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[Monday, September 10th, 2012]
I had a few dreams... don't recall them. Smoking really does degrade my recall. But it was also the stress me and Alex made for ourselves prior to falling asleep: we had got in a fight and she ended up going all the way to the apartment complex by foot. I followed her the entire way, and she even almost broke up with me. But either way... that day was the strangest day ever. It was like a dream. I loved it, still.

[Sunday, September 9th, 2012] [5am]
I'm at my Mom's house. Memory skips to... Brent and someone else, maybe Nathan, we look at a paper being held by someone and see a WANTED face and are shocked. We find a "Christmas" ornament object laying on a piece of blanket/tissuepaper on the ground by the printer and take it outside. It's outside and we're planning on breaking it. That's when we hear Casey SCREAM at us- in a hissy fit. We go back inside and Mum is taking Casey's side and starts yelling at Brent. It's unfair and I can see that Mum is obviously wrong so I run at her and exclaim, "YOU KNOW WHAT?" She shoves me when I get to close against my rib and there's a sharp pain that lasts for only a moment. I use that to my advantage and try to make her feel guilty, "OW MY RIBS. You just punched me in my RIBS." But before I know it, I think to drop out of this, "fight" and wonder if Brent and the other person can just work this out... but I know that Mum will end up winning and get it "her" way, without me. I wake up.

(I have more dreams, but I wake up with a jolt because of my Gramma waking me up. Godammit. No one understands... maybe I should tell them about it?)

(I spend the rest of my day with B & C on my hands. It's a lucid day. I'm positive I'll lucid dream tonight.)

Last night was pretty fun. My friend Nicholas was in my dream. He was showing me his video collection. He put some type of high tech disc into this DVD looking disc slot, and the machine opened up into a whole seven foot shelf stacked full with his game collection.
I began looking through it, and said "Wow, that's a nifty ass disc you got there. It's so small!" We looked towards each other and said "Ha, it's bigger on the inside." at the same time. For those of you who don't know, it's a Doctor Who reference.

We looked through the collection and put in a game. The game like usual in my dreams put my mind at the controls. It was a very interesting play, to be honest. It was a mixture of a few games put together including one of my favorites, League of Legends. I was running around as one of the characters, Darius. Nicholas showed me a few tricks in the game, one of them being an item that gave your fighter some super badass wings that added to your attack a whole bunch.

After that I found myself in another scene. This scene is hard to describe, but I'll do my best. I was walking on a scaffold surrounded by absolute void darkness- except for a room that I could see about ten feet above the scaffoled floor. It was lit, but I wasn't at it's level. On the scaffold with me was a little tinker robot. One that you would see on a video game as one of the low leveled enemys that dimly walked around and was defeated with one hit. I walked up to it, it stood about one foot tall- and I gave it a smack. It fell over and began short circuiting and sparking all over the ground so I back up right before it made a small explosion and into the blackness. I walked around and another one appeared around the edge. They didn't bother me, they were just kinda funny looking. I decided that I'd had it with this weird scaffold scene, so I tried to climb into the room up above. I managed to do that, but I can't stress enough how hard and exhausting it was for some reason, lol. And it made me terribly nervous because I didn't want to fall into whatever was down below, it was absolutely black and I knew that it was a very far fall.

Once I got into the room, 'physically' exhausted- I saw a man talking to another man and woman. It was a well lit room with sofas and a few decoritive plants, a nice carpet and some paintings. At this point I thought to myself, am I dreaming? Because I've been practicing awareness, asking myself that question often enough in the day time. I had the feeling that I was, but the man talking distracted me. He began talking about how I was a lucid dreamer and that I needed to tell everyone about all my experiences. But he said it in a strange way that irritated me, and I was still so exhausted that I just walked out.

That was the end of the night as far as I remember. I'm glad that I even thought to check myself in a dream. Unfortunetly my mind didn't follow through this time, but I'm getting there.

