memorable

non dream - lucid - non lucid

Continued from: The path to Teraluna

Don't open your eyes...
Don't open your eyes...
Don't open your eyes...
Don't...

I wake up.
My eyes start opening, but I manage to interrupt it.
I want to go back...
Teraluna...

I empty my mind and try to find an anchor to remain conscious.
I use the pc fan which is spinning slowly.
I gently try to move my right index finger. It doesn't move.
Good. This will work.
I try to remember the last scene.
I was on my knees, on Teraluna, in the city... She was in front of me.
So close...

As I inhale I taste the unique air of Teraluna.
Yes!
I open my eyes. I'm back!
I'm very excited, so happy.
But I try to control myself, I don't want the dream to end prematurely.
I look up.
Where are you?
I can feel her presence. She's standing to my left.
I stand up and turn around.
There she is. Smiling. A truly happy expression on her face.
Is she happy to see me? I think she is.
I know I am.

She grabs my left hand.

"Lets go!"

I don't think. I just let her guide me. I trust her. I always have.
I am overwhelmed with happiness, her presence makes me feel so insanely good.
Just a few meters from where we were standing, there's the end of the bridge we're on.
The city floats over the sea, it's a good 500m down.
But I have no fear. I know we're not going to fall, she wouldn't do that.
She takes a step over the cliff, looking at me and smiling.

My vision rushes by, in a split second we are on the other side of the city.
Short range teleportation. I know how to do this, I have done it before.
She lets go of my hand and smiles:

"Wait here"

"But... I have so many questions" I think to myself.
She runs into a house. This is where she lives.
I look around, and get another déjà vu, the strongest of the night.
Her house is integrated into a mountain. It has no side walls, you can walk in from any direction except the mountain.
It's so beautiful. One of the flying animals flies by closely, leaving a trail of fluorescent particles behind it in the air.

Don't get distracted.
I turn back towards the mountain.
She comes out of the house and projects a thought onto me:

"Take a seat"

There's a table with 4 chairs.
I sit down. I've sat here before.
Together with her... and 2 other people.
A man and a women. I can't remember.

She sits down next to me and smiles again.
She's wearing a white dress, a necklace which seems familiar, and some earrings.
She has dark hair, with blue highlights, but it looks very natural. The highlights are slightly fluorescent.
She made tea and pours both of us a cup.
I want to ask her her name.
But as I open my mouth, she hands me the cup of tea.

"Drink"

I take a sip. And another.
It is SO GOOD.
It's very fruity, sour even, like biting into a lemon, but without the discomfort of biting into something very sour.
"Wow!"

"It's your favourite"

She's right. I remember. She has made me this tea before. It's from a fruit that looks similar to lemons, but it's blue.
I put down my cup:
"I have so many questions"

"I know. But you already have all the answers"

She's right, I do, I feel that I do, but I can't remember. Or maybe I do remember and have trouble accepting it? I don't know.
"I want to hear them from you... I want to be... sure"

She smiles:

"Okay. Do you know where you are?"

"Teraluna"

"Yes, we're on Teraluna, in the city of Haven. Or Riven like some people call it."

I remember.
"I've been here many times, haven't I?"

"Many, many times"

She moves closer to me, and puts her right arm around me.
Her face is very close. Her eyes are so beautiful.
I can't define the color, it's not a color visible in waking life.
It's green and blue at the same time, with some white.
Her eyes are bright, fluorescent, they have so much detail.
Looking at them, it seems like there is a whole universe in them.
I could get lost for all eternity looking at them. So beautiful.

She laughs, she knows exactly what I've just been thinking.

"Don't you remember me?"

Of course I do... but... at the same time I can't... I don't know how to explain it, so I just project my current train of thoughts onto her.
She thinks for a bit.

"You do remember. You remember everything."

I do?

"You also remember my name. You've pondered if it was me all along.
But your waking mind told you it couldn't be. You've even talked to someone about your thoughts, and he immediately concluded it must be me."

(It's true, I talked to WakingNomad, and he pointed it out in a pm)

"Oh Hyu, stop overthinking things. It's all simple. You know me, you always have. I'm..."
"Yuya!"

And then I realized she was right yet again.
I knew all along, but I was afraid in waking life, afraid of being right, even though now that I think about it, there was no reason whatsoever.
Short bursts of memory rush into my head.
Pictures that last no longer than a split second, of me being with Yuya.
The memories are old, very old. I was so young.

I concentrate on her again, I have so many questions, but I also have all the answers.
But I want to hear it from her.

"So... you're..."

"No... and Yes... I am not a human being in the way you are, but I am human.
What I mean to say is: I cannot go to the waking world, I live here.
In fact, I have never been to your world, I can only experience it through your memories."

There's a short pause, I'm thinking.

