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The first thing I could remember is becoming a helper at a kid's school. An instructor escorted me to the room filled with young kids between ages five and ten. This classroom was very small and had an irregular shape. I noticed that the floor had black and white square shaped tiles. I stared at the floor and only felt a sense of calmness enter inside of me. The classroom was filled with about ten kids but I don't recall any of their faces. I do remember walking around the classroom observing it. I did feel a little optimistic working with these children. Then I woke up.

Suddenly I find myself in a maze. To be more precise, it is a kind of bridges that are interconnected but at different levels. From those bridges I can see a sort of plateau that extends to the horizon and is blocked by a huge mountain. I try to climb from a bridge that is on the bottom to one that is at a higher level, but a series of wires do not let me move. It's then that I see that the top of the mountain explodes and a shower of stones begins to fall on adjacent buildings. I fear that at any moment one of these stones can beat me. Suddenly a huge rock the size of a building is coming straight at me and hit nearby buildings demolishing them. In these moments the dream switches to third person because I'm not in the scene, but it's like watching a movie. Everything happened quickly and I wake up with a choking sensation.

Dreamed: 23.12.12 Written: 23.12.12

I was sitting in front of my computer monitor, and from what I remember, it looked as if I was only seeing the screen, which was quite higher and wider then normal, and nothing other than the monitor.
I was looking at the clock in the bottom right of the screen, and the time seemed, odd.
I don't remember what time the clock was saying it was, I think it might've said "4:00 am", and I found it very odd.
"Why am I not asleep yet? I have school tomorrow! and actually, I think I actually did go to sleep!"
This was confirmed after I noticed that the time was completely different each time I looked at the clock.
After blinking for a few seconds trying to make the time change, I decided to close my eyes and not open them at all.
Everything was black and empty, much like closing my eyes in waking life.
I closed my eyes intentionally, for I wanted to create a new scene.
I wasn't very aware in this dream, and my waking life recall was almost non-existent, so I don't think I tried creating anything particular.
I just started thinking of a certain girl I really like, and I started seeing her face in the dark void, slowly becoming a rather real and colorful picture of her.
I don't remember anything else, I am pretty sure I just went on to a regular dream, and lost awareness completely.
Or I might've just woken up.

I guess this experience just further shows me that memories infused with emotions are far stronger than "normal" memories, though I guess there aren't really a "normal" type of memories, because every memory is infused with something subjective.
But I will try to "infuse" memories I want to remember in my lucid dreams with strong emotions from now on.
I hope It'll help.

12.23.12
Here is the dream I had last night involving the old boyfriend I dream about frequently. I woke up today less anxious and more expentant than usual.
I'm in a house that is also a school, I am the same age as I am now. I am interacting with an older man aho is known for his temper and has a history of assaulting women. I manage to have a benign conversation with him and am unharmed. I am recounting this story to my Mom when he man walks into the room we are in (the kitchen, yellow curtains, small retro table and one stool by the window) and heads in our direction. At that moment bf also appears, walks over to Mom and I. I reach to hold his hand but the other man attempts to prevent that. Bf pushes the man's hand away and holds my hand.
The scene changes to a group of us outside (I do not recognize any of the people from my real-awake life), sitting and standing on the steps to the house/school discussing a mission we must go on. Bf is not wearing a shirt and has put his arms around me protectively. The scene again changes to us all making various enterences to our mission site. There is a large airplane-like structure "docked" on a muted grey platform that has 3 riser-steps and trees. People are exiting the structure and are walking around the platform, where there are small pools and buffet tables. My "team" is sneaking around the platform. We have to be cautious because Jason Bateman is there ans he will recognize us. We start to leave when I realize I have to find bf. I tell everyone that he's wearing a yellow shirt and I need to find him because I haven't kissed him yet.
I search for him outside of the platform area and run into 2 guy friends from high school (that I haven't seen or talked to since graduation over 15 years ago). We all hug. They ask about the dome and platform and if its worth waiting in line to go in. They decide not to wait. I turn and see bf walking down a hallway but I can't get his attention. I find the last member of my team and we head back to the house/school through a secret bathroom stall. Bf is waiting for me when we return. He pulls me into an embrace and we finally kiss.

