Morning of November 27, 2019. Wednesday. Dream #: 19,336-02. Reading time (optimized): 1 min. In this dream, Zsuzsanna and I are living in the Cubitis house (a one-floor single-family home) in Florida, though the layout is different. There is a storm approaching from the west. When I look outside, I see it is night. A few equidistant rows of tornadoes are coming down on the other side of the highway, directly above the orange grove. Nothing happens, as they disappear before reaching the front yard. I go around the side of the house that now features the south side of the Loomis Street house (a two-storey residence for two families) in Wisconsin (which is facing north, the opposite direction it should be by compass direction in respect to its integration with the Cubitis house in this new amalgam). People I do not know are living here. I tell them how the tornadoes disappeared after crossing to our side of the highway. Later, I am standing in the front yard, looking up. The entire sky looks like a giant motherboard, though there are pairs of what look like satellite dishes and observatories (directed downward). I am puzzled and start to think about how people could have made something so big and so high, and I have a vague wariness about its architectural stability, though I am mostly unconcerned. The Cubitis house now seems like a skyscraper (holding up part of the motherboard sky) and where an orange grove should be is another high building holding it up on the other side, though most of it is expansive.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening Visiting a cathedral in Spain. A catholic nun takes me on a tour and shows me a secret chapel behind a rock wall. She opens this rock and shows me the little chapel. She says a miracle makes appear Jesus Christ's image on this rock sometimes. I look at it and I see it, but it doesn't stay still, it changes into a woman, then a baby, then at very high speed, I see like the whole evolution of life on Earth, all animals and all plants species morphing from one into another. I tell it to the nun and she says I must be hallucinating.
Jamie dreams. Kept having a handful of dreams with Jamie in it. In them she kept meeting me at a motel or something. She had a very serious tone with me. Not sure what about wether it was something she was mad about me doing or she wanted to get serious? Not sure. In one of the dreams I saw a flash of words, "Message me,". Hmm, Let's see I was really stressed out messaging her in the first place and then the long weeks of waiting and not hearing from her were kind of rough... So that kind of kills the motivation for me. Is She does really read these I would like to hear from her. 100% chance I would respond back. V another dream about V from work. don't remember much just she was hanging around and smiling a lot. Video games. Was playing fortnite with a controller that was big and clunky. I opened some mail with a new controller but it was the wrong kind. Fast forward to playing the game. A girl was playing with me. It either was Asuka or Jamie. Anyway she handed me her controller and it went very smoothly. The games BTW. The TV screen would project out at you in 3D, like VR, and I would transition from holding the controller to actually being a character in the game. Plane I was hanging with some girl I seemed to know but have never seen her IRL. We were planning a trip to Texas or something. And I was saying how the air pressure in the plane was going to wreck our ears.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening I'm an exchange student at some foreign country. I am walking the street at night and have an encounter with a tiger. I somehow escape him and warn everybody else, specially the college students nearby. I become sort of a hero and the Prime Minister of the country comes on an official visit to thank me. He makes some joke I don't find funny and he feels embarrassed publicly. I feel tired of all the circus and I go hide in the toilet, but I encounter Kevin Spacey naked and apparently under the effect of drugs, wandering into the restrooms to. He doesn't even notice me and I use the opportunity to get out of there.
I had a very short lucid dream this morning of my car producing a lot of smoke and eventually my engine caught on fire. I recognized I was dreaming and stuck my right hand out of telekinetically put the fire out. Telekinetically meaning I used strong expectation and belief to make the fire die down. I also tried to summon a dream character but no dice. It may be because I don't have an expectation of 'how' said dream character is to come into being. Out of thin air? Out of a portal? Descend from the clouds? I should probably focus more on stability instead of trying to jump straight into dream control. Mild works for me now because the efficacy of the technique has dawned on me. It's the prospective memory that yields the lucid dream. Not the mantra or visualization. The latter two is to solidify the memory. Furthermore, WBTB is critical to success in lucid dreaming so much so that to attempt to lucid dream at any other point in the night is a waste of time. After being awake during WBTB, I lay back down in bed and make a firm intention to remember to lucid dream. That's the shift; to focus on prospective memory and not lucid dreaming. If memory and intention is strong, the lucid dream will just happen.
