lucid

Since I'm stuck with this cold I decided to just sleep in today and get rid of it faster. This brought on a series of like 20 dreams, all very fast and all divided up when my nose would get runny and I'd wake up.

The only one worth mentioning was my first lucid experience in a while. I'd say this was my most present one, as there were no visuals to distract me, just extremely loud audio and subtle physical. Once I realized I was in a dream, I reverted to laying in my bed just as I really was, but some childrens radio station was playing loudly from the other room, and my legs and torso kept lfoating off the bed. I couldn't figure out how to get the visuals to start, so I just chilled out. I woke up quickly after that thanks to my nose itching, but when I woke up I realized... did I just have to "open my eyes" to get it to start? Is it that simple?

Had a lucid dream this morning. It was DILD but I lost lucidity somewhere down the line in the dream. Stabilization is a challenge that needs to be worked on but I am glad lucid dreams are happening frequently.

Just started HowToLucid.com 30-day bootcamp. Not shilling or anything, I just have been looking for a structured program to develop lucid-inducing habits. Success is a process, not an event.

This was one of the most amazingly vivid LDs I've ever had and all thanks to my awesome boyfriend. I went to bed at 10pm, he joined me at 3am. That woke me up, but I was too sleepy to actually get up and do WBTB, so I just rolled over and immediately started dozing off. That's when he whispered to my ear: "Go lucid". And man did that work like a charm. The moment he said it I slid into the most vivid LD ever. I was walking down some hallway and everything got hyper realistic. I was so excited I could barely keep calm.

I enter a room and there's a girl named Lucy who's apparently my dream world friend. I'm telling her that I'm lucid and trying to stay calm. I remember that I should stabilize the dream - stand still, breathe slowly. It works.

I try to levitate a bit and that also works nicely, the room is not that large so I can only jump into the air and then softly float around or land on my feet again. I've never felt this AWAKE in my life.

I want to try to create something in that dream world but for the love of me I can't come up with anything I should do. Still too excited. I ask Lucy and she says "Well why don't you float up to the ceiling and create a little landscape on this floor here." (By the way my bf pointed out her name to me this morning when I woke up - Lucy/Lucid. Coincidence? )

I try to float up but my body seems to be too heavy and I'm still kind of sinking back to the floor. Out of the blue Lucy faints, it's like her consciousness gets knocked out. I come to her and try to wake her up, but there's just her lifeless body lying on the floor. At this point it feels like I'm losing the lucidity.

I walk around the house and find what I consider to be her actual real life body sleeping in bed. I don't want to wake her up so I go to my room, find my bed and sit in it. Then I remember that the one thing I always wanted to do in a LD was to meditate.

I sit in a lotus position and close my eyes. Immediately I'm sucked into this vast black void, it physically feels like I sunk hundreds of meters deep into my mind. There's nothing but blackness but also this amazing clarity. I have thoughts but they don't matter, everything is just so ... clear.

There's a lot of energy, like everything resonates with it, it's the matter of my mind and it's myself and it feels so awesome. I don't know how long I linger there, but then I wake up into a non lucid dream. I feel like there's an intruder in the house.

I get up and go check the hallway. Noone. At this point it's just a regular dream. I walk over to Lucy's bedroom and wake her up to tell her about my LD. She seems excited about it but her dad won't let me speak and keeps talking about his comic books.....?

And then I wake up.

