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21st May

Bits from one or two dreams? Didn't make notes in the morning, was too tired.

Dream Fragment:

I was in a desert or barren canyon type of place. I was driving some kind of motorbike, called the "MotorBeast" or something to that effect. I remember accelerating with my right hand and making note of the extremely loud roar from the exhaust. I did some acrobatics or was in some high speed sequence?

Next thing I remember, different place, but related in some way. There was a dream character, he was simultaneously my teacher and an avatar of Anubis. But we had to fight and so he was like a boss of some sort. I remember chasing him through this dark and ancient Egyptian temple/crypt place. There was a dark red tint to everything and even though daylight broke through the ceiling in certain parts, it was still dark, like the exposure made dark places appear brighter but bright places appear much darker.

I remember the character taunted me from behind a half wall and pillars. I couldn't reach him but shot him with a Torgue grenade launcher set to sticky mode. I remember the feeling of holding the weapon with only my right hand and the feeling of pointing it. It felt intuitive, but in retrospect it seemed far too light for what it was. After emptying my clip, the explosives went off in sequence, causing him heavy damage. He was nearly dead (I knew through some interface display?) but he was able to run very fast through a narrow hall crowded with unknown dream characters, which were his minions. I believe they looked like mummies.

Eventually I caught up to him, finding him in a small room around a corner, where he was using some kind of self-bandaging ability (like in WoW). I tried shooting him to interrupt it, but I think something happened right after I did that, and the dream ended.

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Notes:
- The bit where the Anubis character ran away at high speed when on low health now reminds me that some boss in Killing Floor did something similar.
- The Torgue weapon was notable because I'd recently been playing BL3 and I always loved the Torgue shotguns in BL2; it should have been a somewhat obvious dream-sign here since it was somewhat out of place in the rest of the dream's context.
- Though I didn't think of this at the time of this dream, I now feel as though there is a bit of a link between the motorbike and the Torgue gun since those guns are typically modelled after big engines and the like. The dream felt more randomly put together at the time but I feel like I could unpick it better now in terms of contextual/schematic associations.

Date of Dream: SAT 25 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 696 - Kingdom Hearts In Shibuya

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was surfing one of the Discord servers via my computer. For this scene, I wasn’t in it, rather I felt like I was spectating the scene via a live-stream being played in the server. Through the live-stream, I saw both Riku and Sora in Shibuya, sporting their relevant Shibuya appearances from the actual game. Then Riku spoke, and he said to me that the reason they weren’t saying anything is because they both wanted to have on their records, when they return home, that they maintained peace within themselves. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 696
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 24 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 695 - Too Late To Study

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, we were in the front yard of my old house. My mum was asking if my parents could attend study at Chisholm 311 because they were interested and it was close to home. I said to my mum that it was too late as the last intake was for semester 2 2020 and that had already passed. I did also say however that they could contact the Glen Waverley office (doesn’t exist in real life) and check with them in-case they had a different answer.

Later on in the dream, I saw all these people at the playground across the road from my old house. I wanted to use the swings, however all the swings at the park were taken and so I felt somewhat gutted. Still I crossed the road and new swing appeared, just for me. As I was now swinging at the park, an old man ended up having a conversation with me, but I forgot what about. He was as a hologram and was actually a man that died in real life at age 85. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 695
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: THU 23 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 694 - Exposing Domestic Violence

I can’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was first of all driving down the main road towards Knox shopping centre. As I was heading into the parking lot, the shopping centre being very distorted in this dream, I was anticipating my upcoming rendezvous with Riku in MYER for him to take me for elevator practise again. He hadn’t turned up yet, so while I was waiting, I decided to wonder around the store.

I came across a little girl who spoke to me in a very friendly way. I then walked over and saw a fair skinned, dark haired man, he wasn’t doing anything, but something felt off to me; I gauged that he was hiding something. When I ended up trying to question him, that’s when he became irritable. I then realised, he was the girl’s father and he had a reputation of being abusive towards her. Indeed, when I called him out for his behaviour, he became very aggressive and somewhat violent. However, I did not let my guard down and was throwing my weight at him and telling him where to go. As I was escorting the man out of the store, telling him how disgusting his behaviour was, the dream ended; Riku didn’t show up.



