dream fragment

*sigh* My dream recall was actually better this morning. But I was forced to get out of bed fast, so it kinda went away in a couple of minutes.

And of course, that was eight hours ago.

So we're back to dream fragments...

Let's see, I was driving around. I had to find my car, which I did. I think I talked to my dad about something. I was hungry and I wanted to have some Pringles, but I'm on a diet, so I told myself I couldn't. I also wanted to go to McDonald's, I think. Then I went out cause I had a mission. I got my car and I think I drove to this shop at the beach? It was night. I ran into my cousin and we started hanging out, she was there with some of her friends. So we walked together and talked and then she went into a room. I followed and she was peeing, which should've been awkward, but I didn't even care, I just washed my face while she peed. I guess she didn't care either, since she never said anything.

That was it.

A vague memory of being in a place like a recording studio with some people, recording some kind of lost melody.

I'm in an apartment like my friends old place, the sun is setting mysteriously. I call up to an attic to get a cat down. It comes down with surprisingly little fuss. I pet it and carry it, it doesn't like that as much. I have to put it in a carrier, my mom can't decide which one. The cat is clawing me and pushing up against me, I'd like her to make up her mind.

That's all she wrote.

Well i wrote down some undetailed notes about my dreams 5 minutes after i woke up, so the dreams are not as detailed as they really were, but i remember some extra things i guess so i will try to post it as complete as possible:

First i dreamt about going to a supermarket, near the house of my grandmother, and buying a cup of tea with 20 tea bags in it, and a box of mint tea. I went to the house of my grandmother, which looked like the house of her deceased sister and my older sister and father asked me for a tea. But they didn't ask me the tea of the box since they didn't like that one, so i was ready to offer the other tea from the cup which i thought it was mint tea as well, from better quality, but the cup was empty. Then i looked again and around and i saw the twenty tea bags and all of different colours. I was dissapointed because i bought that cup because of the mint teas and they werent there.

The second dream was about an airplane. The first scene i actually remember was being in a room. It looked like my aunt's room and the room of my grandfather house. I was with two friends, they were Juan and Fran. I think they were mocking me or something like that, because they were ready to go outside and i lacked a few things so i couldnt go out yet. Anyways we were talking about the game GO. As soon as i go outside i go alone and i leave them behind, because i went to other place (basically where they tried to go was that they were going to get caught up by something dangerous, probably an air force, so since i thinked differently from them i didnt want to argue with them so i left to some place where i could do something). I saw my mother and my sisters coming from a forest or somewhere similar. I don't know what they wanted to do but i couldn't go with them. I got up in a plane in the docks, it was really small and there were 2 people in it, and we headed "home". At that time the dream ended but continued to the next dream.

The plane was bigger, actually it was an airport but we were flying already, in Argentinean territory i think. I looked at my flying ticket and it was written "Miami" while we were heading to London, or France. I talked to Claudia that i wouldn't want to go, to cancel my flight (i would not know what to do in Miami, all in the class were going to Europe and i would be travelling alone by mistake to Miami, so i said no i wouldnt go) she said something like 'ok' but she didn't do anything about it since we still were on Argentinean territory or in the airport. I went through the halls and i met with Analia, an english teacher, and i told her i didn't want to go because there was a mistake in my ticket and i wouldn't go to Miami, she said "it is ok, it has to say Miami, everyone in the class has the same ticket" Ohh i thought and i cooled down, i realized it was a general mistake and we were either all going to Miami or all getting the problem solved. Anyways i continued in the hall and i met a friend Augusto. He was gambling in a store, and if he won he would win pigs and chickens, and i told him "Hey! if you win you wouldn't be able to travel those pigs and chickens through the plane" and he was convinced that he could. Anyways i was imagining already what would happen at England if he did, his house with pigs and chickens lol, would have been very funny. I continue through a door and i saw a girl which was known in my school Sesin Clemen, i headed to bathrooms and i saw (again since in an earlier dream i saw him exactly like that) Martin, the brother of Fran going to a toilet. I went out of the bathrooms. I don't know where i headed but i met someone like the captain or something like that, and it was OpheliaBlue with him. She had no hair and a blue head, and a glass in one eye. She was a hacker and she hacked the plane, but i don't know for what purposes but i didn't sense danger.

