non-lucid

So there I was just sleeping on my bed and all of a sudden, I see this list of dreams pop up in my head.
I looked at all of them and just randomly picked one. Next thing I know, I'm in an old Japanese house with a blackout. Me and the other two roommates were just walking around trying to turn power back on and then I just popped back up at the same list again.
I looked at the list and found a League of Legends dream. I went into it and GangPlank was shooting his gun at me and I woke up.

Morning of November 27, 2013. Wednesday.



In my dream, my wife Zsuzsanna and our children are in our backyard in perhaps late morning, seemingly of the home we live in now on W Street. There are some differences though, one being that the gate is more towards the middle of our fence on the west side of the property, and there are also additional trees. At least four miniature resplendent quetzals fly around, both males and females. At times though, it seems like they may also be a rare species of hummingbird. (Hummingbird and quetzal composites have appeared in previous dreams.) There is a heightened awareness of beauty and peace. The vibrant energies of the reds, greens, and blues move through the air as they seem interested in the flowers growing near one tree near our fence. My wife watches them cheerfully. At times, they seem more and more like hummingbirds (or perhaps just with hummingbird heads and way of flight - as their wings are sometimes moving more like that of a bee). It is like a special mystery or “visit” for our eyes only. I am sort of puzzled as to what they really are but feel they are like a special gift in some ways. (A quetzal also appeared in probably the most vivid dream I ever had in my lifetime, on Easter morning of 1986, age 25.)

Amusing trivia: Curiously, the audio reversal of “quetzal” sounds just a little like “Aztec” (ket-so…os-tek), whereas “Quetzalcoatl” sounds a little like “little old Aztec”.

