non-lucid

April 18, 12. 10:30pm-6am

I was at Bloomfield Head Start working with Jessica and her teacher's assistant. Today was awesome, we only had four kids and they were the good ones too! The TA was laying on the floor and I had my head on her stomach Jess was walking around to make sure the kids were okay and would sometimes set down to relax. The three of us were talking about everything that came to mind. I mainly remember talking about how nice it was to only have four kids and how good they are. we didn't even have to watch them. One of the parents showed up and we jumped to our feet pretending that we were really doing something. The parent came to pick up her daughter. The little girl looked sad. She looked like Lucrisia, a little girl in Tamera's class. Anyway, mom seen that her daughter was sad and told her, "honey, don't be sad, we will be back tomorrow. i'm not taking you out of school." The little girl smiled and left with her mom. now we had three kids. Jess told me that mom switches schools on her all the time. Jess told me, " in the last year the little girl had been here three different times." "wow," I thought, "so wonder she wasn't happy to see mom so early." everything changed, I was in a store looking at shirts. The store was all white, there were no signs, only clothes. I was looking at a white shirt with black lace in the back. I thought, "I have a shirt similar to this at home. I think ill go home and wear it." My alarm went off and I woke up.-End Dream-

Thoughts- I really had a hard time remembering this dream. I wonder if it ever gets any easier remembering dreams. Ohh, and do I really have to dream about work, I get enough of it during the day.

The dream I had last night involved me going to a city to stay with my dad during his visitation hours, with my brother and sister. Now this city would remind one a lot of Tokyo or even Rio De Janiero on a stormy day. It was rundown, and there were a lot of really tall buildings and skyscrapers, but it was still, how should I put it....A wasteland.

This city was supposedly here in America.

As I was arriving in the city on a plane, the city was being attacked by a monster (supposedly, as I never actually saw it).

The dream faded in and out to another scene where I was running through a trench like system between buildings towards cover under a small stone bridge.

As I entered the space underneath the bridge, I caught sight of a steel door to what looked sort of like a bunker. I entered into it, and closed the door; locking and barring it. The inside of this "bunker" resembled that of a house, but the floor was made up entirely of dirt and small puddles.

I hid in an alcove, waiting for the "monster" to pass. As I was waiting, the steel door started to vibrate viciously as if something was trying to get through it. As the vibrating subsided, I began looking around the building I was in. Towards the steel door was two regular sized rooms across from each other in the hall. Further down the walkway was an alcove on either side. On the left was a couple of windows, a books shelf and a table and chairs.

Past that was another hallway, with smaller rooms containing one bed. There was only enough room for the bed and to open the door in these rooms and that was it.

Then the scene changed and I'm in a different house with my siblings and father. There are three girls there --sisters-- who we apparently know.

We are here for a long time, hiding and waiting until it is safe to go back outside or leave. While we are here, we try to find things to do in our free time, but there really isn't much because we have to be quiet.

At some point, me and the oldest of the three girls end up having sex (I hate dreams like this. There's all this interesting stuff going on, and then something completely random like this happens xD ).

In another scene, planes are flying over the house dropping bombs on the city, which has literally become a post apocalyptic war zone. The sky has turned a bright red color as the planes drop their load. The bombs when they explode, release a poisonous acidy gas that is a vibrant red and if inhaled, becomes a fast acting poison whose symptoms resemble that of radiation poisoning.

The scene changes again, and the chemical has dissipated and it is safe to go outside. Laying outside in a heap are two VERY large lizard creatures, that look vaguely like a cross between Godzilla, a dragon and a Spinosaurus.

The dream ends there, and I wake up.

April 17, 12. 10pm-5am

I was talking to a glowing pink, blue and white ball of light.(it was either one of those skyrim balls of light, or God. I'm not sure.) He had a strong voice, and was telling the rules of the place in was in. I'm not sure where I was.(maybe heaven...) "the light" was telling me there was one of everything and most things could only be used once. I wanted the color green and by old phone back.My dog Rusty wanted something i wanted as well, I kept pushing him back so, he couldn't have it. I told Rusty,"get down, you can't have it, it's mine. Then, "the light" told me about a verse that every body gets at some point of there stay. "Once you complete the assignment it goes to someone else," he informed me. I finally got Rusty to stop and he laid down at my feet. "the light" gave me the verse and told me what to do, I ran off to my car to get started. - End Dream-

Thoughts-

what a odd dream. I remembered more than I thought I did. I think the part with Rusty came from him getting in my face at night and I push him down to my feet.

