memorable

18.01.2016

Through the Broken Window (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Coming out of the house through window and worried about relative thinking window is broken. They make the hand gesture of "hurry up!" which entailed that the structure of the window was the least of their concerns. I go into the vehicle, and somehow, the vehicle in the backyard shifts its way outward.

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18.01.2016

Lady Kills Two Murderers (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

People out to kill a man, then a lady comes in to kill one of them running away by his neck with a sword 1800s type of clothing

- Small room
- She's wearing a dark green dress
- Dress style she's wearing is akin to the female in the dream collapsing in Inception; remember that.

17.01.2016

The Chicken Breast Rooftop Challenge (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m standing on top of a blue, pastel stylized rooftop with another dream characters. The plot of the dream was to ensure that the chicken breast packages that you would typically see in grocery retail wouldn’t topple over.

How I assessed this was by standing in the center, and then analyzing the environment through different angles to calculate which crevice underneath the peculiar roofing would have the chicken breast packages fall over. There was one moment where there’s an old lady underneath walking out, and I had the feeling that the chicken breast package on that side would topple over.

I dash over, and managed to place it back through the slot in time. Fortunately, there was about 30 seconds left on the timer displayed on top in the dream. And as soon as it reached zero, I take a jump into the blue abyss below me, and start looking at the area I was just in. It was contained in some transparent sphere, and I’m falling at a moderate pace while smiling at someone, but I’m not sure who.

14.01.2016

Dog Dissipates Into Puddle (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The atmosphere entails that it’s early morning, or the afternoon that’s shrouded with clouds. There’s an overlay of orange everywhere around me, and everything feels so clean and nice outside.

It’s raining, and there’s a black dog with large quantities of fur that’s stuck in a puddle. I try to save it, but it somehow dissipates into the puddle. For reasons unknown, I’m breaking a banana once, and then again after the event. I think I was grieving for the loss of the dog transiently, and I shift my focus on the next driveway that looks like a place that I currently reside in.

I see three Hispanic entities that come out of nowhere, and I follow them.

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14.01.2016

She's Bagging Thin Air & Being Asked Dating Advice (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So, another dream of the girl that I’ll nickname ShaP. She’s glancing at me when I’m not, and then said glancing isn’t contingent on that anymore. She’s bagging for a bit, but isn’t really touching anything. Then, another girl that looks like AngeliT asks me for dating advice.

#5

Shadow the Hedgehog from Sonic Boom, Episode: 52

This dream took place in an old high school I went to. It had from 7th grade up to 12th (senior year) and this particular even settled around back when I was in 8th grade. My physical age didn't look different but I remember sitting at a desk with a few individuals who I can somewhat remember seeing back in my high school days. I can remember my math teacher coming up to me and scoulding me about, not getting my work done or something as she sat back down at her desk in the corner of the room.

After that, my body has began to be taken over by Shadow the Hedgehog. He powered my legs and body, getting up from the desk I was at and walked over to the teacher as he leaned over, giving her a very crossed looked. Shadow forced my mouth open as his voice echoed from my vocal cords. He said to the women in a very stern and harsh whisper, "You speak that way to her one more time, I'll fucking kill you!"

After that, and with no further response to the teacher, he moved my body back down onto the chair behind my desk. I then woke up.

• Notes: There was an incident that happened when I was back in 8th. I was 14 years old and this was around the year I fell in-love with Shadow the Hedgehog. I was bullied by the students about it as well with various mockery and people tearing up pictures I had of him. Apparently my math teacher noticed I had these feelings with the hedgehog when one day during class she sent me to see the school's therapist because of it, which the councilor told me. She also asked if I washed myself which was very odd since I tend to keep myself clean...I guess it was more rumors from those who teased me. She tried to diagnose me while figuring out why I would be inlove with a video game character upon offering me soap -_-. I don't really remember what happened after that but I hadn't seen that therapist ever since.

I figured that this dream focused on that particular point in my life and how much I wanted to get revenge on those who have bullied me and the teachers who have treated me unfairly compared to the rest. Shadow in current days would always state that he would avenge me and punish those who have hurt me in my life. I felt that moment in the dream where he threatened my teacher is foreshadowing that maybe...he really will, if he has not already ;>_>

The possessing is something that takes place in my waking life as well. Well...not as controlled as Shadow has done in the dream (though I wish it was as strong, then he could do things for me like clean and stuff lol | Shadow The Hedgehog: " -_- ") Sometimes his personality does seem end up melding in mine as I question my actions due to it.