There was a dream where I was at some sort of island theme park. It was supposed to be pretty scary. I was with Nguyen and a few other people. We stayed there for a while. There were a few of the higher ups frying there as well for some reason.
There was a pretty intense part of the park, probably one of the three parts of the park where you get toured around by some clown looking guy, and randomly throughout the ride he would go crazy and you have to calm him down in order to progress without anyone having to be taken. It was a very intense and somewhat scary ride. There was a whole fiasco with who I was staying with and the clown. They didn't look like the clown from it, but they somewhat did. The face paint on the one clown would change color when he went insane during the ride.
Watson was there with us, and he ordered a bunch of video games to the park address but he wasn't there to pick them up the next day because he was probably missing or something.
Then I went with some of the higher ups from my work from the park to another part which was in a house hotel area where my grandma and aunty were staying. There were a few interesting things that happened there and then I got a ride with them back to the park. There was another part of the dream that involved them and my work more heavily but its pretty hazy.
I get back to the park and have a pretty intense moment where an entire hall of people turn into the clown looking things, it was kind of scary but moreso just intense and in tents. I end up finding out why the clown was so crazy though when I try to escape from the park one night through a flashback.
In a past life the clown was in fact a starfish whose daughter starfish got destroyed by the waves and rocks and environment. Life is hard for other creatures. He dragged her to a place near the ocean and rocks where he could sort of protect her and try to help her heal, because starfish can heal relatively easily. He ends up turning into a large barnacle to protect her. I just remember intense feelings of sympathy for the clown starfish barnacle, and it all made sense why he was so angry to me at the time. Then the dream ended.
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There is a pretty major dream, kinda vivid, where at the end of it, we end up somewhat around Las Vegas celebrating something and a small cruise turns into a large extravagant one.. It seemed to be around Hawaii because there were huge boats and also F15's in the water that we were all riding. It was an amazing celebration There was some production as to why it was being recorded as well. I think it was after work in my dream. I had a feeling that I had never seen this before even though I am from Hawaii.
I cant recall the rest of the dream as of right now.
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an extensive dream about me, Nguyen, Scott and my Catholicism teacher as well as all the people in my weekend catholic school as we go out, learn, and get into hi jinx. we end up having some lessons I forget which kind. Then I end up talking to my friend Nguyen, as we need Halloween costumes... We go to a mall and we buy two nun costumes that pull away into other costumes like party boy. we the go to our catholic class via shuttle, where we meet my friend scott, who has now turned into a douche for some reason and feeds me some bs story about how he had moved or seen his house where his mom and him used to live where he was beaten by his dad as an excuse for being a douche. He slaps an old man on the face in the subway.
then we go back to class after trying to figure out what we re going to eat for lunch as we cant decide, we almost don't have lunch.
At class there are many people i know. It is held on the top floor of some building in a city like pearl city. we talk and our teacher seems like an asshole. I see some of my cousins in my class and one of them is singing a song by Die Antwoord. I am pressured by the teacher to see if I am going to volunteer for whatever thing they had going on the next day, which I was hesitant to do because I had no clue. Then we went on with our lives after the class and having decided that I wouldn't go on this excursion the next day, as I still want to have a weekend. Then the dream ends.
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I go to a convenience store with my mom and sister and Martinson. We get into a small confrontation.
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Had a WILD. Went into SP then got woken up by a little boy. Room was small. He said "she" wanted to see me. Went to see a somewhat scary dream lady that I turned into my memere. I decided I wanted to get away at that point so I fell through the ground into a backyard. There was a few trees and dogs there. Pretty vicious dogs but I love them so I let them bite me. I go into another scene where its a beautiful open field and I fly around. The weather is so nice, and there's pine trees. The weather gets darker and on top of a hill I see Kim Jong Un. I fly away to a desert area where the world gets like runescape and I think im in WoW. I start to walk around the crowded halls. I have a movie like vision of two girls in the town. Sisters.
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Had a crazy dream where We were travelling across country with a bunch of people, some high school classmates and whatnot and we went to a very high class party. There were a lot of drugs and debauchery going on at this party. That was pretty much the extent of it.
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Had a dream where i was in my old house and every night a demon dog would come and try to harm us but we would hold it back.
Had another dream where a dog used a paint brush in its mouth to paint a large canvas in the back yard
Had another dream where we were all staying at my cousins house and we were going to have a huge pot luck. Some of the people that I work with were there such as Lawson and Harris.
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Bunch of awesome dreams last night. Had one where I was going through some sort of fun house where some somewhat evil things popped out at you and it was a test of whether you could handle them all. Spirits and stuff would try to enter your body. After I got out of there I went up to this other place and saw my aunty who turns out was taken over somewhat by these evil things. Then I woke up in a somewhat military barracks where we all had bunk beds. They said it was code red mopp 4 because the room was painted red.
Then I had some other dreams which were all very vivid. After flying around in one of them because I knew that I was lucid, I tried to conjur something, but for some reason it wasn't working. I also toured my aunty around because I knew that she was taken over by demons. When I got tired of the dream I fell through the floor to see where I could go to next.
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Had a dance battle with Nguyen just while i was taken over by the grim reaper who actually looked like a muppet. I was part of an organization that was housing a girl child that its members were keeping her hostage because she was the key in unleashing the Old Ones. There was a jerk at the head of the organization now who basically runs things in the background Me and a bunch of my real life co workers were all a part of this organization. He tried to get all of our contacts through each other by forcing us to give him our contacts but some refused.
Had another dream where I went to a mall with some friends, but it wasn't a huge mall. I tried to impress my friends with a display of acrobatic skill by jumping all over the place in the mall and doing some cool stuff. There was an upper area in the mall which was a sort of play area which was like a rotating skating rink but instead was a moving platform that span and you had to run with it and try not to fall off of it because it was very high in the air.
Had another dream where I was back at home and for some reason my dad was there as well as my mom. My dad basically took over my moms room and my mom was left to stay in the living room, which was weird because it was her house. There were quite a few interesting dreams this past week and this past night The most interesting was the one where we were part of an organization that was corrupt and there was a figure head that was a little child who was a mere pawn in the whole thing.

