non-lucid

Still not much sleep thanks to waking life stress. Oh well.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm playing My Little Pony... not sure now if it was a computer game or paper dolls or what. I had a pony, and I could choose to put her in any one of four scenes, and each scene came with different outfits I could put on her.

Dream Two (Fragment): I watched in third person as Sailor Moon made her boyfriend breakfast, but it was gross and she cried because he told her as much.

Dream Three: My mom hired someone to come to my house and give me Karate lessons. She apparently lived in my house too. I wasn't happy about her hiring someone without asking me if I even wanted lessons or not, and decided to be rebellious about her treating me like a kid. I know, what a childish thing to do, lol. I started out being pretty cold and distant to the instructor, telling him I didn't want lessons and he could just go home. But he tells me he has to give me lessons to get paid, and he needs the money. The he asks if I could just give it a shot, not because mom's making me do it, but because he wants to teach me. He doesn't look much older than me, early thirties at the most, but more than likely mid to late twenties. I decide to humor him because I can understand needing money and it's not his fault mom hired him without asking me. By the end of the lesson I find myself really happy that I took the lesson, and I feel proud like I have learned something though I can't tell what. I started the dream feeling angry, but by the end I'm happy and almost a little sad when I wake up because I am rarely that happy and proud of myself in waking life.

Dream Four (Fragment): Someone's crying that their kid fell down a manhole in the park. A crowd gathers and lifts the man hole cover. Instead of a kid climbing out though, a bunch of people on the backs of grey birds like those in Skyloft (from The Legend of Zelda Skyward Sword) come flying out of the man hole. I watch in amazement as one after another they come out of the ground and soar into the sky. They just kept coming, there must have been ten or fifteen of them at least.

(Older Dream)

Non-lucid
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I was walking along and saw a trash pile - huge trash pile - before me. I stared at this heap and noticed something moving within the pile. I moved some of the trash and found a little bird. He was brown and small. I took him to be a sparrow. The poor thing was not breathing and I felt so saddened by it. I tried to breath (yeah, I know mouth to mouth with a bird, what's wrong with me?) life into the bird but he wouldn't take a breath.

I began to cry and it about broke my heart ...

When all of a sudden the bird fluttered to life and took to the sky.

That's all I remember...

(In real life, I've encountered many birds. Several hummingbirds have been trapped in our garage and I've rescued them. I took in a baby bird and failed to see it to adulthood. It died after a few short days. We have many bluebird houses around our spacious yard thanks to my husband. But birds are always around.)

My dreams came in bits and pieces. I remember two things very clearly:

1. Talking to two of my friends via Ventrilo, but I was on a playground at the time.

2. Buying candy from a young, blonde teenager in a building with lots of big, round windows.

The dream started with me being in some kind of temple-like hallway, it was rather broad and there were a few "rooms" cut out of the wall (some 2-3m above the ground) between some statues. The statues had a greenish color and looked remotely like lions, and there were a bunch of them facing the wrong direction, whenever I would spot one of these they would start to attack me. I don't know how I fought them but whatever I did I never took more than a few seconds per statue, and upon defeating one I would find an item on the socket the statue was standing on. I found 6 Master Balls (Pokemon reference I guess) like that; I had HUD displaying the information to me, as well as a picture for each item. On the socket of the seventh statue I however found a "Master Ball" which was only a normal ball with the name Master. On the eighth socket I found a ball called something like Kushina Ball. Then the dream and my thoughts revolved around a certain item, some kind of sprayer with a blue liquid and then I saw a map telling me the only location to find such a thing outside of a shop, and I think it was close to a bridge.

Then I think I found myself at that location, watching a scene in 3rd person. There were 3 dudes with long hair, two of them looked somewhat normal and had blue hair color, the third was extremely pale and had a lavender hair color (which was due to him being undead), and they were related somehow. The undead one grabbed the heads of the other 2 with his hair (which he could control freely) and pulled them close together saying: "You 2 really should..." with a suggestive voice and the both of them were shocked a bit and blushed wondering what it is he was trying to tell them. He was however pulling a prank on purpose and just a second later he threw them in the water ending his sentence with "...get cleaned!".

A moment later I found myself in 1st person again inside of a burning building which apparently belonged to the undead dude from above, and a moment later I woke up.

I only recalled this dream after seeing a comic strip in the newspaper this morning.