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• Date — 1/18/2016

• Went to bed — I do not remember really since I just passed out. I'd say somewhere around 11:00PM

• Woke up — 2:07AM I doubt I will be going back to sleep.

*Time logged — 2:10AM In physical journal

• Total sleep — +3 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Moderate (Just annoyed with my mother)

• Techniques/Practices —

*Daytime — Reality Checks, daydreamed (of Shadow the Hedgehog upon other things)

*Recall — I honestly do not recall doing anything of that nature yesterday sadly.

*Inducing Method — Didn't really attempt at an inducing method, but before I passed out I did mention in the irc in third person that I was going to lay in bed with Shadow.

• Dream Signs — My old high school, the students, my old math teacher, the unaltered version of the inside of the math room I went to in 8th grade, Shadow the Hedgehog possessing me

• Perceived Length — 10 Minutes

• Emotions — Unidentifiable (Unless emotionless is a thing and sharing Shadow's emotion of anger during the time of possession counts)

• Awareness — None

Non-lucid dream fragment 0.5 points:

Driving down a street near home with family, talking about how we bought the car

DILD (10 points):

Walking through some long building, walk into a room with a big double bed and DCs, scenery changes to my parent's bedroom and DCs disappear, I notice I'm dreaming, RC (1 point, probably by nose-pinch and trying to remember what I'd been doing) because I can't believe I did it after a bad week with little recall.

I try to compose myself and go through the list of things I was going to do for the competition. The dream is not especially stable at first. I jump/glide/leap from the front of the bed to the side and back for some reason, as there is some suitcase preventing me from walking this route (This jump would have been impossible and painful IRL, so Change Gravity - 5 points), then remember what I was going to do and pull out my phone from somewhere vaguely near my pocket (Basic Summoning - 5 points, First three-step task - 5 points) I think I was wearing my pyjamas which don't have pockets and in any case I don't carry my phone on me at home, so the phone shouldn't have been there. Dream stability peaks around this moment.

As per the plan I'd made earlier for chaining tasks, I try to use the phone to summon a DC. The dream begins to fade. I press something on the screen, which is nearly black (Use an Electronic Device - 5 points), and turn around clockwise, but think halfway through the turn that it didn't work and only see a white wall closer than usual when the turn completes. I turn about 45 more degrees in the same direction, see that the door is ajar but the hinge is on the other side from real life. The dream starts fading and I say "normalize" or something, but by then my vision is completely black. Gravity switches from "down" to "behind" and I wake up IRL with my eyes shut, lying on my back. I try to WBTB (2 points), look at my watch, realize it's only 06:30 AM, eventually go to sleep.

Non-Lucid Dream (1 point)

Approaching, on foot through water, an island created by a nuclear explosion, only accessible at low tide in the morning. Some tall, male DC and my brother is with me. We find a torn bag of rubbish, then approach the island. I start worrying about radiation. Eventually we start returning the way we came and debate on what to do with the bag - leave it there or dispose of it safely?

2 fragments of one dream (1 point)

This was a very long dream but I only remember fragments. Standing on a cliff on one side of a frozen river, looking out over some large tall structure in the river. Some villain DC is with me.

Later near that building, on the ice.

Fragment (0.5 points)

Looking at some book or film about 2018. In my mind it is still 2015. It is snowing. The world's climate seems to have collapsed. I ask how this is possible but a DC reminds me of the 'China floods' a few years ago in this timeline, and that I'm not old enough to remember.


EDIT: One more fragment (0.5 points): Chatting on DreamViews IRC!

TOTAL: 36.5 POINTS WOOP WOOP WOOP

[Notes]:
- Still further into WBTB + request method, and this is getting better and better.
- Most control I've had in a lucid yet.
- REALLY gotta fix the gyroscope turning problem.