Back to sleep. I'm walking down a dirt road through a forest. I come to a small off-road clearing of sand. At this point, I am am fully lucid. I decide to try to summon my dream guide by calmly calling out to them. I didn't want to overexert myself and wake myself up. No one came.

I continued walking until I came to a narrow path with walls made of wood on both sides of it. Before I entered the path, I looked around and saw two fat women sitting at a table with a laptop in front of each of them. They were also wearing headphones and they were tracking the movements of some drug cartels via satellite. I reached into my back pocket and pulled out a device that allowed me to time travel. I checked the date and it said the year was 2080 something. I forgot the month, day, and time. Then I warped.

I arrived in the exact same area and checked it again. It now reads September 9, 1923. I looked around a bit. The women weren't there, of course, and the path looked plainer. But it had these logs sticking out of the dirt walls which were wooden in the future. I decided to go and see where this path led. As I exited the path on the other side, I saw a small, partly destroyed city, with these humongous bees flying over it and terrorizing the townspeople. Those bees were bigger than cars.

The people were killing these bees by throwing giant red strawberries at them... These strawberries were about 4 ft. in height but very light. I know this because I remember throwing one at a bee. Whenever they threw a giant strawberry at one of these bees, the bee would grab it with its legs, stick a stinger into it, and use up their stinger, which in turn killed the bee. The townspeople were stacking bodies of giant bees in a pile in the center of town. I woke up.

A similar music track played during the training part of this dream:


I'm some sort of private investigator, and I'm searching for evidence with 2 coworkers in an apartment.
I quickly realize that I don't seem to have any gloves on me and ask one of my friends to give me some.
After putting on the gloves I go to the kitchen and start opening all the cabinets.
I wonder what I'm looking for...

"Hey, what are we looking for again?"
"Are you serious?"
"Uuh... yeah..."
"*sigh* we're looking for a quantum accelerated pipe."

... wait what?

"Like, for smoking?"
"For smoking weed, yes."

A quantum accelerated... wtf?
I keep searching and end up finding the most glorious of smoking devices I have ever seen.
It seems to be made out of some sort of glass and it glows in all kinds of colors, depending on how you angle it against the light.
But then finally it dawns on me... a quantum accelerated pipe... yeah... right...

I rub my hands and further investigate the pipe.
I am sad to find out that it isn't loaded. I would have loved to smoke some weed.

I remember that Yuya told me that I should break out of the dream plot when I become lucid.
Oh! And she wanted to teach me about time dilation!
I become very excited and quickly teleport myself to Teraluna.

I end up in a flower garden. Yuya is attending to some flowers right in front of me.

"Yuya Yuya Yuya"
"Hi?"
"Hi! Time dilation and stuff!"

She grins.

"Calm down! You're going to wake up."

Right...
After attempting to get myself into a calmer state I take a look at my surroundings.
The flower garden is beautiful. All of the flowers are very colorful and they smell great.
I touch and smell some of them until I decide that the dream is perfectly stable.

"So... the thing you call time dilation."
"Yes!"
"Well, for starters it isn't really time dilation."
"I guess. I couldn't think of a better word to describe it."
"Right. So, there's quite a few ways to approach this."
"I'm pretty sure I know which way works best for you, but first of all we need to work on something else."
"Oh?"
"Well, it's sort of directly related."
"Sure, what is it?"
"Your awareness in dreams."
"I've noticed that you sometimes are extremely aware when you're here, but only for short periods of time."
"You experience awareness in short bursts rather than continuously"

I quickly realize that she's spot on about that.

"Yeah, now that you mention it, it's pretty bad."
"Good, so first of all I am going to show you a technique to hold a certain level of awareness."
"Great!"

She drops the flowers.

"Let's go for a walk!"

We walk through the flower garden and talk some more about time dilation.

"Alright, stop!"
"Hm?"
"I want you to tell me the color of each flower on the plant we just passed, without looking."
"Err, sure? Let's see... it was green, yellow, blue, yellow..."
"No, you're cheating."
"I am?"
"You're using your sense of global awareness to tell what color they are without looking, what I need you to do is to remember what color they are."
"What? All of them?"
"Yes! I want you to remember every single detail of what you experience."
"Let's keep walking and pay attention."

This is going to be hard... like, really hard.
Is it even possible to do this?

"Sure it is, especially since you're dreaming. Remember when I told you the difference between focusing on something in waking life and in dreams?"
"Oh yeah, that's right."

I focus really hard on everything I see, even the smallest of details, and try to take mental note of them.
We walk past a similar plant, with approximately 50 flowers on it.

"From top to bottom, go!"

I try to remember and surprisingly, accessing my memories feels natural and easy.

"Red, red, yellow, blue, yellow... err, ultraviolet?, red, blue, blue..."

