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Whooohoo this is my first post. EXCITING anyways, it is currently 5:40 in the evening, so i can't say i remember my dream very well... which is probably not helpful in this process. BUT i do remember a few things...
...i remember being in an abandoned parking lot at night in my Aunt Lynda's red car. There was food in the car. I was just about to leave the parking lot when some kind of threatening man jump on the car. I screamed and he yelled at me to get out of the car. i got out of the car but refused to leave it. he got so fed up with me that he just pushed me in the back of the car, then started to drive away.
The next part i do not remember but this next part happened later on in the dream and i do remember it...
... we were still driving and all of the sudden it was daytime and we were driving down a twisty road near my house. He somehow opened the back door of the car, sending me flying out, cackling and yelling something that I don't remember. I was pretty close to my house so i decided to bounce there instead of walk...? I could bounce REALLY high, like at least 50 feet, but i didnt get very much distance, i just went really high. Regardless, i bounced all the way home.
Again, i forgot what happened right after that but i still remember some snippits from later on...
I remember me being in my kitchen, telling my Aunt Lynda about the incident... then my mom walking in and saying that i looked all shaken up, and hugging me. She had on a leather coat.
I then remember it was night time again and me and 3 or 4 other friends (unknown names) went back to the parking lot and found the red car exactly where it was before.

OK i know it doesnt really sound like a nightmare right now... but it was scary at the time.

I don't know how the zombie apocalypse starts in my dream. When I enter, the pandemic has already begun and where I am at there seems to be nobody around. I walk through what seems to be a large, courtyard type area outside of a medium sized cottage house. I enter the house through some French doors and flip on some lights. I had entered what seemed to be the kitchen area, though it's rather small. When I switch on the lights, I all of a sudden can see zombies meandering around the courtyard exactly where I had been only a moment before. However, they don't seem to take any care in the fact that I am drawing attention to myself. I then go to the stove and pick up a frying pan that I intend to use as a weapon.

I look out the French doors from where I just came and notice a large pipe about waist high going through what all of a sudden appears to be a extremely thick brick wall starting at the side of the cottage. Inside of the pipe is a boy who I seem to recognize, but I can't place who it is. Standing directly in front of the pipe with its back to the boy is another zombie. I can, however, tell that he's pleading for help so I begin to knock loudly on the windows farther away to draw all of the zombie's attentions. Suddenly alert to my presence, they all swarm to the area where I am knocking and begin to moan and claw at the glass. That is, all except the zombie standing in front of the boy. It stays oblivious until the boy finally decides to retreat into the pipe. Finally this particular zombie seems to take notice of movement and follows the boy into the pipe. Since the zombies are enthralled with where I was knocking on the glass, I decide to go try to help him and follow through the same pipe.

When I come out on the other side, it seems like we're in something similar to a darkly colored prison hall in aura. The entire hall is made of a dark steel. I immediately see the boy and the zombie wrestling with each other and I grip my skillet to get ready to help. The next thing I hear is the boy yelling at the zombie, "No! Don't bite me! Don't bite me!" A cold dread washed over me and I slowly shuffled around the fray and took off running down the hall, leaving the boy behind me. A guilt fills me as I hear him call after me, "No! Don't leave me behind! You'll regret this!"

Somehow I end up entering what seems to be a larger metal room filled with survivors. What's even more weird than coincidentally coming upon this group is that the boy I just left behind is sitting in the corner of the room with blood running down his arm. It seems that he was telling the story of his almost-escape from the disaster when he turns to speak to me, "I didn't get bitten by the zombie you saw me fighting. After I finally crushed his skull, I was attacked by another zombie that had found me. I could've been saved if you had been there." Almost as soon as he says these last words to me, I wake up.

Constructed, Bombarded, Commemorated
Clarity: 6/10
Importance:4/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm helping a friend work on his new house. A lot of the guys are there. I end up leaving with Steele, and we drive towards Petawawa. Up ahead on the road, the military is has the road blocked off with tanks. Military people are scurrying about, and I hope it's not a search checkpoint. Not that we have anything to hide, I just don't like that sort of thing.

Somebody begins to shoot, large caliber rounds I can see fly through the air like tracer rounds. The military squares off against this shooter, and we take cover between two tanks. The shots get really close to us at one point, but eventually I see all the army guys cluster together pointing their guns at the ground. I figure they caught the offender.

Sean and I walk towards the school, and see a short asian guy we recognize do the same. It was a guy we ran into on the way to a Tragically Hip concert. One of our friends had spray painted the school to commemorate our trip, and had done a few portraits of them asian man. The guy begins to see paintings of himself on the school and is a little freaked out as to why he would be painted there several times.

Old Friends
Clarity: 8/10
Importance:4/10
Sleep: Nap
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm at Donald's, and we decide to go out into the bush out back. I pick up my jacket, but it's full of candy, which I stuff back into my pockets. Then my leather jacket seems really heavy, so much that I can barely walk with it. Next I spot another leather jacket of mine, and wonder how I'll bet them both home, since they're so heave.

I notice it's warm out, and take of my jacket. Donald is in the back of the lot amongst the trees on a horse. I hope there's a horse for me as well. Before I can go look, I hear some electric guitar and a female voice singing from next door. They're playing AC/DC. Andrew wanders out, and the AC/DC becomes a Jefferson Airplane song. He shows me the chords he's playing, and I see this awesome chord structure with an awesome sound in my mind. different than the song he's playing, but it fits.