I can only remember one part of this dream, the part where I won first place. My dad had entered me in some sort of Art & Comic competition.

I was in some huge auditorium. They called me up as the first place winner, while showing my "work" on a huge movie screen behind the speaker. While I was walking up I got really nervous, because most of the things appearing on the screen weren't actually my work.
I specifically remember seeing some rage comics from the internet, as well as a random photograph of a skyscraper. When the speaker gave me the microphone,he told me to say what I wanted to the audience because I was the winner. I thought about telling everyone that this wasn't really my work and that I should just be disqualified. I should also tell them that my father entered me in this competition, and it was his fault because he did not check what work was actually mine.
For some reason, I did not tell the audience that, and I really felt stupid after not doing that. I just sort of walked off of the stage.

[COLOR="#483d8b"]- It was winter and there was thick snow on the ground. I was on some huge mountain with a girl that was younger than me. We were snowboarding. [/COLOR]

O_o

Nothing else..

[COLOR="#2e8b57"]lucids[/COLOR], [COLOR="#483d8b"]non-lucids[/COLOR]

These dreams had a short films festival feel to them so imagine you're watching them like amateur movie with the third one being really well made.

1: A struggle to park my train at a busy station, hoping my train from one track to the next, barely avoiding other trains and being gently nudged by another, I hop it over to an end-of-line track where trains wouldn't be passing through.

2: In design stencil stuck up in a room full of people facing away from a spokesperson, the word design is on the back of a skateboard. I sneak back down to the crowd with a tanned skin girl with curly hair and what I believe to be one of her friends sitting next to her I'm wrapped up in a blanket. I ask the girl "want some blanket?" She reluctantly but then with a smile said "Sure" then takes some. She notices I'm not wearing a shirt and look at me a bit strange so I quickly responded to that "Don't worry; at least I'm wearing pants." At that moment it appears that I had taken off my shirt and hung it up next to the rebellious urban graffiti without noticing. I look down and see that I'm not wearing pants either! I become flush with embarrassment and see that she noticed as well and become more uneasy, I find myself clutching to a pillow and say "at least I've got a pillow!" She laughed and I'm thinking 'this dream just got unnecessarily uncomfortable’ but then the spokesperson noticed and alerted security, he began walking back and forth giving a lecture about how serious it is to graffiti, not soon after a security guard arrives and all of a sudden the room had changed my previous escape route no longer exist. This annoyed me too much so I decided to go to my next dream.

3. I'm in a dark but nicely cinematically lit ally way looking down at a colourful crystal glass plate being help by someone else’s hands, it drops to the ground only breaking off a corner. I pick it up then chase after the person who dropped it who was running away, as we came up to an intersection in the alleys, she stopped and turned around, she looked me right in the eyes and said "I would run if I were you." A feeling of something bad is about to happen and the feeling that someone is going be after us, she runs off to the left, I run off to the right towards the light. My mind is spinning, ‘Who is this girl? Why did she break that plate? Who is she running from?’ I had to chase her. I throw the plate to the ground then change direction, to catch a glimpses of her jumping through a hole in the side of a wall, I chase her through to catch a glimpse of her taking a right turn, I follow her through to see jumping over a pit, swinging off a bar off the roof and through another hole in another wall, I follow her through to a large abandoned warehouse where she was no longer to be seen. The colour grading changed from the cooler colours in the alley to a maroon red hazy colour in the warehouse, the girl was nowhere to be seen but my though changed to the warehouse. As I crept through to the front of the warehouse, I noticed something behind me staring at me but it was only the empty eye sockets of a corpse propped up against the wall. As I looked around, I noticed that amongst the rubbish and rubble there looked to be more corpses then all of a sudden, one by one, their eyes lit up! I fly up to the celling then looking back to the one at the back wall, whose eyes are also lit up, a black bay appears across its eyes with the word censored written across it, then just like the lights, every set of eyes, one by one, was covered with the censored label. As I continue to move to the front, the labels are facing straight at me as if they were staring at me. While walking out thinking 'why are all their eyes censored?' My dream fades to white and I'm pulled back into reality and awake from my dreams.

There were several other dreams that were too vague to remember. One to do with me being an investigator and watching the front of my high school where the principle would walk out to the balcony connected to his office and had a look if concern on his face before he walked back in. Another dream to do with being hounded by the office lady to pay ~$6 in school fees that I kept forgetting. Another dream to do with me stumbling across an old friend that I never met before at his work place in a store.

