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I was going for some past life stuff but I couldn't quite get the lucidity going until much later. The LD I had I lost lucidity a couple of times and the dream felt unstable so I went for the basic TOTM.


Fragments

#1 The clock says 5:90. I find this very suspicious.

#2 I am in a small Medieval or maybe a Colonial village setting but it feels like some sort of game or a simulation of sorts. I know I don't belong here; just viewing something.

#3 The home button feels broke on my phone. I think this might be a dream but wake up immediately

NLDs

#1 I am in a restaurant that looks like the old Dairy Queen from TX. There is this guy with a bullet hole and blood printed on a shirt with a large peace sign. The guy looks a lot like Mike Ehrmantraut from Breaking Bad. I don't really know his name but I know him as a BB character. I say hi to him and he reply but his voice sounds odd. I end up having a short conversation with him and ask him if his shirt has anything to do with the season finally. I tell him to don't tell me because we are only in season 3 right now and have a lot of watching to do. He asks how we like it and I said it was a very addicting show from the start.
Then we started acting out an impromptu skit with some random people from The Walking Dead. I was finding it amusing that we had a pretty good skit going. Then someone says something about a "shining city" and another guy starting singing those words. It sounds so ridiculous and out of place that we all start laughing until I wake up.

#2 For some reason I am moving in with my parents in some version of their old house. I am trying to find a fenced in area that my dog wont get out of. We try to use the garage from another old house but there are holes in the wall. We try another area of the back yard but it's no good. I look at the clock in my car and it's 7:40. I realize I am late for work.

#3 I am in a hospital with some old man. Everyone leaves me with him and I have to watch him. He wakes up and motions for me to come close. When I do he jams his palm into my nose and runs around. He is now wearing a spider-man costume and is swinging from the lights. I grab him and pull him down. Then I smack the emergency button and pin him down so he can't move. I hear the nurse answer and I say, "Sorry I didn't know what to do but he was running around thinking he was Spider-man so I pinned him down. I need some help."
Then I am with a nurse and feeling sad. She is saying something comforting but also putting a wetted diaper in my face wanting me to smell it. I turn away.
Now I am in a hotel room with my parents and younger sister. The time is 6:40 and I feel a strong urge to leave. I say I feel bored. I look at my phone and there is some picture app that makes the pictures look 3D and morph as I thumb through. I find this odd but don't think too much about it. Then I say, "Hey, I have my own car and own money. I'm just going to leave now." My sister protest but doesn't say anything I can comprehend. I get up and go to the bathroom. I feel exhausted like I didn't sleep all night. I worry that I will get too sleepy on the long drive so I decide my first stop is to get some McDonalds coffee. I turn to look in the mirror but wake up.

#236 - DILD - 7:30AM

I see several people building docks on a narrow part of a lake along a grassy bank. I have a large stack of boards and want to make my own but I am too close to the others. My father in law suggests that I build further down that way I can make mine longer to reach the deeper parts for diving in. The lake opens up into a really large body of water farther to my left so I try to meet some place just on the edge of the narrow part but not too far into the open water. I somehow throw out the boards connected with thick rope and run out along the narrow floating dock. It's a little difficult to keep balance and I have to put my arms out to hold steady as I run out to the end. I jump in the water but its only waist deep. I realize that the dock is too long and almost reaches the other side so I take off a few boards and adjust the ropes. I begin having difficulty with the knots. While I struggle with that some men on horses come out into the water. They seem like Calvary men from the 1800's. We have a brief conversation but I don't recall what was said. I check the water depth and it is now above my head. I am bare foot and can feel that bottom is silky smooth mud. A large fish brushes my leg. I notice I am breathing under water and freak out a little that this is not right. I get back on the dock to test things out and jump in. Again I notice that I can breath underwater. This time it triggers lucidity but I am blind. I feel like the water is really too muddy to see.

I wake a little here and fall back into the same dream.

