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Broke the dry spell. Not specific. When I realized I was somewhere different - I did the hand test and confirmed I was dreaming. Tried to fly through the walls and windows and there was resistance - which made me doubt lucidity. I broke through and went flying. Very little control though. Some random dark neighborhood. I tried to will the Hollywood Bowl. No dice. I spun around to get a different setting and it didn't work.

Wednesday 5/29/13

Last night bed 12 - 6;58am

DR: streets of town I grow up in

WBTB 6:58 - 7:09
Totally fell asleep. I'm in town where my gramma lives. We have a huge family gathering. I'm kissing two cousins, saying hi to family from New Zealand (not in WL). Looking at a map and trying to figure out which part of the world is on it. No identifiable features, just some mountains and grass. I know I'm just visiting and I'm avare of where i live in WL.

There is something like a party bus on the street, all painted with colorful images. My dad falls asleep while he is sitting at the table eating and when he wakes up, I know he had LD.

Three words: Giant freaking ants. This is probably the earliest or the second earliest dream that I remember. They were fire ants about as big as a person. They crawled in and out of holes in the corners of the ceiling, as well as around the edges of the ceiling. It was the ultimate nightmare for me at around the age of five, and since then, giant bugs have sprung up in several of my dreams.

At times there is a game UI on the screen and sometimes there isn't. At first I am Lara Croft, I see a screen where you can name the character anything you want. I'm thinking "I could name her anything I want, and I pick Lara?" still, it makes sense, I think. That is who she is, changing her name will not alter that.
Then I am running through a department store. A monster kind of like...a rock genie, (I don't know, it's all blocky but it's blue its torso tapers down into a slender cord that attaches to a sidestack), it gets in my face and the UI pops up. I scroll through my weapons and realize I'm all out of ammo. So I jump forward and punch it until it dies.
I pass through the department store and I'm desperate for ammo. Jack appears, much like he did before. He's tall, wearing a black suit, thin black tie and a white shirt, his hair is completely black this time. He beckons to me,
"Hey! This way!"
I'm so relieved to see him, now I'm not alone. "You okay to pass through the Wastes? We're almost Home."
"Yes, but Jack, I'm all out of ammo."
"I'll show you where you can get more."
The area is like a basement with a low roof, but it's covered in rock and dirt. I want to think of it as a cave, but it's too regular for that. Blue monsters dot the otherwise barren landscape. He turns to face them and instructs me on how to open a secret weapon/ammo cache in the wall while he guards my back. It all seems too easy, but I'm not about to look a gift horse in the mouth.
"Get as much as you can carry, there isn't another one of these for a while."
I see us from overhead, tiny 2D pixelated versions of ourselves. I'm no longer Lara Croft but Annie from Covert Affairs, wearing a floor length black strapless dress with a slit almost up to the hip.

I'm in the department store again. I'm myself, my dad walks with me to where the rock genie was.
"Aaawww...you killed the guardian?" he says.
"What? It was in my way."
"I really wanted a beard though..." he whines.
"I don't know what you're crying about, the beards are still here." I gesture to the sidestack and take a moment to think about how stupid all the beards look. They're not even hair, they're pieces of cloth folded into small oval shapes in plastic. He walks away without taking one. I shrug and make my way around the store.
My sister is there with her son, except he isn't as old, he's only three here. And he's making a mess. I discretely try to pick up after him. I realize I'm embarrassed, not because he's making a mess, but because people watching will just think he's being unruly. They don't understand that he's autistic and isn't comfortable here. I'm worried they'll think badly of him. (He really is autistic, by the way.)
After a moment I decide to leave the mess.

Then I'm at work, standing at the appliance desk. Jack is waiting for me, sitting the wrong way in a chair. He smiles.
"Jack!" I think, delighted he has followed me here. Now I am Annie again, I try to flirt with him without being outrageous about it. I can't seem to find a balance. We banter back and forth, but I don't remember any of it. I say something clever (which of course, I don't remember), and think about how I want to threaten to kiss him. I don't say it, but after a moment I take his face in both my hands and lean down to do it anyway.
Except that while I can feel his face between my hands, he disappears when I get close. I pull back, frowning. He gives me an apologetic look.
From a few feet away David Boreanaz rubs the back of his neck in a gesture of mild discomfort and chagrin at our situation. He's dressed the same as Jack.

Some other things happened, but I don't remember them.
Oh yeah, I have no idea how it relates to that, but i see a guy's face and he mumbles something at me.
"What?" I ask.
"I'M TERRIFIED OF SQUIRRELS!" He yells, startling me and DC.
I frown at him. The other DC leans over, "...is he serious?"
Then I see a mental picture of why he's terrified. Apparently he thinks they're ravenous and blood thirsty and if he opens the closet all the squirrels will fly out and tear him to bits. I think he's being stupid.