This was the best LD ever since the first one I had 10 years ago

1. I was walking home from the area where my bank is at. Multiple people whom I didn't know were walking in the same direction as me. It was nighttime and rather quiet. Suddenly I thought to myself, "Why am I walking so slow and why am I even walking home in the first place? Is this a dream?" I ask. Now I become lucid, but I look at my tattoo just to make sure. Immediately I notice that my tattoo is insanely smaller than usual, the font is different, and it is now near my tri-cep/elbow area of my arm. It took me only seconds to notice all of this and I was on my way. "What should I do?" I thought to myself. I start running and just looking at my surroundings. I see that there is a mexican grill in front of me, and there are lights surrounding this building. "Oh, I gotta get that time dilation watch" I said to myself. Just then I manifest a trail of light that will lead me to the watch, and indeed, a glowing yellow neon trail appears at my feet.
I start following it with a quick pace, and soon I find myself running once more. Suddenly my pace started to pick up without my intention of doing so and I was now running incredibly fast and also sliding at times to get to my destination. At one point, I could see ahead of me that the trail actually went into the ground. As I looked exactly where it went into the ground, I saw that the area of the ground that it went into was transparent. Because of this transparency, I could see below into another "level" of the dream? Or Earth maybe? It was rather confusing. In this other "level" of ground I saw a smooth clean tennis court that resembled something out of a video game. While still maintaining an incredibly fast running pace, I jumped and dove head first into the transparent part of the ground with the intention of going through. While doing so I manifested music and musical effects into the dream. As I went through the ground I heard futuristic electronic noises. Seconds later I "awoke" in my bed.
I immediately grabbed my Dream Journal from the side of my bed(I haven't used an actual notebook to journal in over a year) and I start writing stuff down. About a minute later I lay back down and within seconds find myself in another dream. I'm now in Walmart. In front of me there is a large kiosk with interesting looking products on it. Suddenly I become aware of how the current situation is odd and I once more ask myself, "Is this a dream?". I then become lucid and decide to look at the products at this kiosk. As I walk right up to the kiosk I pass a coworker I know and she says "hey" to me with which I reply to with a "hey" back and continue on my way.
I kneel down and see that these products are something I've never seen before. I have no idea how to describe them. I can say however, that each product had a word on it. One product had "Wealth" written on it, another had "Health" written on it, another had "Happiness" written on it. None of these products really interested me, except for the health one. I look a little to my right and see another product labeled "Sleep and dreaming". I pick up the health product and then grab the sleep and dreaming one out of curiosity to see what I can do with them.
Suddenly I am transported to some sort of busy market street where I am getting shot at from almost every direction except for directly behind me. I see tons of bullets fly past me and I have no idea what is going on. I attempt to "pause" the situation, and as I do so, a pause menu pops up and takes up my view. Though this menu is now fully taking up my view, I am still being shot at and nothing has been paused at all. Through the transparent pause menu I can see this clearly and I can also see that I am losing health extremely fast from looking at my health bar on my HUD.
Within seconds I lose all of my health and die. Everything just suddenly fades to black and this time I actually awake in my waking life bed. "Holy shit" I think to myself as I make a note to remember everything I had just dreamt as I turn over and fall back asleep.
Suddenly I am back in Walmart and have just walked out of the backroom. "Why am I here? I'm off today? Is this a dream?" I said out loud. Instantly I knew that it was and started on my mission: to find A. I see my manager Treyvon a few feet ahead of me. "Hey trey, have you seen A?" I ask him while unintentionally yelling. "Yeah she's right over there" he says as he points over to the cosmetics area of the store. I take off and start running over to the cosmetics area. Suddenly I see a girl with black hair. "That looks like it could be her" I think to myself. I go up to this girl, but as she turns to look at me I realize that it is not her. "Have you seen A?" I ask this random girl who is about my age and rather short.
"Yeah she just went down this aisle" she told me as we walked onto the aisle she pointed at. Just then I see her. She's wearing a tan long sleeve shirt and black leggings. Her black purse is on her shoulder, and overall she is looking fine and fancy. Seconds later A looks right at me and instantly we start walking towards each other. Now we are standing not even a foot apart, and I'm just looking into her dreamy blue eyes. "Wow" I say out loud. I notice that she seems mad/annoyed by the look on her face. Suddenly I get a really really strong notion that she's mad at me for not coming to her earlier. A then turns to walk away, but she only takes one step before I grab her by the arm(softly). "Woah wait, you're not going anywhere yet" I tell her. I then pull her in for a kiss and she doesn't fight it. As my lips are literally inches away from hers, the dream starts destabilizing and everything quickly goes black and I wake up.

