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26.09.2016

(DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was driving in a strange city. I didn't know where I was headed. I took a right turn into a highway and then saw cop lights ahead (I wonder if this was my dream incorporating Remee's light cues). They were stopping everyone. I slowed down and also got pulled over. A female cop was explaining they were looking for cars with explosives. I tried to keep calm but got nervous instantly. I was sweating and thought I'd look really suspicious. The cop asked for my driver's license. I grabbed my wallet, opened it, and where there should have been my license was instead my high school ID. I was really confused, she looked unimpressed. I then realized, I was dreaming!

I got out of the car and told her I had to go. I instantly remembered the first I wanted to do was to look for Goku at Kami's lookout. I looked towards the sky and started flying. I was flying fast and doing flips and stuff in the air. I lost control and crashed against a building. Inside the building was Lusho. I told him to follow me. I ran outside and he stopped at the door. He said he didn't feel like flying today. I said bye as I started flying. I flew by some tall buildings and then saw a huge rainforest with a mountain. Above the mountain was Kami's Lookout. I got really excited and started flying faster.

I lost control and everything went black in a second. I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or awake. I wanted to do a RC but was afraid it would wake me up. I ended up lying still for a bit and then my parents came in the room and told me my dog was having a nose bleed. It was a FA.

I was leaving work and on my way out the door a bunch of wasps were swarming around me and I could feel them hitting me all over, I could hear them buzzing in my ears and my hairs on my body were at full attention, the fear was real, yet they weren't stinging me, I knew with all of these wasps around me one would have stung me by now, when out from behind a tree came a dark figure telling me that these wasps had a very powerful sting and I could send them to anyone I wanted to send them to so I could watch them suffer, instead of going through it myself. I said I could never do this to anyone! I would rather take the pain, I then walked away and never looked back. As I walked around the corner, the wasps were gone and I felt empowered. At that moment, in my dream I had this feeling that our dreams could be testing us for something. Hmmmm.
Now that is yet another take on this and I sound like a total lunatic but is it possible that our dreams are a test? Could we be getting groomed for something? I don't know that I ever used lucidity for entertainment, more for survival and for the purpose of being a better person. I am extremely aware while dreaming and experience a very fulfilled dream life. I have always looked for messages in my dreams as though they were telling me something important. I can tell you from experience that my dreams have prepared me for many tragedies by letting me experience the feelings and emotions involved before the events, sometimes several years before, even though the tragedy is very difficult, I felt I was strong enough to overcome it because I had been there before. There is more to dreams that we know. I know this!

+ angry librarian

+ fight / blade / gold room boomerang / eliza

+ aerobics class starting up in the gym, indian woman hogs the equipment

+ in class, looking at girls outside in hallway, one buxom one presents a full naked side boob view, someone taunts our class, girls are cowering in a pile and whining that the boys should defend them

Spoiler for bunch of nudity:

+ in a van, my "yurt" with a fur-lined upper level is just outside, I keep looking at it, a half-naked (bottomless) girl climbs up to the fur floor of the yurt and sticks her butt out while kneeling, I have a side view, I think if I go out there I'll get an eyefull. Girls appear in the van, I see a topless one with freckles everywhere and I exclaim because she has exquisite breasts. In the driver's seat one girl is sort of choking/dominating another girl, pressing her hand up against her chin and forcing her head all the way back, another girl presents a bottomless view with a "shave shadow". I'm taking it all in.

+ attack response preparations begin. The troops are gathering. I see that the missile silos have been fired up. "Oh God, they've even fired up the missile silos."
Then the Star Wars "Force Theme" and I say "Could you at least not play the Star Wars music?". Refugees are getting on a vehicle to take them away, people are going over a gangplank. A bus tries to go across the gangplank but a guy stops it with his hand. People and I get on the bus. I'm saying "Well at least we'll make it to Siberia, where you can find places with water and nature, but ", I joke, "the mosquitoes are the size of birds." Someone then says "yeah, but the place where there are sunsets and rivers are the hottest places."