April 19, 12. 10:30pm-4:47am

In my dream, Robert and I were hanging out with Tamera. Robert was driving, Tamera was in passenger and I was in the back looking out the window. We went to have breakfast, I didn't eat. I was in a bad mood and i'd lost my appetite. Then we drove thought the malls parking lot, ohh man, I could smell the food, I'm starving by this time, but i'm not going to eat, whats the point. I don't know where we went after that, but we got to watch videos. Problem is everything on the videos turned into food! my stomach hurt so bad I was sick. I finally woke up.-End Dream-

Thoughts-

I didn't eat much yesterday and I didn't eat dinner. I have been so stressed about work and school, and when I get home Robert is so involved in what hes doing that I don't exist. Funny how feelings come out in dreams.

I was in my kitchen with many other people. My aunt was handing out crackers to the strangers in my house. People were becoming ill, and if they ate more than one pack of crackers and peanut butter, their condition would become much worse. I had two packs of the crackers. I didn't appear to be dying or zombifying.

I don't remember anything else, my dream recall this morning was pretty bad.

Last Nights Dreams

I'm in my house but it's a little different ((I don't realise this at the time)). There are a few people in the kitchen with me and I also have 2 dogs ((different to the dogs I have in RL)). I look at the big dog and think "awww poor thing, he doesn't like the way he is" I decide that the nicest thing I can do is to make the Dog the way he wants to be. I now get a hack-saw and say to the Dog "lie down" I struggle to get the Dog to lie down, he seems scared but eventually does as he's told. I now begin to hack off his front paw, it's strange because there's no blood and I think "great no mess" I now pull off his paw that is hanging on by a little bit of skin, I'm holding his paw in my hand and I'm looking at it I then throw it to the floor, the Dog is now left with just a stump . I now proceed to hack off his other paw , it's comes off and again I'm left holding it....I suddenly think "shit...what have I done!!" . The Dog now tries to stand up but he can't, he is standing with his 2 back legs but can't lift himself up on his front legs. I now think "ohhh crap, I'd better fix this, he's all uneven!!" . I now hack off his 2 back paws and the Dog can now stand but he's standing on 4 stumps and looks very uncomfortable . I decide I need to sew up his crotch area just to make him perfect and the job is done properly. I now go out of the room and I'm somewhere else, I'm feeling guilty about sewing up his crotch and think maybe I shouldn't have done that...I now suddenly look down at myself and realise its me who has had my limbs cut off I wonder how it's suddenly changed from the Dog to me. I look again and see that my limbs aren't actually gone, someone has had to cut my feet off but they have made me some new feet..my new feet are a lot smaller, there is still some skin missing and I think "ahhhh, that must be so they heal properly" I'm small now after the surgery, I'm like a midget but think to myself "I quite like my new look" . My new hands and feet are weeping and for a minute I think "ohh my god....what have I done to myself!!" ((DREAM SKIP))
There is a man with ginger hair, he is chasing me and wants to hurt me badly or even kill me, I'm terrified of him!! I'm now trying to hide but there's not a lot of hiding places. I now go into 3rd person and watch this man go onto an open top double decker bus, he is so angry and is trashing the top of the bus to look for me. Everything now goes in slow motion and the bus heads towards a bridge but the bus is too high to get under it. The bridge now crushes the top of the bus as it goes under and smashes the mans head to pieces!! Lol
((DREAM SKIP))
I'm talking to a group of girls, they are all being bitchy to me and say "why do you put make-up on?" I say "to look nice!" then they say "why are you wearing those clothes?" I reply "just because you like to look scruffy it doesn't mean I have to, now go and fuck off!" this makes them all really angry and they chase me, I leg it and I'm heading towards a main road, suddenly I go face first into an oncoming truck!!!
((DREAM SKIP))
There is a car parked in the street. As I pass it I see an old school friend of mine sitting in the car on his own. I stop by the car and say "hey.....it's been ages since I last saw you!" he smiles and I say "you and the rest of the guys were really good mates to me!" he replies "we all love you loads still...you take care ok!" he waves. I now walk off and turn to wave again and now the rest of them have appeared in the car, I shout "I love you guys!" and now go on my merry way

Italics = False Memories
Bold = Non-Lucid

This Entry Contains Foul Language.

