dream fragment

Hypnagogic Imagery: Everyone had collars on their shirts that were named after them. For example, a guy named John had a collar named Jollar. Thanks for that, brain.

I love a woman who can beat me at video games. (I don't know if this was hypnagogia, a dream, or what. That's just what my journal says lmao)

The next note on my dream journal says either "On Choir" or "On Chair"

Vague non-lucid: Pro gray band (illegible) and dude at a quiet auditorium who was praying (?) all boss sings to ??? (illegible)

I mean, yeah, I vaguely remember a dream about an auditorium, but that's it.

Unfortunately I have to stay a day or two in settler to work. Disrupting my normal routine. Very frustrating.

Jamie 1

Me and Jamie are in the Wheel of Time books again. Nothing much going on. She is driving a black SUV in the dream. Driving from WhiteBridge to Caemlyn on the road between the two. (I just read the part in the books where Rand and Matt escape WhiteBridge and go on that road.) I'm with her in the car and she's smiling as if happy.

This could be confirmation of her drive bys. I was asking for a dream confirmation that she does so that very night. Still prefer a verbal confirmation. I will ask the Jamie voice to confirm certain things in dreams. Usually she does if it's a simple request.

Jamie 2

Last nights dreams. I was outside. Maybe Jamie's farm. Everyone was camping outside on bunk beds. She was with some girl and ignoring me. They slept in separate bunks, but not together. I was a bit flustered she wasn't talking to me.

Jamie 3

Just an image of Jamie walking by a yellow car and keying it. Was this my yellow Neon? Oh no, she keyed my neon that is probably going to a scrapyard within a year or two anyway.

Woke up amnd figured something was wrong with Jamie in the dreams? (Dream demons, etc) So I prayed about it.

Jamie 4

I'm sitting with Jamie outside her dream house. There is healing energy about. Jamie is staring at the waves of colors that is coming from the healing.

hopefully the dreams improve tonight.

Hypnagogic Imagery: I saw the letters ZZ, I guess because of sleeping lol.

Non-Lucid: Some show about guys, "gal pals", on a plane with people in economy and others in main cabin. It was not a full flight.

Non-Lucid Fragment: My dad got (illegible -- ants?). Also: Do you want to stay for a movie? I said, well, 7 PM is a little late. He said "We're not getting dinner anywhere so I would keep score, but we would (illegible) cake ? (illegible) later.

Yeah, I can't decipher that one. I'm gonna have to count it as a fragment I'm afraid.

WBTB attempt: Failed. However, I did slip back into a non-lucid, though I have no memory or notes of it I fear.

Not great, but when work keeps me up late, sadly 'tis a gamble.

Dream
I'm in school and then I'm running from someone and I'm caught by the mafia and I get on a plane to outrun them but they get on before it takes off and they wanna torture me and my friend.

Dream fragment
- I'm doing target practice in a forest with my bf.

Dream 1
I decide to shoplift something from a brand bc I enjoyed it in a previous dream, I wanted a dark lipstick but I got caught and then the shopowner who was 51 years old suspected me because I wanted a jacket with literal oranges on it. The zipper was half peeled banana though.
I run out of the store and lose him, I'm also 17 in the dream. Papaoutai by Stromae was playing in the background.

Lucid dream
I break into a house to help a squirrel. There are coconuts there. Then I'm in a lambo where I become lucid and try take a photo but it doesn't work.

Dream fragment
- Watching some streamer with my friend who keeps falling off his chair.

My numbering was off. Whoops.

Holy crap, I took up two whole pages of writing. Let's see how much I can actually read from last night's notes.

Maybe the recipe is staying up later than usual + sleeping in later than usual + utter exhaustion by EOD. Plus, waking up multiple times in the morning then deciding nah, I'm going back to sleep.

