non-lucid

One memorable house dream!

I was looking at this super new possibility for the person who can't afford a house of their own,
it was a large mercedesbenz van thing but when you went in the back it was just like a very small
sitting room with sofa and chairs and little table with a lampshade etc. In short a little mini house on wheels!
I thought it was cool in the dream and was seriously thinking about buying one.

Funnily enough we were talking about a cousin of mine today who has never had a "home" as such. She has always travelled and when she comes to visit someone she sleeps in their garden in a sleeping bag. Her base camp now she is 65 that she does stay in is a storage container.
Might point is interesting coincidence and secondly evidently a physical home is not required our ancestors as we know were nomadic. What I need is security i.e. self love.

#1: I was dead. I was looking down @ my partial body body laying in a marsh along a river. I see my legs & feet. It's disturbing. Locals are saying they accidentally killed me. I'm watching all of this unfold. I see a cop handling the investigation. I feel like he has got this & there will be answers. He says she'd been thrown off of the bridge & ended up in a marsh. I rarely see any part of myself in a dream & I don't remember ever looking at myself like this, especially in this context.Meesha Cat woke me up.

D2: I was w/ my parents & we were @ some kind of reception area. It's circular & you walk down to a row of tables & down again for the next row & down one more time for the bottom row. It reminds me of "The Love Boat" tv show on the cruise ship for some reason, lol. It was really elegant. It was just normal family conversations that I would've had as a child going somewhere w/ my parents but we are all adults here. My mom is worried about what ppl will think & are told not to embarrass her, lol. Thank God she is more relaxed & enjoying life now & not all uptight. Meesha Cat woke me up again.

D3: I was @ this restaurant by the beach kind of place. It looke like a version of an old clam bake except men were diving in to catch fresh fish w/ some odd looking sieve bucket or something. They were catching things like squid & yucky stuff. No seafood that tastes good like lobster or something. A man sitting at my table was going to get to try his hand at it. He finally gets to go in & I get to come closer. It looks like a cement wall is barely flowing water over it. It was really interesting how they utilized the sea/ocean in such a way to make an entertaining dining experience. Meesha Cat is waking me up a 3rd time tonight. I'm not happy with her.

I didn't have a lucid tonight but lately I have been picking up speed again with them after my break. I just finished my second journal over this past year since March but most of it looks like gibberish until I put it on here.

Feb 17, 2017

Notes: Multiple dreams, non lucid. Nieces are over to visit. Massive Storm in New York. Harpie transformation. Dancing with new romantic interest

1. My nieces are over to visit and they are driving me insane. And Alison just wants to go home. But there is a reason why my sis and nieces can't drive home tonight. There's a nasty storm outside and it's already flooding.

2. Its night, it's storming and I'm driving. The streets are flooding and cars are driving cautiously, underneath a canopy of tall trees I haven't seen in years. I'm in Long Island NY. I give up driving through this downpour. Instead I transform into a harpie. I have some sort of adventure as a harpie, as this storm floods NY, but I don't remember it now.

3. I'm at a social and I meet someone new. But he looks like a coworker I knew years ago, Q. He wants to dance with me and I'm totally ok with it. The dancing felt real, he spins me round and round several times. But I honestly don't remember any music. Later, I'm home, and I practice dancing in front of a mirror. Later still, I feel guilty for dancing with him. What would my friend R think? He would be so upset.

4.

Bed 8:30pm - 3:20 am

DREAM 1
Few of us have some luggage going on a luggage belt, so we decide to follow it as not to lose it. We get on a belt. I'm not sure if it's safe, more likely not safe. I see a guy sitting in front of me, so I assume the belt tunnel is not gonna get too low. But I still almost lay down as not to have my head sticking out.

There is a lady standing by the belt as we go by, kinda smiling understandably, so I'm reasonably sure it's gonna be safe. Even if the sign says there is a wrapping machine with some blades coming up.

DREAM 2
I'm in a warehouse. Someone is coming to visit so we suppose to clean it up. So someone takes some heavy equipment and pushes the whole isle over to the wall, so a new, clean isle got pulled in it's place. Done, haha.

