non-lucid

this dream was rather strange. i drempt i was on my street with some blonde girl who kinda remindeed my of a blonde versisno of katelyn hartey. she had big tits. we kept kissing in my car and i was sucking on her tits and i just wanted to park so she could suck my dick over at the park but she kept trying to park the car nd was jus fuken up.. so i took the wheel and parked it then went to get a go kart out of my backyard cause it was in the way nd it actually went kinda fast. i let cody take it since he was goin to the movie with his girl. iwoke up soon after to my alarm

Two dreams last night...

1. ) Not a very long dream.
I am at my grandma's house with my mom, my sister, and someone else I don't know. I had apparently been bitten by a werewolf and was in the beginning stages of transformation with just the long teeth and ears (which made everything in the dream super loud). I had agreed in the beginning to be locked in a room in case I went "insane" but I had gotten so hungry that I couldn't stand it any more... No one was around to unlock the door so I bit into the doorknob and ripped it from the door which released the lock. My sister freaks out when she sees me and I wake up. Never had a dream with enhanced senses before...

2. Portal)
I am playing an unreleased version of Portal 2.
I load up the first level as I get sucked into the game. GLaDOS says the intro line from Portal 1 and I run towards a platform. There is a solid gold turret on the platform which has fallen over because of the weight of the gold. It says, "Please help me. Up." in the sad voice they all speak in. After putting it back on it's "feet", I portal up to the top platform and ride the elevator to the next chamber. There is a cube and button here as well as what looks like a holographic false wall. As I approach the cube to pick it up, GLaDOS says, "Cube and button based testing is arguably the most important research to be done here since the invention of magnesium. Be warned that some cubes have short-range airbourne diseases, which may, *czzzzzt*." As I approach the button with the cube, she shouts "DIE!" and drops three turrets in front of me. I run towards the holographic wall and pass through it into a holding chamber full of test subjects. Using my portal gun, we escape into a post-apocalyptic wasteland-type area, and I wake up.

The dream started inside a basketball gym. I quickly recognized i was at a high school drumline competition. I was with my old drum line that i was the captain of in high school. We were just there as alumni, spectating. For some reason i was off by myself at one time, and i was just standing against a wall. There was a girl sitting next to where i was standing. We made eye contact, but i didn't start flirting or anything, because i have a girlfriend anyway lol. She started to get up and as she did, she sounded like she was gonna ask me if i wanted to go get something to eat. But by the time she stood up, she realized how much taller than me she was. The girl was like 6'8 or something. She laughed and said some form of "never mind" in an awkward "i'm so embarrassed" kind of way. But we both just laughed it off because we knew why.

This girl at a table close to where we were sitting noticed what had happened. She gave me a dirty look and called me an asshole. I walked over and told her what happened and told her that she needed to mind her business. She had the look of defeat on her face, like she knew she was out of line. I guess she thought that i was laughing at the tall girl for whatever reason.

I walked away and stood back where i was before, but right before i got comfortable, some guy comes walkin' up to me. I knew he was mad just by his body language. The first thing i thought was: "that was his girlfriend, he saw me tell her to mind her business. He probably wants to fight me.". But instead, this asshole says i don't look like a high school student and that he needs to see I.D. That's when it clicked in my head who he was. He was this guy i went to high school with for about a year. He was in the percussion ensemble in class, but he wasn't good enough to be on the drum line. And as i remember, he was pretty immature. I told him i wasn't in high school, that i was in college and i was just here watching. But at this point he already pissed me off with his tone of voice. He was acting like he was a cop or something, when in reality, he was just some high school kid with a few weight lifting classes. We argued back and forth for a while, then i finally showed him my ID so he'd shut the fuck up. He gave some smart remark and then walked off yelling that he was "THE PROBLEM AROUND HERE!" as if he'd just won a fist fight in the cafeteria in front of his crush.

I went outside to cool off because i was pretty mad. My homie came outside to see what had happened, and by that time i was just laughing it off. Then the dream faded.