Non-dream Dream

Dream 1

I am hiking in Joshua Tree National Park with my wife and a group of about 15 people. I see a large, orange, striped tiger that looks exactly like a Bengal tiger cross the trail up ahead. We call it a bobcat since they are native to this region even though it is clearly a tiger. We all consider ourselves to be extremely lucky to spot one of these creatures in the wild. Then all of a sudden the bobcat circles around behind us and starts fake attacking. It continues to circle us for a while. My wife ways something in another language and I ask her to translate (I don’t remember what she says). Next someone from the group asks “Is this really happening?” I wish a professional was in our group to tell us how to respond to an aggressive tiger.

Next we are all in my house – specifically the kitchen. The bobcat keeps circling us and we begin to yell at it and start slapping its back to try and scare it away. Finally the bobcat tries to get out of the house but the sliding door is closed. We open it and the bobcat goes out into the back yard. I notice that my cat, V, is out by the pool and I think to myself “Oh it’s gonna be so cool to see how V interacts with the bobcat!” V meowed and the bobcat sees him. At that moment I realize what is going to happen and I am flooded with sorrow and anger (at myself for letting this happen). The bobcat grabs V in his mouth in a flash and carries him over the fence. The whole way out of the yard V’s eyes are locked with mine. I drop to my knees, head in hands, and start crying. A huge wave of emotions and thoughts come over me – it is my fault, the one thing that unconditionally loves me is dead because of me, etc.

I wake up with the song “Karma Police” by radio head stuck in my head (this is what you get…).

Dream 2:

My next door neighbors get a new front lawn installed.

Dream 3:

I am at a pool with my wife and we have two kids. I ask some guy for something - I think he is in a phone booth and I ask him for money.

Was working at some office with Leo. I was being lazy and the manager came to yell at me. She was a woman and I sweet talked my way out of trouble. She agreed to go out to dinner. I laughed and told Leo I would stick her and get a raise. Everyone left the office except for Leo kara and I. The whole place transformed into a giant palace like place with never ending rooms and adventures. We found a weird vial of green liquid. And went to find out what it was. A professor told me that inside the liquid was a tincture of mushrooms. That was an amazing find because Leo and I were looking for mushroom and the palace was A perfect place to take them. We each took a teaspoon and decided to take more later if it wasn't strong enough. Kara and I went off to explore the palace. We ended up in a giant room with Indian women in it. They were very welcoming and gave us a place to sit. We talked with them for a while and left. I was seeing the carpet start to move and just followed Lara wherever she went. We met one guy who pretended to stab kara. He turned out to be someone famous and kara left with him to explore. I wanted the shrooms to be stronger so I left to take more. I saw Leo and he was tripping out really hard. I left him and went to explore on my own. I went to the Indians and was showed out because I did not have a woman with me.

I dreamed I was dating Brian M. from college. I went on vacation to Red River, NM, and was trying to get a calling card to talk to him. Also trying to chat with him online. I was having device failure all over the place. When it was almost time for me to go home, I was thinking about breaking up with him for some reason.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

This is one of them "OH I HAVE AN AWESOME ITEM!" -wake up- "Oh..." type of dreams.

I was in school, lurking about in the corridors, with some friends. Can't quite remember who they were though. I was holding a really cool katana, with a red handle. The blade was slightly serrated, making it look even more awesome, it was really light and easy to handle too. I looked around and saw this guy run out from the corner of the corridor. He looked like he was a zombie or something. For some reason, I looked at him ready to attack, but put my sword away and said that he wasn't a zombie. He just stood there staring at the wall from this point on. I turned back around an walked into one of the classrooms, only to see Lynn Thompson from cold steel knives. It was cool how I had a sword on me at the time. He was sat behind a table full of cold steel weapons like axes, swords, knives, machetes. I showed him my weapon, he said nothing, I said nothing and I just turned away and spoke to myself. Nice one! I turned back around and noticed that Lynn was actually a DJ, playing death metal. Everyone on the dance floor was playing invisible instruments in time to the song. I believe the song was "The Absence - Wartorn". I then walked over to my family, seeing people at tables eating as if it was a restaurant and a metal club. I started playing an invisible guitar, making myself look like a complete dick. I guess it was okay because everyone (about 30 people) were doing it too. I went outside and started running around the building with my sword. It seemed like I was chasing a group of nuns D:. After running around a few times, I stopped at the entrance and inside was a restaurant, with people sat mainly outside. This old lady asked me to change her food order. It was a spicy dish, but she didn't want it spicy . I walked into the building and then the dream started to fade.