• Hypnagogic Imagery: Wicked but wand-car. (What does this mean? I have no idea. But I wrote it down with the tag "hypna" next to it, so. )
• Dream: I was playing a spooky backrooms-themed video game.
• Dream: I was with my extended family in a spaceship, trying to make plans. We were hiding under an invisibility cloak that covered the entire spaceship. It was held together by Sonic. (????? What does this mean, version of me who wrote this at 2 AM?!) And then the whole world morphed into a backrooms game (like the earlier dream) and it had spooky noises.
• Fragment: Another dream with "some white dude" (geez lol) whatever that means.
• Attempted DEILD; failed.
• Dream: I was detaching a multicolored gel pen from a wall that it was stuck to, using a pair of scissors.
• Dream: I was taking a survey about satisfaction. It also asked me, "What scares you the most about life?" I don't remmeber what I answered.
• Dream: I was at a POOOOL (taken verbatim from my journal; I think I fell into a microsleep while writing the Os and my hand just kept going) with 2 others, including a lady who was not wearing any bottoms. LOL. We were plotting out our next move, like Pokemon. (???? I guess we lived together, but I don't know what Pokemon has to do with anything) I said "If it's not tropical, I'm not going." One lady in the pool suggested moving to this beach urban city, but it wasn't tropical. IIRC the weather was more like the Pacific Northwest. It was very pretty though, the image that came to my mind, with black buildings, foggy skies, greenery, and the ocean.
• At this point, it was morning, but I kept going back to sleep. I did a series of 4 WBTBs, but they were all extremely short -- I just got up to pee then went back to sleep. I failed all 4 of them. I could have stayed up longer but I was tired and I knew I had work tonight so I had to get my rest when I could. This did allow for more non-lucid recall.
• Lucid Dream: DEILD success but very briefly. T and I were in a house. I had a body pillow AGAIN (is this going to become a recurring theme? ha) and I was surrounded by some weebs "but still in@sure" -- I don't know what the part in quote means. I was confused as to why I had brought a body pillow to breakfast, because that's what we were doing, having breakfast. I remembered that I could teleport, so T and I did so together, back to our hotel room to drop it off. And THEN of course I went lucid. Because my normal reality checks didn't appear in my dreams, but teleportation did, and THAT is what made me lucid. Teleportation. Self-consciousness. And. Freaking. Body. Pillows. Unfortunately, I woke up before I could start my next task, flight, and immediately tried DEILD/chaining.
• DEILD attempt: I felt a lot of pleasant buzzing but still woke up. Need to keep persisting. Trying to relax.
• Dream: I was working at an office, but I kept falling asleep while trying to type terminal commands into Git Bash. I kept messing the commands up as a result. The other employee next to me was tired too. I checked some fun site for some reason, but my dream-boss saw me doing it. Also, there was a choir in the office singing for some reason. Falling asleep in a dream is a weird experience. It kinda felt like just...losing consciousness altogether then re-entering the same dream a second later.

4/21/25

Newly remembered fragment [0.5]:

There is an umbrella/sword/cane thing. I think it might look something like Steed would have in the Avengers.

4/22/25

Fragment 1: Digging (0.5)

I seem to be digging at a pipe in the ground, made of some soft silver substance. I/we dig away at this, and eventually have a squarish cleared spot in the side of a hill. Something might end up being parked or dropped there.

Fragment 2: Working in the Lab (0.5)

I’m working in the lab. My friend Z— is working there too. I’m trying to put something together using an Arduino. Then I go somewhere, and when I come back Z has taken my Arduino to use for his project. I think I need to have the project done soon though, and I’m a bit concerned. He wants to show his mother the project, I think. Some details in the dream involving wires being plugged into things. The potential new Pope is there also.

Fragment 3: Dating Site (0.5)

Scrolling through a dating site. It seems that I don’t know it’s a dating site at first. Actually, it seems to start off as pictures of models advertising some clothes. Some of the models are posing on the hoods of cars, and the light and heat coming off of the hoods distorts the image so that everything from the head to the lower legs is blurred together.

Fragment 4: Square Dance (0.5)

Something about a square dance. Maybe going to one? I don’t quite remember.

