non-lucid

Morning of October 2, 2016. Sunday.



I am in our front yard at our present address in late morning. Three of my fictitious sons and one real one (the youngest; Oliver) are present. They are in a group facing each other. There are also a few unknown children, both male and female, closer to the curb. No one is perceived as mischievous.

I absentmindedly tell a fictitious son, “I told you not to stand around at the front of our house”.

Immediately after this, I am facing a young girl and it is implied that she thought I had said this to her. The sudden location shift, as if I had unwillingly rapidly turned counterclockwise as my fictitious son only moved slightly to my right so that I now suddenly faced the girl, does not strike me as impossible or trigger any realization that it could only be a dream.

I inform her that I was not talking to her but was saying this to my son in the hopes of not offending her. I am not sure why I am making an implied apology to the preconscious avatar, but this situation seems a bit backwards, as it would make more sense to tell strangers not to hang around at the front of our house rather than our own children (whether they are only a dream state denizen or not).

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This dream is not symbolic of, or literally relevant to, any recent real-life event and I would certainly not talk to any of our children this way in real life. It is typical waking transition autosymbolism that often involves the preconscious avatar (the unknown girl in this case) initiating a return-to-consciousness trigger, in this case, because I had been asleep on my right side (which I consider unhealthy, as it results in lighter and less restful sleep). In this case, it is a precursor to rolling over in bed (counterclockwise as in my dream), in the direction Zsuzsanna is sleeping (on my left).

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Another night dreaming about the sea! (last week it was cats)

1) I think I was on holiday. I was in a queue, in my car to start with, then on foot, in a seaside town, queuing to get to the sea to go surfing. there were some children behind me, as we reached the sea they pushed past me in the queue, but I let it go. I could see the sea in the distance.
The sea then became a small indoor pool. It had just opened and we all walked inside. It was actaully mostly a hard indoor surface with a small pool in the corner. Lots of people were finding a spot to settle down. I looked for somewhere to put my towel but it was all wet. I started talking to another man asking where I could go without sitting in a wet area. He atrted explainig to me about the activities on offer and that the surfing was a disaster because the pool was so small and the water was flowing so slowly, so they wouldn't be doing it again today.

2) Sitting at a table talking to a young man opposite me. One of my old doctor partner was sitting next to me. We were tlaking about smoking roll ups and about what the best tobacco is. I don't smoke. I watched as the doctor next to me rolled up a cigarette as well and I rememberd seeing her smoke once before and I commented on that.
Then I was walking around somewhere and someone was commenting that I acted as if I am married (I am) but in the dream I was just in a relationship. I was calling my girlfriend 'the wife' and started thinking how I was acting as if I was married.
Then I was in a room with a glass wall watching a woman talking to my children. They were standing by a pond and going to harvest some of the weeds in the pond. They had laid down a floating path on the pond.

WHY AM I DREAMING ABOUT WATER AND THE SEA SO MUCH??

Lucid
Side note
Non-lucid

Pretty cool lucid, can't remember all of it though.




I gained spontaneously lucidity. It was a very bright day and I was on a trampoline. My sister was talking to me. She kept annoying me so I created a laser from my finger and shined it in her eyes. It acted more like a red-dot laser and a small flashlight simultaneously. I made a cranking motion with my other hand and it became brighter. She left me alone after that. My lucidity levels dropped and suddenly it snowed really hard making several feet of snow.

I kept trying to create a tool to melt the snow but it didn't work. I walked into my house but it was super dark even though it had windows. This was a past dream sign of mine, and every time it turned out really bad so I walked outside again. I tried “grabbing” it from the corner but expectation just wasn't helping. I decided to run right through the wall of snow and felt the sting of the cold on my face. It significantly raised my lucidity so I tried to summon the tool again. I first started by creating a pen out of thin air. I managed to actually create it inside my vision giving me confidence of my dream control. Then I imagined the pen turning into a tool.

The snow levitated from the ground and then digitized around the staff forming new parts of it slowly. In the end I was left with this weird red stick with a small black figure of an elephant. I used it to melt the snow and create new snow. My sister seemed vaguely impressed in the background. It had tons of buttons all over it so I pressed one randomly and it created a bunch of bees.

