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Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I wake up and it is really really hot, i get up and attempt to find what causing the heat.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was something going on at home.

Dream 3:

I wake up and someone hands is trying to choke me from behind, i easily get them off and look back while getting up, ofcourse that's 'attacker' DC, i recall that somebody told me on chat one day to try talking to him, so i ask him why he's keeping doing that, he responds but i can only partially hear him, some words get like skipped, but he says something along the line that "You are not lucid" and "This is not dream" or something like that, i respond that he's wrong but he keeps at his. I feel that it's pointless and start looking around, i am in square-ish room with no doors and exits, but two sets of windows. I look outside and it's daytime, i notice black scaled dragon from previous lucid flying in the skies, i try to call him and i get ready to phase through window/wall, but dream shortly fades out.

Dream 4:

I wake up and there's apparently 'another me' and we get stuck for a while since he repeats everything i do, soon though we manage to get up and unstuck and i notice that 'another me' is much smaller and at this point he stops repeating actions. I remember my goals and go for balcony door, it's closed, but i phase through it... only to get stuck in curtain behind it, again. And again this causes dream to fade and some random images appear. Not this time, not again. I focus as much as i can and get back into dream with the power of will.
I wake up again, 'attacker' DC is again here, i knock him out of the way and go for balcony, this time there's no curtain so i phase through door successful. Outside i take off and fly with my wings. I start looking around and soon notice that it's not true outside, but more like huge room with 'background' textures on the walls and ceiling, i almost fly into one of them, but manage to stop and grab into it. I look around some more but dream quickly fades out, and this time i wake up.

Dream 5(fragments):

I was playing some game and chatting with SilentEternity.

The dream started with me sitting in a bus, it was an unusually big one, and it was driving uphill in a small city. Apparently I overslept my target stop, but I was too far to just get out and walk back so I was sure to be too late, wherever I was going. I was considering what to do when I met S from my old school in B. He gave me a different thought perspective, and without changing my mindset much I became lucid and decided to just trust him.
(The part where we went out of the bus was missing somehow, though I'm sure it was right the next stop)
Then I was in a building, it was some minutes after 12 (maybe 12:03), he gave me something and ordered me to go upstairs to find some maintenance shaft, it was the second floor, top of the building. The staircase was like a 5m x 5m excision of an 8m x 8m square corridor, there were doors to other rooms all around, the doors were all open and it was rather dark inside the rooms. I searched but I didn't find anything, and at around 12:36 people where coming back and I had to hide.
Eventually the dream faded as my alarm woke me up, I snoozed it and went back to sleep for 20 minutes.
Surprisingly though I only lost my consciousness for a really small amount of time, and then perfectly resumed the dream, I had my first complete DEILD, without really trying.
I snuck back to S who was bending over something, he then told me that I needed to find an engine up there to put a micromodule in it, then some indefinable stuff happened and I found a maintenance shaft, it opened up for me and looked futuristic, a policeman was attacking me for some reason but the shaft closed behind me, stopping him from chasing me. I went into a morph ball mode and bombed some smaller Dominator devices away, now I was on a rail outside, it was day.
(The part with the Dominators and the engine with the micromodule came from the game Space Rangers 2, the morph ball from Metroid. Those things only started to influence the dream after the DEILD, so that might have something to do with it)

I was in the main street of my town when an old man walked up to me and said; "Could i come to your house?" I said "no, im getting a hair cut" then the man vanished. The rest of the way home i was worried what would happen if he found out i was not getting a hair cut.

dark room conversations
I was sitting in front of my bed in dim light. i was using a paperclip to pick dirt from under my fingernails, and sterling walked through my doorway and squated next to me. He used a papertowel to clean my fingers cuz he thought it was blood.
"What are you doing?" "Just cutting myself. Kidding. I'm getting stuff from under my fingernails"
On the other side of my bed in the corner between my bed and my dresser was some other dude, problably devin. He didnt say much and I never turned around, but sometimes i could see him just chilling out.

ms mann is a lesbian
ms mann was talking at a checkout lane about being like a kid and some other teacher said "you being a lesbian, that makes sense" and I, the girl in line behind her, said "maybe its because you have students" {refering to her acting like a kid} but she either didn't hear me or ignored me.

ms wilder is annoying
I was with a teacher called ms harriet. I stayed in her class in the mornings. She wanted me to go sit in ms wilder's spanish class, so i did. one of the students was like "oh, get ready for this". jack was hanging about in one of the seats. when class was over, i walked back to class with this girl who told me the blue i was wearing looked good on me. she looked kinda like taylor, white with brown hair, only she had braces and an overbite. She also looked very sad, and i stared at ther a while before saying thank-you.

