non-lucid

I haven't recorded any dreams for a while. So I'll catch up with a few from the last couple days.

Dream 1 (DV Member Dream):

I was in college. It was getting really stormy. I was walking from class trying to get to my dorm. Oneironaut was there with me. He was my best friend and protector. He always made sure I got to where I was going safely. Finally we made it to my dorm. I gave him a hug and thanked him for always being there for me.

I went into my dorm. My roommate Kierra was there with me. It started to rain really hard. We looked out the window and could see the ocean right behind the building. The waves were starting to get huge. Our dorm building was about 20 stories tall and the waves were starting to crash over the top of the building. Every time a wave hit, we huddled as it smashed against the glass. We were so afraid the window would break and we would be washed away.

definitely don't feel like i'm getting enough sleep - maybe that is hurting my recall more than i thought it would. i'll take some melatonin tonight to get to sleep earlier.
sleep 2am
wake 9am

Found a Harry Potter gun. well, it wasn't the gun itself but blueprints for it. told what material was needed for what part. there was a weird bubbly part at one end made from several different ores. brought it to a group of people that agreed humanity wasn't ready for it. to get to the building they were in I had to pass garbage containers and other objects that could move. 'suspicious looking trash can' (written on it) for example. they followed me/moved when I wasn't looking.
I was swimming at one point (there was an island type deal - i was going in this crevasse to get to the two treasure chests underwater. they started moving (turned into mimics sort of - they still had treasure inside of them if i could pacify them). i think i died and respawned (mimics trapped me underwater). someone there told me i should use some sort of swimming enhancement - speed or fins or water breathing or somesuch ((I've been playing a lot of Terraria on Xbox))
I think the inanimate objects were having a revolt or strike or something. They were still defining themselves by their usefulness to humans however and couldn't carry out their rebellion.

((well, I managed to flesh the fragments out a lot more than I thought I would be able to. Still feel I forgot overly much, but "I think I was swimming at one point" turned into an actual remembrance, so I count it a win))

So this guy called "John" in my dream was killed from being like smothered with paint. I was charged with his murder and sent into a prison. The prison was like this huge icy towering hole that went straight down with small cracks on the sides very tightly packed for people to serve their time. They push you off the side with an ice pick and you have to grab hold of somewhere on the way down, I ended up being put next to this guy in my school who I never talk to called Keith. After a while I fell down to the bottom, and realised there was an open door down there so I escaped the prison and one of my friends Paudie was helping me run through this hilly field away from the prison. I heard girls shouting so I looked back and saw this girl Lorraine(Who I'm like in love with I like her so much and we get on really well) shouting like don't run away Fin come on please, so I turned back because I felt bad leaving her there on her own, and I wanted to say goodbye. So I went back and walked up to her and it was really hard for me to say goodbye and I was like crying loads, I finally told her that I loved her and that I'll find her again some day and we kissed, and then I began walking back to the prison and the dream ended. When I woke up I was like really emotional and crying, so I think like some of the emotion from the dream stayed with me when I woke up Anyway, really vivid dream and any dream with her in is amaaazing anyway. :')

I also started ADA properly yesterday, so pretty fast result.

Prebed: 1 1/2 glass of soy milk

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Recall method: none, woke up briefly after each dream but was so sleepy, I didn't bother to write anything. Did not attempt WBTB either. Everything is so fragmented now, good thing I still remember although with much less detail the short DILD I had.

Dream1: We are back to high school and as usual we have to do an extra year. Everybody should be in class soon, I wonder again how are we going to do that. I am waiting for a friend of mine to show up as usual, I don't think he did.

Fragment2: One of my classmates, her features are a bit strange and now she also has a sister that looks very similar to her. (She actually has a brother)

Fragment3: On the beach, I am watching the waves. I think somebody, it kind of looked like a documentary and I was part of it, said that here the waves are just the right size to swim and maybe surf?

Dream4 mini-DILD: The background is grey and a number of DCs that look like zombies are walking towards me. I become lucid. I remember my recent resolution to freestyle during the next lucids and see what I can make out of the situation. I decide that I will use this one to train my reactions. Ok, so they are walking towards me, I don't care at all. I am just consciousness, no material substance, they can't hurt me. They are still advancing, and one comes so close that it actually touches my hand. I feel and see my hand and this destroys my concept of non-materiality. I brace myself for the impact. The dream slowly fades and I wake up.