Note: in this entire dream chain, each dream was crystal clear and as usual, felt hyper-realistic.

A DC gave me a new world. I tried it out for the first time today and here was my experience. The world seems to have been a sort of game. The world consists of one main room (large square room) filled with several side rooms. About 3 side rooms on 3 of the sides and no side rooms on one. That's 9 total rooms and one full wall. The rules of this pocket world were this.

1, The only way to enter this world is by entering a invalid URL into any electronic device, doing so will take you to the game's webpage which will change your location to the game room.

2, To leave the world, you only need to tap an iPad on the wall between the doors

3, There are two types of entities in the world, one are players, those are standard dream characters. Second are monsters, those are summoned by players through the use of playing cards

4, Monsters may use magic and abilities while players have about the same amount of usefulness as humans. Players need monsters to defend themself's.

5, Players may use side rooms to face each other while players in the main room may fight "waves" of enemy monsters.

Now, here are my experiences. I get gifted this world by a dream character, I don't remember the details. The world was filled with about 30 people in the main room and 2-3 people in each side room. The main roomlooked like a dance hall. I first moved through each side room introducing myself and asking about the world. When I was done, I entered the main room and the first battle started. I reached into my pocket and found cards with other dream guides and "main characters" that I met a long time ago. I pulled each of them and they spawned in. They fought the many other beings with their magic and attacks. They weren't easy battles and I could only have 1-2 monsters active at once.

After two battles, everyone was preparing for a third. About 20 seconds after the second wave ended, the room got very dark and I could barely see. The dance hall turned into a blank black walled room. There were dark red glowing lines all over the black walls and there was no light and I couldn't see anything but the dark red glow of the walls. All I could hear was the other players monsters dying. I panicked and tried to attack but to no avail. Just then, a song started. I realized that I needed light and I flipped through my deck of cards revealing nothing. Once I hear the song, I know what to do. At this point, I become lucid and I sit down on a imaginary bench and start playing a piano I made out of light. After I hit the climax of the song that was playing, the room lights up and a new door is revealed. I open the door with my song and pull the DC out that caused the attack. All of the players crowded around me wondering how I broke the rules of the world. At this point, I decide to leave the world to do other LD stuff.

All in all, the world was fun and I think I'll visit it later.

I am in an orchestra I play in.
BREAK


I run outside onto my back lawn and people say 'Look!'
I look upwards at the night sky and see Neptune and a bright blue star.
I realise I am dreaming. People say 'Why lucid dream when this is here?'
I sight Mars and terraform it.
It looks like Earth.
BREAK

Then I was in an intergalactic conference about how humans on different planets had evolved so much they were different species. Should breeding be allowed?

The result was me waking up.

I was in what looked like a library room where there are card catalogs & a desk. But then it turns out to be a tv set for the Andy Griffith show. I notice Ron Howard who plays Olpie but he is a kid like he was on the show way back then. So I realize that I am back in time & become lucid. I'm excited & telling him that he is going to be famous & that when he grows up he will be a producer & director. We are walking around & I'm trying to figure out how long ago it really was & I tell him that I know about this because I live in the future about 50 years from this time. I was laughing to myself because I'm trying to do math in a lucid dream. It was mostly tricky because when the show aired it was ahead of when the time of the show was set in. The set was really cool but I lost my lucidity & just woke up.

27.11.2016

(MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up 5.5 hours into my sleep. I stayed up for 35 minutes then went back to bed and tried MILD/WILD. I had a hard time keeping awareness and eventually decided to just try to catch the moment I fall asleep (Catch the Butterfly/Free-Falling WILD, etc.) like I used to 4 years ago. Eventually I fell asleep but didn't retain awareness.

