non-lucid

20 Jan

I find myself on the street with a decent amount of awareness. Hey, finally, I note to myself, I am actually asleep and lucid. I cautiously examine the trash cans and trees in front of me. I know there is no time to lose and I have to get the 3 step tasks going. Step one is telekinesis. I look around for a movable object. There a tire hanging from one tree but it as I try to TK it, it gets larger and larger and actually is now part of a construction and totally unmovable. Okay, let's try something else. I spot couple of leaves on the street which easily move but I am not convinced as it could be the wind. Finally, there's a ball that I tk around for a while.

It's a bright sunny day and am in the middle of a small park. I recall I had another brief ld earlier in the night. It's time to get started on the next step of the 3 step task - use a device. Couple of DC boys hold what looks like a mobile, but I find it easier to use mine. I put my hand into my pocket trying to get the phone out. As I do this, I feel my physical eyes move excessively, which make the dream collapse. I believe I am back to my bed and give up (actually it's just the void with only tactile sensations).

I have a short FA near a cool pool on a very sunny day and the music is playing "bai zi hua bai zi hua", one of my other goals. I walk around non-lucidly though and soon wake up.

19 Jan

As me and this guy are leaving, he constantly worries about there being sharks in the ocean. I try to calm him down, looking for logical explanation why there may not be as many sharks as he expects. We have to slide down a platform to exit the building, however, it is covered with blood and also quite slippery. I take forever to get down without falling.

We are close to the exit, ocean shore nearby, as I can see that the sharks we were trying to avoid are actually dragons. I quite clearly see a number of dragons in the surrounding wood areas and know we have to stay as far away as possible. We choose a rather painful way to do so, hiding and moving in a part of the shelf which stretches to accommodate us. I inspect the shore for dragons but see special trees (3 of them) instead (with faces and talking, like in lord of the rings). I carefully approach one, expressing my admiration, he speaks and says he likes me too. I ask for guidance for our group and he recommends us to go speak to Captain Morgan, who is a nearby pirate woman . I try to catch her attention and ask her to help us on our mission, though I am not so sure what we were supposed to accomplish.

There were 2 consumer-level snow machines running at a Washington mountain lodge. After coating a picnic table with a half-inch of snow, 2 guys had to clean it up. The second machine sprayed water in the air and made large snowflakes in bursts. At one point, the weather was clear, but then was cloudy minutes later. I don’t remember anything beyond that.

I'm inside a classroom like place with my former classmates. It looks like we're having fun. Now I'm sitted on chair. This girl I know started twerking at me. She's getting closer and closer. Well I got with the flow and I think I grabbed her ass. I felt every piece of her as she did her thing. She stopped and she mentioned something.
My classmates agreed to that.



I'm inside a mall and I think I just exited a restaurant. I got with Ian outside or someone like him. He's hair was different, like that of Rence's. Anyway, I'm with Ian and I apologized to him if I'm disturbing him to the point of not being able to do what he has to do. He did n't say anything. I'm thinking off pointing Gel to him since she's just near the table. Gel's sitting on a table and talking to someone. I'm seeing her back only. We're walking and we started our conversation. I got to talk to him about what he read. It turns out he read books in a language he can speak in his original province. I'm a fan skiing him about it and he replied that he uses another language or dialect different from his province. While that was happening, I'm seeing the hallway of a CR. It's a yellow light and I'm seeing a person walk through it. It maybe someone I know. He's head hurts now. He'a holding his head down. We're still able to walk. We're now a bit far and on our left is our classmates on the elevator. They greeted us. I think the person I'm with changed to D. He's head hurts a lot more than it had before. Now he's holding his head down and feeling the pain. Another person goes to his side and it's Ryl. Based on his face he might be joking. He's mentioning how his head also hurts.

In a large dojo style tent with white canvas. There is quite a lot of space about the size of a restaurant
The kids are getting out of hand, although they seem very young and I am training them with some exercise video. I realise the video is on fast speed at the exercises are a little to hard ^^
Someone suggests they do some reading, but I will have nothing of it, lol

There's this man who's gotten himself into some trouble, and I've offered my help in solving that problem. Alternatively, I've told him to speak with a woman who works for me, and she'll help him disappear for a while. When he doesn't come to meet me, I check in with that woman, still in the alley where I'd told the man to meet her, behind the building where she works as a maid, still in her uniform. She tells me the man didn't show. She looks worried. I'm annoyed. I think the man's making a poor decision.