Storming the beach once again, it brought back memories. Memories from a decade earlier when we left this wretched planet. The planet dubbed DC24. I had been on an expedition of this foreign planet with a military convoy and my two cousins, Amelia and Ashton. We were looking for life and any resources that could prove useful to our home planet.

DC24 was not much different from ours. It had oxygen, water, and lots of plant life. The expedition uncovered several large aggressive animals. Nothing that couldn't be handled with proper preparation. The last expedition of DC24 was on an island that was about 200 miles long and 100 miles wide.

On the last day we had ran into a problem. An avalanche had destroyed most of the convoy vehicles. Leaving us with a long hike back to the extraction point. The automated shuttle ship was set to leave the beach at 19:00, so it had time to dock inside the starship that was set to automatically leave at 20:00. The group had made it back to the shuttle with 10 minutes to spare. Everyone was exhausted and patiently awaited for take off, while discussing the excitement of the expedition. The one minute buzzer rang. The doors automatically shut and the shuttle started to power up. Everyone let out a sigh of relief. It was the last expedition of DC24 before we made our 5 year trip home.

As the shuttle started to slowly lift off the ground, I glanced out the window. To my horror I saw someone running out of the tree line. “Oh My God!” I said. “Ashton is still outside!”. Myself and 3 others got up and ran to the shuttle door and tried to open it. It was no use, it was programmed to stay sealed shut until it docked inside the starship. As the shuttle lifted further off the ground, I could see Ashton standing on the beach, looking up. Not even waving her hands, she knew it was pointless, she knew there was nothing we could do, she knew she was stranded. I felt my knees get weak, so did Amelia. How could we have not noticed she was not on the shuttle, she had the loudest mouth in the group... We hated ourselves.

So here we are. It took 10 years, but Amelia and I were back. We were going to find her, or what was left of her.... This time the military wasn't going to send a convoy with us. They were going back out for other research purposes. They promised to supply us with equipment, and extraction. Besides that we were basically on our own. Amelia and I did have more help though, because loved ones decided to come for the rescue op. My brother Christopher, and my cousins Marcus and Kevin. We were all cousin, but we were more like brothers.

We were dropped on the beach by hovering gunships. Three of them to be exact. No automated shuttles on this trip. They were instructed to drop us and our supplies off, provide security until we were on our way, then resume with their primary objective. We were all lowered to the beach by rope, and supplies dropped from one of the hoverships. When we all hit sand, and cleared the ropes, the gunships backed off and hovered over the water to keep an eye on the tree line, so they didn't kick up sand while we were prepping. I immediately took the lanyard harnesses off the dogs. “Zeus, Apollo, patrol!” I commanded. (Yes, I used to watch a lot of Magnum P.I.) They ran to the tree line. Each taking off in a different direction, and began to scout. Meanwhile everyone else put on their gear.

Zeus and Apollo were gods amongst dogs. They were born from the same womb on the same day. Together their whole lives, they were as close as two dogs could be. They were Rottweilers each weighing in at 180 pounds. They were smart, loyal, and fearless. They were larger than some of our crew. They were picked up as puppies during the six month refueling/resupplying of the starship while docked at Earth. During the 5 year trip back to DC24, Zeus and Apollo were raised and trained on the starship. They slept in Ashton's quarters, this way they would be very familiar with her smell. They were virtually identical, the only way you could tell them apart was from one titanium tooth that Zeus had, he had lost the real one in a training session.

“Ready!” Marcus called. “Good to go” Kevin said. Chris and I were still putting on gear and loading magazines. Amelia was setting up a care package in hopes that Ashton may come across it. “Alright I'm good” Chris said as he chambered his rifle. “Kevin dig out the yellow smokes and the beacons” I said I was loading the last of my magazines. Kevin handed everyone a tracking beacon, and two yellow smoke grenades. No one was going to get left behind this time. “Amelia are you ready?” I yelled? “Yeah!” she responded. Marcus turned to the gunships, and waved them off. They were on their way, to do lord knows what. We were on a different planet, and still couldn't get straight answers from our government. As we took a last look around on the beach, we could hear biplanes. The military said they would send out some biplanes with banners instructing Ashton to head to the beach, and stay there. I guess they made good on their word. As they flew by, we all got a look at the banners. “You've got to be shitting me” Kevin said, my brother shook his head and looked towards the ground. I glanced at the banners... Orange juice advertisements... “These assholes could fuck up a wet dream” I said. We watched the planes disappear over the jungle. Knowing if she saw the planes, at least she'd still know we're back. I looked at the emerald green tree line again. It looked the same as the day Ashton was left behind, it was an eerie feeling. I whistled, “Zeus, Apollo, Lets go!” The dogs ran to us and entered the tree line with their noses to the ground. We followed.