It was very vivid but made no sense and was a bitch to recall.

Everything may not be in correct order...

I remember I was in this like play, and I was an adult female. A creepy guy was beside me talking about something, then I guess he scared me, as I went above into the air vents, and he followed, I remember spraying something on him, don't remember what it was. Skip ahead, I wanted to go to this one secluded island off the side of NYC, and I was trying to make a getaway, but I was stuck listening to this guy..He offered to help me, but I didn't trust him. I sneaked away, onto a nearby island, and decided I needed to get somewhere specific. I floated into the air, scared at first not knowing if I could control it, but then I figured it out. Fists forward, superman like but with both fists, I found flying downwards brought my up, up brought me down, left and right worked fine. I could build up a lot of speed, but never got too far into the sky. My main goal was not hitting power lines or cars, but also worrying what others were thinking of someone flying past them while they were driving. I fly all the way to one corner of town, and stop as it is getting dark, and I am getting tired. There is an antiques shop, and an old restaurant. I tell the guy trying to help me over cell phone where I am, and he comes, I eat while he is on his way. I look at the things left over, I guess I got like fries and something else, the containers they were in were like McDonalds, but darker red, and old fashioned. It appears there are monopoly stickers on them, so I read them, one said "Discount on blah blah" The other one was free shake or something like that.

So the guy comes over, I steal his car(rude..), find a few things inside throw them out, and run the car into a 20 foot deep or so ditch. I then fly away across the town, as I am on the exact other corner of the town that I wanted to be in, it is daytime again, and I just keep flying. I reach my destination, it looks like nobody has ever been on the island, I am in paradise.

I feel like there was more to this dream, like with the car, just that stop mainly, and at the beginning, that play.. I think I have been to that place before where the play was..I can feel another dream coming to me from either last night or a few nights ago, but I can't quite remember what it is about .-. Actually, it is probably yesterday's dream that I couldn't remember..

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #15: A Leaf on the Wind

Wife and I are staying in this huge, luxurious hotel room somewhere on vacation. It's daylight outside. Wife is putting away groceries in the hotel fridge but all I want to do is sleep. I curl up in the bed and nap. Seconds later, though, I'm awake and Wife is still putting away groceries.

I'm frustrated that my nap was so short and I nose pinch RC out of habit. I'm astonished that I am actually able to breathe. I blow it off, assuming that I simply didn't pinch hard enough. On the second try I get a deep, clear breath and I'm dragged into lucidity.

I want to get out of the room and go for Task of the Month (swim in the Cretaceous-era sea.) I tell Wife that I'm having a lucid dream and that I need to leave for a while. She looks skeptical. "You and your dreams. What about our vacation?" I tell her that I'll try to get back after I finish up but I know it's very, very unlikely that I'll be able to make a roundtrip across millions of years back. Better than her getting eaten by a mosasaur. Wife asks me to "at least help me put away the groceries" but I leave before she can suck me back into the dream plot. Even though I know it's a dream I feel guilty leaving all the work for her to do.

Daylight is streaming through the door at the end of the hallway and I walk outside. There's a wobble in my vision as I cross the threshold. I paw my hands through my hair and lick my arm and the dream scene snaps back into stability.