"You're wondering if I'm a spirit. Yet you don't know what a spirit is.
But your current thoughts are mostly correct."

She smiles again. Such a beautiful smile.
Music starts playing not far away.

"Want to dance?"

"Yes"

(The following part lasts very long, but I cannot remember details of the dance)
We're dancing, on water. There's people around us playing music (I remember violins), and a few other dancers.
I know the dance. I'm so happy.
So happy that 2 tears flow down my face.
I know the dream is about to end, it starts to feel unstable.
It has lasted for possibly an hour.

"It's time"

"I know"

"Don't be sad"

"I'm not"

I give her a very big hug and whisper into her ear "Thank you"
She understands, and it makes her very happy.
She approaches me, she gets very close, our faces are nearly touching.

"I have a gift for you"

She kisses me. But it's different from a kiss, so very different.
Pure energy flows from her body into mine. It feels so good, so warm.
All the nerves in my body are sparkling.
She replenished my energy. I feel so good, so powerful, so... healthy.
The dream will end any second now, I can only see her anymore, nothing else.
I ask her one last question:

"How long have we known eachother?"

"Longer than you think..."

I wake up. I feel amazing, refreshed, motivated to get up and live through the day.
Longer than you think? Wasn't I thinking "all my life" in that specific moment?

I can't believe how long this dream lasted, how extreme it felt, and how many details I remember.
I remember every word she said, in her exact voice, it feels absolutely fantastic.
Thank you DV, for making me able to dream again.

Took 2 mg melatonin and 100mg of B6.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-8
BTW in this dream, i have multiple superpowers. They just come to me.

There was a beginning to this dream but i don't remember. Anyways, me and another person are talking to eachother in a small room that's connected to a small hanger for planes. He shape-shifts into Jusitn Beiber. I give him a nasty look then shape-shift into a big black guy to mess with him. We keep shape-shifting for some time before we go outside.

Outside is the rest of our superhero team. I don't remember them all, but i do know that Professor Farnsworth from Futurama was one of them. One of them gives me a grenade and tells me, "We picked this up from our enemies. Why don't you give it a throw to see the power of it". I give it a large toss and it lands 30 yards away. A purple smoke emits from it with electricity running through it. Someone tells me to suppress it. I move my hand over it and focus on suppressing it.

It's too powerful for me to suppress. My team keeps telling me to suppress and keep saying its too much. Just then i finally couldn't hold it any longer and the gas breaks free. A 8 or 9 story woman appears. She starts destroying the city. Everyone in our team splits up and starts attacking it. I can't fly but i can jump fairly well. I jump up, charge a lightening ball in my hands, and shoot it at her. She barely moves from it.

We fight for several minutes doing the same thing and she eventually goes into a smaller size, and smaller and smaller. Then the genius i am, i throw another grenade, thinking this one was one of my grenades. She grows back to her previous self. Damnit i'm an idiot. Again we are fighting her and it takes many lightening strikes from me and general attacks from the rest of the team to bring her down.

Afterwords i am hanging out in our superhero place and most decide to go on a vacation of some sort. I didn't go for some reason. I'm hanging out at our place when i feel like going there. I teleport to them. I'm in a hotel room with one of them. We talk about something i can't remember. I teleport back. Some friends are over and we are trying to figure out what to watch. I suggest watching a show that has some cool battles in it. It turns out that we were the T.V. show that we watched.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-7

Average non-lucid where zombies were attacking a friends house. I kept running down the stairs with a crossbow and shooting but never killing the zombies. It was kind of stupid for a zombie dream, but it was fun nonetheless.

Kind of proud of myself in the super hero dream. I have never teleported before, nor have i ever been able to shapeshift. So two new things kinda learned.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I wake up.
The bed feels so good, so comfortable, I hope it isn't time to get up yet, I want to keep sleeping.
The silk sheets are so soft.
I remember I'm supposed to RC every time I wake up.
I don't feel like bothering right now, but I do take a quick look of my surroundings.
Wait... silk sheets? I don't have silk sheets. This isn't my room either.

I get a VERY strong déjà vu feeling.
I've been here before... "Teraluna"... in the Andromeda galaxy.
This is where she taught me to walk on water.
This is the place, this is where I want to be, this is where she is.
I get overexcited and the dream abruptly ends (or so I think)

I'm back in bed, at home this time.
But I know I'm still dreaming.
What I saw was the future, tonight I will go back to Teraluna, I know it.
No need to waste any time, plus I don't like my dreams starting in the dark.
I create a portal below my bed using the flicking trick.
It immediately opens and I fall through, still on the bed.

I end up on the beach I was yesterday, where I did the music experiment.
There's a women with 2 children next to me.
She's surprised to have seen me appear out of nowhere, on a bed, on an otherwise empty beach.
I get up and greet her by saying "Cheers!"
She doesn't care about the bed anymore.

