non-lucid

*I was in a hospital just witness the pure suffering of old age, accidents, and just people suffering in horrible shape. It made me feel how could level of human suffering could even be allowed to exist. This old ladies face stood out in particuler, she was so old that that her skin seems to be faking off her face. She seemed to be in the least of pain compared to even one else.

*There is a wind surfer that used the wind to take off soaring with his gear. He had absolutly no control over his flight.

*I was talking with a big group of unknown people like a new crowd of people I was getting to know. I said something to make everyone laugh in a very confident manner. This made me happy.

*I ran into one of my friend's girlfriends but she didn't look at all like anything of the actual person. She said she wanted me to show her the correct door to somewhere she was looking for. I pointed to a middle door in between to others in this kind of a back alley way. We approached the door and realized that we can't get in. Nobody has been to this place in such a long time I commented.

On 11/25/2015 I went to bed around 00:35 at night and took 100 mg 5HTP before bed. Before waking up at 0430 am to go to the rest room I had broken but some memorable dreams. I was walking myself on the street which appeared to be from my former country in which I lived (Russia) as I walked beside the door I could see various families though the wall but did not dare to come in. I then walked in to one of the apartment buildings and saw my best friend inside his room, he was hostile a little and didn't understand why I showed up. The dream then changed and I ended up on the lawn of the house I used to live on. My best friend was looking out of the 2nd floor of the window. I then woke up.

I went to the rest room and took 2 pills of Lucidimine which would equal 12 mg Galantamine 100 mg alpha GPC, 100 mg CDP choline and 200 mg of choline bitartrate and 400 mg of l theanine. To no surprise I could not go back to sleep for a while and I felt like doing things I felt very stimulated and anxious.

at 0700 in the morning I finally began to dose off and felt like flying though Dubai which im not sure why maybe some of my repressed childhood memories from 1995. Then the dream changed and I saw myself standing in the pink room with pink walls. Something old me that I am in my dream and I looked at the palms of my hands (one of my dream signs) and I instantly became lucid and knew I was dreaming. I opened the door to the second room which was also pink and had a few small white castles near the wall (in that moment I knew why I was dreaming that..in about two months my wife and I will have our baby girl). I then moved to the next door and wanted to see my wife, she instantly appeared as we got very intimate before the dream ended.

The dream did not last long but it was very lucid and realistic I will tune down the dose of Lucidimine next time to one pill again.

I'm in a junkyard, it's small and has a few shipping containers, some junk around. The ground is moist and muddy. I walk through it and see the edge of the small woods to the end of it, sun trickles through the branches and I see a new round being built. A teacher of mine comes around, says hi and wonders what I'm doing here. (Was I looking for him, hoping to bump into him?) I lie and say I was just passing through, as not to creep him out.

I see in the junk to my right a bunch of old X-Files DVD boxes and other merchandise, at least seasons 3 and 4, the best ones. I collect them up, what a find! I see clips of the upcoming season in my mind, I see agent Reyes. it's as if watching these is preparation for the new season. I see what look like promo clips. I try to find a website or a place to see the whole plot of the X-files game as well, haven't played the one for PS2.

Grandparent's old house, I look into the cupboard by the door, see the X-files things there with the Christmas decorations, there is a finality to it, as if seeing it for the last time.

I'm in the parking lot of my grandparent's old house, there is some kind of event, lots of people there and a stage. On stage there is a family, a husband and wife with two children performing. The husband is hitting his leg with a small drum stick with a fluffy head to make a beat, I follow suit.

I look at the lawn, it's a summer day, and I see beyond the trees a giant woman, young, in her mid twenties in a red sweater. Her movements are like those of a hot air balloon, kind of has that appearance, otherworldy. Her giant boyfriend comes and hugs her and they lumber off walking over me as I look up.

I pass some playing kids and begin to run into the dark forest on all fours, at first I think it's weird but it works really well, feels natural. I go amazingly fast.

In a room, the light overhead is orangey and overbearing. It's like a children's room. I'm trapped in it with a man and a woman who are also prisoner. I wait for our captor to return. I lose all hope and somehow it gives me strength. Resolving that I will risk dying to escape, I prepare to rush my captor, in my mind I whisper "I am now free".

Recall still bad è_é I vaguely remember having to save someone, a dark haired teenager girl.

I was in a house/apartment. I was looking for something. I was supposed to just stay there temporarily. I think it was after the death of the owner, an old man. I'm not sure how I'm related to him. It was night, and I was looking for the bathroom. For some reason, I can't find it. Then there were ghostly apparitions and then a vampire-like monster. I was able to turn it "off," as if a game, although I wasn't scared. More like annoyed and frustrated for not getting to a bathroom.

I was able to visit a friend (who?) and I used their bathroom. The water was warm. Then I'm not sure whether I was peeing in the right area. It might be their sink, but it was made of solid cement.

I was looking at a small representation of some hills and a lake. It acted like a game map. I saw lines and arrows of where I'm supposed to go but it keeps changing and mixing because I'm "clicking" all over the place.