I was riding in a SUV with D and we started walking, and I had no shoes. We continued down the street, and there was a vendor who had all types of shoes for sale. I was thinking about grabbing a pair, but I decided not to. We entered a mall, and some woman saw me, and took pity on me. She looked like she was pretty rich, and she used a paper towel to wipe the dirt off of my face. She said I could pick out any pair of shoes and an entire outfit and she'd buy it. I found a nice pair of Timberland boots and I double checked the price (59.99 each time) and started walking around looking for clothes. The boots also had a pair of shoes attached to them, so I headed back to put the shoes up, and continued my search and the dream faded.

I remember being in an athletics department at the mall. I'm lucid.....fighting someone...punching him over and over. I decided I'd just turn away from the guy and think about summoning H. I said her name about three times and turned around, and the guy who i was punching was next to her, and he just sort of disappeared and the dream faded.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG
01:30 GMT

Hacking a secret society temple
On an underground cell. My dad is sitting on the floor, looking hopeless. My mom and BF are also there. I am there to save them, but right now I also focused on opening a kind of secret vault on the stone floor. There’s a tiny iron ring buried on the stone, but I manage to turn it and start a mechanism that opens the stone slab, exposing a hole on the floor with a box. I take out of it tiny metallic plates with tiny precious stones incrustations. They look like chips, not exactly jewels. People around me ask what it is. I seem to know exactly what it is but no time to explain. Then I also open a secret passage on the stone wall and tell everybody to go in. It is pitch dark and they hesitate but there’s someone coming and I tell them to hurry. I manage to close the passage door just behind us, but our captors saw us. In the dark we can more or less see some very old stairs carved in the rock that go up. I take the lead. The stairs are very imperfect and I warn people to be careful. I clear the way from the giant spider webs and finally see some light. The passage ends on some place with a loosely fit wall slab. I push it a bit to the side and it leads either directly to outside, where there’s a parking lot or to just behind a column on the main entrance. Some of us manage to go to parking lot, but soon appear some guards and we can’t go there anymore. So the last of us, including me and my BF, have to go to main entrance and try to mingle with the crowd. There’s a lot of people around, because this is some sort of big event of some secret society, so we split and try to pass undetected.
I end up in some oval room with amphitheatre seats around. Three guys in capes and hoods come inside and everybody bows to them. I do the same and sneak out of it very discretely, because once they start whatever they are about to start, I will get stuck there.
I pass into another room, bigger, and more elliptical. Some ceremony is taking place here, but there’s an area for observers – like a small amphitheatre on one of the sides of the elipse – and I see my BF sitting there. Because it is the perfect time to escape but he seems to have chosen to sit there till the end, I decide to go meet him to warn him we must go now. But then I can’t say a word, I can’t make any suspicious signs, because we’re surrounded by these people from this order or society and they are all sitting straight, looking to the front, not saying a word. Through very discrete signs I make him understand we should go immediately, but some girls sitting below us look back and notice something strange. They ask me all sorts of questions, which I dodge wonderfully, but one of them didn’t buy it. She knows I don’t belong. But she won’t make a scandal, she knows I’m trapped. I review in my head how many steps to the parking lot, where the car is and I feel the adrenalin rush. I know as soon as we get up, the girl will warn about my presence and guards will be after us, but I must escape, because I have the whatever-it-is-that-I-stole.

3:30 GMT

Lesson on LDs to dreamers
I enter a dream which I recognize as having had before waking up but didn’t recall then. It had to do with being in some classroom and it being invaded by wasps. First one, then two, then we are all trying to escape from them, cause an entire colony entered through a hole in the ceiling. As we go out and close the door, our teacher promises to go back and get our stuff for us. She gets some guys to go and when they come back they bring dolls. Each of us had a doll which is delivered to each seat on a new classroom where we shall continue our lesson (?).
Then on the new room, there’s a long table, with the dolls on and we seat, more like to have a meal than to have a class. All of this is absurd and I slowly get lucid. Then I start talking to the nearby colleagues – I don’t know any of them, a girl and two guys. I am looking at their faces which are very clear and don’t change even when I look away. I tell them about lucid dreams, that I am currently having one and that I think they are not DC’s but actual dreamers. They seem surprised but interested. They ask how do I know it is a dream and I sank my arm on the table. They find it so cool and try to do the same with no success. I explain they first have to believe it is a dream and teach them the nose pinch RC. I do it at the same time as the girl. I tell her I am feeling my RL body breathing very clearly but she tells me she can’t. But I tell “OK, yet you are breathing although you’re pinching nose.” Sometimes you don’t feel it right away. Then she says she is starting to feel it. She looks very focused, she smiles and... I wake up.

4:30 GMT

Ecovillage sanctuary
On some ecovillage on a remote area. It is somewhat closed and hidden from most eyes and it is kind of a sanctuary. I am listening to a lady with long hair who lives there and she explains that when the civilization collapses, everybody will turn to places like these and hope to be welcomed. But she says they can’t open their arms to everybody, so they’ll only be open to people who had previously a connection to them and contributed to their project, for example with donations. I find it a bit cold-blooded, but I totally understand and I start considering doing just that.