Fragment 5: Walking to my Jeep (0.5)

Going to my Jeep. I think, along the way, I (or we, again) pass a table on which a bunch of cats are either being auctioned or judged as part of a county fair activity. Past them, there are some women that look like they are getting ready to model in some kind of pageant.

Fragment 6: Approaching Pachyderms (0.5)

In a field – possibly laying down. There are elephants some distance away, that seem to be approaching us. At first I don’t think they pose much of a danger, but as they get closer it looks like we will need to move out of the way to avoid getting run over. I kind of roll out of the way, and I think get to my feet. Then I see that there are other animals that kind of look like rhinoceros or hippopotami.

4/23/25

Terrible night’s sleep. I don’t remember any dreams, if I dreamed anything at all.

4/24/25

Dream 1: Taking an Exam, and Star Trek Books [1]

I’m taking a test. I start out by trying to go question by question and answer them all in order, but then I realize that I don’t know a lot of the material. Also, the test is several pages long, and will take me quite a while to finish. Then I think the best strategy would be to go through and answer everything I can, coming back to the harder ones when I got the easy ones. I haven’t studied for this exam, at least not very well. There was a textbook, but I didn’t read it all. The instructor gives me a fair amount of time to finish the test, and I wonder if I could skim over the textbook and get a feel for where the information is located so that I can look it up. It’s an open book test…

…I’m looking at books and/or videos, either for sale or to borrow. This place has a bunch of Star Trek books, including collections of the James Blish adaptations. These collections look rather large. I wonder if there are some new ones in here that I haven’t read or seen. One of the books appears to be an adaptation of the animated series. I think to myself that this is how I used to look for tapes of the Avengers TV show.

4/25/25
Fragment 1: Old Office [0.5]
I have a vague memory of having dreamed about the University from which I just graduated. Something about my advisor, maybe. Then there is a memory of my old office, cleaner than it used to be.

4/26/25

Fragment 1: Spider [0.5]

There is at least one spider, under a small box. I think it might be poisonous. I'm lifting the box using a stick or something, I think.

Fragment 2: Batman [0.5]

I’m pretending to be Sherlock Holmes or Batman. Or maybe that is who I actually am. My last name appears to be Batman, and I think about what Batman’s last name actually is supposed to be.

4/27/25

Fragment 1: Overboard [0.5]

Aboard a ship. Pulling on a large flag, which might also act as a sail (though I’m not sure). Someone has gone overboard. This is taking place along the “middle” access area at the debris removal site.


Dream 1: Libraries, Protests, Trees [1]

“Oh, I don’t know how to protest
‘cause I don’t know what’s going on
I don’t know how to protest
And that’s why I sing this song”

I’m singing that song out front of possibly the library. There are other verses, the above might have been the chorus. One verse is about a fictitious Uncle who took risks and lost a duel. “But he knows better now” might have been the last line of that verse. I dance around while singing this, and sing to a guy who is apparently a villain. It seems like there was a whole plot earlier that I’m referring to. Maybe even a movie. I have a cane in my hand as I sing, and I mess with the guy using the cane. This guy is dressed in some fancy suit and is wearing a bowler hat, I think. Like a “Dandy” from the 50s or so.

I had gone into the library hoping to find a place to work on my laptop. I was going to a quiet place on the second floor, towards the back. Apparently this was the children’s section. A bunch of kids are sitting on the floor and a woman is getting ready to read to them. I need to get behind her for some reason, but she indicates that I’m not allowed to be there. This annoys me a bit, but I comply. At first I think I will just go around to the other side of a set of shelves, and am being kind of passive aggressive about it by making noise intentionally to disrupt the reading. Then I decide I should be kinder than that (or maybe I just don’t want to get in trouble), and go to find somewhere else to work.

Alternatively, I might have been singing this song around the time that I was going to talk to some debris removal guys about trees on the property of my grandpa’s house. They had been cutting trees that they weren’t supposed to be cutting, and had been rude to property owners who confronted them about it. I was planning to stand up to them if they were rude to me. I ask one guy about the trees he was cutting, and asked if it was necessary to cut them down. He says something that I have difficulty hearing, and I ask him to repeat it. It’s something about a tornado. He’s telling me that there had been a tornado warning, I think, but it was past now.