I went outside our building. I climbed up to the train station, but not through the stairs. I climbed up, easily, through the walls and to the elevated tracks. A train just passed by but it was going the opposite direction (south) of where I was going (north). I was thinking whether I should walk to the station (a bit north). I decided to run on the tracks instead. I parkoured my way over obstacles. It felt liberating, especially when I saw how high I was able to jump up and landed precisely on a small ledge. There was a nice background music playing while I was doing this, which made it even more awesome. Not quite opera voice, and there were background instruments.

I arrived near my destination (SM Megamall though it doesn't like anything like it). I got a little lost first but quickly found my way. I was in an area where there are some construction going on. I arrived at the area where they have sci-fi human-art installation. Basically, there were monks/priests and nuns and KOAs, and they were "attached" to sci-fi art (spaceships?) that are, in turn, attached to the ceiling/trees. One monk was even moving a bit, and the person holding him doesn't seem to be making an effort.

NOTES:

- I was tired and sleepy. I was also hungry, but my sleepiness and tiredness overpowered me before I slept.
- I slept around 3pm. I had instant coffee around 10am though.
- Last night, I slept a good 7 hours.
- I took Bioflu (paracetamol + phenelephrine) around noon coz I felt like I was going to get sick. Might have caused the sleepiness.

[Notes]:
- I was pretty exhausted the night before; I was surprised to have any dreams at all.
- I stupidly missed a dream sign (thunderstorms), although it was subtle.

[Dream begins]:
So I'm in my basement with my parents. We're preparing for a coming storm. We open up the Wundermap on my mom's iPad and take a look. For some reason my house was in Michigan, but there was a humongous storm coming for us. There was a little issue with the map where the storm appeared spotty and scattered, but we realized it was because it was in the gap between our weather station and the one in the town a couple miles straight west of us. Here's a picture of almost exactly what I saw on the iPad:


I noticed that there was this massive (~3 ft. tall) glass bottle (in the shape of a classic Coke bottle) full of "wine" (my brain told me it was Cognac), which really looked like tomato sauce with huge chunks of peppers and cabbage in it... It had this kind of film on top that acted as a cap, and when I just lightly touched it, it would make an incredibly loud banging noise, like a firecracker! I asked why it was there, and my parents told me that they got it as a wedding present and that they never opened it. I tapped the top a few more times, then opened it and went upstairs.

[The dream fragments...]

On this particular night I again did a WBTB method and had a dream that I was in a classroom and was speaking to a fellow student who was hazy. Once the class was over that person told me that they liked the class better a few years back and that it is not as fun any more. For some reason in my mind I thought of 2011. As I walked though the hallway I noticed a girl that I talk to at work in waking life. At first I said "hi: and then we awkwardly hugged. I remember walking away thinking why did I do that since both of us are married and felt guilty for doing that. I woke up and understood that it was just a dream.

It was cold and rainy day. I was going out of a hospital with my younger sister. Mother was waiting for us in the car. I asked her who is going to drive, and she said that she'll drive. Then we drove away.


I was in school, entering the toilet. It was weirdly and impractically designed. There was one dude from my class, hanging on the door of the toilet, screaming at someone.


I was at a resource stockpile. There was a dude that told me "Now you'll need to place more wood resource in this stockpile. Your mother needs that cancer cure." We started to work immediately, more and more people gathered to help us.

Alarm @ 0200
Bed @ 2215

Woke @ 0040: bathroom.
Woke @ 0200: took an extra multi-B.

House in the woods
I'm in a clearing in a wooded area near a large house. A small fire is burning. I take something that looks kind of like a long, hard vine (slightly reddish in color) and put one end into the fire. The outside of the vine burns very very quickly, reminding me of det cord that Mythbusters likes to use.

Now someone is making a bow. It's made out of some kind of wood that's almost white. It's fairly thin (maybe 1/2 inch diameter), pointed on both ends, and taller than he is. Someone else shows up and is rather dismissive towards the bow, saying that he really likes the modern recurved bows but has no interest in traditional ones.

Now I'm walking along a path on the other side of the house. It's to our left, and there's a drop to our right. We pass a large bush with very sharp leaves and discuss the values of such plants as theft deterrents.

BTB @ 0245.
Woke @ 0600.

Guard house mess
I'm driving along a road towards a row of guard houses. There's one guard house for traffic coming in, another for traffic leaving; each guard house has one lane on either side of it. There's also a clapboard sign between the guard houses, between the two directions of traffic. I'm in the rightmost lane. Something odd is going on: cars from each direction aren't staying in their lanes but are choosing a guard house seemingly at random. I slow down to a crawl, trying to figure out what to do. I see a guard standing at the clapboard sign waving me over and head towards her.

Now I'm standing at a counter at the (what should be) outbound gatehouse. I've handed over a number of forms I brought with me pre-filled-out, and the guard has spread them out to look at them. I fish in my pocked for my money, dropping a huge handful of coins - mostly quarters - onto the table. I realize I didn't keep back any money for vending machines and hunt for 4 quarters to hold onto, realizing that might make one of my forms invalid. Oh well, I can redo it if I need to. The guard gives me a very dismissive look, as if he can't believe he has to deal with someone like me.