The bus driver then directs the bus to head up a steep stairway, and I wonder how it could make progress, but it makes it up OK. On a landing part-way up the hill, on the left, I see a few marijuana plants prominently growing. There is even a sign there, "Marijuana." I say, "OH, LOOK! MAR-EE-JOO-AH-NA!" emphasizing every syllable.

All these dream see me somewhat 15 years younger, In Italy and are pretty dull to be honest

Dream (non lucid): a guy offers himself to become my personal trainer for free to help me getting better grades in gymnastic and a better athletic condition. This guy follows me everywhere... this dream has been restarted many times this night and the guy followed me in other dreams. In the reality this guy is an ex colleague and has of course not any single motivation to help me with my training.

Dream (non lucid): I'm in a (very lame) attraction park. With my mother. (this thing only should scream "it's a dream!") For some reason I cannot buy the access for single attraction (5€) but I have to buy a yearly subscription of 25€ per month. But the (lame) attraction park is open only 3 months per year so I get the suspect that it is a scam. I discuss this with the staff but I fail to get any satisfactory answer.

Dream (non lucid): There was a punk that was committing a series of minor law infractions, like being drunk and break objects, driving too fast and using drugs, and some guys and I had to stop him. My brilliant Idea was to film him and show a video with very beautiful things like nature, puppies, children and life in general and then his own behaviour, and in the movie there was my voice saying something on the line "life is a wonderful thing. This is the one of yours". Not sure it worked though

Dream (non lucid): a smokin'hot Dutch woman asks me advice on alimentation and training. I was more than happy to help her... but she really didn't need my help. And of course I'm not an expert in the field either. I'm just a software engineer who cares good for himself.

I am in the water, off of a dock. My friend has left his...watercraft with the keys in the ignition out in the middle of the bay. I kept calling it a boat, but it wasn't really. Sort of like a jet ski, but you stood on it instead. It had a dashboard with controls, handles, and then a flat area to stand on. I watch a few people swim up to it, and I'm worried someone will steal it. I've never used one so I don't want to move it. Instead, I swim over, like it belongs to me, and remove the keys from the ignition. I hop over to a tiny walkway hugging a wall, and sidle along until I make it back to the dock which is painted dark, dull red. His apartment is across from mine. In the dream he was familiar to me, someone I care about, but he has become indistinct like many of my dream characters. I'd probably call him a mixture of Ruadh and my ex, considering the people in the apartment.

Anyway, I go in through the open door and navigate through all the people, asking if anyone has seen him. They direct me to the kitchen, I find him there with one of my ex's friends, Amanda who was mostly nice but a little condescending to me.
I walk directly to him and drop my eyes while I explain that he left his damn boat on the bay with the keys in the ignition. I drop the keys into his waiting hand. He thanks me in a distant way and says he'll be right back, I assume he's going to move the boat. I stand there a little too long and Amanda asks me in a condescending way, "What are you doing here, sweetheart?" and plucks a dust bunny from my sleeve.
I frown a little. "Doing him the favor of returning his keys." I say. I know I wasn't invited. I leave without saying anything, knowing no one will notice or miss me.

I walk across the way to my own apartment. It's has a curious layout. A front room with a tiny kitchen off to the right, and straight back is the bedroom, to the left of the bedroom is the bathroom, with another door leading into the living room. People follow me into my apartment, I don't know any of them. I try to shut the door to my bedroom, it's a heavy sliding metal door with a weird crossbar for a lock. It won't latch and people follow me into my room. I wander out through the bathroom and find a co-worker of mine in the living room. Startled, I realize my apartment has two entrances and he came in through the second one. He tells me he was just returning something to me? My cat got out. (I don't have a cat).
I realize with a guilty start that I have forgotten to feed my cat. He's a very thin long-hair tabby. I wonder how long its been since I fed him? I cast about for his food and water bowl which are, embarrassingly full of cobwebs and dead flies. I gather them up and try to hide their disgraceful state from my co-worker as I rush into the kitchen to wash them out. How could I have forgotten?

You know, this is the third or fourth time I've dreamt about forgetting to feed my cat, when I don't even have a cat. =/

It ends with a terrible storm and strangers huddled in my apartment. I'm stuck at the front door, struggling to hold it closed. It won't latch and the flood water from the bay keeps rushing in through the cracks despite my efforts to hold it shut.