DREAM 3
I'm sitting on top of some high box or cabinet. I'm all dirty, vaguely remembering that I had to escape through some muddy water or something.

(Went to bed at 4am which is actually earlier than the days prior. I should really stop that)
(This dream was completely in english and I even used foot as a measurement even though I normally only use the metric system in real life and dont know anything about the imperial system at all)

I was inside a limestone cave with 3 other people for unknown reasons. I was standing in front of a chasm with a rope which led down about 15 meters to another cave area with a very small "lake" (the lake was about 4x4 meters I'd say and very shallow so it wasnt really a lake at all).
Above the rope there was a sign which read "Danger! Water extremely cold." which I thought made sense.
The people I was with wanted to climb down and one of them (some girl though I dont know any of the people present) wants to swim in the lake. She either climbed down really fast or jumped (which would probably kill you) because suddenly she was in the water and telling us to get in because "its great in here" which I found strange at the time. At the point where I climbed down the rope everybody is already in the water and saying its great.
I suddenly notice that the water is rising at a very quick pace (in the dream I said it already rose 2 feet in a few seconds) and shout at them to get out and back up the rope.

The water is rising even faster now with us basically beeing carried upwards to the beginning of the rope by the water.
Then I noticed something which truly shocked me, as a ceiling of water was coming down on us from atop. The water was not flushing down but rather it was as if gravity was turned around further above and the water was simply rising. After a few seconds there would be no more space to breath left and we all took a deep breath and prepared to try to swim out of the cave.

At this point I was not really a part of the 4 people anymore as I was constantly switching around viewpoints while following different people at a time while I could even hear their thoughts. Mostly they didnt think they would be able to make it out the cave and where already pretty much out of air but in the end they managed to swim up to where the exit is through the curiously bright cave system.
To get out of the cave you had to open a hatch which then led outside and in the end I was thinking what if when we open that hatch there still is even more water and it was all for nothing. What exactly happened I dont remember and the dream pretty much ended here.

(I do not have a fear of water or anything related but it was pretty horrifying because it felt like a malavolent entity with unearthly power wanted to kill us)

I was not myself, I was a father with dark curly hair. My wife and two kids, daughter and son, had dark curly hair too. I had false memories, a lot of them. The world I was in ended. Apocalyptic event that wiped out almost everything. Before it happened, we escaped into another reality. A world with magical creatures and dangers that were all new to us. It wasn't a world were my family would be safe, so I tried to find my way back to a portal.

To get back we needed a boat. We were in a flooded city. Like Manhattan with 10 meters of water on the streets. Frog-like men lived here. The surface was covered with water lilies and other such plants. After years of trying to survive there, I managed to put together a makeshift boat and led my family through a tunnel that I recall was the way to a portal. Several rapids and waterfalls later we passed through a gate leading out of this world.

When I saw the smooth, green ground, hills in the distance and a mountain with a castle on top, more false memories came back to me. This used to be just a flat green surface, an artificial world with nothing in it. A pocket dimension that humans built. It was created as a safe haven for us, when the world was destroyed. Now it looked somewhat complete. I led my family to a small house nearby and we met a woman. She kindly let us stay in her home. Some food was prepared, beds made and my wife chatted with the lady. I kept asking what year it was, because clearly we had been gone a long time, since this world was now complete. She didn't tell me. I searched the house, the food items for best before dates etc. I found nothing.

Sad and frustrated, I wanted answers. What happened to the survivors? What sort of state was the world in? I headed towards the door. Her front door didn't open into the pocket universe anymore, it led to the old world. It was night and a destroyed city opened up in front of me. Piles of rubble and monsters wandering around. The lady followed me outside and offered to guide me, if I insisted on exploring. She told me to stay away from the Gravity Wheels: big wheels rolling around on their own, made of human-like flesh.

Another type of monster was in our path. Very Rick and Morty -style appearance: ugly, slug-like, dirty blue and spits green acid. I watched how one of them spit acid on another poor explorer and he melted instantly. The lady showed me how the monsters shrunk when you scared them. She ran at one yelling and the monster shrunk to the size of a cat. It was harmless like that. While running past them, I failed to scare one and I got sprayed with acid. I waited for it to melt me, but I was fine for some reason.

