non-lucid

Dream Fragment: Me and this random male DC are sitting on my grandma's living room floor. There's this drag queen DC sitting indian style in front us. He has huge boobs, and he's wearing like glittery birthday cone hats on them. I mention to the drag DC that them hats is to small, his boobs are popping out. Then he takes the right one off and throws it at me, but there's another one under still covering if you can call it that. And the other DC just laughs that his boob hat bopped me in the face.

Today i dreamt i was walking near the BP's gas station street. I was on the left side
of the street, but the other side was different. I saw a lot of people coming with presents
and i knew some how it was for hiro mashima birthday, i still found it surprising how
much people liked anime in my town, i really saw a lot of people coming and keep coming.


Dream elements:

-BP gas station street


Technique used: WBTB

hours slept: 5 hours

I'm in a bedroom that reminds me of the one at almond drive. The layout is pretty much the same except for a few details, the main one being that it's a great deal bigger. It's sometime in the evening and I'm sitting down on the floor in a corner. It's where the dresser holding the television should be but it's not there. Instead it's a huge empty space. All of my pillows and blankets are in the corner with me and all of my makeup as well. Even though it's evening and fairly dark, I lift up a hand mirror and I begin to put on a bit of makeup. I hear shuffling near me so I turn towards where the noise came from. A girl is sitting on the bed on the other side of the room. She's staring at me, watching me put on my makeup. I stare back at her for a few moments and then turn back to the mirror feeling annoyed by her watching me. I ask her what she's staring at as I finish up. She says nothing and the quiet begins to bother me. I slam the mirror down and angrily look back at her, screaming "what?!" She only smirks at me, slowly climbs off of the bed and walks towards me. The closer she gets the more annoyed and angry I become. She reaches me and kneels down, reaching for and grabbing one of my arms. She squeezes my arm painfully and yanks me up off the floor hard. I resist a little but it doesn't do much good. She pulls me in front of her and grabs onto my other arm to hold me in place. For the first time I realize that I'm only wearing a bra and underwear. She's wearing a big, long sweatshirt. She continues to hold me there, smirking the whole damn time. After what feels like hours, I can no longer stand looking at her so I look down at the floor. She starts laughing then. "See? That wasn't so hard, was it?", she says. I start shaking with anger and I immediately look back up at her and tell her to go to hell. She only laughs again and shoves me back onto the floor. I hit the floor hard and it hurts. I move back into the corner and try to keep a distance between us which only makes her smile widen. When I cannot move further, she crowds into my face and forces my legs open, settling in between them. One of her hands grabs my neck and the other grabs my chin, forcing me to look at her face. "You're so adorable. You're also mine", she leans in and whispers. "So be a good girl." She roughly pulls my face towards hers and kisses me. I'm pissed off beyond belief but I don't fight it. I relax a little bit in her arms and I kiss her back. I can feel her smile. She pulls away after a minute and kisses my forehead, telling me that I'm a good girl. She gets up off the floor and leaves the room.

I just had a dream i was at a party last night, like on of the parties i would go to when i was younger. I really wish something more interesting happened....oh well.

So in real life yesterday, I read a craigslist ad about how someone was filming a video and would pay 500 to 2500 dollars to a woman who is willing to get her head shaved for the video.

In my dream, I'm sitting at the end of our old dining room table with my mom sitting in front of me and to my left. I bring up the subject of getting at least 500 dollars for something that I'm not sure about, because it would be embarrassing, and right off the bat, she says, "if it has anything to do with shaving your head, then no" or something like that. I'm surprised and dissapointed.

Hopefully I'll come back and edit, because I know there was more that I recalled...

today i dreamt i was playing lineage 2 with my brother, i was in my bedroom
with my brother playing it, he was on my desktop playing on my pc.
I was on a white desktop with some other fixed pc playing as well, i found
a quest where i had to caress valakas, i talked to that woman and went to it's
lair. when i got there, i had to attack him smoothly then write /talk talk
i tried to do that but i died at that time. then i respawned went to talk to that woman
again and got into his lair again. this time i did it right, and valakas attitude changed
he was with his tongue out and licking my character, and i could caress him, i called my brother.
"Hey come and see this" he came too late, valakas attitude changed into a dragon again.
But i wanted to show it to my brother, so i re-did the quest. i was there again, and it's attitude
changed again, this time my brother was watching, and his reaction was like "WTF lol"