Making our way through the dense jungle was a slow process. Everyone was as silent as possible, knowing that there are animals out there that would like to do us harm. I was right behind the dogs with a machete cutting vines, and clearing a path. Everyone else was right behind me. Rifles at the ready. All of us keeping an eye on the behavior of the dogs. They would know if there was danger long before we would. We knew we were safe though, because we were with each other. We were safer here together than we were on Earth separated. Vine after vine I cut. They looked like grapevines, yet when chopped they would excrete a strange glowing green liquid. We came to a clearing, Zeus and Apollo sat and waited for us to catch up. We all got to the edge of the woods, and looked out over the clearing. We were in shock....

It was a town. “What the hell!?!?” Amelia said, “This planet is suppose to be deserted!”. We all stood there at the edge of the clearing. Looking at this perfect little town in the middle of nowhere. “Well, it does look deserted” my brother said with a laugh. It did. The buildings looked modern, but also seemed to be unkempt. Grass was starting to grow through the asphalt. Vines were growing up the side of the houses. Windows were broken. “Let's check it out” Marcus said. “Yeah, maybe Ashton will be held up in one of those houses.” replied Kevin. I looked at the dogs, “Lets go!”. The dogs once again leading the way into the unknown town. All of us wondering if this had something to do with the secret objectives of the military.

As we walked the streets, something seemed eerily familiar about it. “This is creepy.”Amelia said. Everyone agreed. No one in sight, no cars, vans, or trucks anywhere. “I've seen a few bicycles.” Kevin pointed out. “Let's try that house” Marcus said. We walked up to the front door. Everyone made sure the safety on their guns were off. Kevin pulled open the storm door, my brother stood behind me. Marcus and Amelia kept their rifles pointed at the door. I slowly turned the door knob, then quickly pushed open the door. Marcus said, “I don't see anything”. I peeked around the corner, “I don't see anything either.” “Zeus, Apollo, clear the house!” The twin rottweilers ran in with no hesitation. Heads low, and noses to the ground. Room after room they checked, then returned to the front door, and sat down. “I guess it's all clear.” I said. We entered the house to have a look around. “Nothing, not even a piece of furniture” Moaned Chris. “Lets check out the rest of this neighborhood” Said Amelia. We exited the house and started up the street. Zeus and Apollo once again leading the way.

“I know what it is thats been nagging me!” said Amelia. We all stopped and looked at her. “I know whats been nagging ME” responded Marcus. He pulled out a cigar and started to light it up. “Nicotine fits!” my brother said laughing “Hand me one of those!”. I never took my eyes off Amelia, I had a feeling that she was on to something. I said, “Spit it out girl!”. She replied, “This town is exactly like the one Ashton and I lived in when we were growing up!”. A chill went down my spine, Marcus and Chris stopped trying to light their cigars and stared at her in disbelief. Kevin and I looked around. “OH MY GOD!!! YOU'RE RIGHT!!!!” I said. “If Ashton came here, she probably stayed at the house where we used to live.” Said Amelia. “Okay, lead the way” we all replied at the same time. Amelia started walking down the road. Zeus and Apollo right by her side with their watchful eyes. With Chris, Marc, Kevin, and I bringing up the rear, and still keeping an eye out for movement in case the dogs miss anything..