Celebration of mission acomplished
After a good succeeded mission (I guess the temple one?), I meet with some group of people from alternative underground movements I know. We’re all jammed into a very tight place, like a secret office bunker we have. It’s so crowded there we can hardly move, but we’re partying. I’m the hero of the day and get congratulated. But there’s some girl who is totally jealous of me and just wants to humiliate me, so she posted pictures of me on the wall. She says it’s in homage to me, but they are private, familiar stuff that wasn’t supposed to be exposed. On one I am totally fat with my belly showing (I wonder when that was???). She looks at me defying but I smile and go over it, totally not caring. We’re celebrating, so I hug her. She feels touched by my attitude and she looks embarrassed. She asks me sorry and ask if I believe she can change as a person. I tell her yes, she smiles and then she leaves. I sit and start writing on my DJ, once again forgetting to first wake up.

5:30 GMT

Guy looking for Celia
At home with my BF. Some guy knocks on the door and I open. He asks for Celia. I say she doesn’t live there. He doesn’t believe me and insists this is her house. I try to recall who she can be and tell him she did indeed live there before us, but now we’re the ones living there for more than a year. He still can’t believe it and gets really angry. He gets inside without permission and starts looking around. My BF does not believe his attitude, but I make a sign to chill. I tell the guy I will look in my contact book if I have her number, so he can talk to her and find where she lives now. But I don’t know her full name. He tells me she is Celia Silene. But as I do this, the guy is picking up some papers we left on the table and starts making innuendos that my BF’s signature does not match in different documents. I say “Sorry, and what are you insinuating with that?” He says he is not saying anything but I read in his mind he thinks we’re liars and somehow kidnapped her or worst. He sits on the sofa and will not move any time soon. I ask my BF to be patient as I go look for my agenda.
Our home is quite impressive, big, beautiful, stylish. Then I see we have a backdoor open and some people standing there. I am amazed at the house design – it is Japanese like, with a porch all around and sliding doors and we even have an altar full of golden Buddhas, turned to this backdoor. That is why some people are there. They look like Inuits. They are a couple with two girls. They are admiring the Buddhas and ask if they can come in, but I explain this is a private home, not a museum of some kind. Still, I tell them we will gladly welcome them there some other time as we have a “guest” in the living room that we have to deal with. I then cuddle the older girl’s head and she looks totally pissed off and gets away from me. I say I’m sorry and I wonder maybe it was just her teen attitude. Then I do the same to the youngest, but she also reacts badly and I feel stupid.

7:00 GMT

I'm in my grandparents' bathroom, sitting on the toilet. There are two doors in the room that really aren't there. Also the toilet seat was on the wrong side of the room. Some people come in. I tell them to go off. They are students from some school. Their teacher comes in also. I tell her for them to get the fuck out of here because I'm on the toilet. More students keep coming in. I lose my nerve and start pushing them off the room with my feet. I fall off the seat. They laugh at me. I get back to the seat and grab a boy from his feet with mine and throw him on the wall with superhuman power. Finally they leave the room. I also leave it. I go to tell to mom. On the way I think: "How didn't I realize that was a dream? There were two extra doors and the toilet seat was on the wrong side of the room!"

There are 4 people in a hotel room, two girls and two boys. They were about 19 years old. They had to stay for the night in the room. They go to sleep. But then another of the girl goes naked and they end up having sex. Another of the boys got a STD from the girl. By the way, the view was nice (I mean from the hotel room, not the girls you pervert ).

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG
23:00 GMT

Stormy flight
On a big plane flying into a storm. But just an observer. I think there will be the day when I will be in such situation.

Barcelona
Looking at a map of Barcelona with my BF and asking him what he wants to visit – I suggest we should see stuff I haven’t seen yet, but he wants to check some important spots I already visited and I have to agree to go there for a second time.

Deadly parents
I’m watching some spy thriller movie and then I am inside it. On the margins of a river and someone’s just explained me that in this particular place there are some strange undercurrents, probably resulting from some underwater structure, like a tunnel entrance to some secret facilities. I’m lying belly down on the grass, watching for suspicious movements, when I detect on land some kind of entrance to a bunker. I go check it quietly, think it’s safe to go in but then I’m spotted by some ugly guy coming out of it. He holds a big knife in his hand and then a second guy joins him in trying to kill me. Luckily I also get some backup from a colleague and as we are on pairs, facing each other and waiting for someone to make the first attack, all of a sudden, the enemy guy’s are my mom and dad and my partner is my BF. My mom is holding the big knife and I’m like “Sorry, what!!!?”.


2:00 GMT

Future attached to past
It’s night. I see the city nightlights and against the dark sky I see a spaceship just like Enterprise. That’s when I notice I’m in the future. Day comes and I also see airplanes moving around, but they are different, more like rockets – although totally similar to today’s airplanes, they lack any wings or tail and they lift off and land vertically. Yet, they still look more like planes than rockets. They are everywhere, like they are the buses of this future time. City looks pretty much like current day cities, though. I am walking through a park amongst the buildings and I see an old steam-engine train as an open air exhibit. I meet a lady there with whom I talk about the past and present times. I get from her words that people in this age are very attached to “old” times. They have this incredible new technologies but they avoid being too innovative, because they don’t want to break with the past so quickly. That’s why they make ships resembling planes, they keep their ancient machines exposed on their parks. They are a bit too obsessed. I tell her they shouldn’t be so attached to old days, because everything changes and even that steam-engine will rust out there, for as much they try to preserve it and will disappear from people’s memories one day. She seems disturbed with the idea.
Then I see a guy appearing to be doing a stunt over a monorail sticking out of a skyscraper side. I ask what’s that and I realise they are just testing if it’s safe to ride a bike through these narrow trails up there. They want to implement them between skyscrapers so people can go by bike through them. I say they are crazy – why not simply making some pods that would glide through the rails? Once again, it’s their obsession with keeping it low tech and not go to far from their roots.