I start walking across the beach, but just for a few seconds which I use to get my mind focused on what I'm going to do.
Teraluna, I will create a portal to Teraluna, I will go there, and I will meet her.
I know it.
It will work.

I create the portal.
I find Teraluna very quickly and set the exit point.
This time I can't open the portal with a flick though.
This will require a lot of energy.
I start projecting my energy against the closed portal.
The portal resists and slightly gives in to my energy, it deforms like a bubble.
I keep pushing, with more and more energy.
And finally the bubble collapses, and the portal opens.

Since I was leaning forward to project my energy, once the bubble bursts there is no more resistance and I just fall in...
...I'm flying through a tunnel. I have a very hard time staying aware of my surroundings. I feel strong vibrations and I can barely see.
I loose consciousness..

... I fall out of the portal onto a beach.
But this is not the same beach.
I look up into the sky. This is Teraluna. I've made it!
Teraluna is a moon (but not a barren one like our moon, it has an atmosphere, vegetation etc)
It receives little light from both suns in the system, since it's so far away.
However, it is full of fluorescent animals, plants, and other things in the sky.
This gives it a very special, slightly surreal look.
The water creates a very fresh breeze, which feels really good to inhale.

In front of me is a sea with a small temple in the middle of it. The temple is very small, and it looks out of place.


I approach the temple.
As I reach the water I start walking on it, just like she taught me.
I walk up the stairs and enter the temple.

It's bigger on the inside, but not by much.
Inside, there's only a simple path, with a few more stairs, which leads through a doorway on the other side.
In front of the doorway there are 2 massive statues.
They are animal statues (not an animal you'd find on earth) with huge wings.
Another déjà vu. I've been here as well.
The statues face away from the path, so their wings create another pathway you have to walk through to get to the other side.
I know what this is, or rather, I remember why these statues are here.

You can only get to the city by walking through here, and the portal formed by the statues prevents any dark/bad energy from getting in.
This makes the city a safe haven.

I step through.
The moment I pass the statues I feel strong vibrations in my body, but it doesn't prevent me from going in.
Then again why would it?
I go through the pathway and exit the temple.

The city is HUGE, and SO beautiful.
I experience another very strong déjà vu sensation.
There is water everywhere. It is built on top of the sea.
There are smaller ponds all over the place and waterfalls of all sizes.
Buildings and bridges are made of smooth stone, and are overgrown with fluorescent plants.
I love it. I have memories here, but I cannot recall them.
They are old... very old.
There are people walking around, animals flying in the sky. (They resemble the flying animals from Avatar)

Focus!
I am here to meet her, don't get distracted!
I want to search for her aura, but suddenly the dream starts falling apart.
No!
I fall to my knees. Stabilize!
It doesn't work, I can't hold on to the dream.

I look up.
There she is.
Sitting on her knees right in front of me.
She approaches me and whispers into my ear:

"The night is not over, you know?"

Yes! That's it!
I'll just have to keep my eyes closed, and I'll be able to re-enter the dream!

My vision fades.

Don't open your eyes...
Don't open your eyes...
Don't open your eyes...
Don't...

Continued: In which I meet Yuya

I have only had a few lucid dreams, 5 or 6 max. but this one takes the cake and feel like I learned a lot!

Non-Lucid: I remember meeting up at one of my boyfriend's friend's house. We talked for a bit as my bf skated around a skate park. A group of guys were heckling him for taking up so much time, and I yelled at them telling them he was new and to stop being jerks.My bf's friends had a homeless friend, and sat both of us down telling us we needed to let him live with us. I instantly said no, because we only have a very small 1 bedroom apartment, with one couch that you can hardly even lay on. Meanwhile, the friends had a much larger house with extra rooms and large couches. I couldn't understand why us, and I felt like a jerk because I couldn't help out.
I then went on a boat. The people didn't notice that I had swam to the boat and just got on, which I thought was weird. They were all too busy playing poker. It was a big boat, so there were too many people to notice. I joined in on a poker game by stealing a very large yellow chip and buying in. I begin to play at a table with 3 people, and once I join quickly more people they knew came. Then I heard from someone reading the paper that the government wants someone on this boat so they are turning around in the morning to bring the boat back. I panicked. I couldn't go back (not sure why.) So I jumped off the boat and swam underwater, hoping I could hold my breath long enough so that no one chasing me could find me. It worked, and I swam away.

I was back on land. I saw two cars and one of them by mine, it was night time and the house that my car was in front of was lit with a rather intense blue. I walked up to my car and noticed the beautiful stars in the sky. I was so amazed, I jumped on the back of my trunk to stare at them. The sky was a sort of blue purple, with bright stars all over.