It reminds me of another time. I see a building on top of a lake, a massive black arch. I'd made a deal with a woman that had led to the creation of this structure. She sees it as an architectural wonder and a symbol of her power, influence, capability, something along those lines; I see it as something impermanent. Like Ozymandias. I think of it as foolish. And I thought she would have realized that now that her deal's played out; I'd expected she'd want to make a new deal, to change course, I was looking forward to it. But when she does come to me for something else, it just compounds her original mistake. I'm disgusted but give her what she asks for.

I am looking into a special monitor that tracks people via a hidden camera as they enter and exit a room. As I look into the monitor I suddenly see a couple of Mexican girls enter a hospital room from a camera underneath a bed. As I continue to watch the girls, they begin to morph into my own children. Fade recall.

I am given a gift of a solid 24 ounce gold bar by a black man who resembles the Rev. Jesse Jackson. He tells me that in time I can use the gold bar to insert myself into a FPS video game as the hero-shooter, but, as he says, "You'll have to work up to it." With the bar in my hand, I walk out on a balcony to see my children using it (the gold bar teleported from my hand to theirs) for a carnival game. They fasten it to the "Hit the Bell with the Hammer" game, as the metal piece that slides up to bang the bell when they hit the pad with the hammer. Fade recall.

I am observing a lady sitting by a lake who wants to be alone with a book. A friend soon joins her, and they both walk out on the frozen lake and sit on the ice. I decide to join them. I've brought a ball with me. I kick it hard and it sails far away. The lady with the book gets up to retrieve the ball. Fade recall.

Dreamt 1/06/2017

I find myself in a kind of mall or establishment place. I'm seeing Tyler Durden on his usual face and quoted one of his lines on his movies "You are not your job." I thought a while ago that this mindset is very good since I was thinking of ways to rationalize the circumstance I have which is I can't currently get all the material things I want.

Aliens

It was a warm afternoon. I was wandering some mixed forest (mostly deciduous, with some coniferous additions). I followed a path until I reached my house and went towards father's carpenty workshop. I entered it and saw my younger sister. Then we heard a radio alert about aliens landing. I grabbed her arm and wanted to run to the house, but apparently she had broken leg for some reason and we couldn't do it as quickly. Somehow I knew that she was the key to this whole aliens problem, as we left the workshop several government agents left other buildings of my backyard and chased us. We managed to escape to our house, but nobody was there. Everyone either escaped or put resistance to aliens. I wanted to barricade inside the house and wanted my sister to stay with me, but she escaped to some swamp. After a while I decided to join the resistance, finding my sister first. As I approached the exit, my family was back, bringing sister with them.

Suddenly I woke up in my bed, in the middle of some meadow. There were two other beds, one was empty and my younger sister was on the other one. The meadow was surrounded by really scarce, young forest. There was some lake and ancient ruins nearby. Suddenly we saw a bright, shining orb floating on the sky. These were the aliens. With sister we searched for some weapons and started fighting with it. I caught the orb and punched it several times, but it still wasn't enough. Then I found a laser under one of pillows and started shooting the orb, but it still wasn't enoug to win.

Morning of January 20, 2017. Friday.



I am in kind of a groggy state within the dream state though I am clearly aware that I am in our bed, though my head is in the opposite direction as to how we sleep in reality. I am on my left side facing south. Near my head is what I perceive to be some sort of writings relating possibly to educational tasks and scholastic writing.

Near the center of our bed, where I see our mattress has no sheet over it, are a couple toy earth movers. It seems they may actually be down in the mattress a little bit (possibly due to a tear in the mattress material) but the toys do not move on their own at any point. I do not move much and I am aware that Zsuzsanna is standing near our bed.

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Astoundingly, this very basic dream sign inclusive of a dreaming metaphor (directly and redundantly symbolic of exploring the unconscious or sorting through memories while asleep) has never happened in this particular way to my knowledge. The journal and writing is probably more so related to my dream journal.

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Cant sleep. Slept from 10pm - 2:20 am. Tossed and turned after I checked out the forum for a bit. Then I figured I could WILD, but wasn't sleepy. Saw a beautiful meteorite though. Got up and here I am.

DR
I'm at the train station with others. Have something to do in official capacity. Not sure what, something about papers and waiting for a train.

I do an IQ test. Then I am told to do another!!

Hitman:Sniper
I have a first-person, top-down perspective of playing Hitman:Sniper in Zombie mode. I'm playing Expert, hoping to get more achievements. I find a trick that makes the zombies mill around instead of heading straight for Ben and use it to build up a huge crowd, then fire an explosive round at them. Unfortunately, my aim is terrible: I hit right at the edge of the crowd, so half the shot is wasted and only a few zombies go down. Now I'm protecting a second point and try the same trick, but again I only take down a small handful instead of the large crowd.