D1: Non-Lucid: I'm in some odd looking place. It looks like a mash up of a backwoods bar, game room & new age things all in one. It's somewhere in the country side. The ppl there are the cast from the Netflix original Aquarius. I'm supposed to be going to some kind of bar for some reason but instead I'm in some sort of competition. Another team went first. They drive out in a jeep & launch it into the air somehow. Then they had to grab a bird out of the air. Next they shot a target & a parachute was released & they have to land in a mock house. While waiting for our turn I got woke up by my wbtb alarm.


D2: Non-Lucid: There was a computer with something displayed on the screen. It was for sale for $279 & I was buying it for Tess. Everything was foggy.

And I've never had a random name like this in my dreams. I don't know a Tess unless you count a girl from when I was a kid named Tessa but it wasn't her for sure. I think the name is significant but for the life of me I don't know why.

All I remember is driving one of really big American old-timer cars. I tried parking it, which was a challenge. There was a plot, but I forgot.

Chris and I moved to china. There was this neighborhoodof new homes that we just appeared in after being at the hunt camp, and there were mostly women in the neighborhood. We went on some sort of tour led by a guy we didn't know who was showing us some new products on the market, I think invented by the people in the neighborhood. One of them was a double sided sex toy that was different sizes to accomodate different sized partners, and the other invention was a car that ran without gasoline, and everyone was excited about the toy haha.

While this series of dreams never reached a high level of lucidity, it did feature two odd and intense epiphanies, and much of the time I was aware that I was dreaming.

The first stage of the dream, I was playing with a pet, a small lizard that could sit in the palm of my hand, and liked to race around my forearms and take short, gliding flights from hand to hand or from me to its terrarium. It was familiar to me and I loved it as a pet. Someone, maybe someone at work, mentioned that the lizard wouldn't live that much longer, and the next time I was playing with her (I knew she was a her, probably having just asked myself the question and come up with an answer), I noticed she was slowing down, and there was a scare where she stopped moving, but revived, and I felt strong attachment and fear for her death. The dream progressed so that she had died, and I was feeling strong grief just as if a real pet had died. I remembered seeing and playing with the small creature over months, maybe more than a year, and considered how I would hold myself together at work. Then it struck me, the whole life I remembered for this creature was in dreams. I was able to search my memories and recall that I had no terrarium and no pets. I believed, and still think it may be the case, that the lizard had appeared in my dreams before. A couple times before, I've had the experience of grief in a dream, and then the realization that the events had not taken place, though this time may be the first that I was grieving a creature who only lived in dreams. It can be emotionally powerful, feeling relief but also feeling in a sense robbed of your grief, still feeling the echo of strong emotion while knowing you have no reason to feel it. Also, I suppose it illuminates mortality and impermanence in a strange light. It's not exactly an "Aha!" moment because of the sad, contemplative quality of the realization.

Here ends this dream, more or less. It's memorable in itself, though not singular. However, it probably set the tone for the experience which followed.

The initiating conditions of the next dream are hazy. Perhaps I set out with the intention to go out drinking, and several times throughout the dream I was convinced that I had drunk too much to drive or thought I might have been drugged. I can't say I've had many "drunk" dreams, and I wasn't drinking last night. I found myself in a crowd at some kind of play/concert/pageant - some elaborate group performance with a standing room only audience. It was quite impressive and immersive, but also blatant monotheistic allegory. At some point I found myself speaking to the producer/director (quite possibly a God stand-in, but a pudgy, red-bearded one) in a corner of the balcony. He said something to the effect that he tries to get everyone excited about putting on a good show, but those who refuse to participate certainly won't be invited to the after-party. Afterward, I found myself in the crowd again, and experienced a powerful sensation of epiphany. The content of the epiphany was very much in the "born again" narrative, that there is someone behind the curtain of our existence and he/it was reaching out to me personally to be accepted into my heart. The strength of the sensation was such that not accepting wasn't really an option. Indeed, for a time after the experience I was ready to buy whatever the man upstairs was selling.