I panicked and pressed a “world reset” button. It brought the world back to the way it was before I had changed it so I dived into the snow again. Afterwards I slowly lost lucidity until I had almost none at all. The dream changed into a portal-like game I was trying to solve with an underworld theme. After doing that for about three minutes I spontaneously forced myself to wake up, so that I wouldn't forget this lucid.

I was living as a part of family that was meager in means & was constantly trying to find ways to pay the bills in some shady ways & some resourceful ways. This dream reminded me a tamer version of the tv show Shameless (American Edition). I was the mother. Lots of kids! It started at a school where one of my kids were being bullied & his sister was w/ him. It got chaotic & fast paced so I can't include all of the details or it will just be monotonous because this was a really long dream. One of the kids informed me at this point that their father went to jail but I didn't ever find out why. We then were plunged into the dark in our house. I didn't panic. I sat the kids down & had a heart to heart about us having to come up w/ ways to get our lights back on. We all were laughing at the craziness of the situation & different ideas that we had to pay our electric bill. In the end the lights came back on & we were all laughing yet again.

It was a feel good dream. Lots of fun for a change. I woke up again today w/ a runny nose. I hate allergies. I'll be glad when I make it through the seasonal change & can breathe a little better. It mostly just bothers me in the morning & right before I go to sleep. Unfortunately it affects my dreams sometimes. I live in an old house so it makes my allergies 10 times worse.

I'll start this post with a few dream fragments from past week...or two:

-I saw a huge fiery space rock falling down, lighting up the evening sky. My vision jumped to space. I saw the fireball fly around the planet twice, then it escaped Earth's gravity and disappeared.

-Thanos and Avengers were fighting on a distant planet over the green infinity stone. Thanos got the stone. My vision jumped to space. I saw a black and gray planet, like it was made of metal. It had a small moon as well. The planet and it's moon teleported, as Thanos used the stone.

- I ran into a tall woman in some sort of barn or whatever. Somehow I knew she was a monster, like I had met her before. "I know what you are." I told her. Her expression changed. I shouldn't have said anything. I tried to run past her as she was transforming. Her legs and arms grew longer and she grabbed me with one hand. She lifted me up against the wall as her pretty human face turned into a disgusting maw. Then she screamed. It was the loudest freaking screech. It was painful to hear it.

Dreams from today

Exploring another alien planet

I was on an alien planet, in a massive city with humans, inside a research facility. I was hungry, and found vending machine with something resembling pink and white pudding. I wondered if it was safe to eat. I tried to read the ingredients from the side. First of all, the ingredients were in an alien language. I couldn't read it. I kept looking at the cup as I walked through the empty corridors. I found a lab with three researchers growing bacteria. Two of them was my age, one of them was a girl. The oldest guy was leading the study and clearly busy. As he ran around the room, I still tried to read my pudding cup. There was a part that was in Finnish now, but all the ingredients were alien to me. I don't know what I was expecting. The female researcher told me it was safe to eat. She had straight black hair.

I left the research facility with the girl. A wide street was full of people. We walked past a Quidditch arena. The city was clean and futuristic. I tried to talk with the girl. I asked her name, but she didn't give it at first. After asking a couple of times, she turned towards me and told me her name, but all sounds were muffled as she told it. I couldn't hear it.

Somehow we end up in water. We are going to her friends house that's in some water filled cave apparently. As we dive, this extremely strong current carries us into complete darkness. I HATE it. I summon a glow stick or something, but it barely provides any light. I see small glimmers of light as the group of people I dived with pass by me. There are some ruins in the cave that we are surging through incredibly fast. I spot these structures when I get really close. I'm spinning out of control as the current keeps carrying me.

We end up in a large air pocket in the cave. There are houses built above the water and it's still very dark. I crawl out of the water, onto a wooden walkway in front of the houses. The group is exploring the place. I hear growling. There is a monster dog here. One guy from the group know the dog and I get the idea that the dog is friendly. I summon a flashlight so I can see the dog. Very alien looking dog, but seems chill around the other guys. Tentacles reach forward from my flashlight and scratch the dog. He seems to enjoy it. Dream ends.