Now I'm standing at ground level preparing to defend a third spot. I get in an argument with an obstructionist sheriff, but I don't back down and eventually he gives in. A friend congratulates me on how well I handled him. I happen to look down at the ground and realize I'm just a few inches away from standing in a large ant hill and hurriedly move away, checking my leg to make sure that none of them got on me.

Now I'm back to a top-down perspective, looking down at the hallways in a school. Zombies are packed close together, trudging through the hallways, but my explosive shot hasn't recharged yet and I'm almost out of time. I decide to use an attractive shot to cause a traffic jam and prevent them from continuing forward, but it doesn't work right. Now they're spilling out from the hallway into a large garage and then outside. I finally manage to get the shot off, but only as the last few stragglers are exiting the garage. I can't believe what an opportunity I wasted. This should have been amazing, but instead it ended up being an incredible disappointment.

Now I'm walking around a house on some amazingly green grass. I know that my poor performance means I'm going to lose my wife and daughter; I curl up on steps leading up to a tree house and start to cry bitterly, waking myself up.


New game
I'm helping my wife order a puzzle game for the kids - something about "contraptions." Now I'm inside the game, walking along a corridor. I'm in some kind of tutorial area, and pictographs on the walls are trying to show me how to finish setup and run the initial benchmarks. I "click" the first one and get shown more detailed information, but I can't figure out how close it, since my mouse only has a single giant button. I realize the "button" is actually a cover and remove it, revealing the standard buttons. Now I'm talking with someone about how they're using early access and what the system requirements are. Now I'm watching a woman talking with a man. He captures her, but she manages to escape.


Fragments:
I'm watching a video describing the top disgusting animal encounters actors have had to put up with when making movies.

I'm getting changed to go swimming. Now I'm in the pool. The water is lower at one end than at the other; it's flat at both ends and slopes in the middle connecting the levels.

My wife is trying to get an electric company coupon for a friend for his birthday which should save him around $100. I'm amazed - how can someone use so much power that he needs to shave $100 off of his bill?

I don't know who that girl was but I haven't felt so comfortable and motivated during sex before.

Funny, she exists somewhere in my memory, wonder who she is.

I am flying in an airplane, way up above South Florida, and I can see the coastline of the Atlantic Ocean below me. The terrain lines keep changing every time I look out the window. Almost as if the land beneath me is alive and morphing and moving like some kind of wide, flat monster. I decide to land the plane and investigate. When I get out of the plane, I am joined by a minister of a Pentecostal church. As we both look down at the dream representation of the Florida coastline, the minister proceeds in "straightening out" and manipulating the terrain, as though the shape of the coastline were liquid or made of hair. He uses a knife to cut off and trim unneeded portions of the coastline. The unneeded portions are then swept away, like hair clippings on the floor of a barbershop. At this point, my recall fades but I do remember Cake's rendition of Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive" playing in my subconscious (and I awaken with this tune playing in my dream ears).

Now, I am with my wife and our two nieces. We are wading in the water inside a little roped-off section of a canal near the pier. It seems we are waiting for someone, and as we wait, we swim. My nieces in the dream are young -- toddler size. IRL they are both in their mid-twenties, but this is how they looked back when they were babies. One of them -- the youngest -- has a floatie and she is kicking around in the water like a duck. My subconscious measures the depth of the water to be 10 ft. My other niece suddenly transforms back to her mature body and goes underwater. My vision underwater is clear and exact. Observing her, I sense she is in danger, and I come to her rescue. I bring her to the side of the pier. As she turns her back to me and lifts herself out of the water, I marvel at her body and think of how she's become sexually active and has already had children. I ruminate this as I think of her younger sister in a floatie beside her, who is still the symbol of innocence. It is a bittersweet, sentimental feeling.

The place where we are swimming is divided into sections designated by color. We are in the "blue" section. This "blue" water area somehow corresponds with the airplane trip and terrain manipulation I dreamt about earlier. The surrounding climate is sub-tropical. I look down and see a mapped coastline similar to the one the Pentecostal minister had manipulated earlier with a knife. Only this one was color-coded. I see different "blue" and "red" designated areas, and I find our "blue" swimming area on it.

I teleport to another section of Florida, this time back to my old childhood home (a dream sign). A pregnant girl is there with me, and we are waiting for someone. With us are three other guys. They are sitting at a table between my old bedroom and the laundry room. I am restless, walking back and forth, to the laundry room, back to my bedroom, back to the laundry room and around the table, over and over again. I tell everyone that while we wait, I'll start drinking. In the dream, I drink beer. Two of the guys at the table are hugging each other, and the other one is now standing behind them. They are friends with the pregnant girl, and although the girl is familiar to me, I do not know who the guys are. Dreamt 1/06/2017