I pull myself out of the water along the bank. My younger sister is there with my dog on a leash talking to some old lady. The old lady says something to me as I walk by but I ignore her. I have to climb through a small tree with thorns but it hurts me too bad. I remember this is a dream and if I just push through believing it won't hurt then it won't. I prove myself right but after I get through I forget about lucidity.

The dock looks way different now. It's almost like a water park now with gates like its some sort of ride. I assume the other gates and docks belong to the other people. I see my gate and there is some handwritten sign on it but I don't stop to read it. I do notice the lettering is fluorescent pink and green. I pause at the end of my dock and the lake looks more like a pool now. I feel a bit of confusion at this but dont get it. I feel like what I really need is a diving board. Somehow I know that if I pretend it will be the same. I jump hard and feel myself bounce high and hit the water hard feet first. For a second it feels like heavy gravity drags me to the bottom. I notice how odd this and is along with the fact that I am again breathing water, this triggers lucidity. This time I stop breathing in the water. I notice how I don't feel water but air. I feel the muddy bottom on my feet but I can't see anything at all. I think maybe I just reflexively close my eye when I jumped. I try to open my eye but realize they feel wide open.I decide to forget about being in water and just focus on seeing something... anything.

I am suddenly in what looks like a bathroom/changing room in a public pool house. I fee like lucidity is slipping again and thought I might have woke up. I turn to look into the mirror and clearly see my face with it's normal dream distortions. My eyes look really water and red and my face is slightly morphing. I decide to skip my previous goal and try to scare a kid. I will my face to morph into monstrous forms. I eventually look like Bilbo's monster face with really sharp two front teeth.



I begin to make sound just like the gremlins from Simpson's Tapped Out and run into a long corridor. I dont' see anyone but there's a glass door leading outside. Suddenly I am at the door and run out into the yard making creepy giggle sounds. I look expecting people but only see a cop car. At that moment I remember GTA 5 frustrations with the cops and attack. The car is rolling slowly by and I have no problem reaching the passenger side. Without thinking, I bite the officer in the neck. His skin is warm on my lips and I feel his pulse from his carotid artery. As my teeth sink in I feel warm blood flow down my chin. This feeling is unpleasant but I think the blood would make a good effect for scarring someone.

I turn from the cop car and run down the street. I spot a gas station with cars parked there. As I come to the gas pumps I see a man on a motorcycle with a young boy on the back. I let out a deep monstrous growl as I leap toward them. The boy begins to scream and cry as I collide with the two on the bike. My vision goes black at the point I strain to see something but I suddenly wake up.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video game about attacking enemy base.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was discussing some video game weapons with someone and then i was fighting through some place. Then there was something about hospital, more fighting and then i was in large hall with big and apparently famous bell than was only been rung once by it's creator and nobody else was able to do so, hall was also full of people, i've used some kind of force to ring the bell and resulting sound stunned everyone.

Basically I got up to take a shower/bath,when I went to get out I realized I was still wearing cloths,I looked in the mirror and my face was different and realized i was dreaming( although I kind of couldn’t believe it cause it seemed so real) i checked again with the nose pinch test and i could still breath,then i tried the finger through the hand check but it didn't really work,i tried useing the bathroom door to summon my gamma's apartment but when i looked through the slight crack in the door it was still the kitchen so I went to go to my room,once I was there I noticed my blankets were all over the place(its so sided and it was the checkerboard pater, so really tippy) and seemed to be lit with a back-light ,I tried jumping on them and floated down every time,I heard my mom n decided 2 go to bed,i saw the lucid dream books i got from the library so i looked at the writing and looked away,when i checked it i didn't notice any difference ,when I went to get into my bed it was a lot bigger and taller than usual,after I got in I covered up heard my mom cough and woke up

1.I'm in my room lucid. I try to go outside by windows, but I tangled in the curtains. After moment I'm outside and I decide to make protective barier, that nothing more bothered me. After I'm watching myself, I wear blue-white shoes, dark green pants and dark blue sweatshirt with fringes, which was moving with the wind. After my friend come to me, I told him "Go looking for girlfriend for me, only pretty and redhead". After I',m saw police car and some very fat policeman. I had FA and I done DELID in dream. I'm again in my room, but this time I go fast outside and try teleport to Cardia, but I landend in Aion without sounds and with 3rd person view.

