non-lucid

I am in a three storey house made in the Victorian architexture style. The outer facade is large grey stones and the interior is all wood. I do not recognize the house from anything I have seen in waking life but I know that I am in modern times because the furniture and appliances are modern and there are two cars parked outside in front of the house.

It is dark outside and I go outside to look at the cars. One is my family's old 1986 Volkwagen Westfalia and the other is my dad's previous car, a dark blue minivan. I don't know where I am but it seems to be a rural town or something. I have a horrible feeling when I go outside and feel like there are many "dark things" watching me. I run back into the house where it is warn and lighted and where I feel safe.

Back in the house I find a young man sitting in the living room in front of the fire. I recognize him as one of my dream characters who shows up rarely but I know him by his black hair and green eyes. We exchange a few words but I cannot remember what we talked about now. I went upstairs to the second floor for some reason, feeling compelled by some invisible force.

I cannot remember any more of this dream.

Dream - Lucid - Other

Last night before I went to bed, I took a Tylenol that had codeine in it, because I was in a lot of pain (thanks to mother nature). I should note that I very rarely take these, this is probably the 3rd or 4th time in my life that I've taken one. Let me tell you...I had a very intense experience. For now, I'm going to categorize it as "other" to separate it from the "dream" and "lucid" categories.

I was in sleep paralysis. I started to sit up slowly. I thought I was doing so in waking life. I thought it was my real body sitting up. But then, I seemed to float. I could still feel the sleep paralysis and heaviness of my body. I opened my heavy eyes, and looked in the mirror. I saw my body lying in bed in the reflection. I kept feeling this "tugging" feeling to go back to my body, and, after trying to resist the feeling, I inevitably returned.

After that, I was transitioning in and out of this state over and over again, every time feeling my body in sleep paralysis even though I wasn't "in" my body. Sometimes, I could manipulate the light in the room, like I could "turn" the lights on and off. One time, I pulled myself up out of my body, and was looking over my body in bed, and I saw myself blinking my eyes open and shut. This freaked me out, so I went back. I kept wanting to fly through the ceiling, to get out of my room each time, but the "tugging" sensation always brought me back.

I also sleep with a sleeping mask on, and in one of these experiences, I felt like it was covering my eyes and I couldn't see, so I kept taking off "layers" of the sleeping mask to improve my vision, which only worked slightly. Each time prior to this, though, I could feel the sleeping mask, but could see pretty clearly.

I also started trying to "roll out" of my body. I would feel myself turning over and over, and when I felt ready, I'd "roll out" of my body.

Each one of these experiences was pretty brief, with the first few being the longest. I finally decided to dream, and stop trying to project, or whatever was going on.

Then, I had a lucid dream, where I was in a different version of my house, trying to project like I had been doing previously. I dreamed I was sitting up in a chair, trying to exit my body. I remember my mom being in the room too. This kept happening over and over again. It was like I was trying to show my mom what I was doing.

Then, I was in the street of my dream neighborhood. It was nighttime out, and very vivid.

All the sudden, I was flying through space, and then, there was the moon, right in front of me, rotating, looking very different, like there was some sort of community built there. I thought about WakingNomad and his visits to the moon. I kept feeling like I was going to wake up or lose the dream, but I was determined to stay in it. Everything blacked out, and then I was on the moon in one of the buildings. I examined my hands to induce clarity. Two young men approached me, and asked if I knew where WakingNomad was. I told them no, I was actually looking for him myself. I turned one of the windows in the building into stained glass. I didn't have any particular pattern in mind, but what came out was a cross in front of an airplane. Then, I entered the room into which the window looked into, and there were those stained glass windows,with the crosses in front of the planes everywhere in the room.

At one point in this dream, I tried creating a portal by saying "Portal, appear!", as I usually do. I think I was already on the moon when this happened, and I either woke up or entered another dream upon doing this.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

Good morning! Finally a morning I can wake up with a smile on my face. Had halfassed intentions of becoming lucid last night, I really wanted to but my confidence levels were kinda low. An hour before bed I started believing in it more, and after a short WBTB this morning, I got lucid. Had quite a few other interesting dreams, so here goes.