08.29.2012

Sean Connery's Hideout and Tommy Lee Jones (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Sean Connery and me were at a beach, and he's just wearing a dark blue beach underwear. He presses some button near some rocks, which opens up a secret door. We quickly go in and it closes, and the insides of this place consists of shades of brown.

The place was fairly small, but pretty nice for one person living here. I see Sean Connery, though I can't remember what he's wearing exactly, probably a dark brown sweater and khaki pants now instead.

He's walking around, and I'm just standing there watching him move around his hideout. I try to make conversation with him and tell him,

"You keep this place pretty clean Connery," and I also mentioned something else about the place he's hiding in, probably related to what conceals the place.

He moves around a bit some more and tells me,

"There's still some bottles on the floor."

I didn't know what to say after that, so I decided to look around the place myself. I looked at window curtains, which completely covered the windows. They had some weird colors, but most of them were dark colors, maybe some white too. I take a slight peek to see what's outside, and I see a lot of houses that are packed together.

They were long sideways but not so much in length. Most of the houses I'm looking at had bright colors like light yellow for the base and dark colors like dark borwn for the roof. The back of some houses were supported by these thick wooden structures that were deep into the ground, and some houses were even above a slight downward slope.

I look around a bit, and this place seems peaceful, and at some point in the dream I decided to go to the exit, but not open anything. It was like a big pipe entry that was cut in half. I look around the walls and floor, and one part was different from the rest. Instead of being a darker shade of brown, it looked like it had a gold-ish type of color.

Maybe that was the switch to activate the exit, beats me. I go back in, and probably did more searching around the house while Connery was busy doing something else.

The dream shifts, and apparently, someone has found out about Connery's hideout. He's out defending himself, and I'm only watching him, but I'm not part of the action at all. He's just using a pistol, dodging bullets while staying near the secret entrance that's covered up.

But the environment now changes from a beach to some kind of construction area. The secret entrance was to the left of a small sandy hill that almost went over a gray wired fence. Connery was on that slope, and barely takes any shots at people.

The dream shifts again, and I don't see Connery anymore, and I'm pointing a gun at someone, but it doesn't seem like they're going to do anything to me. I'm still being cautious because I don't know how I got inside this bus in the first place.

The inside walls and ceiling were light green, and the seats had a dark turquoise type of color, and this whole section felt so old to me. I had a feeling I ran out of ammo, so I quickly too some gun magazine and quickly slide it into the slot of the gun.

I put the magazine in the wrong way, because while I'm still holding a gun, I get an angle where I can see under me, and the magazine is clearly not inserted right.

LOOOOOOOOL.

I had to do something quick, so I pretended to act all serious again in front of these people, and quickly take out the magazine and put it in correctly this time. I aim the gun left and right at the three people near me just to make sure none of them don't pull a fast one on me.

By this time, the third person was outside of the bus near the opened window behind the driver's seat. I don't recognize her visage at all, looks like a randomly generated dream character. Most of them are wearing white dress shirts and black pants, almost like fancy pilots and flight attendants.

Then Tommy Lee Jones, a fairly old version of him, comes in out nowhere, and walks slowly towards me. While he's walking on the left side getting closer and closer, he looks at me for a little while, stops where he's at, and after that, I forget what happens next.

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08.29.2012

Penetrating Contest (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream is weird.

Spoiler for 18+:

I'm with three woman, maybe four I think? Not sure. One looks like the adult version of Imari from Bible Black. She has a penis and has penetrating someone. I'm not sure if I'm having sex with another woman side by side with Imari, but I do know that based on how fast the clock above us on the right is spinning, it determines how fast we or just Imari has to penetrate the woman in front of her.

I think Opheliablue was in on the game as well, but I can't remember actually seeing her. It was in a dark room with some light to just see everyone in the small area, while the rest of the place was blacked out.

I see from a slightly aerial view of Imari penetrating.......and there's really not much I can remember from this point.