Thoughts or comments??!!??!!
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12.22.12
In the past year I started having dreams about an old boyfriend I dated right before I met my husband. Usually the dreams involve the bf just being present, sometimes we kiss, other times we converse casually. These dreams always prompt old memories and I end up feeling anxious for the next few weeks. The most recent dream was much more real than any of the others.
In my dream its daytime and the bf and I are the living room of a house I've never been in. I'm wearing a bath robe and jeans. We are holding each others arms and I say to him "I think about you a lot". He says "I know". I ask "How could you possibly know that?" and he replies "I know you". Next I'm sitting in an arm chair and he's leaning over me in a protective stance. At that time my husband walks in the room and I say something.
What does this all mean?? Do I miss the bf? Do his memories provide something I'm not getting in marriage!!??

[Trying to get them out of the way, a lot of less detailed fragments from the month of December, all put into one post. And I thought there were more of them, but there only turn out to be three ... and last night's very short bits.]

12-23-2012 -- [Very poor and short night of sleep, afraid there wasn't much from this.] Very fragmented, but it was a Harry Potter dream taking place away from Hogwarts. At one point earlier in the dream, I was in a 'reality' where Dobby was my elf (I was Harry Potter, BTW) and to allow us to communicate easily during the summer without having to allow elf popping in a muggle area, Dumbledore gave Dobby an e-mail address to keep in contact with me, and Dobby was really, really excited about it.

At times in the dream, I spent a lot of time at home feeling sick and just mostly laying around in bed, and eating or drinking boring food. Nothing at all exciting, except the times that I would end up falling out of bed. [Hope this, combined with the very poor night of sleep, isn't telling me I really am coming down sick!]

Later in the dream, two other unusual bits ... for one thing, I was in a different reality, where Dobby was not actually my elf, but had become a Hogwarts elf (like in the actual books) and I needed his help. Calling him didn't cause him to appear, so I was thinking of using the e-mail for him, even though it was given in a different world, but I couldn't find the e-mail anywhere, because I kept having to wipe my computer and reinstall everything. [True to life. Will be replacing or repairing computer within a day or two.]

And secondly, in this particular reality, Lucius Malfoy was serving as a sort of wizarding mentor, watching over me. In this dream, Lucius was neither completely good or evil, but much more complex than that. But I had to ask him why his son didn't have any of his Slytherin qualities, as was such an absolute berk, and he admitted he despaired of Draco ever becoming what he ought to be!

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12-13-2012 -- I'm out in a desert area, a long way from home. When I am ready to go home, I just kind of lean back, as if sitting on nothing, then just kind of drift along invisible on-ramps to invisible highways as I fly along non-existent roadways at high speed. No spells or anything, I just kind of tell my magic what I want it to do, and it does it.

I come to a major city, and find a friend of mine, and tell him about it, but no matter what, he just refuses to believe me, so I finally have to just leave him there as I zip off on my invisible whatever it is.

I end up visiting with Kevin B and his family for a little bit, then go on to a slightly spooky hotel. I am running around going up and down elevators and the like to find myself in a dingy back room somewhere. the place is frightening, as are the people, but I'm just here to pick up a dog, so I ought to be able to avoid any trouble.

I head into the back room, where Tucker is running around on the floor, but when I try to pick him up, he backs away and growls at me. I can sense there is something wrong, and speak up about it, but the unfriendly lady working here tells me there is nothing wrong, and to take my darn dog.

I reach for him again, and he's still growling and fussing as another lady walks in the door with another Bijon in her arms. She was given the wrong dog, and assured all was good. But she wants her dog back. Tucker jumps out of her arms and runs over to me, while I glare at the lady who tried to force the wrong dog on me.

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Somewhere around the 8th or 9th of December -- Earlier parts all faded away, but I am walking down the street somewhere, and I've been visiting with Sirius, and have just sent him walking down the street with somebody (perhaps Fleur?), planning to catch up with them a few minutes later.

There is a large half-giant female who suddenly turns into a full giant, with a name of Fredrica, perhaps? I think it might be Hagrid's mother. Somehow we're trying to keep things safe and sane.

That is, until I find myself walking into a classroom setting with Dumbledore in the front of the room, and we are playing all kinds of horrible tricks and pranks on him, before doing even worse to him because of all he's let happen to Harry.

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12-11-2012 -- There's just a little hint of a scene here, standing outside a gas station somewhere, preparing to do a mystery shop, then suddenly the scene changes.

I am suddenly in a cavern deep in the heart of Mammoth Cave, in a deep portion of the cave that few people have ever reached. I am in an area with a river or a lake, but I think it may be a river or lake of acid.

