non-lucid

I know, I know. I haven't posted in forever!! I have really gotta start keeping up with this. I'm just so lazy. This is the first entry in like two months or so.
While editing the lucid/non lucid colors in this it took me awhile to figure out which one was green. I had no trouble with that in the past.. I wonder if my colorblindness is getting worse, if that's even possible haha.

I was rollerblading outside my house when I bumped into an old friend of mine, who was also on her rollerblades. We started talking a bit and then decided to go rollerblading together. We had a blast, going through our neighborhood doing tricks and turns and showing off. To my surprise, she was actually better than me. My mother and sister decided to join us walking while me and my friend skated. I told them it sure was nice to be able to rollerblade with someone at my skill level since none of my other friends can skate at all. So we just had a dandy fun time rollerblading along and it was so fun it almost felt like flying. At some point, I realized that I must be dreaming because I know this wouldn't happen in real life. Even though it felt so amazing, I didn't care that it was just a dream at the time because I was lost in the moment. BO's "My Never" played in my head throughout the rest of the dream. She started doing a cool foot-point-turn-spin thingy that people do in dance and I thought it was so cool so I asked her to show me. I tried this in real life and failed but since I was in a dream I thought I would have more luck, so I tried it. It didn't turn out that great, but better than last time. At the end of our rollerblading journal, I must have lost lucidity because we decided to exchange numbers. I couldn't seem to work my damn phone with a touch screen(even though in real life it's just a regular old phone) and so I ended up giving her my number instead. And that was it.

I was at my house when my mom forced me to ride my bike. I started riding next to this girl. She was from modern family, the daughter of the gay guys but more mature. We went riding for an hour and we talked but i don't remember about what. She was kinda ghostly, she would say things kinda slowly and she would threaten me if i did something wrong. When i went back home she went somewhere else. I went to my neighbor's house, but they were the staff of the youtube channel of 5secondfilms. they were talking but they didn't care if i went into their house. their furniture was in the shape as my grandfather's house is but with our furniture. When i got out of their house i saw the girl again waiting for me to ride again. This time i rode into a place where i had went into another dream. I was in the country where the bus crashed in my dream "New York Dream". We kept riding then i saw a mouse then i woke up.

Dream One: I'm at the grocery store, and there's a jerky aisle! Like a whole aisle full of jerky. I freaking LOVE jerky, but for the last year or so meat has tended to make me sick Of course being a dream I didn't think about this, and I found some pork jerky or something and wanted to try it. So for whatever reason I break a piece off and taste it. Then I notice, after I swallow that the package says it needs to be cooked. Ooops. I hope I didn't just make myself sick. Then I see some little weenie shaped jerkys, on closer inspection the package actually says "Hot dog jerky" and I decide to buy some for my kids to try, they love hotdogs. Then the neighbors kids are there, and they're saying, "Dude! Hog dog jerky! I want some!" SO I buy them some too, and I buy myself some pickled sausages (it's been years since I've been able to eat those, lol) I drive home, and not only MY kids are in the car with me, but the neighbors kids too Then I park the car and get out and start to open my pickled sausage, and my husband complains that I parked wrong, so I give him the keys and tell him to repark it if he doesn't like it. He does, but the neighbors kids want to ride in the car with my husband driving, so the one neighbor kid hands me his jerky, and I start eating it forgetting that it wasn't mine. Then I have to apologize when they get the car parked. I woke up mid apology.

Dream Two: I was going outside to get in my car, but I can't find my car. It's not parked where it should it! I'm walking all over the yard looking for it, and I can't find it. Then OTHER (different set of neighbors from first dream) neighbor steps out with his youngest and they're going to get in their van, but when they notice me walking around looking lost. They stop to help me find my car, and eventually we find it parked in the middle of the turn around in the road. It should have been obvious from the start though. Dream Logic. Then a car comes flying down the road, it's the neighbors oldest son. He and the other other neighbors son are apparently fixing up a car to drive when they get their licenses.

Dream Three: We're at McDonalds, my husband kids, and I. First we need to go through the drive through, and there's a long line. So my husband says the lines too long and he wants to wait. But then the line is empty and he still won't pull forwards into the drive through lane! Then a car pulls into it and there's a line again. I make him line up, and then he drives the wrong way and ends up behind the building instead of in the drive through. Then when we finally make it to the drive through window, he orders half our food, then stats driving forwards because their menu is placed AFTER the window instead of before, and the lady thinks we're done ordering and starts taking the order of the person behind us. I get angry and jump out of the car and tell my husband he has three seconds to tell me what he wants or he's not eating! Then I walk back to the window and tell her I wasn't finished with our order and give her the rest of the order. Then we're told to pull around and wait. Finally when our food is ready, we go inside to eat it, lol. Then they're having a trivia contest for the little kids and they're asking star wards and Indiana Jones questions, so my son is all over it! He ends up winning a thousand dollar scholarship. I think we should come to every trivia night at McDonalds to see if he can pay his way through college in scholarships, lol. Then I wake up.