Mice Village

I was in a snow covered farm-like area. There was a large group of people behind me, some I recognized as old schoolmates. The place doesn't look even remotely familiar. The winding path leads to a pond that's partly frozen. I see a cat on the other side of the pond. I jump towards the cat. I make it over easily. I look back and signal one of my friends to jump there. The pond looks a lot larger from this side, no human can make that jump.

I continue forward. The outdoor area starts changing into a building progressively. Wooden crates, large shelves, floor panels...and suddenly there's walls and a ceiling, I'm inside a building. The group follows. Among the crates we find tiny houses. Then we see mice. We are all suddenly tiny, mouse-sized. It becomes a bit hazy, but we climb the shelves and meet with some talking mice. We don't trust them. We arm ourselves with weapons found in the area: tiny golden sawed-off shotguns and stuff like that. The shelves are separating two rooms, behind them is a human-sized toilet and a lionman in sitting on it, reading a book or a magazine.

I wander off as a disembodied observer and find Cartman. Then I find the rest of the South Park crew and the creators Matt and Trey. Matt and Trey acknowledge that they are inside the world they created and that it's weird.

I'm standing on a dirt path at the edge of a forest. Everything is kind of dead and in shades of grey and brown. I feel like there's a huge house near us. It's important but I don't really see it. I'm half hugging a tree trunk, watching Jungkook and Jimin practice a few dance moves from Save Me. They're doing the moves while walking to a crossroad not far ahead. They know I'm there watching them. They get back into position, ready to start again. They start moving and I step away from the tree, smiling brightly, and follow alongside them. While dancing they both smile back at me. They stop and we all stand in the middle of the crossroad. A girl appears, an old friend that's a mixture of Krystal and Jazmin. And then a mini van pulls up right in front of us. The girl and I get in, me in the back and her more in the front. Rapmon is driving. Jimin is in the van too and I think Jungkook is still there but I don't see him. The car starts moving and we are suddenly about to get onto a freeway. I say to no one in particular that I don't like vans. Everyone hears me and Rapmon tries to reassure me by saying we're safe. Then I try to explain that when I was younger something happened with a van and I'm traumatized.

I recall a fragment. It was afternnon, I was standing in front of a canyon with rope joining edge with a rock pillar with some house on top of it.

I am talking to my cousin and telling her that I am surprise she and my brother are living with me. My brother tells me goodnight and I say night back to him. My cousin demands me to close the door for her, so I decided to just do it and I remember the door being odd to me. Infact the entire place seemed different to me, it look like a japanese traditional place than the actual homes I am familiar with. But I didn't put much thought about it. As continue walking down the hallway while thinking that was rude. I get interrupted by seeing the entire environment change infront my eyes.

I am now inside a car on the backseat and for some reason I couldn't move. There is a man in one of the front seats with a dark grey beanie turnbing his head to look directly at me. I kept trying to move but this weird sensation kept coming over me that felt like it was preventing me from moving. I was lucid at this point but could not do anything. Eventually I just lost awareness due to not focusing.

Guess I should get back to posting here more often. Anyway, I got quite a number of dreams to note, including two DILDs, one non-LD, and two fragments. I'm pretty sure the full non-LD was at least two dreams, but I never detected any awakenings from them. Depending on how specific the criteria is, I might have also accomplished a TOTM task. Furthermore, I'll paraphrase the non-LD to save space.

Scrap Group 1
Playing Duelyst, switching between Vetruvian and Vanar. I accrued consecutive losses, mostly due to my opponents having a plethora of high value gold cards. I complain about the "pay2win" model of trading card games to Marcus.

Dream 1 - Tournament, Wilderness, Shoes, and Work

Scene 1 - Are Pocket TV's Still a Thing?
Game tournament in an assembly room. TV's on tables by the walls. Many people. My brother, Marcus is there. Encounter an old gaming bud, Mordecai, who'd a ridiculously tall blowout hairstyle. He almost cried for losing a money match. Some guy is watching a pocket TV, laughing. Shows me footage taking place on a dirt road overlooking a forest clearing at daytime. Colorful chicken and short, squat black cattle are there. An angry bull tackled a large rock, which rolled down and squashed one of the birds. Transition.