I rather expected it was Christianity, but when I exited out the front, I found it was a Minecraft-themed mosque, with big creeper parapets and mineral blocks you could pluck off the front of the building. I had the feeling I had seen this place in dreams before, too, but like the lizard, it may just be dream time and deja vu at work. Out front there was a sermon with some fairly incendiary language, and then we newcomers were handed off, presumably, to recruiters. Mine was a hunched, bulgy old man with a thin beard and lopsided features. He didn't get very far in his spiel before coming right out and saying he was a demon. He said some demons would be more coy about it, but he was more the bind you in fire and pain variety, and the ground under me morphed into a lady demon face like something out of Diablo, with bone spikes growing up around me like a cage. My go-along-to-get-along had already been wearing thin, and I was able to break free of this attack.

The dream kind of wandered on and restarted several times from there, focusing on a "Dude, where's my car?" theme and leaving me with overall decidedly mixed feelings and no inclination to dump too much meaning into the events. Still, the two "revelations" taken on their own terms were unique experiences.

I was awake most of the night as per the norm these days. I feel I don't ever sleep anymore because I feel I am aware and conscious all night, even in most of my dreams. I am so aware that in every dream I am searching for messages. I need to learn to just appreciate what I am seeing and stop expecting a message.

I heard a loud doorbell tone out of my left ear, and I thought to myself I am on my way. I then started to see thousands of images passing me by, so fast I had to try to see if I could recognize any and nothing looked familiar to me, I was flying so fast that everything was a blur. As the images started to slow down, I could see a shadow of where both of my eyes were in front of me, I even saw eyelashes but it was as if I was behind them about 6 inches and not seeing through them. I then saw the stars flying past slowly, my speed diminished and then I felt a calm. For some reason Nebulus popped into my head. I believe I saw that name on here. So of course I was wondering what it meant. Then my dog sounded like he was going to puke so I had to jump up to let him out. Ugh.

Last night bed 9pm - 3:30am

DR ar 1 am

Me or someone has a private 747 jet. We are thinking where to take it. Aspen, Cannes. I tell them those places have remodeled their airports so now even big planes can land there. I'm walking around aspen airport outside, on a hill.

DR2 at 1 am

We are going to walk somewhere with another person, maybe my mom. She wants to go certain way. We go there and I show her lots of deep snow and I tell her we would be sinking in it. It's so deep, at some places small caves have formed. I look at one of those caves and there is a baby in clothes laying on the ground, moving his arms and legs. I yell at someone to call the cops, there is a baby in a cave. Because of the commotion, a man who was laying behing the baby sits up and is all confused. I tell them to call the cops off, baby was not abandoned.

Then I'm in some apartment hallway. I witness a conversation between "mom" and another woman, probable a reporter. She is telling "mom", that tha'ts the way to go if she wan't to get custody of kids and make "dad" look bad for leaving baby alone. I realize it's a scheme and I start recording it on my phone.

DR ar 3:30
I'm in an apartment in a tall building. Suddenly there is fire and some guys starts running around, trying to get away, without telling us. I look for it and I see smoke. We start gathering our pets. After a while it looks like the smoke is in some distance outside.

Huge night: solid (but short) DILD, several near WILDs late morning including start of REM atonia, several vivid semi-lucids, one epic in vividness/experience

Late morning doing relaxing SSILD, trying to "relax" into visuals. Dreams/imagery/REM atonia don't come while mind is too alertly focused on visual field, mind must be occupied on something like SSILD cycles or Ah visualization or very light thoughts. Ear rushing and eye twitching happened while on back (like yesterday's WILD-ish experience). Did a RC but awake. Got strong body twitches while lying on side a little later.

+ bubble fly CH with PR and KR flying up from back garden (L tree?) I'm waving bubbles this propels us along we drive back to street by G's driveway and I do a power slide and whip around in a fast circle at the end which drags K lying flat on the ground really quickly across the very rough pavement and scratches her arms very badly and she says s.l. "Augh, I didn't need that" I later apologize to her, go down back steps and both my mother [deceased] and father are happily there working on the garden, the steps are soft dirt shaped like bricks, my feet and other's feet sink deeply into the steps, I notice this but others say they're soon to be lined with (concrete?). I think to myself how wonderful it is with my mother here and how sad it would be (is?) when she is no longer with us.