At the end of the dream i dreamt about something different which i don't remember. I dreamt with Juan, a ball and water, probably doing a video.

I wrote other stuff but i don't remember what happened so i don't post that. So that was all.

To conclude i can say that the situations go from really silly stuff to better scenarios and situations, but still there is a limit in terms of dream characters, situations and scenearios, a limit which i would like to easily pass in the following dreams. Another point is the low vividness of them, it is hard for me to remember these dreams. I will try to have more vividness in dreams by increasing awareness in daily life, and also i will try to have lucid dreams by increasing self awareness in daily life.

I walked up to my front door. The "inside" door was open and the "outside" glass door was closed, so I could see inside. I was only like half as tall as I was in real life - apparently I was Frisk from Undertale. In the doorway I see Papyrus- but then I see that Papyrus has Sans's head. And I'm like, huh? Is that papyrus or Sans? And then I notice the strange way his top half and bottom half don't quite go together, and I see the blood seeping from his middle, and I realize that I had put Sans' torso and Papyrus' and vice versa, so now sans was tall and papyrus was short. Even though I did this gruesome thing, I was still basically a post-ending mercy-run Frisk. I had just come home from school and pap and sans were there to great me like proud parents. It was like taking them apart and putting them back together were, just, like, inconsequential but slightly annoying things that mischievous kids did.

Also later I'm me and my parents are home instead of papyrus and sans. Some homeless people come to the window and ask for food/shelter since it's christmas, but Dad says not to let them in.

Something at some point about running away from invading people or barricading from them or something. Something about white and then blue attacks as I'm lying on this flat couch thing in front of the window and people come up to the window. I dunno.

Again, my dream recall has been pathetic lately. I can remember the key points of my dreams, but I cannot link everything together (my dreams are usually very cohesive, when my recall is good).

So there was this bit where there was a pool at night and there were lots of body parts in it. However, that was not shocking to us (no idea who "us" is), we were all focusing on the FULL body there. Who was all blurry, cause the spirit was doing something?

So then I saw this film/TV show where a girl from the past was trying to figure out what had happened to the girl in the pool. When she was almost done with her investigation, another girl started digging too. The first girl had done nothing wrong, but she looked suspicious from the other girl's POV.

I tried to get the spirit to settle down and be calm, but I couldn't find it. It wasn't evil, but it seemed lost and angry at what had happened.

So I was at this school-ish place. I kept trying to make it seem like I studied there and I had to show my grades to my parents, so I had to fake them and it was stressful.

Then I had to go from one place to another, but I didn't want to? I think I was going out with my girlfriend (I don't have one in real life, though), but I needed to do something else first, something about the body/spirit. My girlfriend was bitching that she was waiting for me at the party. My parents went out (I'm pretty sure I was in dream!Lucas's house), telling me to take care at the party. Instead of going, I got the baby (?) and told it I'd take care of it. I think that's what they spirit wanted, so I watched the baby all night.

I feel like there was also some running around. But I can't remember anything about it, other than I was running a lot.

I don't remember the exact dream details but I think it was some continuation of the catastrophe fragment from yesterday.

26/12/15
Not much, a fragment about flour.
I think there might have been another little dream but I've forgotten it since then.

I had a lot of dreams last night. But most interestingly, I awoke within a black void that felt like a dream. Suddenly, with no memory of a prior dream, I became aware and could see nothing but black. I could hear the wind outside and my husband breathing but it sounded very loud as though it was inside my own head. I was confused about how that was happening. I was aware of my physical surroundings but the sensations were distinctly dream like. I tried to create my own dream and conjure up images but nothing was happening, I think because I was too fixated on trying to understand what was going on. Then I fell out of awareness.

My dream recall has been terrible lately. So there'll be no details:

There was some shooting, lots of running. I hid inside a car. A girl I hooked up with years ago was in another car hiding. We met, she was mad at me cause I was apparently killing people. We ran together. There was some more shooting and hiding.

F1 - Its a brightish day and i'm in a carpark. I help some woman with long blond pony-tail with getting stuff into her car.