Scene 2 - Wild Herds
At the clearing described above in the afternoon. Cattle there, along with many people and my brother. Reach a lake past some thickets, then went to a beach briefly. Walking back uphill. An agitated bull tackles some guy. It kicks and headbutts dirt. I try crawling away. Marcus alerted me to a herd of wild elephants that suddenly appeared. Some almost stepped on me. I scurry to the lake unscathed. Blacking out. Felt waves crashing on me. Worried I went too far. Transition.

Scene 3 - I Knew Those Weren't My Shoes...
At home, going upstairs. Both Marcus and I are surprised I made it out of the previous conflict alive alive. See it's dawn out my bedroom window. Figured we didn't sleep. Female calls from below. Unknown woman with auburn hair and dressed in a dark blue uniform. Supposedly Marcus' girlfriend or wife. She's angry he stayed out and makes demands of him. In bedroom. Two pairs of shoes in doorway. One seemed as a pair of Converses I own, but they were black, too big, and had their soles intact. Very confused. Uncertain transition.

Scene 4 - No Admin Privileges
Back at my old job in the gas station. Different arrangements. Counters in the center formed as a circle. Newer computers, but antiquated Windows 98 software. Old boss, Michael, set up a profile for me. Unwittingly set me as an admin. I try correcting this, but have trouble. Another co-worker, Johanna, tried helping, but gives up quickly. Noticed a few odd names. One was "Amuth-", a cut off misspelling of "Amethyst", I thought. Muttered lewd joke of name under my breath. Found new co-workers behind me, all Hispanic women of varying ages. Finally corrected my profile by deleting and remaking the old one. Wake up.

Scrap Group 2

Went up and down the wooden stairs of a narrow, unknown home. This directly relates to the dream below.

Dream 2 - Wonder What's in the Photo Album?

The visuals were slightly blurred. I was in similar home described a mess. Various boxes were scattered around.

Soon, I meet up with a white haired, bespectacled little old white haired lady. She was constantly squinting, hinting bad eyesight even with glasses. The lady beckons I follow her upstairs so I could see a photo album. But first, she asked me to clear a few things from the stairs, including various boxes and a filled laundry basket.

While moving these, a thin, dark haired, college aged Asian girl enters with a box full of random stuff, a supposed "friend" of mine. She seemed awfully grumpy. I wanted to introduce her, but forgot her name entirely. So, I nervously asked her if she'd a nickname, which merely earned me a deep glare. This somehow helped me figure out the dream state. "I know", I said, "I'll just call you [my Dream Guide], 'E' then." The girl rolled her eyes and ignored me. Somehow, I feel I shoulda known that from the beginning.

Then, a young female voice calls from upstairs. Oh, yeah, the photo album. Maybe there's something important worth looking at there. I creeped away from the other two. When I looked back, they were gone. That's weird... Oh, well. I was making my way upstairs, when the scenery began fading. Tried rubbing my hands, but that did little. The dream ended abruptly.

Dream 3 - Reach In and Out

The visuals were pretty clear. I was back at my old job at the gas station, this time appearing more or less as in reality. Johanna and Michael working behind the registers and cooking area, respectively. I gained awareness almost instantly.

First, I strolled around to thoroughly look at things. Seemed my co-workers were frustrated, so I just left them be. I took notice of the roller grill, which was placed where the hot drinks would be. Anyway, there were two sets of hot dogs in place, one pinkish, and the other deep red. I horked down the former kind. Needed salt. That's a first. The second type was a little spicier, but still kinda bland. Both types vanished with but a few bites.

Next, I moved on to bringing E by grasping behind me and calling out to her. I made numerous attempts in different parts of the store without results. I took a peak outside, where I saw a clear dawn. Noticed a line was forming, where I found a tall Asian lady that seemed an older version of the DC in the above dream. Where I should've identified her as my guide, I instead continued that previous hand trick. I felt something momentarily, but found nothing when I turned around.

Concurrently, I recalled the pocket task. I reached inside with my left, and felt something thin and flimsy. I pulled it out, and yep, it was a stick of gum, the wrapping quite worn out. So, I unwrapped and chewed it, this being of the stronger mint variety. Just then, some other random food item got stuck in between. This distracted me enough to destabilize the environment. I tried hand rubbing, but the dream ended abruptly.