Dream elements:

-lineage 2
-valakas
-brother
-in my bedroom


Technique used: WBTB

hours slept: 5 hours

So I was going to a party with my 5 friends and we were driving. Except none of us have passed our test. It was jade's car and she was insured to drive it, but even though I a probably closet to passing since I am the only one to have passed my theory Lucy was driving instead. She reversed out my drive, but then went stupidly fast down the top of my road and we were screaming at her to slow down, then saw her eyes were closed as she had passed out. So i had to jump out the car, open her door basically sit on her and put the handbrake on to stop the car. Then she woke up and we said she couldn't drive us and she was arguing saying she was fine but we put our foot down and refused to let her drive, it was either me or Katie tat actually drove us but I can't remember which.
At the party Tyger Drew-Honey was there and I "accidentaly" walked into him and that got us talking and dancing pretty much all night. I claimed I knew his grandma (I thought I did at the time) Charlotte who I went with I found sat in one of those round booth things with all my old friends who she kind of knows through me but not really (I dont really talk to them much anymore as they alays ignore me) but they were talking about some filming thing and char was saying abut her auditions but they all had a massive duvet on top of them like they were at a sleepover. Me and tyger walked up another time with our arms round each other and they just looked at me judgingly. Then he went out to smoke something so i went to the toilet disapprovingly, then I woke up.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I think I was watching TotalBiscuit review a game and he mentioned a place where you can play it.

Now I'm at the place, There are a few game cabinets/arcade machines with a few games on them, So I go to 1 of the cabinets that has the game TotalBiscuit reviewed and start to play, I noticed the screen on this cabinet is really dull compared to the others, there's another cabinet with the same game behind me so I decide to switch, the screen is good on this 1 but I encountered another problem...I can't reach the square red button at the far left.

Now I am looking for my mother in hoping that she has a stick or something so I can reach, It turns out she does and pulls a long stylus out of her handbag.

I return only to find some kid is playing on the cabinet I want, instead I go over and watch him play, he appears to be having difficulties so I try to help but he gets angry then points at the game name above the screen and I noticed that the name has changed, this isn't the same game I tried to play earlier, I turn around and go play on that other "dull" cabinet, it is no longer dull.

Today i dreamt i was in the kitchen getting some food, i heard a voice and it was the famous ricardo araujo pereira.
He told me How his daughter has been, and i was listening carefully, he told me the other guys were pretty good
as well.


Dream elements:

-in my kitchen


Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 4 hours

Dream Fragment: I'm just sitting and I notice my left cheek on my face is beginning to ache and sting. I mess with it and there's two small holes above two abscesses, I squeeze at them and cream colored puss oozes out, and it goes endlessly. I keep squeezing and squeezing. It's hurts to smile or make large mouth movements. I pinch the outside and inside of my mouth together with my index and thumb, I can feel a hard puss pocket. I think about cleaning it afterwards, but I become irritated that it won't stop emptying.

This is the longest recall so far

It's dusk in the city where I used to live. It's starts to rain and then pour down. I seek shelter in an abandoned lighthouse in the park. It had a large open room when you first walked in and stairs leading up to a bedroom. I go into the bedroom and sit on the dusty bed. The power goes out and the storm gets worse. I start to get really scared. I rolled of the bed and look underneath it, it's too dark to tell what under there but I freak myself out and run for it. As I am running out of the lighthouse I pass a couple of people who decide that they want to go into the building.

I get to my apartment stoop and I notice some young adults hassling this gay man. I am so frantically trying to open my door so I don't bother to say anything also I am paranoid they will attack me. I manage to open the door and I climb the stairs, which are spiral. There is one door at the top of the staid and I enter. This apartment belongs to a family but I sit down with them anyways. I am sitting on the couch and directly across there is a small table with two chairs where the wife and husband sit. They speak English but also speak Dutch periodically. They have two sons, one is around 9 or 10 years old he only speaks French. The other is in his twenties, he speaks English, Dutch and French. Anyways the wife takes a plastic glass fills her cup with wine then pours half into her young sons cup which was half filled with water. They are a happy family and we small talk for a bit.