I was in a castle in the presence of an evil king, and I was waiting for my turn to be interrogated by him about the theft of some object. Befor me he was questioning other travelers. The first managed to convince the king that he was innocent, but the king's evil advisor convinced him to put him to death because in prison (which was very nice and on a lake) there was no room. Then he fled to a mountain road. Another traveler, ill-natured, and perhaps the culprit is questioned and blamed, again due to the servant, and fleeing he steals three rings located on the stairs of the building. At that point, the royal guards reached him, but he put them on the run with some bats he called for support, and managed to escape.

[COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I did the fluid routine tonight as well. I drank 1 glass of apple juice and 1 glass of milk then I went to bed 22:05
I did not meditate or calmed my mind or anything this night, just to see what would happen and I trusted that I would wake up during the night no matter what! Even though I feared a little that I might close my eyes and the next thing I know it would be morning. But no... This night worked out as good as the previous night.

I have always convinced myself that my meditation routine before bed makes my dreams more stable and not chaotic and random and therefore easier to become aware of. Well I was right....

[COLOR="royalblue"]I had a really weird dream about me and my friend Axel doing parkour in an old city very high up. But I felt no fear I just jumped over buildings like nothing. I had some more dream scenarios here but I can't remember them because I didn't note them.[/COLOR]

I woke up 01:15 and since I sort of knew it was the first REM period I tried to DEILD. I thought to myself "Ok now I am going to wait 10 seconds and then if I feel different I will try to put my finger through my hand!". Nothing happened and I didn't do a reality check (maybe I should have). I was too tired to record my dreams so I fell back to sleep.

[COLOR="royalblue"]I were in a school and I think I were with, ehm you probably don't know what it is but in Sweden we call it "Jönsson ligan"(The Jönsson league) . We were going to crush a wall a steal a safe. But nobody did their job so we failed. Although my dreaming self changed and I was myself and I saw my old french teacher, which I hate.
He gave me the only F I have. My dad were with me for some reason so I told him "That is Nils...". And my dad answered "But he looks like a good teacher, well dressed and a smile." "I don' t care dad! He sucks!".
I walked towards him and said "Hi do you remember me douche bag?" and he just did his annoying giggle and said "No I don't who might you be?" "It's me Christian from your class in 2012" but he answered "Is this a joke the year now is 1999". o. O
I walked inside some other classroom and see my old classmates and I was aware enough to realize that I was dreaming.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]I remember that I said something witty can't remember now though, and everybody laughed except the teacher. I started talking to two hot girls.... Lucidity gone. :roll: (I never learn)[/COLOR]
The dream started to fade and I was staring at my eyelids. I tried to DEILD, nothing happened so I went up and recorded my dreams. The times was now 04:08

[COLOR="royalblue"] I remember talking to an hot girl from my previous class, but I can't remember about what anymore.
Then I was looking inside my wallet and saw that my legitimation and bank card were gone and I got super nervous and knew that my dad was going to be furious. I have some notes about a talking Donald Duck and a TV but can't remember that anymore either. Then I woke up 05: 55 and closed my eyes, I thought about writing down my dreams and for some reason I started to dream that I did write them down but I didn't... So all I remembered upon awakening was some keywords.

UFO - I dreamed that I saw flying aircraft that didn't looked man made.
Devil - I dreamed that I was fighting the Devil.
HIMYM French - This dream was interesting because I heard French! I were out with Ted to buy a present to Barney and some woman started to talk French with Ted I asked the woman what she said but then she just said Tralablablaolala in french accent. Not sure if I really heard French at first though since I don't speak it myself, I might have heard stuff that my brain remember though.[/COLOR]

And I finally woke up around 07:13 to go to the bathroom :)

This night's dreams were too chaotic for me to become lucid in, so the next night I am going to do my regular meditation routine and see if I notice any differences.