Avoiding dad
Seem to be on some sort of Inn on a ranch. The whole place is a big long one-floor building, where there’s a cafeteria, rooms, etc. My father is looking for me everywhere and I’m trying to avoid him at all cost. I see him entering the main door and I’m further away, in the rooms area. I go inside one room and meet my mom and grandpa there. Mom is reading a magazine, I eat some snack with her and we laugh about some picture on the magazine I say could go to Fail.blog. They are announcing an exhibition related to some event and there are some pictures of the event’s mascot and on one, something on the background makes it look like it has a huge phallus coming from between his legs. And because it is a kind of kiddie mascot it makes it even more outrageous. I say I have to leave because my dad will find me there eventually. I pass by the cafeteria, but I spot my dad inside and he seems to be with some kid. I have this feeling that he has a secret family I don’t know about and I don’t want to face it right now, so I go over some handrails and get out of this place before he sees me. I go around the building and exit this area. Then I’m in some other place sitting on a table with two other guys, who happened to be sitting on that exact table when I sat there to eat something. One of them is Indian, they are teachers and they are talking about relationships and how to deal with kids in classes. The Indian guy asks a very specific question: how to deal with a student who is very flamboyant. The other guy just doesn’t know what to answer to that.

4:45 GMT

Alien
Something about a meteorite falling and then it is an alien with tentacles.

ESP and lucidity
Home scene with my BF, my aunt and her kids. We’re talking about or trying out some ESP tricks. Something about robots. Then I’m lucid and decide to write the dreams I’ve been having on my DJ. I forget to wake up and just do it on the dream. I remember the radio was playing and I was thinking about how nice would be to have a radio show on Lucid dreams. My dad was asleep. Then I realise I was still asleep.

7:30 GMT

I am wandering in the Biodome by myself, looking at all the plants... I find the city, but it is only about five inches high! I crouch down and look at it. I am suddenly in the city. It's overwhelming. I create a portal and go back.

I am smelling some flowers when Raven leaps out and tackles me. She's a huge black panther. She grins at me and licks my face. I push her head away, and she growls, but it sounds like a chuckle. She bats my face and says, "GLOMP!"

I wrestle her off me, and pat her jaguar head. She purrs.

She doesn't seem to be lucid. Nomad, where are you? Where have you been?

"I have been lost in non-lucid dreams, my friend"

When is this phase going to end?

"There is no beginning, and there is no end.
Infinity loops forever, my friend."

Raven and I are instantly on a mountain top. Now we are both humans. She looks unearthly. Her skin is pale, and her eyes are violet cat eyes. She is wearing a long white dress. She smiles benignly, and I see small fangs. We are both Vampire-Elves, I realize. We sit down across from each other, and close our eyes. Our third eyes open, and I see even more levels of the dream-energy, like an Alex Grey painting.

Energy moves between our third eyes.

This Ritual is called
The Remembering.

One becomes two
Two become one
two become three
three become one
three become five,
six, seven then, one.
Seven becomes eight,
the Infinite Sun.
Eight is all, and Eight is one.
Back to the Zero Point,
We are All ONE.

I am in Mu.

I am practicing energy magic alone in a forest glen. Raven appears. "Ah, my brother."

"Ah my sister. We meet again, but for the first time this life time. Raven smiles serenely."

"You answered my call through dreams, and now, here we are."

"Yes, the beginning of The End is upon us. We must make preparations for future lifetimes."

"Aye." Raven walks to me, kneels, and kisses my hand. "Greetings, O Lord of Darkness and Delight, my Bunyip brother." She stands.

I kneel and kiss her hand. "Greetings, O Queen of Night, Terrible Goddess of the Moon."

She grabs my hand, and we take off flying to a high mountain overlooking the city of Mu. "Even now," Raven says, "the Atlanteans encroach. We will all die soon. The Cataclysm is nigh." I see an army of Atlanteans attacking the walled city of Mu. There is an energy field deflecting everything, but the Atlanteans are relentless. "We must gather the others..."

Raven and I sit across from each other, and form a ball of energy with our third eyes, then send it to the other Guardians of Sacred Dreams: MoSh, Poet, and Aeona.

We teleport to a room with a white pentagon shaped table in the center. There is a candle burning on it. MoSh, Aeona, and Poet are there. MoSh is a stocky gnome. He growls at Aeona and Poet. Raven says, "We must set aside our personal differences for the Greater Good."

We hold hand around the table.

We are the Guardians of Sacred Dreams
We walk the ways unseen
Now we make a Scared Vow
to find each other every lifetime somehow.
First in dreams, then awake,
finding the lost, every soul we take
rediscovering ancient bond,
for we are all the children of Gawn.

We solemnly nod to each other. There is an earthquake. The building collapses on us. I am killed instantly along with Poet and Aeona. Raven is crushed. She dies soon. MoSh crawls out of the rubble, with a broken body. He tries to dig through to find us. A calvary of Atlanteans rides through on dinosaurs, and kills MoSh with something like a Taser gun.