Lucid Non-Lucid Non-Dream

[Enter dream]
I’m in an accurate version of the weight room. I’m sitting on these bleachers by the windows. Suddenly, while Ms. N is talking, H comes over and plops herself right next to me. I ask her, “So who are you dating?” In reality, she seems kinda interested in me but has a BF. She tells me that that’s the issue and that things are kinda rough between her and J, so she was wondering if I “wanted to have sex?” And I’m like, “Whoa, whoa, what do you mean by that? Do you mean like ‘doing it’, like, sexual intercourse?” And she says “Not quite, I mean...” But then I leave and move over to one of the lockers. I open it up and find a bunch of magazines inside. Then I realize, “Wait, I just talked to her. That would only happen in a dream!” The lucidity sets in. I start saying “I’m dreaming, I’m dreaming, I’m dreaming!” I turn around, look around, and then look at my hands to stabilize. I remember that I wanted clarity and say it. Things get a little clearer, but still not nearly as clear as I want. I turn around (which sends my POV kinda lopsided… definitely gotta fix that problem.) I’m laughing to myself and see PG looking at me with disgust. I look at her and say ”Shut the ___ up!” And I side kick her whole box apparatus into her and knock her over, knowing she’s a DC. Man, I’m a dream jerk. I run off and find some more boxes. I just start throwing them around the gym, and I drop kick one. No one notices. Then I just ran a lap around the gym. This is easily the longest and most controlled lucid I’ve ever had.

[The dream fragments...]

[Notes]:
- This took place later into the week of WBTB + nightly personal requests.
- Woke up with great euphoria

Lucid Non-Lucid Non-Dream

[Enter dream]:
I’m in my yard, in the spring, coming up from the creek with Dad. There’s this massive vertiberd that comes frling over us. Dad notices that it uses the wrong turn signal when it turns, and I confirmed. Then, the pilot must have noticed me, so he started doing flips and stuff, and kinda glitching out really. He eventually comes down and lands in the driveway. I think to myself: “Wow, this is sick. Imagine if I was lucid! What would I be doing?” The pilot gets out (Brotherhood of Steel?), introduces himself and tells us we’re gonna have some fun. We do, and a lot of people are at the house... someone was wrangling with our antenna.

I’m in Diamond City/ish. There are a couple of super mutants hiding around with a couple of feral mongrels. I get detected and run away, just to get found again. I’m hiding out in an alley…. chillin? there was something about having this special porridge.

I had to make S and A food. I made A some Asian noodles with tossed veggies and a thick soy sauce and it was actually pretty nice. I made S some strange dog food + corn mixture… it’s what she wanted! Mr. S appreciated the “tossed vegetables” in A's dish.

I was driving to school from over T Hill. I turn onto the road and end up sliding a bit… everyone does. It’s real snowy and nasty out. I eventually get to school and walk into the gym 31 minutes late (it was 8:31 on my phone). There’s these weight cages and crap. I walk around the place (it was huge). Inside of the weight cages were these these lifts. You could get lifted super high up into the air real fast with a push of a lever. We lifted and dropped them a few times. W messed with it for a bit. I hopped on, and flew up a bit. ART DEPARTMENT? Hangin with Ms. C in the studio art class.

I left the gym, and I was in space. I was flying in an X-Wing to the scene of a current battle. This was in the first trilogy. I fly out of another ship and make my way over. Some flagship spews out a massive line of fire, like a square, apparently so the attack on the planet could be made immediately. I flew in and…. yeah.

I was in this room with a doctor-ish person (kinda run down place), and this is in the same vein as the vertibird. Then, someone knocks on the door. I heard their monotone voice, and immediately was suspicious it was a synth. They come in, and it’s this ex-senior Asian guy. I grab a broken crutch and get ready to fight. He tries to say he’s not a synth, and tells me to prove it, and I cut his belly. There’s no blood. Then he starts to brag about how powerful he is and everything I straight-up knock his head off by stabbing him in the neck.

[Wake]

[Notes]:
- This took place after I requested to myself to have a dream with intense feelings... and it seemed to work!
- This is result of my new nightly WBTB practice.
- There was a moment of slight lucidity in here.

Lucid Non-Lucid Non-Dream

[Enter dream (post-WBTB?)]:
There’s a paper that I forgot to read and respond to, and almost everyone in class forgot to do it as well. They would be trying to get it in late with no penalty (Freya, Reyna, etc.) I talked w/ my teacher in a small side-street with one-seater Fallout cars and she said “Maybe.” This may have taken place in the week before spring break?