F2 - Travelling along a tightish tubular tunnel. Along the sides are snakes similar to those in prometheus (alien babies). I feel very threatened and spray acid from a gun at them. They die, melting in a very gory way. Still looking at me with one eye and one melting into just a dark eye socket.

F3 - Still near tunnel, i'm in futuristic train compartment. I need the toilet and find a strange retangular door that opens wahlaa! but am to embarressed to use it.

F4 - In dark classroom watching a video. D & M are sitting back observing. Feeling very nervous. Older kids are there, Na moves but other kid lays sprawled refusing to move. Sit down next to kid slurping a drink. I try and persuade/coerse him to behaviour. All very fraut. Feeling of low self worth.

[Comments]
Underlying feelings still remain regarding work.
Snakes may be symbolic of kundalini supressed by xmas over eating (stomach acid).

Frag1 - famous foorballers outside a glass fronted restaurant. An area with lots of tables, I go over and talk about something,

F2 - In a large school house trying to get away/hide from someone. I fly up onto a low ceiling at back of classroom it is sculpted bumpily like a rockface. I clamber as far up as I can precariously. Something is outside.

F3 - In a stationary cupboard? small room getting paint for George. Loads of forms and handwritten envelopes with nice stamps and wadges of money.
F4 - Zi comes into classroom after lesson to give me pencil sharpener, i am warey of him.

just a fragment - some kind of catastrophe with destruction of a building and some fire that I was being blamed for but I was so tired I didn't care

Cold medicine screwed my dreams up, they all bleed together into a soup of nonsense.

I remember me and a group of people we were outside this really old stone mansion. Parts of the home still had wooden interior but it was water damaged and stunk. Someone had purchased the home and I got the feeling they made a big mistake. There seemed to be no roof and while sitting on a swinging bench with some woman, I looked up to see the huge full moon. There was a cabinet with 13 shotguns, and a weird device that was dripping water. When I walked back outside it was day light and I began moving some fallen limbs from nearby trees. I saw that one of the limbs had fallen with a bird house and I started removing the pieces when i heard a hissing and a snake came out. It had been eating the baby birds and was trying to get away. It was about 6 feet long and silver with yellow spots. I tried to chase it, and that's where the dream turned to me being indoors at my parents house and the snake retreated to the spare bedroom.

The next hing I remember was riding around on what looked like a small motorcycle that someone had gotten for Christmas. There was this stranger there and we started talking about cars. I asked her to tell what the fastest stock model Mustang was, and began to tell her about the 1992 Fox body mustang the police used to drive. For some reason I was convinced that this model was the fastest ( probably because I used to have one)

Later in the morning after i had awaken a few times I tried to focus on the target mission of the great pyramids but only briefly did I actually see them, and there was no one there. Diphenhydramine was playing a number on my concentration as I found myself in the weirdest places and not able to stay connected to Egypt....at all. I'll try again tonight.

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID
FALSE AWAKENING
NIGHTMARE
FRAGMENT
HYPNAGOGIC SOUNDS
HYPNOPOMPIC SOUNDS
(Unconnected dreams indicated by a *. Connected dreams indicated by a •. )

I call the sound hypnagogic because I was trying to sleep in. When I went downstairs to check, Mom didn't seem like she had called me. Also I am no longer in school and do not go to work so there is no reason she should have called me. It was clearly my name.

* I am on the Magic School Bus.

* My mom is calling my name.

I was quite tired yesterday. Went to bed earlier than normal and read a chapter in my book. The chapter was so long that I ended up really going to bed around the same time as normal (about 23:45). I woke up around 08:30. It's now 09:00

Penisslip
I'm in my mom's living room. I can tell by the big, black couch. I'm with my friend Sel. I can't recall why, but she is making me take off my shirt. There's nothing really sexual going on between us. I also have to take off my pants. Before doing so I take a moment to look which boxer I'm wearing, as I don't wanna embarrass myself with a childish boxer. It's an ok one. I pull my pants down, but the tip of my penis sticks out of the top of my boxer. Ah crap. I tuck it away asap, but Sel starts laughing and tells me she's already seen it. At this point I'm also hoping that I won't get a boner, because having a bulge in my boxer would be really obvious now. I'm hoping she will take something off as well. She is hot after all. She tells me that she is still dating Lukas. Really? Lukas? He is such a nerdy dude. I can't see them being together, her being out of his league. Also the thought that he is still with Lea is vaguely in the back of my mind.