2.I'm in school, there was girls basketball match in gym. I'm walking the corridor and reading some stuff. Someone ask me what i will do if my family died, I answer "I will don't care, but I'm not sure"

Date: October 13, 2013
Method: MILD WBTB (Attempt WILD)
Total Sleep Time: 9 hours

Dream 1

Gorging myself on shrimp and buttered Lobster. OMG it was so yummy! The more I ate the more I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. I tasted every element of the seafood...and the Butter ! It coated every bit of the inside of my tongue. I can go on and on about the food, but I'm making myself hungry!

Dream 2

I was in the home of my sis in law and I was extremely tired and I just wanted to lay down. There was no where to sleep, so I just got in the bed with my baby nephew. She kept calling my name for breakfast, but I couldn't move, the bed was so comfortable.

Dream 3

My niece and I committed a crime, but I can't remember what the crime was. It was really bad though, it may have been along the lines of either kidnapping or murder...for the life of me I can't remember what it was . We were hiding out in a store until it closed in the hopes that we would break out when the doors where locked.

Note: Good recall

This is the first time I'm attempting to consciously remember and record my dream. I'm treating this as both an experiment and an experience into existen... fuck it, I just wanna record this.

I can barely remember my dream, but it was colorful. That's... about it? It was like walking through a mist in a horror movie and looking at streetlights through foggy lenses. The edges of my vision were foggy like I'm looking through goggles. The difference is, streetlights don't pulsate ever so slightly, with each pulse emitting a small tuft of light that explodes in a yellow flash, but slowly fades into the darkness while fading into more somber tones that match the black background.

My friend once had a bad trip, and said at the time, he felt like he was riding a roller coaster, and there was a being made of light that he knew was me. I like to joke that he discovered my true form as a Helix of Light guiding him like Virgil through a chaos-hell of seizures and infinite time. It made me feel like a Final Fantasy End Boss.

ANYWAYS, that's what I thought of when I recorded this.

Had one dream. I had to go to English class but I had to go through this tiny little hole I could barely fit through to get there. Once I got there the teacher asked me all these questions about what cities on the globe had a lot of architecture after 2006. I kept listing cities like China and Houston and stuff and she kept pointing out the ones I said that were wrong. The room was a darkly lit lecture hall with way more students than are actually in my english class, almost like movie theatre seating. Then two black guys that work in the offices came up and asked this one kid for his student ID and he gave it to them. Then they asked for mine and I said I didn't have one at the moment. Then he said well go get one and I said I didn't have 10 bucks, then he said well whats your name then. They were gonna look me up on the computer and I just told them my student ID number and they left. I started waking up as I was saying thanks for wasting 5 minutes of class time that really came in handy! and other things like that I was waking up.

First I'm in my English III class. The desks aren't placed where they normally are, but that's okay. We're taking a test/just got through with one.

Later I look into a mirror and see that my eyes keep going cock-eyed on their own. I'm devastated and go to my mom and say, "I need to go to the dentist and an eye doctor," but she tells me that we don't have enough money for any appointments.

Dream recall fro today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing Terraria and there was something ab out lightning strikes and weapon debuffing.