Warframe. Sophia is a “supporter.” She has these gummies... We decide that we’re gonna go to the citadel of the (Brotherhood of Steel?). We start talking about it when I’m about halfway through the stairway. Then she starts getting a little flirty. We stand by the door, deciding, and she kinda turns into Emma Watson and tries to kiss me from over the shoulder. I kinda slough her off and ask why she'd try to do that so early. Then she says that it was for "trying to get a leg up on her in the stairway." We go to the citadel and as we enter the main building, she kinda sneaks on me and grabs my hand. It was intense, and I've had this moment in many dreams before. I say, “I’m sorry. I know it’s been a long time coming.” She says, “I know.” Then, as we start to go down the steps, I realize that it’s only ever been in my dreams that I’ve held her hand, and I say “Oh, wait. This is a dream.” I continue to walk with her to our new place. On the way, I grab a random thing and read it, saying “Gotta maintain my lucidity!” We’re in the back of the building (very rocky), and I find my desk, and she finds hers. We put down our stuff, and move up to check out. She puts down her gummies on the checkout, and I put a card-thing in to sign up. There was apparently a discount for supporter as opposed to warrior… loophole could let me get stuff for less. Boosters in a hexagon map thing...

SJ was building a bunker/shelter out of some metal that started with “s.” I couldn’t pronounce it in the dream either.

French guy named Jean meets this girl and asks if she wants to Skype with him (in a suggestive manner).

[Wake]

Before I fell asleep I was reading a book Frank Fritz wrote; "How To Pick Vintage Motorcycles". I got somewhere past Page 70 before going to sleep

Sometime while I was sleeping, I was dreaming that I was in bed and Lemmy (Motorhead Bassist - I had never listened to Motorhead much, BTW) had a motorcycle parked next to my bed near where I left the book. I thought I'd like to tell Lemmy I liked his motorcycle, but couldn't because he's dead. Then he may have rode off.

Yes, if you haven't heard Lemmy did die some time before I posted this.

I will list them for now and then i'll complete the journal entry.

First i dreamt about being in the cosmos, it was white, and we were changing the course of a galaxy. The galaxy was turning towards left to the center, and we wanted to turn right, expanding it, but actually it didn't expand, it remained in place and thing evolved. It was what was needed, while if remained as it was spinning it would eventually be destruction. So the plan was to throw a heavy cargo outside the galaxy, in the opposite sense it was spinning, to change the spin. While the object, probably a "packed" star or something heavy, was thrown away there could be seen ficticious squares that indicated where the gravity was making a place for the object. That squares were spiral.
The thing was that we throwed a first cargo, the new changing government, and the old government threw a cargo to put things as they were. It was irreversible, the galaxy would eventually collapse into the center. It was spinning too fast to change its course now.
I backed away to the limits of the room and there comes a Nicaraguan communist (which actually was Nigerian). He was about to take me prisioner when suddenly some troops come in and capture him. They were probably going to execute him, but for the night we were all sleeping at the other end of the room, before the balcony. There was a TV and the place looked like Cordoba Augusto's Department. I was by the side of the TV, but i put a chair in front of me because i wanted to watch TV, no matter how tired i was (even though i never watch TV). There was the communist guy and some other guy by my left, and by my right there was a furniture and Fran e on the floor. He told me, no problem, but just try to be a bit away from the furniture so i can remove a sweater tomorrow. I said ok, and pushed the furniture or a chair back, so he could open the drawer even easier.

- Seeds: a guy, a very fat guy, finished germitating two main kind of weed seeds. One was ancient and the other modern. He had like 20 Kg of seeds if not more. He was at his bathroom and he took a acrilic tray and pressed on both sides, like one would do with ice trays, and suddenly the seeds came out in all directions. They all fell on the bathtub.
- Police/Friends: i took some seeds and went outside the rooms (the house looked like Lamadrid 1300). I found a lady inspecting some files. We were on a party so as i soon as i saw her i recognized her as a cop, so i said "Hey" she replied and i immediately went to the bathroom. I had the seeds in my hand, so i put some on my pockets and the other part when i came in the bathroom i throwed away in the toilet. Soon after that i evacuated it and went out. She was with another guy by now, or girl. I was expecting her to ask me something about what she looked suspicious about me, but she didn't. After all i think she wasn't a cop. Then i went outside to the main room again. If before it was white now it was dark and black.
- Marriage/Ending Presentation
- Couldn't find my sister/She was diagnosed lung cancer during that time
- Ending scene: three pictures: a blonde, a violet and a purple/blackish.