We went into a tunnel and found a couple teenage girls doing drugs. I asked what year it was. One of them smiled and said "It's...six?" like it was obvious. "Six years after the end?" "Yeah." Alright. I was happy with that answer.

This has been a recurring theme in my dreams: World ends and I'm forced to move on, survive and find my place in the world again. I actually really enjoy dreams like this, even when they are sad.

Morning of February 17, 2017. Friday.



During water induction (my most consistent form of autosymbolism for dream state entry, as water is autosymbolism for sleep and the dynamics of the dream state), I find myself in the shower on the second floor of the King Street boarding house. I get the impression that I am still living in the L-shaped room at the end of the hall (though I have not lived there since the 1980s). A young version of Zsuzsanna (who has never been to America let alone King Street) is in my apartment at the end of the hall. The opaque sliding door of the shower is halfway open. Zsuzsanna walks around in my apartment. Curiously, both the south bathroom wall is missing as well as my apartment’s north wall, so the shower can be viewed directly from that apartment. (Missing walls as well as the ability to see through otherwise solid walls is a fairly common feature in my dreams and has been since early childhood. This is associated with the “mystery girl” of my dreams having lived in a house with missing exterior walls. This turned out to be true regardless of its high unlikelihood; that is, Zsuzsanna lived at one time as a child in an incomplete house with missing exterior walls in an area of New South Wales called Heaven.)

I realize that I still have clothes on. This is very annoying and I take them off, but they are somehow on again later. I also notice a pair of tennis shoes near the end of the bathtub. These apparently belong to a very old man who comes in to get them and he soon leaves without speaking. While still showering, I begin to get more annoyed at having to remove my clothes more than once (but that does not trigger the realization I am dreaming).

Somehow, several unfamiliar people end up in the shower with me (though of course there would not be enough room in reality), and I can barely move. This soon changes though, as part of the typical illogical sequencing of the dream state. I eventually notice that part of the east wall (directly beyond the end of the bathtub) is also not present. An older version of Zsuzsanna is making sounds of arousal but I can only see her from just above her knees and downward.

The north wall (adjacent to the bathtub) also seems to not be present. There seems to be a mostly featureless room, but which may also be part of the same bathroom as there is a drain in the floor.

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Becoming annoyed in a dream at the realization that I am wearing clothes has occurred since childhood (not just with shower dreams or those where I am in bed, though my non-lucid dream self most often does not focus on whether I am dressed or not anyway). There are a number of reasons for this. One, the association with being embarrassed with the idea of “sleeping in my clothes”, which is proof of liminal dream state awareness (as why would my dream self associate with the idea I am sleeping unless I was somehow liminally aware I was in the dream state, even though with liminal dream control I do not even remember what a dream is). Two, this sometimes throws off my association with phasing through walls or flying up and out of a dream (only being aware that it is a dream in the last moments - though as if I subliminally knew the entire time). The idea I am wearing clothes occasionally interferes with my association with being incorporeal, or in some cases, even with a greater corporeal full-body flying ability. There are other reasons depending on the dream type. In the majority of my more vivid flying dreams (not always lucid) I am only in a bed sheet or cloak. Ultimately, it is natural to have dreams of not wearing clothes, as I do not sleep in my clothes. Wearing clothes in a dream is an unusual distortion caused by the lack of awareness of the self in unconsciousness and its actual physical status (unless one is dressed while sleeping, though the weight of a bed sheet probably causes this distortion in most cases).

Regarding my dream’s cause and meaning, this is simply a typical form of RAS mediation and modulation as the waking alert factor, often activated by way of the preconscious and its personification and the sense of intrusion. As my dream self in non-lucidity is a fictitious entity, any perceived link to my conscious self identity in waking life in some levels of unconsciousness can potentially be viewed as an “intruder” (just as someone half-asleep might perceive an environmental sound, even a noise made by a family member, as liminal evidence of an “intruder”). This is one of those common factors of dreams of which many people cannot grasp at all.

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I remembered this later on.

DREAM fragment:

We are establishing a family business and they are deciding who from the outside will be part of it. I'm worried if I will be included and I ask them about it. I think the answer was "yes".