As I continue laying in my bed beginning to lose the feeling of my body. I all of a sudden get suck in to a dream scene. It was night I could feel myself grounded now and ask myself did it work. I look at my hands and look up at the sky and said yes I'm here. There a was guy getting in to a light tan car. It was nighttime, the sky had a blemish northern light appeal to it with some random orange to it. I thought it look very beautiful. I began walking on the side walk and remember to try to stay stabilize in the dream. I began rubbing my hands together and focus on the idea that I was indeed dreaming. As I continue to walk I did feel a little nervous just knowing I was in a dream which is uncommon for me. I then not too long after felt someone tap my shoulder as I walk. I turn around to see who it was but it was no one there. I then attempted to continue walking but all of a sudden the shorts I was wearing got pulled down with some force. I tried to get it back up but instead something started pulling my entire leg down and made me hit face first to the road. This made me panic a little as I tried to stay in control of my awareness. The force was pulling me inside to the road and when I completely went through it I lost my awareness. I found myself waking up on my bed and assume I had truly woke up and didn't bother doing an RC. This was my mistake as it was truly a false awakening.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening Chip Franklin is on tour and I go with some friends to see one of his shows. It is a disaster, very short, very boring and I fall asleep. I am so disappointed that I try to meet him at the end of the show to have an honest conversation with him. My uncles come to my house, which is not my actual house but some kind of barn, and they start checking my drawers, apparently looking for something. They find some of my documents, bank extracts, bills, they basically learn how much money I got and I spend. I am beyond furious for their indiscretion. They pretend they didn't see a thing, but have this look on their faces like now they know something they'll use against me.
My sister was dying from cancer. I was crying on the couch. My mom was back from the dead comforting me.
Not much to write here. The end of the dream was pretty much all I remember. I was inside an arena, which I have previously dreamed about. There’s a DC outside and he tells me you’re not ready to master the dragon yet. A feeling came upon that in which I knew I had previously mastered this. I’m unsure how but the feeling was just there. I am now looking at myself in the mirror, expecting for some facial features to change to something dragon related. I’m unsuccessful because when I’m nervous, I twitch and by twitching I lost my goal. Woke up, was an NLD. It was fun, weird, and I’m sad I didn’t get the results I wanted.
Morning of November 23, 2019. Saturday. Dream #: 19,332-03. Optimized 1 minute read. I maintain my metacognitive awareness of sleeping and dreaming. My dream self holds the awareness of being in bed at our present address with my memory of my current waking life. However, the details of my environment are incorrect (to prevent associating my dream with real life). I am on my back (though in reality, only my head is upward as I am otherwise sleeping more on my left side). Zsuzsanna is in our kitchen. I see blue sky through our roof. Our landlord had removed a small square section from it (which would not be possible as a few large sheets of metal serve as our sloped roof that also has a ceiling under it). I catch a glimpse of his face, but he does not regard me. I do not perceive it as an intrusion. After a short time, the area is as it was. Variations of this “looking in” narrative have occurred in all sleep cycles since childhood, though it occurs more often with the personification of potential wakefulness associated with a window or a door. I honestly cannot believe some people think this type of content has to have a waking-life “interpretation” each time. I typically perceive this personification of anticipated wakefulness as more intrusive in my final dreaming experience of a sleep cycle. My metacognitive awareness of my need to eventually wake is most predominant at this time. For people (such as so-called “dream experts”) who cannot comprehend such a self-evident process, I have no words.
Had lucid dream today through treating my mind like a virtual reality helmet. I recognized I was dreaming when the dream just loaded around me. It was short though. I was in my elementary school. More testing to do.