I was wondering about private/DV journalling the last week - and stopped doing it in here.
I found, that while it is good, to do it on a recording function of my I-Phone - without the drive to trans-scribe it - I do not even always listen to it once more.
So this can´t be good.
So I´m back.
But I also have this stupid problem of sweating esp. while vivid and active dreams - and I sort of automatically start moving and opening my eyes to get a new shirt.
It is good I can start dictate, while doing that - but anyway - got to try to really keep still and eyes closed and feel a bit damp and un-comfy for the sake of recall!

While I can hold on to fragments, while doing the changing - I believe this is mostly optically - I do loose the bigger narrative like that.

Many - unnoticed dream-signs: Place of my youth, friends from back then, removals, looking for a place to live.. and more in the other fragments, too.

So - three of the several fragments on the 4 min. audio-file, I grumbled together:

I wanted to move back to the place I spent my youth, and was looking for somewhere to live - me a man, I don´t know, came along a small street - rather a way, where there where lots of old-fashioned, formerly very beautiful Bavarian buildings - like old farm-complexes and also normal houses - all were completely ruined, though.
One could look through wooden pillars - and even inside was nothing interesting to go examine and "pillage".
Something I felt like doing - and I was disappointed, not to see furniture or interesting other things inside any of them.
I was also wondering, how it could be, there were ruins in such a "popular area" close to the lake.



I was with one old female school-friend out to look for something to wear for a party - and we suddenly thought - why not just take something.
But as it were - there was almost no space in the 2 shops, we went in - and nothing we wanted, either - so back out we went.
Then she was suddenly gone - and I had to pass through a café with tables on the side-walk.
Twice something fell to the ground unnoticed - first an expensive ear-ring - and I picked it up and gave it back to the woman - and then some figurine of a board game - also gave that back to that woman.


The last thing was the nicest - I think, not often in my dreams do I hear something beautiful.

I was sight-seeing inside a big government-building with another friend back from school.
I still have some contact with some of them - but not him for too long, actually.
Inspired by Sivason - I might write a mail to him..

Anyway - there were columns with singing bowls - some of them filled with water.
My friend circled with his finger around the rim of one filled bowl - and the most wonderful sound emerged - crystal-clear and very sublime - "hanging in the air" for a while after.
The one closest to me didn´t have water, but I found and poured some in - and started trying it out myself.
But it didn´t work out as beautifully - almost didn´t work at all - and bit later - we left.

Fragment

Another ATLA dream. I was trying to learn how to use ice by freezing water in my bathtub. I tried blowing on it like superman's freeze breath, and it didn't work. I tried gesturing over it with my arms and thinking "cold" thoughts. This caused a thin layer of ice to form over the water.

Fragment/Short Dream

I haven't had a minecraft type dream in awhile. But this wasn't minecraft exactly. (As in the world looked realistic and not blocky) There's not really much to say about it. I was riding in a minecart that went underground. The minecart was going really fast and doing jumps over underground lava chasms and such. I wouldn't classify it as a dream fragment, because it was quite long. I was riding for at-least three minutes. But there wasn't quite enough to say about it to make it a full-fledged dream. It was a lot of fun so there's that.

weird dream progression. i was first in a dining hall with matt jajeh and people. some girl was textile ne and he kept trying to figure out who it was but i wouldn't show him. he wanted to know cause he was starting a players website and wanted to figure out how a guy like me could still be talking to girls . then there were these 2 bears that followed me up into the woods. they were cute but ten its mom came i got the fuck outa there. something killed the mom really gorily.. so i ran back up and the children had grown so i saw tucker walking across the street so i grabbed him and ran to safety. then i found myself skateboarding down a large hill and my grandma told me to be careful. some lady screamed help help help and i walked over to her and she asked me "what happens to my dog after court, its a blind dog but he just went to a court meeting for me" i wasn't sure but expressed to her my amazement that dogs could wear business suites and sympathized with its blindness. my grandma found me so we sat down and had lunch with the lady

PS4 graphics
Dean from Real Life Comics is reviewing the Playstation 4. He's playing a game with zombies riding bicycles, commenting on the amazing graphics, that no other previous system could render such realistic bikes.