I keep going through about 20 of them until Yuya stops me.

"Hey hey, awareness!"
"What? Was I wrong?"
"No, but you're neglecting your awareness. Have you noted the details of the things we just passed?"
"Oh... oops. Wow, this is hard."
"Haha, see, just memorizing and remembering is easy."
"What I want to teach you is to remain aware of your surroundings, even if you are focusing on something else."
"If you can do that you should be able to continuously remain aware much more easily."

This makes so much sense!
Yuya is so amazing, why haven't I asked her about this before?

We keep doing this. I memorize all the flowers including other details and try to recite them from memory without loosing awareness of the new surroundings I encounter through walking.
It's really hard at first, but then it becomes surprisingly easy.
I feel like a genius, having such amazing memory all of a sudden.

Since I focus so hard on my vision, it becomes more and more intense.
I can see beyond the color spectrum visible to the human eye.
Ultraviolet and infrared, I can see them so clearly.
They aren't red or violet at all, they are entirely different colors.
The now 5 base colors start merging together to form new ones.
Everything is so beautiful.

It is so hard not to get distracted by this beauty. I have to remain aware of everything.
But it works! I can quite literally feel my awareness leveling out and remaining strong as I go along.

Yuya keeps asking me more and more difficult questions.

"How did this plant smell like?"

I can no longer answer these question with words, so I project my memories towards her, showing that I remember clearly.
We go on like this for some more minutes.
I feel like I have just achieved something major.
I have never ever experienced such an amount of focus.

We finally reach the end of the flower garden.

"And stop!"
"Okay?"
"Yep, time to relax, you cannot possibly keep this up much longer."
"Oh, I can't? It started to feel natural some moments ago."
"Still, if you keep that level of focus up for too long your brain will just spontaneously break out of it."
"You'll either loose all your awareness or even wake up."
"So it would be a bad idea to try and do this all the time?"
"Yes. You can do it for a limited period of time, for example during a battle where you need the extra focus."
"What I'm teaching you is to remain at a constant level of awareness."
"The important part here is that it is constant, not that it is on a level where you have surreal perception and memory."
"The goal is to never let it drift below a certain threshold, this way dream stability should remain high."

I understand her so well, her explanations are perfect.

"It's just more efficient for you to learn it this way."
"Not everyone is capable of achieving such a level of focus."
"It's something you often find in dreamers that are experienced with dream battles."

Dream battling has so many uses, how amazing.

"So dream stability is directly related to your level of awareness?"
"Well, yes, sort of. It's complicated."
"It always is."
"Actually, it is really simple... like most things."
"Yeah right."
"It's the painfully simple things the human mind cannot comprehend."
"After all your mind is trained to understand the complexity of the waking world, not the simplicity of the dream world."

Wow. That is deep.
I have never thought of it this way.
Yuya never ceases to amaze me.
She just drops these mind blowing ideas on me, as if they were the most obvious things in existence.

"Should I try to do this awareness technique in waking life?"
"No. At least not right now. You said you have constant headaches."
"Yeah, probably a bad idea."

She smiles and gives me a big hug.

"We'll continue this next time."
"Wake up and write this down so you don't forget it."
"I will! Until next time!"

Wake up... Have I ever tried waking up from a dream that wasn't a nightmare?
Heck, even a nightmare I haven't tried to wake up from in forever.
I close my eyes and command myself to wake up with my inner voice.
I feel a tingling sensation all over my body.

I open my eyes.
A quick nose plug RC confirms that I am awake and I start taking notes, excited to have taken my first step towards properly long dreams.

April 15, 12. 9:45pm - 2:15am

I was trying to remember my licence plate number and I asked Robert to go look, when he came back he tolled me, "6 2 4 N S U". I needed it because I was ordering music from BMG music club. I was laying on the floor looking through one of the magazines and wishing I could find some of the metal I listen to on Pandora radio. -End dream-

-Thoughts-
I had a second dream, but I focused so much on my first dream I forgot everything, but "a bean bag chair".