+ renting a helicopter with son S2, afterwards I say (about flying it) "that was f^&*^%$ AWESOME!" swimming to turn-off, go in, the mechanics are there to immediately check the helicopter upon my return of it, one walks towards me holding a wrench, "Ah, crap," I think, "something is missing from the tool chest and they're going to ding me for it", but instead, this is an extra tool? Then the team of mechanics hold a conversation [in a foreign language] in an Abbott & Costello comedy format:

"Shall we add it?" [to our tool collection]
"Let's add it?"
"Add it?"
"Add it?"
"Let's add it"
etc.

+ mango, homeschoolers prank boy suffering from "short leg" syndrome, I free him from a big meat/freezer locker behind 2 doors where he could have suffocated, then I'm taking bites from a large, cut "street-food" mango, see homeschoolers (skin? fruit?) is mottled with mold, I go back inside to the open fruit market continuing to bite from the mango, wondering if it was cleaned properly. There are other fruit vendors inside: one is advertising long, translucent, juicy strips made from the entirety of some tree.

+ epic: airplane, at gate with attendant, show ID, woman with 2x 45kg of modeling clay paying customs on automated system me:"hope it doesn't dry out", she:"expands like an a$$hole" [at altitude], driving over gently undulating land, I make joke about how [try hard to remember name of airline company associated with England] "British Airways announces new corporate policy limiting modeling clay to 5kg per customer after mid-flight incident", , turn fast sudden corner to right, on very wide driving fast on deep dry dusty dirt roads, I instantly think, "Oh, I'm in Africa! Boy, Africa sure looks different from America/Europe!"
Odd, fantastic cars come the other way. I procede straight on this road which narrows then I'm walking. I notice the houses are covered not in paint or shingle, but flowers. One house is covered in small red and white flowers. The road is now more a wide foot path absolutely bursting with tall bushes of flowers on every side and in front of me. "Wow!" I say, "who know Africa was so colorful and DREAM-LIKE!!!. I'm amazed at everything I see and keep saying this several times. I encounter a flock of about 8 very large (meter tall) purple geese walking up the street the other way. I look into the distance and see a city in the distance and think about getting back to the airport, I think there's plenty of time.

Then I start encountering nude and topless women sunbathing right there on the pathway. The path is now like a narrow footpath leading through gardens and back yards. I come upon two beautiful young women lying on the ground and as I approach they both turn over and I get a quick glimpse of their marvelous breasts. They ignore my presence. I keep walking and encounter more topless women, middle aged and a bit fat, they are all cooling themselves from the heat outside in narrow streams of very cold water. I feel how very cold this water is and think it's colder than it needs to be.

I reach one point and a narrator (?) says this is the end of the "two-people" path and now the "solo/alone" path is beginning, and I get excited about this thinking I can find a beautiful topless/nude woman, think for a second about continuing to the airport, but see a group including some apparently mostly nude women in a pool area up ahead and head towards them.

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

I go to a young woman who seems to be wearing a skimpy bikini but she seems nude at the same time. She has a well-manicured landing strip and I come up to her and talk to her asking about "which sport she is going out for?" while I bring my mouth to her right breast and take it in, and

I wake up.

+ LD#206 LUCIDD 206 bowling alley, standing on left side, ask for lane #2 to be turned on for me, I don't want to be against the left wall lane #1. Sign in on electronic score card, real name, go looking for ball, try 15 lb but fingers too tight, see a "36 pound" blank ball, one with three holes clumped together, then balls vanish, area blocked off by corrugated metal sheets [construction area?], go back through huge sports hall where ping-pong matches are under way. I jump/glide/fly down stairs, not sure if I'm flying because I crash into pile of cushions at bottom of stairs, I jump/leap again towards the exit and think I may be flying again, I hold my self very still and notice that I continue to glide toward the wall in the air and get lucid. I start rubbing my hands and repeating "I'm dreaming! I'm dreaming!" I notice through a square lattice door a series of colorful flowers growing from the ground with foot-long stalks and flat flower petals, 3-4 different flat colors. I turn back into the gym room and think, "OK, TOTM!" But the basic TOTM tasks don't come to me instantly, and the dream fades.