Dream No. 694
Dream Guide: Karla (Me)
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: WED 22 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 693 - Separated Sections

Dream 693 A - Call Security
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I had come back from shopping for something at Dandenong Plaza. I was now at home and was somehow in my parents’ bed. I was going to get in to have a lie down with Riku (in his KH3 appearance). However, my dad got in between us and was being very annoying. There was a digital clock in the room with a weird set of numbers and every time that went off, my dad would harass me to wake up and would not let me have a moment with Riku.

Eventually, I ended up calling out these various 5 or 6 digit numbers, making the threat to my dad that I was calling security. Every time I called out one of these numbers, he’d stop what he was doing and leave the room, but it wasn’t effective at all as he’d come back almost immediately. The dream morphed into us being in my bedroom and my dad was being annoying again. I remember this being the last ‘security’ number I called out. Also, Riku was partially distorted for this whole dream and just as Riku was finally about to ‘un-distort’, the dream forced a wake up on me.

Dream No. 693 B - Royal Melbourne Lies
I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was initially at the Royal Melbourne show with my mum, checking out all the various attractions. It was only a short while before one of the grounds staff members came and took her away as it were. Unbeknown to me, she was actually working at the show. I ended up speaking to Jasmine’s sister who was also working at the show but specifically with the horses. She said that if I came back at 11:00 AM, my mum would be done.

The dream scene then shifted to me being in an actual part of the Melbourne CBD and I was wondering around until it was time for me to go back to the Royal Melbourne Show. However, I wasn’t even back yet and I realised that they were keeping my mum for longer than they had said; she was basically their workhorse now. I now had to make my way there in order to get my mum back. Not only was I cross at the officials for keeping her, but being on my own seemed to make me feel somewhat scared and insecure. I feel like I needed help and so while still in the CBD, I went to look for a dream guide.

Just outside the train station, Riku ended up coming (in his KH3 appearance). I have entirely forgotten how he was summoned and how he came. Riku had a cool, casual, and fun temperament, but by his energy, I also knew he could tell that I was scared. The dream still had a while to go but Riku never let me out of his sight and always stuck close by for the rest of the dream, as if he was fulfilling the role of a mother.

It then became the scene where I was due to take the train to get back to the showgrounds and only in this scene was Riku seemingly not present. Rather than an actual train, the dream seemed to make me fly low across these railway tracks myself, as if I was the train…? However, I saw all these brick walls and various obstacles within the train tunnels and this freaked me out. As I sped towards the obstacles, just as I was about to him them, I thought, ‘if I hit them I’ll die!’. The time came and I hit a brick wall with high speed but I was not affected AT ALL and rather the brick wall itself crumbled apart. I was now on the other side, continuing the show, I thought ‘how could this be?’, but then I remembered that although not visible, Riku was still with me and so he must have protected me and made me cause impact to the wall instead of the opposite way around.

I got to the showgrounds and Riku was physically human again, now holding my hand and letting me take him wherever I wanted to go. It almost felt like I was now attending the show with the boyfriend I never had IRL. Riku was still able to ‘mother’ me and protect me while laughing at various things we ended up talking about as well as looked at the attractions I pointed him to. We came to a pavilion with all these carnival games and prizes, the most significant one I remember was the ball in the clowns’ mouth game.

While we were there, I looked down and I seemed to have all these laminated cutouts neatly ordered in my hands. There were four of each of my dream guides; (from left to right) of Riku, 18-Volt, and Dreamy WB. Riku’s were of his default KH3 pose. 18-Volt’s hair was bizarrely ‘too black’ but his skin was ‘too pale’. Dreamy WB seemed to have her OCT 2016 school uniform appearance with the two braids. It felt as if these cutouts were a part of the carnival game prizes, like a ‘collectors edition’ as it were.

I was then back to talking with the real Riku and making him laugh. After going to some more attractions on the fairgrounds with him having his arm around me, the dream ended.

Dream No. 693 C - The Destiny Islands
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I seemed to be at the Kingdom Hearts Destiny Islands myself. I didn’t necessarily spend too much time there. As I wondered from the coast with clear blue water and skies, I ended up seeing all this ‘dark, blue/purple’ crystal fissure-y stuff embedded into the cliffs. I decided to walk in the direction to see what it was about and as I kept walking, the rocks were all saturated with that crystal stuff, as if it were turning into the Realm of Darkness.