3:00am - 6:39am

I was at work and Robert came with me. Carrie (my boss) asked Robert to fix the roof. It was Sams week; the teachers try to get fathers, brothers... so on and so fourth, to volunteer and do work or play with the kids. I don't know what teacher I was with this morning, but all seventeen kids were there.Robert and I were talking as we headed outside. I was thinking,"I wonder if Corey is going to be here today". Just then, i turned and there he was setting in the grass, smiling at me. My heart jumped, as it always does when I see that smile. Then I looked over at Robert, He was bent over the roof having a having a hard time getting up on the roof. I watched for a moment, to stare at that sexy butt. I laughed, and helped him up. Robert gave me a kiss and thanked me for the help, he had the sexiest look in his eyes. I smiled and thought,"man I wish he was like this all the time."I climbed down and all the kids were playing, Corey was just setting in the grass. "Corey needs to get out there and play with the kids," I thought. So I went a grabbed a box of balls and took the purple and green one before all the kids ran off with all of them. I put the ball on the ground and kicked it towards Corey and yelled,"come on Corey, lets play." Corey looked at me with that smile again and Corey's son kicked the ball. I ran over to it and kicked it towards Corey again, he got up to kick it, but his son got it first. Corey and I laughed, then all three of us began to play for a while. Corey's son got bored and went off to play with other kids. Corey and I started to talk about our past. We were way in the back of the play ground. Corey told me, "you know. i have really missed you". "i missed you too, i'm so glad to see you with a better life", I replied. "That's not what i mean, I should not have let you go," he said. "well, I guess it's to late now i'm married, and you have a kid," I said. Oh and a wife or girlfriend, what is she anyway?" I asked. "My girlfriend," he said as he put his arms around me. The playground was empty now, all but Corey and I. I'm not sure were Robert was. "What are you doing Corey, Robert is on the roof!" I whispered. "do you want him to see us?" I added. "I don't care about him Jessi, I just want to hold you in my arms again," he said, with love in his voice. He almost had tears in his eyes. Corey was on top of me now, holding me with love. "But Corey, what about your girlfriend, don't you love her?" I asked. "No, i'm just with her because i love my son," He replied. Corey ran his finger tips through my hair and kissed my forehead. i didn't want to move as we stared into each others eyes. I had i brief thought about Robert, but it was gone as fast as I thought it. Just as i was going to ask Corey if he loves me there was an explosion right behind us. pieces of fence flew by us and the rest of the fence fell in flames. Corey and I jumped to our feet and Robert came out of nowhere and put his arm around me in a side hug. I hoped he had not seen Corey and I earlier. The smoke cleared, there were hundreds of armored men on horses.(they looked like the daedra off skyrim) The leader looked at us and declared that we are to be his prisoners. Before any of us could speak we were tied up and on the backs of horses galloping through fire. I heard screams and seen women running half naked away from the armored men. Tree armored men were taring a woman's clothes off and rapping her. Some how we arrived at a swamp, the armored men through us around a tree branch, tied us there and left. I looked around, there was me, Corey, Robert, Corey's son and a little girl i didn't know. A boomerang flew over us, cutting the ropes. We fell to the ground, I stood up dusting myself off. As I looked around, I wondered who the little girl was. All the scenery got sucked up. -End Dream-

Thoughts-

Booyah! i finally remembered a whole dream. It's weird how feelings can really come out in dreams.

Wednesday 4/18/12 bed 12:05
WBTB 3:07 - 3:25 Woke up at 9:39
DR
I'm on an alien planet. We are doing some kind of mining operations from hills and from air. There is a baseball stadium, in teracotta colors. Big sign says in cursive 'Palmer' something something.
***Before bed, I watched the movie "The contact" with Jodie Foster. There is a scene when she is on alien planet on a most beautiful beach with palm trees, water is turqoise, shallow, and the skies full of stars and galaxies are touching the horizont. U really wanted to dream about that place. So I was visualizing it and saying mantra "Alien planets, beautiful beach, with lucid dreaming, I can reach'. ***

I oddly had a dream that was very similar to a real event from my childhood. it wasn't that special, I was at Cory's house, in a rural area with no houses around us. I was only 10 and Cory was like 14-15. Now that I'm older I find it odd that I would spend the night at other kids houses when they were as old as my older brothers, but anyways...

We were in his yard looking at a small, old playground that had grass and weeds growing up to my waist. Cory was telling me there was a hornets nest in the playground. We wanted to get a good look at the nest so we carefully sneaked into the tall grass. Unlike what really happened, I seemed to feel smaller and the grass crowded around me. we found the hornets nest behind the ladder, and we were both daring each other to hit the nest with a stick. Cory gave in and swung the stick really hard at the nest. we both ran like hell as soon as he hit it. I could hear the buzzing like it was going around my head over and over. We ran into Cory's garage. We were both out of breathe and i didn't notice that Cory had his dogs in their cages. The dogs barked at me and made me jump. we laughed for a while and decided to get something to eat.

my dream starts to fade as we make pb&j sandwiches and eat. my vision fades like my mind fell asleep while watching my dream, later on I come back to my dream, re-living my old memory. Im playing checkers with Cory and his grandmother walks by us saying something to Cory about supper. She says something to me that makes me laugh.
things fast-forward to night time. im in Cory's room and were playing a video game. we get bored and decide to watch a dragon ball z vhs tape. we had to share a bed, but I didn't mind. we were talking about something I can't remember and my dream ends.