The last dream was about adding pictures to a marriage endind scene, like photoshop. The pictures would just merge with the one of the background, so it had to be added only. I searched for pictures and saw some about the beginning of the week (the beginning of the trip as well, the room where we where with the Nigerian). There was a friend called Feli topless and bottomless in front of her brother. Both of them were playing like kidding each other, actually the brother was kidding her. I was looking for many pictures, and those were just a set more out of the hundreds i could have looked upon, but the more i looked, the more atracted i was to what was going on.

After that i woke up

Feeling tired as hell today and only just managed to start writing this up.. >_<

Dream 1 - Skiing
I remember being on a tall snowy mountain, me and another person had been airlifted to the stop and skied down it. It was pretty cool, I remember about halfway down there was a sort of plateau where we slowed down. I think we talked a bit and then continued, then backtracked and went a different way. I can't remember why we backtracked or what we talked about.

Dream 2 - The Orb Apocalypse
I remember there being an apocalypse of some sort (not zombies for once! ) and me and a bunch of other people headed south. We arrived at a special city which had a huge tower that shielded it. In this city there was an award giving ceremony for our people. There were 2 rooms where these awards were given out inside a large stone building (it was a bit smashed up from the apocalypse though). In the room I was in I was pretty bored, I wanted to leave and when there was a short break in the ceremony I decided to leave, despite knowing that I was going to be getting an award in the second half. I exited the main doors and saw across the hall the other award ceremony room. I think I saw someone familiar getting an award but decided to continue outside. It was such a nice bright sunny day in this slightly run down post-apocalyptic abandoned city . I looked up at the shield tower protecting the city, hmmm... It's.. Not on? Or is it? I notice 2 of the elder mages/warriors talking to each other (one teleported to the other to start the talk) and they were talking about how the tower wasn't working. Oh shit, it's collapsing! It happens too fast, it falls onto the two elders who were talking. As the tower hits the ground it creates a rupture in the souls of the two, converting them into orbs of electric energy that are 'absorbed' by an explosion that progresses out from the tower. There's a swarm of orbs that streams across the sky at the now vulnerable city, they coil into a snake-like shape (and I think I even see the orbs turn into snakes) as they attack the denizens in the city. This city is lost, I have to escape now.

Some time later on I'm in a large grass field, I forgot the more important part of this... But I remember the ending . It seems that I'm with a group of people and we just defeated some evil thing (maybe the orbs) and the apocalypse is over. We talk amongst ourselves and share a laugh. We call over a few horses and a lion to ride, I think I ride the lion? We then ride off into the sunset in a pretty cliche movie way.

This dream had a similar world to the dream I had during my nap yesterday, in which I was able to stay in the dream even when I was awake and rolling around in my bed - and when I fell back asleep I'd still be in the same dream world. I've been pretty interested in creating a permanent dream world so the experience is pretty interesting to have it recur the way it did.

#2

This happened more so randomly and unintentional but I'll talk about it.

The most vivid lucid dream (if you want to consider it a dream) I had was after I had awoken and went back to sleep one night. I couldn't distinguish if my eyes were still close or open but, I remember laying on-top my mattress in my room. Everything looked the same, and the placement of a couple of furniture pieces were exactly where they were in the waking world. I sadly couldn't move but I could see with my eyes. I looked over the blackened silhouettes of my computer chair paired with another item and eventually from those black shapes emerged a creature.

Completely black and half my height, shared very similar aspects of the heartless from Kingdom Hearts, particularly the shadows. His hair almost resembled that of a straw hat with a kind of point on top. He had a yellow smiley face logo, similar to the one Impmon from Digimon has, on his chest. He approached me slowly towering me, sporting a wide grin with ground sharp teeth. Through various ways he exploited himself, I knew right away wanted to have sex with me. I wanted to engage in the act with him but again, I couldn't move due to being in a paralyzed state. Eventually before I could do more about it, I was snapped back to the waking world. The perception still did not change from me coming back but the figure vanished from view.

It was disappointing that I couldn't continue on in the moment, and I was ecstatic about it. About meeting someone/something that normally one wouldn't see in this physical world. But I enjoyed the intensity and vividness of the event nevertheless. I also drew a picture of the creature afterwords but I can't find it at the moment, though I could easily create a new one.