Africa Trip, I love you soup. Magical. Went to a trip to Africa, trouble recalling. I remember having a soup at the campsite by the fire pit in the morning. I think I said I love you to the soup since it was so good. There was some magical event, I forget what. Something about voodoo. Anastasia I was somewhere up the mountains of what appeared to be the old soviet union. Mountains, or somewhere deep into the woods, away from civilization mostly. I saw Anastasia there, she came from the woods and we planned for a better life. Went to some sporting dome into the city, I recall recruiting people. The farm area that we set up were getting transformed now. We decided to form a contract from people from the states or something to create a pharmaceutical research center. Our income was like tripled now, but soon we were super taxed and our income was back to same. Someone was mad, Anastasia or me or another person, or maybe all of us. Juice lion Saw nlion offering me juice or something, he then went back on his computer then played some games. Notes: Felt like giving up honestly. Don't know. Trying really hard at it but don't know. Felt like I wasn't sure why I was trying so hard at something that showed so little result. Felt like an idiot. Felt bad. Cried a little, felt better. Went outside into the cold, did wim hof, felt better- felt lucid just then. I''ll still do my best though. Maybe until the end of the month, maybe it'll work. Maybe oughta give up, or just take a break. But all those don't knows and thoughts about giving up are just excuses probably. I'm trying too hard probably. Gonna take it easy. Screw it, I'm just gonna have fun.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening The world is on fire. But I am part of a group who has knowledge of a way out. We are preparing to leave through some sort of a secret tunnel to another world. On the day I am going to cross it, I have to go through a mob of desperate people on the streets, but despite difficulties, I make it to the designated place. There is some sort of magic involved so we need to close the "door" behind us before other people notice it and also use it. I don't feel bad for leaving them behind, I feel relieved. (don't judge me ) At my farm. A storm is coming and my dad is with me but doesn't want to help me shut the doors and windows. A big cloud seems to be sucking air and debris and another one in an opposite direction, seems to be pouring it down. There are also many tornadoes forming. I see my dogs Maya and Tara outside and bring them to the kitchen. Don't know where the others are. Lightnings start small fires. I go outside and follow the trail of fires and put them out. I end up walking a long way, until I reach a beautiful village by the sea. I cross the village downtown and notice I am being followed by a chinese dude who seems familiar (has followed me before). I try to lose him by entering a labyrinth of streets where a market spreads out. Then I feel strangely sick with strong vertigo and feeling my consciousness fading. At this point it gets scary because I actually feel like this is happening to me in real life as I lay in bed and I fear I might be having some kind of collapse and not wake up. (but I do) It's been raining and a new waterfall formed in the hill in front of my house. It is beautiful and I take a photo to send to Riverstone. I go outside and as I get closer, I see people bathing in it and lounging in chairs and basically enjoying it as if they are at the beach. I am picking wood for my fireplace from a storage in my terrace. It is night but some village kids are passing by the road outside and they take a peak over the wall to see who's there. One of them asks to use the toilet but I feel he just wants to snoop around. I say no, but then notice voices of people inside my house and wonder if they tricked me to get through the front door as I was distracted. Someone did enter, but it is my uncles along with some distant relatives I don't even know. They somehow assumed they could come in. I explain it is my house and that I'd like that they called first asking if they could come. But they couldn't care less, they seem to have an agenda. More people start coming in and taking tables outside, rearranging everything in my house. I am told it is for a party or a wedding. Some of the family members are choosing rooms to sleep in. My house is 10 times bigger than in reality and so they all find some room to stay. I go around yelling at them, asking them to leave, but some of these people don't even know who I am and don't even care. They were told it was fine to invade my house. I then focus on keeping the doors and windows shut because of the cats, which I can't find any and I am losing it. Coming from walking Hachi and there is a bike race passing in front of my house. But Hachi is cool as a cucumber. At some place like school and I am hungry. In cafeteria there is a group of people arranging the place for an event or maybe lunch later. But there is a table full of peeled bananas anybody can have if they want. I take one but its so mushy I throw it away and go get a second. A nice guy comments about the bananas while also eating one. Meet my school crush Marco and a common friend and I am not sure if he recognizes me, doesn't show signs of it. We need to spend the afternoon together because of some project. I am working on the computer, they are working on something else. Later on, we sit together at a couch talking and Marco touches my hand very softly and discreetly and I realize he did recognize me. Then some people from their families comes in and I notice some angry looks in our direction. They noticed the hands touching fondly and apparently he is married now. There is a little girl about 2 years old that comes straight at me and she is adorably articulate, shows me something and then sings a song. I think she is his daughter. I feel embarrassed that she sings way better than me. I go to my friend's restaurant to get some free food. In exchange I offer to help him with the dishes, if he needed, so he puts me doing stupid tasks instead, like diluting the bottled ketchup with water. He says it's because they are getting dry, not to fool customers, but I am not sure. Then he makes do some other absurd tasks and I am like "I have had it! This guy always takes advantage of my kindness"[/COLOR]