I was in the dining room when I got lucid. I remembered hearing that crawling on the floor works for a stabilization technique. I did it and the dream became really clear and detailed. I walked outside onto the deck, and jumped up to fly. I couldn't get up high, so I landed on a low tree branch, and tried to take off again. It didn't work and I fell. Then the dream ended.
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I was in a huge hotel-like place, well, it was more like a mall that looked like a hotel. I was looking for my family, since I was on a different floor. The elevator had the floors labeled with a letter and a number, and I was on floor J1 I believe. I went to a random floor above mine, and when I got out of the elevator I saw my little cousin and my aunt. My cousin talked with me for a bit, and after I said goodbye and walked away. There was a huge pop'n music machine in the corner of the big room. The buttons were removable, and since the colors were all wrong, I rearranged them. But the buttons were really big and the back few were hard to reach. There were also 3 rows instead of two.*

April 14, 12. 3:51am

My dream was about was about learning German, I was talking to two guys from Germany (who looked like Oliver and Richard from Rammstein) about learning to speak German. i wanted to record them speaking so I could learn to pronounce the words correctly. As I recorded them and asked questions, we were laughing and having a good time. -End dream-

-Thoughts-

At first when I woke up I thought I forgot my dream, but I didn't. My dream was about something I normally think about, so it wasn't like a dream at all. As i woke up, the dream became my thoughts, and as I headed to the bathroom I was thinking about how cool the guys were and i couldn't wait to listen to the recording so i could learn to speak German... wait a minute, what am I thinking that didn't happen...it was a dream.
I had broken sleep for the rest of the night.

9:00am - later that morning, Dream #2

My eyes were hurting, so I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to look in the mirror. The sun was bright, almost blinding, it was the morning sun rise. I looked at my eyes in the mirror and my eyes were blood shot red, except where my contacts rest. I said to myself, "Great, I have been wearing these things to long. Now I have to find my glasses". I walked off to find them and everything faded away. -End dream-

04.20.2012

fOrceez and melanieb PM (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm PMing f0rceez about something, same thing with melanieb.


For f0rceez, all I remember was just talking about how I'm going to do a WBTB after we talked about something that I can't remember.

I don't know what I'm PMing melanieb about.

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04.20.2012

Handstand 69 (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for 18+....Kind of...:

I'm inside an apartment most likely, it kind of looks like mine format-wise. Me, this blonde female, and some guy were naked. I'm not sure if the other guy was having sex with another chick, but I'm occupied with the blonde female.

I think me and the blonde started to do a Handstand 69. She was pretty fit, she had six pack abs, and her legs where so shiny and smooth, and she was sweating a bit too, which made everything even better.

I'm pulling her legs all the way up so I can eat her, and before I go all the way, I believe I was crouching down and up a few times for some odd reason.

I look to the guy to the right who is most likely having sex with another female. He climaxes so hard, that I wonder if I climaxed as well when I was looking down on my penis.

(Oh my god, I see my penis for once in a dream!!! )

Nope, it was still hard, so I presume the guy's sperm landed on us, I was kind of irritated, and I wiped it off my underwear and other regions.

It seemed I tucked my penis through the gaps of the front of the underwear I'm wearing.

I only remember looking at my penis that was still hard after wiping the sperm off.....ugh.

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04.20.2012

MLP Pinkie Pie Humiliation (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm not really proud about this dream, but I might as well put it down anyway.....

Spoiler for 18+....I think?:

I think this is a dream shift from the Handstand 69, because I still feel like I'm in the same apartment. Pinkie Pie has her front hooves on the bed, opening her private parts to me.

I'm seeing myself in third person perspective, at least, I think that's me who is near Pinkie Pie because of the underwear and my skin color.

I don't see actual penetration, just things from up front. Pinkie Pie was begging me not to do it, and that it was too big for her.

I'll leave it at that.

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04.20.2012

Large Katara and Little Aang (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Katara is like a giant compared to Aang. She has him on her hand, and she's using her fingers to roll him around like he's some kind of cute little animal or something, and it feels he's enjoying it too since he's rolling down the creases of her palm.

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04.20.2012

Trailer Food Areas (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside, having several fast food places around me. It's one of those areas where there's a busy traffic, and a lot of parking with a lot of places to go to.

I'm looking around some areas, tempted to go to them to get something to eat, but I end up not going to find something else more enticing.