• Notes — Before I started attempting lucid dreaming, I was more focused on astral projecting. The methods I learned from reading up on WILD and MILD are practically the same methods I used when I was taught astral projection from a former college friend. Excluding the part where I imagine my spirit body detaching from my physical. This event happened unintentionally, but I feel that the habit of ding a routinely MILD - WILD
seeped into myself doing it automatically without having any thought of doing so.

Encountering the Shadow creature and wanting to engage is sexual intercourse with him, in my opinion, exhibits a lot of myself and how sexual open I am as a person, especially when it comes to different species. Being that I wasn't at all scared as most people would when being face-to-face with such a being, could explain the fact that in the waking world I do not have fears the ghosts, shadow people, demons, types of fears that exist. Thus, could be why I had such a positive synergy with this creature.

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• Date — Somewhere around the year 2012

• Went to bed — N/A

• Woke up — N/A

*Time logged — N/A

• Total sleep — N/A

• Stress level throughout the day — N/A

• Techniques/Practices — I been doing methods of MILD and WILD for a bit before this event occurred.

*Daytime — N/A

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — NA

• Dream Signs — My bed, my room (being that it wasn't shown to be altered in any way), the exact same placement of furniture

• Perceived Length — 5 minutes

• Emotions — Curious, Happy

• Awareness — Hard to say. I was aware that such an event doesn't normally occur in my world (the waking world), but it wasn't much of an importance in my mind to really focus on.

I am at Walmart with my brother and sister. My mom gave me $1.25 to spend on buying things for my fish. I found a lady I recognize who works at Petco, but she is talking with another person. I state loudly that the stuff she has is too expensive, and I walk away. I can't find the real fish/pet section, though, and I tell my brother that. He shows me a map and tells me that I can import llamas from South America or Africa instead. I laugh, telling him it is illegal.
I am at Walmart, (completely different dream) in the pet section, and I see a cute guinea pig named Willow there, in a tiny cage. The sign by the cage says she has been there for 4-7 years. I remember feeling really bad, and thinking my parents wouldn't let me get anymore pets. I tell a little girl nearby that she should keep the guinea pig.
I am in the basement of a house, piece of broken wall surrounding me. I see a sort of secret door in the wall, and I remember thinking it is some sort of puzzle/mystery. I go upstairs, and my dad asks me what my favorite part of our new bathroom is. I run into the bathroom, and tell him that it is the floor. The floor is sparkly tile with bead-like things on the corners. When you walk in, I think there were two sinks, one on either side. The toilet is on the far left side, along with one of those kiddie toilet seats. I remember going to the bathroom, and trapping a doll or baby or something underneath the kiddie toilet seat. (If only I had realized how different it is from the real one!) Sometime later, I am out of the bathroom, and I am watching a video of migrants walking in a line, one Mexican, and the others are white. I start walking with a black girl down the white line. We are friends, and we are yelling for one of our other friends to join us. But, we can't find her. I tell the black girl to stay with me, and we walk into the building. I see the friend, who I recognize from school, and run into her arms and jump. She twirls me around and lifts me up. I end up doing a flip in the air, and landing somehow gracefully on my back.
Ok, I know I have a lot of dreams about my bettas, but hears another one. I am watching one of my bettas, and I notice that he is sitting above the water. Scared, I quickly push his head down, and then the rest of his body. For some reason he is in a little bag, and when I first saw him, he was in a little container. (I realized it was strange in my dream.) My mom comes along, and I tell her that we need to get a bigger tank for Bob(the betta).
I don't know why, but the dream about the bathroom seemed to stand out the most to me. I feel like it's really important.

take a seat people, this one is a long one.