***

Raven and I are back in the Biodome.

"Holy shit!" I say.

"Holy shit is right!" Raven says.

I see Q flying around Raven. He is saying something to her, but I don't understand.

Raven says, "Q says it's time to find Angel, and train her in Dream Combat, even if her waking self does not remember."

"Okay, weird, let's do it."

"Contact Selene, her soul-twinner. She is going to do most of the training, at least in the beginning, then Angel will move on to Vegeta, Professor X, and Gawn."

***

I open a portal to Earth, in Angel's bedroom.

On the other side, there is a demonic angel watching over Angel. "Her dream body is not here, but her astral body is asleep. Would you like to dream with her astral body? I'll wake her up."

"No, her dream body."

"In that case, she is waiting for you at Stonehenge."

I portal to Stonehenge. I see Angel is bound on the stone, naked. She is screaming in terror. There are men in hooded robes with torches doing some druidic ceremony. I turn into Juargawn and leap upon the altar roaring fiercely.

"Ah, The Beast made manifest! We have summoned it! Kill it for it's power!"

The druids' hoods fall back. They are skeletons enwreathed in a ghostly green flame. I form an energy shield around Angel, and burn her bonds off. I grow a robe around her. I form a mace on my tail, and breathe fire, then spin in a circle, attacking the druids, as they attack me. I form a portal beneath Angel and I, and we are teleported to the Moon. I am carrying her in my arms. She is asleep. I set her down in the Biodome healing glen, and play my didjeridoo over her, healing her.

Selene, Raven, Washu, and Janet appear. Janet says, "We want to take her to the Sick Bay for observation." I nod. We teleport into the Sick Bay.

We are in a hospital room. A med droid reports:

"Illness due to infection of the dream body. Patient does not fend off attackers because of disbelief in self. Battle training recommended to prevent further infection."

I nod to the android. Washu places an android bug on Angel's third eye. "We can actually go into her unconscious mind, and train her from there, even while she is asleep," she explains. I look at Selene, and Selene nods.

I hold Selene's hand, and we jump into the bug.

We create a Colluseum in Angel's mind. Raven, MoSh, Silverwolf, Tigress, and Spike join us.

Angel is a red energy vampire. "WHY AM I HERE?" she demands.

"Training." Selene says simply. She tosses Angel a two bladed staff. "DEFEND YOURSELF."

Selene attacks relentlessly. Angel can barely keep up, but she defends every attack. Enraged, Angel sets he weapon ablaze. The fire burns across to Selene's weapon, and burns the staff. The blades fall to the ground.

Selene teleports away, and summons a meteor hammer. She wraps it around Angel's weapon, and yanks it from her grip.

"ROUND 1: Selene!," Q says.

"This is stupid!" Angel says. "Why am I here."

"Listen, you are going to keep getting attacked, unless you learn how to fight... bitch."

Angel turns her back, and walks away, but at the word "bitch" she morphs into a black lioness and lunges at Selene. Selene teleports on to her back, and rides her like a bucking bronco. Angel roars in anger.

"ROUND 2: Selene!" Q says.

Angel alters the dreamscape. She morphs it into a forest with a dark castle, and she stands on the balcony. Bats stream out of the castle toward Selene. Selene is riding a flat crescent moon, and is wielding a scythe. She spins it around, slicing the bats up. Angel's castle leaps up on strange robotic spider legs and eats Selene.

"ROUND 3: Angel. GAME: Selene."

"Two out of three. What a bunch of bullshit!" Angel says.

I see Professor X chuckling to himself.

End dream

Within 1 year Within 2 years Within 3 years

Good morning! This is my new long term goals list. I've thought alot about this, and this is what I would like to achieve in my dreams over the next couple of years.

1. Having Long Lucids - I need to make my lucids longer! The longest one I've had has only been about 3-4 minutes. To even be able to try the other things out, I need to learn how to make my lucids longer.
   
   
2. DEILD - Everytime I am about to wake up from a lucid dream, I will from now on, just lie still and try to go back into it. I definitely have to learn this, since my lucids aren't very long. And even if they do increase in length later on, I can accomplish so much more if I manage to do a DEILD.
   
   
3. Master Super Powers - This is something I really love, and want to do first to keep my spirit up while trying to get lucid more often. This includes mastering: Flying, Telekinesis, Explosions, Pyrokinesis, Super Strength. You name it.
   
   
4. Teleportation - I really need to learn how to teleport. If I want to explore the world, and not just get stuck in the random dream scenario I happen to become lucid in, this is a must.
   
   
5. Summoning - To summon an ally of some sorts, or just any kind of clothes, weapons or creatures. I aim to be able to have a companion later on, which I can call on and will help me out in my dreams.
   
   
6. Transformation - Transform into different kinds of things. This would be very cool, because I know from normal dreams that transforming does not only change appearance, but perspective and emotions. There's nothing cooler than being a bloodthirsty vampire or werewolf
   
   
7. MILD - Mastering this technique is my goal. I am already trying almost everyday with mantra work, meditation and positive thinking. I'm not sure I will master it within 3 years, but I think it is possible with hard work!
   
   
8. Become Good - I am a person who thinks logically, but I also care alot about those around me. This isn't the case in my dreams, since I know it's not real. I then unleash and do whatever I want. I just love the feeling of power and making people respect or fear me. I don't mind exploring and doing bad things in the beginning, but in time I would want to try to change my "dreamself" into a kind, loving and healing person.