Then I see one of those Trailers that sell food, and I go up to them, by this time, I think I was sitting on a white truck or something. So I get off it, and go up to them, then I turn back, and realize my wallet was stuck between the creases of the back of the truck.

I quickly grab it, go back to the trailer food area to see what they have, they said something, but that just makes me reject them as well. I look around to my left after I turn my back on them to see another area having a lot of heated food wrapped in aluminum foil.

It seems the employees were just waiting for customers to come in.

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04.20.2012

Elevator Settings (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm with a random group of people, and we're waiting for an elevator to come open to us. The settings were kind of weird, but I can't remember what exactly.

I end up talking to some female and declared what I think she really has, which was dementia, or something like that. It took her a while to admit it, but she gives up and decides to click the elevator button for people with dementia.

Too random for me to understand anything that went on in this dream.

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04.20.2012

Trap Spell (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I think I'm in a fast food area, and there's this entity in a cloak, probably black or dark brown, not too sure, and it appears they are after me.

I panic a little but I'm aware that I can defeat them easily, or at least delay their movements and escape by using some kind of spell. The reason why I know this is that it feels like I'm in a video game, and I'm seeing things in third person perspective.

There's a HUD displaying on the bottom right hand corner, and there's a "+" pad, like you would see on the Nintendo Wii Remote, and there's something on the right side of the pad on the screen.

It looked like some kind of brown container or coffin??

I feel myself selecting it, and it instantly traps the person in some weird container I can't even remember, and the container was fairly huge. I thought this was the time where I should start hitting the container to damage the entity in it, but it only is breaking it apart to help them get out.

Once they do, I escape through the door, and I think the dream resets to where the entity was there. I use the spell or whatever it is again, and I forget what I did after.

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04.20.2012

Bus 24 and Melanieb? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There are a lot of shifts in this dream.

The room overall is different shades of blue and green, mostly turquoise,

I'm inside a lecture room, or something like that, and there's this person who appears to be a guest speaker, and he's asking the students what are the remaining three answers showing in red question marks.

I believe the question itself was asking what keeps organizations together. (Then I realized this dream was related to the Sociohorticulture class that I have, and how it's relating to a previous slide lecture I was at).

Some of the students answer, but they always ended up not knowing the last one, so they would try and say something that was said before. I think the max they could say were 3 words.

I raise my hand to say,

"Motivation to keep people in them........"

and two more things that I can't remember, but I do know that the last one was something that was repeated since it was easier than just sitting there looking dumbfounded.

The dream shifts to where I'm outside, and it seems I'm waiting for a University bus to arrive. I take my shirt off for some reason, and I see a bus coming near me.

I thought it would stop since I'm at the Bus Sign for it to pick and drop people off, but it passes me, and I'm wondering why. Then I realize it was Bus #25, so this wasn't the stop for it.

I think another bus was arriving after that, but I can't remember if it was #24.

The dream shifts again to where I'm standing near a curb, and I looked at a lawn sign


It said something about "Pornstar," or "Ex-Pornstar."

I felt as if this was referring to Melanieb, I don't know why, maybe it was during a dream shift, I probably experience something related to her, and presumed that this sign was some kind of association towards that.

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04.20.2012

Temple in Sephia (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My recall for this was too hazy, but I'll still try to remember whatever I can.

I see a picture of a temple with some kind of orange barrier around it, and it was all in Sephia color.

04.20.2012

Class (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember sitting in class with someone that seemed familiar. The class color setting was dark brown overall.

I had the first "can't get back to sleep until I check the whole freaking house to make sure it's safe" nightmare of the year last night. It kind of messed up my sleep for the whole morning afterwards, but I got some short and fuzzy dreams, so here they are.

Dream One: I'm in a hospital. Someone's just had a baby, and I'm celebrating with a bunch of people (family and people I don't know) by having drinks in the hallway. Yup. Alcohol in the hospital, I'm pretty sure that's illegal in the waking world or something, lol.

Dream Two: I'm on a boat in the middle of a small river through a city. It reminds me of when I went to Vegas forever ago and saw people riding the gondolas in front of that hotel, the Versaille? I can't remember what hotel it was, lol. Anyways, in the dream I'm on the phone with a friend, C, and I see a GIANT billboard advertising a new Otome game. It was like a dating sim game for girls, and the possible love interests in the game were actual anime characters like Sebastian from Black Butler and Setsuna from Gundam 00. I remember getting all excited, and telling my friend the game looked AWESOME! She agrees it sounds great, even though that friend doesn't watch anime or play video games o.O I go on about how I'm not a fan of Setsuna, and I wonder if it'll have any other Gundam pilots in it? But the game was worth buying to hear Sebastian's voice seducing you anyways.