Two parallel universes. In one universe, I was single. In another, I was married with kids. Transport.

Student. Koreans. Karaoke. Field. A kid. Parallel word. Hiding food.

Batman. Helicopter. VTOL plane. Building or house. Shield.

I was partially aware that I was dreaming, and I was trying to interpret my dream while I was dreaming. I was telling myself about people who are just looking for someone to apologize to. I was looking at a hallway.

Robot fight. Five humans who are 'embedded' with robot structures. Cyborgs. Like a hull with tentacles. It connects them to this super cool, white-colored robot. I saw one of them, a female, lying dead still attached to her robot. Water world. Animated move-like scene.

I was with a group. We were on a couch. I was lying down. They're beside me, talking. They talked about how only 3 out of 5 survived, and one who died was the daughter of some super rich person.

This dream involved ad issue that stuff needed to be updated in a database from a handheld and from computer and one could not have a server. This had something to do with a medical institute, and one of the patients came up to me while I was taking a break and wanted to know whether she could leave now. I explained that I was an IT person and could not decide that. Interestingly she spoke to me in Polish. While she spoke to me I was lounging in a chair on the patio.

8.25.2013

Morning:

Time travel. A group. Go back in time. Forest. Guitar. Weapon. Top view. Shooting. Battle field.

Afternoon:

Room, bed, based on my ... to my side, above. I initially thought I was having an OBE. I moved to my side and I was tingling all over. I thought maybe I was out of my body already, or maybe I'm still awake. Unfamiliar room. Dark room. I looked out the window, with vertical bars, also strange, unfamiliar. Greyish sky. I tried flying out of the room. My arms went through the spaces beside the bars, but I couldn't go through like a ghost. So I thought I was still awake. Mirror. Black small thing. Tech... Comm...

Ran away from the room. I was chasing someone or someone was chasing me. I visualized a chain on the person's hands, and it clamped him down on the floor. He looked orcish. I ran and climbed up a wall. It reminds me of third-person dungeon computer games. Wide area. Like a castle. I climbed up the gate, and on top of something like a roof support (but it's not connected to the roof), there's a female warrior. I talked to her, asked what's going on. She seems okay to me, but another female warrior/guardian arrived, jumping on top of other supports, and rudely told me to go back. I taunted her, calling her names, like AngeliTina.

... woke up...

Airport. Police. Time. 3 p.m. or 1 p.m. There's a plane crash. Don't care about my flight, which is at 7:49 p.m. I was too early. Then I started wondering: why am I going back to my hometown? Then a memory popped up of a high school classmate telling me that it's his birthday next Saturday or Sunday, and he'd want me to be there.

Fragment 1: I was at school and a class had just ended, i think it was biology. I headed over to maths class and as i went in, i noticed that the classroom was filthy. My desk was littered with dirty, damp socks and used bandages and even sticks or twigs of some sort. I swept them of the desk without much of a problem. The class started and i remember my teacher asking what the word 'Mathematics' meant. I didn't take much notice of what he said as i was so consumed with cleaning up my desk space. I remember tidying up the space on the floor around my feet, but not much else after that.

Fragment 2: I was sat at my desk in my room, when my phone started ringing. I picked up and it seemed like i knew the person. I could hear his voice but for some reason i would reply in texts, as if i was instant messaging him and he would speak response. He told me he was in trouble and he needed to borrow some money again. I told him something along the lines of "I can't keep digging you out of these holes, i just can't afford it". I asked him how much he needed, he replied with 5 or 6. I somehow knew he meant 5 or 6 hundred. I told him there was no way i could afford it, i had only 50 pounds in my account (As i do in waking life). I remember him getting really frustrated and quite upset and i thought that was the end of it, but the call ended suddenly and my phone flashed red and black, and then a message appeared that looked like it was written in blood that said something like "A pagan god is coming after you, and will kill you..." I knew it wasn't from the man i was on the phone with, but i got an inclination that he was somehow involved with this 'pagan god' too.
I woke up, and i made sure i was 100% awake before opening my eyes. (Didn't really feel like opening my eyes to savage pagan god trying to kill me, y'know? :3)

My Comments: Summer's almost over, so dreaming about school didn't really surprise me, but it was still kinda strange. The school i go to is quite old and "antique", but it was never that filthy! The filth didn't seem to bother me, but i became obsessed with cleaning it up, which is not like me at all Clarity was quite average and i feel like i've missed some key details, but i can't remember them.