“This is it.” Amelia said. We all looked at it in disbelief. It was in fact an exact replica of where the girls grew up. We all stood in the street in front of the house. Everyone took a good look around. No movement could be seen anywhere. No one peeking at us through windows, or hiding in bushes. “Ok, lets do it” I said. We went through the same motions as before. Safeties off and guns ready. “Zeus, Apollo, clear the house!”. The dogs went in, and in under 2 minutes came back out and sat down on the front porch. “Clear” I said. We entered the house. We were in disbelief once again. It had been lived in. “Let's check around” said Chris. I walked through the kitchen, and saw Ashton's handbag sitting on the counter. It was covered in dirt. “She was here!” I yelled. I dumped it out on the counter. Her ID, a broken iPod, camera, first aid kit, and a granola bar fell out of it. I opened up the first aid kit, it was almost empty. Then I tried to turn on the camera, it wouldn't work. Batteries must be dead I thought. I took the memory card out of it and stuck it in my pocket, it might shed some light on what had happened during the past 10 years. None of the lights worked. We assumed there was no power. I walked by the fridge on my way upstairs. I stopped and opened it up. “Holy shit! The fridge works!”. I looked over all the shelves. The food looked as if it weren't spoiled. I opened up the containers, and smelt the contents. It didn't smell bad. I was dumbfounded. Could it be? Could Ashton still be living here, and just not home right now? I looked back into the fridge. Milk, I grabbed it and took a sniff. Slowly I sipped, it tasted fine. Wow, I thought, it's fresh milk. I looked around. “Zeus, Apollo, clear the house!” The dogs did a second sweep of the house as I walked down the hall. It was rare for them to have missed something during training, but it had happened. As I passed Marcus, I handed him the half gallon of milk. He opened and sniffed it just as I had.

I continued down the hall and went up the stairs at the end. They led to a bonus room in the attic. That's where Ashton used to sleep. I peeked my head up over the rails and scanned over the room. It had been used. Papers on the desk, bed unmade, cloths on the floor. I walked through the room, and glanced over everything. I knew she had been here at one point, but could she still be living here I thought to myself. Suddenly I noticed a small door in the wall, it was probably two feet tall and a foot and a half wide. I walked over to it, and could see lighting behind it. As I concentrate on this door, I hear Zeus and Apollo walk into the room. I turned around and saw them sitting down staring at me. All clear I thought to myself. I then unsnapped my rifle, and propped it against the futon. I focused on the small door once again. Something was telling me not to open it. But there might be a clue in it, I thought. I took a closer look at it, and tried to peek through cracks around the door. I could see soft light behind it came from a candle. I went to pull it open and felt a chill down my spine, I stopped. I was petrified for some reason. Suddenly I heard someone sit down behind me. It was Marcus. He was laying back on the futon and petting Zeus. He looked at me and said, “Don't open that.” “Why?” I responded. “Just don't.” he replied.

Suddenly there's a high pitched scream outside. Marcus and I jump up, and head to the window. We glanced down over the front porch. Standing in front of the house was Amelia. She's staring down the street. We look in that direction. “It's Ashton!!!!” I yelled. She ran up to Amelia and they wrapped their arms around each other. Marcus and I felt relieved. I dropped to my knees and felt like crying. It was over, we had Ashton back. It took 10 years, but we found her, and she was still alive. Then I heard Marcus, “We have company.” I looked back out the window. “What the...” Seven men walking down the street towards Amelia and Ashton. They were all wearing the same thing. White button up shirt, a tie, black pants, a backpack, and they were all pushing bikes. Mormons.... Sinister Polygamist Mormons... They claimed Ashton, and they weren't about to give her up. I stood up and looked down at the incoming Mormons again. I counted 9 this time. “They're going to fucking get it” I said.

I rushed down the steps slamming into the wall. Looked down the hall towards the entrance. I ran as fast as I could. I slammed into the front door. Turned the handle and pushed, nothing happened. I took two steps back. BAM!! I kicked it. It flew off the hinges and clear across the front porch. I walked down the steps and locked eyes with the Mormons. I started to walk towards them, they stopped. As I kept walking they turned around. Constantly looking back, to see if I was still coming in their direction.
“Run mother fuckers!” I yelled. They looked back at me and laughed. They all turned and gave me the finger. I reached down for my rifle. It wasn't there... I unsnapped it while I was contemplating opening the small door. When they saw me reach for a rifle that wasn't there, they all stopped. They then changed direction. They were now walking towards me. I smiled.. I waited until they got closer. I let out a loud whistle. “Zeus, Apollo!” The giant war dogs ran up behind me. I pointed at the Mormons. “Get'em!” Zeus and Apollo take off running. Chasing the Polygamist Mormons down the road. Their bulky spike studded collars shimmered in the setting sun. I turned around and saw Ashton standing there smiling. She walked over and gave me a hug, and said, “I knew you'd come.” Then she said, “Dad will kill me if he finds out that I missed the shuttle on purpose because I didn't want to see Jesse.”I was said to myself, “What the fuck did I just hear?” and “Who the fuck is Jesse?” Then I looked at Ashton and asked her what was behind the small door in the bonus room. She went to open her mouth to respond, and then some stupid mother fucker with subwoofers drove by the house at 4 in the morning with his shit cranked up as loud as it could go. Which woke me up....