Suddenly there is a huge red dragon in the air above me. Somehow I am swinging the dragon, half in chains by swinging the chains, and half just mentally holding it and swinging it around. I am using it to brush red push pins off the walls of the cavern, but somehow I also bump it against the ceiling, which is bringing some rocks down on top of me.

Soon I am doing enough damage that it shakes large areas of the cave, and the river suddenly triples in size with much more 'water' pouring through, leading to worries that I may have flooded myself, until a portion of the floor collapses, and the water all just flows away into an even lower section of the cave. Short, but neat.

Don't remember much about first part of the dream, only that i was searching through some video game collection for an specific game, and eventually found it. It was part 3 of some game, but the reason i was searching it apparently was because that game contained other game, 'Spyro 2' for free for some reason, launchable from main menu.
So i did launched it and was on the first level, there was no intros or cutscenes or anything, which was very unlike the original level(I have actually played that game IRL ages ago), it was some outdoors area, closed off on all sides and with an single NPC in it. There was nothing else, it looked deserted. Then i started thinking that i don't really want to actually play it today for some reason, so just started to mess around trying to break the level. Which was mostly involved trying to fly over the map boundaries, which eventually led player character to be stuck in some sort of distorted hallway off the map, with no way out as well. Slightly disappointed i turned the game off.
Then i went to the school to check something out, there was nobody in there, and apparently, there was the entrance near the school similar to that distorted hallway in game. So i entered it and was searching for something in sort of distorted maze for quite a while. Eventually i got bored and exited maze, there was familiar people outside this time though, so i kinda went inside the school. There was some people bullying someone and asking someone: 'Why he is not crying?'. I got towards them and beaten them up and now they was running away while crying, and i shout at them: 'Crying, huh? Crying is for weak!', in a totally badass tone, then i wake up.

There is not alot to tell here. I posted last time about seeing my father in a dream and getting lucid because he is now deceased. I decided to name my father as a dream sign. I will dream of him often enough but will never runinto him IRL.

Last night it worked perfectly, with one flaw. I was dreaming when my father said something. BAM! Instant lucidity. I made the connection, realized it was a dream and became fully lucid. The only flaw was that because I miss my father I immediately got kind of excited and totally forgot to stabilize until it was too late. I was only lucid for about a minute when things started to fail, so I started slapping my palms against my thighs, but I woke up anyways.

The new idea I have is to program my brain to RC any time I talk with anyone after I have gone to bed. If I am talking with 'anyone' when I should be sleeping, then of course I am dreaming. It is not practicle for begginers, but I want to play with the idea.

Bedtime: Midnight 5MG Melatonin. Some amount of RUM.

Wake 4:30AM
Meditation 15 min.
1 cup strong green tea caffeinated.
Back to Bed at 5:00AM
Tech: WILD


#109 Damned Rainbow Demon 5:30AM

During WILD I get strong HI/HH. I am driving in the country in the fall. The leaves are changing colors. Weezer's Dreamin is playing quietly in the background... on the radio? I hear birds chirping. Then I notice that the birds begin to sound distorted and electronic like some sort of strange robot bird. Now I realize I am in the dream totally. I say to my self, "It's go time." But now I am back in my bed with vibrations.

I wake for a bit. My hands feel like they are floating up on there own volition. I rub them. The sensation feels ultra real but a little like I lost circulation. I easily get up. It feels so real that for a moment I think I am really wake. I ignore that thought and just go with it. Then, the sheet feel wrapped around me funny. I pull it out from under me like I was swaddled. I stand up. It is dark and I feel that I just need to open my dream eyes but I open my real eyes and see the dark room where I am laying in bed still. Shocked, I wake a little.

DEILD

I am back in bed with vibrations again. This time I am more focused. I easily get up out of bed and stand. Again it feels ultra real. I can see the light coming from around the edges of the door and lighting the floor. The rest of the room is dark. I hear this strange sound like an evil electronic raspberry noise. I become gripped with fear. The source of the sound is coming from my wife's side of the bed. I know that it's the Rainbow Demon and worry that it will attack me again. I point to the sound and say, "NO!". Suddenly, it stops.

Still afraid I rush out of the room and slam the door behind me. Let out a sigh of relief. The fear doesn't leave me so I rush to the front door to go outside. On the way I see some blankets on the floor. Fully distracted now, I think how we just cleaned for company before bed and wonder how and why there are blankets. I stoop to grab them quickly but I fall. I land on the floor hard! Then, the floor gives and I fall through it into totally darkness. I wake up. I try to DEILD again but nothing happens right away so. I record the dream before I fall back to sleep.