I am jumping from a tall iron bridge into a clear, cold river. It is in the middle of winter. There are many other people swimming in the river. This is part of a school assignment and there are military personnel who are also involved. I hold my breath and dive deep down into the transparent water. I swim under water a great distance, watching the other swimmers as they kick their legs and doggy-paddle and tread water above me. The water is perfectly clear, like swimming in a pool of pure drinking water. When I finally surface, I let out, "Wow! This water is cold!" The water is very cold, yet it is most invigorating and wonderful. I am very happy to be in the water. I wonder how I am able to swim in water of this temperature; I normally would be quite reluctant to jump into a freezing river.

I go from the river to an school office where suddenly I am standing before a black lady who looks like she is part of the adjunct staff. She asks if me I'd like some coffee. Looking over some paperwork, she says I did great, and then shows me my schedule. Every Monday and Tuesday I will have to meet a woman named "Nancy" (this is an actual lady I know from WL, one of my old customers) at a restaurant to go over my progress. These meetings with Nancy are mandatory. It slowly becomes clear to me that I am at an interview in which I am being considered for acceptance at this school. The black woman tells me she still has seven more applicants to interview. Recall fades. Dreamt 1/22/2017

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Asleep: 12:00
WBTB: 5:30, sometime before 8:00, 8:00
Awake: 8:16
Dreams: 1 + a small fragment
Lucids: 1

1. I am woken up at 5:30 by T's work alarm. I feel myself "come up" out of a dream and all I can grab hold of/remember is this: Man speaking: "I encourage you to seek validation..."

2. I am leaving a food/smoothie shop with 3 friends. Myself and 3 others get in a car. At first, Ryan is driving. But then it turns out Gabe is driving. Both are friends of mine from college. The parking spot that we are in is small and there must be cars close behind us. Gabe pulls out and has to pull forward again to try to turn out of the space. He has a small car, and he gets VERY close to the car in front of us. We all tell him he's going to hit the other car but he tries to pull even closer and ends up hitting the car. I thought he was going to drive off but he parks and walks inside. He comes out with several pink slips of paper and makes us get out and write down what possessions we have in our pockets for when the police come to write up a report? I decide this is taking too long and decide to call an uber. I try to look up where I'm going and I remember an uber is going to be 75 cents, but I don't remember where I was going. I think it was a zoo but not 100%. I thought about how I had to get home soon so I could "go back to sleep because it was almost time to wake up". (Note, the night before I had no recall so recall was on my mind)

3. The start of this dream is fragmented in memory. I remember one of my co-workers talking with someone although not in a work context. They are both stationed by computers at a desk. He is talking to the other person about sharing information with his own mother? (Memory blank) I dreamed I was lying bed, experiencing sleep paralysis. And somehow, I'm communicating with this co-worker and the other person. They help people have lucid dreams? In my dream I experienced sleep paralysis and told them as much. Then I laid back down and experienced SP again. This time, I tried to "raise my dream hand" to do a nose pinch RC. I thought I was raising my "waking hand". But, I was able to breathe through my plugged nose! I became lucid! At this point, I forgot all about my co-worker. I was my normal bed room. It was bright like there was light being let in through the window. I remember thinking it would be bad if I thought I was lucid dreaming and tried to jump out of a window only for it to be real so I did another nose-plug RC and looked at my hands. The nose RC worked again and my hands were translucent up to the fingertips. I stayed calm and checked out my surroundings. The room was realistic and detailed. After a moment, I woke up.

My last two lucid moments ended the second I became lucid. This time, I remained in the dream for a little while. It was a dream about dreaming, but I believe I actually became lucid because when I woke up there was no "pause of consciousness" and I was very conscious of having just been in a lucid dream. The funny thing is, my alarm went off at 8. I debated just getting up but I decided to go back to sleep because I wanted to recall at least 1 more dream. And I woke up at 8:16 having just had a lucid dream!

Last night, bed at 6:50am

I took 3x 15 mg (6%) L-dopa at time of bed

Had lots of dreams, but I had that for the last week or so. So can't tell it was because of L-dopa.

DREAM at 9:03pm
Something about group called Dreamers Against Trump.