That's it! I will do the first 3 at the same time while becoming lucid. First off stabilizing the dream and trying to keep a cool head, then master superpowers and do an L-DEILD when I wake up.

Please comment with any suggestions within any category or questions.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

This journey is getting ridiculous because I don't know whether I am doing things wrong or whether this is part of the whole process in order to get over some hump and have my body just relax into it.

Last night I went to bed at 11pm and set my clock for 5am. I couldn't get to sleep for what felt like 2 hours, but the whole time I was having these vivid and fantastic flashbacks to everything I had been doing in my life, ranging from age 7 to age 18. It was amazing, but it also felt inopportune. I know that I shouldn't attempt to WILD before getting at least 2-4 hours of sleep, so I wasn't exactly trying to get myself to transition into that state, but I was occasionally reaffirming my intention to recognize the dream state, which I think kept me conscious longer.

With this trouble falling asleep, I am also having trouble staying asleep. I will toss and turn throughout the night and I can't fall asleep as easily when I do find myself awakened mid-night. Before this journey, I would very systematically just fall asleep within 10-15 minutes of going to my bed, and then have the ability to drift off to sleep if I woke up after a REM period or something.

I think my alarm woke me up at 5am, but I didn't register that I was trying to CAN-WILD, so I just rolled over and tried to fall back asleep, which is the cardinal sin of CAN-WILD! Do not move when the alarm sounds! So, with that being said, I have school today so maybe I will be better distracted from this effort and will be able to just fall asleep more easily. Let's see what will happen, I'm excited!

Maybe WILD isn't for me, but I'm not giving up yet. When I finally get the access to post I will ask these questions in a forum.

How do I fall asleep quicker?
How do I WILD without giving myself the conscious intention to do?
Did others have this similar setback when they started a WILD Journey?

Dream 1-- High School Reunion

I 100% understand now that seeing anyone from my high school or being on that campus is a definite dream sign. The next time I see these things, I will become lucid and reality check.

In this dream, I am outside with all the other people from my grade and some younger. It's like everyone that I've ever known is there. We are sitting down in these metallic chairs and the moms/teachers are having us do these various activities. I remember seeing J. and Jeff Perkins and Giancarlo.

The dream is relatively long, but once again my WILDing journey is putting me in this situation where I am losing sleep, my dreams get more vivid and realistic, but my recall is diminishing. I'm trying to even this whole thing out but its relatively difficult since I'm only on day 4. I will get this down though!

In one part of the dream, we all stand up and get in a line to play a game that apparently we all know. The teachers call out some category of character like "Thief" and then we all have to complete some action. Most people don't know the action, and just sit down, but I try to play along like I know exactly what's going on, and it's me and two other people who don't get eliminated.

We move to the front of the line, right in front of some door. I'm last in the line behind Giancarlo, and a sophomore who always used to talk to me. They call out another category, and we have to sing a rhyme, which I don't know at all, and then strike this specific pose. I can't do either, but everyone else messes up as well, so we all lose.

Then I turn around and I'm PassObs, I see my crew coach trying to load a bunch of gear into the boat. He takes this huge load at first, but can't handle it all so he walks back. I'm not looking around or moving or trying to help. I'm literally like a stable tripod that is taking a consistent picture of the scene, but I have a lot of thoughts that personalize the situation. I'm thinking about helping him and calling out to him and making my way over to him, but then I contradict myself and keep myself sitting still and not doing anything.

He comes back with two wooden oars, and a megaphone. He walks all the way down this wooden dock to his white boat, and then drives off.

Dream 2-- Sexin Sydney

I only knew this girl because she the girlfriend of one of my friends. I can't say the girl in my dreams was actually this girl, but she is the closest resemblance in my head.

She and I are in this room together. There is a giant bed with nice sheets on one side of the room and these huge glass windows on the other side. It's a relatively small room, but all we really care about is the bed. We talk for a little bit, but then things start getting hot and heavy. I know I have a boner, and she starts rubbing it, and it feels really good. She takes off my pants, and starts BJing me, but then this thought enters my head like 'if she keeps doing this for too long, I'll end up cumming too soon' so I push her head off of me, but then another thought enters my head like 'if I don't penetrate her soon enough, I will lose my erection and everything will be totally messed up.

So I quickly try to take off some of her clothes, pants first. I get those off and already notice i'm losing my hard-on. This is kinda disappointing me because I really want to F this girl, especially in a dream! One of my goals is to have dream-sex, lucid or not! I'm totally limp, we can't do it. I'm disappointed, she's disappointed. And then she makes a comment about how we shouldn't have smoked weed before this and how weed will do that to me. At first, I didn't even remember smoking weed, but then I felt totally guilty and stupid because I probably had smoked weed and that I had known that weed could do this to me and was most likely the culprit.

So we just lay together for a bit. We talk a little, but I feel a surge of thoughts rush into my head, and I turn PassObs relatively quickly. She is next to me, and I'm not saying anything or what I'm saying is kind of hurtful. She moves a little bit away and now I feel super awkward and I'm beating myself up for not being able to F her and smoking weed and saying the wrong thing. I want to cry, but instead I just wake up.