Sometimes I think there is something that wants to keep me in the house. I need to remember to just phase through the bedroom window and be done with all of that. I spend to much energy just getting out of bed and then the house becomes a pitfall. Hmm....

Non-Dream
Dream
Lucid

I was at an amusement park with a group getting ready for a backstage tour of a roller coaster. We start towards the roller coaster and I realize I'm dreaming when I think that I could just fly to get there faster. I jump to to fly thinking of my lucid goal to swim with dolphins. I started trying to spin to fly faster to teleport myself while at the same time thinking about a tropical destination. It was tough to spin at first but with enough will power I was able to spin rapidly. I was flying at lightspeed at this point with the clouds flying past me in a circular blur. I started to fly back down, expecting I've arrive at my destination. As I made my way through the cloads I noticed two tropical deserted islands. I was short of them which was perfect. I dove in the warm water expecting dolphins to be there. Shortly after, a small dolphin about the size of myself swam up close to me. I grabbed it's dorsal fin and let it gently pull me around the water for a bit. After I was finished, a second one swam up close to me. I thought it might be bigger but it was about the same size. I pet it, amazed by the realistic feel of it's skin. I woke up.

Camping with sister and her friend. I leave to go see my girlfriend and we go on a trip to China. We go to see the tallest building in China, which is the tallest building in America. It turns out its the apartment complex of her father and I go visit him. He's pretty remote, we don't speak each others language. We don't make it to the top, instead I meet her friend and she wants me to go with her to the store. I want to go so I get in my car but she wants to ride the bike like everyone does in China. I say okay but figure I should ask my gf first. She's at the campsite though which is far away so I run to get her. When I get there, she's with my friend. They had smoked weed. I ask my sister if she wants to stay at the campsite or at her friends house which is up the road. She wants to go to her friends but her friend wants to go to the site. It's beautiful, right on a big lake.

In another dream, I am a different person. I live in an apartment complex. It's late and there is some partying. Someone dies. They die because I neglected them. The girl complained of a cold. I told her to go to the hospital. I then left. After I left, she died.

Non-Lucid

(I really should have caught this one, in fact I think I did but just ignored it )
Anyways I was in the dream walking around my school with my friends from gym, S, I, and M. As we were walking around I saw several potions left on the imaginary counters around the school. I think I drank them all but I don't remember what they did up until the last one which was a potion to increase flirting ability. So of course my dream self drank it and I tested it out on M. Sadly to no avail. Anyways the dream continued with my failing attempts to flirt possibly distracted by S. We kept walking along until we reached the only carpeted area in the school. We did something there I don't remember what, and then an alarm went off. I immediately noticed that the alarm sounded much different than before and thought that it much be serious. I got outside and some buses were leaving so we thought that we could just leave before the end of the day. I ended up getting a ride from my friends from my church and we discussed how weird the previous events were.

Dream started out - my two friends Talena and Amy were fighting, breaking up. They were employees in a huge sit-down buffet kind of restaurant. Amy was at the register, Talena was wearing a red apron like she was a server. (IRL they are both managers at a fast food place).

Then the dream changed and I was watching 3 girls get ready for a party of some kind. They were getting dressed like it was the prom, but it wasn't, was just a pool party at someones house. I didn't know anyone at the pool party/house, but I was there. This is where is gets strange. Some kids at this party were practicing dream control, levitation, throwing energy, wielding a sword, different things. In the pool in the back were a few couples making out, and one in particular forcing himself on another person who didn't want it. I remember thinking in the dream that I was in the dreamviews forum. The house, the pool, the people were the forum. I'm in the house. In walks some one who looks like (has taken on the resemblance of) the late Patrick Swayze, wearing some kind of armor. "Patrick" starts getting angry at some of the party goers, saying people were in danger and needed to be out of there. He conjures up a shiny black wall and it appears between the house and the pool where some kids are still in the pool, and now they cant get back in the house. We hear banging from the outside of the wall. People in the house now crank up the music and colored lights are flashing, party gets going good. I am suddenly in a bedroom, I'm laying horizontal looking at the ceiling - but I don't think I was on a bed, I was just floating in a supine position. On the ceiling was this young fellow with orange and blond streaked, spiked hair who was throwing down sticky web like stuff from his hands, down at me. He thought he was hurting me and he was really getting off on it, but he wasn't hurting anybody. He was laughing hysterically, nothing but scared, sad vibes, hungry and lonely. I remember grabbing some of the "web strings" and rising up, getting in his face saying "All you have to do is be honest with yourself and the rest will follow."