Dream 2(fragments):

i was watching some kind of story, it was happening on sky islands and it was raining. Inhabitants were afraid of rain, then more characters arrived and inhabitants were telling them about rules of the place. Then i found some place in void where authors of the story were making some art, a drawing of skulls, i've talked to them and was watching. Then characters from the story were suddenly in different part of void and they had to find can of paint, then they were back on sky islands and they had to dig out some people that were stuck in the ground, that made another person angry which shout was heard through the island and he summoned thunderstorm, scaring inhabitants even more. There was also some text on the side of island.
Then i wake up, hearing chanting voice and i realize that i am dreaming, but split-second after i move i get teleported into initial position. That continues a good number of times where i either get teleported or FA again. During one i briefly see brief shadowy dragon figure, which then vanishes.After a few more teleports/FAs i even lose lucidity for a bit, but then some DC falls on bed from the ceiling and i regain lucidity, and also get unstuck from the loop, i get up and go to balcony, then dream fades out.

Night of October 13, 2013. Sunday.



Within the large transparent and safe sphere (about the size of a city block), I attempt to create and “program” a suitable tulpa for a change - and perhaps other features later. First, I allow the grains of feldspar and dark basalt to flow in through the “equator of small holes” that go all around the sphere until it is halfway up near said “equator”. The sound of grains moving and gathering is peaceful, nearly as much as rain, as I rise to the center of this environment as the “solid” ground, as it manifests, lifts me up. Oxygen flows in as if the sphere were made of a smooth, strong, translucent skin. First, I begin to manifest from the tulpa template, focusing on the knuckle of the middle finger, and its glowing blue skin, of the left hand. Shift. I am able to hold it for almost nine seconds. The fingertips of light shrink back very slightly on the second run, but that is only based on my eye movements, which I should control better. My right hand to “her” left hand, a slight pulling sensation on the back of my head. Ten seconds.

My focus is “interrupted” by vague impressions of lines of text over everything, a modern inconvenience, with a subtle impression of a brick wall that fades but remains as “background noise”. The soft, larger wrinkles and folds on the knuckles remind me of lips, and after this, the eyes of lizards, perhaps miniature iguanas.

Now how about toes? A leg and feet and toes - becoming a sapling with five expanding roots. Try again. I get a vague impression of two hands forming “okay” with the fingers, yet also appearing to be doing something else, perhaps holding a grain or something very small between the tips of the thumbs and forefingers.

Pure white, wool-like hair, “burning”/flowing as if it is cool fire, yet radiating soft blue light, like filaments of the thinnest, most malleable “crystal”. Time to shift and make the face for a time, but the eyes keep closing, which is very common for new ones. Come on, look at me.

Dimensionality of the tulpa hologram reverses, as if my depth-perception is of the inside of a mask rather than the outside of a face, somewhat of an unusual effect (and fairly common depending on focus and shifts) - as if I am “inside” the tulpa template itself. Try again. No, this one refuses to keep her eyes open. And even so, they become entirely black if left open for too long. This is not something “demonic” (as falsely claimed by many others) to be wary of (in fact, almost the opposite - innocent over-the-top expectation - much like an individual discovering a new talent and wanting to “use it all up” upon each moment) - it is simply the pupil of a “new one” going “overboard” and wanting to see everything too soon, tulpa-eye-dilation, until the entire eye is as such (and all shiny and black). Vibrations of near consciousness. Atoms have no higher consciousness in such a state, anyway. Why worry unless you are afraid of yourself?

I get a vague yet vivid sound pulse of a man of about thirty or younger saying “diablo” (“devil” in Spanish). As it is impossible to fully block the existence of wayward dreaming minds from the lower supraconsciousness, I ignore it - and do not acknowledge it at all - I was way past that sort of thing over twenty years ago. I had spoken Spanish for about two hours today (but not saying or thinking of that word at all), and this probably linked me slightly to the outer field of the Spanish supraconsciousness. The same effect happens when a guitar string vibrates at a certain frequency - one within a certain range of it will resonant slightly with it (and the lower the frequency, the more the expanding and “interfering” vibrations) - thus the same with human minds and perception at certain levels, which is a loose form of subtle, non-focused telepathy that happens all the time but goes unnoticed by most.

I fold my hands around the back of the tulpa’s head. The sphere is filling up (not fully, just as an environmental feature) with small, dried leaves. I do not mind, the permission was there somewhere in the back of my mind. I am reaching the point where the eyes become like mirrors to reflect my own visage for a time, in brief periods.