Hazy recall tonight, my ability to fall asleep and stay asleep is getting worse. Maybe I need to read some more articles or just relax about the whole WILD thing

I'm in an airplane with someone. I think it's Queen Latifah. She wants to surprise a friend in another plane. We're in the cock pit and she starts driving the plane towards the other one her friend is in, and before I know it, she's somehow entered this plane from the back,while we're still in the other plane. I worry that she won't be able to fit the wings of our plane in, but they make it through. (Hello? In a plane, entering another plane? How did that not trigger some sort of lucidity or at least a momentary thought of "hmm...this sure is strange" ??) We make it to the cock pit of the plane we've entered and her friend sees us, but she's mad because we should NOT be in our plane while on another plane. She takes us outside and starts lecturing Latifah that she's already had two warnings and this is her third.....Latifah is upset and feels foolish. Her friend is writing everything down, in Latifah's file maybe.

I'm waiting with someone to go on a ride, not sure if it's an airplane or a roller coaster. I'm wearing summer clothes. We get outside because it's our turn, but the rain is so heavy that it's hard to breathe and we skip our turn.

I'm talking to my half-brother. He's saying the blonde (who looks like Stephanie Pratt from The Hills) is not really his sister. He says his dad and her mom just fucked. I tell him that's not very different from how our Dad and his mom met. Maybe they were in love, but they never married or anything, and he considers me his sister, so what's the difference? I tell him to grow up and stop being so immature, because in fact, all three of us are siblings.

I'm looking at some sort of passport. Ben Affleck is on one of the pages.

Got a lucid dream for my birthday. Just wish it would have been a more pleasant one. Usually, I will count false awakenings as separate dreams, but since this is all so continuous, and had such a "dreams within dreams" feeling, I will count it as one.

11/15/2010
"Arachnoception"

(I had just gotten a copy of Inception, and decided to watch it, last night, while going to bed, to try to induce something Inception-related. I got more than I bargained for...)

I can barely remember the early parts of this dream, but I was driving through DeLand, with Josh. We were taking the road that passes the landfill, on the way back over to my side of town. For some reason, we had to take a detour through the landfill. While driving through it, we apparently stumbled onto some kind of criminal(?) element, and were dragged out of the car, at gunpoint. We were taken inside, and the only thing I remember here, is that I was in what I think was a bathroom, and I got attacked by some creature. It was about the size of a rat, and I believe its body wasn't actually organic. It seemed to be something of a shell, made out of what I think was a child's toy. From within the object, spider-leg-like tendrils protruded, which served as both legs and powerful pincers. It reminded me a lot of the creeping coffins, from Lords of Shadow (which I have been playing, lately). I had to fight like hell, to keep this thing off of me, but eventually got away from it. Not much longer, after that, the cops showed up and raided the compound, starting a huge firefight. In the fray, we were able to escape, and I vaguely remember a small dog being killed, in the fight.

The next thing I knew, I was waking up, in my bed. It was still night out, and Inception was still playing, on my computer. After a moment, I stepped out of bed, and I was immediately ambushed by the "creeping toy" creature, from the dream. It came from out of nowhere, and ran up my leg, biting and scratching with its pincher/legs. This thing fought with all the ferocity of a rabid squirrel, and I could not get it off of me. My leg was getting mangled by the little creature, and it hurt like Hell.

Once again, though, I woke up in my bed. The pest from the dream was nowhere in sight. However, this time, I got out of bed and was met with a dull pain in my leg. Switching on the light, I saw that my leg had bruises in like 6 different places, and it was throbbing. My muscles were progressively tightening, and I could instantly tell that there was venom running through it. I was so confused, though. I knew it had to have been a dream. Right? Hobbling out of bed, I made my way over to my mom's side of the house, surprised to see that she was up this early. My leg was growing worse, when I showed her, dark black spots showing up, and the skin tightening, to where you could start to see the shapes of the tendons. She kind of shrugged it off, and said it would be ok if I just didn't mess with it. More bewildered about the whole thing, than anything else, I just walked back to my room and went back to bed.

And, once again, I awoke in my bed. The pain in my leg was gone, as was any sign of the bruises. So, naturally, I assumed that it had all just been a dream. But, again, just as I stepped out of bed, I was attacked by the creature from the "previous dream." It scurried up through my robe, and around my back. It never bit me, this time, but its steps were like thousands of thick, fingernail jabs, themselves, scrambling all around the upper part of my body. I was able to get a hold of the thing and grab its "legs," holding them open so that they couldn't form the pincers that they had, before. This thing was strong, like a tiny bear trap, but I held the tendrils open, again making my way to show it to my mom. By this time, I didn't know WTF was going on, and I just wanted to know that I wasn't going crazy. On my way out of my room, I passed my pet dog...oblivious to the fact that I don't actually have a pet dog. I did, however, think that it was strange that I recognized the dog as the little dog who'd gotten killed, in the "first dream." Unfortunately, I already had my hands full, and I didn't stop long enough to realize this as a dream sign. Instead, I took the creature over to my mom's room to show her. She looked down at my hands, then back up at me, then back down at my hands. She said..."that's just dead skin," with a confused look of concern on her face. I looked down, and saw that she was right. I was just holding a handful of what looked like gator hide.

By this time, I thought I'd completely lost my mind. Apparently, my mom did, too. She cocked an eyebrow at me and said "Uhh...I have some pills or something...if you need them?" implying that she was afraid I'd completely cracked. Puzzled beyond all hope, I just turned around and walked back to my room. I kept thinking about Inception, and maybe that the idea had somehow been planted into my mind that this spider-thing existed, when it really didn't. I just felt really defeated by my lack of understanding of the whole thing, and just went back to sleep.