21.15: Sleep

06.15: Kickass
I'm with a few people and one of them, a Spanish-looking dude is really annoying the shit out of me. I can't take it anymore and we start to fight. I walk in on him and give him an elbow to the face, I don't get it right and I headbutt him in panic. He staggers away with blood on his face. "That's a good one" he tells me and we start to fight with our fists. As usual in dreams, my punches are weak and barely do any damage. The more I hit him though, the more effect they seem to have and soon I'm pummeling away. I grab his head and smash it against a desk, and right after that I knee him in the face. He falls down and I sit ontop of him and hit him for a long time. The ambulance arrives and they put him on the stretcher. He's bloody but conscious. I take his hand and tell him it was a good fight. He gives me a bloody smile and says: "Yes, yes it was."

06.15: WBTB 15 minutes

07.30: Fragment
*I'm talking aboud lucid dreaming to a few people.

07.30: Zombies are coming MILD
I'm in a tiny room with four other people. "You have to escape" a man tells me and walks out with two girls. They close the door and I'm left in the tiny room with a girl. I look around and spot a window high up on the wall. It's just a ventilation window but I realise it's my only way out. I punch at the window frame and break the glass. After some tearing and punching, it's all gone and I'm left with a body sized hole I can crawl out of. I am halfway through when I remember the harddrive. I pull it from the wall and pocket it. "What about me?!" the girl asks me. "You have to sacrifice yourself for humanity" I tell her and drop out the window. I land rougly and drop the harddrive.

I pick it up and pocket it again. I suddenly realise that I forgot alot of other stuff. I look back up at the window a few meters up. The girl leans out and is holding a gun. "Want this?" she asks me with a smile. I dread she won't give it to me but she drops it. Next comes an ammo clip, my working helmet and my wallet. "Want your hat aswell?" The orange hat, I can't leave that! She lets it go and I grab all my stuff and start to run. I can hear dogs barking in the woods behind the building I just left. "Damn, the zombies must be really close" I think as I run and try to put on my helmet. I look to the side as I'm running on the road in the middle of a neighbourhood. I fear I will see shadows running behind the houses. I can almost see one, but not clearly.

Suddenly I become lucid. I forget all about the zombies and just look infront of me. The dream seems to be very stable and clear. I focus on my senses and I can feel each step I take, hear the sound of my boots and I even taste the neutral taste in my mouth. I smack a bit with my tongue for fun. My vision is better than it has been for a long time, and it seems to be around sunrise. The sky is blue and a comforting glow is coming from somewhere. The town seems to be empty though and I decide to fly some. I run and jump two times before I remember that trying to fly while running is hard. I stop and jump two times before I start floating upwards.

I fly towards a parkinglot and land on the other side of it. I look back and once again, the view is amazing. I'm not sure I have had such a stable lucid before. Everything is just like real life. I look at my hands and rub them together. I want to play around with telekinesis so I try to find something suitable. I spot a taxi backing up slowly and I reach out with my hand. I lift it up slowly and the rear of the car gets pulled up as if by some invisible chain. I start to float upwards myself in synch with the car. I let it hang a few meters up. "Screeeeeech" I turn around and forget all about the car. Behind me, two cars have almost collided. There are tire tracks on the road infront of them for some reason. There's a family of muslim girls in one of them and they look very frightened.

They quickly recover though and drive off. The second car, filled with old ladies go after them. Suddenly Monica appears out of nowhere. "Hey babe, you know we're dreaming right?" I ask her to see what she would say. "Are we? Really?!" she asks me and smiles. "Yeah! What do you want to do?" I say. I can't come up with anything. "Wanna have sex?" she asks me. "Sure", I pick her up. I position her against the railing of the parkinglot. I take a look at the whole place and it's still very stable and vivid. "Gotta focus and not get too excited" I tell myself and remember some of the sex tutorial. I start to help her undress as I'm holding her in my arms. We laugh. I soon get to her panties and I pull them to the side instead of removing them. With a last look around I go down on her and my focus of the world is lost. The darker parts of her loins claims me and all I'm left is my touch as I close my eyes. She seems to enjoy it for a few seconds. I can feel the dream slip.