LUCID: It was then I noticed that the stars would completely disappear and come back. Stars. I could never see them like this, so intense and beautiful. Nor do they change...I am in a dream! I became excited at this realization. I told myself Stars are my trigger, as previous dreams with stars came very close to making me lucid before. I instantly wanted to go to the moon. I looked up in the sky and saw the bright moon, it was hard at first because it would turn small sometimes. I decided I would try to fly even though I heard it is difficult to fly to the moon. I began to fly towards it, but very quickly the moon turned into a billboard. I went back to the ground, and decided I would just fly around. I had to keep telling myself "I am in the control" and it worked very well to keep myself thinking. I flew low among some apartment like living spaces. I found it awkward to fly and control it, but I did it and it worked out rather well! I was happy, as previous attempts to fly in past dreams never really worked.
So I am flying around, come across a beautiful fire like thing, with colors of the rainbow merging to white. I flew around it before continuing. I saw in the distance two girls sitting facing the left, both with curly hair. i thought they looked lovely from the side, so I went to talk to them. When I reached them by flight and landed, I noticed they had sorta strange faces, and were actually probably the age of 12-14. They were twins, one with dirty blond hair and the other with a lighter brown. One looked at me weird, almost with fear. I simply asked "Are you real?" then both of them smiled. "Yes, of course!" they said. I was shocked, but I didn't want to make the situation awkward. This was my first dream meeting, and I wanted it to be good, so I gave them high fives! They were very nice after that.
I still wanted to go to the moon. I asked if they knew how, and they said yes. I said lets go and they agreed. There was a car in front of me, and I simply didn't want it there. I powered myself up, and with a fireball like spell I made the car roll over. Somehow I think the spell affected a guy near by, who sorta morphed into a fire-like being screaming. I found it odd. I then tried to think of the best way to get to the moon...by portal! So I attempted to make my own portal. I stood and attempted to focus energy with my hands, but nothing was happening. The dirty blond twin said she could make a portal. She used one hand, and circled outward to the center of an oval, making a light purple portal. I thanked her, and quickly went into the portal. (I also noted the way she made the portal, so I could try it next time)
Instantly I was on the moon. It was surprising actually. There were quite a few people on the moon, all excited the be there and chatting. They all had names over their heads. I bounced on a the surface for a bit, then looked in third person to see all the people there. I then met my family on the surface at a dinner table, all talking about how we made it to the moon. I remember looking at my dad, he looked himself at first, but at one point his left eye got larger than his right, with a gigantic black pupil. It freaked it me, big time, but it quickly returned to normal. About this moment I was woken up by the feeling of a swollen throat bothering me.

My throat usually does get a bit swollen when I sleep, and it was a bit bothersome when I woke up. But that is the end. I am happy.

It seems I have created my own zombie course similar to the kinds of zombie courses from Call of Duty's Nazi zombies layouts

I have created my own course randomly generated by my brain one day in a zombie dream i had and ever since I have had many zombie dreams on that same course. It seems I have created a dream I can't stop reliving. This is the first time I have had this happen more than twice.

The zombie Course has a bunch of metal shop buildings on hills with farm machinery spread around (like back-hoes and dump trucks). There are perk machines and gun outlines on walls too (just like nazi zombies from Call of Duty). In the back of the course on top of a hill there is a single roomed house with a staircase to a second floor but no roof and the windows are all just open squares in the walls. The second floor is good because in case of emergency, the zombies come up the stairs and we jump out the window of the second floor and can make a quick get away.

I enjoyed this level because of the huge wide open area to run around and the trucks and tractors I could drive to run over zombies.

Anyways... On to the dream.

Mostly just killing zombies with my dad next to me and we started running out of ammo and had to jump out the window.

I remember me and my dad each using a different tractor to run over a bunch of zombies until they ran outta fuel so we ditched the machinery and ran to a metal shop building.

In that building I remember running into a small room about the size of a 3 car garage. A zombie dog which looked a lot like my old dog that died 2 years ago (which is funny cause the dog died and now in my dream its a zombie) along with a huge group of zombies came into the room and we had no ammo.

I suddenly felt this odd feeling and I don't know how, but I realized I was dreaming because of that feeling. The dog jumped with its mouth wide open and fangs facing me and I raised my hands and pushed them forward (like using the force) and the zombies all stopped like time stood still and the dog slowed to a stop in mid-air with its evil eyes and fangs still facing me.
BTW: My dog was huge. Chesapeek retriever and she was all muscle.



Picture is close to it but not as evil as the one in my dream.

After that, I felt some pride and strength inside of me and then everything suddenly started to become blurry and then disappeared.

I did not wake up but do not remember anything dream wise after that.