Sentient Jaguar

Suddenly I spot a mouse running along the side of the room. This mouse has been hiding in our house for a while now, so I'm really excited that we'll finally get a chance to catch it. I send Mom to get a plastic cup or something that we can use to scoop up the rodent. While she's gone, I try to grab the mouse with my bare hands, and I'm surprised to find that I succeed. I guess mice aren't really as fast as I've always thought they were. But then suddenly I realize that it will be able to bite me, so I rewind and try to catch the mouse again, this time in a slightly safer way that keeps its teeth away from my hand. Then Mom comes back with a square Tupperware container, I drop the mouse inside, and we snap on the lid. Excitedly, I run upstairs, showing the mouse to all of my family members on the way, mostly just to see their scared/grossed-out reactions when they realize what it is. Then I go out onto the back porch. In one motion, I take off the lid and flick sharply the container, so the mouse goes flying out into the yard. I watch the grass sway as it runs through the lawn, and suddenly another larger animal comes out of the night to start chasing the mouse! It's a squirrel!

Wait, aren't squirrels herbivores?

Oh, oops, trick of the light, it's actually a jaguar. They're native to North America, you know. I realize this jaguar could be dangerous to me as well, so I hurry back inside the house. Then I realize our pet dog is still leashed outside, so I slide open the door and start calling her back. She seems interested by the jaguar, but with my sister's help, we manage to get her back inside. A few moments later, I notice that the dog is back outside, and I wonder what happened until my sister says she didn't realize we weren't supposed to let the dog back out again.

Later, I'm hiding in a side room, watching through a window as something walks around in the kitchen. It's walking on two legs, and it's wearing a hat. I think it might be the jaguar. Admittedly, its behavior is rather human-like (at one point, it starts dancing around the kitchen, moving its hips and waving its arms), but this only makes me more nervous. A sentient predator is just that much more dangerous. I decide to go outside and hide somewhere.

Once outside, I decide the roof would be a good place to hide. But once I get up there, I see another shape moving around in the driveway on the other side of the house. It starts coming onto the roof as well. Maybe it's just a person, but I'm not about to wait around and see. I jump back down and go back inside.

Soon after, my parents introduce me to the man in the kitchen. Turns out it was just a neighbor. And the person outside is his son. Oops. I hope they don't think I was rude.

Clock Bomb

There's a bomb that looks like a clock. The second hand ticks from number to number, and the numbers go dark once the hand reaches them. Each tick is accompanied by a kind of high-pitched squeak. Halfway through the countdown, I wake up to realize that the squeak is coming from an insect or a bird (or something) outside my window.

Frags:

• looking up terms in the glossary of the fantasy book series I'm currently reading (namely, The Wheel of Time)

Walked into an auditorium where I knew my children and wife were. Not sure what was supposed to be going on there. Turns out to be a hostage situation, with some woman shooting people with a laser. She thought I was a fellow terrorist for some reason, and handed me the laser so that I could continue the shooting while she worked on some electronics behind the lectern. I started sending children out to the toilet, whispering to them how to escape once there. I was just beginning a mass rescue when I woke up from the dream.

I was holding a piece of paper that describes the differences between being a girl and a woman. I don't remember reading it.

I was in a classroom, it was almost the start of class. I went out to the hallway and went to these 2 tables and chairs under a bulletin board. I squatted next to this girl, with my head facing her. Two girls came and stood next to me reading the board. The girl sitting down looked at the girls, then looked at me and gave me a look(that the girls are not worthy?). I gave a look back to her agreeing. She took out a small notebook, wrote down either her address or number and gave the paper to me. The teacher started taking roll, and asked me why am I out there squatting.

I was running with PW hand in hand. When I pull her forward, she would speed up and pull ME forward, making me run faster. That goes back and forth while we run.