I was in the dining room with my mom. I got up and walked towards the kitchen. Fiona was wagging her tail, Tonka lifted his head and looked at me. I was a little confused. I then realized Tonka was dead, so this was a dream. I turned around and told my mom I was dreaming! The dream destabilized and I was back in my bedroom. I did a RC and stabilized for a bit by rubbing my hands. I went downstairs, my head felt a bit heavy. I assumed it was night time due to it being dark. I made it a bit brighter and saw Tonka walking towards me. I lied on the the floor with him and he licked my face all over, like when he used to when we hadn't seen each other in a while. I pet him, hugged him, kissed him. His fur was damp and smelled of shampoo as if we had just showered him. He let me know (without talking) that he missed us. I wanted to get to the Deku Tree. I walked to the door and called him, he came over but he didn't want to step out. I tried pushing him but he wouldn't come out of the house.

I had a few FAs in which I tried to manipulate the dream through a computer program, and was able to communicate with Carolina through telepathy.

I then had a FA in which my RC failed and I continued on with a non-LD.

It is nice seeing Tonka in my dreams, and he's starting to be somewhat of an obvious dreamsign for me. When we were putting him to sleep, as I lied next to him hugging him, I whispered in his ear "see you in my dreams", and so far we've been keeping that promise. I wonder why he never wants to leave home; it could be that that's what I remember of him during his last month of life where he preferred to stay home sleeping instead of going out for walks. Or, if you want a more spiritual approach, it could be that his soul is at home and does not want to leave. Either way, I need to start giving more priority to my other goals. I could try to summon him outside of home and see if that works.

In a work bathroom, I look in the mirror and see a youth with long straggly hair, wearing two ties Oo one red and black and the other blue. I am in to much of hurry to change and head into the bar, where some people are ordering sandwiches and pints of beer.
I end up in a grassy area, it is partially sunny, more like fading sun of late afternoon. There are some stone benches outside the building, in the cold.
I'm lucid and try and summon someone but it doesnt work, some women have appeared but they do not seem to be her. I use mind control on them but soon get bored with the clumsiness of it all.
Again I try to summon her, this time the sky is filled with brightness and I find I am aerial again looking down on S who has been summoned.
Her long blonde hair cascades down to her waist, she is in the form of half angel with big wings and half bird (eagle I guess) with long white tail feathers. She is flying towards the setting sun. And we are high up above the sea. The glittering makes everything seem like a giant stained glass window.
Its all very captivating, as is she.

It is night, I’m an undercover cop in a white van which looks like an ambulance. My colleague is behind me. We park the vehicles near a bus stop. We get out of our vehicles. Every time a car pass us I run after to make them scare. I get in my colleague car and he takes the van. We go in different direction. I’m driving when suddenly I realize it’s a dream, my body start to float in the car. The car starts to levitate in the air at the level of the roof of the houses and I start to accelerate, while driving I ask the dream a personal question but no answer. When I stop I’m now on the edge of a very high purple mountain and in front of it there is a tunnel hangs in the air which is transparent. My friend joins me with his vehicle on the edge. So we go in the tunnel at a very high speed…

this dream was very real, and I have heavily attached emotions to this dream... I feel like I lived, and experienced it....

here it is,

It was a bright sunny day, and me and my boyfriend tristen, we're having car troubles. We were in a run down gas station with his car broke down and I even remember the theme colors on the gas staion. Blue and yellow. Tristen told me he was going to find some help, because no one at the gas station was to be seen. We were in a very rural area. Just one intersection and the gas staion was on the corner of it. Both roads didn't seem to of led anywhere. So he just went down the road he saw a house on. He walked to this house, it was maybe a quarter/half mile away. I waited at the gas station for about an hour... I was getting worried at this point and thought I should go find tristen. Not to mention I was alil scared and eerie* and I felt in danger. After about 20 minutes contimplating what to do or just hoping I'd see Tristen walking back. I made the decision to go to the house he was going to.