Gym (this dream is full of gaps)
We have to travel a long way to a gym for some physical education class or something alike. We actually have to take the train or bus. The person I'm with and I decide to take the bus I think.

I recall talking to a white male who was somewhat important. We're in a big room and he's showing us around a bit. He might be the dad of the person I'm with. Eventually we have to leave to take the bus again. It's gonna be a long ride.

We're in the dressing room, along with some other people. It's time to go back home. Again we can choose between the train and the bus. I have a shitload of stuff to carry with me. I consider leaving some behind and picking it up on the second round, but then I remember how far it is and I don't want to do that.

We narrowly miss the train I believe, so we decide to take the bus instead. While we're driving I come to the conclusion that I've left some stuff behind. Fuck. I call someone, but he's already left the gym as well.

At some point while I'm still in the bus I hit the stop button, but I do so too early. I can see the train station a bit further in the distance. I consider getting off anyway, because I'm a bit embarrassed. The bus makes a stop, but I then realise I still have to put on my jacket and get all my stuff together. In the mean time some people start getting off. More and more until finally everyone has left. The bus continues driving with me on it and someone makes a comment which I can't remember. The bus descends rapidly as if I'm on a rollercoaster. I can actually feel the sensation and the tingling in my stomach. Then it's over and we've reached our destination.

Outside of the bus there's a girl to greet me for some reason. A kind of hostess/promo girl. We strike up a conversation as we walk inside together. She talks about the time she had to sing for a group of people.

Fragment
» I'm looking at a fullscreen map of the Netherlands. It's all misshapen. Groningen [a city in the north-east] is in the south-west. The map shows some colouring that I don't understand around Groningen. It makes me wonder what it's supposed to represent.

» My cousin tells us about how she was on the tram just now. She was seated and on the seats behind her, she had put two boxes. One were the parts for a very expensive cargo bike. Another was filled with baby stuff. When she turned around they were gone. Someone must've stolen them. I feel bummed out for her, but at the same time I wonder why she didn't switch places with her stuff so that she could keep an eye on it.

» My friend Anthony has posted something on LinkedIn. I don't recall the exact message, but I recall thinking that this was more of a FB post. It's about being grateful or something and about a party. Next thing I'm walking in the park during daytime with my friend Jor. Anthony wants to join us, but apparently the two of them are having a fight. Anthony remains quite normal under it and gives me the gist of the story, whereas Jor definitely doesn't want to talk to him. This is a bit of a weird and uncomfortable situation. I pick out a spot in the park to put a blanket down and chill. At first I thought about getting myself involved, but they can figure it out for themselves.

Sales
I'm the officemanager of a salescompany I used to work for. I'm surprised to find out myself, as I wasn't the best salesman. Even though I'm the manager, I don't know shit about shit and I feel like a fool. I get instructions rather than giving them. My people meet their targets though, which practically means free money for me.

It's daytime and I'm in a public building where a kid is having his/her birthday party. We're out here to make some sales. I strike up a conversation with 1 or 2 people, but no success. Eventually we move outside, as there are more and more salespeople around this place, working for different charities. Outside are people from my office. It didn't occur to me, but suddenly I realise that I'm holding a BNN sign, which is a organisation that some of us are selling for. Not me though. I have a big laugh at this.

Rainbow carpet
Not sure if it's me or someone else, but someone is driving a car around and I'm in it. It's daytime and I can make out the street pattern quite well. At some point there is the consideration of where to park (as in, where is the free parking). I recall the places where you have to pay, so lets avoid those at least. We end up at a roundabout.

The roundabout is a bit of a magical happy go lucky place. There's a fabric of some sorts which has been lain around the roundabout several times. It's rainbow coloured and quite soft and special. Polgara is also present. We are arranging the fabric again so that it's set properly. My little brother is there as well, sitting behind the computer. I tell him to come and help us. First he makes up the excuse that he's doing homework or something alike. Then he comes with a different excuse. And yet another. Dick.