Dream Four (DILD!):The dream starts off on the shore of the river at the cabin my dads family owns. Somehow though, it's an island. I'm with a man and his family of like 4 kids. We're trying to build a fire, but the wind is blowing too hard and keeps blowing the fire out before we can really get it started. A little 10 year old boy in glasses tries to build a wind shield out of a sheet, and it ends up acting as a sail and carrying all the wood off into the river -_- The oldest kid doesn't even look like a kid, more like in his early twenties, but definitely not my age yet. He's got long hair and looks a lot like Johnny Depp:

(totally took that from a facebook page of a fan club, so hoping it shows up, lol.
Anyways, he takes his shirt off and runs into the river to retrieve the wood. I follow to help him drag it in because it looks heavy, but he'd able to bring it all in without my help . Then when we get back to shore, he asks his dad what happened to Molly. TUrns out Molly is a little girl around 5, and she's fallen asleep and they've put her inside some wagon and the other kids were taking her up to the cabin to bed. So the Johnny Depp guy goes up to the cabin too, and I stay down with the dad trying to figure out how to build the camp fire. Then I get this great idea. I can transmute some wood into a shape that will block the window but be heavy enough to to blow off! I start looking around for dry wood, and then step on something warm and round. At first I think it's a snake, then I realize it's just a water hose. I tell myself I shouldn't think of it being a snake or it might turn into one. Then the dad suggests I get the kids to help me look for wood, and I think that's a good idea and go up the hill. I see some pretty flowers on the hill, and i stop to admire them. There's a rose like flower that's got pink on the ends of the petals, and a creamy pale orange color in the center. The petals fall off when I touch it though. So I move on to the next flower, a pretty purple flower that's shaped like a daylily, but it has yellow and white streaks running up and down the petals. I think to myself I should take a picture with my phone, but then realize that'd be silly because it won't come out of the dream into waking life. That's when I stop and say, "That's right! I'm in a lucid dream! I can't let the dream suck me in!" And then I'm lucid No need to reality check, I just KNOW. At first I think I'm going to go inside the cabin and try to walk through the wall to find Kurasawa. Then I stop myself and remind myself that I want to practice my dream control because once I'm good at controlling my dreams I'll not struggle so much to find Kurasawa. It's better to practice I think, than waste dream after dream chasing after him and having my efforts be blocked by my lack of control. So I think back on my goals, and remember that the small goal I've set for myself and been reminding myself of before sleeping at night is to grow cat ears and a tail. So I Imagine that I have ears and a tail and I can feel them. I never physically touched them to be sure they were there, but I just KNEW they were... and I swished my tail a few times and felt the wind whip around it so I am very sure I succeeded. Then I remember the guy who looks like Johnny Depp inside, and the whole thing with getting the kids to find wood. So I walk inside and start telling all the little DC kids to go gather wood with their dads so I can transmute it like Edward Elric. The kids all run out the door to do as I asked, and I make my way into the room with all the beds and sleeping bags where the Johnny Depp guy is. He doesn't look like Johnny Depp anymore, he's short and hefty with glasses, and now looks very Asian. Time to practice more control! I close my eyes and imagine him looking like Johnny Depp and being a head taller than me. Suddenly I feel his hand on my back, and he dips me back and starts kissing me, then making out with me. My eyes are still closed though, lol. Then he starts scraping his tongue against my teeth and drooling in my mouth. YUCK! I push him off me, and he looks like Johnny Depp alright, but he's totally dumb and still sticking his tongue in and out of his mouth like he's still kissing me. I think to myself Dream Characters really ARE stupid, I'm not doing this again. Then my phone goes off and wakes me up!

Funny one this morning, but interesting all the same.
I dreamed I was sleeping on the fold out bed back at my parents' house. It was a sleepy, rainy morning. My old friend Luke, the rock vocalist, was there with me. We wanted to make love, so I got up to shut the door. I was unable to shut it quietly (which is pretty true to waking life), so my mom heard me and nobody's dummy, knew what we were up to.
So Luke and I got up and headed outside to the garden potting shed (which my parents do not have in waking life). It had been raining, and everything was soaking wet. There wasn't even a place to sit. After looking around and realizing this was not going to work, we went to the barn (also something my parents do not have in waking life).
We figured the loft would be nice and dry and cozy. We climbed up into the hay and were just getting started when my mom came wandering in! Sheesh. We quickly dressed again and tried to be quiet hoping she wouldn't notice us up in the loft. And that's where the dream ended. Wonder what that one meant? Maybe my brain was just rehashing what Luke had told me years back about doing a girl in a barn and liking it? Strange, I hadn't thought about him in a long time. Maybe my brain just wanted to have some fun, but mother figure always stifled fun.