Then I woke up, I'm in my bed. I remember doing a check, to see if I was awake and low and behold I was not. I didn't want a cigarette, so I knew I was still dreaming.

So, I'm out of the second level of dreaming, in the first level, and I'm dreaming of my dog (that died in 2000) named Tina, she was a huge grey Schnauzer. I'm driving a grey silver car and shes in the back seat and we are going to help a 4-5 year old girl who needs kindergarten education curriculum. Then I woke up. Wanting a cigarette

ok, no dream recall again but ...

earlier today I thought "I'd do what I spontainiously did yesterday". So, I made a fist, then slowly relaxed my fist, waiting to (imaginarily) feel a little imaginary, wrigley, furball manifesting inside the hollow of my fist, (hehehe), tickles.

Buckello poked his cute little head out and sniffed the air.

He's like Stare Trek Voyger's Chief Medical Officer "Hologram".

I just search for something that hollogram said on lastnights Star Trek Voyger about totaly ceasing to exist each time he's turned off. Coulden't find it. HA! foung this instead ...

Song of Hologram by -Bob Picardo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrCl...e_gdata_player
(2:26) 536 view

hahaha I will imagine my Buckello poking his cute, white little head out of my hollow-fist and singing that Youtubr at meeeee hahaha ...

here is some of the words i imagine my little "Tulpa" mouse saying to me:

Robert Picardo sings his "Song of hologram" song.

I find as I slog
my way through the mud
of a world clogged
with creatures of flesh and blood

that my photons and force fields draw fire

from you jeolous organics
who suffer from panics

before you can blink
you'll all be extinct

and my kind will the Cosmos aquire

(00:22)

But I Am what I AM
a superb hologram

don't hate me because I'm superior

(00:33) ...

hahaha - more lyrics of the above Youtube later.

My Buckello is the kind of hologram Robert Picardo is singing about.

any way

my ability to concentrate and stay with Buckello (Tulpa) is sooo weak that I soon realised that I need to put him somewhere safe or he is kind of forgotten and lost as i think and do other stuff.

so I whent back to "seeing" him and watched him come out of the "hollo-of-my-fist" and sit on the back of my hand, sniffing-the-air.

I remember another "Tulpa" owner here on DV saying "I got to feed my Tulpa" so I imagined a grain off light appear on my right finger-tip.

I offered it to Buckello who was on the back of my left hand.

he leaned forward (on all fours) to sniff it. Then left it alone to think about it. Then he snatched the grain of light with his little hands, sat-up on his haunches and nibbles on the grain of light.

as he did he began to glow.

then

spontainiously

I put my cupped left hand over the glowing shape of my tiny white mouse and let my hand slowely close over him, sort-off pushing him into my physical hands.

Spontainiously

(imaginarily)

both my hands began to glow.

so Tulpa is saftly in my hands until I make a fist and urge him out.

then after a little play-time I will offer him a grain of white light then cover him and merge him "home" into mt hands.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Wow, it's been way too long since my last LD and I had almost forgotten how awesome it felt. Had a few beers last night and because I had had way too much to drink a few nights before, I got some pretty heavy REM rebound. Had many vivid dreams alongside the LD. It wasn't much, but it was pure joy the few seconds it lasted.

01.30: Sleep

06.00: TK DILD
I'm high up on a cliff in my old neighbourhood. I'm not sure who's with me, but I give him a shove and as he falls off the cliff, he takes me with him. I turn around in mid air and focus all my will to find a soft landing spot so that I won't die. "Wait a second, I'm dreaming!" I say out loud and all fear is gone. I land neatly on the ground and look at the guy next to me. "I guess I'll do this then" I say and wave with my hand. The garage door slams shut. "And this! I put my hand out and make the car slide. My joy of finally getting to play with telekinesis again reflects upon the other guy. "Or you can do this!" I aim at a barrow hanging on the wall and it starts spinning like crazy. We both laugh and run to the back of the house where the dream begins to fade.

09.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 8 hours

Supplements: Alcohol

That's it! I had another LD a few dreams before that, but it was barely worth remembering, I looked at a big tower and I got lucid, that's it.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!