Last night I had a dream I was on a TV show sitcom, Little Mosque on the Prairie, that's popular over here in Canada, but on the show I portrayed a non-Muslim but Pro-Muslim character . In the dream on the TV show, the first thing that happened is I went by their mosque, and introduce myself to their Imam (Amaar) and their local contractor (Yasir).

I than went to the local hangout Fatima's Café which is where I got into an debate with Fred (a redneck, non-Muslim character) about "What Good are Muslims?" with me on the Muslim side which made me ended up on Fred's radio.

I said a lot of positive things about Muslims. I remember saying that the burqa was once used for both genders to protect them from sandstorms. I also said that technically the Hjiab is optional. But I also did say that what people look like, or what they wear doesn't really matter on the inside we are all people.

I said that Muslim people actually brought us like science and math we use today. I kind of left Fred hanging with his mouth open when I left his show. The others were pretty happy that I was on their side-they had a celebratory supper with me as their non-Muslim guest of honour.

1/5/11

Last night I had this intense experience.. This time I noted it inside of my phone.. I was tired last night and went to bed.. quiet night and I fell asleep.. for some reason I woke up.. or so I thought I did.. don't know but opened my eyes to see someone over me as if ready to lunge towards me.. what I saw was a warrior over me.. I saw he was sleeveless and had a worn leather like breast plate on.. His hair was over his face since he was looking down and had a sword on one hand I felt the cold dark air felt warm .. I immediately started screaming and kicking.. I look again and see it was gone.. so here I am sitting up waving my arms in bed.. I had texted my bf and fell back to sleep.. so he shows me the text he got when he came in.. it said
" I just work up screaning.. weird".

Same exact spelling .. I was trying to say " i just woke up screaming but that is what I texted to him..lol..

Weird dream..

A warrior

I think I had a hypnagogic hallucination last night. It was kind of like when you think you're almost asleep and then jump 'cause it feels like you're falling, except way more extreme. It felt like my hand touched a pot of boiling water. I jerked my hand back, but I'm not sure if I did it physically or just mentally. That was the first time I tried to go lucid on purpose, and i don't remember any dreams, but that was pretty cool. I'm pretty sure I have lucids all the time, but i only remember going fully lucid once (or maybe twice?) in my whole life.

I suppose I better start this now, since I can't remember most dreams after a day (Surprised I could remember this one after 2), and this one was rather interesting.
Also note that this was as closely accurate as I can remember

I appeared in the mall, or more accurately put, a mall. From what I remember, I walked around, then ran into two guys. One stuck out in particular, the other really just followed him around. For whatever reason, we just stuck around each other. I just continued doing what I had done at the beginning, walking around the mall, only having the two boy around.

Then we walk through a large, sliding glass door, which leads to a peaceful landscape: a pond, numerous tiny hills that looked about 8 feet high, and each hill had the exact same tree on the top of it, all aligned straightly. I walk up about 10 feet away from the pond shore, when the 'leader' of the two boys I met earlier starts getting angry. He starts shouting something that I couldn't quite make out. His structure grew largely, until he towered an extra two feet higher than normal. This was scary, considering this boy had been about 6 feet tall already. But as he grew taller, the other boy got shorter and fatter, and a pair of smooth sun glasses appeared on his face. He then started to back off.

The larger boy now had a large knife, and grabbed me. He made very large cuts down my upper arms, and other places I can't quite remember. I remember the pain being unbearable. And suddenly, I woke up.

This could've been another great opportunity for me to realize my dreaming state, because my basement room was filled with lots of natural lighting. I suppose the reason I didn't notice is that things were MUCH more detailed than earlier, balancing the unnatural with the normal. I was determined I must have been dreaming, but when I looked at my arms, the two cuts were still there. I started freaking out, wondering how my mom would react. I continued to get out of bed, opened my room door, then ran up the stairs. This is when I woke up for real.


Looking back on the dream, I remember the "original" dream to be very detailed in everything but the two boys. I distinctly remember the tall one to be wearing red, but other than that, I could never really interpret a real face, except the sunglasses scene I suppose.
I think the sunglasses could've been relating to something with a drawing I drew earlier (I'll post later).

1/5/11

1- Getaway Car
I am living in a mansion with my haughty mother who expects me to be perfect for the party we are throwing. However, I have learned that some unknown villain wishes me harm, so I spend the entire party sneaking around and spying on people. My pursuer is no one at the party, as I find out. He is a very powerful magic user. If it weren't for the help of Alice (from Resident Evil), I would never have made it out alive.

I become separated from my rescuer and must now go solo. ((I end up going on this super long quest that I unfortunately only remember bits and pieces of.))