My family and I were shopping at the supermarket because my cousins were coming to stay over. When we arrived home, after disputing about who would play who in a role play, I decided to cause some mischief. But than I noticed one of my cousin had invisibility powers. He told me not to tell his sister and to help him sort out a situation that occurred. I said okay and took him upstairs where we than ended up in a mall or shopping site but at floor level. There I think I ended up getting something to feed my parakeets but it was contaminated by bugs or chemicals. But getting distracted when I saw my younger brother was in trouble while fighting a villain.I became lucid and decided that I would defeat the villain for my brother which I did end up doing by using a long sword but than I remembered the DHL mission and that my goal was to defeat a wizard. More specifically Ganondorf from Zelda.

I tried summoning him by thinking of him but even though he had Ganon's voice and body shape he didn't look like him completely. He was wearing a blue collar shirt and formal tight pants, while having his long flowing orange/blond hair out. Kind of like a lion's mane. But I didn't let this bother me because he still looked like a cool opponent to fight. He also had his close woman henchman beside him. I summoned a long sword,[Only now remembering that I changed it to a gun/blade a while ago] and tried slicing the Wizard while hovering above the ground. He laughed at me than asked me why I was using a broom. "Broom?" I thought confused than looked at my weapon that now was a witch's broom but with the end long and stringy."Ah who cares! I'm still taking you out with it!" I shouted than managed to push him far back while changing the broom into a sword again.

I than charged at him with the sword even though he shot beams at me.The beams didn't hit me though. After a few sword hits I decided that now was the time to use some wind power so I got him facing the direction I wanted,which was near the window, by using the sword to force him into place. However, I got distracted by a bag that had a bomb put into it. I used my power to lift it up but than it ended up falling again. So I said "Rise!" while putting my hands in the air. It rose for a bit but then fell again. "Aggh. I got this" I said than brought my attention back to the wizard and the bag. I imagined the line movements of the wind and than pushed forward with my hands making the Wizard fly out the window with the bag as well. However, the fight still wasn't over.

My older brother came up to me saying that my younger brother needed help fighting off the henchman outside. I flew outside following him and saw that the henchman were chibi like anime people that were fighting. I summoned my long sword again to attack the one that was bothering my brother. He was apparently strong for them but I sliced him up quickly making him vanish. I than turned to the side to a random chibi guy walking up to me. He said that there was a guy with blond hair that was black mailing the citizens and that he was the Wizard's most liked student. I could see him in my view as the guy was talking and he was sitting at what looked like a bar having a drink. I was about to approach him but...I woke up.

Morning of October 1, 2016. Saturday.



This dream scenario, where I am part of a group of spies or people conducting surveillance, is the second recent and clearer dream of this situation. I seem to be on an airplane, seated on my own on the left side, though this is somewhat ambiguous as it seems more like an odd library setup at one point (though still with the layout of an airplane relative to seating and certain environmental features).

As in my other recent dream of this characterization I have a briefcase that contains both cryptography and communications technology, though is of a different design than with my other dream. At one point, I hold up a large rectangular green and silver printed circuit board, though which has a small rectangular LCD display in the upper right corner. I push various parts of the circuit without any real clue to what I am doing (even though I seem to know) and which activates something on the display. The imagery and motions of my right hand (as well as the sense of touch on my fingertip) is extraordinarily vivid and stable as I move my hand randomly about touching various points. I hold it up vertically in front of me, as if deliberately showing it off to the other people present (even though they are members of the general public who would likely not know what it is).

Eventually, I am looking at my open briefcase with the computerized equipment. There is a set of rolling cylinders in the upper right. There also seems to be a password panel where small rollers are set, similar to a bicycle lock. There is a section on the left that is for displaying names of groups within the communications ring. Curiously, it presently displays a phrase which includes “pink pussy”. As I contemplate what my mission might be, an unknown female (of about eighteen) approaches and takes a cellphone out of its compartment in my briefcase. She seems annoyed at the person attempting to make contact with me and who is using country code fifty-four (though I am not sure if she is implied to be a stewardess as she is informally dressed in blue jeans and a plain blouse).