My second dream was a pretty strange one. Mainly because nobody besides my Mum and Dad actually call me *Forever Alone..*, Also i'm not sure why anyone would go to a 16 year old kid to borrow money, quite a lot of money at that, but in the dream it felt like i had helped him out before, financially of course. Clarity was also poor-average, though i remember the image on my phone about the pagan god quite clearly, as everything went dark except for my phone. Super creepy stuff

August 25, 2013

Frozen
Every group had their own area in this apartment building. I was with the artsy group. We were all getting ready for something when suddenly snow covers everything. And its not just snow outside, its everywhere, inside the apartments. The freak weather has everyone flipping out! We had no choice but to leave.

I quickly pack what I can and head outside to dump my bags in the car. But I'm only wearing socks and the snow is so cold. Where are my shoes, and what about my furniture? Isn't the snow ruining it?

I see my dad outside laughing with some random dude. I get frustrated and yell "my things are inside!". Dad gets the message and heads inside to help with the heavy furniture.

I was still dumping stuff in my car when suddenly this giant ice slab just falls right on top of the apartment building, large enough to cover the entire apartment roof. I held my breath. How can the roof support something so massive?

Moments later the roof collapses, the ice slab crushes everything and breaks apart. They're all dead, my friends, dad! I'm gripped with absolute horror. All I could do was fall down to the snow and scream frantically.

My dream re-winds.

The ice slab part happened. Instead I'm frantically trying to pack my things, find my shoes, and make sure I'm not missing anything. This time it was mom who was helping me. I woke up shortly after.

August 24

Notes: I had wrote down notes for a dream around 3am, but by the morning I didn't remember the dream. The only thing I remembered was that I was trying to order queso flamenco.

Cavern Lake
I dont remember how my family got here. But we were swimming in a lake deep in a cavern. There were penguins living in the cavern and I used one of them to help me propel through the water. After our adventure mom says "That was so refreshing! I don't even need to shower!"

And I remark "If only that were true. Since were dreaming we'll still need to shower when we wake". But the lucidity went over my head.

This entire cavern is full of challenges for me and my family to overcome. A lady opens a door within the cavern and shows us the next challenge, a kitchen. She tells us its a cooking challenge. I tell her "i dont cook!" and I'm convinced she's the devil.

I storm out of the room and tell my family they can do that challenge without me! My dream fades out. I fall back asleep and re-enter the dream. My family tells me the challenge is over and we can proceed to the next step. Or we can just skip everything and go outside! I opt to go outside.

Again I wake up and fall asleep

Werewolf and Gang Anime
I'm watching an anime with a guy I don't even know. I am glued to the television! The first scene was action packed. These different beings were each taking their turn invading an ancient temple and making their way to the bottom level.

There was a family of werewolves, goblins, zombies and robotic people? The werewolves easily fought their way through to the bottom level. The goblins were hilariously clumsy and simply fell through a hole. When the goblins got up their fur had accidentally fallen off, and they didn't know whose fur-suit belonged to whom.

The next challenge was to be done alone. The first one to step up was a brave little werewolf girl of about 10 years of age. She enters the room by herself.

A totem on the wall explains the scenario "I am darkness. I will swallow you whole if you are unable to defeat me. This light" a light appeared in a closet "is all you have left". The light begins to flicker.

The little furry girl gets all pumped up "I'm not scared of you! My claws will slice right through you! You just wait! I'm ready! Lets get this started!" She didn't realize the challenge already started. As she was talking big the flickering light suddenly goes dark.

"Times up!" The totem becomes a shadow and swallows the girl.

Her brothers howl furiously! "Its not her fault she didn't understand the rules!" But next up for the challenge was the old goblin.

He walks and talks like an old black man from the heart of Louisiana. He takes his sweet time walking up to the challenge door, jabbering away with the other goblins, and swinging a large fish in his hand.