Note to self: Maybe I should spend less time thinking and more time acting in LDs?

Fragment5: I go to the kitchen to look for the bottle of water I bought for myself irl and find that one of our guests has opened it and now holds it in her hand. It is too late to say anything, I just wish this hasn't happened.

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April Review

Number of ld nights: 9 (3 with double lds)

Number of lds: 12 (2 WILD, 2 DEILD, 8 DILD)

Quality: Good, with few exceptions, a few fade away issues and changing the scene is still a challenge

Recall: I am getting used to having a roller-coaster type of recall. I am not sure if I should place additional demands on that at the moment.

Things to work on:

- I think I might go for some flexibility on task completion and work more on stability. (But who knows in what kind of mood I will be?)

- I also want to go back to a more decent WBTB schedule after meeting all kinds of relatives and friends is over.

- There are other issues (like changing the scene) to work on but will see how it all goes and deal with them accordingly.

I got more than I expected in April, so I won't be expecting more than I can get in May. Just keep dreaming...

I had two dream fragments yesterday. The first was just of me playing the game League of Legends, which I've played some recently with old college friends. I don't remember much about it, though.

The second fragment was more involved. I was living in a shack that was elevated onto stilts, and was very small. As you walked in the door, there was a small set of stairs leading up to the right to a platform where I could sit on a couch. When I first entered the shack, there was a female ninja with two kids. She wanted her kids to fight me, in order to practice their ninja skills apparently. After fighting the kids, she came at me, but quickly we stopped fighting and the dream skipped ahead to my mother being in the same shack, handing me what looked like a rusted out slow cooker. She was very excited, because she had removed a piece of the slow cooker that sensed whether the ceramic pot part of it was in there before turning on. That way, you could just head the metal shell of it.

Unfortunately, both of these were short snippets, and neither was lucid. I'm glad to be back in the DJing mode, though, and hopefully my recall begins to improve.

My girlfriend had cut my hair a lot shorter and i regretted it.

Had a really crappy dream last night. The mood stayed with me all day long. not even gonna write it down, hoping to forget it.

Nap dream:

I started to work in a huge, square shape, one story house. A girl is talking to someone through open door and I'm getting worried, that he is some stranger. So i'm asking around, if anybody knows him. By then he leaves and runs after a small yellow and green truck that was delivering stuff to the house to catch a ride. It's quite a distance to town.

Dream recall from today's naps. Had problems falling asleep again and not much recall when i managed to.

Dream 1(fragment):

I wake up in my room but before i can do anything dream fades out.

Dream 2(fragment):

I wake up in my room again and like before dream just fades out.

I guess i should be even more strict with the time i fall asleep at.

I was playing some video game, and there was also something AI War related, but can't recall what exactly.

Nothing too special.

Had a dream where there was a guy who looked like Dan from the cartoon "Dan Vs." but in real life. He even had the same voice as Curtis Armstrong. Anyway, this guy had to borrow money from the mob. But because he had to borrow money from the mob he performed as a clown to make the money back. However, other mobsters dressed up as clowns and always foiled his attempts to make money. The main mobster who did this was a very short man in a clown costume with a round belly. Finally, Dan considered skipping town but the mob found out and he ended up not doing it. On the day the money was due Dan brought a suitcase with some money in it to a school auditorium. He gave it to the leader, but it wasn't enough. He tied up Dan to a pole in a crucifix-like manner, and all the mobsters beat on him. Some with fist and some with blunt weapons. They broke his ribs, teeth, fingers, and had blood all over his head. then they force feed him McDonald's food (I dislike McD's and also am on a diet) so Dan was actually crying when they were stuffing food down his throat. There was fear of a heart attack and weight gain more than anything. Finally, he was in the doggy style position on a plywood table on the stage. The mobsters watched him as he was forced to stay in this uncomfortable position for several hours, the stage lights glowing on him. Finally, the leader told him to get off, and as he struggled to get down someone kicked him in the gut and he rolled over on the ground. The mobsters told him not to make the same mistake again, and they left him on the floor. A minute later, he got up and went home.

nearly a dreamless night - luckily i barely pulled these back before getting up
sleep 1230/1am
wake 1030am

Watching a language learning show for children. It used a little dog and some other animals. The longer it went on the more cartoony it was. I was trying to guess a color in one exercise. a different one was flashing through different images of rain and other weather. I was supposed to pick one that was a certain level of wet. Instead I was trying to match the color of the overall picture to a word. The end of the show had the dog playing around pretending to pee on stuff (along with another dog). Then he pulled a bit of ground/grass over himself like a blanket and went to sleep.