…Trying to figure out if/how I can tune into the Bible study or Church service before or after I travel somewhere. I wanted to go in person, but then I thought maybe I could join online…

…Something about a politician somewhere (Texas, maybe?) that is accused of something. I’m not quite sure what it was. Something about getting funding for something but having a conflict of interests…

I did see Jamie make an effort for more affectionate dreams but it seemed to backfire?

Jamie 1

I was in Jamie's dream space where there's a house on a farm. I was nervous about going into the house to see her. There were robots doing renovations on some barns. I was helping one of the robots who had an English accent. He seemed to be like the " Stuttering Bill." Robot from the final Dark Tower book. I remember climbing some crazy ladder but that's it.

Jamie 2

I was taking a cross country trip on a Greyhound bus. Crossed the border in the eastern states. Forgot what I did there.

On the way back a bus was full, but I was provided someone with a blue car. I sat in the back. Suddenly Packer was there, the one Mormon guy who went on a mission to Africa. I remember saying to make sure you sleep much of the way. I noticed the roads seemed icy but I trusted the driver.

Packer was now gone and Jamie was in his place. She put her hand over mine. I noticed she was wearing fancy gloves. I grabbed her hand putting my palm over hers and lightly held it. She was like: No! Not that way! She grabbed my hand again and seemed to indicate to Interlock fingers. But she wasn't happy with that either. I was like: I only know 2 ways, what other ways are there? She just looked upset and Impatient with me. I was getting really frustrated.

I woke up to her voice apologizing for the dream. She said I did it right but something else was bothering her, maybe something she did? Still why take it out on me?

Gross

I had a false awakening in the middle of having sex with someone. It wasn't Jamie and it didn't feel right. Especially when I noticed, "Satan," and, "666". Tattooed on their behind. I stopped and began looking for my clothes. The person wasn't upset with me. Still I felt gross and wrong and that what I was doing really wasn't me. I was on the floor looking for my clothes when I woke up.

The wheel of Time

I was in the Wheel of Time books. ( The season ended so now I'm taking up the books. Both reading some parts and audio books other parts ). I'm in the part where Nynaeve wakes up from everyone escaping Shadar logoth. I'm messing with a white computer case by a river. Nynaeve asks what I'm doing? I look around and realize that what I'm doing in that setting must be bizarre. I almost decided to laugh it off and say: you were looking for a white tower. Here's one. But I just woke up.

Bad apple

Jamie asks me to slice her an apple? In the kitchen all the fruit is rotten. I go to slice one and it's rotten. One part looks fine so I try to cut it out. But when I look back it's rotten also.

Still hoping for better dreams.

Fragment:
I'm in a park, playing a game.
I'm trying to get over a hill.
...
I'm heating a mask, it is a sort of exploit for a game we are playing.
...
I'm at highschool graduation and somebody is getting a religion-related honor.

Tarzan beatbox (fragment)



A bearded mixed-race man behind a grocery store starts imitating a traditional dance (or a series of movements) made previously by a spirit/monster but in a modern version while making the Tarzan yell and beatboxing, all while smiling.

1. Dream fragment -- talking about water slides
2. Fragment -- I was staying at a hotel, and took a nap (within the dream apparently)

Yep! That's it. I am trying harder to not let work stress creep into my evenings as I think that doesn't help

The Jamie voice seemed to not like my last post. Not sure why. I just go through recall dry spells from time to time. I'm still trying.

Jamie 1

Just a vague dream. There was a McDonald's attached to a Wal Mart. Jamie was working inside but seemed to be avoiding me. I left but went through the drive through for some reason.

Jamie 2

Jamie was walking around a bunch of screens displaying lesbian porn. She was trying hard not to look. But couldn't help herself at moments. The struggle is real.


Jamie 3

Jamie was standing by a white PC case Inspecting it.

Not much. Our dreams seem to lack a certain affection lately. Maybe I'm just not recalling.