The other night I was dreaming and got in that delicious state where I was aware of the dream. A man in a gnarly, high HP truck was chasing a woman down the freeway. SHe did this brilliant fake-out maneuver using an off ramp, and, at the last second, veered back onto the freeway. I was in the RH lane and drove past him as he was negotiating the off ramp. Our eyes met and I knew it was going to be bad. I'm trying to get away in my little 4 cylinder and he's bearing down... I take an off ramp, and he's on me. I think, entirely lucid now, "Ok, then I'll just fly away." SO I opened the door and did so. This is usually so exciting that I awaken. I managed to breathe myself back into the dream, but was no longer lucid... It took a bit of time to find a thermal, but I hooked one, climbed out, and was smugly looking at him from far above, thinking, "Ha-ha!" But that's when I realized that even as I had the ability to fly, he had the ability to stretch. SO did his dobermans...

I decided to awaken.

My lucid dreams are always about flying. It's just where my mind goes. I've been doing it for a long time, and it's never NOT been flying. (Not complaining, at all! Just wondering what it means. My favorites are when I leap and become airborne!)

I was with my family, including my mother's side grandparents (Who are dead IRL) and we were in a house by the beach. We seemed to be quite a bit above ground level, perhaps two or three stories.
Anyways, we were watching the weather report, and a woman was talking about a storm coming in. I looked out the window to see that the sky was a dark grey color. It was raining and very windy.
The setting looked vaguely similar to a beach resort my family visits in Puerto Rico every spring.
The weather woman stated that the weather station once a week plays a song over the TV as a special treat to everyone watching. The songs they chose, supposedly were always very good.
My father told me to go start the car (for whatever reason) and gave me a key. I was disappointed that I had to leave the room because I wanted to know what song the weather station would play.

I was with my best friend Jayden(who I've mentioned before)and we were gonna go to her house and hang out. I got in the car with her and her mom. We started off driving until her mom said "Oh, Jayden can't hang out today. She has to go to LA." I have no clue why she needed to go to LA but anyways.
She turned around and started driving me back to my house. I have like my own "dream house", I guess. I've seen it at least three times before in previous dreams. It's a big pink mansion.
So, we began pulling up to it, but Jayden's mom never actually stopped the car for me to get out. She just kept driving. She past my house and turned around. I told her "Um, I haven't actually gotten out of the car yet." She ignored me and drove away from my house.
We then entered a tiny freeway, packed with cars. The thing was only one lane, and it was also about to fall apart. I got nervous that it would do just that, but no one else cared.
Eventually, it did fall to pieces. Jayden got knocked out or something, so being the wonderful angel friend that I am, I pulled her out of the car and threw her onto the freeway on land. Oh, and her mom died by the way(sorry, Jayden).

Last Day of School Velociraptor

I started out at my house, but it was slightly altered. People from my grade and two grades above me were there. Then suddenly I was at this carnival-like place and was on this ride where you sit on a seat and it moves you up and down in circles. I was wondering why I was on such a childish ride (dang it, almost realized)! After that, I went on to a bus with others and started driving. Immediately after we started driving everything got dark and gloomy. I didn't notice it being unusual at all (could have been lucid right there)!

Everyone started freaking out on the bus, and I found out a VELOCIRAPTOR was trying to break into the bus via front/side door. I was sitting near the back of the bus, so I ran to block the back emergency door (I don't know why) and held with all my might. The Velociraptor broke through the front door. The Velociraptor and I met eyes for a moment, then it came darting after me through the bus aisle. I waited for it to get close enough to lunge at me, then dived into the seat next to me, hoping the Velociraptor would break through the back door with all its momentum. I was wrong. It stopped within 1 foot of me. I couldn't wait, I jumped at it and kicked it in the face, then punched it. I then ran down the aisle and exited the bus. For some reason I noticed there were tons of people running around screaming (I think my grade & two grades above me). I found some guy that told me to follow him, we had no time. I ran with him around to the other side of the bus, ran in between two houses, and broke off into a sandy area that was actually a beach with the ocean. It looked pretty amazing, deep blue and waves were splashing. I took a left and ran down the beach (which oddly didn't feel like running on sand beneath me) and followed the guy. I looked back and saw that the bus was on my elementary school playground! When I stopped looking back, I saw a lot of tall grass and had to run through it. We were going to a giant mansion at the end of the tall grass. The guy yelled back at me to "hurry up, we are being followed". It felt very weird running through the tall grass. As much as I would push myself and run as hard as I could, I couldn't and felt slightly slo-motion, but not really.