It's clear and cool like midday in Northern California. Across a broad field of grass I see a river snaking its way toward the horizon. I imagine that this river leads to the Cretaceous ocean and will myself to rise up into the air and fly. The wind buffets me as I soar into the air and my dream body feels light, insubstantial, and kite-like. I rise higher and higher into the air and tantalizingly I see the sparkle of the sea maybe just a mile further along the river.

I will myself to fly toward the ocean but the wind is just tossing me around as I rise higher into the air. I have no more mass than a leaf or a piece of paper. I try imagine that I have on rocket shoes but they just make this weak fizzling noise and the wind noise increases to a roar. Frustration gets the best of me and I either lose lucidity or fade to oblivion.

After a really long dry spell of lucids with some quality I had this dream, which is in many ways a good step forward for me.

I was walking around in the town I lived in before, it was slightly dark and it felt really empty, but it was a pleasant atmosphere. The general color scheme was very bluish, and the sky had a light lavender with darker blue clouds. I turned around a corner to the school I was in before (BKB) and for some reason I suddenly knew I was dreaming. I was pretty offline though, as though I was sleeping inside of the dream, but the routines I trained over the past month kicked in and I remembered I should stabilize myself in the dream when I get lucid. I did so and pulled together all my focus, then I started to walk towards the school, shouting out for my dream guide. I didn't have a lot of power in my voice and there was no response, so I walked a bit further and it became quite dark. I used Lumos one time to light up the place but it didn't last long so I somehow got the idea to summon a "Battle Mag-Lite", a 2m long version of a normal Mag-Lite. I saw some weird person with a futuristic looking armor behind a force field. Then I woke up at once and couldn't get back in.


By the way, if you happen to read my dream journal, this is the first entry I made after moving. So when I say hometown now, it has a different meaning than it had before this entry. If I happen to dream about one of the old towns I will specifically say so.

Spoiler for Improvement Notes:

Broke the dry spell of lucids with a little more quality - Very Good
Remembered routines to fully get into the dream - Very Good
Called for Dream Guide - Good
Got no response - Bad
Suddenly woke up without getting anything done - Bad

Dream - Lucid

I was at my house. It was like I was in a video game, and I was lucid. I don't remember at what point I became lucid, I just remember that I was.

I went into the piano room. It was very dark. I walked up to the piano, and faintly saw my mom sitting there, playing, though I didn't hear any music. I sat down on the piano bench next to her. She stopped playing. For some reason, I thought she was going to be upset with me. Instead, she put her left arm around me and hugged me. We pulled away, and in her mouth, I saw a light blue pacifier.

~

I was, again, in a video game. I was with my mom, dad, and my cat, though I'm not sure if my brother was there or not. We were outside in a field with trees, like a more realistic, less blocky-looking Minecraft. The sky was blue, but it didn't look sunny. My dad was holding something the whole time, I think it was my cat.

Also with us was JP. I didn't know how we got into this situation with him, I didn't know why he was there. He was being his sly, charming, shady self, and for some reason, we were following him around. I kept wanting to tell my dad that JP was bad news, but I didn't want to do it in front of JP, in fear that he would hurt me or my family. I was surprised my dad couldn't tell something was wrong with him, since he's a psychiatrist. Maybe he did, but had the same fear as I.

At some point, we met JP's dad, whom I've never actually met IWL (I don't think he ever met him either, actually). He had the shaggy brown hair and mustache, but he looked a bit different than my guide, I think. I only ever saw him at a distance. I want to say he was in some other "dimension" of the world.

We were then underneath some white stone pavilion. JP wanted access to the "rainbow realm", and my dad had the means to get there. I knew it was bad, bad news if JP had access to that world for some reason. But my dad gave him what he needed anyway. All I had wanted my dad to do was pull his gun and kill him, but I knew JP had a gun too, and I didn't want anyone else to get hurt who didn't have to. I then watched as JP put together the rest of his portal or whatever it was, and he was surrounded by a rainbow glow. I think it made him more powerful.