I am then suddenly in a golf course with my old friend O. I tell her a storm is coming and we need shelter because we are in an open field with golf clubs. A women beside me starts trying to debate with me, telling me that there is no storm. As she saying this it starts to rain and continually gets worse. I give up arguing with her and grab O's hand and run. It's really poring down now and I notice we are walking on a metal grate. As soon as I realize lightening comes down and strikes the grate. We were just quick enough to jump off into a pit of sand. Metal still surround us though. O starts panicking saying we almost died and I just lie on my stomach in the sand, speechless.

After awhile we get the strength to get up and we was for a cabin, at this point it's already started snowing. There is a couple in the cabin and we make small talk with them. It's starts to become a blizzard outside and the power goes off. I call up some people who are in another cabin and try to tell them that we are in danger and to call rescue. The guy on the others line is drunk and just laughing at me. I am livid, I scream that we almost died and now we are freezing and being buried in by the snowstorm. It's useless though cause he still keeps laughing. I open up the front door and there is a rescue team. The snow is so high, we walk out in single file to the ambulance. I have no shoes on( of course) and so I am freezing.

We get in the ambulance but it turns into like a moveable platform. We go to the bottom and are instructed to put our feet on the wood ledge(which is so narrow). We lie down on our backs and are told to hold onto the two rescue team people above us. The platform starts to rotate vertically and I am panicked to follow the instruction but I mange. We are high up in the air and I am so scared will slip off but the platform lowers to the ground. There is a large crowd gathered and I push my way through them.

I go back to my apartment. The family is still there and they tell me to put on a blouse and skirt and come join them to watch tv. I get dressed in the other room. I grab my art supplies and go to the tv room. Now there I a party in this room. I climb up on the exposed pipes on the ceiling and manoeuvre my way back to the room I was just at. I see a construction worker behind me and he is impressed that I climb so well. We talk about the measurements of each room and I let him know about a secret platform.
Then I wake up.

Super quick entry. Last weekend I had an regular dream involving my grandmother in which something else made me lucid and then the next day one where seeing her triggered lucidity. Last night my grandfather triggered lucidity!

I had a romantic NLD early in the night...felt like puppy love...she was so beautiful and I was reassuring her...a little shy. Red head with faint, fading freckles. We moved our way to bed and sexual feelings and she changed to my wife. I then had a lucid triggered by my deceased grandfather...so strange! Grandmother last week: first, and now him and he's been gone over 20 years...woke up a little teary eyed and almost deild with a dream forming or possibly just HHs a little threatening at first so I laugh it off and feel myself waking up again. I kept my eyes closed and reflected on deceased relatives and interesting unexpected memories flowed in. 103

Journal Entry non-lucid #24 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I argued with my mother and when I woke up around 11pm and again at 2pm I couldn't remember anything.
Dream fragment 1, 4:13am-7:43am."": It was pretty realistic and gruesome. I thought I was watching news or something. This crazy lady in Africa was running around belligerent. She had a knife and was trying to cut people. Most people ran away from forming a circle around her. I turned around and turned back she grabbed a women by her neck and cut her neck straight off. I saw the eyes roll back the blood drip down from the women's decapitated neck. It sent shiver down my back. She laughed menacingly as the crowd looked in disgust. In one hand she had the head which she raised to the air, and in the other a child maybe around 7 or 8 years old. The child was terrified and was trying to escape. The women wouldn't let her go. I thought why don't they kill her already. Then a sniper shot her and it chipped her head across her eyes. She fell to the floor. The little girl was about to go to her mother, but the lady get up. She grabs the little girl. Her eyes were missing and you could see the chunk of meat was gone. The little girl screamed and the crazy women died. I thought why would she do that just to traumatize the girl.

-something about breaking bad airing again and I had to get ready to cook something.

Date: 24 Jan

Pre bed: 200mg val, 50mg B6

Wbtb: 1/4 latte

Wasn't very wakeful even though repeated mantras a few times, fell asleep rather fast, had a few non-lds I can't recall

DILD: I am having a tense conversation with this female DC I know. She starts criticizing me. I reply that as a revenge I will then do something to make her feel the same way she makes me feel with all her comments. While this is a rather habitual mental reaction, I notice that contrary to other times I don't feel anything at that very moment. Still, as part of my revenge scheme I take her and turn her upside down in front of all the DCs in the room to publicly humiliate her.

