really long dream though. if i remember it through out the day ill make sure i write it down. if there is anything wrong with how i posted or anything of that sort, please let me know. i'm new and couldnt find any type of formatting. i also wanted to get the dream down before forgetting it early this morning. thanks if anyone reads this
I spoke to one of my gurus about my lucid dreams and he gave me some new directives, so I might have to change my commitment to the ToTY, ToTM and RPG's tasks, 'cause I need to be full-time focused on the tasks he gave to me. My teacher also told me to relax and not to be so obsessed about having lucids every night and to once in a while not even care about recall - just sleep. He realised my excitement about LDs and shared dreams and the whole shebang and he said I was getting too amused with my dream experiences. The objective of my dream practice is not to develop a whole alternative life, but simply to train the mind to realise it's only in a dream and to carry it on to awaken life. He told me to whenever I become lucid, just sit and medidate. I was not happy about it, but I know he is right, so I will do that as much as possible. Flying and sending laser beams from my 3rd eye and meeting other LDers is fun, but my goal is enlightnement, so I must not get stuck on fun.
Lucidity-6 Vividness-7 I'm circling around what appears to be a mountain made form minecraft. There are regular buildings all around, but the ground is from minecraft. I'm also around my dads house which is connected to this minecraft world. Soooo many things happened their that i can't remember the full story of. For example i fought a guy who had apparently trained in my same style of fighting from my trainers brother. I backed up a minivan. And i held off zombies. But they were all little side things. While i was at my dads though i did another random RC. I had really good memory actually.I remembered the task of the month was to say something your thankful for to a dc. I kinda did this, but i won't use it because i said to my dad in a dream i'm thankful for bitches and ho's. Just messing around of course. For the rest of the dream i just wandered around. I was going to try to DEILD on purpose and just hold lucidity until the dream ended. But it never happened.
Real life Dream Lucid Dream sign For me to remember, dreams are 067300, lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b. I lucid dreamt today! Oh my gosh! This has increased my will to lucid dream ten fold! Lucid dream All I remember was I was in a white room (this dream wasn't very vivid at all) when suddenly I became lucid! I was so excited I started to feel the dream falling apart. It's a strange feeling. I felt like there was an aching heat in me (but it wasn't a bad feeling) and I was slightly disoriented. Normally when a dream fades from me, it's different. Usually when my dreams lose stability my REM cycle is ending, and I will start to become intensely disoriented, and fall to the ground. Everything in my vision will smear together and fade to white. I guess since my dream lost stability for a different reason, it felt different. I thought of what to do from my experience on the forums and the only thing I could think to do was rub my hands together. I don't even remember seeing my hands, (maybe it was because my dream was so unstable) but I did so and things improved a little. It might have lasted ten more seconds because of that. I was so happy and thought to myself 'I'm aware that I'm dreaming!' until I woke up at 3 something AM. I thought in my head "I WILL remember this dream!" over and over, and went back to sleep. Sci-fi dream I remember none of this dream but it was sci-fi in theme. When I woke up at 8 AM, I did remember this dream, but not the lucid dream. I started thinking all about it in my head. Then I thought, 'Wait a second...' and then remembered my lucid dream earlier that night and got really excited. In my excitement I completely forgot the sci-fi dream, but who cares? I remembered my lucid dream! Last night changed my general beliefs of dreaming in these ways: Lucid dreaming isn't impossible for me!People lucid dream many times before they finally remember one- as you can see here I almost forgot my "first" lucid dream.The above means that dream recall might not improve your lucid dream count because of recognizing dream signs more, but simply because you remember more of your lucid dreams! (This is just an idea, and might not be true)I had an idea a while ago that remembering dreams is like following a train of thought. It seems to me that recollection of dreams seems to never be put in short term memory. When I began to think about something else, I completely forgot my dream, and that might be because the dream was just something I was thinking about, not something in my memory. This could be why most people remember their dreams in the morning, but as five minutes pass you forget it. (This is just an idea, and might not be true)
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non-dream - non-lucid - lucid 02/11/11 I was in a forest setting with multiple vehicles around me. Something about having three appearances to choose from I can only remember 2 of them, the first being Ben Affleck, who was also a supreme angel of darkness and the other I can remember was that of the guy supposed to be the temporary vessel for Lucifer in Supernatural (Nick). I speak to a black horse with a fierce set of teeth, it remembers this zombie servant that is escorting me and my companion around. He is allowed to touch it. Then I switch to the appearance of Nick and ask if the horse has ever encountered this before, which it hasn't and it is confused as to what it is supposed to do. I run into Ben Affleck in a doorway and quickly have to change face as I apparently have changed to his. Something about a seriously bad ass Mexican officer chasing me and a woman through the same little forest military compound as before. I end up switching on some nifty awareness tricks I have to find secret aspects of buildings and hidden spots in the level. … Flying somewhere to bomb the living crap out of it. Think it might be during second world war as the people we are “borrowing” the planes from are “don't know” that we are doing it. We are successful to an extend. A massive Hercules type plane coming over the horizon of the docks/airfield we are at.
Lucid Non-Lucid 1. Won the $500K competition that I am entering. Along with an extra $125K. Cash in boat and a new red peugot. 2. On a bed with a girl (A) and kissing her and trying to get her to kiss someone else.
Lucid Non Lucid 1. A spear through my heart. 3 verses of scripture. First two have occurred - with the third one upon me. I fell inside a tornado. I was then on a bus and someone was Earth and another was Luscifer. I got off and one or both of them followed. We talked and one said he was gay and I met his bf. They went to a costume party. Invited me. I informed them that I couldn't go. They said the costume part costs money but not the other part. I attended. Later I was in a open theatre (akin to the Colosseum but way smaller) and I was talking when I saw a part of the Earth above me. I was looking up at the ocean and I said how do I get there? The reply was that a boat would take me. 2. ...serial killer. I was at the front of a house and there were people (only 2 that I can remember) around the house. A detective talked to me and informed me that you can get so bogged down in the details that you forget why. Then said "She was such a good son" the dual nature of the gender came up a couple of times but I cannot remember what was said. 3. A church(?) has books. It got ripped apart. I threw a stone on the floor and where it hit the floor rose and split and the crack propagated. 4. Had a convo w/ a girl (S) that I know. She said I was moving too fast. I either didn't agree or understand. She said she was busy and I should leave her alone for a while (it seemed that she was on tour). Just an explanation. When I wake up and write, I write everything that was related to that dream and then start over when I reach a 'new dream'. However, there may be overlaps - or transitions - between dreams but until I become more dedicated to writing my dreams I am not going to change how I break it up. Cheers.
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