We burst through the front door. There were three ways to go; left, right, or straight. We chose straight. I somehow realized that this was the guy that I was following's mansion. We went straight down a stairway, then took a right down the stairway, and finally a left. We got to the end of the stairs and into a small restaurant-like kitchen, with stainless-steel and silver stuff everywhere. I turned around, and heard something coming down the stairs. I ran to a corner of the kitchen. There was also another area to the left of the kitchen and an area behind it, but I don't remember what was there or why I didn't go there. Then I saw a shadow coming down the stairway. Then there was the Velociraptor. I grabbed a pan and waited for it to come at me. It lunged at me, but I dodged it at moved to the other side of the kitchen. Then the guy started fighting it and eventually got it to the ground. All of a sudden, the guy turned into a Velociraptor! He got near the other Velociraptor and curled up into a ball with it. I didn't know what the heck was happening! Then they stopped and he turned back into a human and said that he was its brother. I was so confused, but then the "brother Velociraptor" disappeared and I heard another thing coming down the stairs. The guy told me to get into this little cupboard. It was metal, and there was a little slit in the front and side. I saw another Velociraptor through the slit, and come towards the cupboard, glancing around everywhere. I didn't know where the guy went. Then the Velociraptor went to the side of the cupboard and barely looked at me when the guy popped into view through my front slit. I then took another frying pan and somehow smacked the Velociraptor through the small slit. I came out of the cupboard and the guy jumped the Velociraptor and killed it. He then turned to me and said "He wasn't my brother."

I then found myself in the front yard of the giant mansion. The grass wasn't as tall as it was before, but definitely needed a good mowing. We ran to the right and came around to where the bus was previously. We found two big tents, and then he darted to the left. I kept running straight. I went and talked to some people in the tents, and found out this was all a GAME FOR THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! There were two teams: the humans and the Velociraptors. For some reason, the Velociraptors team still looked like humans. Of course, both teams were supposed to be humans as it was a game for school. I wasn't sure what the object of the game was, so I went to a tent to get some weapons. Everyone had some pretty good weapons, all mostly melee weapons made out of steel. I asked for someone to make me a weapon, and I got a cardboard knife I looked around and found something with a cardboard handle and a slight metal tip. I think it was a tool for yard work or something. Anyways, I went outside of the tent and did some stuff (don't remember what). I then heard a scream. I ran to where it was. It was my old crush being attacked by two real Velociraptors. I sprinted towards them. I tackled one Velociraptor that was closest to her and heard its bones being crushed when I made contact. I was pretty proud of myself, but then I saw that the other Velociraptor had killed her! I yelled with rage and went on a rampage, killing the Velociraptor and went and killed others I found around the area with immense strength and speed. I then heard the bell I used to hear when recess was over in elementary school. Then I heard a voice that sounded like it was over an intercom (which seemed weird because it was outside) that said that it was time to switch sides. I then turned from the human team to the Velociraptor team. Then everyone went to the school for lunch as apparently it was halftime.

THE END

There are things I have forgotten, but this dream has helped me notice that I do (oddly enough) have a good amount of dreams with dinosaurs, especially Velociraptors. I wonder why, but I'm glad I found out one of my Dream Signs .

#187 - Around 5:45AM - DILD

I went for a weak WILD attempt after getting up with my son for a bit and got a DILD.

I am at what appears to be the house my sister and her husband first lived in. I am horribly late for work and think about calling in. Floyd offers to pay me $80-$90 to work the day for him.

I look outside and see Kindle with the baby. Then Jared, Tim and Brenda. Jared is saying hi to everyone but totally ignores me. I feel hurt and confused. I am shocked they traveled so far with an infant.

We all go inside and I walk way from everyone in thought. It occurs to me that this might be a dream so I do a nose plug. It's not a clean blow through but I just know I'm dreaming anyway.

I turn around to talk to everyone but the living room is dark and empty. It looks like grandma's old mobile home now and when I turn back around I see the back door and step out.

The sky is dark and starry. I remember my goal to travel to a distant star by zoom flying. I pick one and focus. The star gets large and bright with the usual strange distortions but I never seem to leave the ground. Not wanting to force anything I look for the moon instead. When I look all around, I only see a uniform blanket of stars in the sky. Must be a new moon tonight. I become dizzy and fall into darkness.

I don't want to wake up so I visualize the back door until I see it again. I think about simple shapes until I see it before me open and swung outwards. Wanting to stabilize, I reach out to feel the texture and mass of it. I note how vivid it is and begin to steady myself...