“I know all about this,” she says, “Country code fifty-four is America” (which is incorrect as it is actually Argentina but I do not remember this in the dream state though I do recall that Australia is sixty-one). After telling me this she walks away and towards the back of the airplane, though sitting down on the right side about four seats behind me. I hear her talking in an annoyed but authoritative manner and, in addition to other issues, she seems to be telling them off about their usage of the term “pink pussy” as part of an international spy ring name. I start to realize that the person on the other end probably has no idea what she is talking about or what is going on, or maybe does not even speak English as I had heard at least a few Spanish phrases. I am not that concerned and remain passive.

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This seems to once again confirm that the preconscious personification (though which does not directly appear in all dreams) cannot ultimately be fully controlled or scripted as every other dream setting, feature, and character can be. My present guess is that it is because it serves a special function in liminal space between sleeping and waking and is somehow directly linked to circadian rhythms and likely another biological function (likely the waking mechanism itself, somehow personified to prevent staying asleep for too long, my best guess at this time). However, in apex lucidity (and in certain other dream types), I seem to wholly “replace” this character. I still have not worked out all the specifics even in fifty years of dream work (although it is something I have not studied quite as much as other components). Saying that country code fifty-four is America confirms the usual wrongness of how this character communicates, which is also a bit of a puzzle. However, thanks to a number of very similar dreams over the years, some clues have emerged. The preconscious personification does not appear to like me having a telephone or other method of communication (which symbolizes access to my conscious self or possibly even the collective unconscious or collective conscious). This seems to imply that it is “against” the dream self (the dream self being the subconscious personification) attaining lucidity - though this may be relative to the specific timing or segment of the dream (which is always the last part); very curious since the “unity hug” instigates this communication or at least coalescence of the dream self into full consciousness, what dreams are naturally designed to represent with virtually countless metaphors. (Then again, a telephone symbolizes indirect communication while a hug is actual “physical” communication. I suspect there is much more to this.)

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Last night i dreamt with Pedro, being friendly and with goodwill (i was goodwilled so i saw him with goodwill as well).

This night i dreamt again with Pedro, but it was more of a selfish thing the interaction and a moment of true endurance in a friendship. Why selfish? Because we were playing a game in the dream world. I fell on a tower, and instead of dying i perceived it that i lost the game. So now it was his turn to play... But he chose a totally different game... Anyways i just stayed there impatiently. [For moments like this i should become lucid. Im not bound to stay there, im free to do whatever i want. But because of attachment to my friend or the activity we were doing i hanged on there]. Why endurance in a friendship? Because the moment of endurance happened while we were in friendship. His game was finishing and he wanted to culminate it (If i explained the game it wouldn't fit what a game is, but i perceived till the last of the clinging as a game), so i held a Mate and he held a hose and washed the Mate full with yerba. The water pressure was very strong and he kept holding it, then at the last moments he said that it was burning, but he didn't laid it down, and he kept holding it. Then the pressure was finished and he layed down the hose. He showed his hands as red and wanted to express the pain he had by showing them, but of course i knew i couldn't know the pain by just looking at the hands nor touching them. I had forgotted about this kind of things that happened when we were children. If i had a pain like that i would find the quickest way to stop it. But this is a good lesson that sometimes better to act wisely and/or maturely. This dream i wrote down fully in my personal dream journal, i just didn't want to copy it here because it is on the cellphone.

However the other thing i dreamt was that i dreamt with my uncle Dario, and this i didn't took note because i didn't remember until late at day. Dario is the brother of my father. My father is the oldest in his generation, and then follows Dario. We were in a family gathering, in the garage of my grandparents house. Dario wasn't with his wife, and i thought that she might have passed away, although maybe that wasn't the case, maybe he was in her home village. Someone came up saying something about her wife, that she is old or something like that ... and Dario remained calm, but then noticed that something was said. However he acted differently as he tend to act/react, he acted with good intentions to my surprise, and said serenly "That actually offended me", but he sounded more like sad but at the same time equanimous. Sad because he trusted his family, he never thought before that there is such gossip, and also that people don't tell him about. He got up and went through the kitchen. My father also got up and walked with him with his left arm on his shoulder and back, supporting him, like an older brother would do.