*lapse in time*

My point of view flashes to a man walking around in a greenhouse. He is examining some plants that have been psychicly altered and is contemplating eating them. Suddenly the man's face is torn off, by a friend who had been possessed by the evil magician after me.

I flash back to myself. I have made a pit stop at my Aunt's house for supplies. For some reason I get in my car from the passenger's side, and am crawling through to the driver's side. Suddenly my Aunt hijacks the car and starts laughing like an evil maniac. I panic for an instant, believing that she has been possessed. Then she laughs normally and asks, "How could you possibly think I was evil? I'm hurt."

"I don't have time for this!" I mutter, taking the driver's seat and shutting the door. "Goodbye." Suddenly, the evil magician walks up with a little boy. He hands the child a gun and tells him to point it at me and pull the trigger. Before I can get the car started, I have a bullet through my arm. It hurts, but not as bad as I would have expected. The boy tries to shoot me again, but the trigger jams. He looks down the barrel of the gun and experimentally pulls the trigger. His brains blow out the back of his head.

I drive off as fast as I can, ducking low as more shots come.

My pov flashes to this spider lady. She is facing the evil magician, who appears to be working for her. "Tell me," she says in a seductive voice, "Do you find me attractive in this form, or am I grotesque to you?" The man stammers incoherently. "Be honest," she murmurs.

Back to myself as I stop at a cafe of some sort. I walk inside, ending up at a wall painted with strange creatures and odd phrases. Near the bottom of the wall was the phrase "Paper due. Sad day." Beside it was a picture of a hotdog with a face, sticking its tongue out. After examining the wall with some amusement, I turn the corner into a secluded area where Alice is waiting for me. "I thought I might find you here," I say, sitting down at one of the booths. Apparently we had met here sometime in the past.

"Of course," she answers. "I couldn't leave without you."

One of the waitresses (the one who "usually" waits on us) is sitting nearby. I examine the bullet wound on my arm--- it isn't as bad as I would have expected. Must have just grazed me. "What happened to your arm?" Alice asks me, her eyes intense.

"I was shot."

The waitress obviously thinks I'm joking. "Did you cut yourself with those long fingernails?"

"I was shot," I say again, this time more forcefully, "by a two year old. Who then proceeded to shoot himself in the head."

Much to my disappointment, I awaken at this point.

1/4/11: Sometimes I don't even understand why I get dreams like this: one where you're running around in circles and running into random people that seem very attractive--and the setting is in a big building. Recently I've been having dreams where there's been some sort of hybrid when it comes to these big buildings: Some are colleges mixed with apartments, while some are independent high schools--next to apartments.

In one scene, I'm in a dorm inside the body of someone who thinks there has been a failure/cheating. The roommate's had enough of his/her conspiracies.

"You've got 30 seconds to explain to me what you're talking about." she replies. She looks a lot like Hollywood actress Alicia Silverstone in the face, only younger. I haven't seen ANYTHING movie-wise starring Alicia Silverstone in over 15 years, and I'm 24 now.

After this, the "running around in circles" thing continued as a different character, running into random people and offices, even accidentally sitting on what appears to be a conveyor belt. I land on the ground, luckily, and on my own two feet.

I'm guessing this part of the dream came when I thought about doing some JoJo's Bizarre Adventure fanfiction starring a character who has a Stand similar to series main character Jotaro Kujo, Star Platinum, and this was likely everything he (the fanfic character I created) saw, along with the college scene belonging to a character from another work of mine, Tracy Weston.

A Stand, as many people who are fans of the JJBA comic book series know, is basically a supernatural power. Out of all the "bizarre" dreams I've had, I'd have to say this is one of the top ten, though I don't really see what big buildings have to do with JoJo's Bizarre Adventure. One of my goals in life is to be an author, and I think this dream might have been what I needed to get going. I'm new to this JJBA thing, so I guess I'd better read more in order to understand what's going on in each of the arcs.

DELETED

Non-lucid, 'Video-game-controller mode' [see side notes], Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

My dad and I are on a bicycle ride together. I've just checked out a thick paperback book from the library, and it's in the rack on the back of my bicycle.

I'm outside a movie theater in Florida, with my mom. Directly across from the entrance to the theater is a small kiosk where you can get drinks in plastic cups. She and I get some drinks from it for the whole family.

False awakening in my current real room. I hear the sounds of people shouting something about a surfer dude, and decide to follow the shouting out to the creek, but decide not to wake my parents. As I'm walking out of the house, I see that there's a bunch of writing in thick, black letters on the back wall of the dining room, as well as several papers with more writing on them taped to that wall.

I'm entering an upstairs apartment. My uncle is there.

I'm walking past a junior high school. I see a large group of kids in PE uniforms setting off on a run around the perimeter of the school.