Unfortunately that's all I can remember.

Comments: I have been quite busy, stressed, not getting enough sleep lately, etc. so more fragments.

Dreams00: I had two interesting dreams during the night, but can't recall them at all.

WBTB: tried to WILD but it didn't work out

Fragment1: Reading posts in DV

Fragment2: In another dream, I am reading a text showing the real name of one DV member. It sounded very strange

Fragment3: some sexy stuff again....

Fragment000: There was another fragment, I can't recall it now.

Date: May 29, 2013
Method: Nothing, my goal was to just go to bed without trying for anything but ended up with a DILD (why is it when you don't give a damn, something happens?).
Sleep Time: Can't remember but I believe I had gotten around 7-8 hours of sleep.

Dream

Dreamed I was trying on Christmas costumes (Santa costume, then an Elf) and I knew that this had to be a dream...suddenly, I felt strong vibrations with every step I took (within the dream) and suddenly, I was at my bedside. I can't remember what happened because it felt like I was fading to the black, so I tried to control the dream by rubbing my hands together. This helped me and I remember having the strong vibrations again and I was standing in the door of my bedroom (for some reason, when I become Lucid, I can feel vibrations and I am always back in my bedroom). For a second, I told myself to control my emotions and not get excited or I would wind back up in my body...as soon as I said this, I was back in my body . As soon as I woke up, I wrote everything down in my dream journal so I wouldn't forget and went back to bed...oh well, at least I was lucid!

So it took me forever to get my brain to shut up and let me go to sleep last night. I am not going to really try to have any truely Lucid LDs except when I don't have to worry about getting myself out of bed for work the next day.

Anyway, the only fragment I remember from last nights sleep session: I am in a strange place with people I don't know, and they are all trying to get me to believe one individual is in control of everything (not falling for this). As the scene goes along, I find a cat and it's belly has been cut open. It's guts are still inside and the cat is alive, so I stitch up his belly. I continue along and this same thing happens about 5 times. I'm thinking "What kind of nutball slices cats bellies open and leaves them alive." Well I focus on what is a ways ahead of me and I see the psycho guy slicing a cat open, I run up to try and stop him and h flashes a stupid governement badge at me (like that makes it all okay) WTH?!

In the first dream(At least the first I can remember) I had(In the dream, I'm not a weirdo haha) touched some like kid that's like 5 or 6 and I didn't mean to but his Dad was like ready to kill me kinda thing with anger. I had to face up to him but really didn't want to. At the time I was in some house and outside there was like a friend reunion and my friend Sean was there who I haven't seen in like a year and a half and I was pumped to hang out with him so I went outside and he had a ponytail(LOL) and he seemed very different and we went over to my friends group and they were like really weird now that Sean had arrived for some reason it was really weird.

End of non-lucid fragment.

Second fragment

I was exploring through these fields and I found a house and it was David Beckham's(I know, weird). I went up to say what's up and he gave me like an email address where I should contact him that he'll actually reply and not the regular fan-mail "Never answer" type thing.

I got in contact with him and got him to show up when my friend Zak was there(Zak's idol is Beckham, he has his hairstyle etc) and I was like haha this'll be so beast so I got him to come along and Zak was trying to take a picture on his phone of him and Beckham face to face cause it looked beast but his phone ran out of battery which annoyed him. Then it felt like me and Beckham were kinda friends which was awesome haha.

End of fragments.

I don't even remember much. I know it was dark though :b

I had a cold some time ago and I experienced some really strong, feverish, nightmares. Going to share them here and maybe some of you have had similar experiences. After i had these I kind of put down the dreaming for a while as the power of them scared me. Clearly a downside of getting better at dreaming, all dreams become stronger, no matter good or bad.

Dream 1
I was floating in darkness. Just complete and empty darkness. In the darkness there were bubbles. Bubbles of knowledge floating in a calm and dark eternity. Among them I was floating. I could not choose were to float, I just did. At some times i passed through the bubbles of knowledge. And the knowledge were so strong, and so terrifying. It felt like my mind was gonna burst like a soap bubble. And then i had passed through. But then there were another bubble of terrible knowledge.

I can't remember what knowledge they contained, just that it were very strong and very powerful. I woke up covered in sweat and with my heart racing.

Dream 2
I woke up and I was completely convinced that there was a snake beside me in the bed. I could feel it. It was there. I did not dare to move. Then i jumped out of the bed and ran across the room and lit the ceiling lamp.

There were, of course, no snake there. But it felt so real, and was so vivid.. Scary as fuck.

That's it! Is it normal that the dreams you dream while sick is stronger and darker then normally? Because I never experience nightmares normally.

/McHorse