As I got closer to the house, I saw 8 people out on the front yard, it also had a very long driveway. There were 2 young kids. One little girl about age 6 (I assume) and her brother, which was about age 10. There were 5 grown men sitting on the picnic table in front of the house. The house was a very beaten up trailer. And then... there was "The Man".. this man was the 'leader' or, for better words, the father. He was the authority of that whole group of people. He had a medium sized lumber jack beard with a beaten up dirty T-shirt and highly intoxicated. I appoach the people and I already knew I wasn't going to leave. They all looked at me like a piece of meat. The kids stood back intimidated and worried. I approached The Man and said, "have you seen my boyfriend? Hes has blonde hair, blue eyes.. hes said he was going to come here for help? can I please use your phone to call a tow truck? We're stranded and I don't know where I am. Where am I?" He looks at me with a grin... a disgusting grin. "No," he replies. "You're not going anywhere." Angerly. Once he said that I felt my heart sink to my bum. All my bad feelings/intuitions were going to be right.. I took a step back, looking at him scared for my life. "It's okay little girl, sit down." He said. I slowly sit down. He asks me "So do you have a cell phone?". I did have my phone but the service wouldn't work. I could call 911 If I just got one bar. So I replied, "No.. but I should go look for my boyfriend he's been missing for over 2 hours."and he strikes back, violently standing up from the picnic table "I fucking told you, you little bitch, you aren't going anywhere. Just like your poor poor boyfriend hahaha." At this moment I KNEW I wouldn't be able to leave... I pissed him off... he now just told me what he's was trying to not tell me... that he had my boyfriend and he wasn't okay..I say "please! don't hurt him! please just let us go! we just wanted help! We didn't mean to disrupt you!! I didn't see anything I promise!" The Man replies snickering in immusment, " you really think I'd let you leave bitch." He puches me in the jaw and knocked me out..

now I've been knocked out before and I know what it feels like.. and in this dream I really felt like I was knocked out... it was so surreal.
Anyways, I wake up in this room that had actual car seats surrounding the walls of the room. I saw an old dog that looked like he was on his last leg (about to died soon). The walls looked like there was black mold on them. Black patches all over the walls. The smell is so vivid too, it smelt of dog urine and feces along with visual poop and pee stains. There was baby girl clothes strung out all over the dark green carpet. to my left behind me was a closet... I get up and start frantically searching for Tristen. I got to the closet and moved around so clothes on the floor and I see Tristen huddled up in this secret compartment joining the room next to this one. I tell him "it's okay baby! I'm here! We'll get out of this!! I have my phone!" Tristen looks up at me and says defeated "you shouldn't of came here... he's going to know you have your phone..." I look at him with shock, because he really didn't look happy or relieved to see me, not even in the slightest. He seemed defeated.

Not long after he had told me I "shouldn't of came here", I heard footsteps coming closer, and closer. I quickly went back to were I was last positioned before I woke up and proceeded to pretend like I was still knocked out. The Man walked into the room and said, "hey little girl," in a sweet tone, "get up, I know your awake." At this point I know he's smarter than me... like it was a plan almost... an unexpected plan, A fantasy coming true. So I rise up and he grabs my arms and starts shaking me and screaming things I couldn't understand, because I was so scared all I was thinking about was, I'm going to die here in this room. He let go of me and "collected" himself. Then he got really close to my face and said, "do you have a cell phone?" Tristen, right now, is now outside the closet and he must not be able to move very well cuz I saw him struggling to get up. He wanted him to stop. I replied to The Man, "no... " I look at Tristen and he nods to me, indicating he knows and to give it up.

The Man raises his eyebrow just starred at me like he was thinking of all the sick things he'd do to me... but also saw him getting more and more pissed. I tell The Man "I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Here take it! Please just let us go!" The Man then replied "oohh.. you naughty little girl." In a sexual tone. The Man's face turned to sick and twisted and amused, to straight anger and resentment. I grabs my arm very tightly. I could almost feel my arm bruising. he drags me out to the front yard and in the mean time he ordered one of the men sitting at the picnic table to grab Tristen. The Man said very Angerly, "kids come now!!! Line up!!! We have a liar here!" He lines me and the two kids up side by side while my boyfriend watchs. He grabs a cigar cutter from the bare picnic table and proceeds to go down the line, forcing the kids to stick their finger in the cutter. He didn't cut their finger off.. seemed as if it was a scare tactic. He gets to me and he smiles with such satisfaction, and says "you know what we do to liars in this house?"... I reply, "...n-n-no.."* He grabs my ring finger and shoves it in the cigar cutter and says "well you will now." He cuts my finger off.