I continue walking, and my route takes me along the street in my old neighborhood that goes around the edge of the park. I'm going in the direction of House #2. I turn around and see a tiny, cartoon kid with a BB gun standing behind me on the sidewalk. I'm a little worried that he's going to shoot me with the BB gun, but in the end, I ignore him and continue walking.

I reach House #2. In the garage, floating vertically in midair, is a menu of choices, like on a DVD. They say something like 'imaginary ideal' and 'reality' [I think; I don't really remember.] I select the former first, and find myself standing in my bedroom at House #2. The room is arranged the way it was in reality, but everything in it is completely white. [I really wouldn't call that design choice 'ideal.' However, when I lived there in reality, almost everything in that room really was white, and I was pretty happy living there.] I return to the menu, and this time, I select 'reality.' After making this selection, I find myself back in the same bedroom. It's still arranged the way it was in reality, only now the bed has a green bedspread with flowers, kind of like the one I have right now in reality [which I bought when we moved to House #3], except that the pattern is bigger and bolder.

I look out the window of my room and see a wide view of rolling grassland, with a lot of people walking around all over the place. There's only sunlight shining on one small, roughly circular section of the scene, though; the rest is in shadow. I speak aloud to the scene, saying something to the effect of, “It should be sunny all over the whole scene!” The sunlight spreads to cover the whole scene.

The scene shifts without my noticing it. The window of my room is now a doorway that opens onto a scene of an arctic landscape, with a wide, shallow pool of water in it. [An aside: After all those times I complained last month about the lack of snow in my dreamworld, I finally had a dream with snow in it, and not only did I completely fail to remember that I was supposed to make a snowball and hit somebody with it, but that Task of the Month is over now, anyway! Argh.] I walk out into the scene. From the far side of the pool, I step into the water, trying to walk on it, but I quickly give up the attempt because I get scared away by an orca and a walrus approaching me through the water. I walk back out. I then get the impression that they weren't really threatening me, after all. I go back toward the house. My mom is standing outside the doorway, and I tell her she can watch me do this if she wants to. I start walking back toward the pool of water again, concentrating on continuing to walk forward, straight into the pool, while believing that the surface of it will be just as solid to me as the ground is. It doesn't work; I end up standing ankle-deep in the shallow water again. [That's all I remember.]

-------------------
Side notes:
I'm really not sure for how much of the above sequence of events I was actually asleep and dreaming, and for how much of it I was awake and actively using my regular old imagination. I felt like I was doing the latter for at least part of it, hence the green text, which I always use to indicate a sort of half-awake, half-dream state where I know that I'm using my imagination like a video-game controller to control what happens. The division between green and purple text (indicating a lucid dream) is mostly an arbitrary guess. Then again, I was definitely aware that I was dreaming by the end, so it's entirely possible that I really was dreaming the entire time, and that's what dream control feels like. If so, that's really cool! I really advanced a lot in the area of dream control last night. I will have to experiment with this further.

I'm mildly annoyed, but not at all surprised, to discover that verbal commands work really well to control my dreams. As much as I love Inception and would love to be able to alter the dreamscape just by thinking about what I want to happen, that idea is relatively new to me. I've been a Star Trek fan for years, so it's not surprising that the older and better-entrenched idea that one can change one's surrounding environment by giving verbal commands, like they do when using the holodeck on Star Trek: TNG and later series, would take precedence over the newer idea that one can change one's surrounding environment just by thinking about it. Now that I know what works for me, though, I guess I'll go along with it.

4.01.2011

Feeding Time (Non-lucid)

★★★★☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Darkness covers the deserted outpost. Grey walled, black roofed buildings, dot the area, each a relic of the past. Though, the architecture, old-west in style, seems to be the norm across this post-apocalyptic wasteland. Shuffling through the first floor of the Inn, my sisters and I cast shadows on the murky glass. They're coming. . .

“What's that movement? In the window,” a woman points and whispers through hushed sobbing. A group approaches from up the grassy, wet, dirt-laced hill. They haven't slept for days. I motion with my flesh-torn arm for my sisters to cease their movement, close to the door now, out of sight, we're in perfect striking range.

“You're hallucinating,” warns the portly man with a broken staff and scruffy shadow of a beard. He saw it too, but hunger, the possibility of food, and a lack of sleep disrupt his reasoning. Unsure as he approaches the loosely hinged door, he warns the others to stay back.

It's likely these people have never seen one of our kind before. Never had to fear our bloodlust, our thirst for human flesh. No, these poor travelers have no idea what's waiting for them, just inside the darkness. We have the advantage.

They're unlucky, really, terribly unlucky. We could have come to any world, any universe, in the hunt for our true prey. I never had to steal that alien craft in our home dimension; the resistance would have gotten along fine without it. Sure, some key leaders would have been executed, but the fight would have continued.