I wake up and get on the computer. DV is down and so I try to open a word document to write the dreams down in. I can't do it for some reason and I try for a long time, it's very frustrating.

08.15: Fox
I'm with my dad and we're on a horse. I'm sitting at the back and we're walking on a path with a forest on our right. I start worrying about wolves and suddenly one comes rushing out. Only it's alot smaller and orange. The fox starts barking and yipping. It tries to bite me in the feet and I pull them up. I hit it on the head lightly with a tool and it starts to cry. "Foxes don't cry" I say and it gets aggressive again. I hit it lightly again. We arrive at our old house and dismount. The fox is still with us, but now it's turned completely white. It actually looks like a tiny troll with a huge, snow-white hairdo. I explain to the troll that we usually sleep with earplugs in. I pull mine out and show it to him. He seems to be very excited, just like a kid.

08.15: Fragment
*I look at my hand and count my fingers. Seven. "My sight is probably off" I tell myself and recount them. There are fingers everywhere but I assume it's just my eyesight that is fucked up.

09.30: Kickbike, lottery winner MarTango
I'm in the neighbourhood I work at. I'm on a kickbike and I must be drunk or something like that. I look away for a second and when I look back again, I crash into a girl with a bike. "Oh shit, sorry!" I tell her and continue down the road towards our establishment. I keep on falling down though, but I do it smoothly and land on my head and roll. A few girls infront of me laugh but I continue on. I head right for a group of girls and they have to let eachother go to let me pass through. I spot atleast twenty people lying on the ground outside of the establishment. "I guess they're sleeping" I tell myself and head up the small hill.

On the wall I see a lottery ticket with a huge winning on it. I double check and it the symbols change every second, but I know it's legit. "MarTango..." I read. "That lucky fucker!" I enter the door. MarTango is standing there, smiling like never before. "You won didn't you?" I ask him. He starts to laugh. I'm happy for him and take off my shirt. "Party! Wohoo!" I yell and spin it around. I've still got two more shirts on. Eric is there and I take them off aswell. "Which one should I use?" I ask and hold them up. I've got a fourth shirt on, it's beige and green. Kinda cool.

09.30: Civilization
I'm playing some kind of real life civilization game. I'm training soldiers and I've got a flower in a tube. Five turns left and I've got a great start. Somehow my soldiers die and my flower aswell. A Polish dude shows up and tells me I should move my settlement to his. "Can I bring my computer?" I ask him. "No haha!" he tells me and moves his hands in a bumpy fashion. "Oh the road is too bumpy for it" I think and feel sad. I just bought it. He tells me he wants XP discs and I ask him what for. My friend G tells me he's got one that he can use for all of them. "How many computers do you have?" he asks the guy. "Seventeen laptops" he replies. "Where did you get all those laptops from?" I ask suspicious. If I leave my computer here, he will definitely be back and steal it.

09.30: Fragment
*I'm playing Xbox360 with my brother Morgan. All my relatives are there and they tell me to watch out for the scariest game ever. I pick it up and try to pronounce it. "Incrueliable" I say several times. The cover looks just like "Alan Wake"