When he gets into the challenge room the totem again explains the rules, but his fish is suddenly gone. The old goblin protests! "Now wait a minute! I had a fish in ma hand!"

"A fish is not a weapon"

"Ohhh yes it is! You give me back ma fish!" The fish appears back in the old goblin's hand. "And take that! And take that!" He slaps that totem hard with a smelly fish! The light gets so bright it explodes and the totem is destroyed!

The fish slapping goblin was too damn funny, I woke up laughing. Good anime.

I cut my hair down a bit on the sides to even it up.
I am waiting at a martial arts event, for my opponents that is. Everything is getting sorted out and im eager to get into the ring. Finally i get in the ring and have my first fight, I come out the winner. I then have a second fight which tops my last performance according to mark and myself. Im waiting for my third fight, but will i ever get it? As im waiting vaughan wins his division in bjj, getting some subs (anaconda/guillotine) and 800 points or something, I miss it cause of sam and his love for burgerking. I ask the receptionist but she says my night of fighting may be over.. no opponent.. Dad swears.
At the courts, there are two teams. Il nick name them the jock dick-heads and the righteous few friends. So many jocks and only a few freinds. RFF say that they are richer than them, in accordance to the bonds they have with eachother, JDH scoff and laugh at what they just heard and get a "explode in to poo particle" basket ball thrown thier way. That causes rumbles and i end up scrappin a couple, im never on the bad end but i feel like i cant to damage with my punches, as much as i want to put their lights out more than anything. get some good gnp with elbows after a standing sweep, good enough i guess, 3rd fight?
With carlo at his pad, talkin about how he will do mma once his leg and foot is healed. Which foot i think, but never ask. He says he's coming up on 32 years of age, sheeeit i question the reality of that statement, but continue oblivious dreaming. He says he leaving town. And core will be disbanded cause of his child that he has to take care of. I think what about alex but never say anything. I try to be as carefully sensitive to this topic as i can. I almost shed a tear when he tells me as i reminisce about core and saudade about what training at core could have brought to me. He says someone could live at his old place when he leaves as it is a pretty sweet pad, maybe levi or something. coremma protective gear that is fully post apocalyptic compatible. looks like skyrim HDragon armour.

I remembered more dreams last night then I ever have in a single sleep session, which is really super awesome for me! so yaaay!

Now if I can just get lucid.


Dreaming within a dream, trying to escape dream!! Fragment. Induction Method attempted: MILD

I was dreaming that I was dreaming, and in this dream I was trapped! I don't know how or why, but I was trying to escape my dream, and could not find my way out. I tried to escape the dream several times (in my dream) and even tried to wake myself up, to no avail! These dream-within-dreams are very freaking confusing!!


Rodents, Wolves and Bears, OH MY Sunday august 25th 7:00 am Induction method attempted: WILD/WBTB

A FULL dream, huraaay!

My dad goes to town, and comes back with two pets for Mom. One of them is like a giant overgrown rat. I want to say it's closer to a guinea pig, but that doesn't feel right, even if it looked the same. The other pet was a strange creature; I don't know their name, but I think they are an Australian critter I know I've seen before on TV. It had grey-blue fur, long back legs, shorter front ones, a long tail and big ears. We named it Roosey because it hops around like a Kangaroo, though it is also capable of skittering around really fast. The other critter was never referred to by name in the dream; I'll call him Mouse. Mouse was round, fluffy, with brown fur.

My dream skips forward to that evening, after Dad brings home the pets. They are not kept in a cage though. Instead, they are able to roam free; we just have a wood divider separating the living room half of the house from the kitchen half of the house. This way, our dog Meatball can't get to them to eat them. I end up going into the living room for some reason, and the divider doesn't close all the way behind me; Mouse and Roosey come flying through it into the living room. I leap on top of Meatball, holding him down and call for help, because he is struggling like mad to get to the two critters.

Dad scolds me for letting the divider open like that, and then has me let the little guys outside to go to the bathroom. It is dark outside, and I need a flashlight. I get them, and take them outside; Mom and Dad warns me not to let them get too far away, Well.