Now there's something about a woman sitting at a cafe, trying to fake out people who want to capture her.


Fragments
Something about SQL schemas

Something about feeling sorry for a large bomb

Fragment

A few weeks ago (in RL) I found a sweatband in my room, and started to wear it around my wrist constantly. My hope was to use it as a "totem" like in inception. Am I wearing a sweatband? Nope. Must be dreaming.
Anyways, I could never find the other one, no mater how hard I searched. I know there were two, because the sweatbands were a Christmas present, as a pair. But... In this dream, I had both.

Snakebite

I was in some suburban backyard type setting. There was a large forest to one side, and a row of houses to the other. Between them were backyards, probably 50-70 feet from the woods to the houses. The sky was a dark blue, and there was a light snowfall, with several inches already fallen on the ground.
The first thing I recall was encountering a snake. It became aggressive and started chasing after me. I wasn't able to run very far until I tripped. I was able to grab its head before it could bite me, but the snake was "lagging" (Fantastic, video game lag in my dreams). But really, in my hand, it was behaving like that.
My mother was there, and I told her to quickly kill the snake. She grabbed its top and bottom jaw, each with one thumb, and killed it by pulling the jaw open 180. But because of the "lag" the snake registered as alive and was able to bite me before dying permanently.
I looked at my leg, and there were four holes where the snake's teeth had gone in. It hurt, but in a strange way that it felt like I could control the pain. I commanded the pain to go away, and it did.
My mother, who was still present, directed me to go to the doctors office.
Now remember how I described the dream scene as taking place in an "alley" between a row of houses and a dense forest. But there was a small two story house built in this alley. It even had a large neon sign on it saying "doctor".
But the house was quite a ways away. I began walking, but it was painfully slow and I seemed to be staggering in the snow. When I was about 1/4 of the way there, I looked again at the snakebite on my leg. I noticed that the skin on my leg was starting to turn a dull red around the snakebite. "Must be the venom!" I thought to myself.
I continued walking, with a somewhat faster pace until I was there. I was standing outside and looked at my leg again. Most of my leg was a dull red now. I knocked on the door, and you'll never believe who was there.
Marcus! "The Glasses Guy" that I kept seeing. I was thinking thinking he's another recurring dream character, and I was right. He turned out to be the "doctor" I was looking for. He took out some high tech injector device with a glowing blue vial in it and injected it into the bite. My leg returned to normal color. Awesome.

I can't remember what happened next or how I got here, but I ended up going inside one of the houses, and the inside ended up looking like the basement of my own house. (We have a walk out basement.)
The strange part was, I was trying to stabilize the dream by touching the walls, so I must have beenlucid. But I don't remember ever actually attaining lucidity before I started to stabilize. I woke up after that.

There's this woman who's a cop, kneeling in front of an old woman in a chair, and confessing something, but phrasing it like it's all hypothetical, referring to both herself and the old woman in the 3rd person, even though they both know who she's talking about. She gets to a point where she doesn't want to finish the story - the old woman said she admires her, and the cop thinks that will change if she finishes the story. She doesn't think the old woman will believe the rest of the story, and will think less of her for telling it. Still speaking as if this is all hypothetical, the old woman disagrees with her, and says that the cop should appreciate herself more. The old woman disappears, and where she'd been sitting, there's a lighter that the cop had lost in the desert, an old worn one with some stickers with words on them wrapped around it.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

The same cop DC, although this time she's a white woman. She's in the corner of a room, trying to be quiet and still and not attract attention. There's a chenoo who's moving around the room, picking up some of the mess it made while fighting something else. It's changed a little after the fight, so that she can make out the face of the old man it used to be. It notices her, greets her cheerfully, calls her Nikita. It says that now that it's eaten (the thing it was fighting), it isn't going to eat her, which it's happy about since she's been nice.