09.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 12 hours

Supplements: 2 x Omega-3, 250 ml applejuice

That's it! Awesome. Stable and cool lucid, I like it. Had tons of random fragments but I decided to write those down I remembered most of. Oversleeping is always fun.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I was at my friend Richard's house, however I was here for my other friends Katherine and Sarah's party. I had been drinking a lot - I brought a large bottle of vodka which remained lieing on the carpet, empty. It was about 3am and the party was still going on. Obviously, it was pitch black outside. The people I were with were my usual friend group: Katherine, Sarah, Tom.R, Will.N, Hannah.L, Chloe. R, Charlotte. C, Charlie. G Ashley.H, Josie. B and some others. Many people were wanting to do weed and get high. Charlie started encouraging people. I had a chat with Katherine, who had her hair down instead of tied up. She told me that she kept telling herself not to have weed again after 2 years ago, but she gave in and was going to try it. They were all smoking it outside. I went outside with them to remain as one of the 'partiers', however I refused to try the drug. Whilst I was outside, I began to get very paranoid of the Police. Most people had left outside, and I was stood outside with one other person. The police kept driving down the road, and I was convinced one of them would stop and investigate us. However, none did. Eventually, I went back indoors, and I remembered that I was still drunk and I just chilled out again. I walked into the living room, making a strange screamy whiney sound, making Will, Tom and some others laugh. I then stood around a chair and asked people what I should be doing. Some suggested I should start playing the guitar, as last time when doing that I sang a lot. I ended up doing this, picking up and jamming. However, instead of singing and playing, I simply picking it up and started to play Drop D tuned bottleneck blues. No one payed much attention. Katherine soon showed me an iPod Touch, or something similar to that, and navigated to a webste where you could buy sweets there and then, much like the Drug Shop on my past dream journal. She had ordered a LOT of drumsticks (the lolly pops), and asked if I wanted to order one for myself. I did, despite having the knowledge that I bought her drumsticks for her birthday.

Suddenly, in the same dream, I was outside my friend Chris. W's driveway, and I was Napoleon Dynamite. I was stood next to either Uncle Rico or Kip, but I can't remember who. We were doing some form of freelance job, like they searched for on the movie. This suddenly cut out, and I was myself again, walking down my road with a friend, who I cannot remember. I think it might have been Richard. It was pitch black still, and reasonably cold. The road were lit up by regular orange street lamps. We continued to walk until, when walking past the old sweet shop and approaching Latham. C's road, we saw a strange figure about 2 minutes walk away. We were nervous to approach him, but at the same time were mocking him quietly, pretending we weren't scared. When we finally approached him, we jumped on him, and suddenly realized it was our friend Jamie. Br. We told him how scared we had been, and he told us that there was no need to be scared, and he wasn't a paedophile. He continued to walk further on, and so did we.

I was at my old school, just sitting in a classroom with KA. KA was wearing her white jacket. Apparently she had been smoking. Mr. B. came into the room and smelled it off of her. We were scared that he would rat her out, but he just told her quietly to make sure she got rid of the smell.

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I was at RU Rd. and BL. St. I was just walking and this creepy guy started following me. Don't remember much else.

My Notes
Non-lucid
Lucid
Awake

I'm writing this a day late (sorry), so I don't really remember what happened with my alarm.

I'm in a room (or possibly outdoors at night) with all the other students from my school. We're each at individual desks. All the desks are transparent and have a blue glow to them. There is a short middle-aged teacher in the centre. She is telling us how things have changed since last year, and lucid dreaming is now okay. She encourages us to get into it. She tells us how to become lucid. To become lucid we had to take out our rulers from our pencil cases, and tap the pencil case over and over. I do this. I notice some people around me already have given up.
I can't believe this didn't make me lucid.

In the second dream, I'm at an orphan's house. Stephen Merchant is with me. I remember the orphan as a 7-10 year old African kid. I look into the cupboard and find depressingly bad toys -old second-hand board games.

In the third dream, I was at some big oval. There were buildings and people everywhere. I was at a vending machine.There was a kid, from my after school care program (many years ago), named Mitch there. I think he stole something. I buy something from the machine, but then I also steal something. I think that nobody's going to ever find out. The machine doesn't even have a glass screen on it

I am camping with my boyfriend and some friends from my rehab center. For some reason I just know that we are with a camping group that was organized by Camp Trillium (a sick kids camp that I attended growing up). My friends from rehab start lighting up their cigarettes. I point out the irony of smoking cigarettes at cancer camp (my nickname for Camp Trillium).