I pick up some new features in the environment, which are thinner, lighter sticks, and they remind me somewhat of pieces of an exoskeleton of a giant insect’s leg, not in any alarming sense, but in a wondrous way. I then get an impression of ash and snow - mixed together, almost to a point where the mix becomes indistinguishable - as either being snow or ash, this being almost as a property of the curling, dried leaves it settles upon. I enjoy the snow-ash-dried-leaf crumbs flowing around me like a rejuvenating force…

I had a school-related dream.

FRIDAY 11/10/13
01.50 AM
Yep...scorpions. Well one anyway...the other, which my unconscious assured me was a scorpion looked like a small dead rolled-up slug. The "real scorpion" was translucent and scuttled along with four protruding arms with busy little fingers (they looked vaguely like a team of four horses pulling it along) (weird=DS) I viewed it from a position of safety, as it scuttled along an asphalt path?????????

I missed a dream by falling asleep while trying to recall it. I nearly missed the next one as well...only the fact that I gave an involuntary short snore jerked me awake again and I immediately wrote it down. I need something that I can blindly press (without having to set) and it will sound after about three or four minutes as a wake-up call.

WBTB at 5.30 after 1¼ hours

07.10 AM
Me using a piece of board as a means of transport (a bit like McFly in "Back to the Future" Part 2) But this had no visible means of propulsion it was just a board. I was very adept though, weaving my way expertly through the streets...and an old lady looked really impressed. The streets looked familiar (DS)

Then there was increasing amounts of debris cluttering up the pavement/road...rubbish, broken toys, bits of trees and I remembering thinking "typical neighbourhood"????

08.00 AM
A most pleasant and detailed town (I would have loved to have LD'd in that one) It looked faintly Gemanic/Austrian and people were bustling around. My impression was that I was some sort of terrorist/resistance and I was looking for a patrolling robot (searching= DS) There was a uniformed (DS) robotic-looking official who I saw from time to time but he didn't look threatening or suspicious of me. At one stage I think there was an explosion.

Saturday 12/10/15

I woke early in the night feeling ill (fortunately that doesn't happen often. It's a mystery...is it linked to how quickly I wake after a dream? When I'm like that I don't even look at the clock...I just lay still and wait for it to pass

I saw my dead Mum again (major DS) I think we had an argument.(DS=emotions) We didn't argue...I don't remember why we did this time (I wish I did...it might have been important) I heard myself say "Get her out of here!"??? Then I only saw my sister. She apparently had enormous (though shapely) legs (DS=Weird) I said "I thought Mum was here" and my wife said "She is." I looked and saw her on the couch in semi-darkness.

Conclusions: Nothing earth-shaking... No LD's It occurs to me that my LD's so far have been involuntary "it's a dream" utterings (perhaps that's how most wake-ups go...at least for me) I'll continue the trade-off between being alert and taking longer to get back to sleep. When the financial conditions are right I'll get a de-luxe king-size bed and memory foam pillows so there are no comfort impediments and I'm continuing my bracing walks, communing with nature.

To infinity...and the next blackberry bush...but only after I've had a good like round

16/6/13 10:23

It's night, I'm outside walking my dog.
I saw a bush move and my dog started barking at it.
A dog came out of the bush and a fight between my dog and the other started,
I tried to stop it.

12/6/13, 01:42

More things happened before this, but here's what I remember:
I gradually became aware that I am dreaming, no reality checks or anything. Just kind of naturally.