Feb. 16, 2003:
I had some dreams I really don't remember,except that they weren't nightmares. Then I had dreams about woods, but they were nice dreams. Then I had a dream about a puppy. It was sort of scary but the end was happy, so it doesn't qualify a nightmare.
Then I had a sort of semi, psuedo-nightmare, but the puppy was still involved... hmm... oh well.

In my dream I was walking through the woods. They were more like deciduous woods, though. Not sure if they were Florida woods at all. I embraced a tall man with light brown hair. I can't remember what color his eyes were, or if they had a color. All I remember is saying "I remember you" and asking him his name. He wouldn't tell me his name

Then there was the dream about the puppy, I don't remember much except that the puppy was going through a temple to save some people, and in the end the puppy managed to save them. It was smallish, sort of like a terrier, with silvery black fur, only it had floppy ears. It was a VERY cute puppy, though.

Then I had a dream I was in a car with J following another car through some sort of theme park, and his brakes gave out. Somehow, though, we made it through that alive, mostly because the guy in front of us used the back end of his own car to slow us down (everything was mostly downhill so we would have kept gaining speed). The guy was NOT pleased that he had to total his car, but... hey... we didn't die.

-I was at a hotel and we were on a vacation.
-It turns out that one of my best friends was at the hotel too.
-We went to a party that my parents told me i couldn't go to.
-I went for a walk outside to clear my head.
-After a while a girl that graduated from our school comes and tells me she wants to throw a surprise party to someone else in our school.
-She wanted me to help her think of ideas
-Then i don't remembered what happens and i wake up.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragment):

Something about piloting some craft.

Dream 2(fragment):

Something about dragons.

Dream 3(fragment):

Some shmup boss fight.

Dream 4:

I try to do DEILD but it fails but then i try for WILD and soon transition occurs and FA fades into my view. I get up but it"s very unstable, it's hard to stand and navigate, i try to stabilize but that doesn"t works, then i switch to quadruped stance and go towards balcony door. I try to break through but whole unstability makes me just bounce away. I notice weird mechanism on the wall and there are a few clocks on it, i pick two and one of them is at 4h and another is at 8h, dream fades.

Dream 5(fragments):

i was browsing dreamviews and there were weird spammy posts around.

My first dream I remembered wasn't a nightmare. It had nightmarish qualities. I was walking across the Golden Gate Bridge. Fog everywhere. Then the bridge started to wobble and pitch. I grabbed for support. I knew I had to make it across so I sprinted across. One of the "waves" of the bridge hit me up. I was falling through the air. I woke up after that. Last nights dream was about a car ride with my friend. My other friends were in the car. He dropped them all off at my friend's house. I was about to get out of the car when Kegan (the person driving) said to stay in. He was taking me home. We talked about hiim and the others not liking me and said I should find new friends. I've had this problem in the real world as well. This journal is open to analysis.

Dream 1(fragment):

Some video game.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was some story about some family of scientists, they lived in some lab building built on columns in the middle of the ocean. There was some discussion and they were searching solution for some problem. Then a girl with some psionic abilities appeared and whole place exploded. Some survived and started swimming.

Dream 3(fragments):

There was some discussion about some virtual reality project and evolution.

Dream fragment: I remember racing around an unfamiliar office and I was kind of sliding on air at high speed past some coworkers, but at one point I seemed to loose momentum in front of someone near a piano. I also remember something about going around the world, but that was more cartoony, like in a Wii game I have called Exerbeat, where going around the world is used to track one's progress. Some women said that they did not know one could go only partially around the world and did not need to do it all at once.