Saturday 4/21/12 bed 11:30
WBTB 3:24 - 3:50

DR 1 - Dragons
I'm in a huge courtyard of a huge mall, rather futuristic looking. There is more people with me, I'm part of a group. I look at the skies and see a huge bird. Skinny, long tail, I know he has no feathers. I'm thinking it's pterodactyl. There is more of them following the first one and I can see these better. They are dragons. As if they just noticed us, they start swooping down lower and over the courtyard. I think they are grabbing people, but I don't see it. I decide to go someplace else and walk to the elevator. It has no walls and I'm worried it offers no protection from the dragons. But it has a roof, so we'll be ok.

DR 2 - execution area
I'm in an area behind some low apartment building. There is a white wall separating backyards of this building with this area. I'm told it's an execution place. It's in Poland. Political prisoners used to be executed by firing squad there. The ground is mostly just dusty soil made hard by heavy use. I find some piece of uniform, like knee guard of modern soldiers. I show it to somebody and confirms to me it's Polish because of the polish eagle on it. We find some more stuff, one is Hungarian with hungarian language inscription - magyar... and one is Swiss with inscription Helvetic... Totally surprised to find the swiss emblem. There are few soldiers there. We see a rocket in the air and I think someone is shooting at us. But no, soldiers on the ground are firing rockets into the air. I look at the ground and move some dried weeds around to find the lid for the equipment they are shooting from. I don't want to be standing on one of those when they decide to shoot a rocket up. Then I see a mortar that has been fired from. I hear a countdown and I walk by another mortar, not realizing that's the one they are getting ready to fire from. My head is just an inch from the business end of the mortar and I can hear the sound of the projectile and feel the air being pushed by it in the barrel. People scream no!, ouch!, not there! I wake up.

DR 3 - yard
I'm walking in a backyard behind my house in NZ. There is a bunch of trees with bear branches, like in winter, that I feel were like miniatures, but they were normally bearing fruit. The branches were suppose to be nice and thin, but someone pointed out to me, that these are as thick as the trunk and they should be trimmed. I'm like, OK.

Woke up this morning and stupidly didn't write down my dream before falling asleep again, causing me to forget most of it. It was a really interesting one as well! Unfortunately I only remember the less-interesting parts, but fortunately I remembered a second when I woke up again.

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22/4/12

All I remember is exploring a deep cave with three others, where we become trapped almost like the Chilean miners. When we finally find a way out, we learn that the whole thing was a test.

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I'm in a smart suit and arrive at a big London building in search of a job. There are hordes of businessmen going in and out just like horrible swarms of ants and as I walk through the front door, my dad does too, which I had not expected.

We both walk through the ground floor room, which is busy and dirty like a cheap market. My dad enters a meeting on the first floor, and I continue alone up the stairs to find a job. The stairs seem endless, like a tower, and I check every room for potential work. However, all the rooms are empty and I figure I must be at least an hour early.

Briefly and faintly, I hear someone having sex, and almost check the bedrooms near the top of the tower, before suppressing my perverted curiosity. At the very top of the stairs, I find a blacksmith's forge. I begin to hammer the anvil a few times, but am swiftly told that this isn't my job, and shooed out of the room.

On the way back down I discover a shop that was definitely not there before, and I talk to the various people inside, Oblivion style. An old man gives me a phoenix feather, and I immediately realise its value and rarity. He tells me now that I have one, I will be able to find many more in my travels.

After this completely irrelevant digression, I find the shop owner: a stout, short-haired woman who seems to be in a rush. She notices that I'm wearing an employee uniform and a 'my name is ...' sticker [which I hadn't had before] and tells me to continue with my work while she goes on holiday for a few weeks.

Sweating from climbing the hundreds of stairs, I open some window, before noticing some friends. One has an unusually large bifro, making him look like a member of The Mars Volta. Their song 'The Widow' then blasts through the overhead speakers, and we rock the fuck out to it.

If the first sign of craziness is going crazy in dreams then I'm screwed.