08/28/2012
12AM - 10AM

I woke up at 6:45am to get Chris to school, then I fed the fish, got some water etc, and I went back to bed at about 7:30am. I started getting vibrations and buzz sounds almost right away, I was that tired (because I stayed up until 2am, and Danny woke me up at 5:30am to go to work.) Anyway, I felt a couple waves of vibrations, then I completely blacked out. I think staying up that late killed my WILD transition because I was just too sleepy to stay aware. Anyway, I was dreaming about walking around the library at SMU. I was running my hands along all the tables, feeling really nostalgic. I even said to myself "I really miss this place.." Then I thought, this isn't real, it's just a memory! Then I knew I was lucid. I immediately though to try telekinesis, because of Xanous's lucid from yesterday (see, this is another reason I read y'all's journals and workbooks ). The library looked a bit more like a book store, with books merchandized on tables, rather than being lined up on book shelves. One table had 3 small pink books stacked on the corner, so I focused on those. I waked my hand, willing them to levitate, but nothing happened, just like with Xanous's first attempt lol. Then I simply reminded myself that these books aren't actually there, just projections from my mind, so I can make them do anything I want. I flicked my hand, and they jumped up into the air, then plopped back down. That's my first ever LUCID experience with telekinesis (had a few non lucid ones). I was super happy about this, so I went to the other side of the table that had some bigger, heavier books stacked up. I concentrated even harder, then tried to make a shoving motion with my hands, but I suddenly felt a little crippled. I shouldn't have done that, I should have reminded myself again that the books aren't real, so there's no need to do more than a tiny flick of the hand. Doesn't matter that they were bigger books. Anyway, I tried it again, and this time I was able to do the shove motion, and the books moved. But I started feeling weird, kinda dizzy and a little jerky. So I thought about doing something else. There were 2 escalators next to eachother (which looked like elevators. Basically there were 2 elevator doors, but when they opened, they revealed escalators), so I imagined that engineer from Prometheus appearing on the escalator as soon as I opened the door. Instead, it was a tall, naked, shriveled up looking man. I was like ew, no, do not want. That's all I remember about that dream.

Later I had a non lucid where the president of america (it was Bush jr though) came up with the idea to make August have 30 days instead of 31. His logic was so that the year would have an odd number of days instead. So I was throwing a fit because "365 is ALREADY an odd number. What a stupid fucking president." I was also mad because the cakes I made on Sunday now had the wrong expiration date on them, because he took one day away from the month.

Woke up on 8/23/12

1A) I was at the state wrestling tournament and my coach picked me up and span around like coaches do when their wrestlers win, even though I had not even wrestled yet. I wasn’t really excited or anything.

I wake up. I remember to try and think about what I was dreaming of to fall back asleep, but I didn’t remember. I kept trying anyway and when I fell back asleep…

1B) I was back at the tournament with my friend Max in front of me sitting in a chair. I didn’t realize that I had been dreaming of this before. I thought we were at the state tournament, but I still asked Max where we were and he confirmed it. I got excited and began telling him with excitement that we were at state! I thought that it might be a dream and commented on it aloud. Coach Robinson told me to do a reality check and I tried poking a hole in both hands and, oddly, nothing happened. I began yelling in excitement along with the others for the fact that we were at the state wrestling tournament and that it was real. I suddenly realized that I had a dream about this, but I still thought that I was awake and that my first dream was simply playing out in real life. I told my coach in excitement that I had a dream about this and that the details were the same, including the red and white clothes he was wearing, though I don’t know if those were the same clothes in the previous dream.

A house. Aureus' house? We're looking for the "center." An office.

DREAM #1

I’m on vacation somewhere with my family. We’re staying in this big, old house. I explore around the house, and I keep finding weird secret passages that lead outside.

Later on, I check my computer and I find out that the second season of “The Legend of Korra” is going to start the next day.

Then I guess it’s the next day, because I go to find a TV. When I find one, there are a bunch of other kids there. I guess they’re like my Korra-watching club from my college, but I don’t really take a close look at their faces. I guess the TV doesn’t work or something, because we don’t actually end up watching anything.

I wander off to go see this performance that apparently is somehow related to “The Legend of Korra” … The performance is outside, and people just sit on random benches around the performers and watch. I can’t find a bench to sit on, so I just randomly walk around.

Anyway, the play turns out to be like, the Ember Island Players basically. So, it’s really bad. There’s one girl in the play who just wanders off to the side and starts laughing because she realizes the play is really bad. And then her father, who is also in the play, starts yelling at her for ruining everything. But, then the play just continues.

There’s a large group of people sitting on one bench, but then they all get up and leave. So I’m like, “Oh goody! A free bench!” So I rush over to it. But then I feel guilty about stealing the bench in case those people come back, so I just sit on the arm of the bench or something so I’m not really taking it. Some other girl comes over and sits down on the bench. And she and some other girl argue about who gets to sit on the bench … But, I’m not really paying attention.