DREAM 11pm
Paying for photo ops
Driving heavy truck

DREAM 3:15am
I'm in a basement of a 1-2 story house. Looking out the small window with 2 kids, boy and a girl. There is some work being done outside. A bulldozer is pushing ground near the house and somehow he pushes a huge pile of dirt too close to the house. It makes the corner buckle and shift and a metal bars above the window come down. Just before it did, I yelled at the kids to get out. It I didn't, they would have been killed.

I'm outside yelling at the operator what the heck did he do, being so careless.

Then I'm on a street in Latin America, sitting in the middle of the road in a residential neighborhood. People walking around, kids playing and sitting around. I figure if I want to be friends with them, I should attempt to get to know them and talk. So I ask a girl sitting near me what's her name. Julia, she says. And she cuddles with me. (my grandma just passed away and her name is Julia).

I've been very busy IRL & had 2 of my grandkids all weekend so I've been rather busy & then I had to sleep a lot Monday & Tuesday because I pushed myself too hard this weekend. But I did have a whole lot of fun! Not much by way of dreams due to my pain meds.

***I was living in a cabin in the woods. I'm asleep & think Mike is in the room but instead it's my mom. She said she just dropped by cuz her & my dad were driving through in their RV. I told her I could make her some coffee & I looked into the refrigerator to find something to feed her. I said "hey, there is some beer in here if you want some." I say this half talking to myself & become lucid because Mike & I don't drink alcohol. There wouldn't be beer anywhere we would be staying. I say out loud "we don't drink anymore". I then notice that the fridge is almost bare & the food looks old. Almost in shock I look up on the top shelf & then lean into the fridge because I see there is no "top" of the fridge & I only see the cabinets above it. She tells me she is going into town for food. I'm still contemplating the fridge, kind of in awe. I laugh because I'm thinking, "well isn't this a strange dream!" I realize she is still talking as she leaves & adds "dad is out off doing something" just as I am wondering where he is. I go out the sliding door & I'm on a deck looking out & see a huge tree. I walk down & look at it in wonder. I know it's the magical tree from the book I'm reading. This is so cool!! I then look to the right of the tree & there is a limo. I open the door & my mom is sitting in the back seat behind the drivers side putting her feet up on the back of the passenger seat. I start laughing because I just saw a woman do this in a show I watched & my mom is all slim now like she was when I was a kid. I got woke up by Meesha Cat so I'm disappointed that I didn't get to play w/ the magic tree!

**I was w/ a group of gypsies. I've been watching a series w/ gypsies & werewolves. I am in a kitchen sorting plants so that we don't eat the poisonous ones. The man in charge gives me a compliment & said "Now that's how people should be." He was talking about me caring about others & not just myself.

**I was in a school where ppl were turning into dust after they ad found ways to invest money to make money to sustain an income instead of working. This was to free up time to enjoy life. They were sharing in detail how to do this but I couldn't catch all of how to do that. I had come in toward the end of the conversation. The leader & his followers would turn back to dust afterwards. Apparently this happened often here. I walked around the school inside & outside when they appeared out of thin air again. But unfortunately Meesha Cat woke me up.

1. We had a GIS class at a nature center and everything seemed so real that I never got lucid. My dreams are becoming so realistic and stable that it is seems more difficult to notice things that are off. This dream was super long. There was a bus taking people to the nature center but one of the guys needed to get his water shoes that he forgot, so I went with him to show him where to buy them and then we met at the nature center.(that in itself was long because the guy is hard of hearing so I had to keep repeating myself the whole time). We had to park our car in this large lot and got a ticket to put on the car, very realistic. I even saw the white ticket with writing on it that had our lot location B. We made our way up escalators and through a long building with different turns to get to the location where we met everyone. We had a short class on gps units that we were going to use. These units weren't the yellow ones I have seen before, they were red and tiny. I had a hard time seeing the screen. We had to buddy up and I didn't want the deaf guy, but I couldn't get rid of him (pretty typical). We had to go into the water and it was pretty scary because there are alligators. They said don't worry just shuffle your feet. We were in the mangroves and had to find markers they set to gps and between the guy who couldn't hear and my not being able to see the screen we made a horrible team. I felt like we got nowhere. I was embarrassed to see how poorly we did. When we turned down to go down the next area of mangroves they turned us around because they found a body and they had to call it in. We had to shuffle back and get out of the water and pretty much that was where they sent us to free lunch and said we could go home. They apologized and off we went. We ate fruit, wraps and brownies, then everyone in all of the classes left at the same time. It was chaos. I wanted to go back with everyone but because I didn't have a bus ticket, I was not allowed on the bus. I had to go back in the car with the deaf guy. We walked and walked trying to find where the parking lot was. It was an adventure in itself because we both were out of our comfort zone. Everything seemed so drawn out like 1 step forward 3 steps back kind of dream. It was a very long ride back and woke up.