I swear to God I've never felt such pain before in my life. I held my nub of a finger and I tried covering up the wound. It was so so sooo surreal, my hand was shaking, and it looked so realistic. He then took us back to that same disgusting room. He threw me to the ground and I just remember shaking and my body's adrenaline, I was in panic. I look at Tristen I tell him, "we are getting out of this place tonight." There was 1 small window. We could fit through it if we tried.. everything was pretty quiet after that. The Night set in and I knew if i didn't do this correctly then I was going to get us killed. The window was nail shut. I though if I could just get those nails out, we could actually do this. I started to wiggle out a nail that wasnt in all the way and once I got it out I used it to take the other ones. Once all the nails were out, I look at tristen, nod, and he knew it was time. I very very verrryyyyy slowly lifted the window up. Less then centemeters at a time. Finally after about 20 minutes I got the window open.. I tell tristen to go first so I know that he is safe..

we made a plan to run as far as we could in the other direction of the house. Tristen makes it out of the window okay and I quickly followed. Everything seemed so real.. I could remember smells, touches, tastes, and vivid voices. We both made it out safe. All I remember is running and running and being so out of breath. then all the suddenly I woke up. Sweating, crying, heart racing* (like just ran a mile) and confused as to where I was.

26.11.2016

(MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up 6 hours into my sleep and stayed up for 25 minutes. I went back to bed and tried WILD/MILD. I kept waking up fully after noticing that I was about to start a dream. Eventually I fell asleep into a non-LD

I was crying in a corner, I was really sad about something, couldn’t remember what it was I was sad about. Scene skips, I’m in a beach. A girl talks to me and tells me to come surfing with her. A huge wave washed her board away. I jump in and start swimming against the waves to recover it, but the waves are too strong. Suddenly I start getting stung by jellyfish. They are everywhere. I swim back to shore, get stung a few more times. The girl is wearing a red bikini, she has a really hot body. She has shoulder length smooth, pitch black hair, dark brown eyes, light skin but with a bit of a tan, beautiful smile, and a small mole on her cheek. I turn around and see a huge wave breaking right behind me, we get pushed towards the shore. The beach is flooding and we are required to leave and go inside a building.

The building has huge glass panels and sun is shining in. The floors are white marble; people are in a rush. I try looking for this girl, I want to find out more about her. Suddenly I remember I am dreaming. I stand against a pillar and watch the DCs walk back and forth as if they are late for work. Everything looks so real. I plug my nose and confirm I am dreaming.I feel like I’m drooling and wake up.
I stay still for a minute and then stand up. I do a RC, I am dreaming. I have no vision, I feel the carpet and make my way to the door, hoping to get vision soon. I wake up again. I stay still, and I feel as if my head is sliding forwards on the bed. I stand up again, do a RC. I am back at the building, looking for her.

I wake up, look at the time, do a RC, I am awake. I switch positions and go back to sleep.

I am at a beach with my family. We are on an inflatable deck, drinking. I am with my brother, his wife, my cousin, her boyfriend, a couple of friends, and the girl from the previous dream. Her name is… Tabatha?.. my brother gets a few drinks from the swim-up bar. I ask Tabatha if she’d like a drink and smiles. My brother’s wife says we make a cute couple. Dream skips, I am with Tabatha on shore. We are speaking in Spanish, she has a Venezuelan accent. She has to go back to the hotel soon and get ready as she is grabbing a plane later that day. I am sad she is leaving, but we have fun at the beach. Dream skips. I’m driving her to the airport, I ask her where she’s from. She says the name of a town I’m not familiar with, but it also means something dirty, we laugh. I drop her off and we kiss.