I also just stop paying attention to the play and start reading some book that I have with me. The book has a lot of illustrations … or maybe it’s a graphic novel or manga or something. I don’t recall what was in it, really.

Eventually I leave and go back to my room in the house, and check my computer again and go on Tumblr. I see that people are posting all these clips from the new “Korra” episode. And I’m like, “AAH SPOILERS.” There appear to be like … pirates in it, or something. I decide I’m going to look up the episode later.

My sisters tell me that we’re all going bowling at some apparently awesome bowling alley. But, the dream ends before we actually go there. Too bad.

DREAM #2

… Or this could be a part of the same dream? I’m not entirely sure.

I’m at home. And, my parents decide I’m going to go back to college right away, even though I haven’t packed or anything yet. So, I try to start packing but I can’t find everything I need. So I’m just like, shoving random things in the car.

I find some books that I’m going to pack … and then some weird thing happens, like I have a memory within the dream of buying those books. It was at some small bookstore, and I remember picking out books, and then shoving ones I didn’t want under a table or something, and feeling guilty about it … I don’t really know.

Anyway, so there’s this closet where I’ve been storing a lot of my dorm room stuff over the summer (in real life), so in the dream I go looking for it. But I find that someone has moved a big dresser in front of it or something, so I can’t get it open.

I start kind of panicking and realizing I don’t have time to pack everything. I go outside where my parents are waiting for me. Except, my mom looks like one of my great aunts and not like my mom, which is weird. But anyway, I start explaining to them that I don’t have time to pack everything, and that if I went now I’d just be alone on campus for like a week anyway.

At first, they don’t seem to care. But then they finally say I don’t have to go back yet. But they still want to drive to campus just to look at the pretty autumn scenery or whatever.

This was a really long dream. Seemed like it lasted almost an hour.

It was really late. My sister was watching TV (I think an episode of Ghost Hunters) and I was playing my DS, among other things. Near the end of the dream, my mom runs down the hallway saying something happened and she needs to go somewhere... I cant remember. She left, and the TV show was almost over, so I get up and walk up stairs. I say to myself, "This would be a great time to do a WBTB.", lay down in bed, and fall asleep (gah!).

Missed opportunity.

Dream - Lucid

I was with my friend Leigh, though I don't remember where, it was somewhere weird. We were looking at these colorful patterns on the wall. We had to choose from them for something. I kept thinking they reminded me of spirographs, but they weren't spirally at all; most were, in fact, star patterns. I told Leigh the ones I liked, which included some light blue shooting stars, some circle with a rainbow on the top, and I can't remember the last one. She didn't like the first one I picked, and so she told me the ones she liked. We both liked the one with the rainbow, and I think she said she liked the last one I picked as well.

~

I was in my room, and MK was there. She went into my closet to look for something, I'm not sure what, but she sounded upset about it; she said something in a whiny, sad voice. She knelt down at this old wooden toy box I have in there where I used to keep my pipe. I didn't want her to smell it, though it didn't really matter because she knows I occasionally smoke, but I rushed over and sat on the toy box anyway, and said something to her about whatever she was upset about.

I guess I must have left the closet at some point, because the next thing I knew, I was standing in my room again, and I figured out I was dreaming. I wondered if MK was still there. I went over to the closet, and before I opened it, I said I wanted Ray to be in there. I concentrated on that for a minute, then opened the closet door.
"Ray?", I said. Nothing. He wasn't there. Neither was MK.
But my closet had all these pretty dresses that weren't there before. I remember a poofy, prom-ish looking, sparkly light blue dress, and a small white halter dress with a big sparkly black belt around the waist. I really liked that one!

False awakening. I couldn't sleep, so I just decided to get up. I went to the computer, and my friend from Ireland, Ray, had messaged me on Skype.

Or had he? I thought I could see I had a couple of messages from him when I had been laying in bed, like maybe "Good morning" or something, but there wasn't really a message there. Maybe I should just go back to bed.