This is the second work event with a drowned person.

Dark lord

It was by some cliff or volcano caldera. The sky was whole red and ominous. I was fighting with some strange monsters until the dark lord arrived and punched me, which made metal plates sprout out from whole my body in a painful manner. Suddenly I found myself again in that place, but earlier. Again I was fighting with monsters - all were humanoid with burnt skin, some of them used swords or long, steel claws. I dodged, parried and striked. I managed to beat a few of swordsmen, but one of claw slashing monster managed to slash through my chest. Then the dark lord arrived - a tall, extremely muscular man with long black hair. He was wearing armor made of bones of his opponents. I knew that if he hits me, metal plates would protrude from my body, so I was running all around, evading. He called me with some strange name and the plates of metal protruded out of my body anyway, quite painfully and splashing blood all around. I looked like an iron hedgehog.

Burglars

It was cold winter. Two burglars were after me because I had some diamond or emerald of enormous size that they wanted to steal. I got out of my house to a shed with random stuff, when suddenly they arrived. I quickly changed my clothes to snowboarding equipment that was in shed and started escaping to the road, crossing it and getting to snowdrifts leading to a pit in front of my house. They were really close all the time, I visualised that there's a hole in the snow that would make them fall inside and get stuck in this trap. And they immediately fell down the trap. Suddenly I was back at my house. Burglars arrived again, asking politely for the gem. I wanted to give them an armed mouse-trap instead, but haven't had any. I visualised that I have a purse with armed mouse-trap inside and it instantly appeared in my hands. I gave it to burglars then closed doors tightly. After a while I heard scream of pain and irritation.

Feb. 8th 2017

Key
Luicd
NonLucid

I quickly woke up feeling vibrations through out my body, my first thought was to try to astral project. My legs projected out first, and next thing I know I am hovering in my room. I looked at my body and I was on my stomach but that didn't make sense, because I was on my back. I went to go flew through my window but I had trouble moving into the right direction, I would move left and my body would go right. Eventually I got a hang of it and went through my window, and was flying in my back yard, I head down my road towards town.

Now I'm in a new scenery, with my girlfriend going outside in my backyard, it is snowing. My girlfriend had my dog on a red leash, she opened the door and my dog ran outside and off. I started to scream, falling to my hands and knees. I went to my girlfriend and told her we needed to meditate, I told her we needed to go back in time 2 hours before my dog ran off. I started meditating and focused on what was happening 2 hours earlier.

I'm inside my house, in the living room sitting on the couch, my mom is in her chair. I got up and started walking out of the room, where I saw my dog laying by the back door. She was laying on her back in an angle. I asked my mom when she let her inside, and she said about 2 hours ago.

I feel like I'm inside of a video game, where a evil ghost puts a spell on my dog and I have to walk up to her and slash her, to remove the spell. It was frustrating because I didn't want to play this game, and the ghost was putting spells on my dog when I wasn't near by. This went on for 3 rounds.

I'm back in an astral like body, and I formed a new body. I'm at my college, with very vivid vision, and stability doesn't seem to be a problem. The other dream characters seemed to be aware that I shouldn't be lucid, and they started to walk towards me. I tried changing the characters into different people but they didn't work. I went in an utility closet, 2 other characters got in, and I tried changing one, however the person I thought of came behind me and had a different hair color, and skin color. My body started vibrating, and I felt my astral body lift up. As it vibrated it slowly back into my real body.