We were then in what was supposed to be the "rainbow realm", but it looked the same as the original dimension, save for JP's dad was there too. The next thing I knew, we were running from them. My mom and I were both holding a different Belle (my cat). The one mom was holding was white, like IWL Belle is, and the one I was holding was a smoky grey with some brown speckles mixed in. As we ran, JP and his dad threw knives at us. One hit the Belle that mom was holding. My mom tossed her dead body aside. As she did, I saw the body as it came by me. I saw the stab wound, and the cat was no longer white, but looked like the one I was holding.

I was getting tired; my legs felt like they were going to give out. JP's dad, the one pursuing me the most, threw a knife at me that narrowly missed. I then tripped and fell, exhausted. As I fell, to save the cat, I tossed her aside and hoped she ran away. JP's dad closed in on me, though I kept trying to crawl away.

I woke up before he caught me.

~

I was in my house in my brother and I's bathroom. There was something inside the shower behind the half-closed curtain, but I wasn't sure what it was. I took a brown Kroger shopping bag with some objects in it, and hit it, whatever it was; I never saw what I was hitting. I then saw Belle, my cat, come out of the shower. She looked like she had a little nick in her fur on her neck, but there was no blood or anything. She was just fine. I pet her a bit.

I then walked into some gym-type room with lots of exercise machines. Not where I needed to be, and as I was leaving, I saw a ton of machines on the wall, as in suspended on the higher parts of the wall. On one of them, an exercise bike I believe, I saw someone I went to high school with named Jason.

I was then back at my house. I went into my parents' bedroom. None of the lights were on, but it wasn't pitch dark, just kind of dim. I started to go into the bathroom, when I saw two white cats that looked like Belle right outside of it, one pouring blood from a wound in her head/neck area, and the other dead, her eyes lifeless and cloudy. I touched the dead one, who looked more like a kitten than a full-grown cat, and her body was cold. I looked to the other, a more grown up cat, and she was trying to keep walking on, trying to keep going despite the bloody gash in her head. I started to get very upset, because not only was a cat dead and the other critically wounded, I knew I had done it when I hit the thing in the shower. I knew it, and I knew that the Belle that I pet in shower did not get hit. It was weird. I started yelling for my brother to call someone so we could get this cat to the animal ER. I didn't have very high hopes of her making it.

~

I was at some house party with a bunch of people I didn't know. It was nighttime. I had been talking with some guy right outside the house, and apparently, I was being a smartass. In fact, I was an asshole apparently, according to everyone at the party. I don't think I was trying to be, really, I was just coming off that way.

They all started to kind of gang up on me, calling me a jerk and stuff, telling everyone who didn't know that I was a jerk. I took it by being a smartass back to them. Then, I decided to be nice and polite to everyone instead.
"I can be nice too," I said.
The main guy whom I had been talking to before said something like "Oh yeah?" back.
I then started to reintroduce myself to everyone with a huge, genuine smile on my face.
"Hi, I'm Krista, it's nice to meet you!" I said to the people around me, each individually, shaking their hands. That seemed to be working!

I then remember being inside the house for a little bit.

Then, outside again, I introduced myself to a guy that looked like Jonah Hill. I think someone brought him up to me so he could meet me. We chatted for awhile, and started to kind of like one another. I knew he was kind of getting a crush on me.

We then were on a brown, wooden boat on this very big lake. Things started to get Minecraft-y here (so who can guess what game I've been playing lately? ). The boat kept almost overturning, and then, I fell out of the boat. The water was very, very cold. So cold, my legs were going numb, and I could barely move them. The guy who looked like Jonah Hill (I'm just gonna call him Jonah from now on) helped me out of the freezing water and back into the boat.

The boat then overturned, and we both fell out. I remember being underwater and seeing him. I was trying to reach him before he went over a waterfall that was not far from us. The current would take us there if we weren't careful.