Dream Three (Nightmare): I'm walking out of the kitchen behind my son when I notice something move under his feet. It's a Copperhead, IN THE HOUSE! I try to tell my son to stop before he steps on it, but he doesn't listen and comes millimeters from stepping on it. I rush forwards and grab him and stand him up on a chair, but the snake slithers under the chair after him. I tell him not to move, thinking the snake can't climb the chair I guess, and run to the basement to get a shovel to cut the things head off because there's no way I'm letting a poisonous snake who knows how to get in my house free so he can come back in again! (Non poisonous, it wouldn't have been a big deal. We actually have a HUGE black snake living in our attic/basement and I refuse to let my husband kill him because he's not hurting anything.) I can't find a shovel, but I see a ho, so I grab that and run upstairs. My kid has gotten off the chair, and I'm freaking out at him that he could have been bit, then ask him if he knows where the snake went. He points to my feet, and I'm almost standing on it! I jump, then start trying to hit it with my ho. It tried to escape in the basement, but I get him on the stairs. Then he transforms into my cat Lilly, and my cat Lilly runs up at the same time so there's two Lillys and I can't tell which is the snake. I wake up TERRIFIED. I actually made my husband check the house for copperheads when he got up for work before I could fall back asleep! The rest of my dreams reflect this anxiety as well.

Dream Four: I'm trying to park my car in our driveway in the nighttime. I notice my neighbors black dog is laying in the driveway, and he won't move. The dog is supposed to be in a dog kennel anyways, so I get out of my car and try to call the dog to put him in his dog lot for the neighbor. The dog runs off, and I get frustrated. I call him a few more times, and the neighbor apparently heard me and sent his kid out to catch his dog. Just as the kid is coming up to help I hear a noise in the woods. At first I think it's the dog, but then I see the moon reflecting off an eye, and I know it's too tall to be the dog, it's got to be a dear. I get in the car and holler at the neighbors kid to watch out for the deer, he wouldn't want to get trampled if it gets spooked. As soon as I say this, the deer starts flat out attacking the kid. It's a doe, so there are no horns, but it keeps headbutting the kid knocking him down and trampling him! I back the car up and shine the headlights at the deer, this causes it to get scared and run away. I check the neighbors kid, he's bleeding, but he says he's ok. I tell him he needs to go get a rabies shot because I don't think sane deer would attack a person like that. Then I park my car and wake up when I get out again.

Dream Five: I'm talking to my husband about my son starting Kindergarten this year. Apparently he starts in a week, and his doctors appointment for his kindergarten shots is on the first day of school. I'm flipping out that he can't miss his first day of school to get his shots, we need to get the shots this week and see if the doctors office will just let us come in for shots really quick and do the actual check up part on a another day. My husband tells me that won't work because my son needs X-rays this year? I wake up, momentarily freaking out, then realizing it's only April and school won't start until August, we got time

Dream Six: I'm in the bedroom in my dead grandparents house where both my grandma died and my grandpa took his own life. Its a pretty creepy place to think about now that I'm awake, but in the dream I had no negative feelings about it. I'm sitting next to the bed, Ciel Phantomhive from Black Butler is on my left, and K is to my right. There's a guy who looks like the pig riding guy from the early Bleach Episodes there as well, sitting across from me at the bed. Ciel is ordering Pig guy to do something, and pig guy gets up and stomps off. I hear muttering coming from the hallways, and get up to see what it's about. K and Ciel are playing poker and talking about some sort of plot against us, but I'm not worried. I trust K to handle it all, and don't feel like I really have the experience needed to keep us safe but he probably does. In the hallway, I see pig man is lighting a bunch of candles and sitting them right under papers that will catch fire and burn really easily. He's muttering something like, "Burn in hell you little demons (devils?)" I yell out at him, "Hey, stop!"and he drops his book of matches and a lit candle and runs away. I go through trying to blow out all the candles before they can start a fire. K and Ciel come out of the bedroom and K is saying, "Well Phantomhive, it looks like you've been betrayed by your own man." to which Ciel replies that he knew it would happen, and we'd use the escaped traitor to lead our enemies to us where we can catch them in our own trap. I'm freaking out that we've got to get out of here before he tried to set fire to the outside. I'm trying to gather things that are important to me, extra shoes, a stuffed horse my grandfather gave to me, a pillow pet for my kids to lay their heads on (doesn't cross my mind they're not here in the dream, lol) and I'm trying to find more of the kids stuff. K just sits at the kitchen table playing cards with Ciel again. I'm getting upset, I feel like we need to leave now! K tells me to just relax, everything's under control. But I just can't relax, I'm freaking out! K asks me where I think we're going to escape to, that we have no where to go. I tell him we could go to his parents house, and he sighs and says Ok, if I'm so upset we can go there if it'll make me feel better. He sighs and throws his cards down on the table obviously agitated and I take this as a personal attack because I'm so on edge. I start shouting at him, "Just because you're an undying doesn't mean the rest of us can't die you know! You may be happy sitting here and being burnt or blown up because you'll regenerate, but I won't!" (An Undying is from the book series Kieli, I have often thought the main character Harvey reminds me of K because they both have that quiet and unintentionally harsh around people personality. Apparently this comparison was bleeding over into my dreams to make him fit in with all the anime characters, lol) He looks at me kind of stunned and confused by this outburst, and then my son wakes me up because he's worked the fitted sheet off his bed turning in his sleep. I'm glad that K showed up in this dream, because it put me at ease enough that my last dream was not a nightmare and I woke up in a good mood after all.