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Morning of November 21, 2019. Thursday. Dream #: 19,330-02. Reading time (optimized): 2 min. In coming out of slow-wave sleep into REM sleep, cortical arousal is slower (the weather getting hotter), so an Indonesian man (with a barely discernible ghostlike companion) in a small cage on wheels in a desert setting is the result, defining how the mind-body connection and the freedom of physical movement is absent during sleep. My instinctual self, no longer ghostlike, develops into a separate character on a concrete path near an unknown building. I think I might be in Africa or India. Gradually, despite not recalling much of my waking-life identity, I become vaguely aware I am in Australia. However, the presence of mines makes this a questionable factor, as the idea of a minefield in Australia seems unlikely. (This incidental association is a distortion of Zsuzsanna and I watching “China Gate” from 1957.) Another Indonesian male as a result of emerging but divided preconscious dynamics appears. I assume I may be in Indonesia, though this remains uncertain. Despite the neurological authority of the preconscious simulacrum, I do what I want for the most part. I free the first man from his cage, increasing my imaginary proprioception. I then mentally erase all the mines so we can go where we want. There are other unknown males. Most of them are without homes. I decide I should make houses for them. Cognitive arousal initiates, though it remains incidental, despite it integrating with the usual wall mediation, and I tell them they can call me on an emergency number if they need to. I write it near the left side of a doorway at chest level. In reality, it is not a telephone number, but from an American address from many years ago. This typical dream state cognitive error stems from it being similar to the real-life emergency number of 911 in America, though in Australia it is 000. My dream self maintains instinctual threads up until near the end of my dream, with neither lucidity nor my waking-life identity ever being a factor. I mentally cause houses to emerge from the desert. The walls rise from the ground on each side into a vertical position (an obvious analogy to waking and standing), though I do not recall how the roof and other details manifest other than by appearing out of nowhere. The men I am helping soon become miners. Subliminal acceptance of my status of being asleep comes to the forefront again. The men are sleeping outside near a fence. (It is wall mediation again, though with slow vestibular correlation rather than cognitive as in the earlier event where I wrote the number). The preconscious personification is still present but passive as I talk to him about the men. It seems they had been at a party the night before and drank too much alcohol. One man is especially out of it and drank more than the others. At this point, I slowly wake. The last scene represents melatonin mediation. It is disrupted in hot weather and is associated with a need for more.
Crabs I was in a bedroom in a high rise. I looked under and ther was a crab on the floor. I got pretty startled so tried to stomp it but it went under the bed. There was some water flooding going on. Was it really a bedroom? There were tiles on the floor. I see the crab again and stomp on it. Some little crabs come and pick up the big crab and walk away. Beard Freeze! Escaping from some evil forces. I forget the intiial parts. It was some sort of hidheout that looked like a small house. Some kind of crystal ball to foresee the enemy coming. I feel like it's the continuation of a previous dream from another day. Escape to kind of a small community housing, town house or something. There were residents there and I had to convince them to escape from here. Gathered them up in some part of foresty area and asked fora volunteer. They didn't really believe me to I used my freezing power to freeze one person then unfreeze them to show that it was serious. *Area is familiar. Have trouble recalling. Went somewhere. I teleported. Inside of a building. Engaged some people. pt 2 I think it's part 2 of the previous dream. I was inside a flooded cave or something similar. Maybe not a cave. Just some kind of rocky stuff around the area, with water at my feet. So it's like an end of a river, maybe a pond or a lake but not that deep. Just maybe half the knee deep waters. I remember seeing a mage there. He was like sort of buff so he was a battle mage and I used some sort of magic as well. Illusion magic? something like that and I distracted him with that. Geography Was doing like geography homework or something. There were some calculatiosn that were giving me trouble. I remember my dad coming into the room, telling me that I was doing ok. Library Wig girl I think it's connected to the last dream. Went to a library to study or something. Maybe it's because I couldn't finish the geography homework from the last dream. Went into an elevator. Went downstairs. Found friend, Hawaii and his companion there. Gave them sample of my luxury clothing line shirts that I had in this dream and gave it to them. Heard quiet comments about how shitty they were as I left XD Came back up, but came out on the floor right under where my stuff were. There was some sort of a girl there. She had a very interesting personality and was mad, or something. She said "Do you know who I am?." Didn't really. She attacked me or something. So I took out the gum in my mouth and put them into her hair. They got tangled and she took off her wig. Her hair was fake. So I left but she followed me. Went up the spirally stairs up and she threatened to hurt the baby that I had with me for some reason. I just left her alone, somehow escaping her gaze. Went into the elevator. There was a teacher or library there, and me and couple of the girls around me in the elevator told her that there was a crazy person on the floor 15, she went to deal with her. Kept going down the elevator. A woman to the right beside the buttons winked at me. She was trying to... I didn't do anything though. Kept going down. A sunburned girl this time winked at me in a similar manner. Notes:
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