People decide to go for a swim. The setting of our camp site is at the top of a ridge overlooking a beautiful river. They have to go down a few sets of ladder to get down to different levels of the steep ridge to the water. At this point in the dream I decide to take a nap outside me and my bf’s tent. I feel like I’m half asleep and I get very anxious like I am anticipating that something bad will happen. I feel like I need to pack up so I take down the tent.

Next thing I know there is a tsunami. There are several large waves hitting the cliff side and the water level is getting higher and closer to us. My bf says we have to go. I try to finish packing the tent because I think we will need it for some reason. I look around and everyone else has already fled and I fear that they may have driven off without us.

I think I woke up briefly and fell back asleep into the same dream.

Now I am swimming in the river. I see large waves coming as the tsunami starts. I try to ride the waves and continue to try and swim towards the middle of the river. I am afraid that if I get pushed to the side I will get stuck between the waves and the cliff and I will drown. I keep kicking my feet and I now am holding on to a floating board (like I used to do in swimming lessons).

I think I woke up briefly and fell back asleep into the same dream.

Now I am back at the beginning of the dream. I find out that the ‘Betty’ that I met in rehab is the same ‘Betty’ that my bf bonded with while he was in a mental health rehabilitation program at a local hospital. She is not how I would have expected her to be. I can’t help but fell a little bit of jealousy because I know that he had a crush on her while he was in the program (before we met) and also because I know they share a special bond from having gone through this program together.

I accidentally grab my bf’s camera instead of my own. I want to take a picture of a bunch of colorful caterpillars so I take the camera anyways so that I don’t miss the shot. A beautiful yellow butterfly flies by and I photograph it. I also take a picture of a white butterfly on a picnic table and of a gorgeous orange flower. Now I decide to go for a swim. I let myself fall backwards into the water. The water level is now much higher than it was originally. There is no longer a cliff; our camping ground is right on the water. I realize that I have my bf’s camera in my pocket. I freak out and get out of the water. I run to our yellow tent and start taking apart the camera and drying all the pieces. The camera now looks like his blackberry phone. It seems to still work. I keep drying the phone and I think I gained a very small moment of lucidity when I realize that the camera is now a phone.

I wake up.

Although it was just a very short moment of lucidity I am quite happy. It has been a long time since I have achieved any lucidity at all. I think it’s a start

I've come up with a new reality check for myself. Since I often crack my knuckles out of habit, whenever I do it now I count the number of knuckles I crack and do a reality check.

I had a conversation with a girl about doing mushrooms before going to bed last night.

This reflected very much in my dreams when my group of friends who are usually straightedge (myself, not so much), came up with a whole bunch of shrooms and wanted to do them with me. I should have recognized this as a dream sign. Having never tried a psychedelic, I had no idea what it would be like. However I remember everything turning fuzzy and things changing in very slight ways. I remember focusing on a shoe and seeing it open up as if it was talking to me. I try to finish my studying (i had been studying a lot that night) but fail to get anything done.

I have a false awakening and my friend begins to talk to me about increasing the increments of shrooms that we take. I find this funny because he's never even drank a beer before this point.

Later on I have another dream about running around a school building trying to find a bathroom. I find this very challenging because all the bathrooms are completely disgusting. I think I've found a good toilet and then I realize there's blood all over the seat. I look at the one across from it, it has a little green stuff on it, but I wipe it off and use it. I remember parts of this building from other dreams I believe. I wake up.

Today when I took a nap, I had a few dreams, one of which I remember:

I was back at my high school in the science building walking with a current friend from college. When I looked down the stairs I saw my whole college lacrosse team sitting at these lunchroom-looking tables studying. My coach was there too, and every 5 minutes he would send a group of us to go outside and run. When it was my turn, I followed the group and found myself trying to complete this obstacle course from hell.. I had to run through this monster truck track, walk on the tip top of a white picket fence, and swim laps in a pool that seemed to just appear from nowhere. The dream ended with me exhausted and confused as to why my coach would make me and my teammates do such an awful thing...at my high school of all place. He is a little evil in real life anyways, so I guess it made sense.