I was in a room that was looked very much like the living room of my previous house.
It was dark, but before I started looking for a light switch I had noticed my dog. Alma next to me.
She soon disappeared and I forgot she was ever there.
There was a light switch behind me and I used it, now I was in my previous houses kitchen.
In the kitchen there's a wooden cabinet with glass doors, I looked at the glass doors and could see my reflection.
I looked hunched, weak, ugly and my skin was very pale.
What I saw in the mirror didn't scare me because I knew that I was in a dream.
I even complimented my reflection on his looks, and he smiled.
The kitchen had a fridge and a table in it, I opened the fridge and looked at the door shelves.
I found a transparent package in the shape of a cone, that had different kinds of candies in it.
I took out a candy and next thing I'm out in my current house's backyard, it was night outside.
The shell of the candy was almost tasteless, but the cream within it had a subtle lemony taste.
I heard a sudden 'BEEP' sound, and I thought that the sound was made by the air conditioner working in my room.
Then came another "BEEP", and as I focused on the "BEEP"s I noticed a big snake like wave going through the road out on the street.
The wave looked like a blue trail of lighting like energy, and it was synchronized with the "BEEP"s.

Dream 1 : [COLOR="#008080"]I was in my bedroom and I see dad laying on the bed and it kind of seems like mom and dad are arguing again. I do a RC for the sake of doing it ( Didn't ever thought I was dreaming or something) I see 6 fingers on my right hand and I drop my jaw.I waited so much for this. I get out the room and get mom's telephone , type a random number and wait Kris to respond.This time, my mom didn't let me talk on the telephone because I needed to do something with a belt (idk) . I wait and wait but nobody responds, I put the telephone down and I go to the shoes storage and look for some nice shoes, I find some nice wine colored wedge sneakers and I put them on. I also wanted a dress so I made it appear. It was a teal colored dress which wasn't the coolest dress ever but for that time it will do. I tell mom that i'm going outside she tells me to be careful. I go outside and I keep yelling for Kris. I get outside the apartment block and I yell really loud : KRIS!? Everybody looks at me and they are like : What do you think you're doing? Shut up. I sigh then I go and look more for him. I see 2 people who were holding hands and they were blowing kisses at me for some reason...(It was snowing outside).[/COLOR]

Dream 2 : [COLOR="#008080"]I wake up in the bed again and I'm like : Oh no! I lost the dream! I sigh and then I do a RC again. I have 6 fingers again. I look more to be sure and I see shadows and my finger chopped. I wake up and I go look in the mirror. I'm looking just normal except my face is kind of roundish. I ask the mirror : Hey, How would I look like blonde? I turn my head to the wall and then turn it back to the mirror and I see myself blonde. I try black this time, Works again. When I try with red I have a hard time. My hair color keeps turning into blonde with pink and red highlights. I look at the wall then back to the mirror and this time I have my natural hair color but my right side is red. I make my hair straight because it was kind of wavy and then I put some blonde ends and I go outside. In the hall there are some clothes there that look really nice. I browse a bit and realize that those clothes are way too small for me. I keep yelling for Kris again while going in the back of my apartment block. I see a lot of people there and I'm wondering what they are doing. I meet with my sister and her best friend and I tell them : You guys know you're dreaming right? They are really happy and yell : YES WE KNOW. I go to the other people and ask what they are doing. They said they were doing funny stuff to recover kids from I don't know what disease. I told them that was really nice and if I could help? They say no because I'm a female -.- . I say : Seriously? This happened before. I go in the front of my apartment block and yell for Kris again and I ask some people about him. I look at the sky and there is the moon looking a bit different. I yell once again Kris really loud and I see him appearing. I go and glomp him and I'm like : Kris!!! Hi!!!! He was really tall so I asked him if he could get a bit smaller just so he can be closer to my height. He keeps refusing and I ask him what's wrong. He says nothing(He seems sad) and I ask him why he cheated on me. He suddenly becomes red at face and tells me that he didn't cheat on me. I slap him and tell him that I saw him with a blonde girl kissing. He shuts up for like 5 seconds then tells me that he loves me but I am way too jealous then he dissappears.[/COLOR]

Dream 3 : [COLOR="#008080"]I'm taking a bath and I do a RC and I have 6 fingers on my right hand. *That's all I remember*[/COLOR]