+ I'm in a car (portion of longer dream?) driving on steep hills in neighborhood I have to wait for some passing cars at an intersection. I need to turn around I enter a cul-de-sac and start to pull a U turn fist I head close to a house's driveway and am forced through two signs by their drive way I'm turning to the left and head a bit too close to a wall/fence of theirs in the road and hit it lightly and it shakes. I think "oh crap", but it doesn't appear too damaged, I glance over my shoulder behind me to if anyone is coming out of the house, I back up and drive on

+(f) I'm riding the bus with my kids. We're driving through some suburban downtown business district. I notice it is raining outside. I say "Oh No way I'm going to go running in that rain" (back to the house?)

+(f) coins? Small devices outside with people?

+ molly on the slide, sexual encounter at the top and at the bottom, people come, but I work them into the narrative and they don't bother my activities with Molly. Then a woman sends some kids to another section and tells them to stop what they're doing, something relating to the glare on the monitor, then she is digging into a desk of mine looking for incriminating material, inside are some books, a book laid open to a page with a quote on it and some sand dollars marking the spot, she says something about this. Then things get vague and I get frisky with two very buxom girls, I take their tops off (asking one of them to help me take the other one's top off) but they disappear and I wake up.

First dream

I saw it from top-down view. I was wandering in some dark corridors of a dungeon. I searched for some loot, and then a powerful warrior attacked me. I slashed him with a scimitar, but he was much stronger than me. If not for life draining properties of my scimitar, I'd be dead. I defeated him - his name was Korsak - and moved on. I found some more loot and doors to a huge chamber. I opened them and archers immediately shot arrows at me. I jumped back and then Korsak appeared again - this time with some magical barrier around him. He chased me, but when his barrier stopped working I cat a shrink spell on him and squished him like a bug.

Second dream

It was an evening in a city. I saw a group of people near a building that have suddenly collapsed. I came closer, picked up debris and started chewing it while watching a couple talking about marriage. The man had quite long facial hair, his hair were brown. The woman was a redhead, they were both in mid twenties.

Third dream

I was in school, it was some kind of lesson I can't quite recall. There were only few people. I left my desk, teacher didn't minded, and went to speak with a redhead girl with a pale complexion. She was wearing a pale pink blouse and jeans trousers. I asked if she'd go on a prom with me, she smiled and agreed.

Later that day I visited doctor for some reason.

Fourth dream

I was in some apartment in a flat, searching for something important and valuable. It was in a secured block of flats - there were security guards wandering around. My family was there too, searching through other apartments. Mistakenly I kicked a flower pot and had to do something with soil that fallen out - I opened a window and thrown it down. This alarmed security, I left the apartment and started searching for a way out. There were security cameras in a corridor I was on, and there were entrances to other apartments. There was also a locked door to staircase, lit by red lights. I ran to elevator and pushed a button - a wall moved and I stood in front of a huge hole opened to flat's exterior, and after a while the elevator appeared.

I entered it and among hundreds of buttons I pressed the right one, going to ground floor. After a while a voice said through speaker "Welcome in age when elevator users are screwed!". And elevator moved down with speed of a rollercoaster, taking different angles all the time. I finally got to ground floor and got to a corridor same as upstairs, but this time closed doors led to exit. There were also windows, I jumped through one, smashing glass pane and getting out of the flat. Security reacted immediately - one dude started shooting at me. I slowed time down, grabbed bullet and thrown out back, but guard managed to dodge it. Then another guard appeared, I punched him and got his pistol, then shot another one.

24/9/16
Dream 1: Jeremy doing schoolwork, go to a school watch a musical play in a gym

Dream 2: Getting stats of all the owners of every footy ground

Dream 3: Someone using call of khrulhu, had a funny long name

23/9/16
Dream 1: Doing engineering test with riley on a train

Dream 2: Couples sushi with another group

Fragment: Taking train to school

Dream 3: Settling in a place in the snow, like age of empires

Dream 4: Baketball, against idiot team, refs count microagressions as fouls