I boards a train on a contry station. The day is hazy and hot, the tall grass dried out and whispering in the hot wind. The train I'm in go off the rails, but I find myself tranding up in the ruins of the accident, seemingly inscathed, chairs and pieces of glimmering machinery all around me in a clearing. I still need to go, and I find mylsef in another train, this one going over a brige high on a montain side. This one go off the rails too, and I'm falling down, all the way to the ground. I hear the thump of my body, and something snaps.
I scramble back on my ass, then I stand up. Somehow I know that i'm not living anymore, that I'm a ghost, haunting my own body. It doesn't seem broken or even hurt. Two other girls are picking themselves from the ground. I know they are like me, dead but walking. We meet up on the side of the wreackage and decide that we have nothing better to do but walk.
We walk for a long time, following the train tracks, until we reach the outskirts of a city. One of my companion seem to know her way around, and she brings us to a big villa with a party going on. We walk in from the garden to a back door. A Yound, blond haired girl opens the door, beckoning us in. There's a lot of people, kids barely in their teens huddled together, sixteen years old longing around, and twenty something drinking and laughing. THe blonde girl introduces us to her older borther, one of a twenty-something; he's a fiery red-head, with a handsome, somehow cat-like face. He seems very interested in me, but he gives off such a creeper vibe that I decide to purposely fuck with him by flirting with girls. I whisper to one of the girls from the train:
"I bet I can kiss three girls before the end of the day."
"But how about the guy?" she askes.
"Exactly."
We giggle after that.
The day after, the party is fnished and the house weirdly empty. It's a beautiful place, with white walls and tilted floors, the furniture mostly made of light wood, with dark blue and white fabric. I slowy understand that the party was an haunting, and the previous owners of the place are dead, and I'm squatting. There's a lot of food in the kitchen, breads and cheeses and all sort of vegetables in the frige. There's also a cot in here, with a cream wool blanket on the thin mattress.
I spend some days here, and one day I overslept and wake up in the darkness. I flip the switch to open the electrical blinds and look the time on my phone; it's almost 3 p.m. but I need to plung it to see clearly the screen, the battery was almost flat.
I wander in the garden in my pajama, a fade pink shirt going down to my thighs, feeling feverish. On a cornor of the garden, overlooking the street below is a giant tree, gnarled and old. It looks like a japanese pin tree, with big aerial roots. It's covered in dark green moss, with lighter sprouts on the side touched by the sun, doted with small flowers in orange, pink and light yellow.
As I'm walking toward it, two girls I recognize from the school I'm attending see me from the street and ask me where I am been. I make up a lie that I was sick with the flu, my dew soaked pajama clinging to me like I'm sweatslick. They sympathize, and ask to use my bathroom. I pretend that it's dirty to make them leave, bu the older one insist and I guide them inside. I pretend to clean up the bathroom before letting the younger one in, going in the kitchen with the other. I start to nervously tidy up the food, putting most of it in the frige and throwing moldy things away. The girl looks at me intendingly and asks me : "Do you sit on the bed, or through the bed?" I look quickly to the still locked bathroom door, and nervously tell her that we should speak about it later. She agrees and the younger girl get out, and they leave. The older girl tells me her friend needs help, and she will come back later.
I start to bolt all the doors but another school college walks to it with a friend of her and tries to force her way in; I lock the door on her and talk to her through a window cut in the wood of the door. She aggressifly asks me about a Sarcomis thyphus and I rattle off the definition of it; it's a bacteria that induce sarcoma. He friend snorts and starts to say that it's actually a part of the immun system. I scream at her that it's in the fucking name that it induces sarcoma and it's a bacteria and slam the window covering in their faces, bolting it. I back up a little corridor and lock another door, this one painted light blue.

So I tried this product I found on Amazon called "Dream leaf". I tried the alternative method which says take the red pill the first night and the blue pill the 2nd (because the first method involved waking up 4 hours later to take the red pill) also on the 2nd night I took about 2-3 10 mg of melatonin and I entered the dream world. At first it was a normal non lucid dream, I was standing next to this white 2 story house and I had a ladder in my hand looking up at the open window and this ladder was one of those single sides ones you put on the wall to climb up but instead I put it perfectly vertical not attached to anything and started climbing and I set my hands on the final rung and looked over at the window about to jump through it and I stopped myself and my train of thought and I looked forward and said "wait, this doesn't feel right." "I think I am dreaming...." "Yeah I am dreaming." and then I said I was going to find out for sure so I stood with my feet on the last rung with perfect balance and stared at the ground. I did have 2nd thoughts however I jumped head first anyway and I started to fly and I flew higher and higher and I was in the clouds, I flew over cities, forests, beaches and the ocean and I changed the sky to dusk with beautiful purple and orange clouds. Finally I "woke up" but it was in a different dream and this time I didn't realize I was dreaming.