Command & Conquer 2150:
The whole dream centered around me playing several missions of a game which was like a mix of C&C and Earth 2150. I remember playin on several maps and once a long time ago I had a similar dream. Each map (I think there were 3 in that dream) I was playing a different faction with a different color. The first one I played was yellow and GDI-like, the second was blue I think and the third was green and was much like the ED from Earth 2150, their base was located in a dark spot in a wastelend hidden behind walls.

Snake fight:
It was a long dream and the first thing I remember was being in a big cavern. There were pipes running along the ceiling and there was a blue glowing lake covering the ground. I had a fight against 2 huge snakes which apparently where somehow related to Orochimaru (from Naruto). I managed to remove their balance and make them fall into the water which made them dissolve immediately. Then there was a reference that this water had a similar effect on them like empty water on normal lifeforms. After that the dream was pretty hazy but I remember being in something that looks a little like a city in the sky and there was a latias doing something.

Spoiler for Additional Pleasure (Strong Sexual Content):

I remember being on a bed in an unknown room and I had fun with my girlfriend, though at this point it was pretty undetailed. Some minutes later I suddenly had a pussy and my girlfriend used a vibe on me, and when it went in as deep as possible I came really hard, and my member blasted its load several meters through the room against the radiator under the window. So wrong and perverted, even writing this feels weird. Yet it felt at least really good. I honestly wonder what made me dream this.

woke up around 9am, moved around for a bit and laid back down. I put on "Astral 2" isotone and laid on my back. I slowed my breathing and waited. After a bit of time, I felt my body become heavier and my awareness of my limbs became mostly spatial versus sensational. after a bit more time, I felt lighter, like I was floating. at this point, I reached my arm up (to grab a rope with my astral arm), but my physical arm lifted..

my Dad, two other people and i are standing outdoors in a surrounded by hills and streams of running water. one of the other people tells me "bang your hair, i want to see if you can move water"
then the other person says "shouldn't he do it over at that coyote creek?" referring to a calm waterfall
then the former replies "no, over there" pointing to a more airborne and misty waterfall.
(at this point my dream is put into darkness as my Dad walks into my room and wakes me up)

my Dad, two other people and i are standing outdoors in a surrounded by hills and streams of running water. one of the other people tells me "bang your hair, i want to see if you can move water"
then the other person says "shouldn't he do it over at that coyote creek?" referring to a calm waterfall
then the former replies "no, over there" pointing to a more airborne and misty waterfall.
(at this point my dream is put into darkness as my Dad walks into my room and wakes me up)

I was in my secondary home, in the living room, sitting on the big chair my father usually uses. He was sitting on the couch and I was playing and testing around with the TV. I faintly remember some bloody stuff and that I was thinking that this movie isn’t for children. I noticed he was trying to record the movie which was about to start, and all I knew about it was that it was about Coon City.

Coon is an abbreviation to raccoon; I guess my dream wanted to avoid calling that place Raccoon City for obvious reasons (no relation to Resident Evil). The use of raccoon in the name also had a specific reason, all the people had some certain features of raccoons.

Over the next minutes I’ve seen some scenes from the movie, actually everything was in a forest, and there were only very few buildings, the movie was a strange but well working mixture of anime and real. One scene I saw was of one of these buildings which had an unprotected staircase outside of the building. There were a bunch of people walking, most of them “Coons” (that’s what I call the original inhabitants of Coon City) and at least 1 human, the human fell down and pretty much blew up to red pieces. Along with that scene I learned that somehow that place was really dangerous for normal humans and that the Coons generally don’t like them.
In the next scene I was actually present myself, I wasn’t watching the movie anymore, I was part of a real story. I was a (relatively normal) human and I was together with a girl, she was a Coon and she was really cute. I don’t remember how exactly she looked like but I think she had long hair with a color somewhat like lavender, she had a cute face, and probably some raccoon features I don’t remember. In a gentle but demanding voice she whispered something along these lines into my right ear while holding me: “Please stay here, I know it’s dangerous but I want a man I really like to be with me”.
We were standing close to an acclivity and after she told me those words I gave her some kind of positive reply, then I picked her up carrying her on my arms and started sliding down the acclivity. There was a lot of ivy on the ground and there were a few books lying around in one place. After sliding a good 100-150m we were standing up again, in front of us was another part of the forest, it was really dark and I knew it was a dangerous place. Without saying something to each other we went into different directions, planning to meet again. The last thing I remember was that I was trying to shake whatever was watching me out of those dark woods, then unfortunately the door bell woke me up… Yes how I hate this City (B) and this cursed door bell...