Dream
I was in some actor's house which had a massive decorated pink tub. I hid in there. Turns out I was breaking into his house bc I was unhappy about who they'd paired him with in his show and I wanted to change it (this justified home invasion in dream me's eyes). I confronted him and asked why producers love pairing people with negative chemistry. However his tv partner was signed on for several seasons so it was hopeless.

I hid under his bed but got caught so smashed his window and jumped out. In the end he forgave me.

Dream fragment:
- I fell onto the GTA San Andreas map from the sky in a Jeep

I missed posting yesterday. Or, more accurately, I was so tired that I couldn't bring myself to sit at my computer and I just passed out instead. Ope.

I'll crank this one out as quick as I can, as I still have a few more things to do before bed tonight. But there's a lot. SO

NIGHT 6 (4/19-4/20)
1. Dream fragment: There was a show called Tigers and Tiaras.
2. Attempted DEILD; was not successful.
3. (full non-lucid) I was in some place that looked vaguely like a Japanese restaurant, fighting some monsters. Some had dangerous spit that would make you go off the rails a few hours after getting hit by it. I grabbed a large poster and almost knocked over some candles with it -- according to my knowledge in the dream, they were my mom's candles, though why my mom had brought candles into a restaurant I can't say. This was because I was in such a rush to get the monsters out of my way, but it made me nervous, as I did not want to start a fire.
4. I was at a carnival with rides near -- you guessed it -- Disney World. The mouse is plumbing the innermost depths of my subconscious with a fine-toothed comb.

I won a choice of gifts from a game or contest. I wanted to use the Fast Lane privilege at the carnival. Another alternative prize was a sock, and another alternative was a collection of Christmas-themed gear. I don't remember which one I selected, but probably the Fast Lane. We (me and who? I don't know) were then eating breakfast and watching the carnival rides warm up for the day. Then the announcer said my name, pronouncing my last name incorrectly, announcing that I had won.

The announcer seemed chill, but very tired.

I had to get some stuff done -- fun or work, I'm not sure -- before a plane flight out of Florida that I had at 4 PM that day.

5. False awakening! I had one of my classic "Writing in my dream journal" false awakenings. Unfortunately, I didn't go lucid. I think it would be smart to just do a reality check, and really question everything, every time I go to write in the journal. When I woke up, whatever I had written wasn't there, just the recordings from the earlier dreams listed above.

NIGHT 7 (4/20-4/21)

1. Hypnagogic imagery, in which I listened to the Easter piece we had performed in church choir that day.
2. (Non-lucid, but on the cusp of lucidity) I was lost in a creepy world, trying to save a bunch of princesses, including Elsa from Frozen (like I said, the mouse is deep within my brain -- !!!!), using a magic necklace to get past obstacles. We were inside some sort of vast, sprawling building.

But, they all ditched me, instead siding with the evil organization that trapped us there in the first place.

So I was left betrayed and alone by Elsa my beloved. Sad day.

Oh, and there was lava on the floor. Green and with the properties of honey. I couldn't tell you which properties -- don't remember; journal doesn't say. There were different chambers within this room that served to connect people to ancient princess powers.

Then, wishing for a safe space, I immediately found a chamber that actually led me outside, and holy crap. Beautiful night sky with stars and pine trees, and chirping crickets. I sat there in some random swivel chair, spinning myself around to calm down and relax. It was also nice and cool out there. Very hot inside the building. Lava will do that.

I was being protected then by some nice guardian ladies, but I was afraid that they would be overtaken by the now-evil Disney princesses.

While I didn't become fully lucid, I did have a slight influence over the outcome because when I wanted a safe space, it appeared. I really think I was just one more piece of introspection away from lucidity, in retrospect.

Instead i just kept twirling around and watching that starry night sky.

Who knows what happened to that necklace. Must've still been wearing it, but my brain forgor.

3. (Non-Lucid) I got my own backpack with fandom related merch in it! OK, so in addition to Mickey Mouse, the upcoming SDCC is also permeating deeply within my subconscious.