The next thing I knew, it was the middle of the day. I was talkin with some guys I was unfamiliar with, who my mom had let into the house. Throughout the time they were here, we'd gotten into smoking and they informed me that they sold. We pretty much just hung around the house for a while, and I tried telling them about the dreams I'd been having lately, about the crazy little monster thing. Nobody seemed all that interested, though. Later, those guys and I were heading out somewhere. We'd gotten into the car, when one of them said he left something inside the house, tossing a huge bag of weed into the car, before walking back to get whatever it was. I kept yelling at him to hurry up, because I didn't want to be just sitting here, with the huge sack in the car. He was just taking his sweet time, and it was annoying the hell out of me.

Of course, just as I was beginning to suspect there might be cops nearby, I heard "WOOP-WOOP," a siren barking at us from behind. I actually can't remember if I was driving or not, but we sped off, down the road, the cops chasing us. We were driving in a slick sports car, and just hauling ass, but they were catching up. (Been playing a bit of Grand Theft Auto, also. Haha.) The guy next to me started freaking out, and dumping all kinds of contraband out the window - everything from weed to small bags of cocaine, which I didn't even know were in the car. In a quick, 3rd-person view, I saw the white powder blowing all over the people on the sides of the road. It was actually pretty hilarious. Suddenly, back in first-person, I got an idea. We pulled over, and I waited for the cops to come within a stone's-throw from our tail, before chucking a bag of coke at their windshield, at the last moment. It blotted out most of the glass, and they ended up swerving to miss our car, and crashing into some nearby pedestrians. Then, for the first time, after all of this chaos, I realized just how absurd all of this actually was. I realized that this had to be a dream.

The other guy in the car was still freaking out, telling me that we had to get the hell out of here. I just laughed and told him to relax, stepping over to the crashed police SUV. Gathering all my strength, I reached a fist up over my head and swung it downward, trying to destroy the engine block, like I'd done to other cars, while lucid. This time, though, I was only able to dent the hood. It was a little more superhuman than waking life, but not what I expected. I tried a few more times, swinging heavy punches at the hood and grille, but I couldn't get anymore damage than about what a baseball bat might have done. Needless to say, I wasn't very happy with this. I was determined, though. I kept thinking that the cops might try to shoot me, through the windshield, but I was already prepared to either dodge the bullets, or just let them hit me. Thinking that there had to be some other way to get through to the engine, the idea just kind of struck me: A light-saber! I had never created one, while lucid, so I figured that this would be a good time to try. Holding my hands up, beside me, as if gripping a sword, I tried to materialize the weapon out of thin air, imaging it growing to length. Nothing happened, though. The dream was very vivid, and I was having a hard time controlling it.

As if by my cue, the cop in the passenger seat held up a blue light-saber of his own, grinning behind the powder-covered windshield. Now even more determined to have one, I made a motion as if it was already in my hand, stabbing directly at the grille, while trying hard to visualize the weapon coming into existence. Finally, I saw the orange glow. The tip of the blazing saber burned into the grill like it was paper, eating through the metal and sinking further into the engine block. I gave a quick tug of my arms, drawing the blade sideways and widening the hole, completely putting the truck out of commission. My accomplice and I then hopped back in the car and prepared to take off again, but instead, I simply woke up, for real.

After a few reality checks - which I should have done, the first few times I 'woke up' - I got up and started jotting notes down.

(This felt like a B6-enhanced dream - very vivid and chaotic - but I didn't take any B6 before bed. Most likely, it was the Reese's Cups I ate, late last night. It would have been nice to just have had a bad-ass lucid, but all that shit with the spider-creature-thing just made the whole thing unpleasant. It was still early as hell, but I didn't bother going back to sleep, after this one.)

15/10/2010 WBTB WILDish still a little gap

lying down on left side with arm under head after 15 mins energy work on back.

drifted into a work dream, was there with a mate and we laughed about this massive long truck that someone was gonna have to try to drive round the yard. went inside and had to sit a test with odd questions such as bushs involvement on 911 and prizes of vouchers for milkshake. realised i didnt work there anymore so got lucid and asked my mate if he wanted to go and do something fun. he was pretty unresponsive which worked out well as i got the chance to just sit there and study the surroundings. was so real down to the fluttering of the papers pinned to the wall.

i tried to get fixed into the dream by studying the visuals and then decided it was time to try to hold the visuals while trying to wake up as slow as possible to try to find the borderline between awake and dreaming. started to get a subtle but beautiful buzzing feeling as the dream seemed to get realer and yet fade at the same time as if i was splitting my consciousness. my vision started to fade, but mostly in one eye, as if reality was in one eye and the dream in the other.

after losing the dream in one eye i tried to go back into it and was there straight away. normally when i sit in a dream and try to take it further or learn something, this is when the bizzare imagery pops in and also sometimes when frightening things start to happen as if to put me off. this happened again and my mate also got a little odd as if he was warning me but unlike past attempts this time the efforts were laughably helpless to stopping me. its like you change from concentrating your vision on the whole image and the image splits into many parts all of which your brain tries to concentrate on at the same time. this is usually off putting but this time it was easy to ignore it and try to find the gap between wake and sleep. finally tried to learn something again while lucid even though i initially just wanted to 'go do something fun' again