As soon as the door opens, BOTH of them just run as fast as they can, waaay in the yard. I can't see them anymore because it's so dark. Mouse, with her waddling gait, comes into view; she's not quite as far away as Roosey. I scoop the lil' critter up, and start looking for Roosey; I'm about halfway into the yard by now. I can't find her at first, and then...THERE! I see her, but she is right next to a fox! I start to go after, but she hops away again. I decide I need help, so I turn around, heading back to the house. I get to the driveway, when I notice a large grey-white timberwolf sitting in the driveway, staring at me. Knowing they seldom attack humans and needing to get Mouse inside, I walk by. Then, right by the door, theres ANOTHER wolf. As I head up the stairs, the wolf tries to snatch Mouse from my hands. I yank away, its fangs grazing my hand. I throw open the door and dash inside.

Breathless I tell mom and dad about Roosey and the wolves and fox. Mom takes mouse, and examines my hand while Dad goes into their bedroom to get his rifle. Mom sighs, shaking her head. I'm only scratched; she's worried about Roosey. She tells me that it's messed up--Dad doesn't often get attached to these rodent type pets, like mice and stuff, but he's really bonded with Roosey, and now she's probably out there, hurt or worse. She says it's just not fair. I agree, looking out the window into the darkness. Then Dad comes out, rifle in hand, and I go outside with him to show him where Roosey is at.

WE go outside, and dad fires several shots into the air. THe wolves all dash away immediately; there wasn't just the two I saw, an entire PACK of them runs off. I lead dad to where Roosey is, and find her. But she's rolling around on her back, badly injured. I'm about to pick her up when I notice a bear at the edge of our yard (a very large brown-bear). I point out the bear to Dad--it hasn't noticed us yet. He takes aim with his Rifle, putting his fingers to his lips to make sure I stay quiet. But for some reason, he doesn't shoot. The bear looks up, and starts plodding towards us, and STILL Dad doesn't shoot the bear. I'm freaking out now, and I ask him what the heck to do, and he hands me a shotgun that he did NOT have when he came out. AND it's not the gun we have IRL, it's a double barrel shotgun. Dad is watching the bear, and I aim the gun. I ask, as it gets creepily close, if he wants me to shoot it. He doesn't answer. My fingers wrap around the trigger, but it's so sensitive that at my slightest touch, the gun goes off and misses the bear completely!

The bear stands up on his hind legs, roars, and then notices the same fox from earlier. It is skittering by him, and the bear claws him, shoving the animal in his mouth. Dad tells me the bear isn't interested in us, and tells me to grab Roosey. We start to head back into the house, and Roosey needs to get to the vet. The alarm wakes me up as we are crossing the yard.


Demonic Dog 10:00 am Fragment, INDUCTION method attempt: WILD/WBTB

Dad and I are in the house. He explains to me that our pet, Tori, is actually a demonic dog--even if she has not yet shown it. HE tells me that she will be used to do things, such as enter our world, if something isn't done about it. For some reason, he believes that I have to be the one to kill the dog. I don't want to do it, the thought saddens me deeply, but I go grab my survival knife that I keep in my room (for when we go camping or fishing). I hide the knife behind my back, and approach Tori. I hug her, give her kisses and pet her...and then I stab her twice in the chest, very quickly. I then carry Tori outside where I sit with her, holding her head in my lap, and apologize for having to do this to her, and for her being used by evil. I am crying at this point, watching her die. I wake up still feeling the intense emotions from the tail end of the dream fragment.


A Knight Beheaded Time unknown Induction Technique Attemted: WILD/WBTB

Another good vs. evil dream, with a bit of humor at the end. I'm in some strange area where all of the plant life is grey and dying. The trees are dead, the grass is dead and crumbly beneath my feet. There is an entire crowd of people around me, most dressed like modern day people, but there is one man, a knight in full silver colored armor. We are all enclosed in some giant fenced in area, which leads to some open arena-style place with two exits. We are being herded towards that arena place. Someone speaking from an unknown location, as if from some kind of loud-speakers, tells us that there are two men, one for each exit. One of the men is evil, the other is not. We are told that we have to choose which one is the evil person, and make our way through these shadowy-looking beings in the arena area, and kill him. If we choose correctly, we can all go home. If we choose the wrong person, our world will be in grave danger.