However, I saw the other-side of the cliffs and made a realisation. I noticed I had ended up in a dry, barren, somewhat polluted dessert and came to the realisation that this was the wastelands from Jak 3. I remember that I had only walked in from the Destiny Islands though, so I this was not another dimension. I thought to myself ‘the sky is connected’. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream 693 A
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Dream 693 B
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Dream 693 C
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: TUE 21 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 692 - The Better Way To Go

I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was outside a distorted version of Waverley Gardens Shopping Centre, which in the dream, wasn’t a shopping centre at all. I realised that elevator usage was compulsory as my family were holding a celebratory barbecue for my brother at this place and we had to enter from the rooftop and go down to get into the actual venue.

Fittingly, I saw Riku (for the first time in his KH Re:Mind Shibuya appearance) casually walking down the footpath, but off into the distance. However, I knew the dream put him there for me to get. So I ran after him, trying to get his attention. As I puffed and panted, I told Riku that my family were holding a barbecue for my brother and invited him to come (weird that I mentioned nothing about the elevator). Still though, he didn’t seem to turn around and so once I caught right up to him, I reached an arm out and tugged at his hood. He seemed to jerk a bit but gave no response and kept walking off, and then he was gone, so I thought he completely ignored me.

In the next scene though, my family were walking in the entrance of the venue and Riku also ended up being there (same appearance), so he did hear me in the previous scene. I looked up on my own at the elevator doors and began to shudder, though at the very last minute, I noticed that a well of stairs had appeared. Just as everyone was getting into the elevator, including Riku, I made a dash for the stairs. As I was going down the stairs, the dream seemed to show the rest descending in the elevator. My family were doing their own things, however Riku looked still but as if his energy was suggesting he was confused, like he knew someone was missing but couldn’t put a finger on it.

Once we were down, I seemed to be isolated and I never saw my family or Riku again. They were supposedly at the barbecue, but I ended up at this weird convention with various people I had known throughout my physical life and online life. Our group then went into a smaller room and I was being bullied by the speaker who was a teacher from my high school. As someone was also bragging to me about their character that protects them called Michael, I looked down and realised I had a laminated 18-Volt in my hands to supposedly protect me. My attention was then brought back to the teacher who was yelling at me for not being at the front of the room, but somebody else stuck up for me. I forgot what they said though and that’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 692
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

I was on JMU's campus in one of the parking decks, I got into my car and it went uncontrollably backwards and off the side of the second floor deck into a parking lot. A cop pulled up and thought I was drunk driving so he tests me, I'm over by .02, I freak out and beg him to test me again, he laughs and tests me again and I pass, we both cheer, I'm trying to high five him but I'm falling backwards and to the side but I manage to high five him.

I'm in the stadium now and there's a graduation or ceremony going on, I look behind me to see B, we make quick eye contact before turning away. My family is there too. At some point I think I'm on spongebob's 4d ride from King's Dominion but it has been massively gutted and it looks really broken down now. I'm in mario kart 64 on Mario's track at some point racing around. Then, I'm at some sort of market and it's night time, we're about to drive back home from JMU so I grab a few snacks and souvenirs from shops.

18th May

Fragment:
Last dream, in a place like Azeroth, Westfall.

Something about Warcraft II and the Deadmines. Several passing thoughts about classic dungeons. Then a mix of STV and the dam at Dun Modr. But it had a lower tier which was ramped. There was a ship like the Juggernaut inside DM but it was more Alliance-like than Orcish. The front of it looked like an old 1800s steam boat or something. I remember having a view point from above the chimney and looking in and thinking that the model wasn't finished because it just looked like a tube with few shadows and straight cuts through into each deck of the ship.

I then became aware of my body. I was sort of crouching but sitting on my bottom and became aware or made note of my genitals. I think H was present as a voice and we were talking. I said something about how "at normal size I'd barely be able to push my tip into the top of the chimney", which made me realise my scale in the dream a little bit. Even so, being giant didn't make question reality either as it should have. The dream ended soon after.

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Notes:
- Although I often have passing thoughts that relate to this type of dream situation (being giant-sized and "playing" with things), it's rare for me to actually have dreams within these contexts and dreams involving some kind of sexual stimulation or play are not too common for me.
- I used to mess around in private server versions of WoW that I'd run privately/on my own many years ago and would often change my character's scale to the maximum possible (usually 10 times or something). This dream may relate to that in some sense, and admittedly I'd sort of forgotten about that until re-typing this dream on this DJ.
- I remember when I woke up I thought it was odd I could hear H as a voice but not be aware of H's presence physically within the dream. I remember it made me feel as though there was quite a deep level of immersion in physical terms.