Dream Seven: I'm inside of a store, at first I thought it was Walmart. I'm looking at video games, checking out what they have for the PSP because I'm really enjoying Hakuoki and wander if there are any other visual novels for the PSP. A store clerk comes up, and asks if he can help me find anything. I tell him I'm just looking, thanks. Then he asks me what my name is, so I actually turn and look at him instead of half ignoring him (yeah I know, ignoring people is a bad habbit... but my social skills are so inept it's usually a lot better than trying to talk to them and getting overly stressed out, lol) I notice he's the guy from best buy the other night. I remember that My husband was the one who was trying to talk to the guy and ask him about some video game stuff, but the guy kept looking at me when he was talking to my husband. I was very flattered at the time, especially since he looked a lot like a guy I had a crush on in College, just with shorter hair. I even wondered if he was the same guy, but his name tag had a different name on it so I was pretty sure it wasn't. Anyways, in the dream I tell him my name and he smiles really big and cutely, and I smile back. Then I decide to ask him if he knows of any other visual novels on the psp. He has no clue what I'm talking about and apologizes like crazy. I tell him it's ok, and grab a game off the shelf and tell him I'll just try that game. The I checkout and leave. I feel like I'm being watched, and I turn around to see him and someone else watching me out the stores glass windows as I leave. I turn around and smile and wave to let them know they're being too obvious, then get in the car where my husband and kids are waiting. My daughter wakes me up this time, and it's time to get up.


And of course, because the copperhead dream had me so freaked out, I wouldn't let the kids get up until I could check the house again myself, then told them to watch where they step. We've not had a snake in the main part of the house before, but since we've had mice come up from the basement and down from the attic before, I know it's possible, it just hasn't happened yet.

Dream 1
A. and I are wizards in the Harry Potter universe and on a mission to destroy Voldemort. A. has a pet cat named Russ, which does not exist in real life. Furthermore, in a nice display of intertextuality from my dreaming mind it appears that Voldemort had teamed up with the villains from A Game of Thrones. I really need to stop dreaming about this show/book but it's turning out to be something of a dream sign!

Dream 2

I am sat in my Rebels, Rakes and Partisans seminar with H. absent. SM comes over and ask me if she is not enjoying the course

Dream 3
I am at an airport with A. I am wrongfully arrested by some kind of detective who seemingly mistakes me for some kind of maniac. We leave the room and see the person he was looking for having sex with somebody in a room with M.B and others I don't recognise

Crazy stuff!

I had a dream where you could use magic by blowing air into some kind of paper in a ticket form, forming a bubble, and then using a wand of some sort to release it. I didn't really like this dream for the fact that I sucked at doing this magic!!! I was new and could only do spells every once in a while. We were taking to this like "dream" place by force and everyone was fighting against each other except for me and my friends. We start to flee but I can't remember what happens after that.

No recall the last two nights, unfortunately, but it was my own fault. Tried to WILD last night but could not keep myself awake long enough. Did remember a small clip though:

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19/4/12
VITAMIN B6

I'm in some sort of cottage with some friends. We think the house might have been broken into, but after checking round, we decide it's all clear. All of us go out, with exception of one who stays behind. Not long after we leave, we get a call from him, saying he left the door unlocked and someone might be inside the house.

As we journey back to the house everyone thinks about which valuables they might have had stolen, but I'm safe in the knowledge that my expensive macbook is chained to the wall.

Once back, I enter the house with my dad, and suddenly realise I had taken my laptop off the chain very briefly recently. As I suspect, it's gone. I start shouting in anger, but it's my dad that flies into a huge unnecessary rage.

Once I've calmed down I half wake up, realising it was just a dream, before then waking up for real.