The knight steps up first; that's when I notice he is blind, wearing some kind of headband over his eyes. He leaps over the fence into the arena, drawing his sword. He immediately slashes at one of the creatures, killing it. Then he turns behind him, and slashes at the fence! One of the creatures laughs at him, and beheads the knight with long claws. His head sails over the fence, his body collapsing to the ground. The head then floats back into the arena, re-attaches itself to the knights body, and he closes his eyes and looks as if he's just gone to sleep! I wake up at this point.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing video game that looked like spiral knights, except that main character was a dragon.

Dream 2(fragments):

Was playing some FPS that at first looked like counter strike but then everyone started using stuff like laser cannons, rocket launchers and jetpacks, and then someone blew a hole in the wall and there was some kind of spiral knight style-ish place behind it, i think based on graveyard level from actual game.

Dream 3(fragments):

Was playing some video game and there was some level that used lots of metal textures.

I was at an outdoor Starbucks with Niki. I went up to order and the woman recognized me. She said, "I'm sorry but we've run out of the Mocha Cookie Crunch(or whatever drink it was)" which was what I normally would order. I was fine with that though because I was planning on ordering something different anyway. I told her I wanted a vanilla latte and a vanilla frappicino. She already had a cup with my name written on it like she knew what I was going to order. I was waiting for her to come back to the register to pay but she just looked at me and said, "okay?" asking if the order was correct. I said ok and went to sit down by Niki. We were sitting at small white table outside a gas station next to the coffee shop. There was a dead dog in the middle of the lot. It didn't seem weird at all. Just a dead dog that no one had gotten around to cleaning up yet. The woman came to me and handed us the drinks. I asked Niki if I should go up and ask the woman if I could pay her for the drinks. She looked at me with a serious expression and said, "Let me ask you this, Laura. Do you have wonderful dreams?" Taken off guard by this question, I tried to think of something insightful to say but all I came up with was, "sometimes."

8/25 at a restaurant like Bill Johnson and Bill introduces himself first to the table with my uncle D at it. Me my son and my dad are at another table a round booth my son is sitting to the left on the other side of the opening and my dad over to my right at the back of the booth. At my uncles table it seems like they do a cheer with drinks and then my uncle points over to us and the owner comes to our table he does a prayer.. prays as he thrusts around praying in an odd manner like filled with the Holy Spirit. But then it feels a little like he is mocking. His privates keep hitting me in my elbow as he thrusts around and towards the end I can feel that it is getting engorged, weird! Everyone's eyes are closed except mine as I look to make sure he's not bumping into my son and wondering if my dad notices how he is praying. But no, everyones eyes are closed and I'm the only one who sees everything that's happening. When he says amen my dad says "good old fashioned prayer! " someone asks me "you didn't like this place back in either home or some vacation spot?" I responded I must have gotten a bad dish last time. My uncle D sent me his Pepsi and asked if I liked it. I said yes thanks but I realized it tasted water down like the ice had melted too much. Another weird dream I'm peeing out onto a wide array of rocks and covering them all and someone joins me like one of those long urinal troughs in mens bathrooms and after a moment starts to turn towards me still peeing so I turned towards him to get him back it was kind of childish weird but didn't feel weird during the dream kind of like 2 kids spraying water at each other. But weird! And then a bizarre dream that may have been at a bazaar , many weird dreams tonight. For some reason I was selling hole set or case of handcrafted costume jewelry? Made with mostly red stones to a store that buys. After awhile it felt like they were ripping me off. The number they wrote on my glass case looks like a lot of money but then I realized but I need to convert it to know how much it really is. Two of the items did not have a price underneath it and I was talking to the lady behind the counter and saying if he's not offering on those two I can keep them, correct? I wait and wait to see how much money I am getting and other customers come and go before me when I ask what about me? Then they produce an envelope I open it up it has some local currency some US currency some Spanish currency and some other currency but it all looks like small donations and doesn't add up to much. He says check the balance on the cash card tomorrow and you will be surprised. It seems I am outside the store now and I hear a commotion up above somewhere I look and there is a teenager maybe 18 for my son's age falling or jumping off of a cliff it has a temple or some kind of building at the top and I wonder if they were pushed or jumped because of the commotion right before. But then another young person comes and jumps on their own and then another and then they are lining up and jumping at the same time at least 20 or more before I wake up. Before I wake up I was looking to see if any of them look like my son. And asking why are they doing this what is going on? Crowd is screaming I can't watch as they hit the ground maybe about 200 yards away.