As I stare at her, I notice that she just stays there, like a motionless puppet and become lucid. We're in a very large meeting room with a long table in the middle and lots of DCs participating in some corporate event. I'm in a daring mood and decide it's time to defy social rules by getting on the table in the middle of this meeting. Then I almost lose lucidity being carried away by thoughts of how all of the world's problems may be solved by by issuing unlimited credit cards to the entire population.

I keep thinking about this issue as I leave the place and continue towards an unknown city center. There to help me focus more I shout out loud "I am dreaming". There was a slight instability so this helps me ground as well.

Then I remember the invisibility task and go in the middle of the road pretending to be invisible.There are cars coming from all directions but as soon as I pay attention to them, they hit the breaks and spin a bit. I turn around and the same thing happens again. Then I see this huge truck coming in my direction. I start waving hands, checking if the driver can see me. He doesn't hit the brake or slow down and the truck is quickly coming closer. I step to the side to avoid the impact. There's little space between me and the truck, my uncontrolled expectations cause it to fall sideways on top of me, where I feel this huge weight on me. I try to move and free my head, but this results in a physical feeling, which gives me the impression I have just moved in my bed. I expect to wake up any moment but get an FA instead.

I believe that I have woken up for real and the first thing I notice is this piano music coming from the outside. I'm actually in the neighbors where we used to live some time ago and look to find where the music is coming from. I see this girl that I remember (possibly from another dream but could be false memory) who got that piano there and something about her. As if that isn't enough, the balcony is crowded - many people in their 20s and 30s dressed with business attire as if attending some sort of event. I'm think this is just too much when I am trying to fall asleep and decide this can only be a dream, reminding myself that I was trying to ld. Can't member how, but it seems I lose consciousness after that and have another FA.

I think in the beginning, I'm looking from the window to see what's down but then the scene changes and we move to this wooden porch. I initially see this strange big animal that looks suspiciously like a DS, I can't tell what kind of animal it is. Then there is a smaller one and I'm still trying to identify the large one. I'm starting to have some real doubts about this and begin to count the animals, one now looks like a bear and can't remember the rest but there's four of them. I conclude this is a dream and go to interact with one of the animals. It looks like a very large black boar/tapir and as I place my hand on its snout, it bites me and it even hurts.

I move slightly to the left and examine the rest of the area, where I notice a number of elephant-like creatures. I think they are separated from the porch, but no cage, it looks much like in a zoo. At some point the elephants begin to distort in features, open mounts and start roaring very louldy in a generally unpleasant manner. I try to stop them by thinking I want them to stop, but nothing happens and more join the roaring event. I remain there staring at them as they do so, kind of calm, but there's also this deeper inner response to their roaring, which surely is what is affecting them. I think that the problem is exactly this feedback loop - I am thinking that they are roaring, therefore they continue roaring. Then conveniently, I recall the inivible task and think it can be applied quite nicely here. I think that I am invisible. To my genuine surprise, at this very moment all the roaring stops for good.

I'm curisous to how far I can take this with my supposed invisibility and turn around and try to sneak out, while carefully listening for any reaction. The dream fades.

Notes: I have reduced B6 dosage to 50mg as previously it made me too wakeful. Recent valerian series - characterized by difficult recall, lower lucidity levels and more bizarre occurrences, in particular animals.

1.01.14

Last night, bed at 10:15pm - 5am. Night before, bed at 2:30am - 5am.

As I layed down, I started getting flashes of images right away. I figured, I got REM rebound from short sleep night before.

Almost immediatelly, I got HH of geometric shapes. It was a large grid of black lines on white, as if back-lit surface. The squares were filled with strange, as if chinese characters. Few squares had a slightly bigger character in them, that was more like a graphic, not letter. As if old chinese stamp with maybe 2-3 vertical characters in them. Oh, I know, like an egyptian cartouche, only vertical.

Then all of a sudden I got scared. That's when I realized I'm wilding. I fell asleep soon after.