Instead, out of character, I took a risk, and here I am now, in another plane of existence, dead and rotting, kept moving only by a powerful virus, or magic, I can't be sure. My intelligence, my self, remains intact. A true zombie, I am not, but my craving, my need to feed. . . all too real. Even as I bite down on this man's fleshy leg, repulsed by the taste, the dirt, the grime, I can't stop biting, tearing, where the others can't see him, can't hear his muffled cries.

I really hate it when they don't shower.

a
1/3/11

Nonlucid
This girl and I were riding bicycles through a building that was not completely built yet.
Next we were on the grassy ground laughing about it all. This is when I saw she was Penelope Cruz.
aaaaaaaaaaa
She rolled on the grass and I tossed a blanket end over to her. She gave a mock surprise and I said "it was the wind." She laughed and rolled herself up in the blanket till it was even over her face. I rolled her onto me and said "your on me supported be my body" but there was no answer and no thoughts coming from this pile of sheets. She was not in there and this was just a replicated pile of bed sheets.
I wanted to go somewhere new and then I was walking into an office with someone like Penelope Cruz. I stood in front of the desk and she walked behind the desk sat in the chair and put her feet up on the desk. The man and woman who just walked in too looked astounded at us and we couldn't be happier.
Woke up and committed it to memory.

1/4/11
Dream 1: The Enclosure.
Partly lucid

I was walking through a field and thought about hunting then I thought I saw a large flightless bird and said "I think I'll hunt quail. Ha yeah I'll hunt quail!" It seemed funny to me given how small and the birds are and can't even fly. When I came to a large earthen wall, like the kind made out of mud bricks with mud pasted over it. I hopped up on the wall and yelled mockingly "I will have a quail!"
Coming down off the way I saw it was some kind of enclosure and where I was at was the corner of the enclosure and the walls when far off into the distance. I saw a crack in the ground here which I didn't want to fall into. I went out into what looked like an African Savannah. There was a side of the enclosure that was for people where no animals were. I walked quite a bit looking at the grasses till I came upon a place that's like the diners they have at zoos so you can wash up and eat.
Standing outside the diner where some people I knew, they had been waiting. We said hello and talked a bit and I stuck close to the attractive short haired brunette. She was a little surprised by this. I showed her into the diner and she was surprised by this too. Then we sat at a small metallic table and I asked her how she was. She knew what I was going to ask and said "OK" before I even finished. I thought of something to say quickly, "So hows... your wor" "Great... yep." she said looking awkward. I didn't know what to say she kept cutting off my thoughts. We sat in silence for a minute. "Well don't let me keep you." I said abruptly. "oh Thanks" she said with a half smile and got up. "let me see you out."
Instantly I was back at the place I came into the enclosure. This time I remembered not only the first time I had been here before but there were other times I had been here. Excited, I ran out into the Savannah with the animals. I ran besides gazelles and saw giraffes and other animals off in the distance. I saw a lion and was afraid if I looked at him he may come over to me so I kept running and ran next long hill on the human side of the enclosure. After a bit I knew I was coming to the same diner area as before but this time I saw only 2 of my friends from before and the short haired girl was gone, and, this time I saw the 2 a little before the diner area too. "hey guys" I said, they waved a bit. They were saying something like "are you having fun" and I saw the short haired girl come out of the mist that was forming and she said "Well if its not the stud!" This was a bit of a surprise and I wasn't sure she was talking to or about me, I even thought it may mean my fly is open! I looked down at my fly area and saw I was squeezing an orange stress ball but that was it. I started feeling a little shy and silly about that as she said hello to the others.
The short haired girl and I walked off so she could leave and we could say good bye. We came to a train and we said some good byes but then there was a staircase going up that had a lot of people on it and I just had to see what this was all about. We walked up it into a big long line going into a warehouse looking building. The line wound around several staircases and a girl managing the line at the top said "everyone over here move over!" We moved over into the line nearer the door. I remembered this was a large paintball shooting fest going on inside from the last time I was here.
Woke wrote down key elements.

Dream 2: The Shape
nonlucid
Some friends and I were outside a dept store in the parking lot and 2 guys who had just participated in a competition came walking towards us. One was the winner and he held a blue wire cube on a black little board as he grinned. The other guy sadly through his thing on the ground. I picked it up and looked at it, it was called The Shape and was a fluid that could change into many different shapes just by thinking it and on its own. It was like it was a part of my hand I could feel it moving into links and then tiny ropes. We when into a grocery store and the Shape as I was looking at it in my hand climbed onto a light fixture and was making all kinds of funny shapes.
This is when I remembered this dream before. The last time The Shape went up into the lights and I became frightened that the shape was going to kill everyone and ran out of the store.
Remembered this and forgot this repeatedly throughout the day.