Laying in bed again, and I hear what sounds like a phone ringing (from the caller's end), and I rushed over to the computer. When I had went to lay down again, I had accidentally hit something to video chat with Ray. His face popped up in a thumbnail by his messages.
"Oh shit!" I said as I covered my mouth, "I accidentally video called you! I look awful!"
He didn't say anything, and I was trying to avoid looking right at the camera or his face.
"I'll be right back, I'm going to go make a cup of coffee."
I catch a glimpse of his face. The camera showed a side view of him at the computer. He was smiling. He looked kinda like another guy I know in waking life named Levi. I thought that as I walked off to go downstairs and make coffee.

When I got downstairs, I went to the Keurig carousel for some coffee. It was full; I guess my mom had gone to the store before she left for Wisconsin. I looked at all the different coffees, and noticed she had accidentally gotten decaf. It was some kind of decaf vanilla coffee I had never seen before. I looked at the other coffees. I picked one and put it in the machine.

I then looked at the refrigerator, and had a feeling I was dreaming again. I looked at some advertisement that was magnetted to the fridge, looked away, and looked back again, and the words had changed. I can't remember what they said. I kept doing that and the words kept changing. I was so amused, I was reading the new phrases aloud as they changed, kind of narrating what was going on.

I then went back upstairs and decided I needed to go fly. I walked into the bonus room and to the two big windows at the far end. The couch was still there (we got rid of it recently in waking life), so I climbed it and started to try to break the window by ramming my body into it. I was met with very realistic resistance. So I tried it again and again. I had a vague feeling of being trapped, and that it was my subconscious telling me something. I kept ramming the window until it finally gave. Parts of it broke, but the window itself tumbled to the concrete below. I watched it fall and shatter.

I then stepped outside. It was a nice, sunny day. In the dream, there was some roof there for me to stand on (not so in waking life). I started to wonder if I was really dreaming, or if this was real and I was losing my mind. I thought about people who confuse dreams with reality. So I decided to try to hover a little before I flew. I kept jumping up and down with less-than-promising results. I did know that I was dreaming, though. I didn't worry too much about all that after the initial "Holy shit I'm going to have to pay for that window and get locked up in the loony bin" moment.

I then had another false awakening. I was laying in my bed, staring at the ceiling, but I knew I was dreaming immediately this time. I actually had a ton of FAs, a lot more than I can really remember other than me waking up and losing the dream again. This seems to happen to me quite often in LDs--if I have one FA, you can bet I'll probably have more.

I then was at the bottom of the stairs, trying to think of how I could properly spend this LD. I wanted to have a deep, spiritual experience, but I didn't know how to induce it. I kept thinking I had to slow my breathing down and really calm my mind, but I felt my waking body breathing, and it didn't feel like I was able to take in enough oxygen, even though I was breathing through my mouth. I tried to concentrate on getting in touch with my inner self (or "higher self", whichever you prefer), which is one of my lucid goals, one that I think will be very beneficial if I can properly implement it.

Then, I felt the buzzing of SP, and my vision turned to some hypnogogia. I then was having yet another FA in my bed.

I didn't know what to do with all this lucid time. So I decided to get down and dirty and have sex with Ray. If you want to read the explicit details,

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He was then there, and we were getting naked. I kept kind of losing the dream, but kept concentrating on keeping it. I was surprised at how well this was working out. Usually, in these kinds of situations, I get too excited and wake up...it is actually something I've been working on in my LDs .

I do feel like I lost it once, but it wasn't for long enough for me to wake up. I was then on the dresser, mostly naked, and he was on top of me. For a second, I was looking at the ceiling, and it looked like a chalkboard with words written on it that kept changing. I touched it, and it felt like...well, a chalkboard. I then shifted my attention again. I noticed his pants were still on, and they started to slide down as he got on top of me. There's a mirror on my dresser, and I watched as he entered me. I kept almost losing the dream, but I never did. In fact, it was very vivid...and sexy. I finally came, and it was ridiculously good. Like...ridiculously good.

Then I finally woke up.

And all I have to say now is hot damn. Probably the best sex dream I've ever had.