The government was after me for something - big brother dystopian government. There was a tracker jacker chasing me. We found out that this specific type of bird food threw their tracking ability off. Some guy in an outdoor class had some and was feeding it to birds in a feeder. After that, I always carried a little bit of the food around to keep the trackers off of me. I was in a bathroom one time with them outside it waiting for me to come out. Someone distracted them long enough for me to get away. They sent a boy after me - made me fall for him and used him against me. They had injected me with something that weakened my will - I was very pliable and prone to weeping after that. They boy I was in love with helped them take me captive. I believe he loved me too, but truly felt he was doing what was in my best interest by taking me captive. They used a boat to take me away from my old life and into their captivity area. I was simply depressed after this. Deep depression - the kind where everything means nothing - don't care enough to do anything. Was mostly naked in a common area - getting to my cloths in a locker of some sort. didn't care though.

Indoors basement like area in a huge complex building. some guys were playing video games in a common room. Maybe guitar hero.

One of the last dreams I had this day started with me watching a documentary of a man in his 20s who resembled the cartoon character Shaggy from Scooby Doo; Prior to this, I'd seen a photograph of a man who did resemble Shaggy but I don't think it was him who I saw in the dream. He in the dream was wearing a red shirt, I think, And a black coat and perhaps blue jeans. He may have had a cap, Too.

It started with him talking about something while sitting down. Then, I didn't realize it but it was as if I was seeing from his perspective or a perspective closer to him as he sat at a small round table in a restaurant with a man who I think was a bookie. The bookie said something like "So you're betting all this money on a candy bar? I like that."

Fast forward to a part with a shopkeeper at a counter. I first saw large wrapped candy bars coming out of a box with a hole cut out in the front and most of the candy bars were of the common variety but there was one particular bar that was different. But, It wasn't the one that the store owner wanted; From what I'd gathered, There was something akin to the golden tickets in Charlie And The Chocolate Factory seven years prior to the man getting the bars and some cases had a rare box of candy. Suffice to say, There were also some other cases with a more common variety which is what the store owner got. After this, The store owner commented on the matter and said "I don't get it." Thus, I knew he wasn't going to be paid. He then didn't say anything but he shrunk (Not literally) from the conversation and left the store.

Then once he left the store, Four short-haired blond men who were quadruplets beat him up badly on the ground. I think one of them was dressed as a medical officer of some kind; He was dressed in white. A police officer resembling a British one from the early 1900s was nearby and tried beating on at least one of the quadruplets with a cymbal or a small cymbal, I think, And he may have knocked that one out for a bit but then he himself was knocked out at some point, I think by what he tried to use to knock people out with.

Then once the men were done beating "Shaggy" Up, One of them said something about going to another part of town.

At some point here I know I was crying over the matter.

Then, I saw "Shaggy" in a hospital elevator in a sloped stretcher. Shortly after, He was moved out of the elevator. I may have seen another person in a stretcher and I woke shortly after that.

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Prebed: 1 glass of soy milk

Special HI: somewhere between a few mins-to about half an hour after falling asleep, I wake up as I sometimes do and stare in the dark, seeing a grid of hexagons that is everywhere. I get special HI maybe once a week or every two weeks always when emerging from deep sleep and whatever I am seeing is always imposed on the room. It mostly has to do with the fabric of space.

Dream1: I am looking at the lower part of a door and break it up a bit so that whatever is behind is slightly visible, initially it looks like a corridor with other doors. As I pass through it, I find myself on the roof of our old home, or something similar. I enjoy the view, but it is rather high and I almost fall over the edge. The roof platform is supported by a thin wooden beam which moves as I am there, the roof is not very stable. I try to fix it, the beam is actually the foot of the bed? A friend of mine comes and I ask him for help. While he is too heavy to accompany me on the roof, he can at least hold my legs so that if I lose balance, he will catch me.

Fragment2: My mom is making promises she cannot and in my opinion should not keep. She is also financially supporting her best friend who now expects me to deliver some toothpaste to them. I go looking for this special toothpaste, but I can't find the particular color that they want.