I was DJing in a club, playing Minimal Techno music with my friend and fellow DJ Bryn. It was pitch black, and there were lasers everywhere. The angle that I was looking at was very odd - it was as if someone had dropped a camera next to my equipment, and it happened to be in view of my hands twisting the knobs. I was 'Producing' the music whilst Bryn was 'Sending' the music. Apparently, this meant Bryn was creating the beats and synths, whilst I was adding effects, and what not.

I was playing the first Super Mario Galaxy game on the Nintendo Wii. I was playing it with a girl, however I have no idea who she was. I think she was a stranger. We were on a very simple, basic spherical planet, and she was showing me an 'easter egg' secret to the game. She did something which resulted in a purple ring being created around Mario, which allowed the player to play all other levels in a different mode. Much like my Minecraft dream, my dream was the monitor, therefore I didn't see myself actually playing the game.

Accidentally peed myself though not through being desperate to go to the toilet. In shame I went arround a town which was made up of chalet like woodrn huts lookind for a public loo and shower I could use. Came accross a young woman leaning occross her fence, she said shr'd just moved in, then braught out a very old and dusty bottle of Whiskey to share as a house warming. Had a glass each, then she burried the half full bottle in the sand. Made my way to another chalet/house, in the kitchen Diner, my parents were sat at the table with two other people, it was a very tight squeeze to move my way behing them to the hallway which was equally small, as I was passing them, I was aware of them saying that this had been my house and critisising me for choosing something so small.

12.02.2011

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A friend of my youngest brother had come to my home and he had magic the gathering cards. He had a lot of them but they were joke cards, like from unhinged. I started playing against it and realised that he had a deck with normal cards mixed with joke cards. I got some red Chuck Norris related card and told him I won the game but he didn't believe me so I started googling for Chuck Norris cards but couldn't find it.

Then I think I bought some cards and hid them.

The dream skipped and I was out with some friends and I ate a sandwich at a restaurant. I saw some magic cards on a vending machine. Behind the newer ones were one from another set and I somehow stole some. I then gave some back but not all of them.

*~*

So I was at a large concert like gathering with my now girlfriend and another girl whom my brain perceived as her ex though I've never actually seen her before. I guess just how my mind imagined her to be. There was a group of people on stage and while they weren't singing they were talking to the crowd and getting us all excited. They were asking people random questions and just doing random things to engage everybody and often times they would single out audience members for one reason or another. I didn't think much of it at the time, but my girlfriend and her ex were sitting rather close to each other while I was at least three people away from both of them (significance maybe?), yet I didn't feel immediately jealous or left out in anyway.

Normally I'm a very shy person in large crowds and I mostly tried to keep to myself only interacting with the rest of the crowd when the performers singled me out for something. Yet as the night went on I became more and more open until I was shouting things out of turn. At one point they threw a large deflated thing that looked like a mini hot air balloon into the crowd. They tossed me something to blow it up with and rather then feeling anxious and nervous at being on the spot I was actually excited. I started to blow it up, but the thing slipped away from me and went zooming into the crowd. Rather then being embarrassed I made a witty remark about it and got the entire crowd laughing. I remember being so proud that I was breaking out of my shell and I turned to look at my girlfriend who was busy talking to her ex and the two of them were laughing. She had missed the entire thing and was completely ignoring me. This was the first point in the dream that I started to feel jealous. I closed the gap and tried to talk to her, but her and her ex just ignored me like I wasn't even there and continued their own conversation as they watched the group perform. I woke up feeling angry that she had completely ignored all the wonderful social progress I had made in favor of goofing around with her ex.

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I was walking around then I ran into this Asian dude decked out in an all blue track suit with crazy red hair, listening to green day on some large headphones, I believe I mentioned how the only green day I dig is their older stuff.

Feb5- Played an intense scary game with alex pisano running through , a scary building that seemed run down and affected by the environment
FA: killed a spider above my bed by clapping in slow motion.