I'm always amazed by how our brains can make up such a well-rounded character and bring them to life in dreams. I felt a little bad about the fact that it didn't cross my mind once that I have a gf, but then, it was a dream lol. I'm a little frustrated that the past 3 or 4 lucid dreams have all been fairly short, to the point where it feels that I am in a long dry-spell, but I guess that's better than nothing.

I'm sitting on a bus driving through some mountainous areas, behind me there is seated a couple. The girl is telling the boy how she didn't always look this "attractive", before she wore thick glasses and had braces. Telling him about a place called Paradise Falls. About how she never understood the name before she got her glasses, and could finally see how beautiful everything was. That she actually miss that time, and those glasses. She currently got some glasses that looked similar, but they're not quite the same. Not the same soul to them.

I drift off, visualizing this place of mystic beauty, and begin thinking about some of my female friends that i had a better connection with before. Then i realize i have experienced this place before, in some way. I feel a wave of energy rush through me. Suddenly I'm no longer in a bus, but walking on a path in the forest of Paradise Falls. I feel the pulse rising, what the hell is happening. I continue walking, but the path disappears. I feel lost.

The trees are starting to look blurry and loosing their shape. I think to myself "No, now I'm doing this." Things are still fading away, it feels like I'm awakening. I sharpen my intention, and yell of all my strength "I WANT CLARITY!" It worked, I did it. I'm back in. Now another challenge appears, the scare of knowing that the dream "reads" my every though. Small gnomish trolls starts popping up everywhere, but i focus on truly believing that I'm the one in control here and the trolls dissipates.

I'm not sure i have "achieved" full lucidity, so i decide that now i need to really break some barriers. The forrest is dimming away and the color is graying, I'm fading and know that i have to be more confident for this to work. I again demand clarity, then i need to figure how to reinforce my lucidity. "I decide what's possible here and not". So i walk down to the shore, I begin to take a step onto the surface of the water. Jesus style. A split second before my foot hits it, i have a moment of doubt. This was enough to instead of making me walk the water like some demi-god, plunge headfirst into the lake. "Are you kidding me??" I'm thinking, as (and this was far from intentional) I start to rise up from the water and realize I'm actually flying. I laugh to myself a moment at how my mind have a weird way of working, then i take conscious control of the flying and soar to the skies.

Everything is so clear and vivid, and i really feel Paradise Falls to be a fitting name for this place. It feels like it's actually my backpack doing the levitating, as i feel the straps tighten around my shoulders. Then trying to visualize some wings, unsuccessfully.

Now i'm almost just flying on autopilot, like a bird i glide through the valley. Then i remember "I can't get too entrance by the beauty of it all, that's how i usually loose my lucidity." I fly down to a little white cabin, the door is locked so i think to myself that this memory must be a bit corrupt since i can't get inside (still believing i have been here before, but never in my waking life as i can remember). I see a crow up on the roof and head up to greet it. I decide that i want to try something with this black bird, and suddenly it's size changes to that of a butterfly (same with the lift-off, not an conscious decision and i realize this is my subconscious filling in where i lack the intention).

Every spot the crow touches on the cabin starts turning black as a wet paper would with the touch of an paintbrush with some black watercolor. I start to feel entranced again and decide i need to try something new, I make a leap to fly down to the ground. Like a cartoon character hanging in the air for a moment, suddenly I can't fly anymore and fall to the ground. Luckily i maintain the dream although i got a little stomach tingle from the jump.

I walk into the cabin, it's unlocked now. Trying to figure out what to try, and ended on elemental magic. More specifically flame-conjuring, something I'm somewhat successful in doing but can't seem to get 100% control of the looks and behavior of the flame.