Now I'm getting out of my car in a dark parking garage.

*I visit some offical state office to get an I.D. but to my surprise I realize that it bas a picture of me and girlfriend staring at each smiling also like a wedding photo.

*I am visiting with my white side of the family. We are all exchanging hugs.

*I random DC says that we should go check out these pigs on a ranch we are on. Later on I show every one a way off the ranch that will cause us no danger which I am congratulated for.

*I point out to my girlfriend are leaky roof in are apartment. I tell her that this could cause the roof to fall on us.

*Some lady offered me a combination of herbs that will help my health. One of the herbs she offered me was tumeric.

Not sur of what exactly the dream was about, or where it tooks place, or anything, but there was Eli in a blue shirt and black jeans and a smile

A serial killer was chasing me and killing my friends and family. Due to the fact that he had false proof that could get my little brother accused for the murders I didn't go to the police and instead tried to catch him myself. However, everytime he was one step ahead and killed someone I cared about. At the end of the dream he had hunt me and my brother down on skis, and we were trapped in a barn where people where dancing folk dance. The killer gave me a gun and told me to shoot myselt in the mouth. Instead I tried to kill him, but the gun wasn't loaded, because he knew I would do it. It felt like he was playing a game with me to wear me down mentally. When I realised that he had tricked me with the gun he drew a second gun and shoot at me. That's when I woke up. After that I when to the bathroom but when I was gonna open the door it felt like he was standing outside, waiting for me. This was when I was awake. Eventually I opened the door and called my mother to talk about the dream and get back to reality.

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I'm in an unfamiliar bedroom. I begin playing a red-tinted Mario game, like a Virtual Boy game. Mario is riding a donkey and has to dodge pills and geometric shapes as he move to the left. He gets hit and the donkey runs off like Yoshi in the Super Mario World games. I get really into the game and "become" Mario. I dodge the now 3D and in full color geometric objects and pills with great finesse. I've become really good at the game.

By the beginning of a forested path at night near my old school. I try to send a text message to an old school friend of mine but the message gets turned into a reflective road sign next to the path, the smiley I used in it looks weird on a road sign.

I turn around and try to contact my friend on Facebook with a laptop, he doesn't respond but his wife does. I begin to see an image of a person drinking Hendricks gin on a grainy video feed. The club is lit with blue light and the guy throws the bottle away and turns around, walking clumsily toward the exit. He's wearing a bear skin and has long hair and a big beard, feral looking.

See my sister and she offers me a Gin and Tonic with cucumbers in it. Don't really want to drink but I take a sip with gratitude, I don't want to offend her.

I'm in an apartment that looks like Dexter's from the series Deter. Sunlight through the window. I look into the fridge for food, so much stuff in it but not much that interests me.

121115
A vague memory of being at my friends house, the TV is on really loud. Another friend says we should turn in down before the neighbors complain. I agree and we turn down the volume. Another friend enters, I ask him what's up.

I'm walking in a deep hilly wooded area on a grey day. There is a lake to my left. There are large lumps of tree roots on the surface of the ground and I trip over them. I make my way to a house, it looks modern and is very solitary, no other house in sight, as if it was right in the middle of a little depression in the ground. Looks like a safe place.

I go inside and it is fairly dim inside as only a bluish grey light comes through the shaded windows. It give the whole house a mystical and serene feeling, hard to explain. A lamp is in the corner, it looks very fancy and modern in design gives a little more of a golden lighting deeper in the house. There is something oddly satisfying being here, safe, serene, a mindset like something remembered in childhood.

I'm in my grandparent's old place. In the kitchen, all the lights are on, I see a mosaic decorative plate on the wall. It's like all the other decorative things they have on the wall. There are three tiles on it that stand out, the rest have fallen away. They look a bit like hexagons, one has a large "C" on it, meaning a complex number. One tile is touching it on its left, the other tile is one space away from the "C" tile on the right, not touching it. I look at it and it is supposed to show a mathematical number sequence that has something to do with complex numbers. I try to think what it could mean, I think the terms of the series can tessellate the whole plate. I hear in my mind "only a fool adds them together...".

In the bathroom, out the window I see one of my friends and his friend have arrived by car. What are they doing all the way up here?

I have to give a presentation of a subject of my choice. I use my sister's computer to look for some information of Kendrick Lamar, I type his name into Google. I can't find enough information, at least not enough for me to want to confidently present anything.

It's dark outside, I'm standing by the large show window of a bookstore, there is a golden orange light coming from it, fancy, brown wooden shelves have books on them. I think of doing my presentation of Satanism and the occult, I begin to notice books with those words on the spines on the shelves. Is it too edgey?

I wake up through the night, feeling sick and disorientated.

A bomb exploded outside my window, felt the vibrations, woke up and did not realise that it was a dream at first.