4. Hypnagogic imagery again -- Gaming-related, as I sat there half-awake 10 minutes before my alarm. Man, if I had been able to sleep another 30 but with that wakeup, I probably would've had some lucids. I experienced some buzzing as the beginning of SP and a sensation of vibration, but I was unable to launch into a WILD/DEILD due to the time constraint. Dang it!

LUCID DREAM (49)

I woke up naturally for wbtb (WBTB- 2) and started performing the dream walker technique. I was scared I was too awake and wanted to speed up the induction practice so I began running through the imagined scene instead of walking. I experienced some hypnogogia (1) but the. technique worked and I became fully lucid in my imagined scene. (FIRST WILD OF NIGHT- 10) I got shocked out the dream, but continued the technique and was soon back in. (SUBSEQUENT WILD-5). I stabilized (1) by licking my bathroom wall. I was standing in front of my bathroom mirror so I decided to use the mirror as a portal. I pushed my hand through it to make sure it wasn’t solid (3 STEP TASK #1- push hand through solid object-5) and I was able to push my hand through successfully so I then used the mirror as a teleportation device and went through (3 STEP TASK 2- fully faced through big solid object- 10, TASK 3- teleport 15) and I was in a fake void space. It was fully black and I felt like I was spinning. After a few minutes I lost lucidity


DREAM 1-1

My moms friend Courtenay asked me to cover her for some theater play thing but it kept nearly interfering with a play thing I already had going on. She’d give me no notice, and just expect me to be available. This happened multiple times in the dream, the last time was her needing me to go to this rehearsal at a specific time and stay the whole time but it would be cutting it really close to when I had to be at my own rehearsal. Then I had to fill out this worksheet for her that was busywork tedious fill in the blank stuff that needed to be done before I got to my rehearsal thing. I asked this guy to help me, idk him irl but I did in the dream, he was big and I sat on his knee while he was helping me

DREAM 2-1

Irl my ex boyfriend texted me today before bed, after days of Nc. In the dream, I “woke up” to find that I had messaged him back in my sleep, or like pocket responded. I think I just said “okay” or something and I was mad bc that wasn’t how I’d wanted to respond and I also hadn’t wanted to respond so soon. He had already messaged me and idr what he said but he was pissed off by my message and his response had lots of dot dot dots
………… in it

DREAM 3-1

My ex (but we were still together in the dream) got handed a fortune or something that was worth 130k or he was told that he would get this money when his dad died, I forget. He got so excited and was acting like it was so much money and telling me that we’d get to go on trips and buy a house and be rich basically. I was happy for him and us but immediately felt inferior and motivated like ok now I need to find a way to bring in money too. And then I started watching this reality show where it was a group of people and I forget what they did, it was something about food I think they went around the country to different restaurants and did stuff thre. And they were all making like 400k a year to do it, and I was like anyone could do this *I* could do this! I was watching one of the girls on the show and was staring right at this chick trying really hard to commit her to memory and I still knew that if I saw her irl I wouldn’t recognize her. This was exciting for me, because I could do this show and not be like an A list celebrity, being recognized everywhere I went. I was showing the show to my friend and I turned to
Her and was like that girl clearly hates herself I mean shes mixed and has bleach blonde hair and blue color contacts. And my friend agreed.
Then somehow I was in the show and we had a hugeeee tour bus and we accidentally hit some old guy in the parking lot so they let him come in and look around and take a short ride with us and play whatever he wanted so he wouldn’t sue. He asked if this thing goes fast and our manager was Like hell yeah even though we literally just ran over this guy so we probably shouldn’t be speeding, but the driver starts speeding all over the shopping plaza even on corners and wouldn’t you know it she ends up getting into a 3 car car crash the tour bus flips in the air and lands on its roof.
Also in the dream we were working in a specific restaurant for the episode and one of the guys started having a feeling one of the kids working there was being touched so he handed him this vial and was like take this vial if you’re being touched and the kid did. Ai image goes with this dream

DREAM FRAGMENT- .5

Mom and dad had huge Funyuns bigger than our heads