Cut Cut Slash Slash

I was in Dread's room. Dread, Jin, and I were watching TV.

I start hearing voices.

They are voices of demons talking to me telling me that they are going to kill my friends.

What the serious fuck?

The voices of the demons tell me that they are coming. They tell me that there are three of them and there isn't any escaping my fate. They will kill my friends and then me.

I want to leave.

Dread and Jin ask me what's going on, but I'm too ashamed to tell them.

I look around the room. I'm seeing faces everywhere. They don't exist but my mind is picking up on patterns and translating them into faces.

I see the face of a burnt doll in Dread's closet.



I want to leave now.

The doll smiles wickedly and tells me that it is the first demon and the more powerful of the other two.

Dread and Jin take me back to my parent's house, sensing that something wasn't right with me.

When I come home, I find that we are celebrating someone's birthday. I look out the window of the front porch and see two little kids playing together. They are probably three or four years old.

When my mom sees them, she invites them inside. I instantly sense that there is something malignant about these children. The little girl is playing with a lighter and the little boy is just standing there strangely.

My mom puts the cake on the table. The little girl takes out her lighter and tries to light the candles.

I'm freaking out. I'm convinced that the little girl is one of the demons that the voices had talked about, and that she is a pyromaniac and wants to light the house on fire so that people die.

Everyone is telling me to calm down but I can't. I want the two little children to leave. I want everyone to leave. I want to leave.

I feel like there's something wrong with my brain. I can't tell if I am so delusional that my reality is completely warped or if what I am experiencing is true intuition telling me to leave. Nothing makes sense anymore.

After the birthday party, the little girl kills Dread and Jin. At least that's what I perceived to happen.

I run down the stairs and tell my mother that I am leaving now. I can't take this anymore! I don't know where I am going but it at least won't be here!

She gives me a strange look.

I try to explain what just happened but she looks completely perplexed.

I'm not even sure of what just happened, but I'm in a total state of disarray.

I get in the car.

But not before checking it twice.

I'm completely paranoid that the little demon boy is following me. I'm still seeing faces everywhere so I can't tell what's real or not. I catch a glimpse of a face in the trunk. The little boy was trying to come along with me.

I removed him from the trunk. He then killed my mother.

If I wasn't experiencing a psychotic break before, I was now.

I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't know what was real or not. Voices were screaming at me and luring me into places. Everything wanted to kill me. I wanted to kill myself before the last demon could kill me.

I took a bottle of sleeping pills and laid down on my bed hoping it would all be over soon. I just wanted to die.

I watch as the last demon comes up to me. She has grown from her original doll size to the size of a large child. Her face still looks burnt and contorted.

I can't tell if I am hallucinating or not.

With a small burst of energy, I shove the remaining sleeping pills down her throat.

Fuck this. I don't feel like dying tonight.

I don't have any weapons except safety scissors. That'll do.

With all of my force, I stab the safety scissors into her skin. I can barely rip her skin. The safety scissors aren't sharp enough.

She laughs wickedly.

I shove her to the ground and start stabbing her with the scissors. I want to cut her heart out. I don't want this to be the way I die.

She just keeps laughing maniacally.

She tells me that even if I manage to kill her she will just come back for me again. And again. And again. And again.

She has been partially disfigured by the safety scissors but it's not enough. I'm feeling the effects of the pills. Shit. The pain began to build up and I was going in and out of consciousness while she continued to laugh.

Fuck you.

With the only energy I had remaining, I shoved the scissors through her heart. She was silenced.

And so was I.

04.22.2012

Where's Your Shampoo? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I took a nap around 10AM and woke up maybe around 1PM. Had some weird dream, not sure if it's one, or many...

I remember walking down a street somewhere, and seeing a girl mention something about images of a creature with a mix of angels and demons combined.

Then I have a dream shift where I'm with a group of DCs, things are kind of in a 3D Cartoon environment...not cell shaded though.

We're running away from some other group trying to catch us, and we all hide in a room (I think I'm of the group, but I'm seeing this in third person or spectating them).

We get out when the other guys go in the bathroom to shower, and we all come out.

Then one of the guys asked something along the lines of,

"Hey! How can you shower if you don't have your shampoo??"

He thought we were a part of them, goes back into the bathroom showers, and we run before he realizes we're the ones that he and the group he's with need to catch.


Typical for a nap to be random like that...