Date: 17/06/2012
Place: Spare Bed in family member's house (a familiar bed I often sleep in)
Time of getting into bed: 12.25am

Dream 1 - Collection of a few dreams, 1 x Semi Lucid rest are non lucid.

As I fall to sleep, I instantly start dreaming. Possibly REM rebound? The dreams are nothing special, I am watching friends talking in their living room, it lasts a few seconds and then I wake. This happens perhaps 4 or 5 times. The 5th time I do remember thinking 'I'm already dreaming but I just fell to sleep? Is that possible?' Hence a semi lucid dream. However I woke up instantly after thinking this.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid

I am in an old fashioned orphanage, which is an all boys orphanage. The boys are young and scruffy, looking like something from Oliver twist. One of the bigger boys tells us to leave as we are going to be chased by some other boys. We don't leave as we are eating. Our plates are filled with glitter of all different mixed up colours, I watch another boy as he is eating the glitter.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid

I am in an old fashioned orphanage, which is an all boys orphanage. The boys are young and scruffy, looking like something from Oliver twist. One of the bigger boys tells us to leave as we are going to be chased by some other boys. We don't leave as we are eating. Our plates are filled with glitter of all different mixed up colours, I watch another boy as he is eating the glitter.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid

I struggled to remember this dream.
I am in a big market stall, farmers market type place. It is big and people are walking around. I have been told to work on a stall, cutting up meat. This disgusts me and I am very unhappy and complain about it. Some friends are with me, maybe they also cut up meat but they try to support me. I do it anyway, but cutting up the meat is so traumatizing I try to put my Ipod on to take my mind off it. I never press play. The meat is large, circular and has arseholes in it.


***NOTEWORTHY***
REM rebound
Semi lucid dream
I am vegetarian

So I believe that dream starts up with me waking up and hurrying to some kind of school. There's a big room (classroom?) with a big table and when you're seated you have one person on each side of you and someone right across the table. I start massaging my temples since I have migraine (which could be because of the fact that I didn't study for the test). Weird thing is that it is an art school, so I don't really get what should have been studied. My classmates start patting me on the back and comforting me, saying that it's okay. Both the migraine and the fact that I didn't study.

...and so the teacher enters and she focuses her attention on me as she hands out the papers. I don't know why, I just know that she does. She has red hair, a knitted pink/red blouse and a white top. I believe she had beige khaki pants.

Later on I'm walking through the halls of the school, which looks like an abanded waterfront warehouse, except there are paintings and art projects high and low. The lighting is dingy and damp, the only light reaching me is from the windows that are a few meters over me, just under the roof. I see a television screen and there's thist artist being interviewed (or maybe he's doing some kind of monologue). Lars Vilks, the artist behind the Muhammed charicatures, crosses my mind. It looks like him and they're both named Lars, but in my mind I know that "he is like Lars Vilks, but another Lars". The feeling was very surreal...

At this point the dream goes very fragmental and I can't be sure about the connection between these parts, although there is a small link in recurring dream characters, although they just appear as shadows and the general feeling in all these parts are the same.

We're out biking and I am on my sisters bike (I don't know how it looks or anything). I'm with a famous TV duo from sweden; Filip och Fredrik. We're on this trail in the woods and in front me is this guy with red hair and dreads... He looks like a crust punk with a smallbrimmed cap, camo-cargo-pants and a black hoodie with some kind of DIY-print on the back. I feel that I'm holding the tempo back by not passing him and I start going by him. // CUT //
We're out on an asphalt road, still in the woods. We're talking and their rapport amazes me. Somehow I'm clued to that one of them, Filip, is an alcoholic and that he can't drink without becoming a total asshole... And that is exactly what happens; he becomes unbearably annoying. In reality however, I think it's the other way around, that Fredrik becomes an asshole when he's drunk.

However, we arrive at our destination, which is my sisters apartment where I am suppoed to leave her bike. Her place is a mix between where she actually lives and where an old friend of mine used to live (we're not friends anymore and he haven't lived there for years). Somewhere between arriving to this house and being on the asphalt road in the woods I sense, more than see, the image of my khaki-wearing teacher.

I think the last part of the dream was my sister being angry with me because I hadn't told her that I was out biking with Filip and Fredrik.