I then pulled out a dirt block (Minecraft) so I would float, and while underwater, picked up another dirt block, and swam more quickly to Jonah, who was heading straight for the waterfall. I gave him the dirt block so he'd float too, and pulled him to safety.

Then, we were back at the house where the party was, and he cutely asked me if he could have my number. I smiled and said
"Yeah! Hold on, let me go get my phone."
I went back in to get my phone.

Then, I woke up.

This time i will write about my non lucid dream that happened in 2012-07-19. It was at 8:40am-10:30am. So it was in my REM time. (but because of school i only get 8 hours of sleep from 23:00pm to 07:00am so I don't get new dreams lately). And as always sorry for mistakes

I was riding home from school on my bicycle. On bicycle frame was sitting a young boy. He was about 5 years old. I fell off my bicycle and the boy dissapeared. I got up and a computer keyboard appeared super fast in my hands. Keyboard keys were in wrong places so I started to fix them. As soon as I fixed them some blueberries appeared. I ate them and the keyboard dissapeared. It all happened while I was driving...
Suddenly bicycle tire blown up. A guy stopped near me and said "Boom! Your tire got blown". I didin't cared about the tire and i just drove ahead.
Near traffic lights I saw a group of people. One guy was carrying some flowers. He came to a girl and started to stab her with those flowers. In ten seconds everything became dark and started to rain. I took out my umbrella from backpack and I entered to it (Umbrella was something similar to a portable house with holes for legs). I asked "Does anyone want to hide in my umbrella." That guy which stabbed girl with flowers answered "Yeah" and he entered my umbrella. The umbrella started to shrink. It stopped to shrink at that time then we almost had some space to breath. Traffic lights turned on green and we ran through a street. I suddenly thought "Where is my bicycle!". I left the umbrella and started to run back from where i came. At middle of street I crossed a group of ladies and I woke up.

11/09/12

Dream 1 (Lucid)

I was straight away lucid and it was night time in the dream again. My last 3 lucids have been at night time. During my dream incubation recently I have been preforming with Boy Better Know. So I was standing on this field and I decided when I turn round there will be a place where Boy Better Know are preforming. I believed this and when I turned round there was indeed a nightclub. I was happy and decided to walk straight through the doors. But it wasn't letting me. It kinda turned into 3rd person however I couldn't see my body and every time I tried to walk through, it flashed black like a scene transition in a game/movie. It wasn't letting me through and I started losing lucidity. So I started spinning and I then it just faded. This dream was not a very vivid one, it was quite hazy.


Dream 2 (Non Lucid)

I can't remember this much. I remembered it fully in the morning though. I was at an airport toilet and I was scared of flying. I then remember going down steps and there was a women who was dressed as Kanye West and was pretending to be a wax model. I had a photo with this Kanye and I pulled this silly pose which was smiling stupid and pointing up at Kanye.

Last night I had my first Lucid Dream. It was very short but in the end worth it. What happened was I was being chased or hunted by some killer and I was cornered. Just like a nightmare I was very scared. For some reason I told myself "wait I'm dreaming" then I took off on a jet pack and flew in the sky away leaving the killer in despair. Yes it was very short, but that is what happened. The end.

In my first dream I recalled last night, I was in Kokiri Forest with Saria (from Ocarina of Time). We were in a treehouse, looking for a cat toy for some reason. The cat toy we were looking for was one of the ones that's just a little ball with a bell inside. We found three of them.

In the next dream, my friend Lizz and I came across a small, deserted island. We ordered pizza, and, surprisingly, they actually delivered pizza to that island. We drew pictures of Pokemon, which became animated, like they were going to come to life or something. We eventually left the island and went back to my church, entering in the back door, which goes to the gym. A bunch of the kids from church were following us in, and I had to tell them to be quiet so they didn't wake anyone up, since it was past midnight.

I had another dream last night. I was outside. There was a girl pretending to be a cat, so I joined her.