Suddenly I'm pulled out of the dream, and kinda puzzled i feel that i have to go to the bathroom so bad that i can barely get down keywords of the dream (before i start getting out of bed and forgetting).
This dream felt like the real breakthrough i have been wanting for some while now, having the possibility to test out some ideas I've had for a while, and realizing that it's a lack of confidence limiting my lucid dreaming. Ironically all my reading about beginners-limits, is the real limit. Free your mind.

Achieved a lucid dream via SSILD and an internal mantra of "I will have a lucid dream". Ended finding the dream character I was looking for in the description that I imagined/expected and hugged her tight. Didn't have the joy of completion that I would have liked but better than another failure.

After that, I don't remember what else that happened in the dream. On a side note, finding things to do in a dream is a bit difficult because there are so many things to do yet I only get one delicate opportunity every 24 hours to try and achieve that goal.

Long time no lucid dreams, so I decided to try WILD again. I've always been really bad at it, but why not keep trying. Woke up at 2am and decided to read a few articles from Deep Lucid Dreaming - Wake up in your dreams for a happier, more creative life. Learn how to lucid dream and transform your dreamlife After 20 minutes I put my phone away, lay on my back and started with meditation. Must say this time it felt like ages, I was waiting for my usual hypnagogia to kick in but for a long time, nothing. Then finally the usual stuff started to happen - voices, sentences, scenes.... I remember this fat guy's face showing me some medieval painting... I was excited because I knew that my body was falling asleep. Now at this point I usually fail to balance it and just doze off. But this time I tried really hard.



First thing that materialized was a cute girl with long hair, wearing khaki shorts and a shirt. She was standing in front of me ... then I noticed I'm waiting in line for something, it looked like a typical american high school. My boyfriend is in the line behind me. No doubt this is a dream. I'm not overly excited, I'm juts pleased with the outcome.

I'm thinking the girl is really hot and my boyfriend might like to look at her butt too. I grab her, lift her up and put her behind me, so she's standing in front of him now. She has the softest skin and gives me a confused look, but she's smiling.

Now there are two muscular guys in front of me. They look like twins, only one has blond hair. Immediately as I see them I realize I don't like them one bit. They're all muscles, gel in their hair, I can actually smell their cheap cologne.

I am normally a very peaceful person. I hate bullying and would never do it. But now, being lucid, I feel like I can experiment. Especially since I find them both so unlovable.

They are both like two meters tall and they're minding their own business. I push one as hard as I can, he barely even stumbles. And I shout at him (which is SO unlike me) "What's your problem??"

He turns around (at this point I am really curious as this is probably my first interaction with a dream character where I am fully focused on him) and gives me the same confused look and a soft smile. He doesn't say anything, just stares at me. I don't know why but that really irritates me. Maybe because it's so boring, he's like a dummy.

And then I start. I pick on them, I say ugly things to them, I'm trying all I can to see how they react and to get even the slightest hint of emotion or intelligence from them. But they just stand there, let me do whatever I do to them, smiling like idiots.

I remember at one point I pinch one and shout "You like that, bitch?!" No response.

I proceed to take off their pants, hoping they'll get embarrassed. None of this feels sexual at all, it's just me messing with them.

So now they stand there with their pants off and the stupid smiles on their faces. I grab the pants and decide to run away and hide them. My boyfriend runs with me. We get home and hide the clothes in our wardrobe. I feel disappointed that they didn't even try to chase us.

My boyfriend starts folding his own clothes nicely, just arranging the wardrobe and stuff. "I'm so glad we are in my dream and not the guys' dream," I say. Then I get a bit worried, wondering if this is really my dream and not someone else's dream. What if I am a dream character and don't know?

I look at my boyfriend who's still folding his t-shirts. "Are you dreaming?" I ask. He says he is not sure.

"Well, what are you doing now?" I ask him again. He looks at the t-shirt in his hands and thinks for a bit and then says "I'm stacking coal. .... I guess that means I am not dreaming."

I start giggling because I find it so adorable that my dream boyfriend can't tell that he's dreaming and considers stacking coal his usual daily activity. And then, of course, I wake up.