PRIMUL VIS(LUCID):Am facut metoda FILD si am reusit iar cand m-am trezit din pat am facut un RC (cel cu nasul) Iar am reusit sa respir.(Cand am facut RCUL era foarte vivid visul) Apoi am zis:Hey,timpul sa fac chestiile pentru vis.Apoi mi-am frecat mainile si m-am invartit .Apoi am incercat sa fac ziua afara dar nu am putut,asa ca am incercat sa fac sa apara ciocolata (a aparut o ciocolata MILKA de caramel(sau portocale).Apoi am tot mancat si m-am saturat sa mananc ciocolata mi-am zis ca vreau ceva mai sarat asa ca am incercat sa fac sa apara o punga de chipsuri(lays cu sare) am incercat de mai multe ori pana am reusit .Dupa aceea am visat ca am stat cu mami in pat si am vorbit cu ea despre Astral Projection si FILD si lucid dreaming si de toate.
Al doilea vis:Am visat ca m-am dus in baie si faceam video chat cu o fata de pe facebook: (CARLA DIANA BODEA,sau ceva de genul) iar eu mi-am spalat bretonul(era pe marginea cadei un sampon foarte mare cu un ambalaj colorat si aveam ca si la sapunul lichid capacul.Iar eu am incercat sa il iau dar il gandul meu era: Hey,oare ce o sa zica fata cand o sa imi spal bretonu cu un sampon asa ieftin? iar ei i-am zis ca ma spal cu acel sampon pentru ca nu vreau sa il consum pe al meu)Iar dupaia nu stiu ce i-am spus ca vreau sa fac sh nu am mai facut video chat.Apoi m-am dus pe hol(creca mi-am uscat bretonul nu stiu sigur) si am vrut sa ma dau cu placa,placa mea de obicei are 185 de grade dar de data asta nu se putea da mai tare de 60 de grade(ma gandeam : Ce naiba,placa mea are mai multe grade) iar atunci am primit un super self-awareness in vis dar pana la urma nu stiu ce am facut si mi-am zis OO daa asta era problema.
Al treilea vis:am visat ca am fost pe banca in fata blocului si erau niste baieti(erau cu bicicletele.) iar nu stiu ce tot facea CARLA DIANA BODEA(pe banca din dreapta)(bancile erau foarte apropiate)(era imbracata in niste pantaloni negri spre gri si un tricoul alb) iar langa mine era un baiat cu un tricou negru si cu niste pantaloni gri(creca baiatul era inalt) si nu stiu ce tot ii spunea lui CARLA si apoi mi-a spus el:Ce fraiera.(apoi m-a apucat un sentiment :El o uraste pe ea.Creca ma place)
Al patrulea vis:Treceam cu mami pe langa perete(acolo langa banca de pe motorului(margelanului) (simteam ca mergeam la ora de ed fizica) iar eu glumeam si radeam cu mami iar cand am trecut de aia nu stiu cum am aparut sub podul de pe strada(cel de acolo de langa saormarie unde a lucrat gabi serban)(inainte sa ajungem acolo m-am uitat pe mana daca am elastic sa imi prind parul si nu aveam iar apoi am gasit unul rupt pe jos si nu l-am luat iar mami a gasit altul bun si l-a luat de sus(pe langa ala bun mai erau si altele de culoare galben(nu toate))iar ea mi la dat si eram ceva de genu:Serios de pe jos?Si eu radeam si ea nu zicea nimica era poker face.(in timpul ala seba si cu bunica lui treceau (seba avea in cap palaria lui verde si el se tot uita la mine si eu am observat asta doar ca m-am uitat la mami si radeam ceva mai ciudat(dar frumos) . Iar apoi M-am trezit. (Inainte sa ma culc i-am spus la mami sa ma trezeasca la sase iar creca am visat ca m-a trezit mami la 6 pentru ca mi s-a intamplat de 2 ori)

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was visiting dreamviews and then was trying to WILD.

Nap #2(fragment):

I am walking around the home, and while walking around one of rooms i did spontaneously realized that i am dreaming. I could not move, but after a second i could. I went through the door and to the left it was dark and i tried to manipulate shadows into summoning something. I saw very shadowy and small pterodactyl looking creature, but then dream faded out.
I woke up but i kept eyes closed, i saw the room with closed eyes but i thought it was HH, there was an board with an word 'SPECIAL' on ti. I tried to DEILD but then i got interrupted by someone entering the room, i opened the eyes and it was someone from family, then shortly i woke up properly.