As this dream begins I'm not really sure where we are, but I do believe we are at my fathers fiancees place. It's me, the mother of my children and my soon-to-be-roommate. There are other people there, some of whom I do believe I've met in previous dreams. There's a total of five or six people in the apartment.

The room in which we are at the moment is scarcely decorated. There are blinds covering the window, white walls and a bed with white sheets. There's a TV turned on and a nintendo 64 connected to it. Me and the mother of my children always do a battle royale when there's a N64 present and we do this now to. My soon-to-be-roommate joins in, and as usual he is not competitive while me and the mother of my children and I are competitive to the point where we might just get into a fist fight.

At this point I start to realize that we should get ready for going off to the concert, but the mother of my children and my soon-to-be-roommate kept playing video games. Since I am the kind of person who just puts on my shoes and I'm ready to go anywhere, I started exploring the apartment (which wasn't really my fathers fiancees, even if that was what it felt like). Then my phone rings and it is my father who is going to pick us up, since the concert is in 30 minutes and it takes about an hour (!) to get there. And so, I put my shoes on and tell everybody to get going and I myself run out the door.

I stand outside the apartmentbuilding for quite a while waiting for the mother of my children, but she is taking alot of time getting ready. I call her to see what's up and when she answers the phone she tells me she is trying on outfits. I tell her that we need to get going and in my mind I just know that we're gonna miss "Born to run", which is probably on of the Boss' best songs.

Somehow I end up in a cab. Or a bus, but when I arrive at my destination it's a cab. Although I do remember the bus seats from my hometowns public transport in the dream. Anyhow... We're going through this huge system of roads, with tunnels, bridge, ramps and what have you, and I don't really consider it. I have my favorite cap on (which is now lost) and my wallet in my backpocket. I put the wallet on the seat, right next to me, since it's uncomfortable in my back pocket. I also take my cap off.
In a turn that is tunneled I see a really weird car. It's only got two wheels and it seems like it has disintegrated through rust. The driver is holding a wheel, and there's no motor hood, no roof and almost no body at all, just the skeleton of the car... Except that you can see where the rust has eaten it. For some reason that's the car I end up in when we reach the destination, which is an underground parking garage. When I'm about to pay the driver, I realize my wallet is missing. Ofcourse it fell out while lying on the seat, since there was no doors or walls to keep it inside the car(!).

-THE DREAM MANSION-
The Purple Cape Man
We all have to have that one person you never see before in your life end up in a dream. Most of the time we don't remember them but i remember this character clearly.
He wore a large black and purple cape, much like Dracula from those vampire movies with the long popped collar.
He had long black hair and he looked pale, though not at all vampiric... he had an English accent.. from the UK.
And what was weird is that he ended up in my Dream Mansion, i was wondering around and out of nowhere, he held me captive in my own kitchen explaining how he will destroy my House.
He was obviously evil somewhat and hated me.
That was just another dream fragment from The Dream Mansion dreams i had.

Thoughts = Blue Dreaming State = Red Awake = Black

I went to sleep at about 12:15 a.m. Just before I went to sleep I drank some apple juice, which helps getting lucid.
I can't really remember my first dreams, but about 2 hours after I went to sleep I think I got into a sort of sleep paralasis. [COLOR="red"]Everthing turned black, and to "options" appeared. I could choose the top one, which said follow me, and the bottom one was like an old theater screen with some zombies walking against something. I wasn't quite sure which way to choose, but I knew I had to follow so that I could explore my own mind, though I still don't know what it's telling me at this point. A red text appeared and told me to go with the zombie one, which I then of course did. Everything turned black but I knew I was still moving forward. I thought to myself, shouldn't there be some weird stuff my mind is telling me? So all sorts of random stuff appeared. I summoned a button that could get me the hell out of there is shit went down. I knew that I was getting closer to the target and thing got really uncomfortable so I pressed the button .
I woke up a bit scared but of course also happy, because I hadn't been able to lucis in about a week. I remembered a funny vid on yt, where ppl dressed up as zombies and pranked ppl. So I thought of that so I could calm myself, and then I went back to sleep.

ARE YOU DREAMING??

Everyone has their own fears... well my greatest fear is the grudge. If i see her, i start to panic, breathe really fast, and start crying... yes I'm a little girl when it comes to the grudge but i try my best not to think of her. But i just remembered a dream fragment from THE DREAM MANSION, my house where i live in my dreams... i was having multiple dreams in that mansion. Well i remember walking around when i see her.. right front of me, right away i start to panic and i think okay just think of something different... focus... make her go away. And she disappeared, that was what scared me out of my sleep. I hope not to see her EVER AGAIN.