D1 - [Repeat dream] I need to meet a deadline for a performance
I have no instruments for my class or choice of song. We start to make our own instruments and manage to make a few percussiion things. Then a second group make something else etc. Next the song we make up at random.
I go from the usual panic in the dream to feeling things are achievable.

D2 - Outside school parents are being run over by traffic but due to holes in the road filled by flooding, they are knocked underwater tempoarily only, but it is upseting to watch and i am very concerned each time it happens. I see the face of a blond woman going under water then breath sigh of relief as I see she is unhurt.

D3 - At last I am moving to a house where I will have a proper bed. I imagine my previous homes in the dream. One place where I had to stay on a L-shaped black leather couch in the front room of a modern style apartment. And another place where I had to sleep on a black leather gym bench and remember it being cold in the morning with the sun light of early morning shining in.
I awake in the new house next to shonuh, she is kissing me but i am still half a sleep and dont realise what is happening until she has stopped. She says she knew she shouldnt but had always wanted too. I feel its a shame I wasnt awake LOL.

Frag - Going out the exit before remembering to get shopping and having to go long way round to get back in.

D4 - At school I am a kid and am rooting for our favourite teacher with other kids. There seems to be some kind of silent power struggle between to teachers.
One teacher tries to humiliate our teacher by getting a kid to bring him a dish of what looks like pinky orange melon in a star anise shape. I looks horrible, wet and cold.
He tries to eat it and it goes everywhere. The girl next to me brings him a load of tissues. He flinches when she dabs at his chin, then excepts thankfully.
He gives us the thumbs up saying something about the red t-bones we are wearing as neck ties.

D5 - Decorating the front room, which has a rectangular padded black bath in it. Behind the bath the wall needs painting. I cant complete painting it light blue as there is a patch where the condensation makes it impossible to apply the paint. The peeling paint around the long gap is in the shape of many pairs of hands. I suggest having a tank of sand to absorb the excessive moisture in the air. At the end of the bath I put the sand with some shells on it, there are strong objections to this idea.

Frags
- Person with red paisley shirt with skin burnt/cut stuck to it.
- Staying at house with no heating waiting for repairman.

1) I was on a boat with some friends from a very long time ago. They seemed to know what they were doing and moored it by a tree just out from shore. We all got out and walked around, there was a reef just under our feet. Someone went out a bit further and was looking for food. He came back and poured a red lumpy sauce from somewhere, we tried it and it tasted good.
Then it seemd that the tide had gone out and the boat was sitting on some rocks and there was a long steep path going down to a town (or something). I was impressed that the boat was moored so accurately. I went down the path, next I remember coming back up it and jumping very high and coming down through the trees back onto the path.

2) I was in an opperating theatre with a group of medical students we were talking and laughing. A female surgeon came over to us and was looking for a rubber stamp, I had a box full of stamps and gave her the right one. Then I was walking out into a swimming pool, I walked along the edge carrying another rubber stamp which I was looking at. I was going towards a group of medical students that I was going to teach. Someone who I knew years ago said hello to me and told me that he was one of my students.
Next I was looking around for lunch and wlked into some sort of canteen. I found where lunch had been laid out for my group and it was all meat (I'm vegetarian), everyone else was sitting around the table eating already, so I had to go somewhere in search of the vegetarian option. I found it under a plastic sheet but it wasn't very good, just some packets of crisps and stale bread.

Beating a ghost

I was in my backyard, it was a cold evening. There was a ghost in one of buildings. I gathered group of friends and siblings and we charged inside, I was holding a cudgel. We all hit wildly, trying to harm the ghost. Only I sensed it good enough to hit it, and despite it being just a presence, it was scary. I hit harder and harder, everything went black as I became more scared. But finally I managed to beat both my fear and the ghost, then I emitted a shockwave that cleansed the building after the ghost disappeared.

The fox

I was in my backyard, another cold evening. Going to the back exit of my possession that goes to fields I saw something sitting behind some planks. It was a fox, sitting on the ground and staring at me. I called my brother's wife and she quickly ran closer to see it. I thought that it would scare the fox away, but instead it ran closer to me. I was a little afraid as the fox had weirdly darker fur, but in the end I pet him.